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I Want to Disappear

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    Scarification of the fingertips. Certificate of death for the name & number I was assigned at birth. Off the grid, no identification, no photos, no cell or email. no credit cards. No social security. No arrest history. No traceable records whatsoever. Hunt, fish, and farm. Build...
    mierdamundo mierdamundo 31-35 Oct 19, 2013

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    And then reappear somewhere else.

    . Like teleportation.
    kRypt0lite kRypt0lite 22-25 May 26

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    That'd be nice. Disappearing.

    Not existing. Completely gone. Finally at peace. Not having to deal with what others say and do anymore. Disappearing would be wicked nice right now. I just need to disappear and never come back.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 2 Responses May 27

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    why can't I be brave enough to die?

    I'm already so f*cking coward to live...
    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 2 Responses Apr 23

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    Right now. I don't want anything,

    Except to disappear. Not to have to see, or hear, or smell, or taste, or be a part of anything. I just want to stop existing. But I don't want to stop existing alone. I don't want to be alone.
    NearAsFarCanBe NearAsFarCanBe 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    Sometimes I really wish I could im over my

    family and I'm over people from school I have no one I can trust or believe even if they tell me I'm pretty no matter how many times I don't believe it I've been hurt all threw my life people from school say I'm not good enough that I'm ugly and I'm always going to be alone. I...
    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful 18-21, F Nov 14, 2014

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    I feel the urge and need to stop existing.

    If someone could make me disappear, that would be great.
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 1

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    I wish I could make it stop.

    The feeling where you want to crawl into a ball and disappear. Anything and everything that happens, it makes me feel this way and I wish I could make it stop. Nobody understands. You can't just get over it. Anxiety is her name and she's here to stay.
    beautifulloner beautifulloner 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 26

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    I want to go and never return.

    I'm invisible to the world anyway
    agirlwhodoesntenjoylife agirlwhodoesntenjoylife 16-17, F Jul 4

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    from people that know me.

    I want to fly to heaven and avoid this mess I have created and love myself maximally and be loved by love . And I want this dream to actually come true .
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow 16-17, F May 8

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    I want to go, escape this world quietly.

    Silently. I can't cope with the pain anymore. I have wasted away to a shell so i am effectively dead already. Even these words feel hollow. Everything is hollow. I have brought people nothing but pain and don't deserve to be here. I don't belong in this cruel world. I am just...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    xXwendellXx xXwendellXx 13-15, F Apr 27

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    To Vanish

    to be free of the numbing in my chest, to finally feel nothing. I already lost everything because everyone took them away from me.Revenge rule's my lead but wouldn't it just be easier to eternally sleep just to rise to a place that i could actually call home
    c0dachan c0dachan 16-17, F 1 Response May 29, 2013

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    It is so tempting. So often,

    I have thought about buying a bus ticket, getting a friend to drop me off at the station, and just leaving it all behind. Going somewhere new, meeting new people, being a new person where no one knows who I am. No pre-conceived notions of who I should be. It is sounding better...
    thewholetruthandnothingbut thewholetruthandnothingbut 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I wanna leave thats y I'm leaving

    and not ever turning back
    Tianalovesher Tianalovesher 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 19

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    I hate the feeling of not knowing what to do

    with yourself or not knowing where to go. The feeling of wanting to be nowhere and wanting to explode into nothing. The feeling that you're not needed anywhere and that you don't belong anywhere. Those are the moments I want to disappear.
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520 18-21, F 1 Response May 27

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    I've been working on disappearing.

    Inch by inch, pound by pound, one little bit at a time. Some day I'll be air.
    thepooloftears thepooloftears 26-30 2 Responses Apr 12

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    my husband tells me to pay the internet,

    so I go and take care of that. afterwards I go to drive home and hit the curb while turning and blow my tire out and had some damage to our van. while calling for roadside assistants I mentioned I got into a small accident because of the damage, so now my husband is upset...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    I just wish I could get away from everyone I

    know. I wish I could be alone. I feel so ******* ignored. I just want to ******* disappear.
    lenomo lenomo 16-17, M Jun 21

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    I so want to disappear.

    my life is beyond my energy now. my son is having cancer treatment and it is hell. I feel I cant do this anymore. he does not care anymore, he is so low. I feel so low
    amylee12 amylee12 46-50, F May 26

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    i cry myself to sleep almost every night.

    im so lonely. i just want to leave n never look back. my own fiance doesnt even know im so depressed, if he even cares anymore. i feel like everyone would be better if i just left.
    cooper3366 cooper3366 31-35, F 5 Responses Aug 1

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    Lately I've noticed I only mess things up,

    or disappoint people, or just say the wrong things and make someone angry when I didn't mean whatever they thought I meant... At least if I'm gone, fewer things will be messed up, not many people will be disappointed and less people will become perturbed by me saying stupid...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M 2 Responses May 26

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    I love my swing. It's there

    for me when I want to disappear, the way it's so peaceful so calming it's my only escape now days.
    Scaredmonster Scaredmonster 16-17, F Feb 17

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    Change my name,number,

    quit my job, ditch my car for a diff one, and delete all social media. Start over and never look back.
    Disobey247 Disobey247 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 18

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    I have never been this sad,

    I want someone to help me escape all of this. I want to vanish without a trace, I want my family to think I'm dead and forget about me. I want to live somewhere else, enjoy being 22 without them holding me down.
    Saaa08 Saaa08 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 28, 2014

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    Not forever just for a little

    while I need time away from the bullshit, the drama, and the yelling.
    HeSetsMeOnFireAhh HeSetsMeOnFireAhh 36-40, F Jul 31

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    All I wanna do is disappear

    until maybe I'm happy. But that'll never happen. So instead of disappearing, just let me die.
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 18-21, F Feb 21, 2014

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    I'm not anywhere anyone wants me to be at this

    age and despite wanting to take it easy and figure myself out, that doesn't seem to be an option. Moving doesn't seem to be an option. I can't see where I'll be in the next 3 months.
    StringedAlong StringedAlong 18-21, F Jun 24

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    No

    i did want to disapear fade away, but no more, am gonna live my life and enjoy it to the fullest.yes i will face hard times it wont always be easy but am gonna face things head on. i dont want to waste another moment here in this world.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 9, 2010

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    I wanna disappear too,

    but.... I wanna go to a place that's far away from where I am now, and start a new life there.... My current daily routine isn't very exciting.... I can bet you a million dollars that if some popular kid who hangs out with his/her friends a lot and is irresponsible and mean and...
    salmon140301 salmon140301 13-15, F Jun 9

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    Yep. Off the face of the Earth.

    Leaving no trace behind. That would work out nicely. Life is too hard. Just too much to handle sometimes, especially around this time. Trying to be understood and accepted by family. If I just disappeared then there would be nothing to worry about. Nothing to do. Nowhere to be...
    Give2Schitts Give2Schitts 13-15, T Apr 7

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    My Story

    Just like any other 10 year old girl, I loved my parents and relatives, friends too. Okay, I was a bit different. I loved everything. I loved life. My parents were always fighting, arguing. I didn't care, they fought before and they ALWAYS made up. This time seemed to be...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 25, 2013

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    I feel I have lost everything.

    I am so tired of pretending I am happy for the sake of others when my world is crashing down on me. I don't have the energy anymore. I can't sleep, I am sad, lonely, angry, depressed and I feel empty inside. Everytime something starts to go right so much wrong happens. This...
    LadyLacey LadyLacey 41-45, F 3 Responses Jun 8

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    Would You?

    This world has so much beauty to offer, except others make it so hard for us to experience it. You can't even swim in a river because someone owns it. Did they create it? No , and thus GTFO. Because of the retarded society today I'm thinking more and more about how it would be...
    elvisguitar elvisguitar 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 3, 2011

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    Far Away From the World

    I just want to go, run, leave this hell that I've managed to live in for so long. I can't do this and I don't know what made me think I could. I try and I try to be a good person, to help others, those less fortunate than myself but I still feel the pain, hurt, disapproval of...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2007

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    Everywhere I look I'm reminded of you,

    but when I look within I only see the person you destroyed... The oblivion you've brought into my life.... And I feel unappealing now... Like no woman will ever truly want me or find me attractive, I'm the stepping stone, not the destination, I want to just disappear, and watch...
    ddmagnum ddmagnum 22-25, M Apr 25

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    Feeling: Tired I want to disappear.

    just for a day or two. no phone calls, no emails no messaging unless I call, or messsage or want to get online to look up something on urban dictionary. no pressure no demands no... my heart pounds because i know I should answer this, but I just don't want to. but I have to...
    SweetKiester SweetKiester 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 3, 2014

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    Why why doesn't anybody understand me?

    Why doesn't my mom tell my sister to stop hitting me? Why doesn't anybody understand I Have feelings too? Why why??
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 15, 2014

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    I can't handle this anymore.

    i think I might go away, maybe if I go somewhere new, where no one knows me ill be okay. I can keep to myself and maybe then ill be okay. I just can't. I'm leaving, even if I have to walk. I don't know where I'm going but I'm leaving now.
    Jaybugg Jaybugg 26-30, F 6 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    just not doing well. A lot going on.

    not wanting to face people. struggling with things and exhausted. just wish I could hide.
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 4 Responses Jul 31

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    Feeling: Tired I want to disappear.

    just for a day or two. no phone calls, no emails no messaging unless I call, or message or want to get online to look up something on urban dictionary. no pressure no demands no... my heart pounds because i know I should answer this, but I just don't want to. but I have to so I...
    SvveetKiester SvveetKiester 41-45, F 8 Responses Jul 31

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    Be Forgotten, Disappear

    I don't know how long it's been since I first had this thought "I want to disappear". All I know is that it doesn't let go of me anymore and that it comes back more and more often the more time passes by. Everyday on the way to school I wish that there's some accident...
    Miyazaki Miyazaki 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2009

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    Alone Already

    I am alone already. So can someone please tell me, what is seriouslly the point, of hanging around, and being alone. Whats the point sitting through the pain of beign alone, and facing the tears and the urges alone. And please don't say I'm not alone, because you don't know how I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    Theendisirrelevant Theendisirrelevant 13-15, F a week ago

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    I just want to disappear,

    fade into the shadows and fall off the grid, forever.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 22

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