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I Want to Commit Suicide

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    I am really sick of these people

    who say things will get better, just don't kill yourself. Who the hell are you?! A fortune teller?! You don't know that things will get better. In my case I attempted suicide and I have been waiting for 2 years for things to get better and nothing has happened. So maybe there...
    saturn89 saturn89 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    Fuckthisshit

    I'm scared of life. I think about the countless number of days ahead of me and I feel trapped. Trapped living. Trapped in my mind. I feel insane. I'm dying to get out. Dying to be free. I wish it it was all over. I wish I had the choice to end it all. Why don't I have the choice...
    MELIZAS1234 MELIZAS1234 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 18, 2013

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    I'm like so many others in this forum.

    I've thought of suicide everyday most of my life. I really think someone that can commit suicide is the strongest person ever. I look up to anyone that can do it. I'm not sure why I haven't and don't understand why more people don't. Odd, the thought is always there. I'm...
    wanadoit wanadoit 66-70 1 Response Mar 1

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    My first plan, say Plan "A",

    was about ordering Nembutal over Internet .. I did ... But my parcel has been seized by customs ... So that I now have a Plan "B" ... instead of ordering some stuff over Internet , Plan "B" is about going directly to where I can find the needed stuff , SouthAmerica in this case...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M 3 Responses Mar 26

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    I Feel Like There Is No More Hope.

    I feel so lost and I want to feel wanted. I don't understand why I'm still alive when all I want to be is dead... :'(
    jnash123 jnash123 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    I Wish I Was Never Born

    Life seems filled with only pain & suffering all i ever do is remember is the times people or family hurt me. Lies about things will get better & time heals its BS....Suicide is the answer being on disability i need to find a quick cheap way to kill myself. Please no crap about...
    Scaredalone2 Scaredalone2 36-40, M 8 Responses Nov 6, 2013

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    I'm tired of living in a cold,

    dark world, full of hatred and despair... I'm tired of constantly hurting... I just want to be happy... I want to die and be free...
    CielPhantomhive1214 CielPhantomhive1214 18-21, F 9 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    im just the weirdest hunman being.

    i cant do anything right. my life is a joke and a mess. i dont know anything. i cant gain weight. i cant do ANYTHING RIGHT. i hate myself
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am 48 years old , I have had PTSD

    since I came back from beyrouth in 1984, I am sorrounded by people who are telling they understand but they have not a clue so I just not yeah yeah .deep inside I believe it is time for me to go , I having nightmare of my army days . I don't want help I just want fast way out...
    anafoundis anafoundis 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I Don't Matter Anyway

    I want to die because I cannot stand the pain of being me anymore. I'm a failure, a loser and basically worthless. There is not one thing that I'm good at and all I seem to do is get in the way. No matter what I do I will never be good enough and I just want to end the enormous...
    Abbyjo Abbyjo 18-21, F 24 Responses Apr 3, 2012

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    I Almost Got Hit By A Car

    A few days ago, I was mindlessly walking across an intersection as a car sped around the corner, headed straight for me. I heard people on the streets gasp, one of them even screamed and then I processed what was going on. The weird thing is, I didn't have a moment of panic. My...
    daaytripper daaytripper 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 4, 2013

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    A while ago I've ordered Nembutal over Internet

    and got it seized by customs ... SO that the only available option now is to travel somwhere I can find and buy Nembutal in person ... I'm planning to go to Peru ...I know where it can be found/bought there ... But I feel I need someone with me to go throgh all this ... If we...
    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M Mar 12

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    Stupid people reporting my posts!

    ! Why is there a group for wanting to commit suicide if I am just going to get my posts removed? If you don't like my posts then block me. I will be doing it tonight. Report all you like. I just wanted a bit of support before I went.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 4

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    the depression, the anxiety,

    the loneliness, the pain , being judged i'm tired of it i don't know if this is a place for me
    mistywillow mistywillow 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 20, 2014

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    Reasons: I have severe depression,

    I have low self-esteem, I gained 30 pounds in the last 3 -4 months,I have a personal condition, my back has been injured and I haven't been able to work out since August, I can't find a job, I don't have a car, I donihave anyone to vent or talk to anymore, no one understands me...
    Thefightingangel Thefightingangel 22-25, M Jan 22

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    I wonder. People say it is selfish to commit

    suicide. In my case for one reason, it would be. But, in general, is it not selfish of other people to want you to stay? Again not so much in my case as I have no family or friends. But, people only want you not to kill yourself so that they don't feel the same level of pain...
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 6 Responses Oct 3, 2014

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    i want to comit sucide

    for many reasons but mainly because of fear and depression i want to do it with someone, i think this would help make it more final for me we would leave a video of whatever you want to say,not a sob story but just what you have on your mind.
    Asiadunn Asiadunn 22-25, F 8 Responses Jan 28

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    chack out my suicide chat room cute

    and past the link http://www.chatzy.com/37831562858889
    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M Jan 17

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    life is so unfair and i hate everything about

    it. i just hate being here its so pointless
    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Three Words For Anyone Considering Suicide

    Don't do it! Years ago I seriously considered suicide. I am not going to catalog my reasons. Suffice it to say, I found myself in a long, dry valley of regret and self-loathing.  Depressed, miserable, friendless, and trapped by circumstances not of my own making, I saw only one...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Mar 28, 2012

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    I can't be bothered anymore.

    I'm sick of fighting just for a normal life. People get the simplest things and take them for granted. I just wanted to be loved but it was too much to ask. I'm done with life.
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 7

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    Im not afraid to commit suicide.

    Thing is some days when things get really bad i have the perfect plan for it. i try and find a way. but then in between i feel like i shouldn't give in, i should fight my demons. So my thoughts of suicide, are they moments of weakness? or my answer? Ive come to the point where i...
    nelly18 nelly18 18-21 6 Responses Dec 8, 2013

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    I have attempted suicide twice in the past year,

    I am starting to have the same feelings and thoughts that lead me to make the attempts previously. I spend most of my day laying in bed, and as much as I say I will do something that day, I never seem to make that initial step. I failed in the first two attempts, as I didn't...
    Iwanttodie22 Iwanttodie22 22-25, M 1 Response May 12

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    Life feels like an ocean

    and that I just got trapped in a current that won't seem to let me go. I was raised by my mother and an emotionally abusive step-dad. I am now 18 and although my mother has long since divorced him, I feel worse now than I ever did before. From my mother constantly making me look...
    Pianokeeper96 Pianokeeper96 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 1

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    To everybody on here: If any of you are feeling

    this way, PLEASE message me and I will talk to you for as long as you need. I lost one of my best friends to suicide and I know what feeling this way looks like. I will listen and give advice as best as I can
    beekachu222 beekachu222 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    I Don't Think There Is Any Other Option

    Ive already written about this, but I am losing hope for a miracle. I just made the finishing touches on my "suicide box" or goodbye capsule if you will, today. Letters to my family members, every last one of them, old friends, pictures, and a few other things.and wrapped it all...
    SkippingTheGoldenYears SkippingTheGoldenYears 18-21, F 20 Responses Apr 2, 2012

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    Beaten, Homeless, Cheeted On, Degraded.

    I really cant do this thing called ''life'' anymore. Its no life, its just an exisance for me. Suppose it all started about 20 years ago when my mum and dad went out for the night and left me with 'the baby sitter'. He was only 16 but i still remember his rancid breath and...
    AllGonePeteTong AllGonePeteTong 26-30, F 8 Responses Nov 20, 2009

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    Well, I give up. Too much.

    Too damn much. I'm not going to go in details because everyone has their reason. I will not go out with a bang by shooting myself or using pills or make a spectacle of myself… I just want to melt away… Disappear. Never exist. Everyone thinks my diet is really a diet but I'm...
    Thepinkcoconut Thepinkcoconut 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 7, 2014

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    This is for all those people with a saviour

    complex. 'A dead man has no significance unless one has seen them dead, a hundred million bodies spread through history are just a mist drifting through the imagination.' Albert Camus
    JohnoCA JohnoCA 18-21, M Feb 11

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    .. But I cannot do it on my own.

    I will pay someone a nice sum if they can kill me. Serious offers please, in Northern Virginia area.
    JahRoss JahRoss 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    life is too hard ,im 61

    and it only gets worse .after 21 surgeries over 20 years and still pounding pain meds is just the beginning . I have hard to live for 57 years with the haunting thoughts of being sexually and physically abused as a child . I can't take much more .self medication isn't cutting it...
    wantingout1239 wantingout1239 61-65, M 3 Responses Feb 25

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    I have been dealing with depression

    for most of my life, I have a mental disability that stops me from doing most things, recently my fiancée walked out on me and that has just sent me over the edge of no return, I don't want to continue in this life any more, can anyone help, I am also currently drunk from...
    Luna91 Luna91 18-21, M Mar 7

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    I have been depressed

    for most of my life so I have thought about it for a long time and I don't see my life will get better. I have spoke to my psychiatrist asking him to raise my medications but he is a little **** - telling me that I just need to get out more and do more things.
    LadyAnonymous123 LadyAnonymous123 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 11, 2014

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    My life is terrible, I can't finish school

    because of my depression, which makes concentrating difficult, and it crushes my desire to want to achieve something more. Getting a job is difficult because I have social anxiety, so job interviews are always disasters for me. I am gay, and my parents are homophobic, so I have...
    saturn89 saturn89 26-30, F Apr 5

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    Anyone in my place would have committed suicide

    (I'm guessing) But if you are dead inside and can't feel how horrible your life is then it is ok to continue breathing I tried to commit suicide before i went numb
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 26, 2014

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    mybygone mybygone 46-50, M 2 Responses Feb 25

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    No Reason To Live

    I'm tired of living and want to end my life. The feeling of sadness rules my life with no remorse, I wake up every morning with feelings of sadness, hopelessness and the thought of death. I have a few friends but I can't talk to them because everytime I try, I get blown off with...
    Z33t Z33t 26-30, M 10 Responses Aug 11, 2012

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    i wish killing yourself was a easy thing cause

    i need a way out of it, and i wish you could come back ,but choose to come back and go when you please. i wish they had a suicide pill for sell. anyone know of any easy ways to go, i cant get my hand on a gun. its really hard for me cause i dont have the guts to do it, and i...
    Asiadunn Asiadunn 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 29

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    I really don't need to live anymore.

    I cannot find joy or happiness in anything in life. I have been miserable for too long, and it is time to be in peace. I want drink alcohol, take. 5 percocets and 3 xanax pills. Will that kill me? I don't want to have a failed suicide attempt.
    jvd19xx jvd19xx 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 10

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    Suicide is hard, life is easy.

    Everyday I wake and acknowledge in a life or death situation where I'm not in control; I will choose life. However put a pistol in my hand and give me a choice....well use your imagination. My life is a cliche. Mommy and daddy didn't show me enough love. Social outcast...
    JohnoCA JohnoCA 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 13, 2014

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    I Dont Think Its An Option!!!

    As the title says,I dont think this is an optionMy girlfriend got her vocal cords ripped in a cancer shock,her cousin raped her and broke her legs and i cant contacther either from skype/phone/in person. She is 99% Dead.My parents and cousin are also dead of cancer,And my friends...
    123hey123 123hey123 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 26, 2013

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    I'm giving it about a year.

    I'm in therapy and seeing a psychiatrist. I've been dealing with depression since I was 13. I am emotionally and mentally exhausted. I can't handle it anymore. I don't really think it will ever get better for any length of time more than a day or so. It will either be on the...
    htmlgirl htmlgirl 22-25 2 Responses Feb 17

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    You don't have to be depressed to commit

    suicide. Sometimes, it is based on pure logic. Just because other people don't like your logic, doesn't mean you're wrong. I no longer beat myself up with anger, frustration, sadness, or self-loathing based on how my life has turned out. A lot of is due to situations out of...
    sosheyo sosheyo 41-45, F 3 Responses May 2

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    Shes Gone

    fell in love with a girl in recovery for narcotics addiction we were both vulnorable and seemed to hit it off but I've never been much good with the opposite sex and I didn't know how to act in she was 20 years younger and beautiful...I'm not going to bore you with all the...
    wnt2die wnt2die 51-55, M 6 Responses Sep 15, 2013

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    Today I have thoughts .

    I should try prayer again.
    heathee heathee 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 1, 2014

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    ineedhelp122 ineedhelp122 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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