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I Want to Disappear and Start Over

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    No Real Friends

    I've got no close friends at all. Most of my friends are using me. They lie. They all do. I know, but I never say it out. I wish I could get any, for at least a single day.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 2, 2013

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    A New Life

    Sometimes, when I feel as if I've screwed up too much, I imagine running away and starting life anew, as a different person, in a different place, with a different personality. I feel this way often, but I feel as if I did start anew, I'd only screw that up too.
    Thelonephilosopher Thelonephilosopher 16-17, M Oct 9, 2013

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    What If....

    what if you were to just book a ticket on a credit card to anywhere in america and walk out of the airport at the other side. what happens next? get a taxi but to where? a hotel but for how long. how would you find work with no social security number or ID. If you found work it...
    steven1105 steven1105 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 8, 2009

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    Click My Heels Three Times.....

    One...Two...Three.... I am sitting here eyes closed hopeing that I can be someone eles. Someone that no one knows. I want to be something new. I want to be... not me. To be pretty. To be smarter. Happier. Really I would be find if I was dumb and ugly, s long as I was happier, to...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2011

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    Just Want To Start Over

    I just want to start my life over i really messed up this time my wife,kids,family its all a mess i dont know
    JADA111 JADA111 36-40 1 Response Mar 3, 2011

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    Cut All Ties With This Place

    and just go. No lease no more school no more Arizona. Just me gone and if I had a car I'd be gone and i'd live in my car. What keeps me here money or rather a complete lack thereof. I dont have a job anymore and all the income I do have is tied to financial aide from school and...
    newasexy newasexy 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 1, 2012

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    The Sky

    I've taken a great appreciation to the beautiful sky. The blues an whites and im in love with the darks and grays. The purples and pinks, all of it. I realized all my life I've never knew what home was. When I cry I say I want to go home, but I'm already there so eventually I...
    KoEatsCookies KoEatsCookies 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2013

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    Starting Over

    I feel I've made so many mistakes in the past - a bad marriage, indifferent jobs that I hated to go to... now I've finally got the job of my dreams with a really nice boss and I'm apathetic once again - this started with my previous job - which I hated. And now I am ruining...
    Krajbord Krajbord 51-55 2 Responses May 7, 2013

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    Pseudocide. It is a word

    that is both beautiful and frightening. Pseudocide: the death of identity, the cessation of the self. For years-- at least half my life-- it has been an ever-present secret desire, patiently growing in my heart. I long to vanish, to recreate myself, to feel the exhilarating...
    WildMagic WildMagic 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 3, 2014

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    i don't want to talk to anyone sometimes just

    drawing myself in music i need to be alone sometimes and i want to disappear....completely just saying
    juryandrews juryandrews 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    Ocean

    i wish i could disappear and end up on the beach all by myself
    chantel86 chantel86 22-25, F Oct 1, 2010

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    Invisible Scars

    I may smile and look happy most of the time but no one knows that when depression hits you everything falls down on you. no one sees these invisible scars, no one can feel your pain all you can do is just hide it and bring pain to cover the pain... doesn't make sense right? it's...
    LonelyStar101 LonelyStar101 16-17 1 Response Dec 15, 2012

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    They'd Be Better Off

    I constantly yearn for something new and different.  It seems to be a cycle of my life.  I find something/someone worthwhile and everything goes extremely well for a period of time.  Then, suddenly, I have these uncontrollable urges to change everything. ...
    jarmstrong jarmstrong 22-25 2 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Somewhere that no one knows

    who I am or my past, away from family drama and from the disappointed husband. Somewhere that I could maybe eventually feel good about myself again and be loved by someone for just being me. I am pretty sure no one would even notice if I was gone since no one even notices when I...
    Wolfgirl121 Wolfgirl121 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Hope

    That thought has always been in the back of my mind....and now it keeps screaming louder and louder.I constantly feel like I am irrelevant, and just going through the motions of a life that I would rather not have. I work to jobs which I hate, I work with people who could care...
    Ariraine Ariraine 22-25, F 6 Responses May 7, 2013

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    Is There A Way To Just Get Out Of Here?

    I know I'm very young, but I'm extremely unhappy with the way my life is. I have a habit of not treating everyone as I should, so in turn, I get treated badly. It's all my fault because I'm the one who starts the argument that essentially causes me to feel bad about myself. Why...
    TryingToGoOn TryingToGoOn 18-21, F Aug 18, 2013

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    Disappear Into The Woods

    I want to disappear and start over. I;m tired of this life and want to be left alone for the rest of my days. i've tried trusting people but that never works one betrayal after another. I'm tired of the pain and of having to fake interest in what people are saying. i want to just...
    MyFormerSelfsShadow MyFormerSelfsShadow 18-21, M 7 Responses Aug 16, 2011

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    Its All Bad

    I WANT TO DISAPPEAR AND START OVER ............ From the city i live now and the city 2 hrs from here where i lived for 5 yrs tbefore here is nothing but bad memories.wouldnt you want to get away.it starts going down hill in the city 2hrs away i started drinking as teenagers do...
    jen840005 jen840005 26-30 1 Response Dec 19, 2010

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    The Middle Of Nowhere

    Some times i feel like climbing a bus to anywhere and start a new life doing whatever.
    mariarjoseph mariarjoseph 22-25 Sep 30, 2010

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    My life is crumbling down .

    I pray to god a lot and feel as if he has given up on me . I've been battling depression my whole life and it is like I'm trapped inside my own brain , I might have a mental illness . Any guy I fall in love with someone I mess it up with my crazy ways and lose them forever . My...
    byrae byrae 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    First Story....I Guess

    Well, this is the first story and I don't know if it's really a story or a moment that will wrote about something maybe silly.... First of all, my English is horrible so if have a lot mistakes, sorry ...T.T I feel like everyday i die a little bit, the truth I disappear a...
    Shiyo Shiyo 22-25, F 2 Responses May 21, 2013

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    Leave This Life, This State, This Country

    I wish I could leave everything behind, go to another country and start my life anew. I know that I would leave my family. But, right now, it don't matter. I would give up everything, even my marriage, to start fresh.
    Chubbybellyluvr Chubbybellyluvr 36-40, M Jun 21, 2013

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    Help,i'm Scared

    i live where i work,i runa a 1/2 way house.i have taken this place from complete disaray,to a nice,conservative,clean,place for people with aoda,and mental health issues.my boss,is the type of person,where nothing is right.he yells,screams,the phycological,and mental abuse are...
    rka111 rka111 36-40, M 3 Responses Oct 5, 2011

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    I Want To Leave But I'm Frightened

    I just feel like I've gotten in over my head and I just want peace. I want calm and maybe a little peace of mind. I realized that I'm living and dying by the smallest minutia of my job, when I know there has to be a calmer and more true life out there somewhere. I don't want the...
    somerandomnamegirl somerandomnamegirl 36-40 4 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    I am panicking. I am livid,

    seeing red. I'm so fed up with the same stresses, over and over, when I'm not even the keeper of the keys to this cage. I'm not claiming to be smarter than you; I just clearly see the solution to our problem. I see how we can rise above this, together. I offer up my own willing...
    designbycassandra designbycassandra 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 11, 2014

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    I Imagine Living A Free Life, Someday

    I finally got the courage up to leave the abuse, finally, yep. Now, he still drives me crazy. He txts me, comes to my car, asks me to talk to him all the time, wants me to do things for him. He is driving me nutty. I just want away from him, and its hard because we have 3...
    ss2012 ss2012 36-40, F Oct 6, 2012

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    Just A Thought, Well...just In-case

    I've had this thought before not too long ago. I just wonder what would happen if I disappear. Would I be missed? Would anyone look for me besides my family? Would somebody care if I'd be here one day and gone the next? I don't mean ending my own life...I'm not geared...
    indelible indelible 26-30 Jan 11, 2011

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    I Just Want To Start Again

    My life from the outside would look great. I am in college moving towards a promising career with an amazing job market. I have parents that are still together and have never been in financial trouble. But sometimes I just want to start over. Live in a city where no one knows me...
    Srey Srey 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 5, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    Getting into a university that's not in my hometown will be my only chance to start over. Majority of people who know me are going to my hometown university and I don't want to...
    IntrovertedKat IntrovertedKat 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    Has anyone ever felt to start over everything for no reason ... Why ? I feel like I'm missing something but I'm not . I felt so many times like i just wanted to walk forever and...
    cesar302 cesar302 16-17, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Rather....I am trying to start over again. The divorce papers have been filed and now just the back and forth of who gets what. Really I don't care about anything but my kids...
    jules7712 jules7712 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    Started over on Jan 2,2015 and have been going strong! It feels good
    ElissaAcosta ElissaAcosta 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    I would go back in time not to start over but to be back in time.
    psychedeliica psychedeliica 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I had the best life in the world wife for 25 years great step daughter i was a cowboy living the dream then at 46 started feeling really worn out got really hard to walk it...
    justtrash justtrash 46-50, M 4 Responses Jan 10

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    I want to start a new page . I want to forget The past ... I want to remove all the bad things in my life . Like feeling worthless @ A loser ... a ... & my self appearance ... I...
    lordeley952 lordeley952 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 15

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    Want to start a crime fighting group in plymouth Uk
    Pirate1011 Pirate1011 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    I just want to stop letting people walk all over me and just use me. I'm sick of literally having no friends. I'm sick of people talking down on me and treating me like ****. I'm...
    living06 living06 18-21, F Dec 28, 2014

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    I just want to stop letting people walk all over me and just use me. I'm sick of literally having no friends. I'm sick of people talking down on me and treating me like ****. I'm...
    living06 living06 18-21, F Dec 28, 2014

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    I just want to go away from this place and start my life all over.
    alexxvaunlennon101 alexxvaunlennon101 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I guess I watch too much Sci-fi cause every time I think I want to go back and change stuff I think about all the things I wouldn't want to change that would change if i started...
    JackisMe JackisMe 41-45, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm a sucker for fresh starts. I admit it - I'm not really that practical and rational about the new year. There's so much I could say about last year. It was incredible, it was...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 7 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    I signed up for a cancer research 5k run with a friend to raise money as she lost her mum to cancer 2 years ago but I have so little stamina! I'm starting the couch to 5k but I'm...
    flamingfangirl flamingfangirl 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    I'm thinking about farming it's been over the years always on my mind. I have an uncle who farms I just have to get started I already have another job. I would just be doing it...
    imbrekke imbrekke 31-35, M Jan 18

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    I wish I could go back in time and start everything over, make different choices. I would've finished school and not ****** off so many years. I would've done more crazy stuff that...
    deadgirlsfairytale deadgirlsfairytale 26-30, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I need some help! Women! My wife divorced me and no real reason other than she wanted to explore life. We hung out twice in the last week and we ended up getting physical...
    Rsend Rsend 36-40 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    This year my life was changed in ways I would have never expected. The divorce my mother wanted after 19 years of marriage finally came and I had to move to another state. I live...
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    at some point... i think i want to go back in time when i was deciding if i would go to college or not. i just wish i knew what i know now lol but that would be impossible. at...
    grace00001 grace00001 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 4

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    I have a new life, my life changed on the 10th January 2010. Your life can change too - here is how: This group may currently only have a few members, but the content is visible...
    tcennoC tcennoC 51-55, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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