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I Want to Cut Myself Now

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,590 People

    tonight has been horrible,

    I want to cut so bad but I don't want anyone to notice it tomorrow, it has been a long time but, the blade is screaming my name and my heart can't help but listen.
    0love 0love 18-21 2 Responses Aug 14, 2015

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    Here It Goes..

    I don't know what this is.. Or who reads this, but hello! Within the past two weeks, I've started cutting. I haven't cut in four years, but now it's coming back. And the ability to be able to show what I'm feeling on the inside, on the outside, is amazing to me.. I was also...
    MaddelynneJannessa MaddelynneJannessa 18-21, F 14 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    Being yelled at really makes me want to cut.

    My life also really makes me want to cut. And lately it's been difficult to find something that would cut deep and cause a lot of blood shed. Sometimes I feel as if I deserve the pain and blood loss. Sometimes I cry when I cut, other times I don't. I usually use scissors to cut...
    NeonPurple NeonPurple 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    I broke up with my ex,

    because I wasn't ready to tell anyone about my self harm. We never had a real reason to break up, so I've never really been able to get over him. I saw him the other night and the feelings came back for both of us, but he's supposed to be moving to Australia. He told my friend...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F Jul 8, 2015

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    My daemons are screaming at me telling me I

    need to, I want to, I have to. I scream "NO!" Want to put it down but my hand just won't let go
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    Just one, from my wrist to my elbow.

    That sounds like a fantastic idea.
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 2, 2015

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    Some time ago I promised myself I wouldn't cut

    myself with a knife anymore. Last night I broke that promise. According to my promise this means I have a problem with cutting. I thought I could handle it, I thought I could keep my promise but apparently I can't. When I don't use the knife I use a sort of wire. It's less...
    jsualmtha jsualmtha 18-21, F Aug 23, 2015

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    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2015

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    Its been two days i cant keep it up.

    I really wanna cut and its hard to control this urge. Today wasnt the best of days and I hate myself for it. My parents hate me, im gonna flunk in my courses, and i will never be worth something for anyone to be in a relationship with. Im going to sleep, and i pray i dont wake...
    LifeOnAThread LifeOnAThread 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 12, 2014

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    I haven't cut in maybe 7 months

    but I haven't been taking my meds like I should 😢
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 28, 2015

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    huntersveil248 huntersveil248 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 26, 2015

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    I want to cut I am just

    so depressed and just want to cut. No one in my family wants to listen to me. I just want to cut and let all of the pain go away. So mad that I had an allergic reaction today. UGH I am so stupid. Holding a razor right now.
    NaomiSarah1 NaomiSarah1 22-25, F 9 Responses Aug 24, 2015

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    Kindheartedsoul Kindheartedsoul 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 25, 2015

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    So tell me, who will help me?

    When it's 4 am and a shaky hand has my blade against my skin.. And all these thoughts rush in. When my streak is no longer there and I'm in a fetal position crying my eyes out. Who will help me.
    UnderTheSleeves UnderTheSleeves 16-17, F 6 Responses Jun 22, 2015

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    Mirror mirror on the wall,

    please tell me why i can't stand tall. Mirror mirror in my hand, tell me why they don't understand. Mirror mirror hanging there, why does everything seem unfair... Mirror mirror tell me why, i don't find peace even when i cry. Mirror mirror that's seen me bleed, Can no one help...
    jaynm jaynm 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2015

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    most of the time I do it to stop the emotional

    pain. Physical pain is alot easier to handle than emotional pain.
    justwannabeehappy justwannabeehappy 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 18, 2015

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    Why is everything so ******* depressing?

    Why am I such a failure? I fail...that's why I'm here, to fail and let people down...
    PopulaceInOne PopulaceInOne 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 2, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Sep 3, 2015

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    I've been clean all summer.

    But i long to slide a blade over my wrists one more time... One is after all, all it takes.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 16, 2015

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    Shiny is the razorI hold

    now in my handRed is the blood that’s drippingFrom the cuts my skin couldn’t withstandL is for lostThere is no one to understandO is for obliviousBecause my mind is a wastelandS stands for sadnessIt is my daily retort deliberationE obviously represents emotionMine is...
    darkreality68 darkreality68 41-45, M Oct 1, 2015

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    I always used to, when I was young.

    Now I feel that I want to rip my skin off. All of it. But I'd rather be dead. That would be so much better for all concerned, especially me. The ideal situation would be if I simply ceased to have ever existed.
    uglyhag uglyhag 46-50, F Aug 22, 2015

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    Can someone talk to me?

    ??? I'm feeling so alone......
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Oct 15, 2014

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    I never in a million years thought I would be

    at the point where I thought hurting myself was the only answer. But I'm there. It is the most real and terrifying thought that has ever crossed my mind. I have never actually done it. I am too afraid of the scars it will leave. But I have started pinching myself so hard that it...
    dressydreamer dressydreamer 18-21, F 7 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    Would it really even matter

    if I did tear up my skin? It's not like I have anyone anyway...
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 20, 2015

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    Don't. Don't. Don't. Stop it.

    Weak. You are so freaking weak. Get a f**ing grip!! Don't throw it all away. Nothing is wrong. Why do I feel this way???
    NowGoBringMeTheHorizon NowGoBringMeTheHorizon 18-21, F Jul 8, 2014

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    Best cut is when I close my eyes .

    And just cut three places really fast on wrist. I rather feel the pain outside than in
    officialjaylove officialjaylove 18-21 10 Responses May 5, 2015

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    DONT Want to Think About It

    i have those thoughts in my head i have those emotions in my heart i wanna talk i need some1 by my side   they told me many times before " when ever u need me i'll be there " i need them now and i cant find them i feel like cutting my hand and i...
    aysha7 aysha7 18-21, F 9 Responses May 12, 2009

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    Know The Feeling?

    I feel alone in a room full of people and cutting just sounds so good right now.
    WanderingRanger WanderingRanger 22-25, M 4 Responses Oct 28, 2013

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    school is really stressing me out.

    im feeling overwhelmed and im getting mad at myself and im having all these thoughts to just take my anger out on myself and just cut. i feel like giving up on life but i dont want to take the easy way out. i feel like complete crap. i really dont know whats wrong with me. i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jan 28, 2015

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    I have *never* wanted to cut myself.

    ..I don't get it, maybe someone can explain the reasoning behind it. Does it feel good? Do you recommend it? Is this something I should try?
    myalterego77 myalterego77 36-40, M 4 Responses Aug 26, 2015

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    Beautiful

              I'm possessed. My whole life is focused on this one thing: cutting. when I'm not doing it, I'm wondering when i will again, how to hide the scars, the scabs. where am i going to get new bandages, Neosporen, razor blades. I started carrying a blade with me in my...
    screamingsilently screamingsilently 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 12, 2012

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    I Hate Myself And Cut For No Reason

    I'm 16. I'm very unsociable and don't like the company of many people. I only have one really good friend, but i go to a really tough school and have to spend most of my time doing homework. I have trouble paying attention to the boring stuff they teach in that awful place, so it...
    invisiblechild0 invisiblechild0 18-21, F 17 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    Me Vs Razor

    I sat in my room staring at "my razor blade" for about 10mins feeling so lost'd and having loneliness eatting away at my soul and heart. It was drowing me and couldn't breath. I wanted to cut so bad... But I called my best friend and talk to her about it.. She cried a lot and...
    DarkAngel0309 DarkAngel0309 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    I haven't cut in over 2 years.

    But my "family" is really making me want to relapse.
    Overlookedintrovert Overlookedintrovert 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 26, 2015

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    I want to cut so badly.

    ... How do i actually cut though? I can push the blade but my skin is too strong...
    AirSlice AirSlice 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 25, 2015

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    I just did. Relief from my mind.

    Foolish heart...too old to not know better
    GiannaFlorence GiannaFlorence 36-40, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2015

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    I have had a long, hard,

    stressful day. I am drained and just really feel like relapsing
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 8, 2015

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    i want to cut so deep

    that i see a lot of blood. my flashbacks are ruining my life and i cant be happy anymore
    elephant17 elephant17 18-21, F 2 Responses May 18, 2014

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    Our body feels pain to warn us of danger But it

    also reminds us we're alive that it can still feel That's why some of us seek it out while others choose to numb it Solitude has always been my analgesic of choice But what if feeling nothing is the worst pain of all What if sharing pain connects us to others and reminds us...
    Kate197979 Kate197979 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2014

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    But I can't disappoint everybody,

    especially him. So what do I do then? Just cry forever I guess.
    reluctantamazon reluctantamazon 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 14, 2015

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    I feel alive when I can't sleep

    because of the burning scars -funny enough I punish myself for things other people did to me.
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F May 10, 2015

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    UGH!! I want to cut right now.

    I get made fun of in school for having autism. This one girl keeps bullying me an hitting me I cant anymore. UGH!!! Holding a razor right now.
    NaomiSarah1 NaomiSarah1 22-25, F 11 Responses Jul 25, 2015

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    I want to cut so badly.

    I shouldn't want to. I have an amazing life and 3 beautiful partners. I shared something I never tell anyone with one of my partners and I think I might have freaked him out. last night he said he was fine with it but he isn't texting me and his wife has been talking to me today...
    monstertrainwreck monstertrainwreck 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 7, 2015

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    My mom fight with my dad

    so often, i"m having trouble at school, just break up with bf and can"t even tell all those to my friend since they though i"m the happy go lucky type the one that never has problem i realy want to cut today,..
    nagaseiori nagaseiori 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2015

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    I haven't in 5 years

    but I did the other day
    thatonehighguy thatonehighguy 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 18, 2015

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