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I Want to Die

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 2,186 People

    Okay - I don't want to BE dead.

    I just see life, as humans know it, as a challenge to be overcome. Or like work to be finished. I believe I will always feel this way, and I will be relieved when I am on my deathbed.
    MorningStars MorningStars 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 22

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    i love my inside . but i just don't like being

    human id rather be a star or just a fish maybe
    RoobieCatenis RoobieCatenis 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 11, 2014

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    My best friend dumped me.

    Everyone that use to be the candles in my life to keep me alive are gone now. Last night, my mother in one of her moods screamed at me I'm a big disappointment. The guy I was seeing I started to have feelings for, well it turned out he desired nothing but sex from me. I feel...
    CharmedAmour CharmedAmour 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    Its All I Want

    i find no joy in anything anymore depressed yes been that way for years but find that as i get older its getting worse and i just feel like giving up i cant work cause i cant sleep and if i do sleep i dont want to ever wake up it seems like everyone i talk to doesnt understand...
    whoooty whoooty 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 20, 2012

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    If you haven't heard from me (no new

    stories/confessions/log ins) in more than 10 months, I'm deceased.
    TheHogwartzJanitor TheHogwartzJanitor 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I honestly hope I die at a young age.

    And by young, I mean as in right now. I don't want to live with this constant pain anymore.
    nathanieljlaw nathanieljlaw 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 22

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    I said "I want to die" You said "You have to

    live. It would devastate me." I say "I am already devastated." You say "I have to go now, busy." You say "Call me anytime." Even though we know this is a lie. You have condemned me to life. A life you never participate in, but I still breath so your conscience is clear. I am...
    scoria scoria 22-25 1 Response Jun 18

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    The urge is so great.

    I want to go to sleep and never wake up again. I don't want to be me. This person who has this life that I have. I don't want to be a part of the bad memories for anyone. I am so broken.
    Whatinthellwasithinking Whatinthellwasithinking 36-40, F 4 Responses Jul 26

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    I don't expect anyone to care.

    This is my last post. My real life and my online life are equally as lonely. My girlfriend left me a year ago. All I have now is a cat. I'm giving him to the neighbors down the street later today. After I'm going to walk out into the woods for as long as I can. I'm going to get...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 26

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    Young. I really do. Aging scares the ****

    outta me. I know, stop shaking your head! It's supposed to. Hear me out... I don't want to miss out on the world and lives of people I love. I'm too young to think my future will for sure be a certain way. I'm 21. In a year or so, I'll (hopefully) be done with school. Then I...
    Storiesnotforthefaintofheart Storiesnotforthefaintofheart 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Im looking for a way to die painlessly i dont

    want to be talked out of it im not seeking sympathy just an easy way out thank you to anyone who will aid me in this strange request .
    Davidjj72 Davidjj72 41-45 3 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    Sometimes I feel like I'm not worth anything.

    That if I died no one would care. I hate thinking about dying because I have once before, but I can't help it. I remember it being so peaceful and I didn't care about anything anymore. But I'm scared that it was a dream and that it didn't really happen. That dying is horrible. I...
    SexyAngelBitches SexyAngelBitches 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 29

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    without her my world is already dead.

    dear god help me win her back
    itsyaboyolson itsyaboyolson 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    Look at yourself. Stare in the mirror,

    You're falling apart but nobody cares. You cry in the shower While cutting some skin. I'm becoming more mentally ill I just want it too end. We had a party All I felt is sadness, Is everything my fault for being this "bad kid"?? I ate some cake and i'm ready to cry.. I ran...
    brok3ngirl brok3ngirl 22-25, F 7 Responses Apr 3

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    i hate myself...i hate everything

    and everyone.... i couldnt reach my aim...everything is finished for me...im done with my life...i want to die...
    00roshana00 00roshana00 22-25, F 17 Responses Aug 2, 2014

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    I'm not sure what I'm going to do.

    . I've worked so hard to pull myself together, to hide and stop my depressed thoughts, I did everything, I really felt like I was getting better. This one night contained the power to wreck that, and all I want is to let it all go. I just want everything to stop, to just go to...
    MaeveBrennan MaeveBrennan 18-21, F 3 Responses May 6

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    i hate life so much. i just truely want to die.

    i cant take all this pain, i just dont know what to do anymore. dont tell me things will get better because i promise, they wont. i hate how i look, i just want to hide away. my appearance kills me inside. i hate how i always get f*cked over in life. i hate how anyone i ever...
    bringthesirens bringthesirens 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    Please let me die now.

    .. I feel at a lower worth than dirt... I feel useless and worthless and invisible... I can't care anymore... I'm so over life and I give up... I'm ready to go...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 1, 2014

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    I've Been Told the Definition of Insanity Is Doing the Same Thing Over and Over and Expecting a Different Result

    For a couple years now I have thought about committing suicide. I am 22 year old college student and I am tired. I am tired of being tired. I am so tired that I no longer want to give the effort for me to succeed in society. I am tired of having to prove myself even though I...
    Tenbatsu Tenbatsu 22-25, M 30 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    Everyday I feel like I can't take this.

    Everyday I take this. I don't want it. I do it for the few people who want me to. I live. But I don't want this. I don't.
    NoBullsht NoBullsht 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    I'm in this awkward stage

    where i suicide is no where near appealing, cause I don't care enough to do it, but if someone had me at gun point, I'd probably thank them.
    geminixleo geminixleo 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I just think it would be better

    if I ended it all. Last year I let myself go. I stopped looking after my health so I'm weak all the time. I can't see myself having a successful future. My family members are all unhappy because of me. A family member even told me that because of mostly me our house is a...
    rcmh171822 rcmh171822 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 14

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    This Might Help You

    There was a time in my life when the title of this group applied to me. There was a time when I would wake up and lay in bed for hours afterwards, just wishing I could return the bliss of slumber. There was a time when I would miss classes, meals, showers, and even interviews...
    GiantKaiju GiantKaiju 22-25, M 3 Responses Mar 29, 2013

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    in a way, i already am.

    i have nothing left. i have given out all of myself that i had. I gave and i gave, but no one gave back, not in the way i needed at least. Now i am just an empty emotionless shell. i don't feel anymore. my soul is already dead, now its just a matter of waiting for its vessel to...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 7

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    Baliwrinako Baliwrinako 36-40 1 Response Jul 25

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    I'm so frustrated I just want to die.

    I hate myself so much. I can't do anything right. I keep messing everything up....
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 4 Responses Jul 9

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    hopetodie hopetodie 51-55, M 4 days ago

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    20 years of living on this crap planet,

    I realise no one gives a sh*t about me. I just want to die whether its natural or unnatural, at least I'd be too dead to even care about how I died. Please just someone kill me now!! Life, love, friendships all of it is all I wanted but I keep getting pushed away or beaten up.
    JamesAnthonyCarter1994 JamesAnthonyCarter1994 18-21, M 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I want to die already.

    I am not happy anymore. I can't be happy. I can't even deceive myself that I am happy. Every day, I cry but no one can understand. I don't want to go to work anymore. I don't want to see anyone. I don't want to go out from my room. I am so down because I don't even have anyone...
    Baliwrinako Baliwrinako 36-40 1 Response Jul 25

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    I'm so anxious to die.

    I can't wait to finally to be free from pain worries and all other problems in this life. I can just imagine the eternal peace . I will be enjoying my eternal death forever. Goodbye everybody It's time for me to die and finally to be resting in peace forever.
    ROSE197 ROSE197 56-60, F 3 Responses Jul 22

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    when i was growing up i was nice to people

    but they all hated me and abused me. some said u can't just be nice u have to do things so i tried to do things with people, sports or clubs or just activities but i wasn't perfect at once and they all yelled at me and told me i'm worthless. now i don't do things and i'm not...
    Amioknow Amioknow 36-40, M 5 Responses Jul 3

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    I am really tired, I don't see any option

    anymore to continue my life. I always try to think logically, I lost everything and all my opportunities. It's not being depressed or emotional that leads me this way, I am just fighting for a chance to start my life but more I try more I get disappointed. I just wanna die
    AshTaylor AshTaylor 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I know it is stupid to want to die,

    I am told that by alot of people, and im rather annoyed when others say, dont say that or awee sweetheart whats wrong? I just moved back into a very bad place, I have this guy I like who tries to avoid me when I tell him I love him, but its okay for him to say he loves me. When...
    Kailika Kailika 22-25 Jul 26

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    I often feel so suicidâl

    and lonely Im a child abuse survivor :'( i feel so lonely unloved and Life seem to énd for me
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 26

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    You know what. The thought of suicide never

    really leaves ones mind. No matter how busy I keep myself. It's always in the back of my mind. Tonight has been hard. I've been fighting my thoughts for hours. It's crazy that my own mind is destroying me. And there is nothing anyone can do to help. Not even myself...
    Robin1226 Robin1226 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    I just want to. I never thought about

    committing suicide, I will never kill myself, I just wanna die by natural causes, like I want my time to come asap. I feel that I'm done experiencing things. I have lived a good life, been happy a lot, been sad a lot, you know, the normal. But I have lost the desire to live or...
    TheOneWhoEscaped TheOneWhoEscaped 18-21, F 11 Responses Jun 13

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    I fantasize about having car crashes,

    stray bullets, freak accidents: blood pumping out fast, emptying me quickly, and I can finally smile a big smile, and l can laugh loudly in relief as the end rushes up and everything stops forever.
    scoria scoria 22-25 1 Response 5 days ago

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    The only reason I have remained alive

    for the last 10 months is because I don't want to hurt people. I am, by definition, solely living for the sake of others.
    scoria scoria 22-25 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I hate how disgusting this world is

    and I want to die. If you really open your eyes, you’ll see that the world will not change unless we do. But I can’t do it alone. But also, not everyone will be simultaneously up for it. I never believed in people because everyone just looks out for their own. Not for the...
    clawrist clawrist 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 19, 2014

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    My entire life, I've always felt like I wasn't

    good enough. Everyone I let near me ends up hurting me. I just want someone to reach out and at least let me know they care. But that's probably never going to happen. So, for now, I'll keep breathing and keep hope that maybe someday someone will care instead of just using me.
    NoF7cksSeven NoF7cksSeven 16-17, F 26 Responses Jan 2

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    right now, I'm just wanting to die,

    disappear, never be seen again. I'm so exhausted. i hate feeling this way.... :(
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    So my birthday is the one day of the year

    that I hope to actually enjoy myself. To have a good day for once and feel happy... But surprise, surprise, not even close... First, my parents totally disregarded having a birthday dinner for me... Instead, they decide it'd be easier and cheaper to celebrate it at someone else...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 4 Responses May 3

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    I just want to get it over with already.

    ..I hate my life and no one likes me or even wants to be around me. Random people I don't know are rude to me people I do know are rude to me...I just want it to end
    MaryAlias MaryAlias 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 22

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    I have had nights where I wanted to take a gun

    to my head. I have had mornings where I have woken up and started crying because I did not want to live. I have lost the closest human being to me and had to watch them take their last breath. I have gotten my heart broken by a guy that I invested my heart and soul into. I have...
    coolestdweebyahknow coolestdweebyahknow 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    I don't want to kill myself,

    I just want to die. I feel so stupid...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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