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I Want to Die In My Sleep

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,767 People

    I am sure that this is the graciousest,

    most peaceful way to leave this world. Very often I go to bed with the wish to fall asleep forever and not to wake up again but until now I didnĀ“t get the favor to leave this world while sleeping.
    Loretta78 Loretta78
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Sep 20, 2015

    I want to die. I want it

    so bad. I hate myself. I hate myself so so much. I hate my voice, my face, my smile , my personality. I am a bad person. I always cause drama. Everyboy hates me. Even my boyfriend can't stand me. I want to die. I want to go asleep and never wake up. Nobody would miss me...
    Ilovebunbunnies Ilovebunbunnies
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 11, 2013

    Death in sleep is most beautiful

    and less painful death. Once, I tried to kill myself by overdosing my insulin at night.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 5, 2015

    I want to kill myself .

    I have been depressed my whole life . I'm not close with family , I lose friends , I lose relationships . No one wants to keep me in their life . I really want to die
    byrae byrae
    22-25, F
    Dec 1, 2013

    i know its not a topic people like hearing,

    but alot if not most people feel it at one point in their life. Idk what i can do to be happy / enjoy my life anymore tried alot of things. Atm i just really hope that i die near or on my birthday (3 and a half weeks) or before my sister has her kid. Think ive damaged enough...
    Zack607 Zack607
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Feb 19, 2015

    Most people would want this.

    But I feel that when that time comes for me, I want it to be when I'm fully awake and aware that it's happening. I want to be able to experience the transition of life to death rather than sleep through it. I would rather see it coming.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 21

    Just don't wish to wake up.

    I want to sleep to eternity. The thoughts don't go away.
    Sirani Sirani
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Oct 18, 2015

    I'm seriously tired of waking up everyday just

    to lose a war with myself. It's ******* useless.
    TheMorticiansDaughter TheMorticiansDaughter
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Aug 28, 2014

    I just wanna lay in my bed

    and fall deeper and deeper into sleep until my brain forgets to live... As my last second comes....I want it to be peaceful and quiet. Its all over and gone. All the pain is gone...forever
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 19, 2015

    i want to die because there is no one in my

    life to share my feelings. wanna my friends are like me but i have a problems with my friends.so friends can you ready to be a friend with me.if ok please send me reply.
    sultanpatan sultanpatan
    13-15, M
    3 Responses Mar 23

    I have trouble sleeping.

    Mostly because I think too much. When I do get tired and sleep, I wish to sleep more than the normal hours. When my eyes open, signaling that I'm alive, I close them back, and wish they stay closed, and I go back to sleeping in the abyss. Don't bid me a "good night or sleep...
    feint30 feint30
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jan 27, 2015

    I cause so much pain

    and no matter how much I try to die I fail at that too
    hevenswaiting12 hevenswaiting12
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 21
    sroonaka616 sroonaka616
    18-21
    1 Response Feb 22

    I could never commit suicide

    because I could never put my son through that feeling of me doing that and it will stuff up his life but if I die in my sleep then it won't affect him as badly because it was from natural causes and my troubles will be over, I feel terrible for wanting this but depression really...
    daisychain33 daisychain33
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Jun 27, 2015

    I prey every night before bed

    that I will not have to wake up in the morning.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 24

    Like right now: hurts too much to live

    and hurts too much to die
    Totalwar1214 Totalwar1214
    18-21, M
    1 Response Nov 9, 2014
    bak4u bak4u
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 24
    VIVIANLOVESBREEZY VIVIANLOVESBREEZY
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Dec 1, 2015
    thomas200121 thomas200121
    13-15, M
    2 Responses Mar 22
    collegemisfit collegemisfit
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 8, 2015

    Ready To Die..Now

    So on the 20th of this month (October 2013) Marks 3 months since found my Angel passed away in her crib. She was a week shy of being 7 months old. Worst part is I have no closure Autopsy showed NOTHING even SIDS ruled out. I tried counseling church meds EVERYTHING & NOTHING has...
    twofargone twofargone
    31-35, F
    13 Responses Oct 17, 2013

    I want to die because I'm tiered of struggling

    with this life..... people are never let me live peacefully ........ I wish I die very soon........!!!!!!!!!!!
    bak4u bak4u
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Aug 10, 2015

    Yes! Tonight. Please?

    I will be the happiest girl. :')
    iamcarlolita iamcarlolita
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Aug 8, 2014

    I just cant bear it anymore.

    ..its too much.I cant bear this pain.I had thought to die many times but some thoughts come and i couldn't. I am a little boy.My Mom is too harsh on me,she never accepts her fault.She never listens to me.She always tells me foul words and screams at me.I have no best friend to...
    MP5348 MP5348
    16-17, M
    1 Response May 19, 2014

    I am done with my life.

    Last night I wanted to cry my eyes out but I couldn't. I did something terrible I won't ever forgive myself. I could lose everything I care about. My mind is breaking apart and is decaying. I want to die. I can't live with myself anymore.
    cloudycarnage cloudycarnage
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Sep 2, 2015

    Actually, I just want to die

    and be reborn in my dreams
    feint30 feint30
    26-30, M
    Nov 28, 2015
    BigWilly60 BigWilly60
    56-60, M
    Sep 17, 2015
    soweird530 soweird530
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Sep 11, 2014
    Zack607 Zack607
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Nov 16, 2014

    If I could tonight I would

    both be ready and unready. Emotionally I'm done. I pretty much hate everyone and everything in this world. The fact we give only if we get from another is disguisting and humans are a putrid thing. I just ****** need to die one of these days. If I die in my sleep I will not...
    YeahthatsMylife YeahthatsMylife
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jun 8, 2015

    I'm so tired of all the mental

    and very little physical abuse. from my mother. everyday she makes me feel worthless and I just want to die. oh one more thing. I'm being used byy entire ******* family
    nightwind1 nightwind1
    18-21, M
    1 Response Dec 1, 2015

    I cant take this anymore,

    I've tried to stay strong for everyone, I've tried to move on but I just cant! Someone please just give my place in the world to someone who actually wants to be here...
    improbablycrying improbablycrying
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 10
    rechlas rechlas
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Jan 4
    ticklemybarefeet ticklemybarefeet
    13-15, M
    2 Responses Dec 13, 2015

    I guess if given the choice,

    death while sleeping sounds best.!
    imnotyourfriend imnotyourfriend
    41-45, M
    Nov 27, 2015

    Is it wrong to just want to ended all in a

    peaceful way? To go sleep and never wake up?
    kellylopez kellylopez
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Aug 30, 2014

    I can't complain, ironically.

    I have two amazing young sons. I am a retired police officer at 42, due to a back injury. I can still function despite the pain. I want to die because of my wife. She is a selfish control-freak. I never noticed before because I was working 60 to 80 hour work weeks. My...
    cness929 cness929
    41-45, M
    Dec 29, 2014

    I have changed my mind now.

    I met a wonderful woman who has made me rethink!
    robcharles11 robcharles11
    66-70, M
    3 Responses Sep 24, 2015

    Sometimes I think it would be best

    if I was dead, I shouldn't live. All my teachers hate me and makes school so hard, I'm so ugly and nobody will talk to me, I haven't even got a close friend I can share things with, I sit alone all day with a cat. I might as well be dead
    josef2000 josef2000
    13-15, M
    1 Response Sep 6, 2015
    AMG114Hellfire AMG114Hellfire
    31-35, T
    2 Responses Mar 8

    Well I'm sleepy going to try to sleep,

    if you need me text me whoever has my number, goodnight :)
    MrUnmotivated MrUnmotivated
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 8, 2015

    I'm extremely depressed ,

    and it hurts so much , I don't know why I feel like this , I feel so alone and it kills me , my thoughts consume me slowly , I cry so much wishing I could just end it all , I don't want to live this life anymore , I'm more afraid to live than I am to die , I love sleeping but I...
    ByeDay ByeDay
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 15, 2014

    never wake up. my life is only of pain.

    I'm better off asleep forever in what dreams are left for me to have. back with this felling to let things end. give in to death finally
    dyingwish dyingwish
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 23

    That moment, that one second

    when i wake up and the world hits me and all i want to do is die. All day i am depressed, walking around like a mope just because i want it to end.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses May 19, 2015

    I want to die in my sleep.

    Just go to sleep, be in forever peace. I am so sick of feeling like this.
    DaydreamingSleepwalker DaydreamingSleepwalker
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Mar 7

    A month and a half ago my boyfriend broke up

    with me and he now has found someone else, everyday I wake up I have a horrible pain in my heart, he was my first love and he showed me the world, I feel lost without him, I don't know what else to do with myself because I'm alone in this world, I just want to die without any...
    albe349 albe349
    16-17, M
    5 Responses Jun 8, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 31, 2014

    Nothing suicidal or anything that's just how I

    would prefer to die, in perfect silence and peace
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 9, 2015

    I want to die an old age like my great grandma

    who was 105, and die peacefully in my bed. :)
    mblan11 mblan11
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 13, 2015

    I pray every night that i die in my sleep.

    Im too scared to actually kill myself because of the pain. I want to die doing the only thing i ever enjkyed, sleeping. When im asleep im usually ok. Im usually at peace when im not having night terrors. I feel like life no longer serves me. I feel i lived my life im done. Im so...
    niellyn niellyn
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 31, 2015

    Take me to the railway line Walk me

    so far I can hide Tie me down and leave me there See if I can sleep through that night And if a train happens to come let's hope I can sleep through it So it will murder me in my sleep Mummy I won't feel it
    polarbearlove polarbearlove
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Apr 28, 2015

    Staring out my window.

    Wishing I could jump out of it. Either that or fall asleep and just never wake up. I don't want to exist anymore. I don't want to feel the pain I feel 24/7. I hate that everyday I have to wake up, get up and act like I'm happy.
    lizzie204 lizzie204
    22-25, F
    Jul 8, 2015
    informal informal
    31-35
    Aug 28, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Mar 27

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