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I Want to Commit Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,392 People

    Fuckthisshit

    I'm scared of life. I think about the countless number of days ahead of me and I feel trapped. Trapped living. Trapped in my mind. I feel insane. I'm dying to get out. Dying to be free. I wish it it was all over. I wish I had the choice to end it all. Why don't I have the choice...
    MELIZAS1234 MELIZAS1234 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 18, 2013

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    I Plan 2 Die

    Im tired of life, nothing excites me anymore only when im high i feel happy im so depressed and moody, my life is such a chore, that i dont want to do anymore i dont want to talk to no one, i want to meet someone who feels the way i do, and see what happens.
    ItsAnt ItsAnt 31-35, M 1 Response Mar 11, 2013

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    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M 2 Responses Feb 25

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    Stupid people reporting my posts!

    ! Why is there a group for wanting to commit suicide if I am just going to get my posts removed? If you don't like my posts then block me. I will be doing it tonight. Report all you like. I just wanted a bit of support before I went.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 4

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    i wish killing yourself was a easy thing cause

    i need a way out of it, and i wish you could come back ,but choose to come back and go when you please. i wish they had a suicide pill for sell. anyone know of any easy ways to go, i cant get my hand on a gun. its really hard for me cause i dont have the guts to do it, and i...
    Asiadunn Asiadunn 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    My life is terrible, I can't finish school

    because of my depression, which makes concentrating difficult, and it crushes my desire to want to achieve something more. Getting a job is difficult because I have social anxiety, so job interviews are always disasters for me. I am gay, and my parents are homophobic, so I have...
    saturn89 saturn89 26-30, F Apr 5

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    Shes Gone

    fell in love with a girl in recovery for narcotics addiction we were both vulnorable and seemed to hit it off but I've never been much good with the opposite sex and I didn't know how to act in she was 20 years younger and beautiful...I'm not going to bore you with all the...
    wnt2die wnt2die 51-55, M 6 Responses Sep 15, 2013

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    I Don't Matter Anyway

    I want to die because I cannot stand the pain of being me anymore. I'm a failure, a loser and basically worthless. There is not one thing that I'm good at and all I seem to do is get in the way. No matter what I do I will never be good enough and I just want to end the enormous...
    Abbyjo Abbyjo 18-21, F 24 Responses Apr 3, 2012

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    This is for all those people with a saviour

    complex. 'A dead man has no significance unless one has seen them dead, a hundred million bodies spread through history are just a mist drifting through the imagination.' Albert Camus
    JohnoCA JohnoCA 18-21, M Feb 11

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    After 15 years and literally dozens of attempts,

    I think I have a good plan. Want to run it by a non reactive medical professional if there are any on here.
    Allenovich Allenovich 26-30, T 1 Response Dec 15, 2014

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    I'm so lonely. I have nobody

    that can physically comfort me. I'm tired of living like this! Why won't anyone accept me for who I am? All of my family and all of my friends are religious and homophobic. My parents are so ashamed that they have a gay daughter. I should just save everyone the embarrassment and...
    kberry95 kberry95 18-21, F 11 Responses Jun 1, 2014

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    What I would do, what I would give not to

    cuddle with just any random person but with that one special person. Unfortunately, I've come to understand that person doesn't exist for me. I've been so lonely that I've thought about even dating a guy. Have you ever felt that lonely? That something you know you don't like you...
    Weretiger Weretiger 26-30 5 Responses Jan 15

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    I Dont Think Its An Option!!!

    As the title says,I dont think this is an optionMy girlfriend got her vocal cords ripped in a cancer shock,her cousin raped her and broke her legs and i cant contacther either from skype/phone/in person. She is 99% Dead.My parents and cousin are also dead of cancer,And my friends...
    123hey123 123hey123 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 26, 2013

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    Life feels like an ocean

    and that I just got trapped in a current that won't seem to let me go. I was raised by my mother and an emotionally abusive step-dad. I am now 18 and although my mother has long since divorced him, I feel worse now than I ever did before. From my mother constantly making me look...
    Pianokeeper96 Pianokeeper96 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 1

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    I can't be bothered anymore.

    I'm sick of fighting just for a normal life. People get the simplest things and take them for granted. I just wanted to be loved but it was too much to ask. I'm done with life.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 7

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    Im not afraid to commit suicide.

    Thing is some days when things get really bad i have the perfect plan for it. i try and find a way. but then in between i feel like i shouldn't give in, i should fight my demons. So my thoughts of suicide, are they moments of weakness? or my answer? Ive come to the point where i...
    nelly18 nelly18 18-21 6 Responses Dec 8, 2013

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    I am 48 years old , I have had PTSD

    since I came back from beyrouth in 1984, I am sorrounded by people who are telling they understand but they have not a clue so I just not yeah yeah .deep inside I believe it is time for me to go , I having nightmare of my army days . I don't want help I just want fast way out...
    anafoundis anafoundis 46-50, M Mar 18

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    I Plan To Commit Suicide By 27

    I am 24 years old, and am so unhappy. I take medication, I go to therepy, I have done EVERYTHING in the book to help myself get "better". I have felt this way ever since I was thirteen years old. I do not plan on making this post a life story post, but some background I believe...
    Lindss119 Lindss119 22-25, F 10 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    I was broken and gave up years ago.

    A permanent solution to a temporary problem. How many decades are considered temporary? Things don't get better, they get worse. Yesrs and years of getting worse. I inbox my story and people don't believe it, call it horrific, even a "friday the 13th senario" which is rediculous...
    stevehere76 stevehere76 36-40, M 6 Responses May 30, 2014

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    I really don't need to live anymore.

    I cannot find joy or happiness in anything in life. I have been miserable for too long, and it is time to be in peace. I want drink alcohol, take. 5 percocets and 3 xanax pills. Will that kill me? I don't want to have a failed suicide attempt.
    jvd19xx jvd19xx 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    Well, I give up. Too much.

    Too damn much. I'm not going to go in details because everyone has their reason. I will not go out with a bang by shooting myself or using pills or make a spectacle of myself… I just want to melt away… Disappear. Never exist. Everyone thinks my diet is really a diet but I'm...
    Thepinkcoconut Thepinkcoconut 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 7, 2014

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    the depression, the anxiety,

    the loneliness, the pain , being judged i'm tired of it i don't know if this is a place for me
    antonelidatsmyname antonelidatsmyname 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 20, 2014

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    I have been depressed

    for most of my life so I have thought about it for a long time and I don't see my life will get better. I have spoke to my psychiatrist asking him to raise my medications but he is a little **** - telling me that I just need to get out more and do more things.
    LadyAnonymous123 LadyAnonymous123 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 11, 2014

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    To everybody on here: If any of you are feeling

    this way, PLEASE message me and I will talk to you for as long as you need. I lost one of my best friends to suicide and I know what feeling this way looks like. I will listen and give advice as best as I can
    beekachu222 beekachu222 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    I have been dealing with suicidal thoughts

    and depression since I was a preteen. I am now 47 years old. I don't really know what to say right now except that I'm tired of dealing with these thoughts. I just want it all to be over. I guess I just don't deal with life very effectively. Instead of trying to deal with...
    adamick4 adamick4 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 18, 2014

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    chack out my suicide chat room cute

    and past the link http://www.chatzy.com/37831562858889
    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M Jan 17

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    Reasons: I have severe depression,

    I have low self-esteem, I gained 30 pounds in the last 3 -4 months,I have a personal condition, my back has been injured and I haven't been able to work out since August, I can't find a job, I don't have a car, I donihave anyone to vent or talk to anymore, no one understands me...
    Thefightingangel Thefightingangel 22-25, M Jan 22

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    I Wish I Was Never Born

    Life seems filled with only pain & suffering all i ever do is remember is the times people or family hurt me. Lies about things will get better & time heals its BS....Suicide is the answer being on disability i need to find a quick cheap way to kill myself. Please no crap about...
    Scaredalone2 Scaredalone2 36-40, M 7 Responses Nov 6, 2013

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    I'm tired of living in a cold,

    dark world, full of hatred and despair... I'm tired of constantly hurting... I just want to be happy... I want to die and be free...
    CielPhantomhive1214 CielPhantomhive1214 18-21, F 9 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    Today I have thoughts .

    I should try prayer again.
    heathee heathee 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 1, 2014

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    Everyday

    Everyday I think about committing suicide I was raised with the idea if you're a good person loyal honest and nice set of ventually you will find someone who loves you but these are false pretenses. This world has changed there is no place for a guy like me anymore. I have to ask...
    TheRascallyOne TheRascallyOne 22-25, M 23 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    All these people get killed every day.

    Why not me? I wish someone would come and kill me. Other people die and it's a great tragedy. No one would care if I died so why not me?
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 4

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    I Don't Think There Is Any Other Option

    Ive already written about this, but I am losing hope for a miracle. I just made the finishing touches on my "suicide box" or goodbye capsule if you will, today. Letters to my family members, every last one of them, old friends, pictures, and a few other things.and wrapped it all...
    SkippingTheGoldenYears SkippingTheGoldenYears 18-21, F 20 Responses Apr 2, 2012

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    I Feel Like There Is No More Hope.

    I feel so lost and I want to feel wanted. I don't understand why I'm still alive when all I want to be is dead... :'(
    jnash123 jnash123 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    Death is the only thing

    that comforts me. I hate my life and all the people in it so much that there seems no other way. I have never had the constitution to commit suicide, but I was recently told I have cancer. It is treatable, but I have decided not to have treatment so that I can die. This is...
    ninedecember ninedecember 46-50, M 2 Responses Jan 8

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    I have no one to talk to

    but to a website, how pathetic is that? I have all the elements that make a human being a walking disaster and failure. Suicide will be my end, no matter what anyone says, for no matter how much I try to get better and to see the bright light at the end of the tunnel, life hits...
    saturn89 saturn89 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    In order to accomplish this I am planning to

    travel to SouthAmerica in April... Btw, my method is sodium pentobarbital ( aka Nembutal ) and I know where it can be found there ... I am 47 years old male ... If you want we can discuss further... you can directly contact me at mybygone(at)gmail(dot)com.. Is there any company...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M 4 Responses Mar 4

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    Hi I'm new here. I've never done anything like

    this before but i think i would like to share an Experience. I became clinically depressed when i was about 13 years old. There wasn't any big story that caused this. It's just that i realized that i am not normal. I couldn't get any sleep so i drank a lot of alcohol and i cut...
    bobe91 bobe91 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    A while ago I've ordered Nembutal over Internet

    and got it seized by customs ... SO that the only available option now is to travel somwhere I can find and buy Nembutal in person ... I'm planning to go to Peru ...I know where it can be found/bought there ... But I feel I need someone with me to go throgh all this ... If we...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M Mar 12

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    Three Words For Anyone Considering Suicide

    Don't do it! Years ago I seriously considered suicide. I am not going to catalog my reasons. Suffice it to say, I found myself in a long, dry valley of regret and self-loathing.  Depressed, miserable, friendless, and trapped by circumstances not of my own making, I saw only one...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Mar 28, 2012

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    Anyone in my place would have committed suicide

    (I'm guessing) But if you are dead inside and can't feel how horrible your life is then it is ok to continue breathing I tried to commit suicide before i went numb
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 26, 2014

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    My first plan, say Plan "A",

    was about ordering Nembutal over Internet .. I did ... But my parcel has been seized by customs ... So that I now have a Plan "B" ... instead of ordering some stuff over Internet , Plan "B" is about going directly to where I can find the needed stuff , SouthAmerica in this case...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 26

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    I Am Considering Suicide.

    That is all, really. I needed to say that. I needed to be able to say that, somewhere, to someone, because there are a great many loving, caring people in my life who would be highly distressed if I said this to them. And not only do I love them too much to upset them so greatly...
    overanalytic overanalytic 70+ 2 Responses Jun 3, 2013

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    When It Is Time...

    I want to have one wild weekend with someone who also chooses to end her or his life. I want to do things I haven't done for a long time. A couple of drinks, unprotected sex with (a) stranger(s), etc. and then walk into the ocean together. Or toss a coin and the person who wins...
    wimnj wimnj 51-55, M 1 Response May 26, 2013

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    i want to comit sucide

    for many reasons but mainly because of fear and depression i want to do it with someone, i think this would help make it more final for me we would leave a video of whatever you want to say,not a sob story but just what you have on your mind.
    Asiadunn Asiadunn 22-25, F 8 Responses Jan 28

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    I am really sick of these people

    who say things will get better, just don't kill yourself. Who the hell are you?! A fortune teller?! You don't know that things will get better. In my case I attempted suicide and I have been waiting for 2 years for things to get better and nothing has happened. So maybe there...