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I Want to Be Settled and Yet I Want to Run

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    Confliction Of My Mind. An Everlasting.

    I want to run run run, until I can't anymore. See places i've never seen. Be a different me. Be somewhere else. Do different things. I see my glass as empty and desperately want to fill it. I want to change lives, make smiles, breath air. Climb a mountain somewhere. get out of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 5, 2012

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    Confused

    I'm young... I know that I am. Yet, I can't help fighting off this feeling that I should be settling down.  I suppose because all my friends are doing this.  None of them really seem happy though... but maybe it's because my parents met 15.  Then again...
    wishing2travel wishing2travel 18-21, F Apr 19, 2009

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    I Feel Like This

    I want to run, I want to get away and I listen to music that would be a great soundtrack for doing that but but then sometimes I would just like a hug and a home, a family, a rest
    jamesdean4ever jamesdean4ever 18-21, M Nov 14, 2011

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    Confused

    I'm young... I know that I am. Yet, I can't help fighting off this feeling that I should be settling down.  I suppose because all my friends are doing this.  None of them really seem happy though... but maybe it's because my parents met 15.  Then again...
    wishing2travel wishing2travel 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 19, 2009

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    I Often Feel Like I Have Split Personalities.

    There is this one side of me that has always been the more prominent.  She is maternal, calm, way ahead of her years, ready to settle down, sweet, loving, cheerful, cautious, anxious, posesses all the moral values and religious. Then there is the other, she is...
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin 22-25, F Jun 10, 2009

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    Wow

    This is exactly how I feel I didn't know there was a group for it! Yay!
    angeldelinkwent angeldelinkwent 22-25, F Oct 21, 2009

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    But You Can't Run Away From Yourself

    I am as settled as i can be but in my mind i want to run and keep running, but in the words of bob marley you cant run away from yourself!.
    thehippy thehippy 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2009

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    I Want To Settle

    I want to settle,Yet, at the same time,Want to run,What's goin' on,I don't know,Only wish I did.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Mar 14, 2012

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    Conflicting Ideas

    There is a big part of me that wants to wander, to get lost in the world. But there is another side that wants to settle down and live the 'white picket fence' dream. I guess I need to find a balance between the two, but I do yearn to wander, at least some of the time...
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 13, 2013

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    Yea, But I Can Have Both - I Think.

    Time will tell - June is coming and then I will be free to be me.  
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 20, 2009

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    It's Just Like the Two Mes

      I have covered this emotion somewhat in another story about Gypsy blood but I must admit that I also have this same problem *sighs*. I don't know if it is as Wishing2travel says about others within our age seeming to have settled down, if it might be...
    Dormantdrakon Dormantdrakon 22-25, F Apr 20, 2009

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    It is thought-provoking to me, to look back over my childhood and realize that all I ever wanted was to run away. Don't misunderstand; I did not have a bad childhood, as they go...
    disastercupcake disastercupcake 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 12

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    Sometimes life sucks. And theres nothing you can do. Or is there? I want to just run away and live in the woods. I am a boy scout, and can survive on my own in there. Any...
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    Absolutely I want too.Yet I'd like so much more.To kiss them with my two soft lips. To feel them with my finger tips.To lick them up and lick them down.To enjoy them like two great...
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    I just want to leave. I want to be free to do my own thing. I really prefer to be a loner, and that is why I keep looking forward to the day when I can run out of this place I don...
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    Sometimes I just gaze into the mirror, staring back at my reflection. As I look into my eyes all I can see is hurt and pain, misery caused by myself and to myself, as if the life...
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    I’m Gay!.................Wow, okay that was easy. If only coming out were really easy. I wonder how straight people come out. Oh wait, they are just born that way. So are the...
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    I'm graduating from university soon and the thought alone makes me think: am I doing what I love to do? The answer was a obvious no. I can think back to about 6 years ago when I...
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    I mean who wants to be alone forever ..but i just love the whole 'i was looking for some special things and i found them in you,but fast forward 10 years and hes just a guy on the...
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    Your cruel device, Your blood like ice. One look could kill, My pain, your thrill. I wanna love you, but I better not touch I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop I...
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    Yeah the world today is all about people furthering their own agendas. Makes me want to get off grid. Reconnect with what is real. Get away from all the human bullshit our species...
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    I'll give it a try. I tried before and failed. 😂 1. I dont like my first name 2. I love cats 3. I love music 4. I used to read like a maniac but I've since lost interest 5. I...
    MissRage MissRage 18-21, F Feb 9

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    You read to become all knowledgeable But you never read yourself You read so many books to know it all, yet fail to ever read your heart at all. You run to enter temples and...
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    I am so lonely. I've always been lonely, but I don't think I've ever been as much as I am now. I love being alone, but it's because I can't be left alone that it makes me feel...
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    I had first met George at a Christmas party in 2012. It was a movie like meeting, our eyes met each other's across a crowded room -that sort if thing. I fell foolishly in love with...
    Marinabutch Marinabutch 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    I want to be married for emotional support. But I feel now is not a good time as I am pregnant with a daughter (who was not necessarily my choice but whom I love regardless). I...
    modestmuslimah modestmuslimah 18-21, F Feb 4

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    I won't do it, but I want to give up frequently. Early on, life was pretty miserable. Abuse at home, lead me to be very nervous and untrusting. I've settled now into a...
    twistedAndJaded twistedAndJaded 41-45, M Feb 8

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    I am a Midwest guy in NYC and I am extremely turned on my black women i find them very sexy i love their features and its allot of fun to make them smile as much as I can. I have...
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    Frenchgal11 Frenchgal11 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 4

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    I am a friendly and decent Indian gay man living in Bangalore, India. I am 30 years old and well settled in life, with a good IT job and all the comforts in life. I am quite...
    homosapien84 homosapien84 26-30, M Feb 8

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    So yea, I'll meet my boyfriend at 3:30pm at our rendezvous point in my best outfit possible, I'm going a little more daring here, baring out my waist area and legs, I'm trying to...
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    I tried to calm myself on the busride home, as the tube down my throat continued to make even small movements uncomfortable. “You're going to park yourself in front of the...
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