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I Want to Cut Myself Now

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    I've gained an addiction to cutting,

    and now I HAVE to do it whether I'm sad or angry or even happy at times, when the urge hits me no matter where I am or who's around I have to do it. I do, do it.
    Tamika123 Tamika123 16-17, F 4 Responses May 9

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    It's been at least 3

    or 4 weeks since I last cut. I accidentally punctured a little hole in my thumb trying to get blades out of a razor.
    xXBeautifulTragedyXx xXBeautifulTragedyXx 16-17, F Dec 1

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    DONT Want to Think About It

    i have those thoughts in my head i have those emotions in my heart i wanna talk i need some1 by my side   they told me many times before " when ever u need me i'll be there " i need them now and i cant find them i feel like cutting my hand and i...
    aysha7 aysha7 18-21, F 9 Responses May 12, 2009

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    for f's sake it's six pm,

    I should be eating supper watching judy but instead want to get the exacto and forget that tomorrow is monday and that I have to face another week. i dread the thought of getting ip, going out - i just want to feel that twinge that pinch of pain.
    Kate197979 Kate197979 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 16

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    the same thing every day day in day out the

    same thoughts the same struggle.. but then it stops dead for a few seconds almost minutes nothing but relief...
    CrySweetRaven CrySweetRaven 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Can someone list some alternatives to self harm.

    Maybe something that may have somewhat the same affect but not as harmful!
    Darkerthanlightash Darkerthanlightash 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    merrianneyeah merrianneyeah 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 8

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    Cravings

    There are some days, weeks even, where the thoughts of sliding the smooth blade of my knife into my skin flood my head. There's something so satisfying about the pain. The little teardrops of red running over the curve of my wrist. The way my teeth grit, and my eyes plead with me...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 3, 2011

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    EyelessGlitch EyelessGlitch 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 15

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    Its been two days i cant keep it up.

    I really wanna cut and its hard to control this urge. Today wasnt the best of days and I hate myself for it. My parents hate me, im gonna flunk in my courses, and i will never be worth something for anyone to be in a relationship with. Im going to sleep, and i pray i dont wake...
    LifeOnAThread LifeOnAThread 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 12

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    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 23

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    Fighting The Urge

    Lately I feel like my family hates me like they are testing me, I have a razor from a pencil sharpener in my shoebox. But I won't use it I refuse to cut myself because I don't want to hide the cuts, the scars, the razors or the blood. That doesn't stop me from thinking about it...
    Gibby445 Gibby445 13-15, F Dec 15, 2012

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    Just let me die!im giving up,

    there isn't even anything left for me now!!
    tomg2200 tomg2200 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 9

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    There is so much **** going on with me.

    That and i done some vary ******* wrong things i feel like i deserve that pain
    Frozenfireflies Frozenfireflies 13-15, M 4 Responses Jul 12

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    My Pleasure

    it seems like a pleasure to cut it feels like it can be my only sense of release. i feel like im slipping into a depression and i dont enjoy expressing feelings to people i know. ive been seeing a school psychologist but its not really helping it just makes me feel worse because...
    karissaxx22 karissaxx22 16-17, F 8 Responses May 7, 2012

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    I've already done it.

    It only takes your pain for bout 2 sec. Don't waste your time on trying.
    Dynasty2000 Dynasty2000 16-17, F Nov 12

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    I've started this habit

    and find it hard to stop now. Yesterday I didn't realize that i went as deep since it didn't feel like anything until i looked at my arms this morning. And I feel the edge rising again here, I'm not sure what this all means besides i'm royally screwed up. i hate it and myself.
    jacqueline1972 jacqueline1972 36-40, T 2 Responses Oct 29

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    Any one has a razor .

    i really need to cut myself and see my blood . I am sick of always hurting myself from inside if I can't stop myself from inside I will do it on the outside.
    Ummaperson Ummaperson 13-15, F Apr 4

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    really miss cutting so much.

    😕 that's all I've been thinking about lately..
    ashleygrierrr ashleygrierrr 13-15, F 19 Responses Jun 28

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    I never in a million years thought I would be

    at the point where I thought hurting myself was the only answer. But I'm there. It is the most real and terrifying thought that has ever crossed my mind. I have never actually done it. I am too afraid of the scars it will leave. But I have started pinching myself so hard that it...
    dressydreamer dressydreamer 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 10

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    Ummaperson Ummaperson 13-15, F 7 Responses Nov 7

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    Know The Feeling?

    I feel alone in a room full of people and cutting just sounds so good right now.
    WanderingRanger WanderingRanger 22-25, M 4 Responses Oct 28, 2013

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    I can't kill my butterfly.

    It's for my baby I can't do it no matter how much I want to I can't because I need to be there for my baby girl.
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have been going down the list,

    and seeing what people have been posting about this and to be honest it does hurt me to read some of them. I see more post from girls then guys and I know to a point the reasons I did it up until about a year ago, were for different reasons, and I am not putting down anybody...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 2 Responses Feb 24

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    Our body feels pain to warn us of danger But it

    also reminds us we're alive that it can still feel That's why some of us seek it out while others choose to numb it Solitude has always been my analgesic of choice But what if feeling nothing is the worst pain of all What if sharing pain connects us to others and reminds us...
    Kate197979 Kate197979 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 15

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    Oh my God. I feel like I'm craving

    for it. Like its a hunger. I just want to grab a knife and just slice my skin to ease the pain. Why? Just why? I want this to stop, I've been clean for 2 weeks! I'm at my breaking point and I don't want to crack like this...
    CurvyBones17 CurvyBones17 16-17, F Nov 17

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    i want to take my blade out of my pencil

    sharpener and cut smooth deep cuts
    JeSt0099 JeSt0099 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 8

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    Being yelled at really makes me want to cut.

    My life also really makes me want to cut. And lately it's been difficult to find something that would cut deep and cause a lot of blood shed. Sometimes I feel as if I deserve the pain and blood loss. Sometimes I cry when I cut, other times I don't. I usually use scissors to cut...
    NeonPurple NeonPurple 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    4 Am And Its All I Can Think About

    cutting releases endorphins-endorphins relief pain so what do we do when were sad? we cut
    sosick123 sosick123 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 1, 2013

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    I just want to cut and cut

    until there is no skin left to cut ... I just feel broken wat happened in my past has completely destroyed me i dont no wat to do anymore ive had enough im done :'(
    lillynicole lillynicole 22-25, F 3 hrs ago

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    You guys there's a better solution,

    if you guys ever need someone to talk to I'm here.
    lilay98 lilay98 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 24

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    Can someone talk to me?

    ??? I'm feeling so alone......
    Cocosavethetatas Cocosavethetatas 22-25, F 9 Responses Oct 15

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    Why do I feel this way.

    It like a craving, it's so hard not to just grab a knife right then and now and start cutting. I'm depressed. I'm hurting. Ever since my parents started fighting more and more. The craving been growing. will someone even care if I start cutting?Will someone even love me? Maybe...
    zoeyflower zoeyflower 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 18

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    Sitting here with sharp things surrounded

    around me isn't exactly helping.
    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 14

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    seeing other people cut makes me wanna cut

    ready bad, I'm trying to hold back....
    EyelessGlitch EyelessGlitch 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 19

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    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 11

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    i want to cut so deep

    that i see a lot of blood. my flashbacks are ruining my life and i cant be happy anymore
    elephant17 elephant17 18-21, F 2 Responses May 18

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    Yo. So yeah, I do cut myself.

    Been cutting for two years now. Call me "emo", sick, whatever you like. It's a release that I'm thankful for, but not so much anymore now that my parents know and I can't hurt myself anymore. Mom found out by snooping through my texts and then she checked me and voila, fresh...
    MakaWolf MakaWolf 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I'm not a writer, sometimes I lack common sense,

    and other times I make no sense at all. If you still with me for the nect few minutes though I only hope that it gives you some thought. Two years ago I tried to take my life. I was in my last year of high school and I was severely depressed (clinically diagnosed). I was never...
    InfinitelyCurious InfinitelyCurious 18-21, F Nov 12

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    Sigh. This just isn't getting any easier,

    is it? I'm so tempted to take that nice fresh new blade out of the only pencil sharpener that I have that's never been taken apart... I keep trying to find enough reasons not to cut that it outweighs the crushing desire to do so, but I'm running out of reasons here... :/
    Yourguardianangel9613 Yourguardianangel9613 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6

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    everything is just crashing all around me.

    everyday i feel alone despite having a sister and girlfriend i never feel properly welcome always a outcast. as for my girlfriend i dont think shes trusts me :( and my sister says she cares but when i need her she tells me shes too busy or whatever to talk im sick of feeling...
    CrySweetRaven CrySweetRaven 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I Dont Know Where I Am

    it sucks to know that feeling sad is normal so you're starting to get used to it and no matter what the sadness wont leave. you try so hard but no. it sucks to self-harm almost everyday and nothing can stop you, you want to do it and continue doing it, it feels good. it sucks to...
    karissaxx22 karissaxx22 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 2, 2012

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    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13

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    tomg2200 tomg2200 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 12

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    I don't even know why.

    I think seeing the scars and newest cuts on my hip set me off. I just...I don't know!!! Music can only help so much. I want to sit here and scratch at my hip but I can't exactly do that in class. I feel the need to carry my blade with me everyday now, but I don't think I can...
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 16-17 1 Response May 6

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    I've been cutting on

    and off for over 10 years now. God, it seems like such a long time when I type the words. I've been feeling a little lost and hopeless in life as of late and I resolved to cut on a limited basis. Now the new cuts are angry on my arms and I feel ashamed. I cut so I can heal...
    silentscreamer24 silentscreamer24 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 20

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    Don't. Don't. Don't. Stop it.

    Weak. You are so freaking weak. Get a f**ing grip!! Don't throw it all away. Nothing is wrong. Why do I feel this way???
    NowGoBringMeTheHorizon NowGoBringMeTheHorizon 18-21, F Jul 8

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    I just don't care anymore.

    I'm starting to not care if people know. If people see. I just don't care. I feel like everyone already judges me and hates me, it wouldn't make a difference. Maybe if they knew, people would actually care. I doubt that though. The more time goes on, the worse it gets. People...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 1 Response May 16

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    I'm tired of fighting.

    I'm out of strength. I'm tired of life. I just need to cut.
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 17

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    Here It Goes..

    I don't know what this is.. Or who reads this, but hello! Within the past two weeks, I've started cutting. I haven't cut in four years, but now it's coming back. And the ability to be able to show what I'm feeling on the inside, on the outside, is amazing to me.. I was also...
    MaddelynneJannessa MaddelynneJannessa 18-21, F 16 Responses