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I Want to Commit Sucide

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    I Try

    I like the pain it brings when i cut myself, i've tried to stop but it's like theirs this endless pain in my chest that i can't run from i know i'm not going to die naturally but i can't bring myself to finish the job i want to die so badly maybe then someone will here me maybe...
    Secretgirl18 Secretgirl18 18-21, F 1 Response May 9, 2012

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    I Have No Plan To Do At Alll

    I have everthing i want to. I dont want to live anymore on earth.dont know why and now i want to do is suicide.i believe in next life and dont wanna be a object for the earthanymore.
    prettycat prettycat 22-25 1 Response Jun 1, 2012

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    Why I Cant Bring My Self To.

    I want to pull the damn trigger. Countless nights ive set my gun down next to me in my bed. Ive put on a song and sat. Then thoughts run through my head. I tell my self the pain i feel is worth it if my lil cusions look up to me. My farthers girlfriends kids joined rotc because...
    spkg spkg 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 24, 2011

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    Remorseful

    I had a wonderful family with 2 kids and I didn't treasure it. I crushed it and regretted itvvwry much. My husband forgave me.. but I live in guilt and sadness..I am always suspicious about my hubby.. thinking that he is out to revenge.. I am a failure as a wife and as a mum. I...
    Jan 10, 2013

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    But Not Alone

    ... and also not immediately now. I see committing suicide as a way to take your end in your own hand when it is time to go. I am now 54 and I envision that it will be time to go in a couple of years when my kids are old enough to take care of themselves. If I go I want to do it...
    wimnj wimnj 51-55, M 1 Response Oct 29, 2011

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    Just Want To Do Sucide

    i m worst person ever i hate myself i can never be good cause i cannot hide my monster anymore i will commit sucide as i don't wanna live anymore jf anyone has good idea of how to do sucide tell me  
    evilkilllingme evilkilllingme 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 8, 2011

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    I've been struggling to deal with things.

    I've attempted to commit sucide twice already but always woken up in hospital. I can't stop self harming. And I've planned out that after seeing my friends tomorrow I'll leave them and jump off a bridge. I have it all planned. I know I can't swim. I know if I weigh myself down I...
    lbeldoon lbeldoon 22-25, F Apr 11

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    :)

    I'm so tired of trying. My life seems to never be getting any better I feel like I’ve ran out of options. It hurts to be awake, to breathe, and to meet people. Really the only reason I'm still here is that I'm afraid of physical pain. What’s worst though what I feel in my...
    Princessmill Princessmill 26-30 1 Response Mar 6, 2012

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    Help

    Hi, I really want to end my life, I don't feel like going on, the thing is I'm coward in going on with the actual thing!! And I don't want something painful, I can't acesss poison like cynide, so today I was thinking about drowning myself in a bath tub, I was wondering if there...
    xzst xzst 22-25, F Apr 30, 2013

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    I'm Going To Kill Myself

    I made a plan to kill myself may 22, 2012. That day is coming soon. So, when I was I kid I tried to kill myself because my mom and dad always abused my brothers and sister and I. My didn't care about me neither does my mom, I don't know if any body cares about me. I made a few...
    Mylifeisending Mylifeisending 18-21, M 2 Responses May 8, 2012

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    Depressed

    I am 31 years old. I really want to kill myself. My life sucks. There is not one good thing about my life. Can't find a women that like me. I want to know the most sucessful why to committed suicide?
    Newfie31 Newfie31 31-35, M Jul 10, 2012

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    A World That I Dont Belong In

    Why resurrect me only to kill me?  I would have done anything for you.  All you had to do was tell the truth. Been a victim my whole buy this time its my fault.  Because I was in control, but I wanted to feel love. Thought that I can confide in you.  And the whole time I was...
    loudsilence1 loudsilence1 26-30, F May 29, 2012

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    My Name's Death, Yours Is..?

    Right. Well, I do everything else. I cut, etc. Except from drugs... Anyway, life isn't worth it:) OMFG NEWS FLASH: life won't get any better. end it before things get worse.
    bijoutopaz97 bijoutopaz97 16-17 3 Responses Mar 6, 2012

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    I Want To Commit Sucide

    i am student of undergraduate in an reputated university.from childhood my education progressed decreased.i got 87% in my+2.In my b.tech life itss very hard to clear my sem exams.even i cant read before exams also..my dad is investing money 2 lakhs on me every year...moreever a...
    bharatchandra bharatchandra 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 9, 2011

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    My Friend In Pain - Call Him Blame

    Blame me when your medicines you use to heal break me You don't see their poison effects on my body Blame me and leave me alone to suffer Blame me as crazy mad depressed For you don't want to see the damage you medicines had done to me For it's your job and you think you know...
    tonyaizms tonyaizms 41-45, F Dec 7, 2012

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    I Just Want To Be At Peace With Werner

    at least he loved me... and didn't treat me as if I was retarded ...he didn't treat me like a whhore either... he treated me like a pretty and clever lovable 3,4, 5.6.7.8 year old and loved me and picked me up and hugged me lots and lots... its not too much to ask to be treated...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Jun 26, 2011

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    'i Shall Pass This Way But Once. Therefore, Any Good That I Can Do Or Any Kindness That I Can Show, Let Me Do It Now, For I Shall Not Pass This Way Again.'

    For anyone that feels this is your desire and is an answer....please take a few moments more and drop me a note and let's talk about it.  noshadow
    noshadow noshadow 61-65, M 1 Response Mar 25, 2010

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