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I Want to Be Settled and Yet I Want to Run

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    Wow

    This is exactly how I feel I didn't know there was a group for it! Yay!
    angeldelinkwent angeldelinkwent 22-25, F Oct 21, 2009

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    I Want To Settle

    I want to settle,Yet, at the same time,Want to run,What's goin' on,I don't know,Only wish I did.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Mar 14, 2012

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    I Often Feel Like I Have Split Personalities.

    There is this one side of me that has always been the more prominent.  She is maternal, calm, way ahead of her years, ready to settle down, sweet, loving, cheerful, cautious, anxious, posesses all the moral values and religious. Then there is the other, she is...
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin 22-25, F Jun 10, 2009

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    Yea, But I Can Have Both - I Think.

    Time will tell - June is coming and then I will be free to be me.  
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 20, 2009

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    Conflicting Ideas

    There is a big part of me that wants to wander, to get lost in the world. But there is another side that wants to settle down and live the 'white picket fence' dream. I guess I need to find a balance between the two, but I do yearn to wander, at least some of the time...
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 13, 2013

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    I Feel Like This

    I want to run, I want to get away and I listen to music that would be a great soundtrack for doing that but but then sometimes I would just like a hug and a home, a family, a rest
    jamesdean4ever jamesdean4ever 18-21, M Nov 14, 2011

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    It's Just Like the Two Mes

      I have covered this emotion somewhat in another story about Gypsy blood but I must admit that I also have this same problem *sighs*. I don't know if it is as Wishing2travel says about others within our age seeming to have settled down, if it might be...
    Dormantdrakon Dormantdrakon 22-25, F Apr 20, 2009

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    Confliction Of My Mind. An Everlasting.

    I want to run run run, until I can't anymore. See places i've never seen. Be a different me. Be somewhere else. Do different things. I see my glass as empty and desperately want to fill it. I want to change lives, make smiles, breath air. Climb a mountain somewhere. get out of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 5, 2012

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    Confused

    I'm young... I know that I am. Yet, I can't help fighting off this feeling that I should be settling down.  I suppose because all my friends are doing this.  None of them really seem happy though... but maybe it's because my parents met 15.  Then again...
    wishing2travel wishing2travel 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 19, 2009

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    Confused

    I'm young... I know that I am. Yet, I can't help fighting off this feeling that I should be settling down.  I suppose because all my friends are doing this.  None of them really seem happy though... but maybe it's because my parents met 15.  Then again...
    wishing2travel wishing2travel 18-21, F Apr 19, 2009

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    But You Can't Run Away From Yourself

    I am as settled as i can be but in my mind i want to run and keep running, but in the words of bob marley you cant run away from yourself!.
    thehippy thehippy 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    I want to start running, but it feels so weird running by yourself. Anyone in here from the San Francisco Bay Area California seeking a running partner?
    BlaiddDrwg05 BlaiddDrwg05 41-45, M 6 Responses Dec 6

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    I want to feel better. I don't want these thoughts running through my head. I deserve so much better.
    misskc22 misskc22 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 16

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    I'm not sure if I want kids yet. I guess I'll cross that bridge when I come to it. If I ever had a son I'd name him Régis. I've fallen in love with that name because of a person...
    Fierrrrce Fierrrrce 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I want to chase you around The house like I used to do I want to tackle and play Wrestle with you too, I want to softly place My lips upon yours I want to curl up With you and...
    gauravkumar07 gauravkumar07 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Before my birth my Mom was told no heartbeat can be found ,your child has died and we need to remove the fetus ,,Mom said no ,,,I want my Mom and her friends to pray ,,they did...
    rckt148 rckt148 51-55, M 2 Responses Nov 29

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    I must admit that I have often thought of leaving it all behind and letting everything go I was lost and alone, as I always am, So many people around me, Yet no one seems to care...
    wiznerd14 wiznerd14 26-30, F 1 hr ago

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    Test-up Jewels was staring out the window wondering what answers await her when she gets back to the mansion. What is this new ability she seems to be developing. All this...
    darkwolf19 darkwolf19 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 12

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    Hey future love of mi life/ future spousal unit/ future boo thang, For staters, I haven't come up with a good pet name to call you by. But I'm sure I'll figure something out...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 17

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    I dont really know what is my personality. i somtimes feel iam honest, sometimes feel that iam the most bad person on earth. its been 24 years now i might me living more 30 year...
    heartless2 heartless2 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 13

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    I'm not saying I'm hugely together yet or ever will be, but - at 53 - and in many ways just this last few months, I'm so much stronger and lively, there's an energy surge running...
    percolatinglightly percolatinglightly 51-55, M 1 Response Dec 11

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    Following my last post, I have found something else that may help people understand, & even use the English language...
    bybybuster bybybuster 56-60, M 1 Response a week ago

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    It’s the question that’s been haunting me and that I’ve been avoiding, consciously or otherwise, for the past several years. Unfortunately, it doesn’t seem like I’ve...
    metaphylosopher metaphylosopher 22-25, M Dec 5

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    I was about 11 years old and was in the bathroom when my mother said to hurry up and that everybody was waiting. So I finished my duties in a hurry and went running outside to get...
    Helikvar Helikvar 51-55, M Dec 7

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    Its been 25 days since I started this experience, and 11 days since I passed out. I am not sure why it happened yet, having had some time to relax and think. Its possible that it...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 4 Responses Dec 10

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    I have been married to my wonderful, amazing husband for almost two years now and we have been together for 5. I love him with all my heart and divorce is not an option with us...
    cowinapartyhat cowinapartyhat 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    This is the story of the guy i waited for 10 years.... I was just 6 years old when we met, his mother and my mother we're best of friend a long time ago. When both of the family...
    Thiswillbethelast Thiswillbethelast 18-21, F 11 Responses Dec 8

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    I just want to finish college and move to the west coast ... There still so much I haven't seen yet
    marsdagreat marsdagreat 18-21, M Nov 27

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    Update: I feel much better, thanks to my mom and peanut butter-smothered rice cakes. In case you didn't catch the comment, basically I passed out in the kitchen right in front of...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 29

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    How do u expect me to grow up I love my family but sometimes I just wish u would let me make my own decisions without telling me what to do all u guys do is boss me around and tell...
    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    I want to continue to be a member of EP. It is hard for me to let myself be open to new experiences yet be safe. I have been hurt in very serious ways in my real life by people I...
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M Dec 5

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    Do you know how long I have looked for you? That special person who gets me. Understands me...wants me. I am sophisticated, cultured, educated and complicated...but that is what...
    donegalgd donegalgd 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 13

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    1. My name is Jess 2. I love chocolate 3. I cook a big breakfast every Sunday 4. I also bake every sunday 5. I love musicals 6. I also like heavy Metal 7. blade runner is my...
    greeneyz83 greeneyz83 31-35, F 4 Responses Dec 14

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    I was abused. I know that. I don't talk about it, except in my writings. Why? It isn't going to undo the hurt. People don't need to know that pain, they certainly don't need to...
    EverlyAnn EverlyAnn 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 16

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    plz kill me I don't want to live I miss sylvia and even if I can time travel and change the past, knowing a hellish alternate existence such as this is enough pain and insanity to...
    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    1. I love people. 2. It kills me inside to see my sister become who i thought she would never be. 3. I hate when people hug me 4. Im lonely so i seek for the wrong type of...
    MichellexxLevine314 MichellexxLevine314 16-17, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    How do you keep the music playing? How do you make it last? How do you keep the song from fading too fast? How do you lose yourself to someone and never lose your way? How do you...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    My maternal great grandmother was an Italian immigrant who settled in Brooklyn following her arrival to the United States. Because she did not know how to prepare a traditional...
    losttoday60 losttoday60 51-55, M Nov 26

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    Hi, I'm an Indian gay man, 26, well-settled in the US. I'm looking for a MOC with an Indian girl who is caring and friendly. I'm very nice, respectful, friendly, and intellectual...
    VeryNiceDude VeryNiceDude 26-30, M Dec 7

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    Hey there cousin, ya say ya lost your job today, ya say it's 4 am and yer kids ain't come home from school yet, ya say your wife went out for a cornbeef sandwich last week and the...
    JohnnySpot JohnnySpot 46-50, M Dec 9

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    “Are you feeling alright?” I know how it hits you It gets you at night You start feeling normal And it fights with you It bites you and Crushes you under it’s might You’re...
    brinoelle brinoelle 16-17, F Dec 14

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    It wasn't the sky that I cried to, but the ground. And yet the tears, once shed, made not a sound. Nobody will come to help her life And soon I fear she will use the knife To...
    SomeGuy322 SomeGuy322 16-17, M 5 days ago

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    Why do we have to struggle so much to be empathetic to others? Is it because we are so different from them? Is it because we cannot understand their behaviour patterns? Or is it...
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 4 days ago

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    Someone runaway with me. I don't want a destination I don't want plans, let's just pick a direction and keep going. Just keep running till we haven't the breathe left to run any...
    nessa4ever nessa4ever 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 29

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    Six months, you say you don't think about me Six months, now you got a man I try to act like I don't care about ya Pretend that I don't give a damn Every night I think about you I...
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F Dec 9

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    I've always wanted to run away, it's in my nature, I'm a runner, I haven't ran for 9 years, in that time I've married and had two amazing kids, but I still dream of running, it's...
    suze75 suze75 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 28

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