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I Want to Die

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 2,001 People

    in a way, i already am.

    i have nothing left. i have given out all of myself that i had. I gave and i gave, but no one gave back, not in the way i needed at least. Now i am just an empty emotionless shell. i don't feel anymore. my soul is already dead, now its just a matter of waiting for its vessel to...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I can stand these pains.

    I want to leave this world. I want to give my life to someone who really wants to live .
    abi805 abi805 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 7

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    Yes And No

    When I look at my life and myself, I see that death is the most reasonable way for me. I'm really too stupid, useless and too... soft for this cruel world. So, I look at myself, then at this world and I'm... really terrified. There is NO way I could survive here... that's the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jul 13, 2013

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    I need to leave. Forget everything

    and everyone here. :'( I don't want to fight this pain and torture anymore. I just want it to be done with... One jump and it's over. One bullet and the pain is gone. One bottle of pills and im gone. Take me away... It's all I want
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 6

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    I have had nights where I wanted to take a gun

    to my head. I have had mornings where I have woken up and started crying because I did not want to live. I have lost the closest human being to me and had to watch them take their last breath. I have gotten my heart broken by a guy that I invested my heart and soul into. I have...
    molliee151 molliee151 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    Wife of twelve years left me

    for another man, I will never trust another woman again. I can't sleep, I can't breath, I just want to die. The worst part is I still love her.
    backtorealitys backtorealitys 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 7

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    This Might Help You

    There was a time in my life when the title of this group applied to me. There was a time when I would wake up and lay in bed for hours afterwards, just wishing I could return the bliss of slumber. There was a time when I would miss classes, meals, showers, and even interviews...
    GiantKaiju GiantKaiju 22-25, M 5 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    I think after my holiday in August (I've

    already committed so I can't do it any earlier) I'm going to commit suicide. I've had enough of being lonely and feeling worthless. I am such a pointless human being and I've always felt that since the beginning. I have no reason to be here on this planet and I don't fit in...
    Fierrrrce Fierrrrce 18-21, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    :/

    I have not been in this dark of a place in a really long time, I really can't remember the last time, where I sat in the dark room, and had these kind of thoughts. It has been a while since i had these thoughts, the only thing that stopped me last time, was a good friend of mine...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 1, 2012

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    Please just let me die!

    This pain is too much for me to handle. You're moving on, and I can't stop thinking of you. You don't give a **** anymore...but I wish you would show up at my doorstep. You're in my dreams and you're all I think about. Please save me like you always do...you're the only one that...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My entire life, I've always felt like I wasn't

    good enough. Everyone I let near me ends up hurting me. I just want someone to reach out and at least let me know they care. But that's probably never going to happen. So, for now, I'll keep breathing and keep hope that maybe someday someone will care instead of just using me.
    NoF7cksSeven NoF7cksSeven 16-17, F 27 Responses Jan 2

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    I can't get over this feeling.

    It's been lasting for weeks.
    grgbyce968 grgbyce968 56-60, M 7 Responses Apr 15

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    Think I might be checking out tonight.

    My panic attacks are getting to be too much. If I do, peace. Not gonna say I'll miss this though
    NoF7cksSeven NoF7cksSeven 16-17, F 7 Responses Dec 21, 2014

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    Peedripping Peedripping 18-21, F 13 Responses 4 days ago

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    Just now I realised, I don't want to die.

    In fact, I fear death - though I always said I didn't. I realised I just want to be happy. That's all
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 17, 2014

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    I don't want to kill myself,

    I just want to die. I feel so stupid...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    I get the wanting to die.

    In the current moment we are in that sounds like a easy way out. I hold no judgments on anybody dealing because I still deal with thoughts of suicide. But a thought is a thought and a feeling is just a feeling they are not a thing of fact.
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 1 Response Nov 11, 2014

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    I think ill just drive

    as fast as i can into a wall i have no airbags and ill not wear my seat belt i feel ready to let go
    Anastas17 Anastas17 18-21, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    i hate life so much. i just truely want to die.

    i cant take all this pain, i just dont know what to do anymore. dont tell me things will get better because i promise, they wont. i hate how i look, i just want to hide away. my appearance kills me inside. i hate how i always get f*cked over in life. i hate how anyone i ever...
    bringthesirens bringthesirens 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    Im looking for a way to die painlessly i dont

    want to be talked out of it im not seeking sympathy just an easy way out thank you to anyone who will aid me in this strange request .
    Davidjj72 Davidjj72 41-45 3 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    I'm not suicidal. I know I'm not going to do

    anything, but I think about it all the time. I'm obsessed over the thought of my death, and the mental images of me dying. I keep replaying them over and over again. They change too, depending on what I'm doing. If I'm driving, I picture myself crashing and my body flying out...
    theindigoboy theindigoboy 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I cant handle this insane life.

    I have little support. Everyones against me. i am alone. noone would miss me.
    amtired amtired 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 16

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    To be honest guys, I wanna die

    so bad. I want to commit suicide and then get burnt To ashes . I want not a single trace of me on earth. I don't want to do this life thing anymore to be honest . I need someone who will set my body on fire .. I'm willing to do everything as long as I die
    prettyboo711 prettyboo711 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 15

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    i just feel so ugly and

    so unwanted. I really think that the rope is the only choice.
    toitt93 toitt93 22-25, M 5 Responses Apr 11

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    I've wanted to end it on

    and off since i was 11, i don't have the guts though. I believe that we are supposed to live/suffer it through since we are not alive for very long anyway, i kinda feel like it's a test and it's amazing we exist anyway but the pain i feel is continous, persistant and intense...i...
    MushroomFaerie148 MushroomFaerie148 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    i hate myself...i hate everything

    and everyone.... i couldnt reach my aim...everything is finished for me...im done with my life...i want to die...
    00roshana00 00roshana00 18-21, F 16 Responses Aug 2, 2014

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    I was suicidal when I was younger .

    I hate myself for painful reasons , but I don't want to kill myself . Sometimes I think about how I'd be okay with dying if it meant that someone else could live , sacrificing myself for the greater good . Leaving a legacy . I know that sounds selfish , but I think I'd jump at...
    JoshRobin JoshRobin 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 14

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    Some one kill me ;( please someone just do it I

    don't want to be here anymore I just get left by all the people that mean the most to me kill me someone;( please hurry
    Peedripping Peedripping 18-21, F 13 Responses a week ago

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    I have been thinking about suicide

    for 5 years attempted twice and I feel like attempting it again. I just don't see the point anymore. I am writing it here to let go of some repressed feelings...Sorry if this bothers anybody didn't mean to.
    TheLynxx TheLynxx 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    A few more months and I'll be moving away.

    Please just let me be happy afterwards? Please? I'm tired of fighting. I'm growing weaker and weaker and finding less and less solutions... This pain... Yet im numb. I'm nothing. I want it to be over. I want there to be nothing. When death comes, some say there's a better life...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    pffffft....F this world it does my head in.

    too much BS in it...i really dont feel i belong in this world..What is the purpose of this life ? We live up to 80 - 100 if lucky. and because of the advanced world we living it is made possible So if we were born 300 years ago our life expectancy would be what ? upto 40 years...
    LegendBattles LegendBattles 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    I have the pills in my hand.

    I just need one person to tell me to stay, that I'm not a burden.
    justakookiegirl justakookiegirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 16

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    Sometimes

    I've seen this happen in other peoples lives.. now its happening in mine....:blink:
    Cosreal Cosreal 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    i haven't said a word ''i want to die''in this

    half year. and today....it happened. long story..be short. i just hate being used by someone.
    Juri0902 Juri0902 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 16

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    i love my inside . but i just don't like being

    human id rather be a star or just a fish maybe
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 11, 2014

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    I just don't feel like dealing with anything.

    I do not feel like doing anything. I haven't even gone to the grocery store in over a month. None of it seems worth the hassle. No final plans or anything. Just don't feel like "living" currently.
    Myzery Myzery 31-35, F 4 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    Its All I Want

    i find no joy in anything anymore depressed yes been that way for years but find that as i get older its getting worse and i just feel like giving up i cant work cause i cant sleep and if i do sleep i dont want to ever wake up it seems like everyone i talk to doesnt understand...
    whoooty whoooty 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 20, 2012

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    That's just it. The feeling has been pretty

    dominant for months. I have nothing to live for. I contribute nothing to the world. It does not get better. I'm just tired of suffering.
    DevilDollie DevilDollie 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 5

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    if there is nothing after i die,

    if there no such a afterlife, if die just the end.. i want it. I am tired.
    WayangPanda WayangPanda 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 13

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    Look at yourself. Stare in the mirror,

    You're falling apart but nobody cares. You cry in the shower While cutting some skin. I'm becoming more mentally ill I just want it too end. We had a party All I felt is sadness, Is everything my fault for being this "bad kid"?? I ate some cake and i'm ready to cry.. I ran...
    brok3ngirl brok3ngirl 22-25, F 7 Responses Apr 3

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    I can't take it anymore.

    .. I keep crying all the time ; in lectures, when I'm with my friends and before I sleep. I remember when my love came to me last time and it's torturing me.  Every detail comes into my mind when I was with him, makes me feel like a died person.  My eyes tears when I saw his...
    unknown159231 unknown159231 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 6

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    Giving up is easy, easy way out isn't

    so easy, and so we are left bound to our misery.
    janewantssomefun janewantssomefun 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    PierceTheSleepingHorizon PierceTheSleepingHorizon 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 11

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    You know what **** this.

    .. You said we were in this together, but that's not the case anymore... I'm a ticking bomb, I don't know how much longer I can take this... Hope was there one second gone the next.. Hope is gone... Hope gave up on me and has pushed me away. Hope is almost inexistent, i was left...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I hate how disgusting this world is

    and I want to die. If you really open your eyes, you’ll see that the world will not change unless we do. But I can’t do it alone. But also, not everyone will be simultaneously up for it. I never believed in people because everyone just looks out for their own. Not for the...
    clawrist clawrist 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 19, 2014

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    scarlet763 scarlet763 18-21 2 Responses a week ago