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I Want to Cut Myself Now

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    Here It Goes..

    I don't know what this is.. Or who reads this, but hello! Within the past two weeks, I've started cutting. I haven't cut in four years, but now it's coming back. And the ability to be able to show what I'm feeling on the inside, on the outside, is amazing to me.. I was also...
    MaddelynneJannessa MaddelynneJannessa 18-21, F 16 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    The feelings, The screams Are tearing at my insides, They are ripping me to shreds, They are making me cry, .Deafened by there pitch as they grow to a painful level, A painful high! I am filling up and am about to explode, Burst, My heart is turned to stone, I am always alone...
    sazzle82 sazzle82 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    Know The Feeling?

    I feel alone in a room full of people and cutting just sounds so good right now.
    WanderingRanger WanderingRanger 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 28, 2013

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    I'm really angry. Two months ago this guy

    rejected me, without even trying to get to know me, because he says he wants to "focus on God". Now all of a sudden he has a girlfriend. It really isn't fair. It ****** me off how people reject you without even giving you a chance. I never had a guy like me back and it makes me...
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 19

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    I'm trying... I really am.

    I don't want to do it again, I want to know I'm normal- I want to not need this - I want to feel....... So dumb- I just want to feel without feeling bad, like without feeling bad about feeling- okay, sounds weird if you don't get it but yeah- i just think about cutting and the...
    Kate197979 Kate197979 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    Hi😞 I understand,

    I'm pretty young to cut. But before you judge and laugh, at least know my story. I haven't ever had a good life. Bullies, deaths, upset, arguments. I'm lucky to have my current boyfriend. [ Almost a year ]. Last year was my first in High school, it was only a day in and...
    PendalWitch PendalWitch 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 13

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    A few days ago I had been working on my

    Information Technology (programming) for atleast 3 hours straight. So naturally I was tired and when my program didn't run(do what it was supposed to do) I got furious. I found that I couldn't think straight and grabbed the closest thing to me which was a glass bottle and threw...
    Tlangi Tlangi 16-17 1 Response Oct 8

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    Me Vs Razor

    I sat in my room staring at "my razor blade" for about 10mins feeling so lost'd and having loneliness eatting away at my soul and heart. It was drowing me and couldn't breath. I wanted to cut so bad... But I called my best friend and talk to her about it.. She cried a lot and...
    DarkAngel0309 DarkAngel0309 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    I'm honestly rather addicted to cutting myself.

    I stopped 5 years ago but recently relapsed. I don't want to be like that either, but the pain from cutting makes me feel better. I really hate having scars and having to face people questioning me.
    Verasayshi Verasayshi 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 23

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    Sigh. This just isn't getting any easier,

    is it? I'm so tempted to take that nice fresh new blade out of the only pencil sharpener that I have that's never been taken apart... I keep trying to find enough reasons not to cut that it outweighs the crushing desire to do so, but I'm running out of reasons here... :/
    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613 16-17, F 2 Responses May 6

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    You guys there's a better solution,

    if you guys ever need someone to talk to I'm here.
    lilay98 lilay98 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 24

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    I want to so badly. I haven't in a decent while

    and I won't do it too much or too deep. My girlfriend doesn't want me to do it but it makes me feel better, I can only hurt myself not her
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 25

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    I have been going down the list,

    and seeing what people have been posting about this and to be honest it does hurt me to read some of them. I see more post from girls then guys and I know to a point the reasons I did it up until about a year ago, were for different reasons, and I am not putting down anybody...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 2 Responses Feb 24

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    Well, my friend siad domething offense

    and it hurt 😥 i wasnt cutting for her but now im hurt and half no one to go to so i think im going to cut
    Justbeingme14 Justbeingme14 13-15, F 5 Responses Sep 26

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    I hate myself, there are always better people

    would pick her over me all the time. I hate living.
    katstho katstho 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 8

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    I want to cut myself

    so badly right now. I feel so useless and dumb, and pointless. that's all. i don't even feel like elaborating on that, if im honest
    caffeineeforowls caffeineeforowls 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 16

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    DONT Want to Think About It

    i have those thoughts in my head i have those emotions in my heart i wanna talk i need some1 by my side   they told me many times before " when ever u need me i'll be there " i need them now and i cant find them i feel like cutting my hand and i...
    aysha7 aysha7 18-21, F 9 Responses May 12, 2009

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    I have been having these STRONG urges to cut I

    am trying to stop for my girlfriend but it's hard to do it for someone else :(
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M Sep 19

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    "NO LIMBS, NO LIMITS!

    " I am going to probably write one of the harshest comments in public now, but I think it is my duty, I can't stand to just stare and keep reading without reacting, so first of all, have a read this: http://www.irishmirror.ie/female/health/teenager-born-without-limbs-revealed...
    TNTandCHOCOLATE TNTandCHOCOLATE 31-35 Sep 7

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    Beautiful

              I'm possessed. My whole life is focused on this one thing: cutting. when I'm not doing it, I'm wondering when i will again, how to hide the scars, the scabs. where am i going to get new bandages, Neosporen, razor blades. I started carrying a blade with me in my...
    screamingsilently screamingsilently 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 12, 2012

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    i want to cut so deep

    that i see a lot of blood. my flashbacks are ruining my life and i cant be happy anymore
    elephant17 elephant17 18-21, F 2 Responses May 18

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison SO BADLY. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM BEGGING YOU
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T Sep 21

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    Being yelled at really makes me want to cut.

    My life also really makes me want to cut. And lately it's been difficult to find something that would cut deep and cause a lot of blood shed. Sometimes I feel as if I deserve the pain and blood loss. Sometimes I cry when I cut, other times I don't. I usually use scissors to cut...
    NeonPurple NeonPurple 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    I haven't cut in a month.

    I just really have the urge to right now. My life is so stressful at times and I have tried everything. Nothing seems to work as well as cutting though. I don't want to fail the people who are counting on me the most. Honestly I have not clue how long I can keep going though. I...
    DontCallMeSunshine DontCallMeSunshine 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 12

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    I hate looking at myself

    and I hate what people see and how they view me I want to be better I can't love with myself I'm not good enough, I just want to die, I'm so sick of this feeling
    katstho katstho 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 7

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    I'm three weeks clean.

    .that's the longest I've ever gone, but your body knows what it needs and I need to hurt myself so badly, maybe I can just 'accidentally' fall off of a cliff, get ran over, overdose..just maybe. The thing I don't get is I keep waiting for something to come when I know that it's...
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 7 Responses Sep 27

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    I never in a million years thought I would be

    at the point where I thought hurting myself was the only answer. But I'm there. It is the most real and terrifying thought that has ever crossed my mind. I have never actually done it. I am too afraid of the scars it will leave. But I have started pinching myself so hard that it...
    dressydreamer dressydreamer 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 10

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    Don't. Don't. Don't. Stop it.

    Weak. You are so freaking weak. Get a f**ing grip!! Don't throw it all away. Nothing is wrong. Why do I feel this way???
    NowGoBringMeTheHorizon NowGoBringMeTheHorizon 18-21, F Jul 8

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    I cut myself again and I want to do more.

    Sometimes it never goes away.
    nofrankinway nofrankinway 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 21

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    I don't even know why.

    I think seeing the scars and newest cuts on my hip set me off. I just...I don't know!!! Music can only help so much. I want to sit here and scratch at my hip but I can't exactly do that in class. I feel the need to carry my blade with me everyday now, but I don't think I can...
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 16-17 1 Response May 6

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    I Dont Know Where I Am

    it sucks to know that feeling sad is normal so you're starting to get used to it and no matter what the sadness wont leave. you try so hard but no. it sucks to self-harm almost everyday and nothing can stop you, you want to do it and continue doing it, it feels good. it sucks to...
    karissaxx22 karissaxx22 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 2, 2012

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    Its Been Over A Year Now...

    I haven't cut. But for months I've wanted to. I just broke apart a razor and hid the blades. I hid them in a hiding place I made weeks ago. I find myself running a finger over my scars. I find my stomach fluttering in anticipation thinking about making another. I want to cut so...
    Eimine Eimine 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 3, 2013

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    I hate it when people think they can bully you

    everyday, I am jst sick and tired of it. Ive had it with the bullying and the physical scars i get rom working and fighting and exhausted. Im just done
    firecrystal216 firecrystal216 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 15

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    My sister stresses me out

    and I want to take the pain away but I moved out of my house and live with my aunt and she always looks at my wrists to make sure I don't cut and my thighs are another place I use to cut and I don't know where to cut
    vanessa1718 vanessa1718 13-15, F 4 Responses Oct 1

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    My Pleasure

    it seems like a pleasure to cut it feels like it can be my only sense of release. i feel like im slipping into a depression and i dont enjoy expressing feelings to people i know. ive been seeing a school psychologist but its not really helping it just makes me feel worse because...
    karissaxx22 karissaxx22 16-17, F 8 Responses May 7, 2012

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    Can someone talk to me?

    ??? I'm feeling so alone......
    Cocosavethetatas Cocosavethetatas 22-25, F 11 Responses Oct 15

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    Any one has a razor .

    i really need to cut myself and see my blood . I am sick of always hurting myself from inside if I can't stop myself from inside I will do it on the outside.
    Ummaperson Ummaperson 13-15, F Apr 4

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    The last day was good.

    But then I spent the whole time thinking it though and it was ok; now everything finally sinking in and all want to do is cut.
    Justbeingme14 Justbeingme14 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 14

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    I want to cut my self soooo bad can't wait till

    it's cold and I can start wearing jeans and jackets all the time will defiantly help. But I had promised one of my best guy friends I would never do it again I pinky swore. He saw my burn that I did purposely cause I was wearing shorts during band practice. I just don't know...
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 5

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    merrianneyeah merrianneyeah 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 8

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    I HATE SUMMER >.> cutting on your stomach is

    nowhere near as good as arms, but school makes us wear dresses >:(
    lifethroughglass lifethroughglass 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    As stupid as it is, I am not doing it

    because I am depressed. I'm doing to prove a point to the world. Now I've just got to convince myself...
    Supercat8835 Supercat8835 13-15, M 2 Responses Oct 1

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    Its been two days i cant keep it up.

    I really wanna cut and its hard to control this urge. Today wasnt the best of days and I hate myself for it. My parents hate me, im gonna flunk in my courses, and i will never be worth something for anyone to be in a relationship with. Im going to sleep, and i pray i dont wake...
    LifeOnAThread LifeOnAThread 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 12

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    A Year.... Wasted.

    I promised myself I wouldn't, but the promise really wasn't for me, it was for my little brother. He said "If you cut, I can cut too". So, I promised him, and myself that I would stop. I did. For a whole year. It was tough, REALLY tough, but his love, and his courage got me...
    bbmango16 bbmango16 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    I've been cut free for about a week now,

    and i cant take it anymore i want to cut really bad, how do i take my mind off of cutting, how do i deal with this
    ClockworkTimesUp ClockworkTimesUp 13-15, F Oct 15

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    4 Am And Its All I Can Think About

    cutting releases endorphins-endorphins relief pain so what do we do when were sad? we cut
    sosick123 sosick123 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 1, 2013

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    For those that don't understand.

    .. It's rather complicated to explain self harm.. There are many many aspects of it... Only one of which.. The one I'm dealing with currently.. Am I going to focus on in this post.. It is hard to explain... When I started self harming I thought it was extremely weird that...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 21

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    really miss cutting so much.

    😕 that's all I've been thinking about lately..
    ashleygrierrr ashleygrierrr 13-15, F 19 Responses Jun 28

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    It's all consuming when I'm hurting

    as badly as I am now. The only thing I want is that thin silver blade to bleed out every messed up part of me
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 4

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    I've gained an addiction to cutting,

    and now I HAVE to do it whether I'm sad or angry or even happy at times, when the urge hits me no matter where I am or who's around I have to do it. I do, do it.
    Tamika123 Tamika123 16-17, F 4 Responses May 9

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    Cravings

    There are some days, weeks even, where the thoughts of sliding the smooth blade of my knife into my skin flood my head. There's something so satisfying about the pain. The little teardrops of red running over the curve of my wrist. The way my teeth grit, and my eyes plead with me...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 3, 2011

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T 1 Response Sep 27

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    I Hate Myself And Cut For No Reason

    I'm 16. I'm very unsociable and don't like the company of many people. I only have one really good friend, but i go to a really tough school and have to spend most of my time doing homework. I have trouble paying attention to the boring stuff they teach in that awful place, so it...
    invisiblechild0 invisiblechild0 18-21, F 14 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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