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I Want to Commit Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,426 People

    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    Well, I give up. Too much.

    Too damn much. I'm not going to go in details because everyone has their reason. I will not go out with a bang by shooting myself or using pills or make a spectacle of myself… I just want to melt away… Disappear. Never exist. Everyone thinks my diet is really a diet but I'm...
    Thepinkcoconut Thepinkcoconut 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 7, 2014

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    Anyone in my place would have committed suicide

    (I'm guessing) But if you are dead inside and can't feel how horrible your life is then it is ok to continue breathing I tried to commit suicide before i went numb
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 26, 2014

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    New to this..I'm an 18 year old sophomore in

    college. I've had depression since I was 13. I've never told anyone I have depression. I've always been a shy, soft-spoken easy going introvert. In the past I was always able to cope on my own. However, over the past year or so I seem to have taken a turn for the worst. there...
    Jmjh Jmjh 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 30

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    Going to take my life here soon.

    Anyone wanna say goodbye feel free
    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M Jun 27

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    I Feel Like There Is No More Hope.

    I feel so lost and I want to feel wanted. I don't understand why I'm still alive when all I want to be is dead... :'(
    jnash123 jnash123 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    Life can sometimes look dark

    but if you can make it through the darkness no matter how dark it is there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Life can be bright again and you can find happiness again. Don't give in to the darkness. Fight through it and you will find happiness again. I promise you...
    GoodLife7 GoodLife7 61-65, M 1 Response Jun 22

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    I Am Considering Suicide.

    That is all, really. I needed to say that. I needed to be able to say that, somewhere, to someone, because there are a great many loving, caring people in my life who would be highly distressed if I said this to them. And not only do I love them too much to upset them so greatly...
    overanalytic overanalytic 70+ 2 Responses Jun 3, 2013

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    the depression, the anxiety,

    the loneliness, the pain , being judged i'm tired of it i don't know if this is a place for me
    mistywillow mistywillow 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 20, 2014

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    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M May 25

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    good news my story about ihopetodie got

    appealed. nevert tought it could happen so fast and get appealed at all. this text didnt really say anything that bad so i tought maybe itll get appealed and it did and verry fast. im suprised and impressed. thanks experience project for not censoring me and stuff that needed to...
    lalala222 lalala222 18-21, M Aug 20

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    Im not afraid to commit suicide.

    Thing is some days when things get really bad i have the perfect plan for it. i try and find a way. but then in between i feel like i shouldn't give in, i should fight my demons. So my thoughts of suicide, are they moments of weakness? or my answer? Ive come to the point where i...
    nelly18 nelly18 18-21 6 Responses Dec 8, 2013

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    Searching for a partner.

    Please answer me in private. Thanks.
    Donie79 Donie79 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    Three Words For Anyone Considering Suicide

    Don't do it! Years ago I seriously considered suicide. I am not going to catalog my reasons. Suffice it to say, I found myself in a long, dry valley of regret and self-loathing.  Depressed, miserable, friendless, and trapped by circumstances not of my own making, I saw only one...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Mar 28, 2012

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    Everyday

    Everyday I think about committing suicide I was raised with the idea if you're a good person loyal honest and nice set of ventually you will find someone who loves you but these are false pretenses. This world has changed there is no place for a guy like me anymore. I have to ask...
    TheRascallyOne TheRascallyOne 22-25, M 23 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    I'm tired of living in a cold,

    dark world, full of hatred and despair... I'm tired of constantly hurting... I just want to be happy... I want to die and be free...
    CielPhantomhive1214 CielPhantomhive1214 18-21, F 9 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    My first plan, say Plan "A",

    was about ordering Nembutal over Internet .. I did ... But my parcel has been seized by customs ... So that I now have a Plan "B" ... instead of ordering some stuff over Internet , Plan "B" is about going directly to where I can find the needed stuff , SouthAmerica in this case...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M 1 Response May 3

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    To everybody on here: If any of you are feeling

    this way, PLEASE message me and I will talk to you for as long as you need. I lost one of my best friends to suicide and I know what feeling this way looks like. I will listen and give advice as best as I can
    beekachu222 beekachu222 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    Have tried to move on in to the spirit world 5

    times naw & the reason why have tryed to kill myself 5 times is because a dont love my life a dont value my life & a dont respect my life a dont love this no good sick evil world a dont value this no good sick evil world & a dont respect this no good sick evil world a need to...
    ADontFearDeath ADontFearDeath 26-30, M Aug 22

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    I will never have a happy life

    and I don't want to be a burden to my family anymore. I've waited for far too long. I should've ended my life two years ago but I was stopped. I am on too much medication and nothing works. I am afraid to tell my psychiatrist that they are not working, for I don't want to upset...
    saturn89 saturn89 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 3

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    Woke up from my suicide dreams this morning

    and cried my heart out. I'm broken.
    Trueawe Trueawe 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 21

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    …….Forget all the bullshit of what has

    happened to you and what is currently going on around you……..if you truly feel like I do its sheer ******* agony! You try to deal with the day to day bullshit and just when you think you may have made it through another day….. All of a sudden the immense anguish and...
    immenseagony immenseagony 46-50, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    i hate the way i look.

    i hate the way i think. i just want to kill myself
    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 16

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    life is so unfair and i hate everything about

    it. i just hate being here its so pointless
    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F May 19

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    Shes Gone

    fell in love with a girl in recovery for narcotics addiction we were both vulnorable and seemed to hit it off but I've never been much good with the opposite sex and I didn't know how to act in she was 20 years younger and beautiful...I'm not going to bore you with all the...
    wnt2die wnt2die 51-55, M 6 Responses Sep 15, 2013

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    i wish killing yourself was a easy thing cause

    i need a way out of it, and i wish you could come back ,but choose to come back and go when you please. i wish they had a suicide pill for sell. anyone know of any easy ways to go, i cant get my hand on a gun. its really hard for me cause i dont have the guts to do it, and i...
    Asiadunn Asiadunn 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 29

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    I Don't Matter Anyway

    I want to die because I cannot stand the pain of being me anymore. I'm a failure, a loser and basically worthless. There is not one thing that I'm good at and all I seem to do is get in the way. No matter what I do I will never be good enough and I just want to end the enormous...
    Abbyjo Abbyjo 18-21, F 24 Responses Apr 3, 2012

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    I'm so tired of myself

    and my life going to commit suicide
    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M 1 Response Jul 13

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    The Perfect Pattern, Spoken By Plato

    The devine design, for there is a devine design for each and every person. There is a place that you can fill and no one else can fill. Something you are to do which no one else can do.
    Bythelight0fthemoon Bythelight0fthemoon 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    No Reason To Live

    I'm tired of living and want to end my life. The feeling of sadness rules my life with no remorse, I wake up every morning with feelings of sadness, hopelessness and the thought of death. I have a few friends but I can't talk to them because everytime I try, I get blown off with...
    Z33t Z33t 26-30, M 10 Responses Aug 11, 2012

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    I'm 27 and I just don't want to live.

    I still live with my parents and they treat me like a puppy. Even if they respected me and I lived on my own, I don't want to be a social person who has a job and friends and travels and lives the life everyone wants. I don't see the value in money. I don't see the value in...
    Sprinkles425 Sprinkles425 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    Suicide. I am unemployed.

    I am going to be foreclosed on. Hell I try and be nice to others and am treated with the up most contempt. It is if I was wearing a kick me sign. I have absolutely no friends or future. Why does god hate me. I've got a case of cerebral palsy. No relationships to speak of. A lady...
    razorvol razorvol 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 6

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    I Plan To Commit Suicide By 27

    I am 24 years old, and am so unhappy. I take medication, I go to therepy, I have done EVERYTHING in the book to help myself get "better". I have felt this way ever since I was thirteen years old. I do not plan on making this post a life story post, but some background I believe...
    Lindss119 Lindss119 22-25, F 12 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    I am a 67 yr old man

    who has had two heart surgeries and two heart attacks. It has been discovered that I have an abdominal aortic aneurysm that will need surgery but due to losing my job (because of applying for a medical leave) I'm now in bankruptcy and since I can't make the payments I'll be...
    bobman623 bobman623 66-70, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    A need to redeem myself by moving on in to the

    spirit world cause l want my honor back
    ADontFearDeath ADontFearDeath 26-30, M Aug 22

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    I Don't Think There Is Any Other Option

    Ive already written about this, but I am losing hope for a miracle. I just made the finishing touches on my "suicide box" or goodbye capsule if you will, today. Letters to my family members, every last one of them, old friends, pictures, and a few other things.and wrapped it all...
    SkippingTheGoldenYears SkippingTheGoldenYears 18-21, F 20 Responses Apr 2, 2012

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    it shouldn't be so easy to kill yourself

    if you weren't supposed to.
    FallenCastiel FallenCastiel 18-21, T Jun 26

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    im just the weirdest hunman being.

    i cant do anything right. my life is a joke and a mess. i dont know anything. i cant gain weight. i cant do ANYTHING RIGHT. i hate myself
    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F 2 Responses May 21

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    A few years ago i made a mistake.

    I was mentally unstable at the time and i did something that i will never forgive myself for. I was arrested, charged and sentenced for it. I never recieced a prison sentence but i wish i had. Instead a news article was put on the internet, on facebook and everyone i care about...
    dclarke556 dclarke556 18-21, M Jun 14

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    ok wrote about calling out ihopetodie

    and him blocking me but my story got flagged before it went up. strange couse my previous post was also guite offensive. strange how this group i wanna commit suicide is up and some people say that they wanna kill themselves yet theyr storeies arent getting flagged but my story...
    lalala222 lalala222 18-21, M Aug 19

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    I Dont Think Its An Option!!!

    As the title says,I dont think this is an optionMy girlfriend got her vocal cords ripped in a cancer shock,her cousin raped her and broke her legs and i cant contacther either from skype/phone/in person. She is 99% Dead.My parents and cousin are also dead of cancer,And my friends...
    123hey123 123hey123 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 26, 2013

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    Today I have thoughts .

    I should try prayer again.
    heathee heathee 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 1, 2014

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    Last Night..

    I've had really bad times where depression has taken over me and made me feel worthless, empty and like I was the only person on this ****** up world, but last night was just different. I never felt this horrible like I did last night, the whole night I cried, the kind of...
    eskieloner eskieloner 22-25, F 15 Responses Dec 18, 2011

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    I Almost Got Hit By A Car

    A few days ago, I was mindlessly walking across an intersection as a car sped around the corner, headed straight for me. I heard people on the streets gasp, one of them even screamed and then I processed what was going on. The weird thing is, I didn't have a moment of panic. My...
    daaytripper daaytripper 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 4, 2013

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    When It Is Time...

    I want to have one wild weekend with someone who also chooses to end her or his life. I want to do things I haven't done for a long time. A couple of drinks, unprotected sex with (a) stranger(s), etc. and then walk into the ocean together. Or toss a coin and the person who wins...
    wimnj wimnj 51-55, M 1 Response May 26, 2013

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