I Want to Change

I don't even know what the fuck I want anymore. It's just too confusing. I know I want to make myself a better person, but I don't know how. I want to stop thinking about death, but I can't get it off my mind. Everything in my life has...

I wanna change,I'm gonna change,Come hell,Or high water,I'm changing,Had enough,Gonna take control,Ain't no one,Gonna walk all over me!

Enough is enough, I've had it. Starting to day I stopped wasting my time and am gona focus on my goals and start working really hard just on them. I don't care anymore that am single and alone with no one beside me to understand or help...

There's so many things I wish I didn't do and people I never meant to hurt this current year. I'm holding on to so many baggage, Its so hard to keep myself together. I did so many things I never thought i'd do before, I never meant it...

Its that classic story, I spend every second that im not at school at home... Doing nothing. I'm always trying to find something to do ( like the next video game to play, or the next YouTube video to watch). Its really quite pathetic, I...

Why is it so hard? I really need to do it, I'm old now u_u

I already took my first giant leap
now I just have to stand for it
defend what I decided
and never turn back to my old life style
which was never make me feel right
its hard, bcz I get used to it
bcz I already feel the honey taste
and...

I'm getting my daughter ready for camp tomorrow. I'm not sure how I'm going to get her there because I don't have a car, and our truck will probably not make the 4 hour trip.
Why am I still renting a home and not buying one? Why...

But now.. I realized so much.
I need to change! I mustn't hate it. I want to get out of an asocial depressed life. And I won't be able to get out of it without changing a lot. I want to get out. And I want to change.
Things have to...

Im sick of being me. I'm changing everything

I'm a 45 year old who keeps making the same stupid little mistakes, like a child. Communicating is my greatest fail, and what could be simpler then picking up a phone and talking. Just answering the phone makes me cringe.

I'm in a...

Change is a constant that is so welcomed in my life and I hope it always will be. I think what I would like to change at the moment is what I have been reading. Being the power reader that I am it's easy for me to...

i want to change into something im not i feel i will lose my friends doing this but i want to be difrent its the only way i will get noticed these days thats pritty much why i chage. so i am noticed but i want to stay the same and be...

Okey, so here is my story.

I kind of feel alone, almost all the time, it feels like my life has no meaning, I don't know what to do with it. I know you think "ooh another teenage story where he hates himself and he feel like nobody...

I want to move on from him and if not move on from him i want to at least stop being so mad at him and be able to at least live a little bit more of my life without him. We've already started to severely drift apart this will just be...