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I Want to Cut Myself Now

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    I really want to cut my wrist.

    I have not cut in 3 weeks and I really want to right now
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jul 9

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    carrie01 carrie01 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    My daemons are screaming at me telling me I

    need to, I want to, I have to. I scream "NO!" Want to put it down but my hand just won't let go
    Error404nameunknown Error404nameunknown 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 4

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    Being yelled at really makes me want to cut.

    My life also really makes me want to cut. And lately it's been difficult to find something that would cut deep and cause a lot of blood shed. Sometimes I feel as if I deserve the pain and blood loss. Sometimes I cry when I cut, other times I don't. I usually use scissors to cut...
    NeonPurple NeonPurple 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    Know The Feeling?

    I feel alone in a room full of people and cutting just sounds so good right now.
    WanderingRanger WanderingRanger 18-21, M 5 Responses Oct 28, 2013

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    I have been going down the list,

    and seeing what people have been posting about this and to be honest it does hurt me to read some of them. I see more post from girls then guys and I know to a point the reasons I did it up until about a year ago, were for different reasons, and I am not putting down anybody...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 2 Responses Feb 24

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    Cravings

    There are some days, weeks even, where the thoughts of sliding the smooth blade of my knife into my skin flood my head. There's something so satisfying about the pain. The little teardrops of red running over the curve of my wrist. The way my teeth grit, and my eyes plead with me...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 3, 2011

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    I don't even know why.

    I think seeing the scars and newest cuts on my hip set me off. I just...I don't know!!! Music can only help so much. I want to sit here and scratch at my hip but I can't exactly do that in class. I feel the need to carry my blade with me everyday now, but I don't think I can...
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 16-17 1 Response May 6

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    Haven't cut in three years

    and now have an overwhelming urge to. Don't know what to do :/
    skatinem13 skatinem13 26-30, F 18 Responses Jun 30

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    I want to so bad and I don't know

    if I can fight the urge...
    Sammi72 Sammi72 13-15, F 7 Responses Apr 22

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    really miss cutting so much.

    😕 that's all I've been thinking about lately..
    ashleygrierrr ashleygrierrr 13-15, F 19 Responses Jun 28

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    I never in a million years thought I would be

    at the point where I thought hurting myself was the only answer. But I'm there. It is the most real and terrifying thought that has ever crossed my mind. I have never actually done it. I am too afraid of the scars it will leave. But I have started pinching myself so hard that it...
    dressydreamer dressydreamer 18-21, F 7 Responses Mar 10

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    Release

    The feelings, The screams Are tearing at my insides, They are ripping me to shreds, They are making me cry, .Deafened by there pitch as they grow to a painful level, A painful high! I am filling up and am about to explode, Burst, My heart is turned to stone, I am always alone...
    sazzle82 sazzle82 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    i dont exactly know why.

    but i really wanna slice my skin open deep.
    anaismyfriend1 anaismyfriend1 13-15 4 Responses Jun 21

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    I am an ex cutter if anyone needs to talk I am

    here,I know how it is to want to be able to control the pain yourself but its not worth the scars,I am just lucky mine have faded enough so that makeup covers them
    jesikahluv jesikahluv 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Here It Goes..

    I don't know what this is.. Or who reads this, but hello! Within the past two weeks, I've started cutting. I haven't cut in four years, but now it's coming back. And the ability to be able to show what I'm feeling on the inside, on the outside, is amazing to me.. I was also...
    MaddelynneJannessa MaddelynneJannessa 18-21, F 16 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    dummy911 dummy911 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 23

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    I want that clarity it gave me the first time

    and only time but if I do I will lose everything .. I hate that the one thing that gives me strength is the one thing I cant do .
    kaysdee kaysdee 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 2

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    Don't. Don't. Don't. Stop it.

    Weak. You are so freaking weak. Get a f**ing grip!! Don't throw it all away. Nothing is wrong. Why do I feel this way???
    NowGoBringMeTheHorizon NowGoBringMeTheHorizon 13-15, F Jul 8

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    ThatOtherGuy17 ThatOtherGuy17 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 3

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    I miss cutting.. Thats the only thing in my

    mind right now.. I want to do it right now and im probaly going to..
    IrwinsScars IrwinsScars 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 29

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    I want to cut so bad right now.

    I work at a summer camp though and they noticed my scars last year. So they always keep an eye out to see if they are fresh. If they're fresh I get sent home. This is the only place I feel like I have a family and friends and the love of my life is here so we get to spend...
    virginiamarie94 virginiamarie94 18-21, F Jul 10

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    You guys there's a better solution,

    if you guys ever need someone to talk to I'm here.
    lilay98 lilay98 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 24

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison. PLEASE HELP ME!!!
    blipsycat1 blipsycat1 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 28

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    My Pleasure

    it seems like a pleasure to cut it feels like it can be my only sense of release. i feel like im slipping into a depression and i dont enjoy expressing feelings to people i know. ive been seeing a school psychologist but its not really helping it just makes me feel worse because...
    karissaxx22 karissaxx22 16-17, F 8 Responses May 7, 2012

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    merrianneyeah merrianneyeah 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 8

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    I Hate Myself And Cut For No Reason

    I'm 16. I'm very unsociable and don't like the company of many people. I only have one really good friend, but i go to a really tough school and have to spend most of my time doing homework. I have trouble paying attention to the boring stuff they teach in that awful place, so it...
    invisiblechild0 invisiblechild0 18-21, F 14 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    I just don't care anymore.

    I'm starting to not care if people know. If people see. I just don't care. I feel like everyone already judges me and hates me, it wouldn't make a difference. Maybe if they knew, people would actually care. I doubt that though. The more time goes on, the worse it gets. People...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 1 Response May 16

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    Any one has a razor .

    i really need to cut myself and see my blood . I am sick of always hurting myself from inside if I can't stop myself from inside I will do it on the outside.
    DrowningInPain2 DrowningInPain2 13-15, F Apr 4

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    I really wanna cut myself right now.

    .I'm so depressed..I can't find any reason to live
    psychopathkiller psychopathkiller 13-15, M 4 Responses Jun 16

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    Me Vs Razor

    I sat in my room staring at "my razor blade" for about 10mins feeling so lost'd and having loneliness eatting away at my soul and heart. It was drowing me and couldn't breath. I wanted to cut so bad... But I called my best friend and talk to her about it.. She cried a lot and...
    DarkAngel0309 DarkAngel0309 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    I am so depressed. I literally think about

    killing myself every single day of my life, but I'm too much of a coward to go through with it. I'm sick of living. I have no friends, and I never will. Everytime I think i find out, they abandon me and make me more suicidal than ever. I am so sick and tired of this waste of an...
    blipsycat1 blipsycat1 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm a recovering cutter

    and i can't take the stress and erges I'm going through right now. I battle depression and my parents are fighting right now I just want to take the glass I have in my room and cut my legs and arms so bad :( and I'm thinking about the bullying I went through and suffering from...
    smilethroughit55 smilethroughit55 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 9

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    What is the point in living

    when all you want to do is die, nobody talks when they do we argue, nobody would care if I died so whats the point in living...😣
    emma760 emma760 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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    ItsAllMyFaultxx ItsAllMyFaultxx 13-15, M Jun 15

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    Sigh. This just isn't getting any easier,

    is it? I'm so tempted to take that nice fresh new blade out of the only pencil sharpener that I have that's never been taken apart... I keep trying to find enough reasons not to cut that it outweighs the crushing desire to do so, but I'm running out of reasons here... :/
    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613 16-17, F 2 Responses May 6

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    I just started cutting tonight.

    Who knew skin was so easily punctured.
    adsila15 adsila15 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 30

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    I used to but havent

    for a long time. But I still feel like it, its so hard not to.
    lacess lacess 18-21, F 7 Responses Apr 17

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    DONT Want to Think About It

    i have those thoughts in my head i have those emotions in my heart i wanna talk i need some1 by my side   they told me many times before " when ever u need me i'll be there " i need them now and i cant find them i feel like cutting my hand and i...
    aysha7 aysha7 18-21, F 9 Responses May 12, 2009

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    Why do people have to be

    such ********? I threw away my razors, but I still have my scissors which cut well..
    ItsAllMyFaultxx ItsAllMyFaultxx 13-15, M 4 Responses Jun 16

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    There is so much **** going on with me.

    That and i done some vary ******* wrong things i feel like i deserve that pain
    Biking6969 Biking6969 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    ...and if I'm being honest,

    sometimes I never want to give up this bad habit. How can something capable of killing me make me feel alive? Right now it's the only thing that's keeping me sane besides my eating disorder and it's just my relief and comfort, and honestly if it weren't for my razor blades and...
    XxbixtchybellaxX XxbixtchybellaxX 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I hate myself so much.

    Why am I so bad? Why am I so ugly? Why am I so insecure? Why just why. I hate it that the guy I like, no, scratch that, love. I hate it that the guy I LOVE likes my best friend. I hate it that she's so much better than me. I hate it that she's so perfect. I hate it that everyone...
    IDontKnowAnymore13 IDontKnowAnymore13 13-15, F 3 Responses May 11

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    I need this. I need this to survive.

    It's been a long time since I've done it now but I NEED it. There's a big difference between wanting and needing. It's either the relief from the blade or I'll end up turning to other methods of a release. Like alcohol or drugs. Except it's not the same as seeing the blood...
    HyperAngel HyperAngel 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 29

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    Someone help.. I Wanna Cut,

    please chat With me now!!
    pinkunicornforever pinkunicornforever 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 6

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    so today I was cleaning my room & my sister had

    her crayon box in my room. & i opened it up & found a hand held sharpener. & the razor blade was off. So I looked around in the crayon box a little more & found the razor blade. really tempted to cut now. 😐
    ashleygrierrr ashleygrierrr 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 1

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    Fighting The Urge

    Lately I feel like my family hates me like they are testing me, I have a razor from a pencil sharpener in my shoebox. But I won't use it I refuse to cut myself because I don't want to hide the cuts, the scars, the razors or the blood. That doesn't stop me from thinking about it...
    Gibby445 Gibby445 13-15, F Dec 15, 2012

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    A Year.... Wasted.

    I promised myself I wouldn't, but the promise really wasn't for me, it was for my little brother. He said "If you cut, I can cut too". So, I promised him, and myself that I would stop. I did. For a whole year. It was tough, REALLY tough, but his love, and his courage got me...
    bbmango16 bbmango16 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    I've gained an addiction to cutting,

    and now I HAVE to do it whether I'm sad or angry or even happy at times, when the urge hits me no matter where I am or who's around I have to do it. I do, do it.
    Tamika123 Tamika123 16-17, F 4 Responses May 9

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    I sleep walk and wake up with cuts

    and bruises that scare me sometimes, because I never remember exactly how! Am also a bit clumsey and sometime cut my hands during arts and crafts... Getting better at not hurting my hands with a little concentration! Never played sports incase of injury, but that could...
    buglivesinshit buglivesinshit 26-30, F Jul 6

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    4 Am And Its All I Can Think About

    cutting releases endorphins-endorphins relief pain so what do we do when were sad? we cut
    sosick123 sosick123 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 1, 2013

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    The emotions I have keep building up

    and they won't stop building I need something to make me stop feeling the pain the sadness the loss will anything ever help me cutting only helps for a while then I regret but I keep doing it nothing will ever help me I've lost all the hope I had.
    zoey4260 zoey4260 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2013

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    It's been a few years,

    and I need to give in. It's either drugs or alcohol. I need a release before I release my negative emotions.
    lon3lygam3r lon3lygam3r 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 14

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