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I Want to Disappear and Start Over

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    Hope

    That thought has always been in the back of my mind....and now it keeps screaming louder and louder.I constantly feel like I am irrelevant, and just going through the motions of a life that I would rather not have. I work to jobs which I hate, I work with people who could care...
    Ariraine Ariraine 22-25, F 6 Responses May 7, 2013

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    Ocean

    i wish i could disappear and end up on the beach all by myself
    chantel86 chantel86 22-25, F Oct 1, 2010

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    Invisible Scars

    I may smile and look happy most of the time but no one knows that when depression hits you everything falls down on you. no one sees these invisible scars, no one can feel your pain all you can do is just hide it and bring pain to cover the pain... doesn't make sense right? it's...
    LonelyStar101 LonelyStar101 16-17 1 Response Dec 15, 2012

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    My life is crumbling down .

    I pray to god a lot and feel as if he has given up on me . I've been battling depression my whole life and it is like I'm trapped inside my own brain , I might have a mental illness . Any guy I fall in love with someone I mess it up with my crazy ways and lose them forever . My...
    byrae byrae 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    I am panicking. I am livid,

    seeing red. I'm so fed up with the same stresses, over and over, when I'm not even the keeper of the keys to this cage. I'm not claiming to be smarter than you; I just clearly see the solution to our problem. I see how we can rise above this, together. I offer up my own willing...
    designbycassandra designbycassandra 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 11

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    Is There A Way To Just Get Out Of Here?

    I know I'm very young, but I'm extremely unhappy with the way my life is. I have a habit of not treating everyone as I should, so in turn, I get treated badly. It's all my fault because I'm the one who starts the argument that essentially causes me to feel bad about myself. Why...
    TryingToGoOn TryingToGoOn 18-21, F Aug 18, 2013

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    Click My Heels Three Times.....

    One...Two...Three.... I am sitting here eyes closed hopeing that I can be someone eles. Someone that no one knows. I want to be something new. I want to be... not me. To be pretty. To be smarter. Happier. Really I would be find if I was dumb and ugly, s long as I was happier, to...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2011

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    They'd Be Better Off

    I constantly yearn for something new and different.  It seems to be a cycle of my life.  I find something/someone worthwhile and everything goes extremely well for a period of time.  Then, suddenly, I have these uncontrollable urges to change everything. ...
    jarmstrong jarmstrong 22-25 2 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Just A Thought, Well...just In-case

    I've had this thought before not too long ago. I just wonder what would happen if I disappear. Would I be missed? Would anyone look for me besides my family? Would somebody care if I'd be here one day and gone the next? I don't mean ending my own life...I'm not geared...
    indelible indelible 26-30 Jan 11, 2011

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    My Wish

    I wish I could move to another country, or even another town, change schools, change my hobbies, change my appearence, change my personality and make new friends. I wish I could stop being the really quiet girl who sits in the back of the class and doesn't speak out, the one who...
    Lover2cheese Lover2cheese 13-15, F 1 Response May 7, 2013

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    The Sky

    I've taken a great appreciation to the beautiful sky. The blues an whites and im in love with the darks and grays. The purples and pinks, all of it. I realized all my life I've never knew what home was. When I cry I say I want to go home, but I'm already there so eventually I...
    KoEatsCookies KoEatsCookies 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2013

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    I Want To Leave But I'm Frightened

    I just feel like I've gotten in over my head and I just want peace. I want calm and maybe a little peace of mind. I realized that I'm living and dying by the smallest minutia of my job, when I know there has to be a calmer and more true life out there somewhere. I don't want the...
    somerandomnamegirl somerandomnamegirl 36-40 4 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    I Just Want To Start Again

    My life from the outside would look great. I am in college moving towards a promising career with an amazing job market. I have parents that are still together and have never been in financial trouble. But sometimes I just want to start over. Live in a city where no one knows me...
    Srey Srey 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 5, 2013

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    Cut All Ties With This Place

    and just go. No lease no more school no more Arizona. Just me gone and if I had a car I'd be gone and i'd live in my car. What keeps me here money or rather a complete lack thereof. I dont have a job anymore and all the income I do have is tied to financial aide from school and...
    newasexy newasexy 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 1, 2012

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    First Story....I Guess

    Well, this is the first story and I don't know if it's really a story or a moment that will wrote about something maybe silly.... First of all, my English is horrible so if have a lot mistakes, sorry ...T.T I feel like everyday i die a little bit, the truth I disappear a...
    Shiyo Shiyo 22-25, F 2 Responses May 21, 2013

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    Help,i'm Scared

    i live where i work,i runa a 1/2 way house.i have taken this place from complete disaray,to a nice,conservative,clean,place for people with aoda,and mental health issues.my boss,is the type of person,where nothing is right.he yells,screams,the phycological,and mental abuse are...
    rka111 rka111 36-40, M 3 Responses Oct 5, 2011

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    A New Life

    Sometimes, when I feel as if I've screwed up too much, I imagine running away and starting life anew, as a different person, in a different place, with a different personality. I feel this way often, but I feel as if I did start anew, I'd only screw that up too.
    Thelonephilosopher Thelonephilosopher 16-17, M Oct 9, 2013

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    Leave This Life, This State, This Country

    I wish I could leave everything behind, go to another country and start my life anew. I know that I would leave my family. But, right now, it don't matter. I would give up everything, even my marriage, to start fresh.
    Chubbybellyluvr Chubbybellyluvr 36-40, M Jun 21, 2013

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    Just Want To Start Over

    I just want to start my life over i really messed up this time my wife,kids,family its all a mess i dont know
    JADA111 JADA111 36-40 1 Response Mar 3, 2011

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    I Imagine Living A Free Life, Someday

    I finally got the courage up to leave the abuse, finally, yep. Now, he still drives me crazy. He txts me, comes to my car, asks me to talk to him all the time, wants me to do things for him. He is driving me nutty. I just want away from him, and its hard because we have 3...
    ss2012 ss2012 36-40, F Oct 6, 2012

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    Its All Bad

    I WANT TO DISAPPEAR AND START OVER ............ From the city i live now and the city 2 hrs from here where i lived for 5 yrs tbefore here is nothing but bad memories.wouldnt you want to get away.it starts going down hill in the city 2hrs away i started drinking as teenagers do...
    jen840005 jen840005 26-30 1 Response Dec 19, 2010

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    Starting Over

    I feel I've made so many mistakes in the past - a bad marriage, indifferent jobs that I hated to go to... now I've finally got the job of my dreams with a really nice boss and I'm apathetic once again - this started with my previous job - which I hated. And now I am ruining...
    Krajbord Krajbord 51-55 2 Responses May 7, 2013

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    No Real Friends

    I've got no close friends at all. Most of my friends are using me. They lie. They all do. I know, but I never say it out. I wish I could get any, for at least a single day.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 2, 2013

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    Pseudocide. It is a word

    that is both beautiful and frightening. Pseudocide: the death of identity, the cessation of the self. For years-- at least half my life-- it has been an ever-present secret desire, patiently growing in my heart. I long to vanish, to recreate myself, to feel the exhilarating...
    WildMagic WildMagic 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    What If....

    what if you were to just book a ticket on a credit card to anywhere in america and walk out of the airport at the other side. what happens next? get a taxi but to where? a hotel but for how long. how would you find work with no social security number or ID. If you found work it...
    steven1105 steven1105 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 8, 2009

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    The Middle Of Nowhere

    Some times i feel like climbing a bus to anywhere and start a new life doing whatever.
    mariarjoseph mariarjoseph 22-25 Sep 30, 2010

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    Disappear Into The Woods

    I want to disappear and start over. I;m tired of this life and want to be left alone for the rest of my days. i've tried trusting people but that never works one betrayal after another. I'm tired of the pain and of having to fake interest in what people are saying. i want to just...
    MyFormerSelfsShadow MyFormerSelfsShadow 18-21, M 5 Responses Aug 16, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    I want to start a new life, begin again some where from scratch. I am tired of living in the same place, stuck with the same people who look down on me and never bother to...
    EyeOfLight EyeOfLight 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 25

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    I just want to start over with you whether we become lovers again or be friends only. But I know that won't happen....
    Togepi07 Togepi07 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    My Life is starting over again, over again my friends say I’m back again My life is starting over again Over again My fame is spreading across the land Now I got me a band Got...
    RasinBoy RasinBoy 26-30, M Aug 21

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    This isn't an experience involving relationships but instead a thing we all take for granted..... our health. 12 weeks ago I took my first steps in the hospital, I learned how to...
    VeinsOfMisanthrope VeinsOfMisanthrope 18-21, F Sep 5

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    "Regrets collect like old friends, here to relive our darkest moments" - Florence Welch Yeah, regret is pretty much my biggest nemesis...that *****. I think it's about being...
    shellseagirl shellseagirl 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    I'd like to go back in time and start over. But only if I were able to go back with the ability to use all the knowledge and maturity I have gained. Without these life...
    Deedle623 Deedle623 51-55, F 4 Responses Aug 28

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    I deeply want to start a family. I constantly think about almost everyday and dream of being a mother caring for her children. I just hope I find the right one or ones to start it...
    AriosaRuby AriosaRuby 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 4

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    Are there any jazz musicians on this site? I want to start a group. Preferably from Sydney, Australia.
    Cheshirethecat Cheshirethecat 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    There's those days and those times where I think to myself why can't I just be re born again, why can't I start my whole entire life re over and change many things that I did all...
    purple567 purple567 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 24

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    I have started writing so many stories.. but i never seem to get around to finishing them. So here is another start of another story i hope to one day finish. In every town there...
    QuiteElementary QuiteElementary 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I want to fake my own death, then disappear. Then change my appearance and start fresh. I don't care what kind of life, as long as I forget my old one...
    emilesfault emilesfault 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 31

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    A funny thing about years is that we only get one of each. After its done its put on a shelf called "forever". No matter how many we get its still not many at all. so maybe you had...
    lilreddress lilreddress 36-40, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Ok, this is something that I've been wanting to get off my chest for awhile. It's one big misunderstanding that I wish I could go back and change. In 10th grade I found out that a...
    rycbar10 rycbar10 26-30, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Do you know why I am a fan of the concept of time travel in tv shows, etc? I love to entertain the thought of "do-overs" and "what could've been if did this differentlys". I also...
    Lov3intheasylum Lov3intheasylum 31-35, F Aug 31

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    there are a few moments in time i would like to lose a few inhibitions and repeat but there are a few i would love to have a do over on and not repeat, maybe even over compensate...
    trailsonrails trailsonrails 51-55, M 1 Response Sep 7

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    I hear people say some variation of this fairly frequently. I have even considered this myself at times. Truth is though I wouldn't go back and change anything even with the...
    Jericho7 Jericho7 36-40, M 5 Responses Aug 25

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    I wish i could just go back and redo everything, wish i hadn't trusted the wrong people. Now it hurts me a lot. The worst part is, I want to tell someone what happened but there is...
    jove1 jove1 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 30

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    of course. then i could just like totally explore all i want. its very important to me that i explore and experiment.
    SadisticBitch SadisticBitch 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Finding someone who is older than me interrested in DD is almost nearly impossible espically here in spindale North Carolina IT SUCKS! I'm 18 years old and I wan't a mature,stirct...
    Tajuquania Tajuquania 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    But only if i could do it with the benefit of hindsight, i wouldn't want to repeat the same mistakes.
    IF64 IF64 46-50, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I recently divorced my wife of 5 years. I moved from the east coast and am starting a new life for myself in Garlin Texas.
    StrangerDanger75 StrangerDanger75 36-40, M 10 hrs ago

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    Well I am in the process of starting one so that's a thing. You have to hit rock bottom before you start to rise.
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F Aug 18

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    Getting sober is really not easy and I feel like If I could just start a new life and move and make new friends and start to make my life different and better that I would be...
    Iamthebayside Iamthebayside 22-25, M Aug 25

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