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I Want to Cut Myself Now

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    I have been going down the list,

    and seeing what people have been posting about this and to be honest it does hurt me to read some of them. I see more post from girls then guys and I know to a point the reasons I did it up until about a year ago, were for different reasons, and I am not putting down anybody...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 2 Responses Feb 24, 2014

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    I want to but I know I shouldn't I know

    that it won't help and I know it will just make me feel worse after but even then cutting for me is like I'm in a ocean blind folded I can't see where I'm going and im walking deeper and deeper into this massive ocean soon I can't breath and I'm choking im slowly dying and for...
    Alli13146 Alli13146 13-15, F Jan 11

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    Can someone talk to me?

    ??? I'm feeling so alone......
    Cocosavethetatas Cocosavethetatas 22-25, F 8 Responses Oct 15, 2014

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    I Hate Myself And Cut For No Reason

    I'm 16. I'm very unsociable and don't like the company of many people. I only have one really good friend, but i go to a really tough school and have to spend most of my time doing homework. I have trouble paying attention to the boring stuff they teach in that awful place, so it...
    invisiblechild0 invisiblechild0 18-21, F 14 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    Cravings

    There are some days, weeks even, where the thoughts of sliding the smooth blade of my knife into my skin flood my head. There's something so satisfying about the pain. The little teardrops of red running over the curve of my wrist. The way my teeth grit, and my eyes plead with me...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 3, 2011

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    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M Jan 12

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    everything is just crashing all around me.

    everyday i feel alone despite having a sister and girlfriend i never feel properly welcome always a outcast. as for my girlfriend i dont think shes trusts me :( and my sister says she cares but when i need her she tells me shes too busy or whatever to talk im sick of feeling...
    CrySweetRaven CrySweetRaven 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2014

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    I really feel like cutting,

    I wanna cut away all hurt all the pain, all the sorrow, all my failures, all my screwups. I deserve to cut deep and a lot.
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    Know The Feeling?

    I feel alone in a room full of people and cutting just sounds so good right now.
    WanderingRanger WanderingRanger 22-25, M 4 Responses Oct 28, 2013

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    I never have before,

    but I really want to right now. I want my body to feel the pain that my mind has to go through. I dont even really know what Im upset about right now. Everything just seems to keep piling up. I cant take this anymore. Either the stress is going to kill me....or Im going to kill...
    lostandlonleysoul lostandlonleysoul 16-17, F Jan 12

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    ... and die. Life sucks.

    Living in this world is hard to do.
    PoopieNoodle PoopieNoodle 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    Sigh. This just isn't getting any easier,

    is it? I'm so tempted to take that nice fresh new blade out of the only pencil sharpener that I have that's never been taken apart... I keep trying to find enough reasons not to cut that it outweighs the crushing desire to do so, but I'm running out of reasons here... :/
    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6, 2014

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    A Year.... Wasted.

    I promised myself I wouldn't, but the promise really wasn't for me, it was for my little brother. He said "If you cut, I can cut too". So, I promised him, and myself that I would stop. I did. For a whole year. It was tough, REALLY tough, but his love, and his courage got me...
    bbmango16 bbmango16 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    the same thing every day day in day out the

    same thoughts the same struggle.. but then it stops dead for a few seconds almost minutes nothing but relief...
    CrySweetRaven CrySweetRaven 13-15, F Dec 17, 2014

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    Being yelled at really makes me want to cut.

    My life also really makes me want to cut. And lately it's been difficult to find something that would cut deep and cause a lot of blood shed. Sometimes I feel as if I deserve the pain and blood loss. Sometimes I cry when I cut, other times I don't. I usually use scissors to cut...
    NeonPurple NeonPurple 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    I never in a million years thought I would be

    at the point where I thought hurting myself was the only answer. But I'm there. It is the most real and terrifying thought that has ever crossed my mind. I have never actually done it. I am too afraid of the scars it will leave. But I have started pinching myself so hard that it...
    dressydreamer dressydreamer 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    I'm tired of fighting.

    I'm out of strength. I'm tired of life. I just need to cut.
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 25, 2014

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    Just now all I want to do us cut,

    I don't ask much of anyone but this time I was hoping for someone to talk to me.....and no one is interested all I need is someone to talk to, so I forget about the urge to cut. And it's like no one gives a damn So I think there's only one thing for it And give up......
    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    There is so much **** going on with me.

    That and i done some vary ******* wrong things i feel like i deserve that pain
    Frozenfireflies Frozenfireflies 13-15, M 4 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    Wow... Tonight... I want soo bad!

    !! To cut!!! My body is screaming for it... I just want to stop feeling.... I hate life... I hate everything (or almost everything there are some who help me not hate everything they mean the most to me) But ... I won't. I won't cut... I won't... I won't... I told myself I'd...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    You guys there's a better solution,

    if you guys ever need someone to talk to I'm here.
    lilay98 lilay98 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 24, 2014

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    mysticalgem mysticalgem 13-15, F Dec 21, 2014

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    So I'm back....I didn't kill myself

    although I tried.....I'm doing so much better...except for right now I wanna cut really bad
    baileyzook baileyzook 13-15, F Jan 12

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    My 7 months clean can go to hell.

    Im done. I really want to feel my blade slice my wrist again. Feelin that relieve again. Oh god..
    WarriorPoet97 WarriorPoet97 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I Dont Know Where I Am

    it sucks to know that feeling sad is normal so you're starting to get used to it and no matter what the sadness wont leave. you try so hard but no. it sucks to self-harm almost everyday and nothing can stop you, you want to do it and continue doing it, it feels good. it sucks to...
    karissaxx22 karissaxx22 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 2, 2012

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    I won't cut deep enough to die.

    just keep enough to see the blood and numb the pain
    isohatetheworld isohatetheworld 70+, F 1 Response a week ago

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    OMG!!! I would love to cut myself tonight

    but im having to sleep on the sofa and look after my mum because she had an operation today xxx
    james3950 james3950 13-15, M Dec 20, 2014

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    I have no idea why. I've never done it before.

    Right now I'm feeling so stressed, it seems like the only way to make it go away.
    tiki18 tiki18 13-15, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I need to get rid of all this hurt

    and pain. Sometimes the blade is all you have...
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    I'm fifteen. I'm a sophomore

    and I've been continually depressed since last summer when the first girl I legitimately fell for got really mad at me and then moved away. I just sent her a text asking about the shirtless guy on her grandma's couch. I don't have her number anymore (I deleted just early...
    GuiltyLover GuiltyLover 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 17

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    "Blood flows.It is RED.

      Blood flows.It doesn't STOP.  Blood flows.It is BEAUTIFUL.  Blood flows.It is ART.  Blood flows.It never ENDS."I just drew this. Decided to post here because, well, anonymity. Kinda feel down. But...haven't cut- yet. Progress is progress, yeah...
    MyNameMeansLight MyNameMeansLight 16-17, F Dec 25, 2014

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    really miss cutting so much.

    😕 that's all I've been thinking about lately..
    ashleygrierrr ashleygrierrr 13-15, F 19 Responses Jun 28, 2014

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    Its been two days i cant keep it up.

    I really wanna cut and its hard to control this urge. Today wasnt the best of days and I hate myself for it. My parents hate me, im gonna flunk in my courses, and i will never be worth something for anyone to be in a relationship with. Im going to sleep, and i pray i dont wake...
    LifeOnAThread LifeOnAThread 18-21, F 7 Responses Oct 12, 2014

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    My daemons are screaming at me telling me I

    need to, I want to, I have to. I scream "NO!" Want to put it down but my hand just won't let go
    Error404nameunknown Error404nameunknown 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    I want to die. I feel like no one loves me.

    I'm with my parents and they tell me they love me and all that but I just feel like everyone hates me.
    BringMeTheHorizon14 BringMeTheHorizon14 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I'm home by myself...

    . I've been really triggered to hurt myself lately .-. Now seeing my arms with out a long sleeve shirt on... God I want to take a kitchen knife to my wrist
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    Everything has just gone downhill.

    I want to stop, but I can't. I'm sick of feeling unloved and numb. 😔
    ahsaddict ahsaddict 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    I can't because I threw out my blades.

    I am going crazy with out it. I don't know how to deal with my feelings like a normal human. I don't know I guess I'll ***** my problems out on this site... I'm good at that.
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    Me Vs Razor

    I sat in my room staring at "my razor blade" for about 10mins feeling so lost'd and having loneliness eatting away at my soul and heart. It was drowing me and couldn't breath. I wanted to cut so bad... But I called my best friend and talk to her about it.. She cried a lot and...
    DarkAngel0309 DarkAngel0309 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    Here It Goes..

    I don't know what this is.. Or who reads this, but hello! Within the past two weeks, I've started cutting. I haven't cut in four years, but now it's coming back. And the ability to be able to show what I'm feeling on the inside, on the outside, is amazing to me.. I was also...
    MaddelynneJannessa MaddelynneJannessa 18-21, F 16 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    jackalfredthegr8 jackalfredthegr8 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 17

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    it's really hard to not cut myself right now,

    but i don't know how much longer i can hold on, all the hateful comments, being blamed for things I've never done, school is not helping either...i just want to die.
    EyelessGlitch EyelessGlitch 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I tried so hard to resist cutting I begged

    myself I told myself I couldn't I even went through the torture of hiding it through my ahead again but I gave in and once j was insulted by my family for the last time I ran to my room locked the door and just kept cutting I wish I hadn't but it's to late now j guess I'm just a...
    sadnesskillsme sadnesskillsme 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    Any one has a razor .

    i really need to cut myself and see my blood . I am sick of always hurting myself from inside if I can't stop myself from inside I will do it on the outside.
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F Apr 4, 2014

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    Why do I feel this way.

    It like a craving, it's so hard not to just grab a knife right then and now and start cutting. I'm depressed. I'm hurting. Ever since my parents started fighting more and more. The craving been growing. will someone even care if I start cutting?Will someone even love me? Maybe...
    zoeyflower zoeyflower 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    Fighting The Urge

    Lately I feel like my family hates me like they are testing me, I have a razor from a pencil sharpener in my shoebox. But I won't use it I refuse to cut myself because I don't want to hide the cuts, the scars, the razors or the blood. That doesn't stop me from thinking about it...
    Gibby445 Gibby445 13-15, F Dec 15, 2012

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    I've gained an addiction to cutting,

    and now I HAVE to do it whether I'm sad or angry or even happy at times, when the urge hits me no matter where I am or who's around I have to do it. I do, do it.
    Tamika123 Tamika123 16-17, F 3 Responses May 9, 2014

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    I just don't care anymore.

    I'm starting to not care if people know. If people see. I just don't care. I feel like everyone already judges me and hates me, it wouldn't make a difference. Maybe if they knew, people would actually care. I doubt that though. The more time goes on, the worse it gets. People...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 1 Response May 16, 2014

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    DONT Want to Think About It

    i have those thoughts in my head i have those emotions in my heart i wanna talk i need some1 by my side   they told me many times before " when ever u need me i'll be there " i need them now and i cant find them i feel like cutting my hand and i...
    aysha7 aysha7 18-21, F 9 Responses May 12, 2009

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    merrianneyeah merrianneyeah 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 8, 2014

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    I just want to release pain.

    Crying in shower. I wanna cut so bad.
    cutemonkey cutemonkey 13-15, F