I Want to Disappear and Start Over

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    I want to go to a place

    where no one knows who I am. A place where no one knew about me. A place where I can just start over and be the me I want people to see.
    justinbartolome justinbartolome
    16-17, M
    1 Response Feb 7, 2015

    I wish this option was

    as easy as saying or writing it....
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Feb 22

    I've messed up almost everything in my life

    that's important to me. && I wish I was never created. because even now if I die, it won't be over. I'll forever exist. w my messes following right behind me.
    avreyyh avreyyh
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jun 24, 2015

    Disappear Into The Woods

    I want to disappear and start over. I;m tired of this life and want to be left alone for the rest of my days. i've tried trusting people but that never works one betrayal after another. I'm tired of the pain and of having to fake interest in what people are saying. i want to just...
    MyFormerSelfsShadow MyFormerSelfsShadow
    18-21, M
    9 Responses Aug 16, 2011

    my anxiety and depression have been building up.

    as a result, I get very indecisive. my mind races, and I can't make any decisions. I just keep questioning myself. I contemplate starting over to make the stress go away. "If I just leave EP and come back later, the stress will go away." Even though I might do good here, have...
    seriouslyscarred seriouslyscarred
    22-25, M
    Jan 30

    Pseudocide. It is a word

    that is both beautiful and frightening. Pseudocide: the death of identity, the cessation of the self. For years-- at least half my life-- it has been an ever-present secret desire, patiently growing in my heart. I long to vanish, to recreate myself, to feel the exhilarating...
    WildMagic WildMagic
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 3, 2014

    They'd Be Better Off

    I constantly yearn for something new and different.  It seems to be a cycle of my life.  I find something/someone worthwhile and everything goes extremely well for a period of time.  Then, suddenly, I have these uncontrollable urges to change everything. ...
    jarmstrong jarmstrong
    22-25
    2 Responses Sep 16, 2009

    I want to restart, cash all my accounts

    and relocate. Find somewhere where no one knows my name or who I am, but I'm conflicted. You can't runaway from your problems, so how would this fix anything? some advice?
    droze524 droze524
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 22, 2015

    Why can't it be as easy to start over in real

    life as it is on the internet? Just log out and make the new email address you'll use for everything.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 25, 2015

    I want to go far away

    and change everything about me. my name, my personality. I'm an actor, i know i can do it. itll get easier after a little while. then maybe i might be worth something
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 19, 2015

    I Imagine Living A Free Life, Someday

    I finally got the courage up to leave the abuse, finally, yep. Now, he still drives me crazy. He txts me, comes to my car, asks me to talk to him all the time, wants me to do things for him. He is driving me nutty. I just want away from him, and its hard because we have 3...
    ss2012 ss2012
    36-40, F
    Oct 6, 2012

    No Real Friends

    I've got no close friends at all. Most of my friends are using me. They lie. They all do. I know, but I never say it out. I wish I could get any, for at least a single day.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 2, 2013

    And while I'm at it..

    I'd change my name and my face.. really get into it.. a new background too to go with my new persona ..itd be fricken cool ..I'd even fake my death to do it
    Cocrispy Cocrispy
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Mar 18

    Hope

    That thought has always been in the back of my mind....and now it keeps screaming louder and louder.I constantly feel like I am irrelevant, and just going through the motions of a life that I would rather not have. I work to jobs which I hate, I work with people who could care...
    Ariraine Ariraine
    22-25, F
    4 Responses May 7, 2013

    my anxiety and depression have been building up.

    as a result, I get very indecisive. my mind races, and I can't make any decisions. I just keep questioning myself. I contemplate starting over to make the stress go away. "If I just leave EP and come back later, the stress will go away." Even though I might do good here, have...
    seriouslyscarred seriouslyscarred
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 30

    Been trying to find a way out of this life I

    have without feeling like i'm running away.. Not sure how to make it happen but one day I will!
    EternityF EternityF
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 30

    The Sky

    I've taken a great appreciation to the beautiful sky. The blues an whites and im in love with the darks and grays. The purples and pinks, all of it. I realized all my life I've never knew what home was. When I cry I say I want to go home, but I'm already there so eventually I...
    KoEatsCookies KoEatsCookies
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 5, 2013

    Engaged, then pregnant,

    then married, then college, then divorce, then drinking, then drinking alot, then turning into a garbage can junkie, then forceably removed from all family, then homeless, then rebirth, then a.a., then starting over. Now it looms in the background haunting every statement...
    fartoomuch fartoomuch
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 18

    i don't want to talk to anyone sometimes just

    drawing myself in music i need to be alone sometimes and i want to disappear....completely just saying
    juryandrews juryandrews
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 13, 2015

    Click My Heels Three Times.....

    One...Two...Three.... I am sitting here eyes closed hopeing that I can be someone eles. Someone that no one knows. I want to be something new. I want to be... not me. To be pretty. To be smarter. Happier. Really I would be find if I was dumb and ugly, s long as I was happier, to...
    Geinger Geinger
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 25, 2011

    I Want To Leave But I'm Frightened

    I just feel like I've gotten in over my head and I just want peace. I want calm and maybe a little peace of mind. I realized that I'm living and dying by the smallest minutia of my job, when I know there has to be a calmer and more true life out there somewhere. I don't want the...
    somerandomnamegirl somerandomnamegirl
    36-40
    4 Responses Jun 15, 2012

    Starting Over

    I feel I've made so many mistakes in the past - a bad marriage, indifferent jobs that I hated to go to... now I've finally got the job of my dreams with a really nice boss and I'm apathetic once again - this started with my previous job - which I hated. And now I am ruining...
    Krajbord Krajbord
    56-60
    2 Responses May 7, 2013

    Cut All Ties With This Place

    and just go. No lease no more school no more Arizona. Just me gone and if I had a car I'd be gone and i'd live in my car. What keeps me here money or rather a complete lack thereof. I dont have a job anymore and all the income I do have is tied to financial aide from school and...
    newasexy newasexy
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Apr 1, 2012

    Invisible Scars

    I may smile and look happy most of the time but no one knows that when depression hits you everything falls down on you. no one sees these invisible scars, no one can feel your pain all you can do is just hide it and bring pain to cover the pain... doesn't make sense right? it's...
    LonelyStar101 LonelyStar101
    16-17
    1 Response Dec 15, 2012

    What If....

    what if you were to just book a ticket on a credit card to anywhere in america and walk out of the airport at the other side. what happens next? get a taxi but to where? a hotel but for how long. how would you find work with no social security number or ID. If you found work it...
    steven1105 steven1105
    31-35, M
    4 Responses Sep 8, 2009

    I am panicking. I am livid,

    seeing red. I'm so fed up with the same stresses, over and over, when I'm not even the keeper of the keys to this cage. I'm not claiming to be smarter than you; I just clearly see the solution to our problem. I see how we can rise above this, together. I offer up my own willing...
    iamcass iamcass
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 11, 2014

    Is There A Way To Just Get Out Of Here?

    I know I'm very young, but I'm extremely unhappy with the way my life is. I have a habit of not treating everyone as I should, so in turn, I get treated badly. It's all my fault because I'm the one who starts the argument that essentially causes me to feel bad about myself. Why...
    TryingToGoOn TryingToGoOn
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 18, 2013

    I Just Want To Start Again

    My life from the outside would look great. I am in college moving towards a promising career with an amazing job market. I have parents that are still together and have never been in financial trouble. But sometimes I just want to start over. Live in a city where no one knows me...
    Srey Srey
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 5, 2013

    I want to forget all what I've learnt

    and erase my memory, it's weigheing on my shoulders a lot.
    AoNoSora AoNoSora
    18-21
    1 Response Mar 10, 2015

    I just want to disappear.

    I just want everything to work out. I just want to save and help and love everyone. All I want is for everyone to be happy.... For no one to ever feel hurt or lost or like they don't have a friend.... I always want to be the person who can hold you up, be there when you need me...
    TundraIvy TundraIvy
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 7, 2015

    Leave This Life, This State, This Country

    I wish I could leave everything behind, go to another country and start my life anew. I know that I would leave my family. But, right now, it don't matter. I would give up everything, even my marriage, to start fresh.
    Chubbybellyluvr Chubbybellyluvr
    36-40, M
    Jun 21, 2013

    First Story....I Guess

    Well, this is the first story and I don't know if it's really a story or a moment that will wrote about something maybe silly.... First of all, my English is horrible so if have a lot mistakes, sorry ...T.T I feel like everyday i die a little bit, the truth I disappear a...
    Shiyo Shiyo
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 21, 2013
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 11, 2015

    My life is crumbling down .

    I pray to god a lot and feel as if he has given up on me . I've been battling depression my whole life and it is like I'm trapped inside my own brain , I might have a mental illness . Any guy I fall in love with someone I mess it up with my crazy ways and lose them forever . My...
    byrae byrae
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 29, 2013

    I sincerely HATE my life.

    ..I HATE how people see me, I HATE how I see myself. My whole life has been an uphill struggle with no relief in sight! I had the worst Mothers Day ever & my son returned from visitation to tell me his father wants to take him out of state... I have been a doormat to my sisters...
    fitmom808 fitmom808
    41-45, F
    1 Response May 10, 2015

    Just A Thought, Well...just In-case

    I've had this thought before not too long ago. I just wonder what would happen if I disappear. Would I be missed? Would anyone look for me besides my family? Would somebody care if I'd be here one day and gone the next? I don't mean ending my own life...I'm not geared...
    indelible indelible
    26-30
    Jan 11, 2011

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