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I Want to Cut Myself Now

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    Please read the following artical...it may help...you are not alone:       Young People Ask . . . Do I Hurt Myself? “I cut my wrists so bad I had to get stitches. At the time, I told the doctor that I cut myself on a light bulb...
    pro390 pro390 46-50 2 Responses Feb 28, 2009

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    Honestly I just cut myself

    because I had a fight and It just makes me made when people say stuff about it behind my back!!
    Caityabraham Caityabraham 18-21, F Apr 9

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    I started cutting a couple years ago,

    on and off, never anything too serious. Recently I started back up again and I am having a harder time controlling the urge not to..
    carryonlipbalm carryonlipbalm 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    My Pleasure

    it seems like a pleasure to cut it feels like it can be my only sense of release. i feel like im slipping into a depression and i dont enjoy expressing feelings to people i know. ive been seeing a school psychologist but its not really helping it just makes me feel worse because...
    karissaxx22 karissaxx22 16-17, F 7 Responses May 7, 2012

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    Im Living In Hell And Its My Fault

    I've Been Bullied Ever Since Pre-k. It Never Got Serious Untill My First Year In Middle School. I Was In 6th Grade ... I Had A Loving Boyfriend Buht I Messed It Up When I Had Cheated On Him. He Didnt Go To My School Buht This Other Guy Did. So When People Found Out Thats When The...
    llilsecret llilsecret 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2012

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    Being yelled at really makes me want to cut.

    My life also really makes me want to cut. And lately it's been difficult to find something that would cut deep and cause a lot of blood shed. Sometimes I feel as if I deserve the pain and blood loss. Sometimes I cry when I cut, other times I don't. I usually use scissors to cut...
    NeonPurple NeonPurple 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    20th day clean today,

    it's amazing but right know there's nothing else I want to do. I try to keep myself busy, but I don't think I can handle it tonight
    wxnbz4713 wxnbz4713 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I do. And then bleed to death.

    Ahhhhhh amazing... To just die while knowing no one will care c: just super amazing
    loveyanoone loveyanoone 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 26

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    Really Struggling

    Lately I've been really struggling with urges to self harm. I'm currently 2 months free and everybody in my life is so proud of me but I don't think they really understand how hard it is for me to continue being without self harm. There are days when all I think about is cutting...
    animalwatcher22 animalwatcher22 22-25, F 6 Responses Jun 22, 2013

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    I'v been clean for 2 weeks

    but i broke that tonight...i just couldn't take it anymore...i didn't know what else to do...
    Rememberme79 Rememberme79 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 31

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    Fuuck!!! I was clean

    for like three weeks, but yesterday I was drunk and stupid. The most annoying thing is it was such an impulsive action. I wasn't even alone, my boyfriend was asleep in my bed. But I didn't have the courage to tell him how I felt that night. Now I feel so stupid, I regret it so...
    wxnbz4713 wxnbz4713 18-21, F Mar 26

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    I'm about to cut myself I have

    such an urge I love the blade against my skin
    jcarly jcarly 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 3, 2013

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    Clean for six days. It seems like a lifetime.

    I wish someone would shake me and tell me it's okay. I wish someone would really, truly convince me not to cut. The truth is, no one cares. I wish I could tell people about this problem. I can't. All I want to do is cut. My whole arm. I want a billion of them. This not cutting...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    I'm just sitting here right

    now looking for a reason not to cut. I can't find one. I want to feel good. I want to cut.
    jasonpw jasonpw 16-17, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    i'v been clean for 2 weeks

    but my urge has been getting worse and worse each day...my arms start to ache real badly...most times i don't even know what to do anymore...i just wish i could talk to someone who actually understands and cares...
    Rememberme79 Rememberme79 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 20

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    Why does everything always have to be

    so hard? But I guess that's life... I went from one addiction to the other. From self-harming to drugs and then back to self-harming myself.. Now I started a new "addiction", I just wish I could stop hurting myself, but it feels better than anything else. I want to cut myself so...
    MonjaVictor MonjaVictor 16-17, F Apr 1

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    I hate myself, but cutting never

    even makes me feel better. I only want to do it more and harder once I start. It never satisfies me. I hate myself so much and nothing helps. I want to hurt myself because of it, but no matter how much I cut it doesn't help. Nothing helps.
    mysteryhatcat mysteryhatcat 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    I threw my blades away a few days ago

    but I feel so alone right now. I feel sick that I personify them, like they are my friends, but now I've lost them and I don't know what to do with myself. I can still see them in a box on top of my bin and all I want to do is grab them and cut again. I've been 4 days clean but...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 30

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    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 13 Responses 6 days ago

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    I've been clean for 6 weeks now,

    but I just can't fight with myself anymore. I don't want to throw away all the effort i've done to stay clean but its really hard to control my thoughts...
    JuanseVergel JuanseVergel 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've been self harming

    since third grade, and It was on and off. I've been clean for a month, but had a relapse tonight. So much blood.😔
    flinm flinm 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 9

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    I want to cut myself soooooo bad!

    !! Ican feel the the blood running down my arm.I don't know if I'm going to make it!:( :(
    cutekittycat cutekittycat 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 17

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    Cravings

    There are some days, weeks even, where the thoughts of sliding the smooth blade of my knife into my skin flood my head. There's something so satisfying about the pain. The little teardrops of red running over the curve of my wrist. The way my teeth grit, and my eyes plead with me...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 3, 2011

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    Feel

    i find my body not numb, but tingly. i have such a craving to cut myself to feel something other then the tingle. i cut my upper thigh, palms of my hands, and my chest. the tingle feeling rarely ever goes away. when i cut myself i get a relaxed sensation, then i start to feel...
    kylekilla1 kylekilla1 18-21, M 2 Responses May 7, 2013

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    ......I am... I don't know.

    ... I can't.... I have to, I'm going to, I...I can't focus, I want to write, to explain but I don't have any words, I just can't... ....I have to resist.....I...I am alone right now, I don't know what to do......
    BlackRosesTurnBlue BlackRosesTurnBlue 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 28

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    BlackRosesTurnBlue BlackRosesTurnBlue 18-21, F 6 Responses 5 days ago

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    Know The Feeling?

    I feel alone in a room full of people and cutting just sounds so good right now.
    WanderingRanger WanderingRanger 18-21, M 5 Responses Oct 28, 2013

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    A Year.... Wasted.

    I promised myself I wouldn't, but the promise really wasn't for me, it was for my little brother. He said "If you cut, I can cut too". So, I promised him, and myself that I would stop. I did. For a whole year. It was tough, REALLY tough, but his love, and his courage got me...
    bbmango16 bbmango16 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    DONT Want to Think About It

    i have those thoughts in my head i have those emotions in my heart i wanna talk i need some1 by my side   they told me many times before " when ever u need me i'll be there " i need them now and i cant find them i feel like cutting my hand and i...
    aysha7 aysha7 18-21, F 9 Responses May 12, 2009

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    Release

    The feelings, The screams Are tearing at my insides, They are ripping me to shreds, They are making me cry, .Deafened by there pitch as they grow to a painful level, A painful high! I am filling up and am about to explode, Burst, My heart is turned to stone, I am always alone...
    sazzle82 sazzle82 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    I finally got 12 new blades

    and I can't wait to try them out!!!!😝
    bulimicbixtch49 bulimicbixtch49 13-15, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    I Hate Myself And Cut For No Reason

    I'm 16. I'm very unsociable and don't like the company of many people. I only have one really good friend, but i go to a really tough school and have to spend most of my time doing homework. I have trouble paying attention to the boring stuff they teach in that awful place, so it...
    invisiblechild0 invisiblechild0 18-21, F 12 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    I have been going down the list,

    and seeing what people have been posting about this and to be honest it does hurt me to read some of them. I see more post from girls then guys and I know to a point the reasons I did it up until about a year ago, were for different reasons, and I am not putting down anybody...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 2 Responses Feb 24

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    Here It Goes..

    I don't know what this is.. Or who reads this, but hello! Within the past two weeks, I've started cutting. I haven't cut in four years, but now it's coming back. And the ability to be able to show what I'm feeling on the inside, on the outside, is amazing to me.. I was also...
    MaddelynneJannessa MaddelynneJannessa 18-21, F 17 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    Its Been Over A Year Now...

    I haven't cut. But for months I've wanted to. I just broke apart a razor and hid the blades. I hid them in a hiding place I made weeks ago. I find myself running a finger over my scars. I find my stomach fluttering in anticipation thinking about making another. I want to cut so...
    Eimine Eimine 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 3, 2013

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    Beautiful

              I'm possessed. My whole life is focused on this one thing: cutting. when I'm not doing it, I'm wondering when i will again, how to hide the scars, the scabs. where am i going to get new bandages, Neosporen, razor blades. I started carrying a blade with me in my...
    screamingsilently screamingsilently 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 12, 2012

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    Where blood runs black And you keep falling

    back Your feelings attack Hope, you lack So tempting is the blade Images will never fade You hide in the shade But you know....with blood, warmth is made
    Mikesmithg1 Mikesmithg1 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 11

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    I'm A Fighter...

    I've been fighting this addiction since 11 years old, when I started having trouble with my gender. It's not easy being one of us, we fight everyday just to survive, just to stand the dirty looks and the pain. Can you imagine not being able to take off your sweatshirt in 90...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    I've been cutting since 3rd grade.

    Stopped for a year here and there but it kind of controls your life and comes back each time. Wish I didn't have the urge to do so but it helps...
    Rebecca12K Rebecca12K 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    Ugh

    the urge is real omfg. it's all I wanna do, and my past cuts haven't even healed. the razor is right there on the dresser. ****
    unknown1998 unknown1998 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 18, 2013

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    I've been clean for a good few months

    but my depression is just getting too difficult for me to manage.
    emmysauraus emmysauraus 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Any one has a razor .

    i really need to cut myself and see my blood . I am sick of always hurting myself from inside if I can't stop myself from inside I will do it on the outside.
    Lonelyvamp2 Lonelyvamp2 13-15, F Apr 4

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    Please . . . Leave me alone .

    . . Have you not tormented me enough? Please, please, I'm begging you . . . Go away . . . Leave before I become angry. I don't want to hurt you. Listen to me. I will not hesitate to hurt you if you come any closer, if you touch me again . . .
    ForeverFable13 ForeverFable13 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    I really do. I'm only like 2

    or 3 days clean, but I'm just losing hope. I know you don't want me to cut, Spencer, but like I told him, I can't promise anything right now.
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 16-17, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I haven't done it for a month

    and a half but I'm slowly losing my grip and I just really don't want to add to this awful mosaic of scars but I feel like I need it to think clearly I'm so freaking angry at myself for even feeling like this but **** it. I don't want to but I don't know how much longer I can...
    fanatic458 fanatic458 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Me Vs Razor

    I sat in my room staring at "my razor blade" for about 10mins feeling so lost'd and having loneliness eatting away at my soul and heart. It was drowing me and couldn't breath. I wanted to cut so bad... But I called my best friend and talk to her about it.. She cried a lot and...
    DarkAngel0309 DarkAngel0309 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    I feel the urge to cut

    but I'm trying not to! I'm hoping someone being on here and typing how I feel will make the urge lessen but I'm not so sure it will!! All I can think about is how I want to break out in anger and hatred but I know it won't do me any good!! The release from cutting is so...
    ariel2891 ariel2891 22-25, F Mar 22

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    Alone

    One of the many reasons I cut is because I am alone. I could be in a room with a million people and still feel alone. I hate how every little thing makes me want to cut. I am weak, i am sooo weak. And i'm embarassed of all these scars. What am I going to say to people? My friends...
    loveandhope loveandhope 16-17, F 5 Responses Mar 20, 2011

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    I Just Did

    I hate that I do, but I've been dealing with a lot of **** lately and have no way to handle it. I made the mistake of telling my friend that I do it. I'm so scared that she's going to find out that I did it now. It's one thing to hear someone say it, but seeing it...
    oahugirl77 oahugirl77 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 28, 2008

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    I want to so bad and I don't know

    if I can fight the urge...
    Sammi72 Sammi72 13-15, F 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    The emotions I have keep building up

    and they won't stop building I need something to make me stop feeling the pain the sadness the loss will anything ever help me cutting only helps for a while then I regret but I keep doing it nothing will ever help me I've lost all the hope I had.
    zoey4260 zoey4260 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2013

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    I Dont Know Where I Am

    it sucks to know that feeling sad is normal so you're starting to get used to it and no matter what the sadness wont leave. you try so hard but no. it sucks to self-harm almost everyday and nothing can stop you, you want to do it and continue doing it, it feels good. it sucks to...
    karissaxx22 karissaxx22 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 2, 2012

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    4 Am And Its All I Can Think About

    cutting releases endorphins-endorphins relief pain so what do we do when were sad? we cut
    sosick123 sosick123 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 1, 2013

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    I used to but havent

    for a long time. But I still feel like it, its so hard not to.
    Laceyss Laceyss 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I haven't done it for 9 days

    but the urge is just too strong. It's all I can think about. I don't know how much longer I can last.
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    I never in a million years thought I would be

    at the point where I thought hurting myself was the only answer. But I'm there. It is the most real and terrifying thought that has ever crossed my mind. I have never actually done it. I am too afraid of the scars it will leave. But I have started pinching myself so hard that it...
    dressydreamer dressydreamer 18-21, F 7 Responses Mar 10

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    Actually already did.

    My emotions are so mixed right now.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F Mar 28

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