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I Want to Cut Myself Now

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    I have no idea why. I've never done it before.

    Right now I'm feeling so stressed, it seems like the only way to make it go away.
    tiki18 tiki18 13-15, F 5 Responses Jan 22

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    Can someone talk to me?

    ??? I'm feeling so alone......
    Cocosavethetatas Cocosavethetatas 22-25, F 9 Responses Oct 15, 2014

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    Being yelled at really makes me want to cut.

    My life also really makes me want to cut. And lately it's been difficult to find something that would cut deep and cause a lot of blood shed. Sometimes I feel as if I deserve the pain and blood loss. Sometimes I cry when I cut, other times I don't. I usually use scissors to cut...
    NeonPurple NeonPurple 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    Any one has a razor .

    i really need to cut myself and see my blood . I am sick of always hurting myself from inside if I can't stop myself from inside I will do it on the outside.
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F Apr 4, 2014

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    It's how I escape from the pain

    for a lil while and right now I really just need to escape. :'(
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 6

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    I want to but I know I shouldn't I know

    that it won't help and I know it will just make me feel worse after but even then cutting for me is like I'm in a ocean blind folded I can't see where I'm going and im walking deeper and deeper into this massive ocean soon I can't breath and I'm choking im slowly dying and for...
    Alli13146 Alli13146 13-15, F Jan 11

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    I won't cut deep enough to die.

    just keep enough to see the blood and numb the pain
    isohatetheworld isohatetheworld 70+, F 2 Responses Jan 20

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    merrianneyeah merrianneyeah 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 8, 2014

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    Here It Goes..

    I don't know what this is.. Or who reads this, but hello! Within the past two weeks, I've started cutting. I haven't cut in four years, but now it's coming back. And the ability to be able to show what I'm feeling on the inside, on the outside, is amazing to me.. I was also...
    MaddelynneJannessa MaddelynneJannessa 18-21, F 16 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    I haven't cut myself in

    such a long time. It's been months since I've had urges but I really want to hurt myself and tear myself apart today. I don't know what to do. I can't get my mind off of it. I need someone to talk to. Idk what to do anymore... ):
    burningcolors burningcolors 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I don't even know why.

    I think seeing the scars and newest cuts on my hip set me off. I just...I don't know!!! Music can only help so much. I want to sit here and scratch at my hip but I can't exactly do that in class. I feel the need to carry my blade with me everyday now, but I don't think I can...
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 18-21 1 Response May 6, 2014

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    Fighting The Urge

    Lately I feel like my family hates me like they are testing me, I have a razor from a pencil sharpener in my shoebox. But I won't use it I refuse to cut myself because I don't want to hide the cuts, the scars, the razors or the blood. That doesn't stop me from thinking about it...
    Gibby445 Gibby445 13-15, F Dec 15, 2012

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    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    My daemons are screaming at me telling me I

    need to, I want to, I have to. I scream "NO!" Want to put it down but my hand just won't let go
    Error404nameunknown Error404nameunknown 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    There's no pain anymore,

    I cut and there's no pain, the blood runs down my arm and it's cold, there's no warmth. where do I go to feel??
    crabspanner crabspanner 36-40, M 9 hrs ago

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    Sigh. This just isn't getting any easier,

    is it? I'm so tempted to take that nice fresh new blade out of the only pencil sharpener that I have that's never been taken apart... I keep trying to find enough reasons not to cut that it outweighs the crushing desire to do so, but I'm running out of reasons here... :/
    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6, 2014

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    it's really hard to not cut myself right now,

    but i don't know how much longer i can hold on, all the hateful comments, being blamed for things I've never done, school is not helping either...i just want to die.
    EyelessGlitch EyelessGlitch 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    I never have before,

    but I really want to right now. I want my body to feel the pain that my mind has to go through. I dont even really know what Im upset about right now. Everything just seems to keep piling up. I cant take this anymore. Either the stress is going to kill me....or Im going to kill...
    lostandlonleysoul lostandlonleysoul 18-21, F Jan 12

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    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 6 Responses Jan 29

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    Me Vs Razor

    I sat in my room staring at "my razor blade" for about 10mins feeling so lost'd and having loneliness eatting away at my soul and heart. It was drowing me and couldn't breath. I wanted to cut so bad... But I called my best friend and talk to her about it.. She cried a lot and...
    DarkAngel0309 DarkAngel0309 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    school is really stressing me out.

    im feeling overwhelmed and im getting mad at myself and im having all these thoughts to just take my anger out on myself and just cut. i feel like giving up on life but i dont want to take the easy way out. i feel like complete crap. i really dont know whats wrong with me. i...
    perksofbeingdepressed perksofbeingdepressed 16-17, F 7 Responses Jan 28

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    So I'm back....I didn't kill myself

    although I tried.....I'm doing so much better...except for right now I wanna cut really bad
    baileyzook baileyzook 13-15, F Jan 12

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    Why is everything so ******* depressing?

    Why am I such a failure? I fail...that's why I'm here, to fail and let people down...
    XxFuckYouxX XxFuckYouxX 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    im afraid of being home alone I just have a

    strong urge to cut right now I dont know how long I will last and im so scared of myself and urges I just started trying to quit yesterday
    Crystalsgirl08 Crystalsgirl08 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    Don't. Don't. Don't. Stop it.

    Weak. You are so freaking weak. Get a f**ing grip!! Don't throw it all away. Nothing is wrong. Why do I feel this way???
    NowGoBringMeTheHorizon NowGoBringMeTheHorizon 18-21, F Jul 8, 2014

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    There is so much **** going on with me.

    That and i done some vary ******* wrong things i feel like i deserve that pain
    Frozenfireflies Frozenfireflies 13-15, M 4 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    Wow... Tonight... I want soo bad!

    !! To cut!!! My body is screaming for it... I just want to stop feeling.... I hate life... I hate everything (or almost everything there are some who help me not hate everything they mean the most to me) But ... I won't. I won't cut... I won't... I won't... I told myself I'd...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    Its been two days i cant keep it up.

    I really wanna cut and its hard to control this urge. Today wasnt the best of days and I hate myself for it. My parents hate me, im gonna flunk in my courses, and i will never be worth something for anyone to be in a relationship with. Im going to sleep, and i pray i dont wake...
    LifeOnAThread LifeOnAThread 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 12, 2014

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    I just don't care anymore.

    I'm starting to not care if people know. If people see. I just don't care. I feel like everyone already judges me and hates me, it wouldn't make a difference. Maybe if they knew, people would actually care. I doubt that though. The more time goes on, the worse it gets. People...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 1 Response May 16, 2014

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    A Year.... Wasted.

    I promised myself I wouldn't, but the promise really wasn't for me, it was for my little brother. He said "If you cut, I can cut too". So, I promised him, and myself that I would stop. I did. For a whole year. It was tough, REALLY tough, but his love, and his courage got me...
    bbmango16 bbmango16 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    It's been 3 years. I want to

    so bad. My skins practically itchy I wanna see the white flesh. The way it splits. First pink then white then full of blood. Flayed open. It'll take me away. Distract me from how alone I feel. I want to so bad But I'm afraid no one will love me if I do. And I'll be even...
    thebeautifulprincess thebeautifulprincess 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 20

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    I really feel like cutting.

    .. But it may end badly...
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    I've gained an addiction to cutting,

    and now I HAVE to do it whether I'm sad or angry or even happy at times, when the urge hits me no matter where I am or who's around I have to do it. I do, do it.
    Tamika123 Tamika123 16-17, F 3 Responses May 9, 2014

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    I Hate Myself And Cut For No Reason

    I'm 16. I'm very unsociable and don't like the company of many people. I only have one really good friend, but i go to a really tough school and have to spend most of my time doing homework. I have trouble paying attention to the boring stuff they teach in that awful place, so it...
    invisiblechild0 invisiblechild0 18-21, F 15 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    I'm tired of fighting.

    I'm out of strength. I'm tired of life. I just need to cut.
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 25, 2014

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    Know The Feeling?

    I feel alone in a room full of people and cutting just sounds so good right now.
    WanderingRanger WanderingRanger 22-25, M 4 Responses Oct 28, 2013

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    Why do I feel this way.

    It like a craving, it's so hard not to just grab a knife right then and now and start cutting. I'm depressed. I'm hurting. Ever since my parents started fighting more and more. The craving been growing. will someone even care if I start cutting?Will someone even love me? Maybe...
    zoeyflower zoeyflower 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    I lost my razor and was about a good 2 month

    since I have cut myself. I felt like part of myself was missing when I lost it. I sometimes have this urge to cut myself. Then I don't. But I suddenly did. And it felt empty and whole. Like a happy medium. It feels right and yet I know it's so wrong.
    NocturnalMiss23 NocturnalMiss23 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    i want to cut so deep

    that i see a lot of blood. my flashbacks are ruining my life and i cant be happy anymore
    elephant17 elephant17 18-21, F 2 Responses May 18, 2014

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    You guys there's a better solution,

    if you guys ever need someone to talk to I'm here.
    lilay98 lilay98 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 24, 2014

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    I crave it i wanna feel the cold blade across

    my pale flesh an watch my ruby blood create a river....maybe then i will be free
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 18-21, M Feb 19

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    I'm fifteen. I'm a sophomore

    and I've been continually depressed since last summer when the first girl I legitimately fell for got really mad at me and then moved away. I just sent her a text asking about the shirtless guy on her grandma's couch. I don't have her number anymore (I deleted just early...
    GuiltyLover GuiltyLover 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 17

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    I have been going down the list,

    and seeing what people have been posting about this and to be honest it does hurt me to read some of them. I see more post from girls then guys and I know to a point the reasons I did it up until about a year ago, were for different reasons, and I am not putting down anybody...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 2 Responses Feb 24, 2014

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    Great...just great...

    i can't remember where's my blade now....
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 9 Responses Feb 12

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    Just now all I want to do us cut,

    I don't ask much of anyone but this time I was hoping for someone to talk to me.....and no one is interested all I need is someone to talk to, so I forget about the urge to cut. And it's like no one gives a damn So I think there's only one thing for it And give up......
    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 26

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    I never in a million years thought I would be

    at the point where I thought hurting myself was the only answer. But I'm there. It is the most real and terrifying thought that has ever crossed my mind. I have never actually done it. I am too afraid of the scars it will leave. But I have started pinching myself so hard that it...
    dressydreamer dressydreamer 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    homesickbaby homesickbaby 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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