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I Want to Disappear and Start Over

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    I Just Want To Start Again

    My life from the outside would look great. I am in college moving towards a promising career with an amazing job market. I have parents that are still together and have never been in financial trouble. But sometimes I just want to start over. Live in a city where no one knows me...
    Srey Srey 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 5, 2013

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    Click My Heels Three Times.....

    One...Two...Three.... I am sitting here eyes closed hopeing that I can be someone eles. Someone that no one knows. I want to be something new. I want to be... not me. To be pretty. To be smarter. Happier. Really I would be find if I was dumb and ugly, s long as I was happier, to...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2011

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    Help,i'm Scared

    i live where i work,i runa a 1/2 way house.i have taken this place from complete disaray,to a nice,conservative,clean,place for people with aoda,and mental health issues.my boss,is the type of person,where nothing is right.he yells,screams,the phycological,and mental abuse are...
    rka111 rka111 36-40, M 3 Responses Oct 5, 2011

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    Ocean

    i wish i could disappear and end up on the beach all by myself
    chantel86 chantel86 22-25, F Oct 1, 2010

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    Its All Bad

    I WANT TO DISAPPEAR AND START OVER ............ From the city i live now and the city 2 hrs from here where i lived for 5 yrs tbefore here is nothing but bad memories.wouldnt you want to get away.it starts going down hill in the city 2hrs away i started drinking as teenagers do...
    jen840005 jen840005 26-30 1 Response Dec 19, 2010

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    Just Want To Start Over

    I just want to start my life over i really messed up this time my wife,kids,family its all a mess i dont know
    JADA111 JADA111 36-40 1 Response Mar 3, 2011

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    Cut All Ties With This Place

    and just go. No lease no more school no more Arizona. Just me gone and if I had a car I'd be gone and i'd live in my car. What keeps me here money or rather a complete lack thereof. I dont have a job anymore and all the income I do have is tied to financial aide from school and...
    newasexy newasexy 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 1, 2012

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    I Want To Leave But I'm Frightened

    I just feel like I've gotten in over my head and I just want peace. I want calm and maybe a little peace of mind. I realized that I'm living and dying by the smallest minutia of my job, when I know there has to be a calmer and more true life out there somewhere. I don't want the...
    somerandomnamegirl somerandomnamegirl 36-40 4 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    Disappear Into The Woods

    I want to disappear and start over. I;m tired of this life and want to be left alone for the rest of my days. i've tried trusting people but that never works one betrayal after another. I'm tired of the pain and of having to fake interest in what people are saying. i want to just...
    MyFormerSelfsShadow MyFormerSelfsShadow 18-21, M 5 Responses Aug 16, 2011

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    What If....

    what if you were to just book a ticket on a credit card to anywhere in america and walk out of the airport at the other side. what happens next? get a taxi but to where? a hotel but for how long. how would you find work with no social security number or ID. If you found work it...
    steven1105 steven1105 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 8, 2009

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    Just A Thought, Well...just In-case

    I've had this thought before not too long ago. I just wonder what would happen if I disappear. Would I be missed? Would anyone look for me besides my family? Would somebody care if I'd be here one day and gone the next? I don't mean ending my own life...I'm not geared...
    indelible indelible 26-30 Jan 11, 2011

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    Hope

    That thought has always been in the back of my mind....and now it keeps screaming louder and louder.I constantly feel like I am irrelevant, and just going through the motions of a life that I would rather not have. I work to jobs which I hate, I work with people who could care...
    Ariraine Ariraine 22-25, F 6 Responses May 7, 2013

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    Is There A Way To Just Get Out Of Here?

    I know I'm very young, but I'm extremely unhappy with the way my life is. I have a habit of not treating everyone as I should, so in turn, I get treated badly. It's all my fault because I'm the one who starts the argument that essentially causes me to feel bad about myself. Why...
    TryingToGoOn TryingToGoOn 18-21, F Aug 18, 2013

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    Invisible Scars

    I may smile and look happy most of the time but no one knows that when depression hits you everything falls down on you. no one sees these invisible scars, no one can feel your pain all you can do is just hide it and bring pain to cover the pain... doesn't make sense right? it's...
    LonelyStar101 LonelyStar101 16-17 1 Response Dec 15, 2012

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    Leave This Life, This State, This Country

    I wish I could leave everything behind, go to another country and start my life anew. I know that I would leave my family. But, right now, it don't matter. I would give up everything, even my marriage, to start fresh.
    Chubbybellyluvr Chubbybellyluvr 36-40, M Jun 21, 2013

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    I am panicking. I am livid,

    seeing red. I'm so fed up with the same stresses, over and over, when I'm not even the keeper of the keys to this cage. I'm not claiming to be smarter than you; I just clearly see the solution to our problem. I see how we can rise above this, together. I offer up my own willing...
    designbycassandra designbycassandra 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 11

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    They'd Be Better Off

    I constantly yearn for something new and different.  It seems to be a cycle of my life.  I find something/someone worthwhile and everything goes extremely well for a period of time.  Then, suddenly, I have these uncontrollable urges to change everything. ...
    jarmstrong jarmstrong 22-25 2 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    A New Life

    Sometimes, when I feel as if I've screwed up too much, I imagine running away and starting life anew, as a different person, in a different place, with a different personality. I feel this way often, but I feel as if I did start anew, I'd only screw that up too.
    Thelonephilosopher Thelonephilosopher 16-17, M Oct 9, 2013

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    No Real Friends

    I've got no close friends at all. Most of my friends are using me. They lie. They all do. I know, but I never say it out. I wish I could get any, for at least a single day.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 2, 2013

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    The Sky

    I've taken a great appreciation to the beautiful sky. The blues an whites and im in love with the darks and grays. The purples and pinks, all of it. I realized all my life I've never knew what home was. When I cry I say I want to go home, but I'm already there so eventually I...
    KoEatsCookies KoEatsCookies 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2013

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    My life is crumbling down .

    I pray to god a lot and feel as if he has given up on me . I've been battling depression my whole life and it is like I'm trapped inside my own brain , I might have a mental illness . Any guy I fall in love with someone I mess it up with my crazy ways and lose them forever . My...
    byrae byrae 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    First Story....I Guess

    Well, this is the first story and I don't know if it's really a story or a moment that will wrote about something maybe silly.... First of all, my English is horrible so if have a lot mistakes, sorry ...T.T I feel like everyday i die a little bit, the truth I disappear a...
    Shiyo Shiyo 22-25, F 2 Responses May 21, 2013

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    Starting Over

    I feel I've made so many mistakes in the past - a bad marriage, indifferent jobs that I hated to go to... now I've finally got the job of my dreams with a really nice boss and I'm apathetic once again - this started with my previous job - which I hated. And now I am ruining...
    Krajbord Krajbord 51-55 2 Responses May 7, 2013

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    I Imagine Living A Free Life, Someday

    I finally got the courage up to leave the abuse, finally, yep. Now, he still drives me crazy. He txts me, comes to my car, asks me to talk to him all the time, wants me to do things for him. He is driving me nutty. I just want away from him, and its hard because we have 3...
    ss2012 ss2012 36-40, F Oct 6, 2012

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    My Wish

    I wish I could move to another country, or even another town, change schools, change my hobbies, change my appearence, change my personality and make new friends. I wish I could stop being the really quiet girl who sits in the back of the class and doesn't speak out, the one who...
    Lover2cheese Lover2cheese 13-15, F 1 Response May 7, 2013

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    The Middle Of Nowhere

    Some times i feel like climbing a bus to anywhere and start a new life doing whatever.
    mariarjoseph mariarjoseph 22-25 Sep 30, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    Im almost twenty years old and i feel like ive done nothing with my life. I want to leave everyone here and start over somewhere new. but idk where. Any suggestions?
    RealityDreamer19 RealityDreamer19 18-21, M Jul 21

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    I know we all have to do it sometimes, and it's necessary to try again (if we are ever going to have what we want), but I am SOOOOOOooooooooo tired of starting over. I guess it's...
    moonchile moonchile 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    I would love to start over. What I will do is I will still be a boy when I am born. Also I would want a sister that is 4 years older then me. Since I would be little it would be...
    Sarahismygirlname Sarahismygirlname 13-15, T 3 Responses Jul 14

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    Starting over is a little scary But I know what I want I want to be happy I want to laugh and remember the good things about me and about life! Gotta keep on believing :)
    cailinAlainn cailinAlainn 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    i want to go back to high school and start over.. i should have figured out what i wanted to study in college before i procrastinated.. dangit!
    mjenkins31 mjenkins31 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I studied to be Catholic priest for 15 years and when they told me it wasn't for me I became a barista brewing coffee. Today, I own my own business. Starting over isn't easy.
    every2years every2years 31-35, M Jul 2

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    Starting over again every single day
    bittersweetsourandsalty bittersweetsourandsalty 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    Who doesnt .. Ive learned so much tho by mistakes but yup still would go back in time i guess i would wana start over back in 8th grade & the first thing would be hug my dad & best...
    missyluvsmissy4me missyluvsmissy4me 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 13

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    Truth is, when I first heard of actual experiences of reincarnation (sorta), it kinda tugged at my heart. Because I was like, again? This whole life again? All that pain again...
    SuperWomanFly SuperWomanFly 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    After 17 years of marriage, starting over and things are much different! Def experiencing some anxiety about the unknown but enjoying the art of online dating & social media! It's...
    FlKuntryBoy FlKuntryBoy 26-30, M 6 days ago

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    I want to start with THEY! HOW dare EP limit me? They bully me by making me take the first word, So my statment has to be fake in order to be heard! They met each other man and...
    Twidget0831 Twidget0831 46-50, M 1 Response Jul 1

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    I sometimes debate whether it's that I want to start again or if it's like I feel I have no other choice and the urges are too strong. I am 3.5 months clean and the last few days...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 2

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    I really want to start one who would want me to sign you
    GingerSlimSTL GingerSlimSTL 13-15, M Jul 16

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    Throughout my life I have let many people take a hold of me take advantage of my emotions and hurt me I recently been hurt Exremely worse and I just want to give up I want to start...
    jakaylaruffin jakaylaruffin 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    I wanna start life over I wish my parents would never got to see me in cuffs I also wish I never. Got pregante so early. In age I wanna start life again I jus wish I wasn't so...
    babyskyx3 babyskyx3 13-15, F Jul 14

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    So i am done looking in the mirror and seeing this 170 pound woman i am determined to loos those extra 30 pounds that make me over weight... I know i just had a baby 3 months ago...
    paola04414 paola04414 18-21, F Jul 14

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    I have done many bad decisions. Some decisions which may have completely changed my life and the state of my health. As an example I could mention the time when I was something...
    mikeex mikeex 16-17, M Jul 18

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    And when I get through some of these medical issues I have - I am going to. I want to go back to school. I am scared as I have not been in school since I was 17. I used to think it...
    DaisyMe1975 DaisyMe1975 36-40, F Jul 13

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    A few months ago I posted about this I've met someone really special to thanks to one of my friends here on ep I talked about her on my experience about my older sister. She...
    javies99 javies99 13-15, M 4 Responses Jul 15

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    I went to an amusement park and found a pretty girl who I instantly like and she liked me. We walked around a little bit and we sat under a foot bridge. We started making out. I...
    Spencerreedphd Spencerreedphd 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 8

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    I know time travel isn't real, but if it was? I would go back in time with one purpose in mind. I would kill that guy named Kellogg cuz he started circumcising baby boys and girls...
    bangboy77 bangboy77 36-40, M 2 Responses Jul 8

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    I really wish that I could do high school all over again. My experience was very bittersweet. I met some amazing teachers who helped me out at times so I was thankful for that, but...
    eggowaffles eggowaffles 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    I would love to go back when I am in Kindergarten, to the time before all this **** started. And back when my mother and father love each other. That, and to undo all the stupid...
    Neunte Neunte 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    If only I hadn't gone into my Facebook that day. If only I didn't see that message with your phone number. If only I didn't think about our past. If only I didn't text you...
    Alayjahndro Alayjahndro 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 13

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