Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device
If you are in a crisis, please call for help: 1-800-273-8255, or 1-800-784-2433 (available 24/7). More resources available here.

I Want to Commit Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,414 People

    A few years ago i made a mistake.

    I was mentally unstable at the time and i did something that i will never forgive myself for. I was arrested, charged and sentenced for it. I never recieced a prison sentence but i wish i had. Instead a news article was put on the internet, on facebook and everyone i care about...
    dclarke556 dclarke556 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 14

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I am 48 years old , I have had PTSD

    since I came back from beyrouth in 1984, I am sorrounded by people who are telling they understand but they have not a clue so I just not yeah yeah .deep inside I believe it is time for me to go , I having nightmare of my army days . I don't want help I just want fast way out...
    anafoundis anafoundis 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 18

    Your Response

    Cancel

    life is so unfair and i hate everything about

    it. i just hate being here its so pointless
    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F May 19

    Your Response

    Cancel

    How to commit suicide

    when your married? I will feel too guilty using my husbands gun. I still don't have one of my own yet.I plan to drive from California to Nevada to buy a gun and kill myself. Should I find a way to divorce my husband and then do it? Would a 9mm suffice or a .45? I hate living. I...
    Diarywoman24 Diarywoman24 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 28

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Hi I'm new here. I've never done anything like

    this before but i think i would like to share an Experience. I became clinically depressed when i was about 13 years old. There wasn't any big story that caused this. It's just that i realized that i am not normal. I couldn't get any sleep so i drank a lot of alcohol and i cut...
    bobe91 bobe91 22-25, M Apr 22

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I wonder. People say it is selfish to commit

    suicide. In my case for one reason, it would be. But, in general, is it not selfish of other people to want you to stay? Again not so much in my case as I have no family or friends. But, people only want you not to kill yourself so that they don't feel the same level of pain...
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Oct 3, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Dont Think Its An Option!!!

    As the title says,I dont think this is an optionMy girlfriend got her vocal cords ripped in a cancer shock,her cousin raped her and broke her legs and i cant contacther either from skype/phone/in person. She is 99% Dead.My parents and cousin are also dead of cancer,And my friends...
    123hey123 123hey123 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 26, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Plan To Commit Suicide By 27

    I am 24 years old, and am so unhappy. I take medication, I go to therepy, I have done EVERYTHING in the book to help myself get "better". I have felt this way ever since I was thirteen years old. I do not plan on making this post a life story post, but some background I believe...
    Lindss119 Lindss119 22-25, F 12 Responses Mar 12, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Wish I Was Never Born

    Life seems filled with only pain & suffering all i ever do is remember is the times people or family hurt me. Lies about things will get better & time heals its BS....Suicide is the answer being on disability i need to find a quick cheap way to kill myself. Please no crap about...
    Scaredalone2 Scaredalone2 36-40, M 8 Responses Nov 6, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Anyone in my place would have committed suicide

    (I'm guessing) But if you are dead inside and can't feel how horrible your life is then it is ok to continue breathing I tried to commit suicide before i went numb
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 26, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My first plan, say Plan "A",

    was about ordering Nembutal over Internet .. I did ... But my parcel has been seized by customs ... So that I now have a Plan "B" ... instead of ordering some stuff over Internet , Plan "B" is about going directly to where I can find the needed stuff , SouthAmerica in this case...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M 3 Responses Mar 26

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Life can sometimes look dark

    but if you can make it through the darkness no matter how dark it is there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Life can be bright again and you can find happiness again. Don't give in to the darkness. Fight through it and you will find happiness again. I promise you...
    GoodLife7 GoodLife7 56-60, M 1 Response Jun 22

    Your Response

    Cancel

    To everybody on here: If any of you are feeling

    this way, PLEASE message me and I will talk to you for as long as you need. I lost one of my best friends to suicide and I know what feeling this way looks like. I will listen and give advice as best as I can
    beekachu222 beekachu222 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Woke up from my suicide dreams this morning

    and cried my heart out. I'm broken.
    Trueawe Trueawe 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 21

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Well, I give up. Too much.

    Too damn much. I'm not going to go in details because everyone has their reason. I will not go out with a bang by shooting myself or using pills or make a spectacle of myself… I just want to melt away… Disappear. Never exist. Everyone thinks my diet is really a diet but I'm...
    Thepinkcoconut Thepinkcoconut 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 7, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Fuckthisshit

    I'm scared of life. I think about the countless number of days ahead of me and I feel trapped. Trapped living. Trapped in my mind. I feel insane. I'm dying to get out. Dying to be free. I wish it it was all over. I wish I had the choice to end it all. Why don't I have the choice...
    MELIZAS1234 MELIZAS1234 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 18, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    it's loaded & ready to shoot my mouth.

    why it is too hard to press this fu**** trigger
    ElenaSuicidal ElenaSuicidal 22-25, F 5 Responses May 28

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Am looking for someone two make a suicide pact

    with me I am really struggling with life I can't see a way forward sick of people saying it will get better soon they don't understand
    chantal532 chantal532 18-21, F 2 Responses May 28

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Three Words For Anyone Considering Suicide

    Don't do it! Years ago I seriously considered suicide. I am not going to catalog my reasons. Suffice it to say, I found myself in a long, dry valley of regret and self-loathing.  Depressed, miserable, friendless, and trapped by circumstances not of my own making, I saw only one...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Mar 28, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Going to take my life here soon.

    Anyone wanna say goodbye feel free
    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M Jun 27

    Your Response

    Cancel

    im just the weirdest hunman being.

    i cant do anything right. my life is a joke and a mess. i dont know anything. i cant gain weight. i cant do ANYTHING RIGHT. i hate myself
    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F 2 Responses May 21

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Almost Got Hit By A Car

    A few days ago, I was mindlessly walking across an intersection as a car sped around the corner, headed straight for me. I heard people on the streets gasp, one of them even screamed and then I processed what was going on. The weird thing is, I didn't have a moment of panic. My...
    daaytripper daaytripper 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 4, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Reasons: I have severe depression,

    I have low self-esteem, I gained 30 pounds in the last 3 -4 months,I have a personal condition, my back has been injured and I haven't been able to work out since August, I can't find a job, I don't have a car, I donihave anyone to vent or talk to anymore, no one understands me...
    Thefightingangel Thefightingangel 22-25, M Jan 22

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Plan 2 Die

    Im tired of life, nothing excites me anymore only when im high i feel happy im so depressed and moody, my life is such a chore, that i dont want to do anymore i dont want to talk to no one, i want to meet someone who feels the way i do, and see what happens.
    ItsAnt ItsAnt 31-35, M 2 Responses Mar 11, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    A while ago I've ordered Nembutal over Internet

    and got it seized by customs ... SO that the only available option now is to travel somwhere I can find and buy Nembutal in person ... I'm planning to go to Peru ...I know where it can be found/bought there ... But I feel I need someone with me to go throgh all this ... If we...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M Mar 12

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Everyday

    Everyday I think about committing suicide I was raised with the idea if you're a good person loyal honest and nice set of ventually you will find someone who loves you but these are false pretenses. This world has changed there is no place for a guy like me anymore. I have to ask...
    TheRascallyOne TheRascallyOne 22-25, M 23 Responses Feb 24, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I have been depressed

    for most of my life so I have thought about it for a long time and I don't see my life will get better. I have spoke to my psychiatrist asking him to raise my medications but he is a little **** - telling me that I just need to get out more and do more things.
    LadyAnonymous123 LadyAnonymous123 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 11, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    In order to accomplish this I am planning to

    travel to SouthAmerica in April... Btw, my method is sodium pentobarbital ( aka Nembutal ) and I know where it can be found there ... I am 47 years old male ... If you want we can discuss further... you can directly contact me at mybygone(at)gmail(dot)com.. Is there any company...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M 5 Responses Mar 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M May 25

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I have attempted suicide twice in the past year,

    I am starting to have the same feelings and thoughts that lead me to make the attempts previously. I spend most of my day laying in bed, and as much as I say I will do something that day, I never seem to make that initial step. I failed in the first two attempts, as I didn't...
    Iwanttodie22 Iwanttodie22 22-25, M 1 Response May 12

    Your Response

    Cancel

    the depression, the anxiety,

    the loneliness, the pain , being judged i'm tired of it i don't know if this is a place for me
    mistywillow mistywillow 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 20, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Am Considering Suicide.

    That is all, really. I needed to say that. I needed to be able to say that, somewhere, to someone, because there are a great many loving, caring people in my life who would be highly distressed if I said this to them. And not only do I love them too much to upset them so greatly...
    overanalytic overanalytic 70+ 2 Responses Jun 3, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Im not afraid to commit suicide.

    Thing is some days when things get really bad i have the perfect plan for it. i try and find a way. but then in between i feel like i shouldn't give in, i should fight my demons. So my thoughts of suicide, are they moments of weakness? or my answer? Ive come to the point where i...
    nelly18 nelly18 18-21 6 Responses Dec 8, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Back here again. I am trying

    so so hard to get help and no one will help me. I called the crisis team and told them I was feeling suicidal on Friday and Sunday. They told me to take my medication and go to sleep. What am I meant to do? I just want to die.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 4

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I really don't need to live anymore.

    I cannot find joy or happiness in anything in life. I have been miserable for too long, and it is time to be in peace. I want drink alcohol, take. 5 percocets and 3 xanax pills. Will that kill me? I don't want to have a failed suicide attempt.
    jvd19xx jvd19xx 18-21, F 7 Responses Apr 10

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I am really sick of these people

    who say things will get better, just don't kill yourself. Who the hell are you?! A fortune teller?! You don't know that things will get better. In my case I attempted suicide and I have been waiting for 2 years for things to get better and nothing has happened. So maybe there...
    saturn89 saturn89 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 12

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My first plan, say Plan "A",

    was about ordering Nembutal over Internet .. I did ... But my parcel has been seized by customs ... So that I now have a Plan "B" ... instead of ordering some stuff over Internet , Plan "B" is about going directly to where I can find the needed stuff , SouthAmerica in this case...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M 1 Response May 3

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Don't Think There Is Any Other Option

    Ive already written about this, but I am losing hope for a miracle. I just made the finishing touches on my "suicide box" or goodbye capsule if you will, today. Letters to my family members, every last one of them, old friends, pictures, and a few other things.and wrapped it all...
    SkippingTheGoldenYears SkippingTheGoldenYears 18-21, F 20 Responses Apr 2, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm tired of living in a cold,

    dark world, full of hatred and despair... I'm tired of constantly hurting... I just want to be happy... I want to die and be free...
    CielPhantomhive1214 CielPhantomhive1214 18-21, F 9 Responses Mar 24, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I was broken and gave up years ago.

    A permanent solution to a temporary problem. How many decades are considered temporary? Things don't get better, they get worse. Yesrs and years of getting worse. I inbox my story and people don't believe it, call it horrific, even a "friday the 13th senario" which is rediculous...
    stevehere76 stevehere76 36-40, M 6 Responses May 30, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    You don't have to be depressed to commit

    suicide. Sometimes, it is based on pure logic. Just because other people don't like your logic, doesn't mean you're wrong. I no longer beat myself up with anger, frustration, sadness, or self-loathing based on how my life has turned out. A lot of is due to situations out of...
    sosheyo sosheyo 41-45, F 3 Responses May 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Feel Like There Is No More Hope.

    I feel so lost and I want to feel wanted. I don't understand why I'm still alive when all I want to be is dead... :'(
    jnash123 jnash123 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 1, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My life is terrible, I can't finish school

    because of my depression, which makes concentrating difficult, and it crushes my desire to want to achieve something more. Getting a job is difficult because I have social anxiety, so job interviews are always disasters for me. I am gay, and my parents are homophobic, so I have...
    saturn89 saturn89 26-30, F Apr 5

    Your Response

    Cancel

    When It Is Time...

    I want to have one wild weekend with someone who also chooses to end her or his life. I want to do things I haven't done for a long time. A couple of drinks, unprotected sex with (a) stranger(s), etc. and then walk into the ocean together. Or toss a coin and the person who wins...
    wimnj wimnj 51-55, M 1 Response May 26, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Beaten, Homeless, Cheeted On, Degraded.

    I really cant do this thing called ''life'' anymore. Its no life, its just an exisance for me. Suppose it all started about 20 years ago when my mum and dad went out for the night and left me with 'the baby sitter'. He was only 16 but i still remember his rancid breath and...
    AllGonePeteTong AllGonePeteTong 26-30, F 8 Responses Nov 20, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel