I Want to Disappear For a While

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 504 People

    I Just Want A Break

    I am an average teenage girl, with an average life that I love. I'm in an organization in my high school that I love, my friends are great and I get to spend alot of time with them. Currently my dad is working over seas but I have adapted and my mother and I have learned to...
    15kimie 15kimie
    13-15
    1 Response Sep 15, 2011

    I Want To Walk Down The Road And Not Being Seen For Five Years.

    I want to get away... climb a mountain, or go to the edge of a big cliff and sit... and reminisce about life. I don't know... just to get away from my stressful life... and leave.Perhaps one day i'll do it. :)
    ForeverDrriii ForeverDrriii
    16-17, F
    Mar 5, 2011

    I have 2 moods overall.

    One in which I would love to chat with everyone and then one where I don't want to talk to anyone. If I'm not on here for awhile and your trying to talk with me then don't worry, I'll eventually get back to you. Let me escape my mood, and get things going to where I want to chat...
    AusgustSerene AusgustSerene
    18-21, F
    Sep 30, 2015

    My Family Is Ruining Me

    I need time to find myself. I need time to fix myself. I can't deal with my food issues if every time I go home my mom shoves food down my throat. I can't deal with my stress issues if every time I talk to my family they stress me out. I wish I could just disappear for a little...
    EmptyInside EmptyInside
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 3, 2007

    One day I'll runaway .

    Who knows if I'll even come back at that point .
    princessxsuicide princessxsuicide
    16-17, F
    Oct 1, 2015
    soullessnight000 soullessnight000
    13-15, F
    1 Response Oct 9, 2015

    Half Way There.

    if i did disappear then noone would really care there are no significant others in my life ,i am alone and self sufficient and i have tried to form a happy life for myself but there are always people stronger than me willing to take away my individual efforts for what i have...
    blarneystone blarneystone
    36-40
    Jul 6, 2011

    Fade Away And Maybe Never Come Back

    I tried blending in. I tried to be the nice quiet girl. I tried being a great person. But life just won't let me! So I just want to fade away, and for once, smile because I want to.
    tinkerbellhey tinkerbellhey
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Oct 28, 2012

    I Want To Get Away

    I would like to start off by saying that my life really isnt hard or difficult to deal with. I have a job thats good but not great, im married, i have a wonderful son. Some how i have reached a point in my life where i no longer want to do this. It sounds terrible but it is how i...
    bigju1985 bigju1985
    22-25
    1 Response Dec 11, 2010

    I don't want to be me anymore.

    I try to be nice, honest, decent to people, and then they walk all over me and treat me like I'm nothing. I watch amazing people swoon over my disgusting sister, fall in love with my selfish friends, and if I so much as try to be friends with another person it feels like I'm...
    antihero98 antihero98
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 22, 2015

    Never Seem To Be Where I Need To Be

    Just wanna run, not look back, reach for things that I always thought were out of my reach. Go go GO!
    jennyandthebets jennyandthebets
    46-50, F
    Sep 2, 2013

    Unsure

    It took me a long time to love myself. Battling depression, anxiety.....sometimes I'm still unsure. It's an everyday struggle.
    msnc msnc
    22-25
    Aug 23, 2013

    "I Want To Disappear Right Now!"

     When life gets tough and I feel like everything is getting me down. When I really don't want to face the world any more.  To just disappear for a while......... I would absolutely love it!.................. Just so long as I can take a very special friend with me!
    teeny09 teeny09
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Aug 23, 2011
    Emilypebble Emilypebble
    18-21
    1 Response Nov 22, 2015

    Just Dont Know

    Well im 27 i have 2 wonderful kids...Here lately i have been going through atime in my life where i just semto be confused on everything...4 months ago my wife filed for divorce on me, about a month went by and i found out her and her x was seeing each other again...at this time...
    Lonnie610 Lonnie610
    26-30, M
    Dec 1, 2009

    Yes It Will Be So Good

    it will be so good if i did disappear now , just for a while ... maybe for 4-5 years ... it is a good while , isn't ?lol :P but don't say to disappear means to sleep or something like that .. NO .. i want to travel away .. to see the beauty ... i am bored of ugliness ... i...
    listenup listenup
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 6, 2010

    Overworked, Overtired, Way Over 40, and Way Under Appreciated.

    I am married to a man who, through his history of excesses, is now disabled from a stroke. He continues to work but (probably due to effects of his stroke) is even more distant and emotionally unavailable than ever. We are not sexually active and have not been for many, many...
    pixie101 pixie101
    61-65
    Jul 9, 2009

    A Nice Sunny Beach And A Fruity Drink Are Waiting For Me Somewhere I Swear!

    More so lately I have this feeling where I just want to disappear for awhile to have a break. I am the full time care giver for my daughter and her father does not live close and does not come to visit very often. So I find my self at my wits end most days, just wanting some...
    indyjonesmama indyjonesmama
    26-30, F
    Jun 20, 2010

    I don't care about anything

    or anybody anymore...
    antihero98 antihero98
    16-17, F
    May 12, 2015

    Until I Finished Transitioning

    I live in a small town where everyone thinks that everything is their business and that they have the right to judge others. This has made my transition so much harder. I would so love it if I could just disappear until after I a have finished transitioning.
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise
    36-40, T
    Apr 3, 2013

    Just Tired

    I'm know I'm young and supposed to have energy and should be out having the time of my life and blah, blah, blah...but I'm freakin' tired! I wish I had the money to allow myself to get away from school, church, family, small-town crap, drama, and bills. I wish I could just fly...
    justatime justatime
    22-25, F
    Dec 6, 2011

    Never Good Enough

    Went out and bought a cast iron griddle and a nice big rib eye steak. Seasoned the griddle, seasoned the steak. Threw the steak on the hot griddle and listening  to the awesome sound of that sizzle as I made homemade mashed potatoes. My steak cut like butter and melted in my...
    Micherella Micherella
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 18, 2012

    Not Suicide, But Disappear

    I'm in my mid (well.. who am i lying), I'm in my late twenty and trying to get into a MBA program. I know i have a great life, my parents gave me a nice life, no money worry, they will always support me, gave me a real nice place to live, and all. I don't have a lot of...
    waver0605 waver0605
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Sep 6, 2009

    He Loves Me He Loves Me Not

    Ok I often sit pondering...Does he Love me? I know he Loves me, but there are moments that I forget. I need to stop over analyzing things I guess.
    Micherella Micherella
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 23, 2012

    Me Too

    Bye for awhile....SM
    mother1983 mother1983
    31-35, F
    Aug 19, 2011

    Why Life Is Like This?

    Ok. Now its 9:30 pm almost time to go to sleep. I have school tomorrow. Why are everybody so stupid?? peoples acts like they know u but then the other day they don't really do. I am tired of all these peoples sometimes i think i'm ugly or something thats SUCKSS
    pepe305 pepe305
    16-17
    Apr 2, 2012

    I'm Lost...

    I wish I could just disappear right now... It's hard growing up as a young girl, and all you can think about is getting married, having kids, and having a happily ever after. When you suddenly realize there is no happily ever after, really. I did end up running away from everyone...
    MaZ2011 MaZ2011
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 6, 2011
    Boombutterflyeffect Boombutterflyeffect
    16-17, F
    Nov 24, 2015

    Sometimes I honestly wish

    that I would fall down a great big dark whole, an just sit there for a good long wile.
    antihero98 antihero98
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 22, 2015

    Had an abusive ex for 12 years,

    2 kids then met someone new 1 more kid, black sheep to my mother,tired of needing my help but want me doing bad n he loves me but I'm troubled by my past wish could've done better for my kids,wish I could disappear for awhile,,,n just breath
    jeanni jeanni
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jan 30, 2014

    Next Act: The Vanishing Girl

    There is a certain allure to the idea of of running off somewhere secret where no one knows my name or anything about me for an indefinite amount of time and simply existing as I am, and not how people remember me.   To start over, so to speak.    In reality I'd be...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 13, 2011

    Things just suck right now,

    kinda wanna go on a walk tonight and never come back, just keep walking... **** everyone and everything
    WentAway WentAway
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 14

    I'm feeling so depressed right now.

    ..I just fell like leaving everything behind. I feel like I'm living someone else's life. I've spoken to my husband about my dreams and the things I would like to do in my life but we never do any of them. I feel stuck. I need to do things for me...I'm beginning to forget the...
    soleil2611 soleil2611
    31-35, F
    1 Response Sep 19, 2014

    I have this extreme desire to just disappear.

    .for as long as I feel I need to. To just leave and find myself and experience new things and go to places I've never been. But I want to come back, just replenished, as a better person, actually happy and alive for the first time. I just need the money and stuff to do it :/
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 8

    I Don't Want To Be Me Anymore, Wish I Could Disappear

    I have been feeling this way for a while now, I have made such a mess of things where I am that the only way out is for me to no longer exist. I have messed up at work, with my friends, my family and I don't speak anymore, finacially I am ok but I should be better. I have been...
    blackdagger82 blackdagger82
    26-30
    Apr 27, 2011

    Sometimes

    Sometimes,I wanna disappear,The scum-bags,In this place,Not worth knowing,Talking to,So shallow,Open their traps,Without even thinking!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Feb 23, 2012

    I cant take my life. Everyday its something

    else theres just no letting up I get no breaks and when I need someone in my corner the most thats when I have no one. I always feel alone even though im always surrounded. No one feels what I feel. No one even feels for me. No one aknowledges me except to tear me down. No one...
    Ananimuss Ananimuss
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 23, 2014

    Day In The Life Of Me

    I wake up at 3am to feed my 5 month old daughter. Go back to bed wake up at 5am to feed my oldest daughter. Drop the girls off at daycare then work. 2:30 pm back to daycare to pick girls up then home to start prepping dinner... Needless to say I'm always on the go. I feel like...
    Tegcs288 Tegcs288
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 8, 2012

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