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I Want to Die

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 2,070 People

    i hate myself...i hate everything

    and everyone.... i couldnt reach my aim...everything is finished for me...im done with my life...i want to die...
    00roshana00 00roshana00 22-25, F 16 Responses Aug 2, 2014

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    I get the wanting to die.

    In the current moment we are in that sounds like a easy way out. I hold no judgments on anybody dealing because I still deal with thoughts of suicide. But a thought is a thought and a feeling is just a feeling they are not a thing of fact.
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 1 Response Nov 11, 2014

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    I can't take this heartache anymore.

    It's only been a little over 24 hours since my life came crashing down. My best friend left me and my fiancé of almost 5 years ended it. I feel like I can't breathe. My chest feels like its caving in. I can't stop these tears from falling. I just want to die so I can't feel...
    JustWantItToWork JustWantItToWork 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    roses are bleeding, the trees are swaying the

    sky is crying, the wind is howling the ground is caving, i am dying
    isohatetheworld isohatetheworld 70+, F 6 days ago

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    i wanna die.......just got kicked out of the

    house when I didn't even do nun ******* wrongshe always ******* does this **** and I can't take it no more
    tianalovesher tianalovesher 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Today might be the day I just say goodbye!

    I'm tired of hurting! Those who feel it's selfish, you have no idea how it feels. I love my kids but everyone would be better off without me, especially them. I'm easily forgotten anyway!!!
    Mell30 Mell30 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    All my life I have tried to be nice I put my

    best foot forward gave the world as much love as I could and where has that gotten me? I feel the pain I feel the hurt I cry myself to sleep hoping for something. I suffer in silence I suffer alone I can say I have no one and that's no joke all my life I have been bullied for...
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    sometimes takes inhumane amounts of self

    control. my life play tricks with me in things I have no power to change. I'm mostly really happy but when depression happens I really hit the rock bottom. I just can't control.
    unknownpoetx unknownpoetx 26-30, M 12 hrs ago

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    Its All I Want

    i find no joy in anything anymore depressed yes been that way for years but find that as i get older its getting worse and i just feel like giving up i cant work cause i cant sleep and if i do sleep i dont want to ever wake up it seems like everyone i talk to doesnt understand...
    whoooty whoooty 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 20, 2012

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    :/

    I have not been in this dark of a place in a really long time, I really can't remember the last time, where I sat in the dark room, and had these kind of thoughts. It has been a while since i had these thoughts, the only thing that stopped me last time, was a good friend of mine...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 1, 2012

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    I want to die. I cant enjoy anything.

    I dont talk to anyone but my family. I wouldn't leave the house if i didn't have school. My life is like bill Murray in ground hog day. Everyday is the same. I havnt gotten any better since I was first hospitalized with a thought disorder nos. I have realized that i have ocd and...
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 3 Responses May 20

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    I have had nights where I wanted to take a gun

    to my head. I have had mornings where I have woken up and started crying because I did not want to live. I have lost the closest human being to me and had to watch them take their last breath. I have gotten my heart broken by a guy that I invested my heart and soul into. I have...
    molliee151 molliee151 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    So my birthday is the one day of the year

    that I hope to actually enjoy myself. To have a good day for once and feel happy... But surprise, surprise, not even close... First, my parents totally disregarded having a birthday dinner for me... Instead, they decide it'd be easier and cheaper to celebrate it at someone else...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 4 Responses May 3

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    To be honest guys, I wanna die

    so bad. I want to commit suicide and then get burnt To ashes . I want not a single trace of me on earth. I don't want to do this life thing anymore to be honest . I need someone who will set my body on fire .. I'm willing to do everything as long as I die
    prettyboo711 prettyboo711 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 15

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    I wish I can die already,

    this life is horrible I'm sick of breathing and no one likes me or even cares about me and I don't have any friends, just let me die, then let's see if anyone actually cares
    decemberfairytales decemberfairytales 26-30, F 8 Responses Apr 3

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    Honestly, I'm regret

    for being born. All I've ever received for this world is pains.
    BellerMoo BellerMoo 18-21, F May 22

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    Sometimes

    I've seen this happen in other peoples lives.. now its happening in mine....:blink:
    Cosreal Cosreal 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    There was a time in my life when the title of this group applied to me. There was a time when I would wake up and lay in bed for hours afterwards, just wishing I could return the bliss of slumber. There was a time when I would miss classes, meals, showers, and even interviews...
    GiantKaiju GiantKaiju 22-25, M 4 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    I wish I had the courage to kill myself .

    But I don't . And it hurts . I didn't feel this way for the longest time but the chills in my bones came back and I just don't think I'm valuable to anyone or anything . I'm useless and worthless and I don't mean that in a derogatory way , I just mean I'm in an existence that I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    That feeling has returned!

    Just want to die. I'm so tired of this life. I'm ugly inside and out, people can't stand me before I even speak, the only time someone wants me in their life is to use me. I'm just trash!
    Mell30 Mell30 31-35, F 5 days ago

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    I'm wondering how many people on ep want to die?

    I scroll down the main page and about every 1 out of 7/8 say I want to die or hate life. Better yet someone may post a story about dying and then they will say me too! I usually read all the stories and emphasize and think what's their reason for wanting to die. I wonder do...
    toniyl toniyl 36-40, F 6 Responses Feb 16

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    All these stuff, I can't take it any longer.

    In the past I was so scared of dying, but now, I am totally fine if some missile just come flying my way. When I am dead, all these bloody bullshit will end!!!! ARGGGHHHH!!! LIVING IS SO HARD!!!!
    SkyWashExpress SkyWashExpress 18-21, F 1 Response May 19

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    I've Been Told the Definition of Insanity Is Doing the Same Thing Over and Over and Expecting a Different Result

    For a couple years now I have thought about committing suicide. I am 22 year old college student and I am tired. I am tired of being tired. I am so tired that I no longer want to give the effort for me to succeed in society. I am tired of having to prove myself even though I...
    Tenbatsu Tenbatsu 22-25, M 30 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    sassycastiel sassycastiel 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I want to drag her to hell with me

    but I have someone that cares for me now even tho I wanted to give up with all the suicidal thoughts she stuck through everyone out there always know there is someone out there that cares I'm not good with grammar or with words but if I've learned anything in the past 10 years...
    coldasice2014 coldasice2014 22-25, M May 21

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    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    i hate life so much. i just truely want to die.

    i cant take all this pain, i just dont know what to do anymore. dont tell me things will get better because i promise, they wont. i hate how i look, i just want to hide away. my appearance kills me inside. i hate how i always get f*cked over in life. i hate how anyone i ever...
    bringthesirens bringthesirens 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    I'm stuck living this life.

    There's only one way out. I honestly wish I had never met him. I allowed this person to ruin everything good in my life. Now I get to suffer the consequences. Either live this horrible existence or end it.
    Icyfrost14 Icyfrost14 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 28

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    Just now I realised, I don't want to die.

    In fact, I fear death - though I always said I didn't. I realised I just want to be happy. That's all
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 17, 2014

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    i love my inside . but i just don't like being

    human id rather be a star or just a fish maybe
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 11, 2014

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    I want up die because I'll never be in a happy

    relationship and I can't really trust people anymore. I feel worthless and betrayed and never matter to the people I meet and try to love now. What's the point of living anymore?
    YeahthatsMylife YeahthatsMylife 26-30, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    fluffyunicorn fluffyunicorn 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I hate how disgusting this world is

    and I want to die. If you really open your eyes, you’ll see that the world will not change unless we do. But I can’t do it alone. But also, not everyone will be simultaneously up for it. I never believed in people because everyone just looks out for their own. Not for the...
    clawrist clawrist 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 19, 2014

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    Look at yourself. Stare in the mirror,

    You're falling apart but nobody cares. You cry in the shower While cutting some skin. I'm becoming more mentally ill I just want it too end. We had a party All I felt is sadness, Is everything my fault for being this "bad kid"?? I ate some cake and i'm ready to cry.. I ran...
    brok3ngirl brok3ngirl 22-25, F 7 Responses Apr 3

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    Im looking for a way to die painlessly i dont

    want to be talked out of it im not seeking sympathy just an easy way out thank you to anyone who will aid me in this strange request .
    Davidjj72 Davidjj72 41-45 3 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    I wasn't suicidal before,

    but now I lost everyone and everything that was the hope that kept me going. I just hope I don't wake up in my bed tomorrow, I just want to be in heaven. I am sick of my life in living hell.
    stewartgreen stewartgreen 18-21, M 1 Response May 21

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    God gave me everything

    but I spoiled everything with my hands n thinking n behaviour... Including faith...!
    suresh36 suresh36 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    Yes And No

    When I look at my life and myself, I see that death is the most reasonable way for me. I'm really too stupid, useless and too... soft for this cruel world. So, I look at myself, then at this world and I'm... really terrified. There is NO way I could survive here... that's the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jul 13, 2013

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    Mrmanaphy Mrmanaphy 18-21 1 Response May 21

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    Most of the time i wish

    for a life threatening situation. I don't want to kill myself but i would save myself either......actually **** it id kill myself
    TheDarknessInsideM3 TheDarknessInsideM3 18-21, M 8 hrs ago

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    in a way, i already am.

    i have nothing left. i have given out all of myself that i had. I gave and i gave, but no one gave back, not in the way i needed at least. Now i am just an empty emotionless shell. i don't feel anymore. my soul is already dead, now its just a matter of waiting for its vessel to...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I don't know what to do.

    I'm stuck. I can't live my kid. It would be so selfish. But I just can't handle this life anymore. In so tired of doing this. I want to be free . I want to run away . I feel like I need a reset for all the stupid mistakes I've made. I barely have friends , at least not good ones...
    WhiteOrchid403 WhiteOrchid403 22-25, F 1 Response May 16

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    I have been feeling the worst I have ever felt

    in my life for a year straight. It's been getting worse and tonight I finally got to me. I had been feeling unloved and unwanted because I barely even get to see or even talk to my boyfriend. I said I was upset. 5 hours later his friend yells at me and insults me because I am a...
    Headlights Headlights 18-21, F 1 Response May 4

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    I'm not sure what I'm going to do.

    . I've worked so hard to pull myself together, to hide and stop my depressed thoughts, I did everything, I really felt like I was getting better. This one night contained the power to wreck that, and all I want is to let it all go. I just want everything to stop, to just go to...
    MaeveBrennan MaeveBrennan 18-21, F 1 Response May 6

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    suresh36 suresh36 22-25, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Sometimes I feel like I'm not worth anything.

    That if I died no one would care. I hate thinking about dying because I have once before, but I can't help it. I remember it being so peaceful and I didn't care about anything anymore. But I'm scared that it was a dream and that it didn't really happen. That dying is horrible. I...
    SexyAngelBitches SexyAngelBitches 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 29

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