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I Want to Commit Suicide

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    I Almost Got Hit By A Car

    A few days ago, I was mindlessly walking across an intersection as a car sped around the corner, headed straight for me. I heard people on the streets gasp, one of them even screamed and then I processed what was going on. The weird thing is, I didn't have a moment of panic. My...
    daaytripper daaytripper 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 4, 2013

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    I am a 22 year old server,

    I always seem like the happiest person to my tables but as soon as I'm out of the restaurant I immediately feel miserable, helpless, worthless, and lonely. I will be with my boyfriend for 4 years in a couple weeks and he treats me like garbage. My friend recently said she cant...
    Toxil Toxil 22-25, F 7 Responses Aug 21

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    Well, I give up. Too much.

    Too damn much. I'm not going to go in details because everyone has their reason. I will not go out with a bang by shooting myself or using pills or make a spectacle of myself… I just want to melt away… Disappear. Never exist. Everyone thinks my diet is really a diet but I'm...
    Thepinkcoconut Thepinkcoconut 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 7

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    Beaten, Homeless, Cheeted On, Degraded.

    I really cant do this thing called ''life'' anymore. Its no life, its just an exisance for me. Suppose it all started about 20 years ago when my mum and dad went out for the night and left me with 'the baby sitter'. He was only 16 but i still remember his rancid breath and...
    AllGonePeteTong AllGonePeteTong 26-30, F 8 Responses Nov 20, 2009

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    Shes Gone

    fell in love with a girl in recovery for narcotics addiction we were both vulnorable and seemed to hit it off but I've never been much good with the opposite sex and I didn't know how to act in she was 20 years younger and beautiful...I'm not going to bore you with all the...
    wnt2die wnt2die 46-50, M 6 Responses Sep 15, 2013

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    I have been depressed

    for most of my life so I have thought about it for a long time and I don't see my life will get better. I have spoke to my psychiatrist asking him to raise my medications but he is a little **** - telling me that I just need to get out more and do more things.
    LadyAnonymous123 LadyAnonymous123 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 11

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    heathee heathee 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 11

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    How Does One Get The Courage?

    I honestly don't think I have anything more to live for. Does anyone have any tips on how to get the courage to do it?
    LoftyDreamer LoftyDreamer 22-25, M 4 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    Three Words For Anyone Considering Suicide

    Don't do it! Years ago I seriously considered suicide. I am not going to catalog my reasons. Suffice it to say, I found myself in a long, dry valley of regret and self-loathing.  Depressed, miserable, friendless, and trapped by circumstances not of my own making, I saw only one...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 28, 2012

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    Secrets (rawr).

    I'm an effing f a g g o t and I can't even tell anyone because my parents are completely against that kind of thing. I don't have many friends or goals or anything. I really.. just kind of don't have a purpose, you know?
    SoGold SoGold 13-15, M 22 Responses Jun 7, 2009

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    I Dont Think Its An Option!!!

    As the title says,I dont think this is an optionMy girlfriend got her vocal cords ripped in a cancer shock,her cousin raped her and broke her legs and i cant contacther either from skype/phone/in person. She is 99% Dead.My parents and cousin are also dead of cancer,And my friends...
    123hey123 123hey123 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 26, 2013

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    i'm doing it right now.

    actually going to get pills now and have a bottle of alchol with me been drinking now. silly of me to post this up here but id dont care no one cares in this world. good bye
    nm1106 nm1106 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 31

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    The Perfect Pattern, Spoken By Plato

    The devine design, for there is a devine design for each and every person. There is a place that you can fill and no one else can fill. Something you are to do which no one else can do.
    Bythelight0fthemoon Bythelight0fthemoon 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    Who am I?

    I dont know when it started, everything just became so ... the world is grey. each day I feel my body getting heavier, I wonder why I live and if I should keep living... Most people would think that's a stupid way to feel, but is it? Each and everyday I have to pretend that im...
    blackrose3908 blackrose3908 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 16, 2011

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    I Plan 2 Die

    Im tired of life, nothing excites me anymore only when im high i feel happy im so depressed and moody, my life is such a chore, that i dont want to do anymore i dont want to talk to no one, i want to meet someone who feels the way i do, and see what happens.
    ItsAnt ItsAnt 31-35, M 1 Response Mar 11, 2013

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    Looking for partner in California.

    Please send me personal message if interested.
    1sososad 1sososad 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    Today I have thoughts .

    I should try prayer again.
    heathee heathee 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 1

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    Everyday

    Everyday I think about committing suicide I was raised with the idea if you're a good person loyal honest and nice set of ventually you will find someone who loves you but these are false pretenses. This world has changed there is no place for a guy like me anymore. I have to ask...
    TheRascallyOne TheRascallyOne 22-25, M 22 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    No Reason To Live

    I'm tired of living and want to end my life. The feeling of sadness rules my life with no remorse, I wake up every morning with feelings of sadness, hopelessness and the thought of death. I have a few friends but I can't talk to them because everytime I try, I get blown off with...
    Z33t Z33t 26-30, M 9 Responses Aug 11, 2012

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    So I've never really done this

    before :/ I have been battling with a lot in my life ever since I was 13. I was sexually assaulted by my first ever boyfriend. I feel used and abused. I feel like a dented can, I've still got all the same ingredients but no one wants to buy me. I want to be thinner, I want to be...
    InkDestiny InkDestiny 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I was broken and gave up years ago.

    A permanent solution to a temporary problem. How many decades are considered temporary? Things don't get better, they get worse. Yesrs and years of getting worse. I inbox my story and people don't believe it, call it horrific, even a "friday the 13th senario" which is rediculous...
    stevehere76 stevehere76 36-40, M 3 Responses May 30

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    Tired of my body... tired of my face.

    .. tired of talking... tired of trying to talk to him... i would go through with it if i had the courage...
    xenababy7 xenababy7 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 2

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    I'm so lonely. I have nobody

    that can physically comfort me. I'm tired of living like this! Why won't anyone accept me for who I am? All of my family and all of my friends are religious and homophobic. My parents are so ashamed that they have a gay daughter. I should just save everyone the embarrassment and...
    kberry95 kberry95 18-21, F 9 Responses Jun 1

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    The most frustrating part about the way I feel

    is that I don't understand why...?! I have a family who loves and supports me. Friends who I can lean on and talk to. A boyfriend who knows just what to say. A job. A roof over my head. and most importantly, a million things to live for.....but I can't help but feel like dying...
    missmichigan21 missmichigan21 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 10

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    im 52 years old and sick of life i want to end

    my life . l want to take a big knife and stab myself in my heart so I die .don,t care a bout the pain long as i die. i hope to find away to end my life some day.
    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M 4 Responses Sep 10

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    I am not even a shadow of a person now.

    I fantasise about being murdered.
    foreversadsam foreversadsam 26-30, F 5 Responses Jul 20

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    I want to commit suicide

    because I am black. I feel inferior to every other race on earth. There are tons of websites dedicated to how much the world hates blacks. Youtube, Facebook, **** everyday the world let's me no how feral and disgusting I am. No one even thinks we are human we are compared to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 22

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    It would be do much easier to just end it.

    It all feels the same way in the end. I don't even know how I'm alive right now... I just feel like a hollow shell that puts on show to make people think I'm okay. Death is peaceful, easy. Life is hard and cruel. What's the point anymore?
    Nickymiw Nickymiw 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 3

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    So now after finding out I can't quit my job

    as I won't be able to claim anything for 6 months, my only option is to end it all. I have a date set for Friday and a method. Wish me luck guys.
    Jodiechristine88 Jodiechristine88 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 9

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    JUST FOUND A GUN. LIVE IN PA.

    MESSAGE ME IF YOU WANT A PACT.
    Teenyphilly Teenyphilly 18-21, F Sep 13

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    Last Night..

    I've had really bad times where depression has taken over me and made me feel worthless, empty and like I was the only person on this ****** up world, but last night was just different. I never felt this horrible like I did last night, the whole night I cried, the kind of...
    eskieloner eskieloner 22-25, F 15 Responses Dec 18, 2011

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    I do not want to die,

    I just do not want to live with this constant angst within. I am not afraid of what lies in the afterworld, I'm afraid of what I am leaving behind in this world. I cannot abandon those I love, yet I am not near them whence alive anyhow. I am not living right now anyways. I have...
    ScarlettDawn94 ScarlettDawn94 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 5

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    It's there anyone out there

    that wants to join me
    standalone2013 standalone2013 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 1

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    Commit, Not Attempt.

    I got it all planned out. I think I'm finally ready to attempt this again. This will be my third time trying it. I know I'll succeed this time. I'm going to duct tape the end of a hose to my car's tail pipe so the carbon monoxide will go through the hose and the other end will go...
    Brody1530 Brody1530 22-25, F 8 Responses May 18, 2013

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    If anyone wants to join my suicide pact,

    let me know. I live in Michigan.
    RobIngalls RobIngalls 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 28

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    I Am Considering Suicide.

    That is all, really. I needed to say that. I needed to be able to say that, somewhere, to someone, because there are a great many loving, caring people in my life who would be highly distressed if I said this to them. And not only do I love them too much to upset them so greatly...
    overanalytic overanalytic 70+ 2 Responses Jun 3, 2013

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    standalone2013 standalone2013 31-35, M 7 Responses Sep 6

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    What is the fastest way?

    is it the car one or pills?
    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    In NYC,19, looking for female partner.

    Willing to discuss options, preferably painless methods. Message me.
    BretonIce BretonIce 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I haven't logged in to this

    since last year and I'm back nothing changed. I read my old post and cant believe i felt like that so early on, i deleted it because I'm embarrassed. Im not going to go into more detail about why i think I'm depressed because there isn't a point. Im still a ugly depressed poor...
    Stupidlooseradult Stupidlooseradult 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 24

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    When It Is Time...

    I want to have one wild weekend with someone who also chooses to end her or his life. I want to do things I haven't done for a long time. A couple of drinks, unprotected sex with (a) stranger(s), etc. and then walk into the ocean together. Or toss a coin and the person who wins...
    wimnj wimnj 51-55, M May 26, 2013

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    I Feel Like I Never Should Have Been Kept Here

    I guess my first feeling on this matter goes back to where it all began. i was born ,I was  extremely premature and we did not have the medical care we have now I was not expected to live through the first night, without medical interference i would have died. Did the doctor(s...
    emery777 emery777 41-45, F 11 Responses Nov 28, 2012

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    i think about this all day everyday.

    i need to so i can be out of this pain at least.
    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 19

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    So....nothing has changed

    since my last update, i have tried to feel happy, but i cannot. My arms are covered in open wounds to help with the pain inside my head...my inner thighs have blood pouring from the cuts......tonight i sit and drink.........maybe tonight will be the night!!!!!
    unlivelylife unlivelylife 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 1

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    I think about it everyday.

    Nothing in my life is going right and the one person who pulled me from the darkness has left. So now on top off everything else I have to deal with heartbreak. I honestly don't know how much fight I have left.
    Matthewm7 Matthewm7 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 18

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    I don't want to live anymore.

    I told him I won't live without him. I told him I can't live without him. I told him not to leave me, but he said he doesn't believe that I will do it. I will. I can't be without him. Not now, not ever.
    Pho3niix Pho3niix 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    I Feel Like There Is No More Hope.

    I feel so lost and I want to feel wanted. I don't understand why I'm still alive when all I want to be is dead... :'(
    jnash123 jnash123 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    Anyone in my place would have committed suicide

    (I'm guessing) But if you are dead inside and can't feel how horrible your life is then it is ok to continue breathing I tried to commit suicide before i went numb
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 26

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    Im not afraid to commit suicide.

    Thing is some days when things get really bad i have the perfect plan for it. i try and find a way. but then in between i feel like i shouldn't give in, i should fight my demons. So my thoughts of suicide, are they moments of weakness? or my answer? Ive come to the point where i...
    nelly18 nelly18 18-21 3 Responses Dec 8, 2013

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    I Don't Think There Is Any Other Option

    Ive already written about this, but I am losing hope for a miracle. I just made the finishing touches on my "suicide box" or goodbye capsule if you will, today. Letters to my family members, every last one of them, old friends, pictures, and a few other things.and wrapped it all...
    SkippingTheGoldenYears SkippingTheGoldenYears 18-21, F 21 Responses Apr 2, 2012

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    I'm so miserable. I want to dissapear.

    I lost my boyfriend after we broke up we were going to sort things out but I ruined it. My bipolar that I didn't know I had made me completely crazy. I've pushed all of my friends away everyone at work hates me, including my ex who I have to see every day and I have no family. I...
    Jodiechristine88 Jodiechristine88 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 7

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    I Plan To Commit Suicide By 27

    I am 24 years old, and am so unhappy. I take medication, I go to therepy, I have done EVERYTHING in the book to help myself get "better". I have felt this way ever since I was thirteen years old. I do not plan on making this post a life story post, but some background I believe...
    Lindss119 Lindss119 22-25, F 10 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    standalone2013 standalone2013 31-35, M 2 Responses Aug 31

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