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I Want to Cut Myself Now

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    Getting really anxious.

    . a lot going on my mind right now. I only know how to deal with feelings like this in one way.
    WhoseMe WhoseMe 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 15

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    i want to cut so deep

    that i see a lot of blood. my flashbacks are ruining my life and i cant be happy anymore
    elephant17 elephant17 18-21, F 2 Responses May 18, 2014

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    I Hate Myself And Cut For No Reason

    I'm 16. I'm very unsociable and don't like the company of many people. I only have one really good friend, but i go to a really tough school and have to spend most of my time doing homework. I have trouble paying attention to the boring stuff they teach in that awful place, so it...
    invisiblechild0 invisiblechild0 18-21, F 17 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    Feeling pressure, feeling no pain Anxious

    thoughts encompassing me again, I cannot focus on anything else at all, I don't want to cut, I need to, can't resist the call Looking blankly ahead, nothing registers, I'm itching and scratching and grabbing the scissors, I'm lying awake and dreaming to be free, Stop resisting...
    jacqueline1972 jacqueline1972 36-40, T 4 Responses Jun 9

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    merrianneyeah merrianneyeah 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 8, 2014

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    Just one, from my wrist to my elbow.

    That sounds like a fantastic idea.
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 6 Responses Apr 2

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    I've gained an addiction to cutting,

    and now I HAVE to do it whether I'm sad or angry or even happy at times, when the urge hits me no matter where I am or who's around I have to do it. I do, do it.
    Tamika123 Tamika123 16-17, F 3 Responses May 9, 2014

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    I wanna cut myself now.

    ...I messed up on so much I thought I knew things thought I had it figured out turns out I was all wrong and things r worser then what they seem
    lostbrokeheart lostbrokeheart 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    Hmmmmm I want to cut myself I want to cut ****

    Life on my arm to remind myself how much my life doesn't matter and how nobody cares about me!!!!!
    kRaZeDmODDeR kRaZeDmODDeR 13-15, M 1 Response May 28

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    I have been going down the list,

    and seeing what people have been posting about this and to be honest it does hurt me to read some of them. I see more post from girls then guys and I know to a point the reasons I did it up until about a year ago, were for different reasons, and I am not putting down anybody...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 2 Responses Feb 24, 2014

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    school is really stressing me out.

    im feeling overwhelmed and im getting mad at myself and im having all these thoughts to just take my anger out on myself and just cut. i feel like giving up on life but i dont want to take the easy way out. i feel like complete crap. i really dont know whats wrong with me. i...
    perksofbeingdepressed perksofbeingdepressed 16-17, F 6 Responses Jan 28

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    really miss cutting so much.

    đŸ˜• that's all I've been thinking about lately..
    ashleygrierrr ashleygrierrr 13-15, F 18 Responses Jun 28, 2014

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    Im trying to fight the urge right now.

    .. stupid addiction, wish i never started.
    Nick54 Nick54 22-25, M 1 Response May 20

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    Just one more cut...every night is the same

    routine...I just wish I never started, and now I am too weak to stop.
    dreamerhippie dreamerhippie 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 6

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    I just cut. I want more.

    I need more. My blades are my only friends. Nobody cares.
    anthonyalfano anthonyalfano 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 18

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    I just don't care anymore.

    I'm starting to not care if people know. If people see. I just don't care. I feel like everyone already judges me and hates me, it wouldn't make a difference. Maybe if they knew, people would actually care. I doubt that though. The more time goes on, the worse it gets. People...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 1 Response May 16, 2014

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    i promised my best friend

    that i wouldnt cut myself and im 26 days clean but i just feel so empty and sad and terrible and idk i feel like cutting is the only way that i can take care of myself.
    bandsth0 bandsth0 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 17

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    Me Vs Razor

    I sat in my room staring at "my razor blade" for about 10mins feeling so lost'd and having loneliness eatting away at my soul and heart. It was drowing me and couldn't breath. I wanted to cut so bad... But I called my best friend and talk to her about it.. She cried a lot and...
    DarkAngel0309 DarkAngel0309 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 4, 2013

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    Why is everything so ******* depressing?

    Why am I such a failure? I fail...that's why I'm here, to fail and let people down...
    HidingBehindTheShadows HidingBehindTheShadows 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 2

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    jackalfredthegr8 jackalfredthegr8 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 17

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    I can't find a pencil sharpener ugh

    but I'll keep looking
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 3 Responses May 27

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    4 Am And Its All I Can Think About

    cutting releases endorphins-endorphins relief pain so what do we do when were sad? we cut
    sosick123 sosick123 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 1, 2013

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    Okay bye I'm going to go cut myself I'm sorry

    Alexa but my feelings are hurt and I want the pain to go away
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response Apr 16

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    I really need to find a pencil

    sharpener:((((((((((((((
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 5 Responses May 26

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    I feel alive when I can't sleep

    because of the burning scars -funny enough I punish myself for things other people did to me.
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F May 10

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    Every day I have to fight the urge to cut

    myself. I can feel myself slowly giving in though. I've worked so hard to be clean for this long. I just miss it, it felt so good. I don't want to give in but I do at the same time
    Poisonedmystery Poisonedmystery 16-17, F 1 Response May 19

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    Here It Goes..

    I don't know what this is.. Or who reads this, but hello! Within the past two weeks, I've started cutting. I haven't cut in four years, but now it's coming back. And the ability to be able to show what I'm feeling on the inside, on the outside, is amazing to me.. I was also...
    MaddelynneJannessa MaddelynneJannessa 18-21, F 14 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    I miss cutting so much

    and want to start again but I'm afraid that someone will see it because it's summer time,so it's noticeableđŸ˜”
    Nina157 Nina157 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    A Year.... Wasted.

    I promised myself I wouldn't, but the promise really wasn't for me, it was for my little brother. He said "If you cut, I can cut too". So, I promised him, and myself that I would stop. I did. For a whole year. It was tough, REALLY tough, but his love, and his courage got me...
    bbmango16 bbmango16 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    I'm a year clean, but right

    now I feel awful. I used to be a strong Catholic, my mum always taught me that being bi was 'weird' and that abortion was wrong. This week I let myself be persuaded into having an abortion by my friend (my doctor thinks it was a false positive anyway). I know I probably won't...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F Jun 9

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    Our body feels pain to warn us of danger But it

    also reminds us we're alive that it can still feel That's why some of us seek it out while others choose to numb it Solitude has always been my analgesic of choice But what if feeling nothing is the worst pain of all What if sharing pain connects us to others and reminds us...
    Kate197979 Kate197979 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2014

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    It's ok for you to hurt me

    but not ok for me?
    PsychoBitch911 PsychoBitch911 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 12

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    I have a heart condition,

    so my family, cardiologist and I all agreed that I should take a break from uni and work for a year, until I am well enough to go back. Now they make me feel like **** because I don't do anything with my day. They keep asking why I'm stressed. Maybe because this year I've had...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F May 14

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    I just took a pin and made my first cut.

    At first I just scratched my skin, too scared of the pain. But the mark it left looked beautiful, so i made more and I started to bleed. I'm ready to severe all my ties with everyone involved in my situation. I'm ready to just destroy everything I created just to be away from...
    julespools julespools 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    I really really want to cut.

    I ****** this guy today and he started getting a little to rough so I told him I was done and to stop but he didn't listen. I kept telling him to stop but he wouldn't. Then when he was done I tried to leave but it took a long time before he would let me leave. He held me down so...
    monstertrainwreck monstertrainwreck 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 19

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    Best cut is when I close my eyes .

    And just cut three places really fast on wrist. I rather feel the pain outside than in
    officialjaylove officialjaylove 18-21 11 Responses May 5

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    im afraid of being home alone I just have a

    strong urge to cut right now I dont know how long I will last and im so scared of myself and urges I just started trying to quit yesterday
    Crystalsgirl08 Crystalsgirl08 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    I feel that this need becomes an addiction

    and I keep chasing the next high here. I have stopping myself for the past week pretty much but I am so need of a fix right now. I don't know what to do as the warm weather is coming and it will cause questions to stay in long sleeve shirts all the time. Where do others cut...
    jacqueline1972 jacqueline1972 36-40, T 2 Responses Apr 6

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    Its been two days i cant keep it up.

    I really wanna cut and its hard to control this urge. Today wasnt the best of days and I hate myself for it. My parents hate me, im gonna flunk in my courses, and i will never be worth something for anyone to be in a relationship with. Im going to sleep, and i pray i dont wake...
    LifeOnAThread LifeOnAThread 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 12, 2014

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    My daemons are screaming at me telling me I

    need to, I want to, I have to. I scream "NO!" Want to put it down but my hand just won't let go
    Error404nameunknown Error404nameunknown 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    Any one has a razor .

    i really need to cut myself and see my blood . I am sick of always hurting myself from inside if I can't stop myself from inside I will do it on the outside.
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F Apr 4, 2014

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    I am so angry at myself.

    I have been cutting and enjoy it. it makes me feel more satisfied with my self-loathing.
    XxautychanxX XxautychanxX 13-15, F 3 Responses May 10

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    DONT Want to Think About It

    i have those thoughts in my head i have those emotions in my heart i wanna talk i need some1 by my side   they told me many times before " when ever u need me i'll be there " i need them now and i cant find them i feel like cutting my hand and i...
    aysha7 aysha7 18-21, F 9 Responses May 12, 2009

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    It's been five days since I last hurt myself,

    and it's difficult to keep from cutting or bruising myself.
    polycat polycat 22-25, F Jun 3

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    I've been clean for two months,

    but honestly I don't want to be anymore, I need to, or at least I feel like I need to, I just need it ti stop, I need to feel okay again at least for a little while. I know I should think of what'll happen if I cut again after this long clean (longest clean I've been in three...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 13

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    I'm fine. I had a good day.

    There's nothing wrong. So why do I feel like I want to cut? I probably won't: I haven't self-harmed in about six weeks - which I'm pretty sure is the longest I've managed in over a year, which is pathetic - and I don't really want to wreck that. I'm probably just bored or...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 13

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