I Want to Cut Myself

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    Today I was soooo sad my foot hurting today.

    So my aunt said she would take me to go see a doctor but than she didn't. She takes care of me because my mom died and my dad lives in p.a. she said I was bitching around and that I was a *****!! I cried for about 3hours.She said that she doesn't have to deal with me.When we got...
    cutekittycat cutekittycat
    16-17, F
    Mar 17, 2014

    I Really Did It Again....

    i am really tempted right now to cut my parents had gone out to eat yesterday and my mom got drunk she picked a fight with my dad then he got out of the car she had called my brother and she was freaking out..... my brother woke me up because i usally sleep like 2 hours durning...
    devilbarts devilbarts
    1 Response Apr 12, 2008

    I want to cut myself.

    I think I actually will this time...
    JeSuisAmira JeSuisAmira
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 26, 2016
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 12, 2015

    I want to cut myself.

    Right now. For the past few days it seems like it's all I can think about. I haven't cut since October, and I know that there's no such thing as "just one" and that if I try it again I'll be right back where I started, which is a dangerous place to be. And it's occurred to me...
    showusyoursouls showusyoursouls
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 7, 2014

    I'm feeling really stressed.

    I have my pocketknife ready for the first time.
    coltonfawley coltonfawley
    22-25, M
    1 Response Oct 27, 2014

    Lately I keeps having the urge to cut my wrists.

    .I haven't done it in a while but I think I'm about to relapse... :/ I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what's real or fake. I don't know who's going to leave me or hurt me. I can only hope but most the time my hopes and my heart end up broken...
    musicismysalvation musicismysalvation
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 14, 2014

    I've cut myself ever

    since I was in sixth grade. That's when the bullying started. It hasn't ended yet and never will. I hate myself and I need to find my blade. I cannot find my blade. Ugh!
    MelMelrules93 MelMelrules93
    18-21, T
    3 Responses Nov 26, 2015

    I should cut. But I can't.

    I should cut so deep I don't stop bleeding. I deserve it ;( I cry too much, I'm too shy, people hate me, my own dad doesn't even like me, my life is boring. People think it's ******* hilarious to hate me because of my depression. It seems as if they WANT me gone or dead. Well...
    NeonPurple NeonPurple
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 10, 2014

    Not suicidal or anything,

    just want to see how people feel doing it. Happy? Sad? Tired? Don't know.
    HerWeirdSide HerWeirdSide
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jul 20, 2014

    Should I cut and just get it over with

    so I don't have to worry about when the first time I will in the new year will be? I'm trying to stay strong but I don't think I can do this so idk when I the first time this year will be and it scars me so should I just do it and stop the worrying .......?
    thatone6 thatone6
    18-21, F
    Jan 1, 2014

    Every Day...

     and I did a while ago for the first time in a year. I felt horrible, and I needed relief, everyone does it for different reasons I know...but I feel horrible now, and I can't talk about it with anyone. I have already been through so much with my family. That, and my bipolar...
    PorcelainDoll PorcelainDoll
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 19, 2008

    I want this to be over.

    ..I want to cut myself but I can not find my blades S**t LOL I WANT TO FIND THEM
    cutaddict cutaddict
    13-15, F
    Oct 15, 2015

    I Have My Blade, I Have No Meaning

    Hi. I'm using an anonymous name, Kelly. I'm only 14 but I hate myself. I have no meaning. My step dad is not physically abusive but very verbal. My mother never listens to me when I try to confront her like she tells me to. My real father, who I love VERY much, is always out of...
    MooBoo1206 MooBoo1206
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 25, 2013

    I want to cut myself

    so F**king bad. I feel... nonexistent and this time, My guy friend won't try and stop me. He doesn't even know. What hurts me the most is that, when he eventually does, it would be way too late.
    JeSuisAmira JeSuisAmira
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 17, 2016

    After That I Do....

    you innocently float along, through different groups, and you see a picture of some cuts staring at you... is this actually allowed? if so, then I guess its your choice, but please bear in mind, it can be really triggering to some self harmers, and it can put ideas in heads of...
    Tesse Tesse
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 2, 2008

    Do you ever have any urge to hurt

    or do you feel hurt? And you can't take it out on someone? You've promised not do it again but you can not help it. It's like you say no but you just can't help it. And you want to feel pain physical not mentally. Once you start you can't stop.
    notsosweetcookie notsosweetcookie
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 16, 2014

    Just flipping punch me would ya.

    That would feel a lot better then this. I still do this stuff.. What is wrong with me.
    ASadGirl123 ASadGirl123
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 3, 2016

    I just got back from my FFA banquet.

    My dad had to drive me but he refused to come in because I had sent my stepmother on a psychotic rage earlier because I pierced my own ears. She didn't make me take them out and instead threw away all of the earrings I wasn't wearing. But anyways, I walked inside not realizing...
    Izzymontana Izzymontana
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 17, 2014

    I really do want to cut myself,

    but I'm kinda scared... oh , If only I didn't do the sh!t I did last year...
    JeSuisAmira JeSuisAmira
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 17, 2016


    i am going back to college in september and am worried that i am gooing to self harm again when it gets too much i have been to the college before and am going back this year to try and finish the coourse i left last year, but i think i am going to end up cutting again or self...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 3, 2009

    (Originally posted on April 30,

    2013) Cutting in Class There was a time in 6th grade where I would cut in class. I sat against the wall so I only had to worry about being seen from three sides. I always had a blade at school with me. When I was exceptionally sad (because I was always sad and hated my...
    NeonPurple NeonPurple
    18-21, F
    Mar 11, 2014

    So Ashamed To Admit This....

    I have been cut free for 65 days. Since my Break up, the urge to cut has been coming back, stronger than ever. The nights are the worst, were I feel like I am just going to give in and cut, but today, its still daylight out, and I just so badly want to take a blade to my wrist...
    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx
    18-21, F
    Jun 25, 2010

    I do. I really ******* do.

    *runs hands through my hair* because life right now is so hard and now I can't even think straight and it's killing me to be the way I am.. with everyone's expectations that I'm going to be the woman my mother is, well pretends to be. It's hard always being her shadow, but I...
    BENDrowned BENDrowned
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 20, 2014

    I have this huge urge to do it.

    . I've been like this for a while now.. It's like I wanna scream and cry but I just can't.. :(
    k33024w k33024w
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 11, 2015

    I want to cut myself again.

    I am four hours clean & I want to cut so bad. I feel hopeless. Everyday I go to school and. Feel like I'm just walking around in a dead lifeless body. I can't even fake a smile anymore. I feel so alone. I just want to cut & give up. Forget the world.
    kkiirrsstteenn kkiirrsstteenn
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 6, 2014

    Now More Than Ever

    It's too much. I need a release. I know it's not good but it's better than me punching somebody out. The only thing is I can't cut because I don't want people to stare and the cuts. I can't cut my legs because I play on a sports team and the other ones are finally fading. I'm...
    BleedingMascara BleedingMascara
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 10, 2008

    I thought that I was finally doing better.

    I haven't cut since July, and up until a couple of weeks ago, I was fine. But, the urge has come back stronger than ever. Each day just keeps getting worse. Everything in my life just keeps piling up. I'm 500 miles away from all my family and friends. I am stuck at home all the...
    twitchy09 twitchy09
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 18, 2013

    I can't take it no more I want to cut again

    haven't cut in 2-3years. It's so hard to talk to anyone cause I feel they want understand. I don't want to tell my best friend cause then she will be mad at me. Idk I just want the pain to go away.
    cutemonkey cutemonkey
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 5, 2014

    I'm craving for the blade to go across my skin,

    I'm craving for the taste of a cigarette on my lips. What's wrong with me >.< please help me. I'm falling apart so fast and nobody understands. I just want someone to understand and to talk to me. Don't leave me hanging on the edge.
    pleasedontrunaway pleasedontrunaway
    18-21, F
    Dec 4, 2014
    JeSuisAmira JeSuisAmira
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 27, 2016

    I feel like breaking my promise to my ex,

    the guy Ilove. idk what to do anymore. he left me bc of distance. I miss him. I feel so alone and so unloved. I'm so depressed I cry myself to sleep every night and I have nightmares. I'm scared to sleep because I also have good dreams that I don't even want to wake up from so I...
    brooketheunicorn brooketheunicorn
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 17, 2016
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