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I Want to Commit Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,471 People

    xenapistia xenapistia 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 22, 2015

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    Im not afraid to commit suicide.

    Thing is some days when things get really bad i have the perfect plan for it. i try and find a way. but then in between i feel like i shouldn't give in, i should fight my demons. So my thoughts of suicide, are they moments of weakness? or my answer? Ive come to the point where i...
    nelly18 nelly18 18-21 6 Responses Dec 8, 2013

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    My birthday is in two days

    and I want to die before that day. I'm too tired of living, too tired of the pain, let me go.
    jahnssteve jahnssteve 56-60, M Sep 14, 2015

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    I wonder. People say it is selfish to commit

    suicide. In my case for one reason, it would be. But, in general, is it not selfish of other people to want you to stay? Again not so much in my case as I have no family or friends. But, people only want you not to kill yourself so that they don't feel the same level of pain...
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 3, 2014

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    No Reason To Live

    I'm tired of living and want to end my life. The feeling of sadness rules my life with no remorse, I wake up every morning with feelings of sadness, hopelessness and the thought of death. I have a few friends but I can't talk to them because everytime I try, I get blown off with...
    Z33t Z33t 26-30, M 10 Responses Aug 11, 2012

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    A need to redeem myself by moving on in to the

    spirit world cause l want my honor back
    ADontFearDeath ADontFearDeath 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 22, 2015

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    if anyone wants suicide parkner

    or partner fast then this is the place to go to- . its allways active. word of warning not everyone are serious there https://groups.google.com/forum/#!forum/alt.suicide.methods
    lalala222 lalala222 18-21, M Sep 9, 2015

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    I've been treated unjustly by formal

    institutions and authorities and now I'm being abused by a cocaine addict who is seriously crazy. I have no solid proof to fight back and there is no one to help me. Just absolutely no one to prove that I'm right and no one to understand and support me. I cry everyday since 2...
    detergentlicker detergentlicker 26-30 4 Responses Sep 11, 2015

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    This is a RAP: SO CLAP WITH ME Y'ALL !

    !!..... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'M STUCK IN A COCOON IN A WORLD OF DOOM IN MY WORLD OF GLOOM BLAMING EVERYONE UNDER THE SUN RELIVING ALL THE PAIN; AGAIN AND AGAIN GOING 'ROUND AND AROUND, I CAN'T RUN AWAY FROM THE PAIN. THERE'S NOWHERE FOR ME TO GO...
    NyxInvictus NyxInvictus 41-45 1 Response Nov 3, 2015

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    I hate my life, I hate myself

    and I decided to not live anymore. I am looking for unharmful way to finish my pointless life. Is there someone who can help me with that? I would not mind finding a suicidal partner, however I am not encouraging anyone to finish its life. I am fully aware of this decision and I...
    alamakota alamakota 22-25, F Dec 5, 2015

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    I was broken and gave up years ago.

    A permanent solution to a temporary problem. How many decades are considered temporary? Things don't get better, they get worse. Yesrs and years of getting worse. I inbox my story and people don't believe it, call it horrific, even a "friday the 13th senario" which is rediculous...
    stevehere76 stevehere76 36-40, M 6 Responses May 30, 2014

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    The only reason Im still alive

    after an 9 year battle with depression/anxiety/suicidal thoughts is because I don't want to put my loved ones through my loss. Unlike a lot of people with depression, I don't feel alone, I have the most amazig family/friends but my depression is the monster inside. I feel...
    missmichigan21 missmichigan21 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 16, 2014

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    the depression, the anxiety,

    the loneliness, the pain , being judged i'm tired of it i don't know if this is a place for me
    mistywillow mistywillow 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 20, 2014

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    I didn't ask for this.

    I didn't ask to be here why should I be forced to stay? Is love for others supposed to be strong enough to keep me around? If they loved me wouldn't they want me to be free of all this pain? I know I'm a wonderful person. I know that I'm one in a million and completely selfless...
    HypeZerauj HypeZerauj 18-21 Nov 2, 2015

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    I ruined every relationship I have ever had

    with friends and family and boyfriends. I have been used and my coworkers at work hate me for things I cannot help. I cut daily and I have a whole bottle of medicine I just want to empty in my mouth. I am tempted to make the world a better place by eliminating myself from it...
    SecretSpirit SecretSpirit 22-25, F 5 Responses Dec 8, 2015

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    I Don't Think There Is Any Other Option

    Ive already written about this, but I am losing hope for a miracle. I just made the finishing touches on my "suicide box" or goodbye capsule if you will, today. Letters to my family members, every last one of them, old friends, pictures, and a few other things.and wrapped it all...
    SkippingTheGoldenYears SkippingTheGoldenYears 18-21, F 20 Responses Apr 2, 2012

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    Like many of you, I too feel very depressed

    and do not feel like life is worth anymore - or that I am important to anyone in my circle. I intend to do it in a few days, but I would like a suicide partner. Because of location constrains (I live in a small town in Brazil), probably we could do it by Skype. If anyone is...
    Saralilo Saralilo 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    I've tried to avoid my my temptation of suicide

    through drugs, pretending to fit in and be perfect.. I try to feed others their delusion of normality, every time I've reached out I'm called pathetic, a drama queen, a waste of energy. Nobody cares. The people who are supposed to care don't even notice, surely hose closest to...
    WholeLotOfNothint WholeLotOfNothint 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2015

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    I am looking for a suicide pact partner in

    Pennsylvania. If I can't find anyone who wants to perform a suicide pact with me then I am open to having someone committed to just sitting with me as I go. As long as they don't back out or try to report me. I just want someone's hang to hold as I go. I would much rather have...
    GiliHEARTS GiliHEARTS 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 8, 2015

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    I've always hated the thought of self-pitty

    and loneliness. But I am now exactly what I hate. There are times I can't even look at myself because of how pathetic and worthless I've become....just languishing in my own misery. I'm trapped. Too prideful to speak up yet too scared to set myself free. I haven't been right for...
    Jmjh Jmjh 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 3, 2015

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    I think its about time.

    ..theres nothing left for me
    xotwod31 xotwod31 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    Last Night..

    I've had really bad times where depression has taken over me and made me feel worthless, empty and like I was the only person on this ****** up world, but last night was just different. I never felt this horrible like I did last night, the whole night I cried, the kind of...
    eskieloner eskieloner 22-25, F 15 Responses Dec 18, 2011

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    To everybody on here: If any of you are feeling

    this way, PLEASE message me and I will talk to you for as long as you need. I lost one of my best friends to suicide and I know what feeling this way looks like. I will listen and give advice as best as I can
    beekachu222 beekachu222 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    Three Words For Anyone Considering Suicide

    Don't do it! Years ago I seriously considered suicide. I am not going to catalog my reasons. Suffice it to say, I found myself in a long, dry valley of regret and self-loathing.  Depressed, miserable, friendless, and trapped by circumstances not of my own making, I saw only one...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Mar 28, 2012

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    I Dont Think Its An Option!!!

    As the title says,I dont think this is an optionMy girlfriend got her vocal cords ripped in a cancer shock,her cousin raped her and broke her legs and i cant contacther either from skype/phone/in person. She is 99% Dead.My parents and cousin are also dead of cancer,And my friends...
    123hey123 123hey123 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 26, 2013

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    I hate life my parents won't ever let me out of

    the house the only place I can go is school and mosque I hate my self and I don't feel love i can't go on like this I just want to die im not worth any thing my friends at school have no idea what im going through i just want love I want to be cared about this isn't fair I also...
    marshaliss marshaliss 46-50, F 1 Response Nov 21, 2015

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    When It Is Time...

    I want to have one wild weekend with someone who also chooses to end her or his life. I want to do things I haven't done for a long time. A couple of drinks, unprotected sex with (a) stranger(s), etc. and then walk into the ocean together. Or toss a coin and the person who wins...
    wimnj wimnj 51-55, M 1 Response May 26, 2013

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    I Wish I Was Never Born

    Life seems filled with only pain & suffering all i ever do is remember is the times people or family hurt me. Lies about things will get better & time heals its BS....Suicide is the answer being on disability i need to find a quick cheap way to kill myself. Please no crap about...
    Scaredalone2 Scaredalone2 36-40, M 8 Responses Nov 6, 2013

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    …….Forget all the bullshit of what has

    happened to you and what is currently going on around you……..if you truly feel like I do its sheer ******* agony! You try to deal with the day to day bullshit and just when you think you may have made it through another day….. All of a sudden the immense anguish and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 2, 2015

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    Everyday

    Everyday I think about committing suicide I was raised with the idea if you're a good person loyal honest and nice set of ventually you will find someone who loves you but these are false pretenses. This world has changed there is no place for a guy like me anymore. I have to ask...
    TheRascallyOne TheRascallyOne 22-25, M 23 Responses Feb 24, 2012

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    I Feel Like There Is No More Hope.

    I feel so lost and I want to feel wanted. I don't understand why I'm still alive when all I want to be is dead... :'(
    jnash123 jnash123 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    I Am Considering Suicide.

    That is all, really. I needed to say that. I needed to be able to say that, somewhere, to someone, because there are a great many loving, caring people in my life who would be highly distressed if I said this to them. And not only do I love them too much to upset them so greatly...
    overanalytic overanalytic 70+ 2 Responses Jun 3, 2013

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    I have been depressed

    for most of my life so I have thought about it for a long time and I don't see my life will get better. I have spoke to my psychiatrist asking him to raise my medications but he is a little **** - telling me that I just need to get out more and do more things.
    LadyAnonymous123 LadyAnonymous123 26-30, F 6 Responses Jun 11, 2014

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    Shes Gone

    fell in love with a girl in recovery for narcotics addiction we were both vulnorable and seemed to hit it off but I've never been much good with the opposite sex and I didn't know how to act in she was 20 years younger and beautiful...I'm not going to bore you with all the...
    wnt2die wnt2die 51-55, M 6 Responses Sep 15, 2013

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    This is probably my 10th suicide note,

    and hopefully the last. I don’t plan to seek help anymore. That never worked. Having a mental illness is said to be a lifelong battle, there is no cure for what I have. The bills have piled up and I have no more income. They threaten court or worse and I have no money. My...
    mylastpost mylastpost 26-30, M Jan 5

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    I Almost Got Hit By A Car

    A few days ago, I was mindlessly walking across an intersection as a car sped around the corner, headed straight for me. I heard people on the streets gasp, one of them even screamed and then I processed what was going on. The weird thing is, I didn't have a moment of panic. My...
    daaytripper daaytripper 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 4, 2013

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    I was beaten by my ex he broke my cheek my eye

    doesnt feel the same. I live with the injury every day. They revicictimized me in the court. Its been over a year now its been over. I was stressed awaiting 18 months for trial then the other 12 for breaking my phone they let him walk both times. The stress caused my chronic...
    klrr klrr 36-40, F Jan 26

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    Suicide seems quite logical

    and humane to me, right now. Supposedly, one of the most important human needs is intimacy...To be known and be loved . But nobody will love someone who doesn't love himself. Since I am unable or unwilling to love myself, I will be unable to fulfill my human needs...
    ygolo ygolo 36-40 Nov 1, 2015

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    Today I have thoughts .

    I should try prayer again.
    heathee heathee 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 1, 2014

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    Depression, Social Anxiety

    and OCD. Today is one year, to the day, that I tried to kill myself. I am an 18 year old female. And the best thing I ever did was go to Behavioral Health hospitals. I never would have thought I would be able to be that person to say that "Holy ****, I don't feel like killing...
    AshleyLewis AshleyLewis 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    How much propranolol plus Levothyroxine will do

    the trick? How will these drugs work together for an effective end or do they work against each other?
    blahdeeblahblahpoop blahdeeblahblahpoop 70+, T Nov 13, 2015

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    The Perfect Pattern, Spoken By Plato

    The devine design, for there is a devine design for each and every person. There is a place that you can fill and no one else can fill. Something you are to do which no one else can do.
    Bythelight0fthemoon Bythelight0fthemoon 36-40, F 4 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    I am a 67 yr old man

    who has had two heart surgeries and two heart attacks. It has been discovered that I have an abdominal aortic aneurysm that will need surgery but due to losing my job (because of applying for a medical leave) I'm now in bankruptcy and since I can't make the payments I'll be...
    bobman623 bobman623 66-70, M 2 Responses Sep 3, 2015

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    I'm overly depressed I dont know what else to

    do. I went from being beautiful to losing it to getting it back to destroying it again. I hate myself so much. I have never even had a boyfriend I'm almost 22. I'm just a sad joke.
    ihatemyself22 ihatemyself22 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2015

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