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I Want to Die

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    I've asked for help from friends

    and family, after I've tried twice to kill myself all I want is the pain to stop, being around people doesn't help, I just want to be on my own and left to die
    Sid8481 Sid8481 31-35, F 5 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    This is the end. I want to die.

    It's been 10 years since I have took a normal breath due to anxiety. Anxiety ruined my life and is taking over my life. I can't breathe at all. And when I do it takes so much effort it's killing me slowly. I have nothing left to live for honestly if I can't breath like a normal...
    Abdulaziz94 Abdulaziz94 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    I really want to die .

    . but i am too afraid to do this ... i know it would not solve problems.. but it will end them completely .. but its for me because i know my curse can't be cured .. i won't recommend this to anyone ... but for me i know i can't ever live the way i want to ..... may be a hope may...
    vishar vishar 18-21, M 4 Responses May 9

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    I know that there are

    so many out there who are worst off theb me, who have a lot more **** going on, & I know its stupid to want to die when so many are wishing/hoping for just one more day, but its the truth. I want to die. I want to go to sleep and never wake up. I wannt to have the courage to...
    LostAriel LostAriel 22-25, F Jul 3

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    "Love Is The Answer"

    There are times, when I really feel like death would be a luxury, an end to the constant inner turmoil and suffering, but at times like this morning, when my room was spinning out of control, and I could only stagger to walk, I DID NOT WANT TO DIE. This makes me realize that when...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 3 Responses Feb 19, 2012

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    I'm just so tired. I struggle with depression

    and anger every day. Everyone keeps telling me to be happy, like it's just that easy. It's not like I don't want to get better, I do try. I only have/had two friends. My boyfriend just left me for school and he doesn't want to try to continue the relationship. My best friend no...
    Isfahel Isfahel 22-25, F Jun 5

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    I was born in canada.

    When i was 11 my dad died. And my mommoved us to the states. Since then my mom cared more about men then her kids. My second stepdad used to beat and raped me almost everyday from the age of 12-15yr old. I told my mombut she said I deserved it.I finally ran away and at 16 my...
    Briar17 Briar17 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 20

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    nothing is going good to me ,

    no body treat's me the way i treat people , everything is like a big fat lie to me right now , i'm so surprised by the people around me , i hate my self for being like that ,and i hate my life too
    splash32 splash32 18-21, M 1 Response May 7

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    I don't know why. Nothing bad happened today.

    Nothing good happened but still. I've been arguing with my mind so much lately. It makes me think things, when I close my eyes I can see them and I know they aren't real but they hurt like it's really happening. I have full conversations with myself as to whether or not I should...
    DarknessWolf DarknessWolf 22-25, M May 18

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    Who Cares Out There Still?

    No one even cares to comment about ANYTHING is this group.  Do we all just die before we even get a chance to help one and other? I just can't believe there isn't any goodwill in humanity left.  Who out there still cares?
    Void Void 22-25 18 Responses Oct 17, 2008

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    I hate how disgusting this world is

    and I want to die. If you really open your eyes, you’ll see that the world will not change unless we do. But I can’t do it alone. But also, not everyone will be simultaneously up for it. I never believed in people because everyone just looks out for their own. Not for the...
    clawrist clawrist 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 19

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    elixirofsapphire elixirofsapphire 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    Yes And No

    When I look at my life and myself, I see that death is the most reasonable way for me. I'm really too stupid, useless and too... soft for this cruel world. So, I look at myself, then at this world and I'm... really terrified. There is NO way I could survive here... that's the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jul 13, 2013

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    And I know how I'd like to go.

    .. I want to do a skydiving suicide bomb. Picture it- jumping, plummeting towards the earth, head first, wearing a hurt jacket, and explode like a firework... I wanted to go like el macho from despicable me 2 but I couldn't afford it... X) I want to die... But I'm going out with...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M 3 Responses May 10

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    No One Cares

    no body would care if i died and i dont think anyone cares about me now. everyone seems to be going against me lately and its making me to the point that i dont wont to live. i got over suicide before but now i think i want to start back doing it. i have no live or future.
    AnikiMomo AnikiMomo 18-21 18 Responses Jun 1, 2007

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    Did You Come Here To Die? No, I Came Here Yester-Die.

    So goes the old joke. I'm just trying to deflect from the emptiness and despair I feel inside. For those of you sufficiently worried about me, thank you for your concern. I don't suppose I'll do anything about it, haven't got whatever it takes to do it for some reason (some...
    mizzen123 mizzen123 46-50, M 7 Responses May 19, 2013

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    Goodbye!

    I am leaving this group! I will Still comment on the stories here, since I am subsrcibed to this group, but I no longer am going to be a member of this group, because I don't want to die. I know that I want to live. And by leaving this group, I can see more clearly...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Dec 9, 2009

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    Losing My Best Friend

    I was 19 and my best friend was a girl called Angela. We did everything together and one day I noticed she was acting really strange. I asked her and she said she was fine. I let it go and forgot about it. Next day at collage I seen her walk around a corner with a couple of girl...
    xxScarletxxx xxScarletxxx 18-21 3 Responses Oct 17, 2013

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    I guess this all started 3 months ago.

    My boyfriend of 5 years and I broke up. More like I broke up with him. He had already dumped 3 times and 1 of those times was for another woman that was "less trouble". I left him because I couldn't take the darkness anymore, I tried to help him and I did everything I could but...
    SilencedSongbird SilencedSongbird 18-21, F 2 Responses May 3

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    Its All I Want

    i find no joy in anything anymore depressed yes been that way for years but find that as i get older its getting worse and i just feel like giving up i cant work cause i cant sleep and if i do sleep i dont want to ever wake up it seems like everyone i talk to doesnt understand...
    whoooty whoooty 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 20, 2012

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    I'm so tired of being sick

    and being a burden. I have been fighting for a long time, and I haven't got a single ounce of fight left. I have been having an anxiety / panic attack for well over 4 days. I can't take it anymore. And I am so tired of feeling all alone...
    Linneke Linneke 41-45, F 3 Responses May 18

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    I Really Want To Go

    Away from this place I hate being alive . I hate being me I hate the person I am Its never enough, My best is never good enough theres nothing in this world for me to do It doesnt make a difference if I'm here or not
    bleu2ooth bleu2ooth 26-30, F 4 Responses May 26, 2011

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    But I don't have the guts.

    I have been depressed since before I can remember, I was in nappies for longer than a kid should be ... obviously something was wrong from an early age. One day I wet the bed and my parents caught me again ... Instead of being parents and helping me or whatever my problem was...
    WritingFromFay WritingFromFay 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm Done

    I am disabled. I have been since birth. i was in college had a sports career wheelchair basketball a wife carrying a child and a 3.5 gpa i lost it all. i witnessed my friends get murdered my wife fell because she was trying to keep me from falling and lost our child we are no...
    dman091 dman091 18-21, M 21 Responses May 14, 2011

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    This Might Help You

    There was a time in my life when the title of this group applied to me. There was a time when I would wake up and lay in bed for hours afterwards, just wishing I could return the bliss of slumber. There was a time when I would miss classes, meals, showers, and even interviews...
    GiantKaiju GiantKaiju 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 29, 2013

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    :/

    I have not been in this dark of a place in a really long time, I really can't remember the last time, where I sat in the dark room, and had these kind of thoughts. It has been a while since i had these thoughts, the only thing that stopped me last time, was a good friend of mine...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 1, 2012

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    Not a Matter of If, So Much As When...

    I came to EP to look for those like me.  I started a group called 'I am feeling suicidal' but then found this group. I have decided to end my life, I only have to wait for the oprotune moment.  After 11 years of wanting to end it all, I have finally decided I'm going...
    Void Void 22-25 30 Responses Sep 30, 2008

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    Is that too much to ask?

    C'mon high powers that be, you kill thousands of people a day. Just do that to me and we'll be good.
    ickarustickled ickarustickled 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 18

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    Deluhi

    Nothing is getting better. In fact, it's spiraling out of control and getting worse. I can't help anyone or myself. I'm useless and can't do anything that has a purpose. Pain is brought upon others by my continuation of life and I can't take it anymore.
    Toukos Toukos 18-21 3 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    i want to give up. they say things will get

    better but they never do. i've had 31 years of pain, abuse, manipulation, and being lied to. i've given everything i have in every relationship(family, friends, partner) just to be used and lied to. they treat me horribly only to tell me they aren't. they want me to believer...
    drag0nf1y1 drag0nf1y1 26-30, F 5 Responses Dec 18, 2013

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    The only reason Im still alive

    after an 9 year battle with depression/anxiety/suicidal thoughts is because I don't want to put my loved ones through my loss. Unlike a lot of people with depression, I don't feel alone, I have the most amazig family/friends but my depression is the monster inside. I feel...
    missmichigan21 missmichigan21 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    steff77 steff77 31-35, F 6 Responses May 11

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    ive come to a point in my life

    where i sit there and wonder what ive done with my life i cant beleive the doctors just keep giving me more pills im on 100mg of anti depressants and im sick having to take pills to make people feel better about being around me to calm me down im sick to death this crap
    19mac91 19mac91 22-25 May 24

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    I’m tired of barely holding my head above the

    water. I just want to give in - let it consume me. Let it end me. I have no will to fight anymore. My demons have won. I’ve just about completely lost the ability to care about anything. There’s nothing I enjoy doing. Few people I care about. I just want to stay in bed all...
    Enveleyna Enveleyna 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2013

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    my friend said im brave.

    i wish im brave enough to take my life
    kellythebitch kellythebitch 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 10

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    I just can't take this anymore.

    Everything is getting to me. Normally I can handle it but lately I can't... All the fees at my college just keep going up and up and up (they've nearly tripled) and my grandmother is threatening to put me out since I accepted the Pell grant. I can't pay +$7,000 a semester to sit...
    WildFlowerChild19 WildFlowerChild19 18-21, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I've Been Told the Definition of Insanity Is Doing the Same Thing Over and Over and Expecting a Different Result

    For a couple years now I have thought about committing suicide. I am 22 year old college student and I am tired. I am tired of being tired. I am so tired that I no longer want to give the effort for me to succeed in society. I am tired of having to prove myself even though I...
    Tenbatsu Tenbatsu 22-25, M 30 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    Yeah I Am Here....

    I am here. I am in this groupd. I joined a while ago, but I never wrote the story. Tonight I can write a story to this group, because its how I am feeling. I just want to die. Escape from all this pain and suffering. Escape it all, and not have to feel this pain. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 5, 2009

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    Not really, but these headaches

    and stomachaches are driving me to the edge.
    Guuuu Guuuu 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    Sometimes

    I've seen this happen in other peoples lives.. now its happening in mine....:blink:
    Cosreal Cosreal 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    I Wish I Could

    I am afraid of the pain. I know it shouldn't be long, but what if something goes wrong? How do you stop what you started? I want to find the courage, and I look for it every day. It is all becoming too much to handle.
    antina9056 antina9056 36-40, F 5 Responses Feb 11, 2013

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    well i've been wanting this

    for a long long time now and i think it's time..
    steff77 steff77 31-35, F 8 Responses Apr 25

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    Not very many people know this,

    but I am depressed. I tend to keep it hidden from everyone around me very well. People will tell you that I'm always so positive and upbeat or that I'm really goofy and always smiling. The truth is though, I hate myself. I'm not really proud of any of my accomplishments or the...
    maulerrr maulerrr 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 27

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    Too Lonley For Too Long

    I am 38 years old I have never been married, never had sex, its been many years since I have ever felt love.  Today I burried my Grandfather, as I was at the funeral I looked around at my brother's, Sister's and cusions at their wives, children and realized how lonley I...
    LonelyVirgin LonelyVirgin 36-40, M 9 Responses Nov 20, 2007

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    I have never wanted death more

    than I want it now. If God DOES exist, he has a funny way of showing it. I have nothing to live for anymore. Everybody is starting to hate me and nobody respects me or my opinions or anything. I'm done. I have almost a full bottle of xanax and I'm seriously thinking about taking...
    drummergrl06 drummergrl06 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 22

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    Death Elludes Me

    Ive wanted to die since i was 16. At 16, i decided to take it into my own hands and i overdosed on painkillers. i remember the tingling sensation in my body as i drifted off to sleep, finally peace. And then i remember waking up in a hospital room, my arm connected to an iv. The...
    mzitaly mzitaly 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 16, 2013

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    hey all ! ... this is important

    and big. can i have a small time of yours, just little.. few minutes.. i sign up here around a year back to share my story with people and i did. i expected people will help me out from my heart broken stage and yes to maximum extend people helped, thanks a lot... then i began...
    heartless2 heartless2 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    34, male, no kids, single,

    straight, smoke, no drugs or alcohol. Never medicated. I'm fairly decent looking. I'm the same gender I was born. There's nothing about my physical self that would prevent me from living a full and successful life. I can hold a job. I'm a very much competent person. My problems...
    Dudustain Dudustain 31-35, M 3 Responses Jun 4

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    The feeling I am feeling at the pres time.

    I just want to die. though I have no desire in killing my self. Just lot of ****** up decisions that apparently hurting the ones I love big time. I just wanna die cause i am sick of hurting people. I am sick of feeling like i am the bad one. seam I love you and believe me I am...
    Ali37sloyalbrattyangel Ali37sloyalbrattyangel 31-35, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Fed up tired of everything,

    tired of being lonely, tired of being single, tired of being fat, tired of being ugly, tired of traffic, tired of boring work, tired of a boring existance
    IFeelSoLonely101 IFeelSoLonely101 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I cant seem to get a fulfilling job,

    and I'm afraid I will end up being an old spinster living alone. I feel so lonely right now, that death is an option. I just feel like hating myself.
    GodsPrincesseOrchidee GodsPrincesseOrchidee 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 19

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    Kill Me Naaoo!!

    http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Have-A-Dog/1605717 Why?! Just Why?! Im scarred for life..kill me nao! :(
    Floydian Floydian 22-25, M 9 Responses Aug 10, 2011

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    I want to die so bad i don't want to live

    anymore. ive been feeling like this since my freshmen year in high school. I always think that if i die, people would be some much more happier with life. i always thought that i only have a handful people that would care. the reason of me dying is because of my mother...
    khyrah khyrah 22-25, F 2 Responses May 18

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