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I Want to Cut Myself Now

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    UGH!! I want to cut right now.

    I get made fun of in school for having autism. This one girl keeps bullying me an hitting me I cant anymore. UGH!!! Holding a razor right now.
    NaomiSarah1 NaomiSarah1 18-21, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    I just want to ******* do it.

    my parents won't get off my back. my dad won't stop asking me all these ******* questions everyday, won't stop trying to make me be like him. All he ever talks to me about is school, feeding the dogs,and stuff I should do that way I am productive, and if I try to answer first I...
    MericaMan MericaMan 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    It's ok for you to hurt me

    but not ok for me?
    BloodyVictim BloodyVictim 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 12

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    I feel alive when I can't sleep

    because of the burning scars -funny enough I punish myself for things other people did to me.
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F May 10

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    Being yelled at really makes me want to cut.

    My life also really makes me want to cut. And lately it's been difficult to find something that would cut deep and cause a lot of blood shed. Sometimes I feel as if I deserve the pain and blood loss. Sometimes I cry when I cut, other times I don't. I usually use scissors to cut...
    NeonPurple NeonPurple 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    My daemons are screaming at me telling me I

    need to, I want to, I have to. I scream "NO!" Want to put it down but my hand just won't let go
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    I broke up with my ex,

    because I wasn't ready to tell anyone about my self harm. We never had a real reason to break up, so I've never really been able to get over him. I saw him the other night and the feelings came back for both of us, but he's supposed to be moving to Australia. He told my friend...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F Jul 8

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    Feeling pressure, feeling no pain Anxious

    thoughts encompassing me again, I cannot focus on anything else at all, I don't want to cut, I need to, can't resist the call Looking blankly ahead, nothing registers, I'm itching and scratching and grabbing the scissors, I'm lying awake and dreaming to be free, Stop resisting...
    jacqueline1972 jacqueline1972 36-40, T 5 Responses Jun 9

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    It's been five days since I last hurt myself,

    and it's difficult to keep from cutting or bruising myself.
    polycat polycat 22-25, F Jun 3

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    school is really stressing me out.

    im feeling overwhelmed and im getting mad at myself and im having all these thoughts to just take my anger out on myself and just cut. i feel like giving up on life but i dont want to take the easy way out. i feel like complete crap. i really dont know whats wrong with me. i...
    perksofbeingdepressed perksofbeingdepressed 16-17, F 6 Responses Jan 28

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    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    Our body feels pain to warn us of danger But it

    also reminds us we're alive that it can still feel That's why some of us seek it out while others choose to numb it Solitude has always been my analgesic of choice But what if feeling nothing is the worst pain of all What if sharing pain connects us to others and reminds us...
    Kate197979 Kate197979 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2014

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    Im trying to fight the urge right now.

    .. stupid addiction, wish i never started.
    Nick54 Nick54 22-25, M 1 Response May 20

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    I just don't care anymore.

    I'm starting to not care if people know. If people see. I just don't care. I feel like everyone already judges me and hates me, it wouldn't make a difference. Maybe if they knew, people would actually care. I doubt that though. The more time goes on, the worse it gets. People...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 1 Response May 16, 2014

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    I really really need a blade.

    ..it's been way too long since I got the release...the flood of endorphins.
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    I have been going down the list,

    and seeing what people have been posting about this and to be honest it does hurt me to read some of them. I see more post from girls then guys and I know to a point the reasons I did it up until about a year ago, were for different reasons, and I am not putting down anybody...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 2 Responses Feb 24, 2014

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    Why is everything so ******* depressing?

    Why am I such a failure? I fail...that's why I'm here, to fail and let people down...
    xBleedMeDryx xBleedMeDryx 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 2

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    4 Am And Its All I Can Think About

    cutting releases endorphins-endorphins relief pain so what do we do when were sad? we cut
    sosick123 sosick123 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 1, 2013

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    Cravings

    There are some days, weeks even, where the thoughts of sliding the smooth blade of my knife into my skin flood my head. There's something so satisfying about the pain. The little teardrops of red running over the curve of my wrist. The way my teeth grit, and my eyes plead with me...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 3, 2011

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    I'm a year clean, but right

    now I feel awful. I used to be a strong Catholic, my mum always taught me that being bi was 'weird' and that abortion was wrong. This week I let myself be persuaded into having an abortion by my friend (my doctor thinks it was a false positive anyway). I know I probably won't...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F Jun 9

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    Just one more cut...every night is the same

    routine...I just wish I never started, and now I am too weak to stop.
    dreamerhippie dreamerhippie 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 6

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    really miss cutting so much.

    đŸ˜• that's all I've been thinking about lately..
    ashleygrierrr ashleygrierrr 13-15, F 18 Responses Jun 28, 2014

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    oone of my friends hung herself.

    and its all my fault.
    bpc2415 bpc2415 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 12

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    Every day I have to fight the urge to cut

    myself. I can feel myself slowly giving in though. I've worked so hard to be clean for this long. I just miss it, it felt so good. I don't want to give in but I do at the same time
    Poisonedmystery Poisonedmystery 16-17, F 1 Response May 19

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    So tell me, who will help me?

    When it's 4 am and a shaky hand has my blade against my skin.. And all these thoughts rush in. When my streak is no longer there and I'm in a fetal position crying my eyes out. Who will help me.
    UnderTheSleeves UnderTheSleeves 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 22

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    Just one, from my wrist to my elbow.

    That sounds like a fantastic idea.
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 6 Responses Apr 2

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    I really need to find a pencil

    sharpener:((((((((((((((
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 5 Responses May 26

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    I'm so ******* stupid!

    !! I'm such a dumb *** and no one cares about me .-. I try so hard to talk to my family but they all ignore me.... I wish my mom would of got an abortion... I shouldn't of been born I wanna push the blade deep in my tummy and wrist since that's the only good thing I am good at...
    PrincessManuela PrincessManuela 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 12

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    Me Vs Razor

    I sat in my room staring at "my razor blade" for about 10mins feeling so lost'd and having loneliness eatting away at my soul and heart. It was drowing me and couldn't breath. I wanted to cut so bad... But I called my best friend and talk to her about it.. She cried a lot and...
    DarkAngel0309 DarkAngel0309 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    I can't find a pencil sharpener ugh

    but I'll keep looking
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 3 Responses May 27

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    Best cut is when I close my eyes .

    And just cut three places really fast on wrist. I rather feel the pain outside than in
    officialjaylove officialjaylove 18-21 11 Responses May 5

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    I had an urge to cut.

    But i just scratched myself with a blade instead. I feel better. Even though i didn't go deep there was a lot of blood. That made it satisfying. If that makes sence? The stinging scratches and blood. I think i can stop if i do this. Or at least the scars will stop.
    Nick54 Nick54 22-25, M Jun 8

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    I Hate Myself And Cut For No Reason

    I'm 16. I'm very unsociable and don't like the company of many people. I only have one really good friend, but i go to a really tough school and have to spend most of my time doing homework. I have trouble paying attention to the boring stuff they teach in that awful place, so it...
    invisiblechild0 invisiblechild0 18-21, F 17 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    Its been two days i cant keep it up.

    I really wanna cut and its hard to control this urge. Today wasnt the best of days and I hate myself for it. My parents hate me, im gonna flunk in my courses, and i will never be worth something for anyone to be in a relationship with. Im going to sleep, and i pray i dont wake...
    LifeOnAThread LifeOnAThread 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 12, 2014

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    I miss cutting so much

    and want to start again but I'm afraid that someone will see it because it's summer time,so it's noticeableđŸ˜”
    Nina157 Nina157 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 30

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    Any one has a razor .

    i really need to cut myself and see my blood . I am sick of always hurting myself from inside if I can't stop myself from inside I will do it on the outside.
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F Apr 4, 2014

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    merrianneyeah merrianneyeah 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 8, 2014

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    i want to cut so deep

    that i see a lot of blood. my flashbacks are ruining my life and i cant be happy anymore
    elephant17 elephant17 18-21, F 2 Responses May 18, 2014

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    I've been clean all summer.

    But i long to slide a blade over my wrists one more time... One is after all, all it takes.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 16

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    .........Best friend is wanting to commit

    suicide... what else is there to do when you cant help them....they're across an ocean...you can't get them professional help.......i feel so useless and worthless right now...all I want to do is cut....
    bpc2415 bpc2415 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    I just took a pin and made my first cut.

    At first I just scratched my skin, too scared of the pain. But the mark it left looked beautiful, so i made more and I started to bleed. I'm ready to severe all my ties with everyone involved in my situation. I'm ready to just destroy everything I created just to be away from...
    julespools julespools 18-21, M Jun 30

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    DONT Want to Think About It

    i have those thoughts in my head i have those emotions in my heart i wanna talk i need some1 by my side   they told me many times before " when ever u need me i'll be there " i need them now and i cant find them i feel like cutting my hand and i...
    aysha7 aysha7 18-21, F 9 Responses May 12, 2009

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    I'm fine. I had a good day.

    There's nothing wrong. So why do I feel like I want to cut? I probably won't: I haven't self-harmed in about six weeks - which I'm pretty sure is the longest I've managed in over a year, which is pathetic - and I don't really want to wreck that. I'm probably just bored or...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 13

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    Getting really anxious.

    . a lot going on my mind right now. I only know how to deal with feelings like this in one way.
    WhoseMe WhoseMe 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 15

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    Here It Goes..

    I don't know what this is.. Or who reads this, but hello! Within the past two weeks, I've started cutting. I haven't cut in four years, but now it's coming back. And the ability to be able to show what I'm feeling on the inside, on the outside, is amazing to me.. I was also...
    MaddelynneJannessa MaddelynneJannessa 18-21, F 14 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    im afraid of being home alone I just have a

    strong urge to cut right now I dont know how long I will last and im so scared of myself and urges I just started trying to quit yesterday
    Crystalsgirl08 Crystalsgirl08 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 17

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