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I Want to Die

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,840 People

    34, male, no kids, single,

    straight, smoke, no drugs or alcohol. Never medicated. I'm fairly decent looking. I'm the same gender I was born. There's nothing about my physical self that would prevent me from living a full and successful life. I can hold a job. I'm a very much competent person. My problems...
    Dudustain Dudustain 31-35, M 3 Responses Jun 4, 2014

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    I Wish I Could

    I am afraid of the pain. I know it shouldn't be long, but what if something goes wrong? How do you stop what you started? I want to find the courage, and I look for it every day. It is all becoming too much to handle.
    antina9056 antina9056 36-40, F 4 Responses Feb 11, 2013

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    i am sick of having only bad days i am tired

    and angry all the time i tried before and didn't succeed the first 2 times but now i know where i did wrong and this time i will do it the right way so see ya
    anazi anazi 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Ugh... I hate watching you fade away.

    .. And just when I thought it was over... You come back... To throw it in my face again... To beat me up and throw me in the gutter... I'm being tortured... Someone save me
    AngelicVomit AngelicVomit 18-21, M Jan 12

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    I have what I need to end my life.

    ...but anytime I try to justify what I'm doing, the only answers I'm given are,"you are so loved and you are worth this life" or "think of all the pain Ben has caused...do you want to cause that too?" A little bit of a back story; my fiancé committed suicide a month ago and my...
    diabeticHailey diabeticHailey 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 10

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    i hate myself...i hate everything

    and everyone.... i couldnt reach my aim...everything is finished for me...im done with my life...i want to die...
    00roshana00 00roshana00 18-21, F 16 Responses Aug 2, 2014

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    With my health deteriorating,

    a lonely marriage and no friends, I look forward to a convent time to throw in the towel. I don't want to cause anyone any kind of lasting burden, but then again my life doesn't have any substance to it. I used to be one tough cookie but I now spend most of my days silently at...
    TwistnShake TwistnShake 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    Im done. Gonna go and just be done with it.

    Dont want to go alone, tho.
    Eve34 Eve34 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Who Cares Out There Still?

    No one even cares to comment about ANYTHING is this group.  Do we all just die before we even get a chance to help one and other? I just can't believe there isn't any goodwill in humanity left.  Who out there still cares?
    Void Void 22-25 18 Responses Oct 17, 2008

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    I have been depressed

    since childhood. My teenage years were awful and full of self-loathing. I was thinking of committing suicide every other day or so. I hoped this was something temporary. Like I will grow up, become an adult, and it will all get better. Well, now I am 23 and still depressed. It...
    left4dead91 left4dead91 22-25, F 7 Responses Jan 15

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    I'm 26, have ****** up ankles

    because of my own retarded doing, balding, have hpv, and I pretty much dislike myself. I'm ready to get outta this self-destructive life
    oopsifellhard oopsifellhard 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Im looking for a way to die painlessly i dont

    want to be talked out of it im not seeking sympathy just an easy way out thank you to anyone who will aid me in this strange request .
    Davidjj72 Davidjj72 41-45 3 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    Its All I Want

    i find no joy in anything anymore depressed yes been that way for years but find that as i get older its getting worse and i just feel like giving up i cant work cause i cant sleep and if i do sleep i dont want to ever wake up it seems like everyone i talk to doesnt understand...
    whoooty whoooty 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 20, 2012

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    :/

    I have not been in this dark of a place in a really long time, I really can't remember the last time, where I sat in the dark room, and had these kind of thoughts. It has been a while since i had these thoughts, the only thing that stopped me last time, was a good friend of mine...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 1, 2012

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    I know people would miss me

    if I left. I understand what sort of pain I would put my parents through and my friends through and my family through, because I've seen it first hand. I care. I really do, but I also care that I'm hurting and no amount of time or therapy or anything else is ever going to fix...
    diabeticHailey diabeticHailey 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 14

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    Kill Me Naaoo!!

    http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Have-A-Dog/1605717 Why?! Just Why?! Im scarred for life..kill me nao! :(
    Floydian Floydian 22-25, M 9 Responses Aug 10, 2011

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    You can't help someone

    who isn't ready to help themselves...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F Jan 13

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    i keep seeing ads for all these sick shows.

    .. kidnapping, murder, pedophila, ya know **** like criminal minds or the returners.... or movies like purge anarchy.... god this society is evil.... remind me again why i want to continue living here?
    AnonymousGnosis AnonymousGnosis 26-30, M Jan 13

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    Just now I realised, I don't want to die.

    In fact, I fear death - though I always said I didn't. I realised I just want to be happy. That's all
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 17, 2014

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    Yeah I Am Here....

    I am here. I am in this groupd. I joined a while ago, but I never wrote the story. Tonight I can write a story to this group, because its how I am feeling. I just want to die. Escape from all this pain and suffering. Escape it all, and not have to feel this pain. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 5, 2009

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    I feel like im spiraling out of control.

    Everything is going wrong. My life is in ruins and im slowly drifting away from everyone i know and care about. i don't feel like doing anything anymore. i just want to die
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I think of being dead a lot.

    But suicide is so much effort, it's not worth it. So I just sit here and wish to be dead. There are reasons, but maybe another time.
    USA1977 USA1977 36-40, M 2 Responses Jan 11

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    Today is my birthday.

    22 years old now with no purpose in life. No goals, no friends. Nothing going for me. The world would be better off if I died. Why should something be here if it has no purpose? Everyone has a talent for something while I am just bleh at everything. I have no friends to share my...
    badmiral badmiral 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 21

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    I just want to die I'll do anything

    if someone kills me I've saved up £4500 and I'll let you do whatever you want with me before you kill me please someone do it
    katielovespeeingherpants katielovespeeingherpants 18-21, F 4 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I don't want to kill myself,

    I just want to die. I feel so stupid...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    I get the wanting to die.

    In the current moment we are in that sounds like a easy way out. I hold no judgments on anybody dealing because I still deal with thoughts of suicide. But a thought is a thought and a feeling is just a feeling they are not a thing of fact.
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 1 Response Nov 11, 2014

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    I'm fed up with feeling like this.

    I just want to be free. All I do is cause pain. It's better I just go there's no point in my life. I'm just a problem.
    Madhatter135 Madhatter135 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    been off my meds for days.

    ...losing the strength to keep fighting. ....i just want to close my eyes and let it all end.....
    Anastas17 Anastas17 18-21, T 10 Responses 4 days ago

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    I hate how disgusting this world is

    and I want to die. If you really open your eyes, you’ll see that the world will not change unless we do. But I can’t do it alone. But also, not everyone will be simultaneously up for it. I never believed in people because everyone just looks out for their own. Not for the...
    clawrist clawrist 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 19, 2014

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    So this feeling has been getting worse.

    I never actually considered suicide as an option but now I'm starting to give it more what if thoughts and that scares me.
    ShaneStoner ShaneStoner 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 16

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    i want to give up. they say things will get

    better but they never do. i've had 31 years of pain, abuse, manipulation, and being lied to. i've given everything i have in every relationship(family, friends, partner) just to be used and lied to. they treat me horribly only to tell me they aren't. they want me to believer...
    drag0nf1y1 drag0nf1y1 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 18, 2013

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    "Love Is The Answer"

    There are times, when I really feel like death would be a luxury, an end to the constant inner turmoil and suffering, but at times like this morning, when my room was spinning out of control, and I could only stagger to walk, I DID NOT WANT TO DIE. This makes me realize that when...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 3 Responses Feb 19, 2012

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I just don't feel like dealing with anything.

    I do not feel like doing anything. I haven't even gone to the grocery store in over a month. None of it seems worth the hassle. No final plans or anything. Just don't feel like "living" currently.
    Myzery Myzery 31-35, F 4 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I Really Want To Go

    Away from this place I hate being alive . I hate being me I hate the person I am Its never enough, My best is never good enough theres nothing in this world for me to do It doesnt make a difference if I'm here or not
    bleu2ooth bleu2ooth 26-30, F 4 Responses May 26, 2011

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    Think I might be checking out tonight.

    My panic attacks are getting to be too much. If I do, peace. Not gonna say I'll miss this though
    NoF7cksSeven NoF7cksSeven 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 21, 2014

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    diabeticHailey diabeticHailey 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 11

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    This Might Help You

    There was a time in my life when the title of this group applied to me. There was a time when I would wake up and lay in bed for hours afterwards, just wishing I could return the bliss of slumber. There was a time when I would miss classes, meals, showers, and even interviews...
    GiantKaiju GiantKaiju 22-25, M 5 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    i hate life so much. i just truely want to die.

    i cant take all this pain, i just dont know what to do anymore. dont tell me things will get better because i promise, they wont. i hate how i look, i just want to hide away. my appearance kills me inside. i hate how i always get f*cked over in life. i hate how anyone i ever...
    bringthesirens bringthesirens 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    I Am Not Broken I Am Shattered

    I don't know Where do i begin i see only darkness in my ****** life, i am surrounded by so many peoples and everyone claims that they love me but then why i don't feel their love, why it feels like everyone is letting me down, i don't know why i feel lost when i can see i have...
    iamhereforyou iamhereforyou 18-21, F 14 Responses Jun 9, 2013

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    It's been a while since I've felt this way.

    Ladies and gentleman, my family :/
    MadNocturnes MadNocturnes 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I recently got academically excluded from

    college and since then my self confidence has taken a blow. I have no aspirations dreams or hopes whatsoever and nobody knows this . I feel like all the passion has been sucked out of me. I have been contemplating suicide since the beginning of this year , my body is tired and...
    prettyboo711 prettyboo711 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Honestly I've tried before,

    to end my life. I've tried 8 times and I'm still here. I guess a little part of me wants to live. I thought I found the one person to keep me going but even he's leaving, too many tests to see if I'd stay when I need him more than ever. I'm just waiting for him to tell me it's...
    Celestina333 Celestina333 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I don't want to live anymore.

    I don't want to do anything, feel anything. My family hates me. I have no real friends. Everyday I fantasize about getting into a car accident, getting cancer, or even having someone shoot me. My life means nothing.
    nrimsat nrimsat 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 10

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    I've Been Told the Definition of Insanity Is Doing the Same Thing Over and Over and Expecting a Different Result

    For a couple years now I have thought about committing suicide. I am 22 year old college student and I am tired. I am tired of being tired. I am so tired that I no longer want to give the effort for me to succeed in society. I am tired of having to prove myself even though I...
    Tenbatsu Tenbatsu 22-25, M 30 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    i love my inside . but i just don't like being

    human id rather be a star or just a fish maybe
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis 18-21, F Nov 11, 2014

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    Deluhi

    Nothing is getting better. In fact, it's spiraling out of control and getting worse. I can't help anyone or myself. I'm useless and can't do anything that has a purpose. Pain is brought upon others by my continuation of life and I can't take it anymore.
    Toukos Toukos 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    My entire life, I've always felt like I wasn't

    good enough. Everyone I let near me ends up hurting me. I just want someone to reach out and at least let me know they care. But that's probably never going to happen. So, for now, I'll keep breathing and keep hope that maybe someday someone will care instead of just using me.
    NoF7cksSeven NoF7cksSeven 18-21, F 27 Responses Jan 2

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    ok let me get straight to it im disabled

    and i have alot of things that i hate about me like im fat girls refuse to look my way the only thing i might have going for me is down south and so its just hard
    jayjax211233 jayjax211233 22-25, M 6 Responses Jan 13

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    in a way, i already am.

    i have nothing left. i have given out all of myself that i had. I gave and i gave, but no one gave back, not in the way i needed at least. Now i am just an empty emotionless shell. i don't feel anymore. my soul is already dead, now its just a matter of waiting for its vessel to...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I'm so tired of all the sadness.

    .. I doubt if there is an afterlife that things will be better for me emotionally anyways... But I can't take this anymore. Each day I keep having panic attacks, I have a friend who I've opened up to so much but recently it's like she doesn't care. I can't keep going on like...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    chack out my suicide chat room cute

    and past the link http://www.chatzy.com/37831562858889
    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M