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I Want to Die

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 2,225 People

    I'm a mess! I suck at everything I'm useless!

    Even at school I'm horrible! People often compliment me but nobody pays attention to me! Guys just want to use me! I just to die and be done with everything why was I born? I'm not happy! I been upset for 5 years...
    lisetterod18 lisetterod18 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    when i was growing up i was nice to people

    but they all hated me and abused me. some said u can't just be nice u have to do things so i tried to do things with people, sports or clubs or just activities but i wasn't perfect at once and they all yelled at me and told me i'm worthless. now i don't do things and i'm not...
    Amioknow Amioknow 36-40, M 5 Responses Jul 3

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    I'm so frustrated I just want to die.

    I hate myself so much. I can't do anything right. I keep messing everything up....
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 9

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    I know to die is the last step anyone takes.

    Wen nothing seems right or working endling life seems to be an option. I know that nothing will change in my life. Nothing will ever be right. I request your help to help me find a good method to end my life with less pain. please dont respond like think again and all.
    acoolstud99 acoolstud99 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am so embarrassed at myself.

    All I want is real love. All I want is to be happy. I know nothing happens over night but I can't wait for my cheating boyfriend forever. He is a snake charmer and a damn good more and does more sketchy **** every day.. Told me he had a fb with a different name and now two phone...
    SecretSpirit SecretSpirit 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    in a way, i already am.

    i have nothing left. i have given out all of myself that i had. I gave and i gave, but no one gave back, not in the way i needed at least. Now i am just an empty emotionless shell. i don't feel anymore. my soul is already dead, now its just a matter of waiting for its vessel to...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 7

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    Today is the day I decided to do it

    so “I’m going to put myself to sleep now for a bit longer than usual. Call the time eternity. Goodbye.
    ROSE197 ROSE197 56-60, F 3 Responses Aug 18

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    Someone please stop this pain.

    . Right now id rather be ******* dead.. I don't want to struggle to breathe anymore.. I'm done, I'm over it... I give up.... But I need to be strong to prove a stupid person wrong... I'm so lost - upset - angry - hurt - alone - miserable... God what I'd do to find something to...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I cannot stop thinking about my ex bf:( I love

    him so dam much... he doesn't love me. I cannot breath without him... I just want this all to end
    LoV3KiLlSsLoWLy LoV3KiLlSsLoWLy 56-60, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I can't do it anymore everyday I find out I am

    a bigger piece of **** and I find out more ways I have hurt everyone I love I just want to drink a gallon of bleach I am such a terrible person I don't deserve anyone in my life especially her she is so bueatiful and Amazing and the best thing to ever happen but I know she...
    thatonehighguy thatonehighguy 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 19

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    Im so tired of my life.

    . Its a continuous pain and suffering.. Everyone who enters my life it will all make u feel good temporarily and will leave u an indescribable pain all the time.. They said experience makes u strong but honestly it breaks me my humanity till the only left is pain and wanting to...
    YHAS YHAS 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    Its All I Want

    i find no joy in anything anymore depressed yes been that way for years but find that as i get older its getting worse and i just feel like giving up i cant work cause i cant sleep and if i do sleep i dont want to ever wake up it seems like everyone i talk to doesnt understand...
    whoooty whoooty 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 20, 2012

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    i love my inside . but i just don't like being

    human id rather be a star or just a fish maybe
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 11, 2014

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    jcain739 jcain739 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    I've Been Told the Definition of Insanity Is Doing the Same Thing Over and Over and Expecting a Different Result

    For a couple years now I have thought about committing suicide. I am 22 year old college student and I am tired. I am tired of being tired. I am so tired that I no longer want to give the effort for me to succeed in society. I am tired of having to prove myself even though I...
    Tenbatsu Tenbatsu 22-25, M 30 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    I wish I can die already,

    this life is horrible I'm sick of breathing and no one likes me or even cares about me and I don't have any friends, just let me die, then let's see if anyone actually cares
    decemberfairytales decemberfairytales 26-30, F 6 Responses Apr 3

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    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Jun 19

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    :/

    I have not been in this dark of a place in a really long time, I really can't remember the last time, where I sat in the dark room, and had these kind of thoughts. It has been a while since i had these thoughts, the only thing that stopped me last time, was a good friend of mine...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 1, 2012

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    My entire life, I've always felt like I wasn't

    good enough. Everyone I let near me ends up hurting me. I just want someone to reach out and at least let me know they care. But that's probably never going to happen. So, for now, I'll keep breathing and keep hope that maybe someday someone will care instead of just using me.
    NoF7cksSeven NoF7cksSeven 16-17, F 26 Responses Jan 2

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    I just think it would be better

    if I ended it all. Last year I let myself go. I stopped looking after my health so I'm weak all the time. I can't see myself having a successful future. My family members are all unhappy because of me. A family member even told me that because of mostly me our house is a...
    rcmh171822 rcmh171822 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 14

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    I don't want to kill myself,

    I just want to die. I feel so stupid...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    Disclaimer, this is me opening up a bit,

    and I don't want to waste your time or have you read this and you end up having no interest, so in advance I apologize for my big vent I'm about to go on. So, I wish there was some way where it was easy to know generally what to do and all you had to do was put in some good...
    Vespion437 Vespion437 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 13

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    I'm falling apart and I can feel myself slowly

    losing everything I worked so hard to get and I honestly just want to "accidentally" get hit by a train. I can't take breathing anymore it's killing me inside and I just can't ******* take it. I want to die. I want to stop this ******* twisted game of life and stop being this...
    rawr0 rawr0 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    I set a date. I am tired of life.

    I am sick of it so I am going to end it. My last attempt didn't go as planned but I know where they keep the guns. I'll be free from this world soon.
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Every day. Worse and worse.

    I could get in my car and drive anywhere and disappear. I don't know what to do anymore. There's absolutely no one to talk to ...
    violetskynoise violetskynoise 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Please let me die now.

    .. I feel at a lower worth than dirt... I feel useless and worthless and invisible... I can't care anymore... I'm so over life and I give up... I'm ready to go...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 1, 2014

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    Damn. No matter how many of These ****** pills

    I take im still awake. Please can I just go to sleep for a very long time. Maybe when I wake up. All my issues and problems will be gone. Ha. Only in my dreams will that ever happen.
    Robin1226 Robin1226 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    9am and I'm alone as always.

    No one to talk to, nothing to hold onto. Swept away in a sea of suicidal thoughts and I don't know how to stop them anymore. How can you convince yourself to survive when you can't even give yourself a reason anymore.
    FindingNirvana420 FindingNirvana420 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 19

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    I said "I want to die" You said "You have to

    live. It would devastate me." I say "I am already devastated." You say "I have to go now, busy." You say "Call me anytime." Even though we know this is a lie. You have condemned me to life. A life you never participate in, but I still breath so your conscience is clear. I am...
    scoria scoria 22-25 Jun 18

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    I want to die, but I'm not suicidal.

    I'm just...curious. I want to know what happens after all this. I want answers to my questions and I feel as though I'm not going to be able to get any answers while I'm alive, at least not physically alive. I crave REAL knowledge and REAL truths, that's the kind of soul I...
    StrawHatWanderer StrawHatWanderer 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 12

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    I wish I could die. I hurt the girls of my

    dreams. I will never find someone like her again. I feel like we are growing apart. she loves me still but I know she no longer trust me. I feel like crap and every day I hurt and I wish I never did what I did. all I do is mess up and this is the worse thing I could have done...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Aug 15

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    I'm wondering how many people on ep want to die?

    I scroll down the main page and about every 1 out of 7/8 say I want to die or hate life. Better yet someone may post a story about dying and then they will say me too! I usually read all the stories and emphasize and think what's their reason for wanting to die. I wonder do...
    toniyl toniyl 36-40, F 6 Responses Feb 16

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    Everything is complicated.

    I am bossed around by everyone. And get blamed for everything. Not one person sees any thing good that I do ever. No one sees me they see someone to treat as a slave and someone to put down .
    jcain739 jcain739 36-40, F Aug 13

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    I didn't really want to It just happened Its a

    slow process That of which Remove the life from you And I feel every slice of death I feel every one How many more? ...until I'm done.
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter 41-45, F 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    Just now I realised, I don't want to die.

    In fact, I fear death - though I always said I didn't. I realised I just want to be happy. That's all
    EmptySmokeClouds EmptySmokeClouds 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 17, 2014

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    Involuntary commitment.

    Thanks. No more 'help'. When the pain becomes worst than death I will make sure to find a foolproof method. I will never trust a doctor, therapist, or social worker again.
    scoria scoria 22-25 1 Response 6 days ago

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    please note I am not suicidal

    and this is an occasional feeling. but I believe there are people who want to die precisely because they don't. there is a pain in life in knowing you are not important (ie. in the grand scheme of things).
    exliontamer exliontamer 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I just hate my life. I can't do anything right.

    I ******* want to die. I ******* hate living this stupid life. I'm a waste. I'm pathetic and I'm ******* broken. Why the **** am I cursed with this.
    randomkjabcaijbiaj randomkjabcaijbiaj 18-21, M 5 Responses Aug 18

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    I just want to. I never thought about

    committing suicide, I will never kill myself, I just wanna die by natural causes, like I want my time to come asap. I feel that I'm done experiencing things. I have lived a good life, been happy a lot, been sad a lot, you know, the normal. But I have lost the desire to live or...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Jun 13

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    I know how to do it but I'm just too afraid to

    do it. I just wish I could be more dumb.
    8slowlyFading8 8slowlyFading8 18-21 1 Response Aug 11

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    I have lived my life.

    My life had some good sides and many, many bad ones. Now I am sick of this life. I hope that my life will have very soon an end.
    Loretta78 Loretta78 36-40, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I just want to die. I'm tired of life

    and wish I could kill myself. I just cant bring myself to doing it. It's the others in my life that keep me alive. It works most the time but the thoughts of dying never leave. At times I wish I could fix what broke inside of me that drove me here but it's not possible. I'm...
    Anderson6591 Anderson6591 31-35, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm not sure what I'm going to do.

    . I've worked so hard to pull myself together, to hide and stop my depressed thoughts, I did everything, I really felt like I was getting better. This one night contained the power to wreck that, and all I want is to let it all go. I just want everything to stop, to just go to...
    MaeveBrennan MaeveBrennan 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6

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    Think I might be checking out tonight.

    My panic attacks are getting to be too much. If I do, peace. Not gonna say I'll miss this though
    NoF7cksSeven NoF7cksSeven 16-17, F 6 Responses Dec 21, 2014

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    Look at yourself. Stare in the mirror,

    You're falling apart but nobody cares. You cry in the shower While cutting some skin. I'm becoming more mentally ill I just want it too end. We had a party All I felt is sadness, Is everything my fault for being this "bad kid"?? I ate some cake and i'm ready to cry.. I ran...
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