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I Want to Commit Suicide

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    So with the risk of sounding simply like I'm

    seeking attention, I'm writing my goodbye. I won't be checking back here. I'm sorry for leaving some hanging in messages. My mind is messed up enough, I just need to get thru and end this without any more to think about and confuse my decisions. I have no doubt pushed myself...
    nevawas nevawas 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 24

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    How Does One Get The Courage?

    I honestly don't think I have anything more to live for. Does anyone have any tips on how to get the courage to do it?
    LoftyDreamer LoftyDreamer 22-25, M 8 Responses Nov 4, 2013

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    Commit, Not Attempt.

    I got it all planned out. I think I'm finally ready to attempt this again. This will be my third time trying it. I know I'll succeed this time. I'm going to duct tape the end of a hose to my car's tail pipe so the carbon monoxide will go through the hose and the other end will go...
    Brody1530 Brody1530 22-25, F 10 Responses May 18, 2013

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    I quit counselling. I don't think it was

    for me. I think anyone considering suicide though should just try a counselor before they go thru with suicide. You may never know what counselling can do, and if you decide it wasn't for you, then there's no harm done and you can have a clear conscience to commit suicide like I...
    nevawas nevawas 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 20

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    Three Words For Anyone Considering Suicide

    Don't do it! Years ago I seriously considered suicide. I am not going to catalog my reasons. Suffice it to say, I found myself in a long, dry valley of regret and self-loathing.  Depressed, miserable, friendless, and trapped by circumstances not of my own making, I saw only one...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 28, 2012

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    I never wanted a suicide partner.

    I mean besides the risk of them calling the police on you, could you really watch or let someone else die? I don't think I could. But I don't want to be alone either. I want to go out and hurt myself so bad. Like just go out and someone can beat me and hurt me/have sex with me...
    nevawas nevawas 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 20

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    I don't want to die. I use to though.

    I know that a lot of you here are going through a rough time in your life, that's why I wanted to share this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AfVi9ZsO6vE Please watch it before you think about killing yourself. I know I'm just one person, a stranger no less, but I'm in...
    TransmutedHeart TransmutedHeart 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 22

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    i was out tonight trying to hang myself again.

    what a pathetic loser i am for failing a 2nd time. it was so cold out but peaceful and quiet that's why i want to die at night out there in the field with nothing and noone around. but when i finally gave up i was freezing. took a hot shower. why am i so scared to die? i can't...
    nevawas nevawas 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 22

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    Everyday

    Everyday I think about committing suicide I was raised with the idea if you're a good person loyal honest and nice set of ventually you will find someone who loves you but these are false pretenses. This world has changed there is no place for a guy like me anymore. I have to ask...
    TheRascallyOne TheRascallyOne 22-25, M 23 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    Nothing is as beautiful

    as it should be. I want to see and be beautiful but Im surrounded by ugly things. All my life I've been surrounded by ugly things and cruel people. I use to be able to escape to my imagination and see nothing but beautiful skies, stars, gardens, flowers, oceans, rivers...
    Celesstine Celesstine 26-30, T 1 Response Nov 24

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    I just signed up here.

    I just wrote to the good Samaritans also. i'm a little bit panicking so i needed to write more so i searched for suicide forums and this was one..i dont know what to do. i keep thinking all i have to do is hang myself and it would be over, all of this. even this suicide debate...
    nevawas nevawas 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 14

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    I Feel Like There Is No More Hope.

    I feel so lost and I want to feel wanted. I don't understand why I'm still alive when all I want to be is dead... :'(
    jnash123 jnash123 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    I Don't Think There Is Any Other Option

    Ive already written about this, but I am losing hope for a miracle. I just made the finishing touches on my "suicide box" or goodbye capsule if you will, today. Letters to my family members, every last one of them, old friends, pictures, and a few other things.and wrapped it all...
    SkippingTheGoldenYears SkippingTheGoldenYears 18-21, F 22 Responses Apr 2, 2012

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    There are days like yesterday

    and today when i wish i could. I've been having these suicidal thoughts since i was 15, but only had a few weak attempts, but nothing serious and nothing noticeable. I won't tell my story and the several whys, a website won't help me nor save me and i know it, i just wanted to...
    schmetterlingmx schmetterlingmx 31-35, F 4 Responses Dec 4

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    I'm tired of living in a cold,

    dark world, full of hatred and despair... I'm tired of constantly hurting... I just want to be happy... I want to die and be free...
    CielPhantomhive1214 CielPhantomhive1214 18-21, F 9 Responses Mar 24

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    Why do we exist. To serve ourselves.

    .. I go into a room and i immediately can pinpoint the nature of a persons life, because it is so generic. We want acceptance, love and self worth/satisfaction. I constantly ask myself why do I continue living? The answer? Because this all i know.... I do not know with...
    JohnoCA JohnoCA 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 21

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    i only find comfort when i think about suicide.

    just an easy way out of all of this bullshit, life is just nonsense. i fantasize about my suicide every single day
    antoneli antoneli 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 21

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    All my life I've only wanted the things maybe

    others take for granted. A loving Family. Sunlight. Good group of Friends. [this ones pretty stupid but others have taken this for granted] An iPhone. A house that you can call home. Or Jobs. But in my world, I'm not a person. Not one that counts. Not wanted. Has no rights...
    TheAnonymous99 TheAnonymous99 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 5

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    Well, I give up. Too much.

    Too damn much. I'm not going to go in details because everyone has their reason. I will not go out with a bang by shooting myself or using pills or make a spectacle of myself… I just want to melt away… Disappear. Never exist. Everyone thinks my diet is really a diet but I'm...
    Thepinkcoconut Thepinkcoconut 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 7

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    I Dont Think Its An Option!!!

    As the title says,I dont think this is an optionMy girlfriend got her vocal cords ripped in a cancer shock,her cousin raped her and broke her legs and i cant contacther either from skype/phone/in person. She is 99% Dead.My parents and cousin are also dead of cancer,And my friends...
    123hey123 123hey123 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 26, 2013

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    Shes Gone

    fell in love with a girl in recovery for narcotics addiction we were both vulnorable and seemed to hit it off but I've never been much good with the opposite sex and I didn't know how to act in she was 20 years younger and beautiful...I'm not going to bore you with all the...
    wnt2die wnt2die 51-55, M 6 Responses Sep 15, 2013

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    Last Night..

    I've had really bad times where depression has taken over me and made me feel worthless, empty and like I was the only person on this ****** up world, but last night was just different. I never felt this horrible like I did last night, the whole night I cried, the kind of...
    eskieloner eskieloner 22-25, F 15 Responses Dec 18, 2011

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    Suicide is hard, life is easy.

    Everyday I wake and acknowledge in a life or death situation where I'm not in control; I will choose life. However put a pistol in my hand and give me a choice....well use your imagination. My life is a cliche. Mommy and daddy didn't show me enough love. Social outcast...
    JohnoCA JohnoCA 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 13

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    any partners in cali?

    if your interested message
    msworstlife msworstlife 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 31

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    Fuckthisshit

    I'm scared of life. I think about the countless number of days ahead of me and I feel trapped. Trapped living. Trapped in my mind. I feel insane. I'm dying to get out. Dying to be free. I wish it it was all over. I wish I had the choice to end it all. Why don't I have the choice...
    MELIZAS1234 MELIZAS1234 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 18, 2013

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    After 15 years and literally dozens of attempts,

    I think I have a good plan. Want to run it by a non reactive medical professional if there are any on here.
    Allenovich Allenovich 26-30, T 2 days ago

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    I Feel Like I Never Should Have Been Kept Here

    I guess my first feeling on this matter goes back to where it all began. i was born ,I was  extremely premature and we did not have the medical care we have now I was not expected to live through the first night, without medical interference i would have died. Did the doctor(s...
    emery777 emery777 41-45, F 12 Responses Nov 28, 2012

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    To everybody on here: If any of you are feeling

    this way, PLEASE message me and I will talk to you for as long as you need. I lost one of my best friends to suicide and I know what feeling this way looks like. I will listen and give advice as best as I can
    beekachu222 beekachu222 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    msworstlife msworstlife 18-21, F 10 Responses Oct 21

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    I'm so lonely. I have nobody

    that can physically comfort me. I'm tired of living like this! Why won't anyone accept me for who I am? All of my family and all of my friends are religious and homophobic. My parents are so ashamed that they have a gay daughter. I should just save everyone the embarrassment and...
    kberry95 kberry95 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 1

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    When It Is Time...

    I want to have one wild weekend with someone who also chooses to end her or his life. I want to do things I haven't done for a long time. A couple of drinks, unprotected sex with (a) stranger(s), etc. and then walk into the ocean together. Or toss a coin and the person who wins...
    wimnj wimnj 51-55, M 1 Response May 26, 2013

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    I Plan To Commit Suicide By 27

    I am 24 years old, and am so unhappy. I take medication, I go to therepy, I have done EVERYTHING in the book to help myself get "better". I have felt this way ever since I was thirteen years old. I do not plan on making this post a life story post, but some background I believe...
    Lindss119 Lindss119 22-25, F 10 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    Someone please give me a reason not to do this.

    I can't cope and I have nothing left to live for.
    Jodiechristine88 Jodiechristine88 26-30, F 26 Responses Oct 17

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    Nothing is as beautiful

    as it should be. I want to see and be beautiful but Im surrounded by ugly things. All my life I've been surrounded by ugly things and cruel people. I use to be able to escape to my imagination and see nothing but beautiful skies, stars, gardens, flowers, oceans, rivers...
    Celesstine Celesstine 26-30, T Nov 24

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    Anyone in my place would have committed suicide

    (I'm guessing) But if you are dead inside and can't feel how horrible your life is then it is ok to continue breathing I tried to commit suicide before i went numb
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 26

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    Beaten, Homeless, Cheeted On, Degraded.

    I really cant do this thing called ''life'' anymore. Its no life, its just an exisance for me. Suppose it all started about 20 years ago when my mum and dad went out for the night and left me with 'the baby sitter'. He was only 16 but i still remember his rancid breath and...
    AllGonePeteTong AllGonePeteTong 26-30, F 8 Responses Nov 20, 2009

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    I´m sick of life and all the included problems

    in it... i just want to be somewhere where money don´t play any role either exist... and all this happy people around me make even more sicker... i just want to end this confusing , depressing and complicating way of life...
    noname1712 noname1712 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 20

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    I Am Considering Suicide.

    That is all, really. I needed to say that. I needed to be able to say that, somewhere, to someone, because there are a great many loving, caring people in my life who would be highly distressed if I said this to them. And not only do I love them too much to upset them so greatly...
    overanalytic overanalytic 70+ 2 Responses Jun 3, 2013

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    the depression, the anxiety,

    the loneliness, the pain , being judged i'm tired of it i don't know if this is a place for me
    antoneli antoneli 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 20

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    I Don't Matter Anyway

    I want to die because I cannot stand the pain of being me anymore. I'm a failure, a loser and basically worthless. There is not one thing that I'm good at and all I seem to do is get in the way. No matter what I do I will never be good enough and I just want to end the enormous...
    Abbyjo Abbyjo 18-21, F 24 Responses Apr 3, 2012

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    I have been depressed

    for most of my life so I have thought about it for a long time and I don't see my life will get better. I have spoke to my psychiatrist asking him to raise my medications but he is a little **** - telling me that I just need to get out more and do more things.
    LadyAnonymous123 LadyAnonymous123 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 11

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    JohnoCA JohnoCA 18-21, M Dec 8

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    I'm not asking for help on how to kill myself,

    but if anyone could let me know if this will fail or what might happen please let me know? I decided to cut myself and put antifreeze on my cuts. I just thought of the idea as I was cutting my thigh this morning. I thought if I do that each day slowly I'll get poisoned. Someone...
    nevawas nevawas 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 23

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    So, it's been 10 years of cutting,

    10 whole years. When I started I had no idea how it would take over my life, and that it would leave much more than physical scars. It's hard to explain to someone what wanting to die feels like, but I guess I could say its emptiness. Imagine the one thing in life you cherish...
    krmno krmno 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 19

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    Hi it's me again. I hope this is ok to write.

    I went to a counseling appointment this week and I'm really annoyed at myself for answering every question with "I'm good" and "everything is fine" I'm wasting the counselor's time and not being honest and it's annoying me. It's part of what's helping my decision about suicide...
    nevawas nevawas 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 19

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    I've reached my conclusion.

    I'm a worthless waste of space with no future. It's not an easy decision because I know that it will hurt my family, but I can't keep hanging on forever. Now I just need to find the will to follow through on it. I've got my method all planned out--I need to get my hands on...
    Mojoman Mojoman 36-40 Dec 1

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    This is a silly question

    but what happens when you die if you're a college student, I mean does the school find out you committed suicide? Do teachers tell students? Mine is a very small college, and I actually really loved it, and all the teachers know your name and go extra miles to help you. The...
    nevawas nevawas 22-25, F Nov 23

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    No Reason To Live

    I'm tired of living and want to end my life. The feeling of sadness rules my life with no remorse, I wake up every morning with feelings of sadness, hopelessness and the thought of death. I have a few friends but I can't talk to them because everytime I try, I get blown off with...
    Z33t Z33t 26-30, M 9 Responses Aug 11, 2012

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    Consequences What if I try

    and I live? I worry of the consequences. I imagine I step down. I am forced into a place i do not want to go. People force me to take pills. These pills zombify me. I am completely uncooperative as I believe in free choice. I am stuck My relatives all know of my situation...
    JohnoCA JohnoCA 18-21, M Oct 15

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    I was broken and gave up years ago.

    A permanent solution to a temporary problem. How many decades are considered temporary? Things don't get better, they get worse. Yesrs and years of getting worse. I inbox my story and people don't believe it, call it horrific, even a "friday the 13th senario" which is rediculous...
    stevehere76 stevehere76 36-40, M 4 Responses May 30

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    Every day for the past year

    or so I've had to stop myself from committing suicide. I'd like to say that every day I think of a reason to live one more day, but I haven't come up with one yet. My whole life I've always believed that everyone has their low points, but just give it time and things will get...
    Thumper8888 Thumper8888 41-45, F 2 Responses Oct 25

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