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I Want to Disappear

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    Feeling: Tired I want to disappear.

    just for a day or two. no phone calls, no emails no messaging unless I call, or messsage or want to get online to look up something on urban dictionary. no pressure no demands no... my heart pounds because i know I should answer this, but I just don't want to. but I have to...
    SweetKiester SweetKiester 41-45, F 3 Responses Aug 3, 2014

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    Led From This World

    To go missing from this place. From family and friends, from husband and pets. What does it really mean to be ripped from everything, and shown just what happened; while I was away. For those who have seen the edges of this world, where there are cliffs higher than the tall sky...
    RoseSparrows RoseSparrows 26-30 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    Sometimes I really wish I could im over my

    family and I'm over people from school I have no one I can trust or believe even if they tell me I'm pretty no matter how many times I don't believe it I've been hurt all threw my life people from school say I'm not good enough that I'm ugly and I'm always going to be alone. I...
    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful 18-21, F Nov 14, 2014

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    And feel nothing while it happens.

    As if with a POOF my pain and suffering would end
    chocolatecurlz chocolatecurlz 18-21, F Dec 20, 2014

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    I love my family but being a stay at home mom

    with four kids 8,2,and 6 month old twin boys. By the end of the day I wish I could close my eyes and just breath. My husband just don't understand. I feel like I have Boone I can talk to.
    trl242317 trl242317 26-30, F 5 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    Fade Away

    First of all hello everyone out there, I am Misty. It's not like my life is full of miseries or bad luck but the thing is this mind of mine keeps playing tricks on me, once in a few months I feel totally down and spiral ling down into the deep dark hole of negativism and...
    Misty9190 Misty9190 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 17, 2009

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    I want to disappear from my life,

    but I want to observe my life for a distance. I want to see how people would act without me. I want to see what they do. Its hard to explain. It's like I want to be a stalker but not in that way. It's more of a dead spy. Like Ethan Hunt, just watching in the distance, blends in...
    emilesfault emilesfault 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 31, 2014

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    I want to disappear Gone with the wind- Simply

    so light, Carried far, very far Don't look at me that way As I drag this blade across my skin These scars hide the real me The one I want to hide They hide me, cover me Make me a different person I love you I love you Turns into I hate you I hate you I want you...
    Psychxdelic Psychxdelic 16-17, F Nov 13, 2014

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    I want to close my eyes

    and never wake up from the world I have built in my imagination
    Angel2345 Angel2345 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 26, 2014

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    I love my swing. It's there

    for me when I want to disappear, the way it's so peaceful so calming it's my only escape now days.
    Scaredmonster Scaredmonster 16-17, F Feb 17

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    killlian killlian 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I understand that we make our own purpose.

    .. that nothing is set before us, or that would mean it is pre-determined. But I see no purpose in my existence. I see no purpose in anything. I really want to disappear. Just not exist anymore. I don't contribute much to this society. If anything, I am just taking up space and...
    obscureriddle obscureriddle 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    Far Away From the World

    I just want to go, run, leave this hell that I've managed to live in for so long. I can't do this and I don't know what made me think I could. I try and I try to be a good person, to help others, those less fortunate than myself but I still feel the pain, hurt, disapproval of...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 5 Responses Nov 9, 2007

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    Here I Am Again...

    Again at home Its 9:30 late at night With 2 options run away and smoke maybe come back later Keep sitting here feel my tears running down my cheeks Listening to some depressing music Watching videos of people cutting them self, suicide ect.. looking into the dark wondering why I...
    iminpain iminpain 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 28, 2010

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    I want to vanish into thin air.

    Just leave, tonight, and stay gone for at least a while. No being online either. Not to draw attention (I'd leave a message telling my family not to worry) but to change something, you know? No matter how hard I try, it always feels like I'm running in circles. I want to break...
    SpaceTurtle SpaceTurtle 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 12

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    I laid there unconscious in my bathroom floor.

    I was slowly slipping away. My body grew cold, I struggled to scream but nothing would come out of my mouth. I could feel my blood flooding onto the cold hard bathroom floor. Now that I was like this, I was scared to die. I slowly closed my eyes knowing that I couldn't scream, I...
    XxOutOfLovexX XxOutOfLovexX 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 1, 2014

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    I can't handle this anymore.

    i think I might go away, maybe if I go somewhere new, where no one knows me ill be okay. I can keep to myself and maybe then ill be okay. I just can't. I'm leaving, even if I have to walk. I don't know where I'm going but I'm leaving now.
    Jaybugg Jaybugg 26-30, F 7 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    Anonymity

    Scarification of the fingertips. Certificate of death for the name & number I was assigned at birth. Off the grid, no identification, no photos, no cell or email. no credit cards. No social security. No arrest history. No traceable records whatsoever. Hunt, fish, and farm. Build...
    mierdamundo mierdamundo 31-35 Oct 19, 2013

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    Like into thin air and never let noone know

    what happened to me. I want to start over again somewhere new or somewhere old just that it isnt here. I had an car accident that opened my eyes and mind. I cant recognize myself nor my friends.. I see the good i really do but when i look at them i see all the memories that we...
    ManFromEarth ManFromEarth 18-21, M Dec 17, 2014

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    I wish I could disappearance.

    Maybe one day I will. I'm tired of the double standard. I don't want to find common ground. I want to forget your existence. Forever.
    beautifulloner beautifulloner 22-25, F Oct 11, 2014

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    and I don't just mean physically.

    I don't want to just vanish. I want my very being to be nonexistent. I need any trace of anything that has ever been a representation of me to just go *poof*
    forthosebetterdays forthosebetterdays 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 13, 2014

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    No

    i did want to disapear fade away, but no more, am gonna live my life and enjoy it to the fullest.yes i will face hard times it wont always be easy but am gonna face things head on. i dont want to waste another moment here in this world.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 9, 2010

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    All Bonds Ripped Asunder

    Trapped. It's how I feel sometimes. I've never revealed who I really am to anyone. As such, I've been molded into who they think I am. To break free of that, to release who I am upon the world...ah such freedom. To be able to do what I want, go where I want, and to not have...
    KnightBlade KnightBlade 36-40, M 5 Responses May 10, 2009

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    To Vanish

    to be free of the numbing in my chest, to finally feel nothing. I already lost everything because everyone took them away from me.Revenge rule's my lead but wouldn't it just be easier to eternally sleep just to rise to a place that i could actually call home
    c0dachan c0dachan 13-15, F 1 Response May 29, 2013

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    Why is it that when we chase something we truly

    want they always seem to push us away and when we finally give up and find someone that appreciate you they always want to come back there comes a point in time when it's a little to late I'm tired of the run around and I don't settle for second best. I still have feelings bit I...
    missyluvslilies missyluvslilies 26-30, F Jan 16

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    I have this thought for a long time.

    But I've never got the guts to do it. Sometimes I wish that I can just disappear to somewhere new, where no one knows me. Sometimes I have the thought of killing my self. But then I was scared of the pain. I have a boyfriend that I've been with for almost two years. Last year...
    hRtXIII hRtXIII 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    Right now. I don't want anything,

    Except to disappear. Not to have to see, or hear, or smell, or taste, or be a part of anything. I just want to stop existing. But I don't want to stop existing alone. I don't want to be alone.
    NearAsFarCanBe NearAsFarCanBe 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    I have never been this sad,

    I want someone to help me escape all of this. I want to vanish without a trace, I want my family to think I'm dead and forget about me. I want to live somewhere else, enjoy being 22 without them holding me down.
    Saaa08 Saaa08 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 28, 2014

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    Gone

    i want to be gone!just fly away a never be seen from again..no one likes me any way
    KidFlaky KidFlaky 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 26, 2013

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    Why why doesn't anybody understand me?

    Why doesn't my mom tell my sister to stop hitting me? Why doesn't anybody understand I Have feelings too? Why why??
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 15, 2014

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    29, Going On 90.

    I like to believe that I have lived my life with no regrets - as I've learned from my mistakes, some more than others, and I do have lots to be thankful for.  I've wanted to disappear long before things ever got "bad" for me in the adult world of financial burdens, etc.  I...
    eMonkey eMonkey 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 23, 2012

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    I want to dissapear i hate myself

    and ruin everything
    annoying143 annoying143 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2014

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    I need help. I did something unforgivable.

    I feel like I cant breathe. I want to scream. I hate myself more than I could possibly hate anything. I am afraid of myself right now. I need help.
    sikandtired93 sikandtired93 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    I Want To Leave Myself Behind

    I don't want to die. I'm not particularly miserable, and I don't hate myself. I don't want to leave my home or my family. I want to shed everything my life has been up to this point like an insect sheds its cocoon. I want to wipe myself off of the pages of the book and begin my...
    GirlvsWorld GirlvsWorld 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 11, 2013

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    I realise the majority of the experiences I

    post are in relation to disappearing, or struggling with my want to disappear. I hope that by putting it down somewhere maybe I can let go of the thought from my head. I'm scared. It's all I can think about lately. I am having a really hard time wanting to be here. The only...
    LeBonBon LeBonBon 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 17, 2014

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    Time I Was On My Way.

    i've been thinking of leaving for quite some time now. i even have a few places picked out. i'm just scared i won't find what i'm looking for...  but that's part of the adventure, isn't it? i'm going to completely reinvent myself, no one will know me, the person i am now...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 28, 2007

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    want to erase everything.

    .. just want to say good bye
    juryandrews juryandrews 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    Everything around me is determined to eclipse

    my existence. I hate being bound by other people. I want to disappear and start over, but it feels like I will never get away from people who only want to erase me.
    StringsofSolace StringsofSolace 16-17, F Oct 17, 2014

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    cloudsalazar cloudsalazar 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 19, 2014

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    My Perfect World

    You have reasons to lived for, I have none It's not my situation what make me think the way I think It's all together, It's the memory of a life lived half way through It's the projects I have never finish It's the exhaustion of trying to find something that doesn't exist at...
    Mags40 Mags40 41-45, F 2 Responses Feb 26, 2013

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    And never to be seen

    or found again. Practically dead.
    LIFEGOESON805 LIFEGOESON805 16-17, M Nov 14, 2014

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    All I wanna do is disappear

    until maybe I'm happy. But that'll never happen. So instead of disappearing, just let me die.
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 21, 2014

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    I'm stressing out because I feel

    so disorganized, I feel like I have no motivation. I feel so empty. My mom's upset because haven't been helping around the house and I tried to explain to her it's because how I've been feeling and the amount of school work I have, but I either can't explain it well or no one...
    ABrokenDream ABrokenDream 16-17, F Oct 27, 2014

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    I use to get bullied

    and old memories are recreating themselves in my head and it's killing me. Im getting urges to cut myself again and I want to die. I have an amazing boyfriend and my friends are supportive and all but I can't help but feel that I don't belong. I try pushing the urges further...
    doomed4lyfe15 doomed4lyfe15 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2014

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    Be Forgotten, Disappear

    I don't know how long it's been since I first had this thought "I want to disappear". All I know is that it doesn't let go of me anymore and that it comes back more and more often the more time passes by. Everyday on the way to school I wish that there's some accident...
    Miyazaki Miyazaki 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2009

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    i want to disappear and never show up ,

    just dont want to live anymore i got enough of this life ,,,,, i wish i disappear really bad , i just want to die since i'm not meant to live
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 15, 2014

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    It's Just Easier That Way.

     ever since i can remember ive thought of this. dissapearing. and it's not that i wan't to die it's just that it would be so much easier to not exist. ever. im tired of everythinG. everything goes wrong. i feel sometimes as if just trying to be happy...it's to much worl to...
    litaStar litaStar 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2009

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