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I Want to Cut Myself Now

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    i cant take everything i hate myself to feel

    the cold blade across my skin see the blood dripping down to get some relief of this daily torment
    givenupforever givenupforever 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    There is so much **** going on with me.

    That and i done some vary ******* wrong things i feel like i deserve that pain
    Frozenfireflies Frozenfireflies 13-15, M 4 Responses Jul 12, 2014

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    Cravings

    There are some days, weeks even, where the thoughts of sliding the smooth blade of my knife into my skin flood my head. There's something so satisfying about the pain. The little teardrops of red running over the curve of my wrist. The way my teeth grit, and my eyes plead with me...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 3, 2011

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    I never in a million years thought I would be

    at the point where I thought hurting myself was the only answer. But I'm there. It is the most real and terrifying thought that has ever crossed my mind. I have never actually done it. I am too afraid of the scars it will leave. But I have started pinching myself so hard that it...
    dressydreamer dressydreamer 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    Can someone talk to me?

    ??? I'm feeling so alone......
    Cocosavethetatas Cocosavethetatas 22-25, F 9 Responses Oct 15, 2014

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    I finally tell them and they dont believe it I

    show them proof they still dont and they block me over it...hes always gonna get what he wants and say what he wants to me and they wont care because they dont believe hes like that...he egs me on into cutting and tonight ill break and take it to my arms and they wont see...
    lostbrokeheart lostbrokeheart 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 26

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    homesickbaby homesickbaby 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 26

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    i promised my best friend

    that i wouldnt cut myself and im 26 days clean but i just feel so empty and sad and terrible and idk i feel like cutting is the only way that i can take care of myself.
    bandsth0 bandsth0 13-15, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I took off my bracelets

    and saw my scars and my bracelet marks too
    elephant17 elephant17 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    Just one, from my wrist to my elbow.

    That sounds like a fantastic idea.
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 7 Responses Apr 2

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    Any one has a razor .

    i really need to cut myself and see my blood . I am sick of always hurting myself from inside if I can't stop myself from inside I will do it on the outside.
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F Apr 4, 2014

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    school is really stressing me out.

    im feeling overwhelmed and im getting mad at myself and im having all these thoughts to just take my anger out on myself and just cut. i feel like giving up on life but i dont want to take the easy way out. i feel like complete crap. i really dont know whats wrong with me. i...
    perksofbeingdepressed perksofbeingdepressed 16-17, F 7 Responses Jan 28

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    There's no pain anymore,

    I cut and there's no pain, the blood runs down my arm and it's cold, there's no warmth. where do I go to feel??
    crabspanner crabspanner 36-40, M Mar 4

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    I haven't cut myself in

    such a long time. It's been months since I've had urges but I really want to hurt myself and tear myself apart today. I don't know what to do. I can't get my mind off of it. I need someone to talk to. Idk what to do anymore... ):
    burningcolors burningcolors 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    Know The Feeling?

    I feel alone in a room full of people and cutting just sounds so good right now.
    WanderingRanger WanderingRanger 22-25, M 4 Responses Oct 28, 2013

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    I have never self-harmed.

    I have delay with depression for about five years now and this is the first time cutting has ever crossed my mind. I have the sudden urge to do it and I'm very scared. I really don't know what to do.
    Tiledoqueen Tiledoqueen 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    There's always moments like this

    where I just have the incredible urge to cut myself. Thanks family. I love you too.
    PrincessPolarBear PrincessPolarBear 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    Why is everything so ******* depressing?

    Why am I such a failure? I fail...that's why I'm here, to fail and let people down...
    EmbraceTheEVIL EmbraceTheEVIL 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 2

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    yeah well... life is just great.

    like anyone'd care. I'm just depressing to be around. people don't want to be around someone who brings them down. I try to act okay. but it doesn't work. I'm like the ball at the end of everyone I know's chain. I drag them down. If the ball wasn't there.. then they'd be...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 4

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    I hate myself for being

    so needy. so clingy. I feel so stupid for... being me. I dont want to be alone... but maybe I really am a bad girlfriend. Im trying not to cut but... I feel like I need to punish myself.
    Bigcat1697 Bigcat1697 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    jackalfredthegr8 jackalfredthegr8 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 17

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    Urges, urges. Seeing my scars fade is

    such a huge trigger, it makes me want to remake them. I'm 16 days clean, I miss it. I think I'll take a shower and eat something and take a nap. *******, I wish I hadn't ever started.
    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    It's been 3 years. I want to

    so bad. My skins practically itchy I wanna see the white flesh. The way it splits. First pink then white then full of blood. Flayed open. It'll take me away. Distract me from how alone I feel. I want to so bad But I'm afraid no one will love me if I do. And I'll be even...
    thebeautifulprincess thebeautifulprincess 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 20

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    A Year.... Wasted.

    I promised myself I wouldn't, but the promise really wasn't for me, it was for my little brother. He said "If you cut, I can cut too". So, I promised him, and myself that I would stop. I did. For a whole year. It was tough, REALLY tough, but his love, and his courage got me...
    bbmango16 bbmango16 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    I Dont Know Where I Am

    it sucks to know that feeling sad is normal so you're starting to get used to it and no matter what the sadness wont leave. you try so hard but no. it sucks to self-harm almost everyday and nothing can stop you, you want to do it and continue doing it, it feels good. it sucks to...
    karissaxx22 karissaxx22 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 2, 2012

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    Being yelled at really makes me want to cut.

    My life also really makes me want to cut. And lately it's been difficult to find something that would cut deep and cause a lot of blood shed. Sometimes I feel as if I deserve the pain and blood loss. Sometimes I cry when I cut, other times I don't. I usually use scissors to cut...
    NeonPurple NeonPurple 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    Sigh. This just isn't getting any easier,

    is it? I'm so tempted to take that nice fresh new blade out of the only pencil sharpener that I have that's never been taken apart... I keep trying to find enough reasons not to cut that it outweighs the crushing desire to do so, but I'm running out of reasons here... :/
    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6, 2014

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    I was caught cutting

    and had no option but to stop. I'm 41 days clean and I am so triggered. I'm going insane, I really need to cut. I just don't know where. I can't cut on my wrist otherwise they'll catch me again. I'm just way too scared that they might find out again. It was bad enough the first...
    smgasf smgasf 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 8

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    My blade is dull and I'm digging deeper.

    I can't cut my wrist anymore, to many people are noticing. So I'm cutting my thigh.
    Adridee Adridee 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 24

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    I have been going down the list,

    and seeing what people have been posting about this and to be honest it does hurt me to read some of them. I see more post from girls then guys and I know to a point the reasons I did it up until about a year ago, were for different reasons, and I am not putting down anybody...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 2 Responses Feb 24, 2014

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    Me Vs Razor

    I sat in my room staring at "my razor blade" for about 10mins feeling so lost'd and having loneliness eatting away at my soul and heart. It was drowing me and couldn't breath. I wanted to cut so bad... But I called my best friend and talk to her about it.. She cried a lot and...
    DarkAngel0309 DarkAngel0309 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    Screw pretending to be happy.

    This is EP. I can be as depressing and miserable as I want. I can't stand this. I want to slash my arm open but I can't because I have to pretend to be fine. I have to wake up each day and smile and laugh and make jokes and act like the happiest freaking kid alive when all I...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 5 Responses Mar 21

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    It's been 8 months. I still haven't had the

    guts to throw my blades away, they're like my safety blanket, always there when I need them, but I've been doing well anyway. Especially when you consider what I have had to deal with in these 8 months. I was diagnosed with a chronic illness (POTS) and wasn't able to leave the...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F Mar 22

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    I've been clean for two months,

    but honestly I don't want to be anymore, I need to, or at least I feel like I need to, I just need it ti stop, I need to feel okay again at least for a little while. I know I should think of what'll happen if I cut again after this long clean (longest clean I've been in three...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    DONT Want to Think About It

    i have those thoughts in my head i have those emotions in my heart i wanna talk i need some1 by my side   they told me many times before " when ever u need me i'll be there " i need them now and i cant find them i feel like cutting my hand and i...
    aysha7 aysha7 18-21, F 9 Responses May 12, 2009

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    lileva lileva 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 26

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    really miss cutting so much.

    😕 that's all I've been thinking about lately..
    ashleygrierrr ashleygrierrr 13-15, F 18 Responses Jun 28, 2014

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    I feel that this need becomes an addiction

    and I keep chasing the next high here. I have stopping myself for the past week pretty much but I am so need of a fix right now. I don't know what to do as the warm weather is coming and it will cause questions to stay in long sleeve shirts all the time. Where do others cut...
    jacqueline1972 jacqueline1972 36-40, T 2 Responses Apr 6

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    not even going out on a Friday.

    not been to work can't face anything. FML
    CheatingTracy CheatingTracy 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 6

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    I Hate Myself And Cut For No Reason

    I'm 16. I'm very unsociable and don't like the company of many people. I only have one really good friend, but i go to a really tough school and have to spend most of my time doing homework. I have trouble paying attention to the boring stuff they teach in that awful place, so it...
    invisiblechild0 invisiblechild0 18-21, F 16 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    Beautiful

              I'm possessed. My whole life is focused on this one thing: cutting. when I'm not doing it, I'm wondering when i will again, how to hide the scars, the scabs. where am i going to get new bandages, Neosporen, razor blades. I started carrying a blade with me in my...
    screamingsilently screamingsilently 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 12, 2012

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    I don't even know why.

    I think seeing the scars and newest cuts on my hip set me off. I just...I don't know!!! Music can only help so much. I want to sit here and scratch at my hip but I can't exactly do that in class. I feel the need to carry my blade with me everyday now, but I don't think I can...
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 18-21 1 Response May 6, 2014

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    I wanna cut myself now.

    ...I messed up on so much I thought I knew things thought I had it figured out turns out I was all wrong and things r worser then what they seem
    lostbrokeheart lostbrokeheart 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    Its been two days i cant keep it up.

    I really wanna cut and its hard to control this urge. Today wasnt the best of days and I hate myself for it. My parents hate me, im gonna flunk in my courses, and i will never be worth something for anyone to be in a relationship with. Im going to sleep, and i pray i dont wake...
    LifeOnAThread LifeOnAThread 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 12, 2014

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    merrianneyeah merrianneyeah 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 8, 2014

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