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I Want to Die

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,762 People

    34, male, no kids, single,

    straight, smoke, no drugs or alcohol. Never medicated. I'm fairly decent looking. I'm the same gender I was born. There's nothing about my physical self that would prevent me from living a full and successful life. I can hold a job. I'm a very much competent person. My problems...
    Dudustain Dudustain 31-35, M 3 Responses Jun 4

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    i want to give up. they say things will get

    better but they never do. i've had 31 years of pain, abuse, manipulation, and being lied to. i've given everything i have in every relationship(family, friends, partner) just to be used and lied to. they treat me horribly only to tell me they aren't. they want me to believer...
    drag0nf1y1 drag0nf1y1 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 18, 2013

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    I Am Not Broken I Am Shattered

    I don't know Where do i begin i see only darkness in my ****** life, i am surrounded by so many peoples and everyone claims that they love me but then why i don't feel their love, why it feels like everyone is letting me down, i don't know why i feel lost when i can see i have...
    iamhereforyou iamhereforyou 18-21, F 14 Responses Jun 9, 2013

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    This Might Help You

    There was a time in my life when the title of this group applied to me. There was a time when I would wake up and lay in bed for hours afterwards, just wishing I could return the bliss of slumber. There was a time when I would miss classes, meals, showers, and even interviews...
    GiantKaiju GiantKaiju 22-25, M 5 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    :/

    I have not been in this dark of a place in a really long time, I really can't remember the last time, where I sat in the dark room, and had these kind of thoughts. It has been a while since i had these thoughts, the only thing that stopped me last time, was a good friend of mine...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 1, 2012

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    Help me. I want to die.

    Now. Please. I want to cry. I want to collapse. To be sent to the hospital and stay there for months. I want to live a different life. I want to run away. I want to do do something else. Be somewhere else. I want to die. Help me.
    metaphornographic metaphornographic 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 5

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    Im looking for a way to die painlessly i dont

    want to be talked out of it im not seeking sympathy just an easy way out thank you to anyone who will aid me in this strange request .
    Davidjj72 Davidjj72 41-45 3 Responses Nov 11

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    I want to end my life now.

    I can't find any reason to leave. I want to end it all right now. I am so unhappy. I had on a list are so many different ways to die to kill myself. I kept on thinking of ways to live but i cannot think of any reason to live. Just want to die.
    judycasanova judycasanova 46-50, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I hate myself, and I HATE my life.

    Can I please get it over with?
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 17

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    Ok so... I want to die.

    I'm just at the stage where I don't see the point... It's too hard. Life is too hard. Every single day is a struggle. Every single day I'm either anxious or depressed about life. I'm sick of living this way yeah know??? I have a supportive enough family I guess.. My parents are...
    BeeKay20 BeeKay20 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    i love my inside . but i just don't like being

    human id rather be a star or just a fish maybe
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis 18-21, F Nov 11

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    I adore loneliness, can't afford dealing with

    tricky people whose are full of jealousy and hatred, I just enjoying my own company because I will never harm my feelings, I will never annoy my self, the problem that I am forced to deal with people on daily basis, my dream for life is to work from home, any kind of job that...
    zolito zolito 31-35, M Dec 15

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    Just now I realised, I don't want to die.

    In fact, I fear death - though I always said I didn't. I realised I just want to be happy. That's all
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 17

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    my life has been a hard one,

    but i thought i was stronger for having survived it, i was wrong. i am tired of all the bullshit i have do go through everyday. i get knocked to the ground all the time, and i am tired of getting back up. i don't want to stay here on the ground its not a nice place to be, but i...
    anneloves anneloves 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 18

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    End It All

    sometimes I just want to die. i don't feel that this life is worth living I have nothing and no one I am all alone and my life has fallen completely apart. What is the point of living?
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 14, 2013

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    That feeling you need to sleep

    but you don't want cause the moment you close your eyes the memories will just flashback in your mind and the tears will flow like a river, cause it's too painful...
    Thiswillbethelast Thiswillbethelast 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I hate how disgusting this world is

    and I want to die. If you really open your eyes, you’ll see that the world will not change unless we do. But I can’t do it alone. But also, not everyone will be simultaneously up for it. I never believed in people because everyone just looks out for their own. Not for the...
    clawrist clawrist 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 19

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    I am totally obsessed with my looks.

    I sit around all day and Photoshop my pics in hopes that one day I could look better. But I will not look better even with plastic surgery. I look scary except sometimes I look okay which gives me hope. But then I photoshopped a pic and thought this is the version of me I was...
    toniyl toniyl 36-40, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Slowly counting down the days,

    planing the date of death was one of my best ideas. The sense of know that soon all my problems will be over, everything for me will be finally good, no pain, not anger, just nothing. I finally feel as though I'm going to not be a failure for once.
    Marsop Marsop 18-21, M 5 Responses Dec 6

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    Who Cares Out There Still?

    No one even cares to comment about ANYTHING is this group.  Do we all just die before we even get a chance to help one and other? I just can't believe there isn't any goodwill in humanity left.  Who out there still cares?
    Void Void 22-25 18 Responses Oct 17, 2008

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    I get the wanting to die.

    In the current moment we are in that sounds like a easy way out. I hold no judgments on anybody dealing because I still deal with thoughts of suicide. But a thought is a thought and a feeling is just a feeling they are not a thing of fact.
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 2 Responses Nov 11

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    I don't want to kill myself,

    I just want to die. I feel so stupid...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Please let me die now.

    .. I feel at a lower worth than dirt... I feel useless and worthless and invisible... I can't care anymore... I'm so over life and I give up... I'm ready to go...
    catho catho 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 1

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    I Wish I Could

    I am afraid of the pain. I know it shouldn't be long, but what if something goes wrong? How do you stop what you started? I want to find the courage, and I look for it every day. It is all becoming too much to handle.
    antina9056 antina9056 36-40, F 5 Responses Feb 11, 2013

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    nobody will tell me how to go take my life.

    All I get is suicide crisis numbers, none of which are open or available. I haved a long life, I'm broke about to be evicted and now before they throw me out I want to kill myself, any recommendations?
    AyreWolf AyreWolf 51-55, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Siraj, time : 3:01 Pm,

    Oman. My birth Certificate says i have completed 23 years on earth but to my knowledge i lived only 14 days when i was with her. Those days were nothing less than heaven. and time was hell. hours were running like minutes, 10am, 11am, 12am... i litrally prayed "please stop...
    heartless2 heartless2 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    Not very many people know this,

    but I am depressed. I tend to keep it hidden from everyone around me very well. People will tell you that I'm always so positive and upbeat or that I'm really goofy and always smiling. The truth is though, I hate myself. I'm not really proud of any of my accomplishments or the...
    maulerrr maulerrr 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 27

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    I do not believe that I deserve any more pain.

    Not a victim mentality, I just truly feel that I haven't done anything to warrant this level of discomfort daily. I would like to die, and have done for a few years, completely rationally. This is the first time I do not wish to be in any pain. I am finally at my breaking point...
    rorenchan rorenchan 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    I hate myself. I'm ugly.

    I barely graduated high school. I'm not doing anything with my life right know. I'm probably going to end up in prison or dead. So why not end my life while I Can.
    belongtoLyann belongtoLyann 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Yes And No

    When I look at my life and myself, I see that death is the most reasonable way for me. I'm really too stupid, useless and too... soft for this cruel world. So, I look at myself, then at this world and I'm... really terrified. There is NO way I could survive here... that's the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jul 13, 2013

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    I've Been Told the Definition of Insanity Is Doing the Same Thing Over and Over and Expecting a Different Result

    For a couple years now I have thought about committing suicide. I am 22 year old college student and I am tired. I am tired of being tired. I am so tired that I no longer want to give the effort for me to succeed in society. I am tired of having to prove myself even though I...
    Tenbatsu Tenbatsu 22-25, M 30 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    Kill Me Naaoo!!

    http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Have-A-Dog/1605717 Why?! Just Why?! Im scarred for life..kill me nao! :(
    Floydian Floydian 22-25, M 9 Responses Aug 10, 2011

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    I feel like the world is caving in around me.

    Im lost and alone and i have nowhere to go. I don't want to be alone anymore. i just want to die
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M Dec 15

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    I planned on killing myself.

    Couldn't do it. Called the hospital. I have been told in therapy to look for things I am thankful for. There are few. No money, lost my closest family members, hate my father who is all I have left, deformed and ugly, physical issues make sports hard. Have some friends at least...
    sammysadness sammysadness 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 30

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    I am slowly preparing myself to leave this

    place. Nothing's going to change, I'm convinced.
    ItsAnt ItsAnt 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    Please just let me die i can't think of any

    reason. I cannot think of any reason to leave i want to die slowly and painfully why why do i want to die.
    judycasanova judycasanova 46-50, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I am in the middle of something over

    which I have no control. Someone came running through a red light, smashed into me and almost killed me, totaled my car, and waited until the last minute before the statute of limitations was up to sue me. Now they want thousands of dollars right away, and hundreds every month...
    JustPlainCrap JustPlainCrap 66-70, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    If my problem wasn't permanent,

    I could deal. 99% of problems are only for a season. But herpes is forever, so suicide is the only option.
    AutumnCarielle AutumnCarielle 22-25, F 5 Responses Dec 9

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    I feel so useless. I'm a failure.

    I can't do anything right. I just want to die in my sleep. No one would miss me. They'd get over it. No one even cares either. All my friends and family members are so much smarter than me, so everyone expects me to be smart too but I'm just not! When I complain about it they...
    kittylova kittylova 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 18

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    I want to die so bad i don't want to live

    anymore. ive been feeling like this since my freshmen year in high school. I always think that if i die, people would be some much more happier with life. i always thought that i only have a handful people that would care. the reason of me dying is because of my mother...
    khyrah khyrah 22-25, F 2 Responses May 18

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    Deluhi

    Nothing is getting better. In fact, it's spiraling out of control and getting worse. I can't help anyone or myself. I'm useless and can't do anything that has a purpose. Pain is brought upon others by my continuation of life and I can't take it anymore.
    Toukos Toukos 18-21 3 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I thought I hit rock bottom by losing my uncle

    three years ago, then my brother last year. But there was a deeper bottom. I am so depressed and anxious everyday. I want to be happy but I dont know if it will ever happen. I feel so unhappy....
    vlsloqh vlsloqh 22-25, F Dec 9

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    "Love Is The Answer"

    There are times, when I really feel like death would be a luxury, an end to the constant inner turmoil and suffering, but at times like this morning, when my room was spinning out of control, and I could only stagger to walk, I DID NOT WANT TO DIE. This makes me realize that when...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 3 Responses Feb 19, 2012

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    I hope I have cancer.

    My life is at a point that I can't take it anymore. I might have cancer, and I'm hoping that I do have cancer. I want God to take my life, so my suffering can end. My doctor is running tests, and if I do have cancer, I'm denying any treatments. I know doctors can't force cancer...
    Maelui Maelui 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 5

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    I am useless. I lost my job (which was the

    lowest of low), and all I do is waste money on vodka everyday.
    AssMargerine AssMargerine 41-45, M 4 Responses Dec 7

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    Wouldn't it be nice? To just get rid of

    everything bad that ever happened to you, to be with the people you've lost. To not feel stress, anger, sadness, frustration, etc. To find out answers to the questions you had when you were alive. To feel nothing but love. Because I know where I'm going and it's filled with...
    DeathIsPartDinosaur DeathIsPartDinosaur 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 19

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    Its All I Want

    i find no joy in anything anymore depressed yes been that way for years but find that as i get older its getting worse and i just feel like giving up i cant work cause i cant sleep and if i do sleep i dont want to ever wake up it seems like everyone i talk to doesnt understand...
    whoooty whoooty 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 20, 2012

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    i hate myself...i hate everything

    and everyone.... i couldnt reach my aim...everything is finished for me...im done with my life...i want to die...
    00roshana00 00roshana00 18-21, F 16 Responses Aug 2

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    Sincerely. All I want

    for Christmas is for somebody to send me some probofol or the euthanasia serum. Fought long and hard with no weapons or armor for close to 15 years. That is almost three quarters of my life. It only seems to get worse. The good things don't make it better, but the bad just piles...
    rorenchan rorenchan 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm ready to check out.

    Don't want to stay here anymore
    ElkGroveGuy ElkGroveGuy 31-35, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Yeah I Am Here....

    I am here. I am in this groupd. I joined a while ago, but I never wrote the story. Tonight I can write a story to this group, because its how I am feeling. I just want to die. Escape from all this pain and suffering. Escape it all, and not have to feel this pain. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 5, 2009

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