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I Want to Die

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 2,412 People

    I'm not sure what I'm going to do.

    . I've worked so hard to pull myself together, to hide and stop my depressed thoughts, I did everything, I really felt like I was getting better. This one night contained the power to wreck that, and all I want is to let it all go. I just want everything to stop, to just go to...
    MaeveBrennan MaeveBrennan
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 6, 2015

    Think I might be checking out tonight.

    My panic attacks are getting to be too much. If I do, peace. Not gonna say I'll miss this though
    NoF7cksSeven NoF7cksSeven
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Dec 21, 2014

    I really am sick and tired of my life .

    I see no point in it . I feel stuck in hell all the time . I feel hopeless , scared , sad and miserable . I hate waking up in the morning . I can't have a good night sleep .
    deleted deleted
    7 Responses Mar 29, 2016

    because i feel as if i am not a good enough

    human at ,times and deserve nothing less then to die and pay for it #truths
    o3118152 o3118152
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 16, 2016

    I can't seem to do anything right I always ****

    up so now I'm going to leave this world goodbye everyone thank u for the memories
    Isaokomori22 Isaokomori22
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Mar 5, 2016

    I've Been Told the Definition of Insanity Is Doing the Same Thing Over and Over and Expecting a Different Result

    For a couple years now I have thought about committing suicide. I am 22 year old college student and I am tired. I am tired of being tired. I am so tired that I no longer want to give the effort for me to succeed in society. I am tired of having to prove myself even though I...
    Tenbatsu Tenbatsu
    22-25, M
    31 Responses Jul 11, 2008

    I've already decided to just take all the

    sleeping pills I have. There's 100 or so. It's the least painful way I can think of. I have no friends. My parents don't want me. The guy I am supposed to be seeing, he's decided I'm not worthy enough to spend time with or even return a damn text or call. I can't do any of this...
    maskedheart13 maskedheart13
    22-25, F
    11 Responses Mar 13, 2016
    Dadu18x Dadu18x
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 18, 2016

    I can't help feeling this way I've lost

    everything the girl I love is gone and now I'm alone forever....I don't want to exist anymore I'm sorry for those who care about me doubt any of u do tho
    Isaokomori22 Isaokomori22
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Mar 10, 2016

    Why bother living? No one loves me,

    no one thinks I'm attractive, no one notices me... I give up on life...
    deleted deleted
    12 Responses May 17, 2015

    I haven't been feeling too well ever

    since last month....and yesterday I haven't felt as low as I did.My life doesn't seem to be getting any better. I have a B.A degree in a major that I am not too confident in. I still live with my parents.I don't drive.I have no friends and my boyfriend lives in another city a...
    NeonGlowy NeonGlowy
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Mar 26, 2016

    i finally understand how horrible a person i am.

    i thought bad of myself before but now i see what kind of twisted thing i am. i thought i deserved love but i can see that all this time it was me who corrupted it. i needed it too much. drain the life out of people like a vampire. every morning when i get ready for work i...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Mar 17, 2016

    I have had nights where I wanted to take a gun

    to my head. I have had mornings where I have woken up and started crying because I did not want to live. I have lost the closest human being to me and had to watch them take their last breath. I have gotten my heart broken by a guy that I invested my heart and soul into. I have...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Mar 25, 2015

    The more you understand you're going to die one

    day the less you stress over life and it's pleasures .
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Apr 2, 2016

    My entire life, I've always felt like I wasn't

    good enough. Everyone I let near me ends up hurting me. I just want someone to reach out and at least let me know they care. But that's probably never going to happen. So, for now, I'll keep breathing and keep hope that maybe someday someone will care instead of just using me.
    NoF7cksSeven NoF7cksSeven
    18-21, F
    23 Responses Jan 2, 2015

    If I died right now I would actually be okay.

    it's like I want to go to let go of any responsibilities, I just want to ascend... I told my mom I wanted to kill my self when I'm 20, it scares me to think what actually might bring myself to feel that way.... what if I go though with it? My mind can be so clouded up sometimes...
    isgd isgd
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Jan 2, 2016

    i hate evey thing around me!

    !! . i tried to help ppl to grow but they betrayed me. which make me depressed, am living life like a complete loosser, alone like literally alone . left my homeland for work and now living alone . i am depressed. nobody needs me . i want to die
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Mar 13, 2016

    I wish I can die already,

    this life is horrible I'm sick of breathing and no one likes me or even cares about me and I don't have any friends, just let me die, then let's see if anyone actually cares
    decemberfairytales decemberfairytales
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Apr 3, 2015

    tittle says it all...

    fastest way possible
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Mar 5, 2016

    This has brought me down sooooo down.

    Worthless stupid repulsive unattractive sad lowlife scum is how I feel. I never want to see another morning again, EVER. So I say goodbye.
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Mar 30, 2016

    When I am gone from this world,

    let it be known that I fought till the end. Long past the point when I lost all hope. Long past the point where I was given up on. I kept trying, but I can't try any more. I lost this fight, in every sense of the word. No hope. No love. No future. Unwanted. Unneeded. Forgettable...
    themanoflegends themanoflegends
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 18, 2016

    I hate how disgusting this world is

    and I want to die. If you really open your eyes, you’ll see that the world will not change unless we do. But I can’t do it alone. But also, not everyone will be simultaneously up for it. I never believed in people because everyone just looks out for their own. Not for the...
    clawrist clawrist
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jun 19, 2014

    Yes And No

    When I look at my life and myself, I see that death is the most reasonable way for me. I'm really too stupid, useless and too... soft for this cruel world. So, I look at myself, then at this world and I'm... really terrified. There is NO way I could survive here... that's the...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Jul 13, 2013

    my anxiety caused by a coworker is

    so immense today, my hands are shaking. Tomorrow is my 24th. i want to die before that.
    BiFurZak BiFurZak
    22-25, M
    6 Responses Mar 8, 2016

    I just want to. I never thought about

    committing suicide, I will never kill myself, I just wanna die by natural causes, like I want my time to come asap. I feel that I'm done experiencing things. I have lived a good life, been happy a lot, been sad a lot, you know, the normal. But I have lost the desire to live or...
    deleted deleted
    7 Responses Jun 13, 2015

    This Might Help You

    There was a time in my life when the title of this group applied to me. There was a time when I would wake up and lay in bed for hours afterwards, just wishing I could return the bliss of slumber. There was a time when I would miss classes, meals, showers, and even interviews...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 29, 2013

    *vents* I just want to be like everyone else,

    I just want to be happy,I want a better life,I don't want to be alone anymore and by alone meaning not even having one friend,im not even happy with my own family its dysfunctional and I'm not close with anyone and they don't help or benefit me for the better,I wish I wasn't so...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Oct 29, 2015

    So my birthday is the one day of the year

    that I hope to actually enjoy myself. To have a good day for once and feel happy... But surprise, surprise, not even close... First, my parents totally disregarded having a birthday dinner for me... Instead, they decide it'd be easier and cheaper to celebrate it at someone else...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    22-25, M
    4 Responses May 3, 2015

    Am so tired....I have

    so many problems I don't even know where to start....I have no one to talk to about this....no one to help me with this pain....this pain that is eating away at my soul....a pain I have bottled up for 15 years...I can't even remember the source of this sadness....my dad is not...
    Joshxd117 Joshxd117
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Mar 3, 2016

    I wanna let my parents being proud of me .

    they be proud of me only if i get good result in exams and passe my bac exam with high degree like my sister did and be doctor like them . but iam too bad in school and im not doing no efforts or sacrifices to reach their goal . my father is spending lot of money in y private...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 4, 2016

    I just think it would be better

    if I ended it all. Last year I let myself go. I stopped looking after my health so I'm weak all the time. I can't see myself having a successful future. My family members are all unhappy because of me. A family member even told me that because of mostly me our house is a...
    rcmh171822 rcmh171822
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jun 14, 2015

    Its All I Want

    i find no joy in anything anymore depressed yes been that way for years but find that as i get older its getting worse and i just feel like giving up i cant work cause i cant sleep and if i do sleep i dont want to ever wake up it seems like everyone i talk to doesnt understand...
    whoooty whoooty
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Dec 20, 2012

    feeling hopeless n i just want 2 die Not like

    it matters anyways, no 1 cares.
    whatevr25 whatevr25
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 26, 2016

    When your face is as ugly

    as mine, no about of work will compensate for it. **** the people who say any guy can become attractive if they get in shape, dress well, smell nice, work on social skills, and engage in activities. I fully admit they might make an average guy become an attractive guy, but...
    FireMarshalBillBurns FireMarshalBillBurns
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 16, 2016

    Just got out of the hospital was there

    for 5 days. Only to come home and immediately want to kill myself cause my life's so ******. I can't even get my prescriptions cause they won't sell them to someone without insurance. My boyfriend who's supposed to love me screamed at me the whole way home cause I wanted to get...
    Bombshellbarbie Bombshellbarbie
    31-35, F
    10 Responses Dec 30, 2015

    A site that I have found

    that I might look into after EP is closed is http://www.supportgroups.com/ . It seems to have categories similar to this one. I may not join, but if people were looking for support in this area after EP, this might be an option.
    Myzery Myzery
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 11, 2016

    I just lost everything worth living for.

    Again. The one time I decided to live and fight and have faith, I end up losing everything. Life is a cruel joke. I'm done being its victim. There's nothing left to live for. I've lost everything. If there's anyone here who's in the Inland Empire of Southern California, I can...
    IAmDaenerysTargaryen IAmDaenerysTargaryen
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 20, 2016

    I said "I want to die" You said "You have to

    live. It would devastate me." I say "I am already devastated." You say "I have to go now, busy." You say "Call me anytime." Even though we know this is a lie. You have condemned me to life. A life you never participate in, but I still breath so your conscience is clear. I am...
    scoria scoria
    Jun 18, 2015

    i hate myself...i hate everything

    and everyone.... i couldnt reach my aim...everything is finished for me...im done with my life...i want to die...
    00roshana00 00roshana00
    22-25, F
    14 Responses Aug 2, 2014
    ExploreroftheUnknown ExploreroftheUnknown
    18-21, M
    8 Responses Mar 12, 2016

    Look at yourself. Stare in the mirror,

    You're falling apart but nobody cares. You cry in the shower While cutting some skin. I'm becoming more mentally ill I just want it too end. We had a party All I felt is sadness, Is everything my fault for being this "bad kid"?? I ate some cake and i'm ready to cry.. I ran...
    brok3ngirl brok3ngirl
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Apr 3, 2015

    I mean what is the point of living.

    .. all the betrayal, all the pain and suffering... we know the point of death... to go to a better place... a better place... but than again five finger death punch song (wrong side of heaven) is so true... only reason God let's me suffer is because I belong in hell. god is good...
    lostunit lostunit
    31-35, M
    7 Responses Mar 12, 2016
    SadCaliforniaDad SadCaliforniaDad
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Apr 11, 2016


    I have not been in this dark of a place in a really long time, I really can't remember the last time, where I sat in the dark room, and had these kind of thoughts. It has been a while since i had these thoughts, the only thing that stopped me last time, was a good friend of mine...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 1, 2012

    I don't know why I feel this way.

    I should be grateful and blessed to have what I have but I feel like none of it matters. I'm losing focus & reason to live. I'm not sure if it's the fact that I know I will never be loved or the fact that I will never look like most of the women on earth, beautiful.... I hate...
    Halfmonster95 Halfmonster95
    18-21, F
    11 Responses Feb 15, 2016

    I didn't really want to It just happened Its a

    slow process That of which Remove the life from you And I feel every slice of death I feel every one How many more? ...until I'm done.
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter
    5 Responses Aug 24, 2015

    I just don't want to wake up tomorrow.

    This world isn't meant for me. Really life or online.
    Myzery Myzery
    31-35, F
    11 Responses Apr 11, 2016
    randomkjabcaijbiaj randomkjabcaijbiaj
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Mar 27, 2016

    I have tried to find inspiration.

    ..I have tried to motivate myself...I have tried to better myself...but each time I try something I mess up and things gets worse...I fell in love once but long story short she was taken from me..she died in an accident and everyday that goes by I wish that I was the one that...
    Joshxd117 Joshxd117
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Mar 3, 2016

    Five more minutes. Do I try again?

    Or wake him up? Or call someone?....
    twistedxalice twistedxalice
    22-25, F
    Mar 17, 2016
    ladycatlyn ladycatlyn
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Mar 8, 2016

    I believe in survival of the fittest

    and I am not the fittest. I believe my family is a failed branch of humanity, were filled with mental illness and addiction. I hate I have come from this and that I experience mental illness and am most likely to deal with addiction. I don't get the point of living if I'm just a...
    pc1015 pc1015
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 9, 2016

    I don't want to kill myself,

    I just want to die. I feel so stupid...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 19, 2014

    Nothing in life brings me joy anymore

    and I can't see a future for myself, I just really want to die but I don't want to be so dramatic as to take my own life and leave family upset and have to clean up the mess. I wish I could just go to sleep and not wake up
    diggerjayne diggerjayne
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jun 16, 2015

    I just don't want to exist anymore.

    I honestly wish someone would kill me or id simply drop dead randomly or fall asleep and never wake up. Life is pointless.
    deleted deleted
    10 Responses Sep 6, 2015

    feeling hopeless and desperate.

    . I have nothing to lose now.. what is the best way to end my life?
    want2diepeacefully want2diepeacefully
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 7, 2016
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