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I Want to Commit Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,469 People

    I didn't ask for this.

    I didn't ask to be here why should I be forced to stay? Is love for others supposed to be strong enough to keep me around? If they loved me wouldn't they want me to be free of all this pain? I know I'm a wonderful person. I know that I'm one in a million and completely selfless...
    HypeZerauj HypeZerauj
    18-21
    Nov 2, 2015

    My birthday is in two days

    and I want to die before that day. I'm too tired of living, too tired of the pain, let me go.
    jahnssteve jahnssteve
    61-65, M
    2 Responses Sep 14, 2015

    I've always hated the thought of self-pitty

    and loneliness. But I am now exactly what I hate. There are times I can't even look at myself because of how pathetic and worthless I've become....just languishing in my own misery. I'm trapped. Too prideful to speak up yet too scared to set myself free. I haven't been right for...
    Jmjh Jmjh
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Oct 3, 2015

    When I was 15 I had no intention on living past

    17. I had convinced myself there was nothing Good or Bad I could contribute to this world. I turned 17 in a rehab program I had been in for 7 months, which happened to dawn on me...I'm still alive and hopeful for once. Since then I have been married for 23 years and have two...
    elizaethcrowder69 elizaethcrowder69
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Mar 23

    Well, I give up. Too much.

    Too damn much. I'm not going to go in details because everyone has their reason. I will not go out with a bang by shooting myself or using pills or make a spectacle of myself… I just want to melt away… Disappear. Never exist. Everyone thinks my diet is really a diet but I'm...
    Thepinkcoconut Thepinkcoconut
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Jun 7, 2014

    No Reason To Live

    I'm tired of living and want to end my life. The feeling of sadness rules my life with no remorse, I wake up every morning with feelings of sadness, hopelessness and the thought of death. I have a few friends but I can't talk to them because everytime I try, I get blown off with...
    Z33t Z33t
    26-30, M
    10 Responses Aug 11, 2012

    I feel like everyone would be better off

    if I wasn't around. I had to leave my job because I reported bullying. I can't find another job. Now I'm 32 and a burden to my family. I'm toxic to my family and my mom hates me because I will always defend my twin sister when my mom and her fight. My sister and me are identical...
    Shutterbug1 Shutterbug1
    31-35, F
    Apr 7

    Suicide has been tucked away in my mind

    for as long as I can remember. I was 11 or 12 the first time I thought about taking my life. Fantasizing about how people would react, how hurt they'd be... That's the only thing that stopped me. Thinking of someone else being in pain because of me. If only there was a way to...
    Whydoihavetosignup1234 Whydoihavetosignup1234
    31-35, F
    Mar 24

    Shes Gone

    fell in love with a girl in recovery for narcotics addiction we were both vulnorable and seemed to hit it off but I've never been much good with the opposite sex and I didn't know how to act in she was 20 years younger and beautiful...I'm not going to bore you with all the...
    wnt2die wnt2die
    51-55, M
    6 Responses Sep 15, 2013

    I Am Considering Suicide.

    That is all, really. I needed to say that. I needed to be able to say that, somewhere, to someone, because there are a great many loving, caring people in my life who would be highly distressed if I said this to them. And not only do I love them too much to upset them so greatly...
    overanalytic overanalytic
    70+
    2 Responses Jun 3, 2013

    I ruined every relationship I have ever had

    with friends and family and boyfriends. I have been used and my coworkers at work hate me for things I cannot help. I cut daily and I have a whole bottle of medicine I just want to empty in my mouth. I am tempted to make the world a better place by eliminating myself from it...
    SecretSpirit SecretSpirit
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Dec 8, 2015

    I honestly don't know

    why I feel this way. My parents and brother loves me (although they have weird ways of expressing it) and i have friends who love me too. Am I selfish for wanting to end my life. It just sucks to live, and honestly Im sick of it
    hember hember
    18-21, F
    Apr 10

    I hate life my parents won't ever let me out of

    the house the only place I can go is school and mosque I hate my self and I don't feel love i can't go on like this I just want to die im not worth any thing my friends at school have no idea what im going through i just want love I want to be cared about this isn't fair I also...
    marshaliss marshaliss
    46-50, F
    Nov 21, 2015

    I wonder. People say it is selfish to commit

    suicide. In my case for one reason, it would be. But, in general, is it not selfish of other people to want you to stay? Again not so much in my case as I have no family or friends. But, people only want you not to kill yourself so that they don't feel the same level of pain...
    Brokenheartblacksoul Brokenheartblacksoul
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Oct 3, 2014

    Last Night..

    I've had really bad times where depression has taken over me and made me feel worthless, empty and like I was the only person on this ****** up world, but last night was just different. I never felt this horrible like I did last night, the whole night I cried, the kind of...
    eskieloner eskieloner
    22-25, F
    15 Responses Dec 18, 2011

    I Wish I Was Never Born

    Life seems filled with only pain & suffering all i ever do is remember is the times people or family hurt me. Lies about things will get better & time heals its BS....Suicide is the answer being on disability i need to find a quick cheap way to kill myself. Please no crap about...
    Scaredalone2 Scaredalone2
    36-40, M
    8 Responses Nov 6, 2013

    I hate my life, I hate myself

    and I decided to not live anymore. I am looking for unharmful way to finish my pointless life. Is there someone who can help me with that? I would not mind finding a suicidal partner, however I am not encouraging anyone to finish its life. I am fully aware of this decision and I...
    alamakota alamakota
    22-25, F
    Dec 5, 2015

    I Plan 2 Die

    Im tired of life, nothing excites me anymore only when im high i feel happy im so depressed and moody, my life is such a chore, that i dont want to do anymore i dont want to talk to no one, i want to meet someone who feels the way i do, and see what happens.
    ItsAnt ItsAnt
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Mar 11, 2013

    Two and a Half years ago I was on top of the

    world. All that changed when I got sick. I got an invisible illness that threw me off track for two and a half year. Two and a half years of suffering that nobody acknowledged or understood. Two and a half years of being labeled as crazy, or lazy, or lying, or attention seeking...
    brokengirl6557 brokengirl6557
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 5

    I Don't Think There Is Any Other Option

    Ive already written about this, but I am losing hope for a miracle. I just made the finishing touches on my "suicide box" or goodbye capsule if you will, today. Letters to my family members, every last one of them, old friends, pictures, and a few other things.and wrapped it all...
    SkippingTheGoldenYears SkippingTheGoldenYears
    18-21, F
    18 Responses Apr 2, 2012

    The Perfect Pattern, Spoken By Plato

    The devine design, for there is a devine design for each and every person. There is a place that you can fill and no one else can fill. Something you are to do which no one else can do.
    Bythelight0fthemoon Bythelight0fthemoon
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Jan 4, 2013

    I was broken and gave up years ago.

    A permanent solution to a temporary problem. How many decades are considered temporary? Things don't get better, they get worse. Yesrs and years of getting worse. I inbox my story and people don't believe it, call it horrific, even a "friday the 13th senario" which is rediculous...
    stevehere76 stevehere76
    36-40, M
    6 Responses May 30, 2014

    I kind of do and I kind of don't.

    Idk. I feel like it's for attention, and then I'm like "but if I do, I would get no attention because I would be dead", but the thought won't go away still. I finally tried to deal with some emotions that were a problem, and I was met with the same rude, unsympathetic, responses...
    Zbeara Zbeara
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Dec 20, 2015

    Depression, Social Anxiety

    and OCD. Today is one year, to the day, that I tried to kill myself. I am an 18 year old female. And the best thing I ever did was go to Behavioral Health hospitals. I never would have thought I would be able to be that person to say that "Holy ****, I don't feel like killing...
    AshleyLewis AshleyLewis
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 18

    I Almost Got Hit By A Car

    A few days ago, I was mindlessly walking across an intersection as a car sped around the corner, headed straight for me. I heard people on the streets gasp, one of them even screamed and then I processed what was going on. The weird thing is, I didn't have a moment of panic. My...
    daaytripper daaytripper
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Jul 4, 2013

    Conversation between X

    and Y X and Y are having a conversation and it goes like this: (Answer the questions for yourself too!) X: Do you reckon you’re a good person? Y: Yes, I would say that I’m an all round good person, why not! X: You try to do good things, what would you say you do in...
    JohnWhitely JohnWhitely
    36-40, M
    Apr 8

    How much propranolol plus Levothyroxine will do

    the trick? How will these drugs work together for an effective end or do they work against each other?
    blahdeeblahblahpoop blahdeeblahblahpoop
    70+, T
    Nov 13, 2015

    I Don't Matter Anyway

    I want to die because I cannot stand the pain of being me anymore. I'm a failure, a loser and basically worthless. There is not one thing that I'm good at and all I seem to do is get in the way. No matter what I do I will never be good enough and I just want to end the enormous...
    Abbyjo Abbyjo
    18-21, F
    23 Responses Apr 3, 2012

    This is a really crap question I know

    but do these thoughts ever go away? Does it get better?
    BODell92 BODell92
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 17

    Suicide is hard, life is easy.

    Everyday I wake and acknowledge in a life or death situation where I'm not in control; I will choose life. However put a pistol in my hand and give me a choice....well use your imagination. My life is a cliche. Mommy and daddy didn't show me enough love. Social outcast...
    JohnoCA JohnoCA
    18-21, M
    1 Response Oct 13, 2014

    Three Words For Anyone Considering Suicide

    Don't do it! Years ago I seriously considered suicide. I am not going to catalog my reasons. Suffice it to say, I found myself in a long, dry valley of regret and self-loathing.  Depressed, miserable, friendless, and trapped by circumstances not of my own making, I saw only one...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Mar 28, 2012

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    JoyAngelZhang JoyAngelZhang
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 22

    Every day feels more

    and more hopeless. I suffer from a number of mental issues that have made it impossible for me to keep a job longer than a few months ever since I started working. I've hardly been in a relationship and I'm 23 years old. I hate the body I was born with and I'm hideous on top of...
    b44l b44l
    22-25, T
    1 Response Nov 2, 2015
    xenapistia xenapistia
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 22, 2015

    Everyday

    Everyday I think about committing suicide I was raised with the idea if you're a good person loyal honest and nice set of ventually you will find someone who loves you but these are false pretenses. This world has changed there is no place for a guy like me anymore. I have to ask...
    TheRascallyOne TheRascallyOne
    22-25, M
    22 Responses Feb 24, 2012

    I'm overly depressed I dont know what else to

    do. I went from being beautiful to losing it to getting it back to destroying it again. I hate myself so much. I have never even had a boyfriend I'm almost 22. I'm just a sad joke.
    ihatemyself22 ihatemyself22
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 26, 2015

    Like many of you, I too feel very depressed

    and do not feel like life is worth anymore - or that I am important to anyone in my circle. I intend to do it in a few days, but I would like a suicide partner. Because of location constrains (I live in a small town in Brazil), probably we could do it by Skype. If anyone is...
    Saralilo Saralilo
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 12

    I need help committing suicide.

    I don't need help, so I understand if that upsets you but I'm going to do it and I just need help doing it properly. I have suboxone and alcohol, so please help me figure out the lethal amount. I don't have a tolerance to suboxone, it's not mine. I'm 136 pound 5'7 female. Thank...
    Nnnppp Nnnppp
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 25, 2015

    My birthday is in two days

    and I want to die before that day. I'm too tired of living, too tired of the pain, let me go.
    jahnssteve jahnssteve
    61-65, M
    Sep 14, 2015

    I need help committing correctly.

    Is there anyone that knows the proper amount of suboxone and alcohol to stop my heart? I have no tolerance to suboxone, it isn't mine. Please no lecturing. I've made up my mind.
    Nnnppp Nnnppp
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Oct 25, 2015

    Fuckthisshit

    I'm scared of life. I think about the countless number of days ahead of me and I feel trapped. Trapped living. Trapped in my mind. I feel insane. I'm dying to get out. Dying to be free. I wish it it was all over. I wish I had the choice to end it all. Why don't I have the choice...
    MELIZAS1234 MELIZAS1234
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Apr 18, 2013

    i wish killing yourself was a easy thing cause

    i need a way out of it, and i wish you could come back ,but choose to come back and go when you please. i wish they had a suicide pill for sell. anyone know of any easy ways to go, i cant get my hand on a gun. its really hard for me cause i dont have the guts to do it, and i...
    Asiadunn Asiadunn
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Mar 29, 2015

    Suicide seems quite logical

    and humane to me, right now. Supposedly, one of the most important human needs is intimacy...To be known and be loved . But nobody will love someone who doesn't love himself. Since I am unable or unwilling to love myself, I will be unable to fulfill my human needs...
    ygolo ygolo
    36-40
    Nov 1, 2015

    The only reason Im still alive

    after an 9 year battle with depression/anxiety/suicidal thoughts is because I don't want to put my loved ones through my loss. Unlike a lot of people with depression, I don't feel alone, I have the most amazig family/friends but my depression is the monster inside. I feel...
    missmichigan21 missmichigan21
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 16, 2014

    To everybody on here: If any of you are feeling

    this way, PLEASE message me and I will talk to you for as long as you need. I lost one of my best friends to suicide and I know what feeling this way looks like. I will listen and give advice as best as I can
    beekachu222 beekachu222
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 14, 2014

    I have been depressed

    for most of my life so I have thought about it for a long time and I don't see my life will get better. I have spoke to my psychiatrist asking him to raise my medications but he is a little **** - telling me that I just need to get out more and do more things.
    LadyAnonymous123 LadyAnonymous123
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Jun 11, 2014

    This is probably my 10th suicide note,

    and hopefully the last. I don’t plan to seek help anymore. That never worked. Having a mental illness is said to be a lifelong battle, there is no cure for what I have. The bills have piled up and I have no more income. They threaten court or worse and I have no money. My...
    mylastpost mylastpost
    26-30, M
    Jan 5

    This is a RAP: SO CLAP WITH ME Y'ALL !

    !!..... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'M STUCK IN A COCOON IN A WORLD OF DOOM IN MY WORLD OF GLOOM BLAMING EVERYONE UNDER THE SUN RELIVING ALL THE PAIN; AGAIN AND AGAIN GOING 'ROUND AND AROUND, I CAN'T RUN AWAY FROM THE PAIN. THERE'S NOWHERE FOR ME TO GO...
    Lunadelobos Lunadelobos
    41-45
    1 Response Nov 3, 2015

    I Plan To Commit Suicide By 27

    I am 24 years old, and am so unhappy. I take medication, I go to therepy, I have done EVERYTHING in the book to help myself get "better". I have felt this way ever since I was thirteen years old. I do not plan on making this post a life story post, but some background I believe...
    Lindss119 Lindss119
    22-25, F
    12 Responses Mar 12, 2012

    I Dont Think Its An Option!!!

    As the title says,I dont think this is an optionMy girlfriend got her vocal cords ripped in a cancer shock,her cousin raped her and broke her legs and i cant contacther either from skype/phone/in person. She is 99% Dead.My parents and cousin are also dead of cancer,And my friends...
    123hey123 123hey123
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Aug 26, 2013

    Im not afraid to commit suicide.

    Thing is some days when things get really bad i have the perfect plan for it. i try and find a way. but then in between i feel like i shouldn't give in, i should fight my demons. So my thoughts of suicide, are they moments of weakness? or my answer? Ive come to the point where i...
    nelly18 nelly18
    18-21
    6 Responses Dec 8, 2013

    I think its about time.

    ..theres nothing left for me
    xotwod31 xotwod31
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 2

    Anyone in my place would have committed suicide

    (I'm guessing) But if you are dead inside and can't feel how horrible your life is then it is ok to continue breathing I tried to commit suicide before i went numb
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 26, 2014
    Dreamstauge Dreamstauge
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Sep 26, 2015

    I Feel Like There Is No More Hope.

    I feel so lost and I want to feel wanted. I don't understand why I'm still alive when all I want to be is dead... :'(
    jnash123 jnash123
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Oct 1, 2013

    I was beaten by my ex he broke my cheek my eye

    doesnt feel the same. I live with the injury every day. They revicictimized me in the court. Its been over a year now its been over. I was stressed awaiting 18 months for trial then the other 12 for breaking my phone they let him walk both times. The stress caused my chronic...
    klrr klrr
    36-40, F
    Jan 26

    When It Is Time...

    I want to have one wild weekend with someone who also chooses to end her or his life. I want to do things I haven't done for a long time. A couple of drinks, unprotected sex with (a) stranger(s), etc. and then walk into the ocean together. Or toss a coin and the person who wins...
    wimnj wimnj
    51-55, M
    1 Response May 26, 2013
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