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I Want to Be Settled and Yet I Want to Run

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    I Often Feel Like I Have Split Personalities.

    There is this one side of me that has always been the more prominent.  She is maternal, calm, way ahead of her years, ready to settle down, sweet, loving, cheerful, cautious, anxious, posesses all the moral values and religious. Then there is the other, she is...
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin 22-25, F Jun 10, 2009

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    I Feel Like This

    I want to run, I want to get away and I listen to music that would be a great soundtrack for doing that but but then sometimes I would just like a hug and a home, a family, a rest
    jamesdean4ever jamesdean4ever 18-21, M Nov 14, 2011

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    But You Can't Run Away From Yourself

    I am as settled as i can be but in my mind i want to run and keep running, but in the words of bob marley you cant run away from yourself!.
    thehippy thehippy 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2009

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    Confused

    I'm young... I know that I am. Yet, I can't help fighting off this feeling that I should be settling down.  I suppose because all my friends are doing this.  None of them really seem happy though... but maybe it's because my parents met 15.  Then again...
    wishing2travel wishing2travel 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 19, 2009

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    Conflicting Ideas

    There is a big part of me that wants to wander, to get lost in the world. But there is another side that wants to settle down and live the 'white picket fence' dream. I guess I need to find a balance between the two, but I do yearn to wander, at least some of the time...
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 13, 2013

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    Confliction Of My Mind. An Everlasting.

    I want to run run run, until I can't anymore. See places i've never seen. Be a different me. Be somewhere else. Do different things. I see my glass as empty and desperately want to fill it. I want to change lives, make smiles, breath air. Climb a mountain somewhere. get out of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 5, 2012

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    Yea, But I Can Have Both - I Think.

    Time will tell - June is coming and then I will be free to be me.  
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 20, 2009

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    Wow

    This is exactly how I feel I didn't know there was a group for it! Yay!
    angeldelinkwent angeldelinkwent 26-30, F Oct 21, 2009

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    It's Just Like the Two Mes

      I have covered this emotion somewhat in another story about Gypsy blood but I must admit that I also have this same problem *sighs*. I don't know if it is as Wishing2travel says about others within our age seeming to have settled down, if it might be...
    Dormantdrakon Dormantdrakon 22-25, F Apr 20, 2009

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    I Want To Settle

    I want to settle,Yet, at the same time,Want to run,What's goin' on,I don't know,Only wish I did.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Mar 14, 2012

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    Confused

    I'm young... I know that I am. Yet, I can't help fighting off this feeling that I should be settling down.  I suppose because all my friends are doing this.  None of them really seem happy though... but maybe it's because my parents met 15.  Then again...
    wishing2travel wishing2travel 18-21, F Apr 19, 2009

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