I'm starting to not care if people know. If people see. I just don't care. I feel like everyone already judges me and hates me, it wouldn't make a difference. Maybe if they knew, people would actually care. I doubt that though. The more time goes on, the worse it gets. People...
so depressed and just want to cut. No one in my family wants to listen to me. I just want to cut and let all of the pain go away. So mad that I had an allergic reaction today. UGH I am so stupid. Holding a razor right now.
I promised myself I wouldn't, but the promise really wasn't for me, it was for my little brother. He said "If you cut, I can cut too". So, I promised him, and myself that I would stop. I did. For a whole year. It was tough, REALLY tough, but his love, and his courage got me...
im feeling overwhelmed and im getting mad at myself and im having all these thoughts to just take my anger out on myself and just cut. i feel like giving up on life but i dont want to take the easy way out. i feel like complete crap. i really dont know whats wrong with me. i...
!! I'm such a dumb *** and no one cares about me .-.
I try so hard to talk to my family but they all ignore me.... I wish my mom would of got an abortion... I shouldn't of been born
I wanna push the blade deep in my tummy and wrist since that's the only good thing I am good at...
so often, i"m having trouble at school, just break up with bf and can"t even tell all those to my friend since they though i"m the happy go lucky type the one that never has problem i realy want to cut today,..
because it would only mean even more pain, but now what I see is a different pain that will temporarily distract me from the pain I constantly feel. Even if it's only temporary, it would mean closer to happiness than I feel regularly.
I wish I could cut myself in a way that it...
and cheerfully asked me if I'm back into paper crafts.
I can't take it anymore.
I know it's summer and any cut would be noticeable, but I also know when I get like this I will end up cutting by the end of the night.
also reminds us we're alive
that it can still feel
That's why some of us seek it out
while others choose to numb it
Solitude has always been my analgesic of choice
But what if feeling nothing is the worst pain of all
What if sharing pain connects us to others
and reminds us...
how it felt to feel something just to remember I'm still alive to feel something other than numb something that hurt less than the emotional pain.I've tryed other things I stopped for my daughter but it's still so hard sometimes. sometimes I miss watching my blood proof that I am...
i have those thoughts in my head
i have those emotions in my heart
i wanna talk
i need some1 by my side
they told me many times before
" when ever u need me i'll be there "
i need them now
and i cant find them
i feel like cutting my hand and i...
suicide... what else is there to do when you cant help them....they're across an ocean...you can't get them professional help.......i feel so useless and worthless right now...all I want to do is cut....
and seeing what people have been posting about this and to be honest it does hurt me to read some of them.
I see more post from girls then guys and I know to a point the reasons I did it up until about a year ago, were for different reasons, and I am not putting down anybody...