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I Want to Cut Myself Now

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    I have *never* wanted to cut myself.

    ..I don't get it, maybe someone can explain the reasoning behind it. Does it feel good? Do you recommend it? Is this something I should try?
    myalterego77 myalterego77 36-40, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    merrianneyeah merrianneyeah 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 8, 2014

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    So tell me, who will help me?

    When it's 4 am and a shaky hand has my blade against my skin.. And all these thoughts rush in. When my streak is no longer there and I'm in a fetal position crying my eyes out. Who will help me.
    UnderTheSleeves UnderTheSleeves 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 22

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    school is really stressing me out.

    im feeling overwhelmed and im getting mad at myself and im having all these thoughts to just take my anger out on myself and just cut. i feel like giving up on life but i dont want to take the easy way out. i feel like complete crap. i really dont know whats wrong with me. i...
    perksofbeingdepressed perksofbeingdepressed 16-17, F 6 Responses Jan 28

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    I haven't in 5 years

    but I did the other day
    thatonehighguy thatonehighguy 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 18

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    It's ok for you to hurt me

    but not ok for me?
    BloodyVictim BloodyVictim 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 12

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    crap is it normal for your wrist to hurt

    after 2 weeks since i last cut?
    imapainter imapainter 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    jackalfredthegr8 jackalfredthegr8 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 17

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    tonight has been horrible,

    I want to cut so bad but I don't want anyone to notice it tomorrow, it has been a long time but, the blade is screaming my name and my heart can't help but listen.
    0love 0love 18-21 2 Responses Aug 14

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    I've been clean all summer.

    But i long to slide a blade over my wrists one more time... One is after all, all it takes.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 16

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    NichoWhat NichoWhat 13-15, M Aug 25

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    I haven't cut in maybe 7 months

    but I haven't been taking my meds like I should 😢
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 28

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    cashetty69 cashetty69 51-55, M Aug 25

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    I just did. Relief from my mind.

    Foolish heart...too old to not know better
    GiannaFlorence GiannaFlorence 36-40, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    oone of my friends hung herself.

    and its all my fault.
    bpc2415 bpc2415 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 12

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    I want to cut so badly.

    ... How do i actually cut though? I can push the blade but my skin is too strong...
    AirSlice AirSlice 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    I broke up with my ex,

    because I wasn't ready to tell anyone about my self harm. We never had a real reason to break up, so I've never really been able to get over him. I saw him the other night and the feelings came back for both of us, but he's supposed to be moving to Australia. He told my friend...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F Jul 8

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    I do this because I like the pain.

    I wish I had a better reason, but I simply don't.
    Anastasiaslastgoodbye Anastasiaslastgoodbye 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    I'm so ******* stupid!

    !! I'm such a dumb *** and no one cares about me .-. I try so hard to talk to my family but they all ignore me.... I wish my mom would of got an abortion... I shouldn't of been born I wanna push the blade deep in my tummy and wrist since that's the only good thing I am good at...
    PrincessManuela PrincessManuela 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 12

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    sometimes I think about it.

    how it felt to feel something just to remember I'm still alive to feel something other than numb something that hurt less than the emotional pain.I've tryed other things I stopped for my daughter but it's still so hard sometimes. sometimes I miss watching my blood proof that I am...
    youngkinyteenmom youngkinyteenmom 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 24

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    A Year.... Wasted.

    I promised myself I wouldn't, but the promise really wasn't for me, it was for my little brother. He said "If you cut, I can cut too". So, I promised him, and myself that I would stop. I did. For a whole year. It was tough, REALLY tough, but his love, and his courage got me...
    bbmango16 bbmango16 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    Found a pencil sharpener

    and removed the blade. Nearly 3 months are down the drain due to a piece of metal.
    Demifaun Demifaun 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I have had a long, hard,

    stressful day. I am drained and just really feel like relapsing
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 8

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    most of the time I do it to stop the emotional

    pain. Physical pain is alot easier to handle than emotional pain.
    justwannabeehappy justwannabeehappy 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 18

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    Our body feels pain to warn us of danger But it

    also reminds us we're alive that it can still feel That's why some of us seek it out while others choose to numb it Solitude has always been my analgesic of choice But what if feeling nothing is the worst pain of all What if sharing pain connects us to others and reminds us...
    Kate197979 Kate197979 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2014

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    Why is everything so ******* depressing?

    Why am I such a failure? I fail...that's why I'm here, to fail and let people down...
    xGNFx xGNFx 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 2

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    My sister found my blade

    and cheerfully asked me if I'm back into paper crafts. I can't take it anymore. I know it's summer and any cut would be noticeable, but I also know when I get like this I will end up cutting by the end of the night.
    mirrorimage99 mirrorimage99 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    .........Best friend is wanting to commit

    suicide... what else is there to do when you cant help them....they're across an ocean...you can't get them professional help.......i feel so useless and worthless right now...all I want to do is cut....
    bpc2415 bpc2415 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    I haven't felt this way in three years I

    thought I stopped I thought I was done what the **** I'm so close to feeling that cold blade again the temptation is getting more and more prominent I'm sacred I don't want to go back to the stinging the bleeding the scars and the hiding but what else can I do
    imbleedingout imbleedingout 16-17, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I've gained an addiction to cutting,

    and now I HAVE to do it whether I'm sad or angry or even happy at times, when the urge hits me no matter where I am or who's around I have to do it. I do, do it.
    Tamika123 Tamika123 16-17, F 3 Responses May 9, 2014

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    im afraid of being home alone I just have a

    strong urge to cut right now I dont know how long I will last and im so scared of myself and urges I just started trying to quit yesterday
    Crystalsgirl08 Crystalsgirl08 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    My daemons are screaming at me telling me I

    need to, I want to, I have to. I scream "NO!" Want to put it down but my hand just won't let go
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    Cravings

    There are some days, weeks even, where the thoughts of sliding the smooth blade of my knife into my skin flood my head. There's something so satisfying about the pain. The little teardrops of red running over the curve of my wrist. The way my teeth grit, and my eyes plead with me...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 3, 2011

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    Any one has a razor .

    i really need to cut myself and see my blood . I am sick of always hurting myself from inside if I can't stop myself from inside I will do it on the outside.
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F Apr 4, 2014

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    I can't find a pencil sharpener ugh

    but I'll keep looking
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 3 Responses May 27

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    I want to cut I am just

    so depressed and just want to cut. No one in my family wants to listen to me. I just want to cut and let all of the pain go away. So mad that I had an allergic reaction today. UGH I am so stupid. Holding a razor right now.
    NaomiSarah1 NaomiSarah1 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 24

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    I have been going down the list,

    and seeing what people have been posting about this and to be honest it does hurt me to read some of them. I see more post from girls then guys and I know to a point the reasons I did it up until about a year ago, were for different reasons, and I am not putting down anybody...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 2 Responses Feb 24, 2014

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    I used to see no point in self harm

    because it would only mean even more pain, but now what I see is a different pain that will temporarily distract me from the pain I constantly feel. Even if it's only temporary, it would mean closer to happiness than I feel regularly. I wish I could cut myself in a way that it...
    bandgeekavery bandgeekavery 13-15, T 3 Responses Aug 1

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    My mom fight with my dad

    so often, i"m having trouble at school, just break up with bf and can"t even tell all those to my friend since they though i"m the happy go lucky type the one that never has problem i realy want to cut today,..
    nagaseiori nagaseiori 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Just one, from my wrist to my elbow.

    That sounds like a fantastic idea.
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 6 Responses Apr 2

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    Being yelled at really makes me want to cut.

    My life also really makes me want to cut. And lately it's been difficult to find something that would cut deep and cause a lot of blood shed. Sometimes I feel as if I deserve the pain and blood loss. Sometimes I cry when I cut, other times I don't. I usually use scissors to cut...
    NeonPurple NeonPurple 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    Mirror mirror on the wall,

    please tell me why i can't stand tall. Mirror mirror in my hand, tell me why they don't understand. Mirror mirror hanging there, why does everything seem unfair... Mirror mirror tell me why, i don't find peace even when i cry. Mirror mirror that's seen me bleed, Can no one help...
    jaynm jaynm 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 10

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    I just don't care anymore.

    I'm starting to not care if people know. If people see. I just don't care. I feel like everyone already judges me and hates me, it wouldn't make a difference. Maybe if they knew, people would actually care. I doubt that though. The more time goes on, the worse it gets. People...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 1 Response May 16, 2014

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    Kindheartedsoul Kindheartedsoul 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    DONT Want to Think About It

    i have those thoughts in my head i have those emotions in my heart i wanna talk i need some1 by my side   they told me many times before " when ever u need me i'll be there " i need them now and i cant find them i feel like cutting my hand and i...
    aysha7 aysha7 18-21, F 9 Responses May 12, 2009

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    Best cut is when I close my eyes .

    And just cut three places really fast on wrist. I rather feel the pain outside than in
    officialjaylove officialjaylove 18-21 11 Responses May 5

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