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I Want to Die, I Have Nothing to Live For

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 615 People

    Wish It Would All End Now

    i wish i could end it leave his place people say u have children they need u but maybe me being way i am effects them more been sick 15 years but i had enough i got to point i had enoughhow much vcan 1 person take i just go sleep end to tis pain and awful feelings that i have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 5, 2011

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    Apathy and Gynecomastia Ruined My Life

    I am a 33 year old man who still lives with his parents. Most of my problems are the result of two things: my body and the fact that I was a spoiled child. When I was in grade school, my classmates teased me relentlessly about my rather large and prominent man-boobs. They must...
    nojusticefortheweak nojusticefortheweak 31-35, M Oct 9, 2013

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    Nothing Left

    i've never had any friends. i cant find a job that i like doing. my boyfriends always treat me like ****. My mam has cancer, but she wont give up smoking. I''m so ugly. I've no confidence. i've always been bullied. I've nothing to talk to people about. My baby hamster...
    stupidusername stupidusername 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 14, 2008

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    Dying Is Stuck In My Mind

    I stood out on the terrace of my office bldg looking at the high rises downtown wondering can I jump and will I live?  I am so tired of crying and being alone.  I want to be loved and no one wants to love me.  I see couples holding hands and...
    emotionallyindifferent emotionallyindifferent 26-30 10 Responses Jun 9, 2009

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    Money Over Happiness

    pretty much, im just feeling that my life will go no where. i am never happy, im always worried and feeling stupid and fat and ugly. a lot of people dont like me. my lifereally is going no where. i just want to be happy and have fun, but that plan isnt even working.. life is...
    heathermay heathermay 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 26, 2009

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    I Don'T Want To Die, But Why Should I Live?

    I am not a poet, a writer, or an artist. I am just sad. For nearly a decade I have only felt sorrow and self-contempt. Every effort I've made to change my life for the better has ended in bitter failure. Again and again I am thrown back into my ever deepening hole of depression...
    TheUniversalObserver TheUniversalObserver 22-25, M Mar 27, 2013

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    Believe In GOD

    I do believe. I made a mistake 30 years ago; I told the truth. Since then I have ben paying for it and my ex wife and her family have been making sure I pay until the day I die. My father died in my arms in 1992 and I promised him I would take care of mom because she was in very...
    klinley klinley 61-65 Feb 11, 2013

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    Let Me Die In Peace...

    Alot of things have been going through my life lately and after all i've been through, now i just don't care at all, my sister had a baby girl the other day, i really couldn't care less, her wedding is in a week, i can't be bothered to go, i don't 'feel' depressed i don't think...
    StrangeStranger StrangeStranger 22-25, M 3 Responses Feb 6, 2009

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    The Is No Point Of Living

    here i am complainning about my miserable ****** up life, it feels pointless talking about it i mean what's the point of living any way ? i am not going to be happy with my life what's so ever, good things rarely happen to me and when it happen some thing bad comes with it ruin...
    comlpicatedguy comlpicatedguy 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    Untitled

    Its not like anyone cares Its not like anyone loves me Its not like anyone has ever had my back they were too busy getting onto it for some minor bullshit only they cared about Its not like anyone has just been there for me yet they always feel free to lecture on what your...
    tulick tulick 31-35, F 13 Responses Jan 3, 2009

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    I Have Nothing To Live For

    I am 15 and everything i ever loved was taken away from me. Now i sit on this desk 24/7 thinking of something new but nothing comes to my mind. My heart beats at the same rate. Nothing happens. I go to school and skip more classes than i attend, and when I get in trouble i don't...
    Easkwhy Easkwhy 26-30 Mar 7, 2013

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    Nothing Left

    I had this lovely job working with little children in a nursery.  I loved them to bits, and they loved me.  But I couldn't get along with all the staff.  Two staff I got along with,  I loved them too.  Most of the rest they seemed to hate me.  One...
    Tibicina Tibicina 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 2, 2009

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    Die

    I feel as if I have nothing to live for everybody in my mom and dad are blaming me for so-so. My 2 brothers don't care about me at all. I'm getting annoyed with my friends. I keep thinking wouldn't be great if I died nobody cares about me anyway....
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses May 27, 2008

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    Ive Ruined My Life.

    I've turned into someone I hate. I've become an addict and gotten behind on money. I'm screwing up at work. My husband has given up on me. He was the best thing that ever happened to me and truly the first person to ever care about me or treat me right. Now I think he is becoming...
    irtu irtu 18-21, F Jun 12, 2013

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    I Was Like That

    Hi julius. I can feel when peoples say nothing to live for. I am 55 years of age single never marry. I even was on drugs and drinking. My life was a mess l looked like crap and felt like I look. My daughter told me when she was 16 that her mother told her I was not the father...
    maleangel53 maleangel53 51-55 Sep 20, 2013

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    Limbo

    I am trapped here once again. The only time I ever really feel alive is when I place my life in peril. It's something I've been doing since my childhood. So many close calls. Yet, here I am. I'm trying to find another way. I don't want to be this person anymore. I was born...
    shadowzero shadowzero 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 10, 2011

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    Nobody Cares

    Nobody really cares about me; they just act like it so they can use me. My parents call me the "drama queen" of the family, and they don't even care when I cry anymore, but just tell me to shutup. No guy I like is ever interested in me. I'm too ugly and stupid for...
    drummergrl06 drummergrl06 26-30, F 6 Responses Sep 16, 2008

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    Lend Me A Hand

    i have nothing left. no family, friends, work. no one 2 talk 2. i want 2 cry, scream, walk out the door. the person i turn 2 turns away from me. i feel like lying on the floor and never movin.
    Tk03 Tk03 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 18, 2010

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    So Sad I Can't Shake It....

    In 06, I quit a fabulous career, sold my stuff and moved 2000 miles for a man that I thought I was going to marry.  We had been dating for a year and he lived across the country.  Not long after my arrival, he put his needs first.  Over and over.  Told me to...
    rho21 rho21 36-40 27 Responses May 26, 2008

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    Not Happay With By Life

    I have a car act. in 2007 now have nothing to live for can not walk run or work have neurologist in both leg broken both heel was so happy up in unit my car act. have very thing go for me a good JOD now can work as all in a wheelchair have to have my wife drive me very where I...
    brokenheel2 brokenheel2 51-55, M 1 Response Mar 23, 2013

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    My Life's a Joke

    I have nothing in my life anymore. I used to have it all, what happened i ask myself often. What happened to the old, fun, popular me? These days I dont have much. I come home from work and take the dogs for a walk, go to the gym, and watch tv and play on the computer. Thats...
    echo16 echo16 18-21, M 17 Responses Feb 22, 2009

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    I am so tired. I'm fat.

    I'm ugly. I wake up through the night dreading the sunrise for I know I will have to find a way to get up and support my family another day. I feel extremely guilty about this but, I don't want to ever wake up again. I have felt this way since I was five. I've seen doctors...
    tjftutone tjftutone 51-55, F 3 Responses Jul 31

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    The Title Says It All

    Lately I've felt so empty, and I've cried in the past few months than I have in my entire life. I enlisted in the Marine corps. back in March, but I'm still waiting to ship for bootcamp. Month after month, they have found an excuse to delay my ship date. All my life I have wanted...
    winonaw winonaw 18-21, F Oct 2, 2013

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    Nothing Interests, Don't Care About Much Of Anything

    FOR YEARS I HAVE FELT LIKE THE ONE WHO IS ALWAYS LOOKING IN AND LEFT OUT OF THINGS OTHER PEOPLE SEEM TO ENJOY. I HAVE FELT THIS WAY ALL MY LIFE SINCE I WAS BIG ENOUGH TO START TRYING TO INTERACT WITH OTHER PEOPLE. I AM 72 YEARS OLD AND I HAVE MADE A MESS OF MY LIFE. I SPLIT...
    2013wheredoiturn 2013wheredoiturn 70+, F Feb 7, 2013

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    I've Never Had Any1

    i was taken from my mother at 6, when i saw her kill my little brother. I was raised by the state of wv... aka foster care. i found my real mother about 5 yrs ago. she begged me 2 leave everything and come b with her. so i did. she kicked me out on the street after 18 days. I...
    luvlitabby luvlitabby 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2011

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    I don't trust God. He has hurt me all my life

    and allowed other people to hurt me as well. I just feel like he toys with my emotions and heart. I just feel like he has his favorites and chooses those he wants to bless. The best thing God can do for me right now if he loves me is let me die in my sleep and feel no more pain...
    justinaj543 justinaj543 26-30, F Sep 28

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    I Feel Like Salad Fingers ...the Cartoon Caracter

    ......but with the dead people still being alive and aging but where getting there.... I have decided on my self deliverance method it will be nicotine patches and alcohol and any other system depressors i can get my hands on....am at peace with it ...but still feel sorry for my...
    defectivemoonbunny defectivemoonbunny 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 15, 2010

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    I Was Someone, Not Any More.

    5 years ago, I was somebody. 45, still pretty hot, good professor's job in a major city, riding high. There were things wrong - bipolar wife, also a teacher, who was having trouble making it and would not follow me to my job (her job problems being the reason why I got the job...
    Abjected Abjected 51-55, M Nov 19, 2013

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    Every hour of every day is painful.

    Even my sleep is haunted. I am so unhappy that no one wants to be near me....not even myself.
    sassyg1rl sassyg1rl 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 20

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    End

    I hate my ******* life! I don't see why I'm here on this earth! I don't get my purpose! I am nobody special whatsoever! I'm too damn stupid to be able to do anything with my life! I won't be able to get into grad school because of my damn grades...
    drummergrl06 drummergrl06 26-30, F 7 Responses Apr 11, 2009

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    I Welcome Death

    I've been alone and single for over 5 years, haven't even talked to a girl on the phone since then, and haven't had any friendships for 13 years. I have social anxiety, depression, and PTSD. THe only time i've felt happy in my life was when I was friends with a beautiful girl in...
    enju enju 31-35 Jul 25, 2013

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    I am so tired. I'm fat.

    I'm ugly. I wake up through the night dreading the sunrise for I know I will have to find a way to get up and support my family another day. I feel extremely guilty about this but, I don't want to ever wake up again. I have felt this way since I was five. I've seen doctors...
    tjftutone tjftutone 51-55, F Jul 31

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    I am a queer Turkish guy.

    I have been studying in vancouver for the past 5 years. And I was damn close to finish my bfa degree. I recently came out to my middle eastern fam. I was kinda expecting them to get mad and not accept me as who I am but my case got even worse. All of a sudden, they showed up in...
    kersoy kersoy 22-25, M Feb 17

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    I feel like I am only living to keep my family

    from grief. I am so sad all the time. Im so lonely. I feel suck darkness around me. I have battled depression all my life. But im so tired of fighting it. I can't see any happiness in my life. Im not sure if my thinking is distorted from depression. But im searching for...
    maggiemay777 maggiemay777 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    I Wish It Was All Over.

    All I ever wanted was for someone to love me. I did all I could to make that happend. Now it's all gone. I've been with the same man for about 13 years and now he say he wishes he never met me. We have 2 girls. I love him so much i can't live with out him. I got into a big fight...
    Day3 Day3 31-35, F 5 Responses Apr 25, 2009

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    Wonder Why I Bother

    Sometimes I get hopeful and think that things will significantly change for the better but they really don't. I'm in my mid 30s in a job that's probably not helping me to get any further up the ladder, I've also never had a serious relationship. I work in a technical I.T...
    WalterH WalterH 31-35, M Mar 29, 2010

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    Surely Life Isn't Suppose to Be This Hard...

    Life's got to be easier than this, surely... Complicated Grief they call it, but somehow having a label doesn't seem to help.  My life began it's slow downhill run in 1998 when my precious father died to cancer...I was 32.  From then I lost my professional career due to...
    josh6780 josh6780 41-45, F 6 Responses Feb 16, 2009

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    Death Unto Self

    I want to die I nothing to live for . I have used all th people who love me to farther my addiction. My church, my family , my friends have all turned away because of my deceitfulness in my substance abuse. I have a great job, nice home but am throwing it all away for drugs and...
    meganjones meganjones 51-55 7 Responses Jun 8, 2009

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    Hi

    I am a 21 year old guy, good looking and fine built, smart and friendly. The problem is sometimes (most) I go numb realising the fact that I'm 21 and never kissed a girl, let alone be friends with anyone, all my life except in kindergarten I studied in boys school and there are...
    skywalker1991 skywalker1991 18-21, M 8 Responses Jul 5, 2012

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    What Else Is There?

    I don't really care for living at this point in my life. Everything I do seems to end in utter failure and pushes me back further. I'm in so much debt right now. I have no friends. No family that cares. I have a mother and sister. Mother just recently told me how much of a...
    daryl26 daryl26 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 31, 2013

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    I Just Want to Go to Sleep and Never Wake Up

    I'm tired. Out of touch with the world. Overwhealmed. Can't keep up. 
    RubyTewes RubyTewes 31-35, F 21 Responses Jun 15, 2009

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    Heartbreaker.

    do you know the feeling of hate? the feeling of you don't belong? Well i have that feeling. I'm alone 24/7 and no one seems to Care..  i just want my life to go back to the old ways. Never once was a dull moment there. they was happy and so was i. my first boyfriend made...
    Brandy420Eden Brandy420Eden 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 28, 2010

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    WOW!! I Have Read a Lot of Sad Stories

    I AM 50 YEARS OLD. I HAVE BEEN PARALYZED FROM THE RIB CAGE DOWN, I SHOT DURING A ARMED ROBBERY AT A HOTEL THAT I WAS THE MANAGER OF BY THE SAME GUYS THAT SHOT ME IN THE FOOT 7 MONTHS EARLIER. I HAVE TO RELY ON OTHERS TO DO JUST ABOUT EVERYTHING FROM FIXING MEALS...
    dedratv dedratv 46-50 4 Responses Jan 27, 2009

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    Always Alone And Never Good Enough.

    I wake up and ask myself who are you. I feel this emptiness inside of me no one to talk to or to tell me something more than it'll be okay. I just wanna take as many sleeping pills as i can and just die. What am i here for? No one would notice if i died. Only reason people care...
    Lenia92 Lenia92 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 16, 2013

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    I am not afraid of death; I have always seen it

    as freedom, as though it would finally bring me some measure of peace. I've come to the point where I realize how much **** has happened to me. I am 17 and I have been broken for a long time, but I keep people at just the right angle so as to give the illusion that I am whole...
    AceLotz AceLotz 18-21, M Jan 18

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    I Am Tired And Ready To Quit Life

    I am 32 years old, I am sitting alone in my house  that I own. I am a licensed practical nurse and attending college currently for my RN degree. I should be happy, but I am truely done. I have no job and can't seem to keep one ever since I got my license. Makes me wonder did I...
    lila1234 lila1234 31-35 7 Responses Oct 20, 2011

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    People mostly assume I'm happy,

    except when I broke down once in school. To those who don't know me, I'm the straight A student class president type, has a life beyond school etc. what they don't know is my grades have slipped, I haven't been doing well in my extra curricular (in which I have made a name for...
    Chamomilet Chamomilet 18-21, F Dec 21, 2013

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    Right Now

    I currently want to slit my wrists and bleed out so I never have to wake up to this horrible life ever again. The thought of never having to be awake again excites me and makes me feel warm and relaxed all at the same time, because I would finally be at peace. I am tired of being...
    instantquack instantquack 18-21, F Jan 24, 2013

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    I Want To Die, I Have Nothing To Live For

    Literally everyday, several times a day, I say in my head "I want to die". If something good is happening I just know that it won't last and I try and not feel happy anymore because there's no point of expecting good when the bad is more likely to happen. I have nothing to live...
    dieme dieme 18-21, F Oct 28, 2013

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    Rational

    I suppose it's lack of confidence and discipline? I've simply come to the sole conclusion that so far in my deprived young life that I'm not afraid anymore to die / leave this life.
    Marowit Marowit 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 18, 2009

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    Nothing Seems Worth Doing Or Being

    The title says it all. Nothing excites me. I haven't been excited in years. I feel flat and unreal. Nobody sticks to me. I don't want to do anything. I want to die so I can at least start again with a real mind and amongst people who are excited by life. If anyone is. Maybe only...
    albie albie 31-35, M 7 Responses Sep 17, 2008

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