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I Want to Be Innocent Again

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    I Try To Tell Myself Hes Not A Stranger. I Feel Disguisting And Guilty.

    Over the past two years Ive just been acting in a way that I usually would not have. I feel disgusted with myself, ashamed, stupid, and guilty and I just want it all to go away. I have made some steps to be better. but still nothing will make me feel like I am back to being a...
    LostandAlone856 LostandAlone856 18-21 2 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    Something No Child Should Go Through

    this is really difficult to write down but i need to talk about it. my elder brother had a friend, who was my friend as well. we used to mess around and do what all kids do. he was kind to me, paid attention to me and made sure i was never left out, which was something my brother...
    theghostwriter16 theghostwriter16 16-17 1 Response Nov 7, 2012

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    How to Be Innocent Again

    Losing someone you love has a huge impact on how you view the world. When the one I love died, I felt and feel like I can never experience certain feelings again. I am openly wondering if I will ever have that sense of unexpected longing. Will I ever feel like I am with the right...
    AwakeWithMe AwakeWithMe 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 9, 2007

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    John 8:11

    ... "No one, sir," she said. "Then neither do I condemn you,"Jesus declared. "Go now and leave your life of sin."Of course I like to modify the above by suggesting it's not just about sin but about starting over, for whatever reason. The bad experiences tend to validate the...
    JohnInKansas JohnInKansas 70+, M Aug 27, 2013

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    Swim

    I feel stark and unaware, the period of openness has allowed others to swim to the surface. How well do we know ourselves? What insight lurks just beneath the surface, is it scary to face it, or worse not to. I choose to live the examined life, and for that I pay the price of...
    AwakeWithMe AwakeWithMe 26-30, F Oct 23, 2007

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    Being Here Is Good Start

    it's just a note and i'll tell my stories later.. being in this group means we all are not innocent any more..
    hanbassi hanbassi 31-35, M Nov 7, 2012

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    If You Want to Be Innocent Read This

    Have you ever wondered why there is evil in the world? Have you ever wondered why this can not be a beautiful place? A place of innocence?... -Innocence like a child's innocence? No...... a real innocence.   http://the-end-of-evil.blogspot.com/   Read this...
    tomaspatron tomaspatron 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 18, 2009

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    I Have Something To Say.

    There is a saying that you can not be innocent again. When you did something wrong, that's it. And it makes me upset about this. Because I don't really like doing the wrong thing. Since I've done wrong things, I have attempted to kill myself so I can have my life start all over...
    Davidrock Davidrock 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 1, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    So my husband recently opened up to me about wanting to watch me be pleased by another man. At first I couldn't believe he was asking me this. I felt like he didn't love me of he...
    KuriousKatttt KuriousKatttt 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 12

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    (2)... We had been meeting for months and although we would have a fantastic time together I often felt brushed off and forgotten until he wanted me again. I suspected there was...
    1a2l3j 1a2l3j 46-50, F Sep 14

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    He waits each night for her to want him again.
    Tonycamaro Tonycamaro 41-45, M 1 day ago

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    I wrote this when i was 16, I'm 18 now and still want to die. One day someone will read this note, someday this note will mean something. Right now I am 16 and full of un...
    EmoNekoNiki EmoNekoNiki 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    It makes me really sad to see people interpreting human suffering and especially this suffering which stems from violent acts (sexual abuse, abuse, inflicting harm on someone else...
    PhuckEverything PhuckEverything 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 2

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    "Foolish Heart" I need a love that grows I don't want it unless I know But with each passin hour Someone, somehow Will be there, ready to share I need a love that's strong I'm so...
    afoolishheart afoolishheart 46-50, F 6 hrs ago

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    I know I should have left, but I couldn't. I'm going through hell. My kids are important, but I can't even function now. I stayed against everyone's advice, but it's really hard to...
    ihatethisplanet ihatethisplanet 46-50, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    He told her it was the Milky Way. Then, from nowhere, a star shot through the dark as if it had been hurled, and then snapped out of sight. ‘Did you see that?’ He grabbed her...
    xxRoom101xx xxRoom101xx 41-45, M 4 Responses Aug 31

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    It's funny how looking through old photos can really put your life into perspective....how clearly you can see your life in chapters. I'm in a weird chapter of my life right now...
    SupernovaxGirl SupernovaxGirl 26-30 2 Responses Sep 2

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    I fall in love once in my life and it is so hard for me to try again, because I don't want the feeling of being rejected, but now that I want to risk even if it means that I could...
    myleslus myleslus 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    She's the only one I truly love :'( I don't care how young I am. I don't care what I have yet to experience :'( it won't matter :'( I am not attracted to girls anymore :'( they're...
    ywilliam31 ywilliam31 16-17, M Aug 30

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    Days had come and Gone and all that I've dreamt about was to travel the world and figure myself out... who I am, what I like, my interest, strengths and weaknesses. And to simply...
    Luseeyah Luseeyah 18-21, F 12 hrs ago

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    I'm often called "the most innocent" out of the group. This is because I have high morals at school and don't swear often and I behave. If u looked at my profile you would know, I...
    minimuscle minimuscle 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    If you have ever read any of my other stories you'll know I've been single for a long time. It was innocent when it began. I was drawn to his picture on the wall and told him I'd...
    1a2l3j 1a2l3j 46-50, F Sep 14

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    I give that nice, sweet girl impression but if you really get to know me you know that I have that little bad side. I'm not horrible, just a little bit less then innocent. An ex...
    ThisIsMe83 ThisIsMe83 31-35, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    heart broken. played again by that guy i liked him more than anything else and now he is asking me to help him to find out if his new boyfriend is honest. wow really he didnt care...
    puppySmexyBoy puppySmexyBoy 16-17, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    Abortion is a cheap way out. Why not have the baby and then give it up for adoption doesn't the fetus have a choice that lies in the reckless mothers hands. I can see if she was...
    cittykatluv cittykatluv 18-21, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    The SBP is shaping up! Now coming up two months since my sessions started with AJ. Mondays have continued, and no doubt about it, my enthusiasm has wavered. AJ often tells me I...
    ManUp56 ManUp56 26-30, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    At school I know everyone sees me like the good innocent harmless girl. I thought I was that girl as well. I thought I had to be that girl, you know, just like the others from my...
    Claire212 Claire212 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 31

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    So a while back i went out to eat with a couple of friends i hadnt seen in about a year. And we started talking...anyways as soon as i shares a few expirences they looked at me and...
    Rosatt Rosatt 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 31

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    Whoever thinks it's ok to hurt innocent animals needs to put their soul back in the body. It's sickening to see people treat things that have kept us warm at night and have been...
    dambookworm17 dambookworm17 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 31

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    More and more talk about bullying is spreading. Weather it be cyber bullying or just your average run of the miller in-your-face teasing and torture it's out there and it's very...
    MNI1982 MNI1982 26-30, F Sep 10

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    Just when you thought the Dark Ages and the Inquisition were over, Christian "Witch"-hunting in Africa today.Video footage of mob violence in Western Africa. A group of people...
    innosflew innosflew 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 11

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    UHG. I hate it but I just can't help it! Call it hormones or whatever! My friend just broke up with her Bf but I was kinda jelly of them while they where dating. They where around...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 10

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    I have been researching articles on how to uncover lost memories. I wanted, needed to know exactly what happened to me. I thought that was everything. It was enough to convince me...
    CleverSiri CleverSiri 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 14

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    I have stated before that the MB is different from ISIS, but I guess I was WRONG.All these terrorist organisations are connected and need to be fought, the MB and any person...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    It was like a stab to my heart when I saw Mark and the new girl together. No, not one but multiple stabs to my heart. Each stab brought pain and agony. I cringe and try to suck it...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Before anyone adds me to your circle it's better if you understand me. I'm very simple and caring but my experiences are there for a reason. I have depression and anxiety along...
    MysticallyForbidden MysticallyForbidden 18-21, F Aug 26

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    Actions.We act in many ways. Sometimes it is triggered by an impulse, sometimes we are conditioned to act in a certain way and sometimes we put thought and pre-mediate on it...
    angelicsmiles angelicsmiles 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 9

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    In memory of all the innocent lives lost on the tragic day of September 11th. May the victims including their spouses, siblings, parents, children, etc. forever be in our hearts...
    drunkinlove23 drunkinlove23 18-21, F Sep 11

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    If I can , I would like to rewind all my childhood, all those precious memories where we are all so innocent, no worry and just be ourselves. The time where we don't feel sadness...
    Saradomin Saradomin 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I read something sad today from a friend who is now in a similar situation as i was this time last year and my heart goes out to her. As it was a time when i myself felt so very...
    lilreddress lilreddress 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    Hello, gods and goddesses..... I have struggled with bulimia for over 6 years: daily binging and purging, alcohol abuse, stealing, anxiety, and depression. Before that, it was a...
    ElementYogi ElementYogi 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Hey paps, I'd like to say this to you. You have been dead for 6 months now, and I really miss you, in 1 and a half months I'll visit you to your grave and say happy 51st birthday...
    1993george 1993george 18-21, M 5 hrs ago

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    Just something I wanted to share It was a day like no other. Who would have I would be getting a call at 10:20 in the morning on august 16. Its my brother in law and im wondering...
    JoAnnE25 JoAnnE25 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 8

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    There is no want? You either are or your not happy?You and you alone decide this state of mind or existence.The aging process has brought me to this very simple realization.It's...
    bignatbreastluver bignatbreastluver 46-50, M 2 Responses Aug 24

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    It's been almost eight years since i've fallen in love. My first and I'm afraid it would be the last. Four years since I had that relationship with her. We almost lasted a year but...
    xenna2 xenna2 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 26

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    I'm going to give it to you straight. I am an artist. I've had talent since I was little, but only now am I starting to gain skill and I've found that this is something I want to...
    HeadDownLow HeadDownLow 13-15, M Aug 30

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    So I have an older sister that moved to the other side of the country a few years ago.. She's a year older than me and it's because our family decided to split up. She lives with...
    ravenzewolf ravenzewolf 13-15, F Sep 8

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    Is it wrong to want someone to want me? But everyone strays away, everyone is temporary. Not good enough I guess.
    DreamofKatt DreamofKatt 22-25, F 3 Responses 12 hrs ago