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I Want to Disappear and Start Over

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    Is There A Way To Just Get Out Of Here?

    I know I'm very young, but I'm extremely unhappy with the way my life is. I have a habit of not treating everyone as I should, so in turn, I get treated badly. It's all my fault because I'm the one who starts the argument that essentially causes me to feel bad about myself. Why...
    TryingToGoOn TryingToGoOn 18-21, F Aug 18, 2013

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    A New Life

    Sometimes, when I feel as if I've screwed up too much, I imagine running away and starting life anew, as a different person, in a different place, with a different personality. I feel this way often, but I feel as if I did start anew, I'd only screw that up too.
    Thelonephilosopher Thelonephilosopher 16-17, M Oct 9, 2013

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    Click My Heels Three Times.....

    One...Two...Three.... I am sitting here eyes closed hopeing that I can be someone eles. Someone that no one knows. I want to be something new. I want to be... not me. To be pretty. To be smarter. Happier. Really I would be find if I was dumb and ugly, s long as I was happier, to...
    Geinger Geinger 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2011

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    Ocean

    i wish i could disappear and end up on the beach all by myself
    chantel86 chantel86 22-25, F Oct 1, 2010

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    Its All Bad

    I WANT TO DISAPPEAR AND START OVER ............ From the city i live now and the city 2 hrs from here where i lived for 5 yrs tbefore here is nothing but bad memories.wouldnt you want to get away.it starts going down hill in the city 2hrs away i started drinking as teenagers do...
    jen840005 jen840005 26-30 1 Response Dec 19, 2010

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    Disappear Into The Woods

    I want to disappear and start over. I;m tired of this life and want to be left alone for the rest of my days. i've tried trusting people but that never works one betrayal after another. I'm tired of the pain and of having to fake interest in what people are saying. i want to just...
    MyFormerSelfsShadow MyFormerSelfsShadow 18-21, M 6 Responses Aug 16, 2011

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    Invisible Scars

    I may smile and look happy most of the time but no one knows that when depression hits you everything falls down on you. no one sees these invisible scars, no one can feel your pain all you can do is just hide it and bring pain to cover the pain... doesn't make sense right? it's...
    LonelyStar101 LonelyStar101 16-17 1 Response Dec 15, 2012

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    I Imagine Living A Free Life, Someday

    I finally got the courage up to leave the abuse, finally, yep. Now, he still drives me crazy. He txts me, comes to my car, asks me to talk to him all the time, wants me to do things for him. He is driving me nutty. I just want away from him, and its hard because we have 3...
    ss2012 ss2012 36-40, F Oct 6, 2012

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    I Just Want To Start Again

    My life from the outside would look great. I am in college moving towards a promising career with an amazing job market. I have parents that are still together and have never been in financial trouble. But sometimes I just want to start over. Live in a city where no one knows me...
    Srey Srey 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 5, 2013

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    Just Want To Start Over

    I just want to start my life over i really messed up this time my wife,kids,family its all a mess i dont know
    JADA111 JADA111 36-40 1 Response Mar 3, 2011

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    The Sky

    I've taken a great appreciation to the beautiful sky. The blues an whites and im in love with the darks and grays. The purples and pinks, all of it. I realized all my life I've never knew what home was. When I cry I say I want to go home, but I'm already there so eventually I...
    KoEatsCookies KoEatsCookies 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2013

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    The Middle Of Nowhere

    Some times i feel like climbing a bus to anywhere and start a new life doing whatever.
    mariarjoseph mariarjoseph 22-25 Sep 30, 2010

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    I am panicking. I am livid,

    seeing red. I'm so fed up with the same stresses, over and over, when I'm not even the keeper of the keys to this cage. I'm not claiming to be smarter than you; I just clearly see the solution to our problem. I see how we can rise above this, together. I offer up my own willing...
    designbycassandra designbycassandra 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 11

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    Pseudocide. It is a word

    that is both beautiful and frightening. Pseudocide: the death of identity, the cessation of the self. For years-- at least half my life-- it has been an ever-present secret desire, patiently growing in my heart. I long to vanish, to recreate myself, to feel the exhilarating...
    WildMagic WildMagic 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    Leave This Life, This State, This Country

    I wish I could leave everything behind, go to another country and start my life anew. I know that I would leave my family. But, right now, it don't matter. I would give up everything, even my marriage, to start fresh.
    Chubbybellyluvr Chubbybellyluvr 36-40, M Jun 21, 2013

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    My life is crumbling down .

    I pray to god a lot and feel as if he has given up on me . I've been battling depression my whole life and it is like I'm trapped inside my own brain , I might have a mental illness . Any guy I fall in love with someone I mess it up with my crazy ways and lose them forever . My...
    byrae byrae 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    Cut All Ties With This Place

    and just go. No lease no more school no more Arizona. Just me gone and if I had a car I'd be gone and i'd live in my car. What keeps me here money or rather a complete lack thereof. I dont have a job anymore and all the income I do have is tied to financial aide from school and...
    newasexy newasexy 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 1, 2012

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    First Story....I Guess

    Well, this is the first story and I don't know if it's really a story or a moment that will wrote about something maybe silly.... First of all, my English is horrible so if have a lot mistakes, sorry ...T.T I feel like everyday i die a little bit, the truth I disappear a...
    Shiyo Shiyo 22-25, F 2 Responses May 21, 2013

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    Starting Over

    I feel I've made so many mistakes in the past - a bad marriage, indifferent jobs that I hated to go to... now I've finally got the job of my dreams with a really nice boss and I'm apathetic once again - this started with my previous job - which I hated. And now I am ruining...
    Krajbord Krajbord 51-55 2 Responses May 7, 2013

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    What If....

    what if you were to just book a ticket on a credit card to anywhere in america and walk out of the airport at the other side. what happens next? get a taxi but to where? a hotel but for how long. how would you find work with no social security number or ID. If you found work it...
    steven1105 steven1105 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 8, 2009

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    No Real Friends

    I've got no close friends at all. Most of my friends are using me. They lie. They all do. I know, but I never say it out. I wish I could get any, for at least a single day.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 2, 2013

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    Just A Thought, Well...just In-case

    I've had this thought before not too long ago. I just wonder what would happen if I disappear. Would I be missed? Would anyone look for me besides my family? Would somebody care if I'd be here one day and gone the next? I don't mean ending my own life...I'm not geared...
    indelible indelible 26-30 Jan 11, 2011

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    Help,i'm Scared

    i live where i work,i runa a 1/2 way house.i have taken this place from complete disaray,to a nice,conservative,clean,place for people with aoda,and mental health issues.my boss,is the type of person,where nothing is right.he yells,screams,the phycological,and mental abuse are...
    rka111 rka111 36-40, M 3 Responses Oct 5, 2011

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    They'd Be Better Off

    I constantly yearn for something new and different.  It seems to be a cycle of my life.  I find something/someone worthwhile and everything goes extremely well for a period of time.  Then, suddenly, I have these uncontrollable urges to change everything. ...
    jarmstrong jarmstrong 22-25 2 Responses Sep 16, 2009

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    Hope

    That thought has always been in the back of my mind....and now it keeps screaming louder and louder.I constantly feel like I am irrelevant, and just going through the motions of a life that I would rather not have. I work to jobs which I hate, I work with people who could care...
    Ariraine Ariraine 22-25, F 6 Responses May 7, 2013

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    I Want To Leave But I'm Frightened

    I just feel like I've gotten in over my head and I just want peace. I want calm and maybe a little peace of mind. I realized that I'm living and dying by the smallest minutia of my job, when I know there has to be a calmer and more true life out there somewhere. I don't want the...
    somerandomnamegirl somerandomnamegirl 36-40 4 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    How do you start over that's what i need to know how do you stop loving someone that you have been with for 17 years a person that you built your whole life around a person that...
    monica0215 monica0215 51-55, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Yup. New fresh start. I'm not new to EP, I just deleted my last account, I'm starting over. I have a past I'm ready to leave behind, I've been holding on to it for way to long...
    createglamour createglamour 22-25, F Nov 15

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    I said college would be a rebirth experience for me, because I truly am starting from zero. But in order to start over successfully, I needed to have already gained the skills...
    Shamandora Shamandora 16-17, F Nov 14

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    Start over my whole life. My school problems. My relationships with my mom and dad. Don't wanna have sisters and be a lone child forever. I wish life just had a replay button then...
    VitaniTheLioness VitaniTheLioness 13-15, F Nov 12

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    I am an empty nester. My only daughter moved out, not to college, but because she. hates me. It has been just the two of us for 27 years. Now I sit in an empty house, no friends...
    NO12TALK2 NO12TALK2 56-60, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    EP deleted my account and now i have to start over .... ughhhh hopefully my friends will find me again !!!!
    missjessc missjessc 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 16

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    I want to start a band if u live in the uk I wirral and if your 13-17 message me
    mollieelloyd mollieelloyd 13-15, F Nov 3

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    Ive always wanted to start a rock band! My inspiration is Fall Out Boy😍 Im an alright singer but i know with practice i will get better. If anybody wants to be in an awesome...
    sweetraven15 sweetraven15 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 16

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    I want to start a death metal band xDD
    teddy714 teddy714 13-15, M 2 days ago

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    I want to start a lo-fi experimental band but nobody in my area is likes that kind of music
    nadthedad nadthedad 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I wish I shut up and listened more to the words he said, the hurt he felt. I wish I saw the signs because they were everywhere and recurring. I wish I didn't break his heart over...
    Wanderer25 Wanderer25 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 9

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    If I could start all over, I would...
    kikisalamo22 kikisalamo22 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 8

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    I really wish we could. I don't know who you are anymore.. I just want to call you a liar and get angry, but part of me just wants you to come out as YOU. covering everything up...
    SubmissiveSecrets SubmissiveSecrets 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I don't think it would be a completely fresh start but I think if I had the chance I would get into the medical field right out of school instead of waiting like I did. Then again...
    Tomorrowsday Tomorrowsday 26-30, M Oct 29

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    On my way to view my new flat!! Can't wait to get sorted over there :-) hope everyone is doing good today or tonight :-)
    Youmeansomething Youmeansomething 18-21, M Nov 15

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    Then I would still have you and DL wouldn't have control over how you feel once I'm done with him.
    ShyGuy990 ShyGuy990 22-25, M Nov 15

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    My love is 23 years older than me. We met a few years ago online via AgeMeet.com. At the beggining of the year we got back into contact and basically fell in love over phone and...
    sarahc11 sarahc11 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Leaving a marriage that has sucked the life out of me. Getting my own place, taking control of my own life. Meeting new people, planning an adventurous trip. Starting again is...
    secretsnvrtobetold secretsnvrtobetold 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    It's easy to start one but hard to keep it going. My bestfriend and I made a charity "Give a Smile" foundation , its main focus is to give joy to children , especially...
    PinkLipstick00 PinkLipstick00 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I am a doctor and thinking of starting an old age home and also a place which will provide Palliative care here in Bangalore, India.I don't have much idea about how to start this...
    sarikrita sarikrita 41-45, F 1 day ago

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    I've decided I need to lose weight. I'm going to start modifying my diet but I seem to lack motivation to exercise. I'm thinking about joining a gym but I'm worried I'll be stuck...
    eaarcher93 eaarcher93 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 28

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    I have been dreaming about moving away from the city that I was raised in. I imagine myself creating a new name for myself and I imagine myself creating a new sense of wonder about...
    KelseyLeigh123 KelseyLeigh123 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 15

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