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I Want to Disappear and Start Over

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    Is There A Way To Just Get Out Of Here?

    I know I'm very young, but I'm extremely unhappy with the way my life is. I have a habit of not treating everyone as I should, so in turn, I get treated badly. It's all my fault because I'm the one who starts the argument that essentially causes me to feel bad about myself. Why...
    TryingToGoOn TryingToGoOn 16-17, F Aug 18, 2013

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    No Real Friends

    I've got no close friends at all. Most of my friends are using me. They lie. They all do. I know, but I never say it out. I wish I could get any, for at least a single day.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 2, 2013

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    Cut All Ties With This Place

    and just go. No lease no more school no more Arizona. Just me gone and if I had a car I'd be gone and i'd live in my car. What keeps me here money or rather a complete lack thereof. I dont have a job anymore and all the income I do have is tied to financial aide from school and...
    newasexy newasexy 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 1, 2012

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    Ocean

    i wish i could disappear and end up on the beach all by myself
    chantel86 chantel86 22-25, F Oct 1, 2010

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    Starting Over

    I feel I've made so many mistakes in the past - a bad marriage, indifferent jobs that I hated to go to... now I've finally got the job of my dreams with a really nice boss and I'm apathetic once again - this started with my previous job - which I hated. And now I am ruining...
    Krajbord Krajbord 51-55 2 Responses May 7, 2013

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    Disappear Into The Woods

    I want to disappear and start over. I;m tired of this life and want to be left alone for the rest of my days. i've tried trusting people but that never works one betrayal after another. I'm tired of the pain and of having to fake interest in what people are saying. i want to just...
    MyFormerSelfsShadow MyFormerSelfsShadow 18-21, M 4 Responses Aug 16, 2011

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    I Imagine Living A Free Life, Someday

    I finally got the courage up to leave the abuse, finally, yep. Now, he still drives me crazy. He txts me, comes to my car, asks me to talk to him all the time, wants me to do things for him. He is driving me nutty. I just want away from him, and its hard because we have 3...
    ss2012 ss2012 36-40, F Oct 6, 2012

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    My life is crumbling down .

    I pray to god a lot and feel as if he has given up on me . I've been battling depression my whole life and it is like I'm trapped inside my own brain , I might have a mental illness . Any guy I fall in love with someone I mess it up with my crazy ways and lose them forever . My...
    byrae byrae 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    The Sky

    I've taken a great appreciation to the beautiful sky. The blues an whites and im in love with the darks and grays. The purples and pinks, all of it. I realized all my life I've never knew what home was. When I cry I say I want to go home, but I'm already there so eventually I...
    KoEatsCookies KoEatsCookies 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2013

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    They'd Be Better Off

    I constantly yearn for something new and different.  It seems to be a cycle of my life.  I find something/someone worthwhile and everything goes extremely well for a period of time.  Then, suddenly, I have these uncontrollable urges to change everything. ...
    jarmstrong jarmstrong 22-25 2 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Just Want To Start Over

    I just want to start my life over i really messed up this time my wife,kids,family its all a mess i dont know
    JADA111 JADA111 36-40 1 Response Mar 3, 2011

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    I am panicking. I am livid,

    seeing red. I'm so fed up with the same stresses, over and over, when I'm not even the keeper of the keys to this cage. I'm not claiming to be smarter than you; I just clearly see the solution to our problem. I see how we can rise above this, together. I offer up my own willing...
    designbycassandra designbycassandra 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 11

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    I Just Want To Start Again

    My life from the outside would look great. I am in college moving towards a promising career with an amazing job market. I have parents that are still together and have never been in financial trouble. But sometimes I just want to start over. Live in a city where no one knows me...
    Srey Srey 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 5, 2013

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    The Middle Of Nowhere

    Some times i feel like climbing a bus to anywhere and start a new life doing whatever.
    mariarjoseph mariarjoseph 22-25 Sep 30, 2010

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    My Wish

    I wish I could move to another country, or even another town, change schools, change my hobbies, change my appearence, change my personality and make new friends. I wish I could stop being the really quiet girl who sits in the back of the class and doesn't speak out, the one who...
    Lover2cheese Lover2cheese 13-15, F 1 Response May 7, 2013

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    What If....

    what if you were to just book a ticket on a credit card to anywhere in america and walk out of the airport at the other side. what happens next? get a taxi but to where? a hotel but for how long. how would you find work with no social security number or ID. If you found work it...
    steven1105 steven1105 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 8, 2009

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    Just A Thought, Well...just In-case

    I've had this thought before not too long ago. I just wonder what would happen if I disappear. Would I be missed? Would anyone look for me besides my family? Would somebody care if I'd be here one day and gone the next? I don't mean ending my own life...I'm not geared...
    indelible indelible 26-30 Jan 11, 2011

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    Its All Bad

    I WANT TO DISAPPEAR AND START OVER ............ From the city i live now and the city 2 hrs from here where i lived for 5 yrs tbefore here is nothing but bad memories.wouldnt you want to get away.it starts going down hill in the city 2hrs away i started drinking as teenagers do...
    jen840005 jen840005 26-30 1 Response Dec 19, 2010

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    Click My Heels Three Times.....

    One...Two...Three.... I am sitting here eyes closed hopeing that I can be someone eles. Someone that no one knows. I want to be something new. I want to be... not me. To be pretty. To be smarter. Happier. Really I would be find if I was dumb and ugly, s long as I was happier, to...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2011

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    Invisible Scars

    I may smile and look happy most of the time but no one knows that when depression hits you everything falls down on you. no one sees these invisible scars, no one can feel your pain all you can do is just hide it and bring pain to cover the pain... doesn't make sense right? it's...
    LonelyStar101 LonelyStar101 16-17 1 Response Dec 15, 2012

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    Hope

    That thought has always been in the back of my mind....and now it keeps screaming louder and louder.I constantly feel like I am irrelevant, and just going through the motions of a life that I would rather not have. I work to jobs which I hate, I work with people who could care...
    Ariraine Ariraine 22-25, F 6 Responses May 7, 2013

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    First Story....I Guess

    Well, this is the first story and I don't know if it's really a story or a moment that will wrote about something maybe silly.... First of all, my English is horrible so if have a lot mistakes, sorry ...T.T I feel like everyday i die a little bit, the truth I disappear a...
    Shiyo Shiyo 22-25, F 2 Responses May 21, 2013

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    I Want To Leave But I'm Frightened

    I just feel like I've gotten in over my head and I just want peace. I want calm and maybe a little peace of mind. I realized that I'm living and dying by the smallest minutia of my job, when I know there has to be a calmer and more true life out there somewhere. I don't want the...
    somerandomnamegirl somerandomnamegirl 36-40 4 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    Help,i'm Scared

    i live where i work,i runa a 1/2 way house.i have taken this place from complete disaray,to a nice,conservative,clean,place for people with aoda,and mental health issues.my boss,is the type of person,where nothing is right.he yells,screams,the phycological,and mental abuse are...
    rka111 rka111 36-40, M 3 Responses Oct 5, 2011

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    Who the hell wouldn't at one time or another? I'm just not sure where I would start over though. Maybe a year? Five years? Ten? Who knows. I'd love to have that option. Oh! And I...
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    I joined this group because, i really wanted to go back and start my life over completely and be a different person than I am today, but I realized now that I like the man I am...
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    I would like to go back in time an start over just for the simple fact that I want ya other chance in life I have been a huge screwup since I joined my current school. I used o be...
    javies99 javies99 13-15, M Mar 19

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    I have the chance to start over. For the most part. I'd be someplace I don't really know around people I don't really know, but do know. My life is kind of a mess, because I don't...
    AJlucky AJlucky 22-25, M Mar 24

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    I'm a sophomore right now and I would go back in time to 6th grade and start over from then... Things would be completely different...
    boyfromthecountry boyfromthecountry 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 26

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    At My school, i want to start fresh so im changing schools next year and i was wondering if my friends and i should start a LGBT Club or a Gay/Straight alliance group. Would it be...
    escap3girl escap3girl 13-15, F Mar 23

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    i did it, i opened my eyes and kicked dopey to the curb. one fateful day at work he pulled the most shadiest move possible. not only he ignored my texts but he also avoided seeing...
    Lilcrazyducky93 Lilcrazyducky93 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    hearmecryandwatchmedie hearmecryandwatchmedie 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Doesn't everyone? I understand that mistakes are mistakes and they cannot be undone. Regrets contain emotions so strong that people want to rewind the past, but that's how you...
    dearlovecc dearlovecc 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    My log, April 17, 2014 I am starting to give up.... I need to focus on myself.... I need to do things for me and stop looking, One day i will be happy, I don't know when, But one...
    Alexob13 Alexob13 18-21, M 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    I want to delete the hurt , the tears , the yelling , the screaming and my pass
    iammee13 iammee13 13-15, F 22 hrs ago

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    I have tons of regrets.. Things I wish I would have done differently. Missed opportunities, experiences that have scarred me for life, and some things I wish I had never tried but...
    DiosesOscuros DiosesOscuros 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 28

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    What happened to me over the years? I mean a lot of years too. I don’t even know who I am anymore & I don’t like me either. I just woke up today & I was someone else. I...
    blueeyez1950 blueeyez1950 61-65 Apr 9

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    I wish I could move to another city, meet complete strangers and start my life all over. I could become a new me and never let the others find out about old me.
    daphiedoofie daphiedoofie 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    How wud it be like to go back and start all over again..First I would just bring out my confidence and enjoy my life....Participating in competetion,spending more time with friends...
    openheart92 openheart92 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    I just want to rewind, and start again,
    yellowfeelings yellowfeelings 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    I use to think I wanted 'to go back in time' an fix all the mistakes I've made and I guess all of the people I hurt along the way etc. But now I don't, at all. I'm not trying to...
    sarajayne55555 sarajayne55555 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 28

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    Not necessarily go back. Seriously there is growing up experiences I don't want to repeat! Lol But, to take what I know now and apply it is what I can do and enjoy my life from...
    Cydney525K Cydney525K 41-45, F Mar 24

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    i dont really go nude anymore, i guess im just over it. it was a cool faze in my life but im ready to moove on. im gona make a new ep profile that wont include nudism. if you want...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 30

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    I guess i would love it. That would give me a chance to live a normal life. Not to yearn for love like a puppy. To be a normal teen. To live and not care But i guess that my past...
    LunaOanaAris LunaOanaAris 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    I've done a lot of things I regret, a lot of things I could do different. Despite how much I'd like to change those things, if I went back I think I'd do everything the same. You...
    CaptainBenza CaptainBenza 18-21, M Apr 9

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    I would. I would go back and be who I wanna be, instead of what i think people want me to be...
    MsLouise MsLouise 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I miss talking to him . I know he move on and where friends but it awkward and I jus can't be friends I want to be more than friends
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    I am here to tell you about me, my vision and my reality. I'm looking for three women and two men to join me in leaving society. Leaving it all behind and building a community of...
    leaving6622 leaving6622 36-40, M 3 days ago

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