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I Want to Die, I Have So Much to Live For

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 62 People

    Confused

    my life is an absolute fairytale but i just want it to be over
    shadowfaerie shadowfaerie
    18-21, F
    Nov 15, 2009

    I wanted to kill myself today.

    I woke up crying and all I could think of was wanting it to end to just do it. I feel so much pain, but everyone says I'm selfish for thinking this way.... But of course they do because the living are the ones who suffer from a death. Yet the people who call me selfish aren't...
    Pixell2020 Pixell2020
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 12, 2014
    IAimForHonor IAimForHonor
    22-25, M
    Feb 24, 2014

    Ok. Not a suicide cry

    for help, or 'oh I am so sorry' sympathy. But dammit, today and more than a few times before, dying seems like heaven compared to earth. I am a pretty open person and yet my vulnerability seems to make me, umm, vulnerable. I have just been through a separation, fighting...
    lotusblossoms lotusblossoms
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Apr 1, 2014
    cheeringforlife20 cheeringforlife20
    16-17, F
    3 Responses May 18, 2014

    i dont want to die nor do i want to live.

    neurotic is my middle name.
    notlostnotfound notlostnotfound
    36-40, M
    Apr 16, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 21, 2014

    I want to die, but I don't want to kill myself.

    I have these grand visions of martyrdom and suicide by causality. My favorite involves an assailant entering my history class and me doing something really stupid. Tonight's iteration involves me standing up, walking towards him and asking for a game of chess. Should I survive...
    Logward123 Logward123
    18-21, M
    Apr 6, 2015

    Sometimes I want to die.

    I guess I have a lot to live for which is why I'm still alive, because no matter how much I want to I feel like I could never do it because of the things I have to do. I'm currently in college and get told my everyone that I'll be famous one day for my food (I'm in culinary...
    secretlyfelix secretlyfelix
    18-21
    Mar 16, 2014

    I want to Die ...that feeling creeps up on me.

    ..then my thoughts go to my 3 boys... I love them too much ...I would hate to lose them ..I would miss them if I died ...they would be in so much pain and confusion ...I've never been myself ever since I notice I kept losing friends ..and the father of my kids doesn't know I even...
    pinkfloydkitty pinkfloydkitty
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jul 21, 2014

    I want 2 die really over winter break I tried 2

    drown myself while I was I was in Florida I was about 2 black out It's not easy for me 2 share this I want 2 die I come close 2 trying 2 kill myself many times I can't imagine a future I know what I want 2 do I just can't c myself doing it the reason I'm still here is because...
    sassygirl48 sassygirl48
    13-15, F
    1 Response May 4, 2014
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