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I Want to Cut Myself Now

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    it's getting incredibly hard to resist right

    now...i keep trying to go to sleep but it's hard to when i have this urge..i know i probably sound really pathetic and i know i'm probably full of **** that no one will probably won't believe me, but honestly i'm not asking for anyones help or for them to feel sorry for me i...
    Rememberme79 Rememberme79 16-17, M Aug 23

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    A Year.... Wasted.

    I promised myself I wouldn't, but the promise really wasn't for me, it was for my little brother. He said "If you cut, I can cut too". So, I promised him, and myself that I would stop. I did. For a whole year. It was tough, REALLY tough, but his love, and his courage got me...
    bbmango16 bbmango16 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    I don't even know why.

    I think seeing the scars and newest cuts on my hip set me off. I just...I don't know!!! Music can only help so much. I want to sit here and scratch at my hip but I can't exactly do that in class. I feel the need to carry my blade with me everyday now, but I don't think I can...
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 16-17 1 Response May 6

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    I'm honestly rather addicted to cutting myself.

    I stopped 5 years ago but recently relapsed. I don't want to be like that either, but the pain from cutting makes me feel better. I really hate having scars and having to face people questioning me.
    Verasayshi Verasayshi 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I just don't care anymore.

    I'm starting to not care if people know. If people see. I just don't care. I feel like everyone already judges me and hates me, it wouldn't make a difference. Maybe if they knew, people would actually care. I doubt that though. The more time goes on, the worse it gets. People...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 1 Response May 16

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    Here It Goes..

    I don't know what this is.. Or who reads this, but hello! Within the past two weeks, I've started cutting. I haven't cut in four years, but now it's coming back. And the ability to be able to show what I'm feeling on the inside, on the outside, is amazing to me.. I was also...
    MaddelynneJannessa MaddelynneJannessa 18-21, F 16 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    Cravings

    There are some days, weeks even, where the thoughts of sliding the smooth blade of my knife into my skin flood my head. There's something so satisfying about the pain. The little teardrops of red running over the curve of my wrist. The way my teeth grit, and my eyes plead with me...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 3, 2011

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    Beautiful

              I'm possessed. My whole life is focused on this one thing: cutting. when I'm not doing it, I'm wondering when i will again, how to hide the scars, the scabs. where am i going to get new bandages, Neosporen, razor blades. I started carrying a blade with me in my...
    screamingsilently screamingsilently 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 12, 2012

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    I cut myself again and I want to do more.

    Sometimes it never goes away.
    nofrankinway nofrankinway 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 21

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    I've gained an addiction to cutting,

    and now I HAVE to do it whether I'm sad or angry or even happy at times, when the urge hits me no matter where I am or who's around I have to do it. I do, do it.
    Tamika123 Tamika123 16-17, F 4 Responses May 9

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    I Hate Myself And Cut For No Reason

    I'm 16. I'm very unsociable and don't like the company of many people. I only have one really good friend, but i go to a really tough school and have to spend most of my time doing homework. I have trouble paying attention to the boring stuff they teach in that awful place, so it...
    invisiblechild0 invisiblechild0 18-21, F 14 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    "NO LIMBS, NO LIMITS!

    " I am going to probably write one of the harshest comments in public now, but I think it is my duty, I can't stand to just stare and keep reading without reacting, so first of all, have a read this: http://www.irishmirror.ie/female/health/teenager-born-without-limbs-revealed...
    TNTandCHOCOLATE TNTandCHOCOLATE 31-35 Sep 7

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    I never in a million years thought I would be

    at the point where I thought hurting myself was the only answer. But I'm there. It is the most real and terrifying thought that has ever crossed my mind. I have never actually done it. I am too afraid of the scars it will leave. But I have started pinching myself so hard that it...
    dressydreamer dressydreamer 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 10

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    Don't. Don't. Don't. Stop it.

    Weak. You are so freaking weak. Get a f**ing grip!! Don't throw it all away. Nothing is wrong. Why do I feel this way???
    NowGoBringMeTheHorizon NowGoBringMeTheHorizon 18-21, F Jul 8

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    Sigh. This just isn't getting any easier,

    is it? I'm so tempted to take that nice fresh new blade out of the only pencil sharpener that I have that's never been taken apart... I keep trying to find enough reasons not to cut that it outweighs the crushing desire to do so, but I'm running out of reasons here... :/
    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613 16-17, F 2 Responses May 6

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    I hurt so bad. I tried

    so hard. I wrote a poem, worked a little on my book, worked on my drawing for my friend...but it hurts too much and my wrists are hot with need to relieve the pressure and I don't know how much longer I can hold off...there's a razor right here and I want it so much I can barely...
    ForeverBlueForeverAlone ForeverBlueForeverAlone 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 27

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    Right now I want to be able to cut myself

    so that blood just comes out in gushes I want to do that and then watch it as I am listening to some of my favorite music I want to do this right now but what comes to mind isn't "suicide and cutting don't help" what comes to mind is "I don't know how to cut like that. Worthless...
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 4

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    DONT Want to Think About It

    i have those thoughts in my head i have those emotions in my heart i wanna talk i need some1 by my side   they told me many times before " when ever u need me i'll be there " i need them now and i cant find them i feel like cutting my hand and i...
    aysha7 aysha7 18-21, F 9 Responses May 12, 2009

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    I want to so badly. I haven't in a decent while

    and I won't do it too much or too deep. My girlfriend doesn't want me to do it but it makes me feel better, I can only hurt myself not her
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm three weeks clean.

    .that's the longest I've ever gone, but your body knows what it needs and I need to hurt myself so badly, maybe I can just 'accidentally' fall off of a cliff, get ran over, overdose..just maybe. The thing I don't get is I keep waiting for something to come when I know that it's...
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    Any one has a razor .

    i really need to cut myself and see my blood . I am sick of always hurting myself from inside if I can't stop myself from inside I will do it on the outside.
    DrowningInPain2 DrowningInPain2 13-15, F Apr 4

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    I want to right now but i have to wait a couple

    hours so my parents dont wake up possibly and walk into my room
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M Aug 27

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    There is so much **** going on with me.

    That and i done some vary ******* wrong things i feel like i deserve that pain
    Frozenfireflies Frozenfireflies 13-15, M 6 Responses Jul 12

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    I find myself wanting to cut.

    Been clean for 2 months. Trust me im trying really hard to stay clean. I've been a cutter since i was 13 i think... Was able to stay clean for 3 years after but life gets tough and now im near to getting back to old habits. Its that feeling of wanting to stay clean but wantin...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 16-17, F Sep 19

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    Well my cutting streak

    that was only happening because of people wanting me to stop and my family being around making me not cut is going to end today. Im kind of happy.... Or maybe it's relieved?
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M Sep 5

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    Well, my friend siad domething offense

    and it hurt 😥 i wasnt cutting for her but now im hurt and half no one to go to so i think im going to cut
    Justbeingme14 Justbeingme14 13-15, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    You guys there's a better solution,

    if you guys ever need someone to talk to I'm here.
    lilay98 lilay98 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 24

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    The last day was good.

    But then I spent the whole time thinking it though and it was ok; now everything finally sinking in and all want to do is cut.
    Justbeingme14 Justbeingme14 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 14

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    It's funny....how even

    though you want to die, collapse on the floor and forget about the world...you can lose yourself in the pain...and it makes life that little bit more bearable....
    SuicidalUnicorn SuicidalUnicorn 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 3

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    Release

    The feelings, The screams Are tearing at my insides, They are ripping me to shreds, They are making me cry, .Deafened by there pitch as they grow to a painful level, A painful high! I am filling up and am about to explode, Burst, My heart is turned to stone, I am always alone...
    sazzle82 sazzle82 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    I want to cut myself

    so badly right now. I feel so useless and dumb, and pointless. that's all. i don't even feel like elaborating on that, if im honest
    caffeineeforowls caffeineeforowls 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 16

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    Fighting The Urge

    Lately I feel like my family hates me like they are testing me, I have a razor from a pencil sharpener in my shoebox. But I won't use it I refuse to cut myself because I don't want to hide the cuts, the scars, the razors or the blood. That doesn't stop me from thinking about it...
    Gibby445 Gibby445 13-15, F Dec 15, 2012

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    really miss cutting so much.

    😕 that's all I've been thinking about lately..
    ashleygrierrr ashleygrierrr 13-15, F 19 Responses Jun 28

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    I Dont Know Where I Am

    it sucks to know that feeling sad is normal so you're starting to get used to it and no matter what the sadness wont leave. you try so hard but no. it sucks to self-harm almost everyday and nothing can stop you, you want to do it and continue doing it, it feels good. it sucks to...
    karissaxx22 karissaxx22 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 2, 2012

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    Know The Feeling?

    I feel alone in a room full of people and cutting just sounds so good right now.
    WanderingRanger WanderingRanger 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 28, 2013

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    i want to cut so deep

    that i see a lot of blood. my flashbacks are ruining my life and i cant be happy anymore
    elephant17 elephant17 18-21, F 2 Responses May 18

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    TheHouseElf TheHouseElf 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 20

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    I hate it when people think they can bully you

    everyday, I am jst sick and tired of it. Ive had it with the bullying and the physical scars i get rom working and fighting and exhausted. Im just done
    firecrystal216 firecrystal216 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 15

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T 1 Response 3 days ago

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    merrianneyeah merrianneyeah 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 8

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    Being yelled at really makes me want to cut.

    My life also really makes me want to cut. And lately it's been difficult to find something that would cut deep and cause a lot of blood shed. Sometimes I feel as if I deserve the pain and blood loss. Sometimes I cry when I cut, other times I don't. I usually use scissors to cut...
    NeonPurple NeonPurple 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    I have been having these STRONG urges to cut I

    am trying to stop for my girlfriend but it's hard to do it for someone else :(
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M Sep 19

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    My daemons are screaming at me telling me I

    need to, I want to, I have to. I scream "NO!" Want to put it down but my hand just won't let go
    Error404nameunknown Error404nameunknown 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 4

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    I am just sitting here.

    .. Putting my feelings in a word document... doesn't help much... I don't think i want to live much longer... the sun is being drown out... i can no longer see the light
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 30

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    Theycallherelly Theycallherelly 13-15, F 5 Responses Sep 2

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    I have been going down the list,

    and seeing what people have been posting about this and to be honest it does hurt me to read some of them. I see more post from girls then guys and I know to a point the reasons I did it up until about a year ago, were for different reasons, and I am not putting down anybody...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 2 Responses Feb 24

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    What is the point in living

    when all you want to do is die, nobody talks when they do we argue, nobody would care if I died so whats the point in living...😣
    emma760 emma760 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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    For those that don't understand.

    .. It's rather complicated to explain self harm.. There are many many aspects of it... Only one of which.. The one I'm dealing with currently.. Am I going to focus on in this post.. It is hard to explain... When I started self harming I thought it was extremely weird that...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 21

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    I want to I've been wanting

    so much lastly after last week when I almost went a little to deep I got scared but it been to hard not too do it I have to!!!!!!!!!! But this I want cut till I die
    Justbeingme14 Justbeingme14 13-15, F Aug 30

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    AGH I CAN'T ******* HOLD NYSELF TOGETHER.

    The only thing I was decently good at was school and now my grades are failing. I just don't know why I'm here on this earth. The only people who want me around are online **** this
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    It's been so long since I've had the blood

    running down my arm and leg.. but I miss the feeling of just letting everything out. I need that feeling of release, and I believe this is the only way of getting it. I'm sorry for my broken promises.
    KittyTittyGang KittyTittyGang 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 26

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    My Pleasure

    it seems like a pleasure to cut it feels like it can be my only sense of release. i feel like im slipping into a depression and i dont enjoy expressing feelings to people i know. ive been seeing a school psychologist but its not really helping it just makes me feel worse because...
    karissaxx22 karissaxx22 16-17, F 8 Responses May 7, 2012

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    Me Vs Razor

    I sat in my room staring at "my razor blade" for about 10mins feeling so lost'd and having loneliness eatting away at my soul and heart. It was drowing me and couldn't breath. I wanted to cut so bad... But I called my best friend and talk to her about it.. She cried a lot and...
    DarkAngel0309 DarkAngel0309 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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