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I Want to Die, I Don't Deserve to Live

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 88 People

    What Am I ?

    What am i ? I look at myself and wonder if this is the person i should be. Is this what life is. A continuous snowball of everyday nothingness. Sometimes i picture myself zooming out from my physical body into space where i can only see the earth. The earth continues to rotate...
    Im2sleepy Im2sleepy
    Jul 14, 2013

    Don't Say That.

    It looks bleek now, but it will, get better.
    MasterTickler MasterTickler
    36-40, M
    1 Response Jan 18, 2012

    I Want To Die

    All relationships have issues but mine is fairly different. My husband is not the problem, its me. As everyone tellme, im insecure And psycho. When i get mad i throw things. Ive even threw him. Im unemployed and cAnt help pay the rent. I feel like i should leave but he says for...
    Cancan2013 Cancan2013
    Nov 30, 2012

    I've Always Wanted to Be Dead.

    I've been depressed since puberty.  I try to get myself by for others' sakes.  I hate myself passionately.  Not for what I've done, but for what I am. I feel like an abomination of nature.  I don't look like a freak, but know I am one.  I am a curse, a...
    Mistake Mistake
    26-30, M
    8 Responses Dec 18, 2008

    What Happened To Me?

    I've heard and seen so many stories about people who have fallen from grace to turmoil through the course of so much loss. Whether they just grow up in a hopeless situation, catch their spouse cheating, lose a child to cancer, whatever...  There's always someone out there...
    hexcreament hexcreament
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 9, 2010

    I Cannot Think Independently And Have Given Up On Myself

    all my life, i have based my opinions and behavior on other people. people have always thought i was really social but thats because i would see them in a social context, like a party--where you can be fake, and then i would hide away and isolate myself for the rest of the time...
    tryingtofeelworthwhile tryingtofeelworthwhile
    Feb 14, 2010

    Kill Me Life, Don't Torment.

    I don't even know why I'm writing this. No one will read it. No one will help. No one can help. But it's okay. I deserve this. For what I am. So I should write some more clever things, too, maybe I'm incorrect. The reasons I'm feeling these? First one, I'm a disgusting person. My...
    MsLella MsLella
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 23, 2012

    I've been thinking really hard about this

    for some time and lately things have gotten so bad to where I can't even eat a meal without thinking that I don't deserve to even eat. I am the lowest scum of the earth. I have done nothing to earn my health and eating. I think about taking my life more and more lately. I don...
    battlefighter battlefighter
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 5, 2015

    Im freaking tired of the fact

    that when **** comes into my life it comes from everywhere all at once...
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Mar 20, 2015

    Tired of Living a Lie

    I'm so really tired of living for nothing. Everyone hates  me (God, my parents, sister, brothers, friends, teachers and me ) hate me, so why am i living in this mean world? i just want to go somewhere sooooooooooooooo far away from everyone just be alone and think. And i...
    EverythingBreaks EverythingBreaks
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Apr 25, 2009

    life and people are so unfair.

    they Roy with you make you feel special at first and then just kick you down. I don't know why I was given live if everyone is going to treat me like ****. I just want to die already
    charming1212 charming1212
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Jan 19, 2015

    Im so close to just giving up im cutting again.

    . I dunno what to do I just want someone to care..
    dessiboo1996 dessiboo1996
    18-21, F
    Jan 18, 2015

    I married the only person

    who hates me more than I do.
    blasideeblah blasideeblah
    26-30, F
    Sep 10, 2015

    I Don't Wanna Live Anymore

    My whole life I've been pretty happy. I remember as a little girl I was fairly happy, I did have times where I was upset/depressed, but for the most part I was pretty happy. I've tried to look on the good side, but I always go to the bad side. I'm a good student in school so no...
    TragedyxInxWaiting TragedyxInxWaiting
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 5, 2011

    I Have Nothing to Live For...i Have a Lot to Die For

    i cause pain for everyone. i want to die. its just that... i have nothing to live for...no friends...nobody who cares...i need to go...i wasnt supposed to be born...i feel dead inside...like i shouldnt have been here in the first place...and all i do is live the same lie...im...
    sharkgirl314 sharkgirl314
    13-15, T
    Sep 29, 2009

    Why Do I Still Live

    I don't even know why I'm writting this, I guess I want someone to tell me I'm worth something... but I know I'm not. Today I learned that my mother had a stroke while I was at school and today I was worried about bitching about having to wake up early. I'm so selfish and...
    butterflew butterflew
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 7, 2010

    You Think You Are Offensive To Me?

    Perhaps you should consider the fact that I am my own worst enemy... I am my own judge, jury, and executioner... In my head, I am the most vile, evil thing that ever walked the planet.... my friends tell me that I am nice, kind, and generous.... but guess what? no one enters my...
    FallenAngelofNight FallenAngelofNight
    22-25, M
    Jan 18, 2012

    I Want To Die

    My whole life I try to look on the good side, but my head always points to the bad. I'm all alone in life, I try to tell myself i'm not, but I am. I hurt everyone and I cant ever be good enough. I never felt like I was part of my family. I always would think that I was taken or I...
    TammySimSim TammySimSim
    16-17, F
    Oct 30, 2009

    Random Reasons Why Reality Sucks

    Yeah, I just can't stand the nature of reality.  It's confusing and bullshit; just a tedious balancing act between pleasure and pain.  I wish I could astral project so I can cut the astral cord they talk about and die... then I can die without as much guilt towards my...
    SirDeividdo SirDeividdo
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Sep 15, 2009

    Please Help Me.

    so i am a dumb witted person. ever since i was in the 8th grade, i didnt have many friends. i am not an introvert person but i am just not good at making friends.i was picked on, teased, bullied and sometimes, beaten up. however, the thing that i hate the most about myself is...
    exodus91 exodus91
    1 Response Aug 12, 2011

    I hate myself so much.

    Sometimes when I look at myself I wish it was that easy to kill myself. Nothing matters to me anymore. I don't care about what happens to me. I don't care how I did I just don't want to live anymore. I give up on life.
    m051a995r m051a995r
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 5, 2014


    i hate myself, i hate every1! i have done many bad things 2 every1 n they 2 make my life miserable 4 only 1 reason im still alive is 2 reach my goal someday... maybe this is not my place
    gene66 gene66
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Nov 26, 2008

    Not Only Physical

    i hate myself, thats why i cut myself im only 15 yet i lied so much in my life my mom and step dad hates me my mom think im just a waste of time, she askes me why am i still alive thats why i lie, i.... lied to friends and made them think im always cheerful lied to the...
    h8her h8her
    4 Responses Apr 3, 2009

    Behind The Mask

    I try to hide it all....i want to pretend that I am not a flawed, failed human being. But...the mask often slips....all I want then...is for it to end. I am ever going to find love...i hurt those around me, my anger rules me at times. I feel that death is all I deserve...that the...
    Xtrepe Xtrepe
    Mar 17, 2013
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