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I Want to Commit Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,417 People

    Woke up from my suicide dreams this morning

    and cried my heart out. I'm broken.
    Trueawe Trueawe 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 21

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    I'm tired of living in a cold,

    dark world, full of hatred and despair... I'm tired of constantly hurting... I just want to be happy... I want to die and be free...
    CielPhantomhive1214 CielPhantomhive1214 18-21, F 9 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    it's loaded & ready to shoot my mouth.

    why it is too hard to press this fu**** trigger
    ElenaSuicidal ElenaSuicidal 22-25, F 5 Responses May 28

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    Im not afraid to commit suicide.

    Thing is some days when things get really bad i have the perfect plan for it. i try and find a way. but then in between i feel like i shouldn't give in, i should fight my demons. So my thoughts of suicide, are they moments of weakness? or my answer? Ive come to the point where i...
    nelly18 nelly18 18-21 6 Responses Dec 8, 2013

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    I Don't Think There Is Any Other Option

    Ive already written about this, but I am losing hope for a miracle. I just made the finishing touches on my "suicide box" or goodbye capsule if you will, today. Letters to my family members, every last one of them, old friends, pictures, and a few other things.and wrapped it all...
    SkippingTheGoldenYears SkippingTheGoldenYears 18-21, F 20 Responses Apr 2, 2012

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    I have attempted suicide twice in the past year,

    I am starting to have the same feelings and thoughts that lead me to make the attempts previously. I spend most of my day laying in bed, and as much as I say I will do something that day, I never seem to make that initial step. I failed in the first two attempts, as I didn't...
    Iwanttodie22 Iwanttodie22 22-25, M 1 Response May 12

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    No Reason To Live

    I'm tired of living and want to end my life. The feeling of sadness rules my life with no remorse, I wake up every morning with feelings of sadness, hopelessness and the thought of death. I have a few friends but I can't talk to them because everytime I try, I get blown off with...
    Z33t Z33t 26-30, M 10 Responses Aug 11, 2012

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    I really don't need to live anymore.

    I cannot find joy or happiness in anything in life. I have been miserable for too long, and it is time to be in peace. I want drink alcohol, take. 5 percocets and 3 xanax pills. Will that kill me? I don't want to have a failed suicide attempt.
    jvd19xx jvd19xx 18-21, F 7 Responses Apr 10

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    I am 48 years old , I have had PTSD

    since I came back from beyrouth in 1984, I am sorrounded by people who are telling they understand but they have not a clue so I just not yeah yeah .deep inside I believe it is time for me to go , I having nightmare of my army days . I don't want help I just want fast way out...
    anafoundis anafoundis 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 18

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    New to this..I'm an 18 year old sophomore in

    college. I've had depression since I was 13. I've never told anyone I have depression. I've always been a shy, soft-spoken easy going introvert. In the past I was always able to cope on my own. However, over the past year or so I seem to have taken a turn for the worst. there...
    Jmjh Jmjh 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have been depressed

    for most of my life so I have thought about it for a long time and I don't see my life will get better. I have spoke to my psychiatrist asking him to raise my medications but he is a little **** - telling me that I just need to get out more and do more things.
    LadyAnonymous123 LadyAnonymous123 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 11, 2014

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    I wonder. People say it is selfish to commit

    suicide. In my case for one reason, it would be. But, in general, is it not selfish of other people to want you to stay? Again not so much in my case as I have no family or friends. But, people only want you not to kill yourself so that they don't feel the same level of pain...
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 3, 2014

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    I Wish I Was Never Born

    Life seems filled with only pain & suffering all i ever do is remember is the times people or family hurt me. Lies about things will get better & time heals its BS....Suicide is the answer being on disability i need to find a quick cheap way to kill myself. Please no crap about...
    Scaredalone2 Scaredalone2 36-40, M 8 Responses Nov 6, 2013

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    I Plan 2 Die

    Im tired of life, nothing excites me anymore only when im high i feel happy im so depressed and moody, my life is such a chore, that i dont want to do anymore i dont want to talk to no one, i want to meet someone who feels the way i do, and see what happens.
    ItsAnt ItsAnt 31-35, M 2 Responses Mar 11, 2013

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    Everyday

    Everyday I think about committing suicide I was raised with the idea if you're a good person loyal honest and nice set of ventually you will find someone who loves you but these are false pretenses. This world has changed there is no place for a guy like me anymore. I have to ask...
    TheRascallyOne TheRascallyOne 22-25, M 23 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    Shes Gone

    fell in love with a girl in recovery for narcotics addiction we were both vulnorable and seemed to hit it off but I've never been much good with the opposite sex and I didn't know how to act in she was 20 years younger and beautiful...I'm not going to bore you with all the...
    wnt2die wnt2die 51-55, M 6 Responses Sep 15, 2013

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    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    I will never have a happy life

    and I don't want to be a burden to my family anymore. I've waited for far too long. I should've ended my life two years ago but I was stopped. I am on too much medication and nothing works. I am afraid to tell my psychiatrist that they are not working, for I don't want to upset...
    saturn89 saturn89 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 3

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    Am looking for someone two make a suicide pact

    with me I am really struggling with life I can't see a way forward sick of people saying it will get better soon they don't understand
    chantal532 chantal532 18-21, F 5 Responses May 28

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    Well, I give up. Too much.

    Too damn much. I'm not going to go in details because everyone has their reason. I will not go out with a bang by shooting myself or using pills or make a spectacle of myself… I just want to melt away… Disappear. Never exist. Everyone thinks my diet is really a diet but I'm...
    Thepinkcoconut Thepinkcoconut 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 7, 2014

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    Anyone in my place would have committed suicide

    (I'm guessing) But if you are dead inside and can't feel how horrible your life is then it is ok to continue breathing I tried to commit suicide before i went numb
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 26, 2014

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    Last Night..

    I've had really bad times where depression has taken over me and made me feel worthless, empty and like I was the only person on this ****** up world, but last night was just different. I never felt this horrible like I did last night, the whole night I cried, the kind of...
    eskieloner eskieloner 22-25, F 15 Responses Dec 18, 2011

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    A few years ago i made a mistake.

    I was mentally unstable at the time and i did something that i will never forgive myself for. I was arrested, charged and sentenced for it. I never recieced a prison sentence but i wish i had. Instead a news article was put on the internet, on facebook and everyone i care about...
    dclarke556 dclarke556 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 14

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    My first plan, say Plan "A",

    was about ordering Nembutal over Internet .. I did ... But my parcel has been seized by customs ... So that I now have a Plan "B" ... instead of ordering some stuff over Internet , Plan "B" is about going directly to where I can find the needed stuff , SouthAmerica in this case...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M 3 Responses Mar 26

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    Life can sometimes look dark

    but if you can make it through the darkness no matter how dark it is there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Life can be bright again and you can find happiness again. Don't give in to the darkness. Fight through it and you will find happiness again. I promise you...
    GoodLife7 GoodLife7 56-60, M 1 Response Jun 22

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    Searching for a partner.

    Please answer me in private. Thanks.
    Donie79 Donie79 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    the depression, the anxiety,

    the loneliness, the pain , being judged i'm tired of it i don't know if this is a place for me
    mistywillow mistywillow 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 20, 2014

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    Suicide is hard, life is easy.

    Everyday I wake and acknowledge in a life or death situation where I'm not in control; I will choose life. However put a pistol in my hand and give me a choice....well use your imagination. My life is a cliche. Mommy and daddy didn't show me enough love. Social outcast...
    JohnoCA JohnoCA 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 13, 2014

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    My first plan, say Plan "A",

    was about ordering Nembutal over Internet .. I did ... But my parcel has been seized by customs ... So that I now have a Plan "B" ... instead of ordering some stuff over Internet , Plan "B" is about going directly to where I can find the needed stuff , SouthAmerica in this case...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M 1 Response May 3

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    i hate the way i look.

    i hate the way i think. i just want to kill myself
    ihatebeingblack44 ihatebeingblack44 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 16

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    Reasons: I have severe depression,

    I have low self-esteem, I gained 30 pounds in the last 3 -4 months,I have a personal condition, my back has been injured and I haven't been able to work out since August, I can't find a job, I don't have a car, I donihave anyone to vent or talk to anymore, no one understands me...
    Thefightingangel Thefightingangel 22-25, M Jan 22

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    I was broken and gave up years ago.

    A permanent solution to a temporary problem. How many decades are considered temporary? Things don't get better, they get worse. Yesrs and years of getting worse. I inbox my story and people don't believe it, call it horrific, even a "friday the 13th senario" which is rediculous...
    stevehere76 stevehere76 36-40, M 6 Responses May 30, 2014

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    I Plan To Commit Suicide By 27

    I am 24 years old, and am so unhappy. I take medication, I go to therepy, I have done EVERYTHING in the book to help myself get "better". I have felt this way ever since I was thirteen years old. I do not plan on making this post a life story post, but some background I believe...
    Lindss119 Lindss119 22-25, F 12 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    Hi I'm new here. I've never done anything like

    this before but i think i would like to share an Experience. I became clinically depressed when i was about 13 years old. There wasn't any big story that caused this. It's just that i realized that i am not normal. I couldn't get any sleep so i drank a lot of alcohol and i cut...
    bobe91 bobe91 22-25, M Apr 22

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    I'm so tired of myself

    and my life going to commit suicide
    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M 1 Response Jul 13

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    I Dont Think Its An Option!!!

    As the title says,I dont think this is an optionMy girlfriend got her vocal cords ripped in a cancer shock,her cousin raped her and broke her legs and i cant contacther either from skype/phone/in person. She is 99% Dead.My parents and cousin are also dead of cancer,And my friends...
    123hey123 123hey123 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 26, 2013

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    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M May 25

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    I Am Considering Suicide.

    That is all, really. I needed to say that. I needed to be able to say that, somewhere, to someone, because there are a great many loving, caring people in my life who would be highly distressed if I said this to them. And not only do I love them too much to upset them so greatly...
    overanalytic overanalytic 70+ 2 Responses Jun 3, 2013

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    I'm fed up with live.

    Just want to stop that. Is there someone who want to do this in group?
    Donie79 Donie79 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    A while ago I've ordered Nembutal over Internet

    and got it seized by customs ... SO that the only available option now is to travel somwhere I can find and buy Nembutal in person ... I'm planning to go to Peru ...I know where it can be found/bought there ... But I feel I need someone with me to go throgh all this ... If we...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M Mar 12

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    When It Is Time...

    I want to have one wild weekend with someone who also chooses to end her or his life. I want to do things I haven't done for a long time. A couple of drinks, unprotected sex with (a) stranger(s), etc. and then walk into the ocean together. Or toss a coin and the person who wins...
    wimnj wimnj 51-55, M 1 Response May 26, 2013

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    I Don't Matter Anyway

    I want to die because I cannot stand the pain of being me anymore. I'm a failure, a loser and basically worthless. There is not one thing that I'm good at and all I seem to do is get in the way. No matter what I do I will never be good enough and I just want to end the enormous...
    Abbyjo Abbyjo 18-21, F 24 Responses Apr 3, 2012

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    Today I have thoughts .

    I should try prayer again.
    heathee heathee 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 1, 2014

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    I have been dealing with depression

    for most of my life, I have a mental disability that stops me from doing most things, recently my fiancée walked out on me and that has just sent me over the edge of no return, I don't want to continue in this life any more, can anyone help, I am also currently drunk from...
    Luna91 Luna91 18-21, M Mar 7

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    it shouldn't be so easy to kill yourself

    if you weren't supposed to.
    FallenCastiel FallenCastiel 18-21, T Jun 26

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    To everybody on here: If any of you are feeling

    this way, PLEASE message me and I will talk to you for as long as you need. I lost one of my best friends to suicide and I know what feeling this way looks like. I will listen and give advice as best as I can
    beekachu222 beekachu222 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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