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I Want to Disappear

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    It's been a while since I've posted anything,

    and in that space of time my mental health has really gone downhill. My family and I have just come back from two trips (one to Japan and one to NYC), but I couldn't let myself have fun there because my dad kept breathing down on my neck for just about everything. The way I eat...
    CeltyKazma6848 CeltyKazma6848 13-15, F Jul 27

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    Gone

    i want to be gone!just fly away a never be seen from again..no one likes me any way
    KidFlaky KidFlaky 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 26, 2013

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    My Story

    Just like any other 10 year old girl, I loved my parents and relatives, friends too. Okay, I was a bit different. I loved everything. I loved life. My parents were always fighting, arguing. I didn't care, they fought before and they ALWAYS made up. This time seemed to be...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 25, 2013

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    I want to close my eyes

    and never wake up from the world I have built in my imagination
    Angel2345 Angel2345 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 26

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    Sometimes

     i mean it two different ways depending on what im feeling :P some times i just want to melt into the air and cease to exist...other times i just want to appear somewhere random, away from HERE. :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Nov 29, 2009

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    It's Just Easier That Way.

     ever since i can remember ive thought of this. dissapearing. and it's not that i wan't to die it's just that it would be so much easier to not exist. ever. im tired of everythinG. everything goes wrong. i feel sometimes as if just trying to be happy...it's to much worl to...
    litaStar litaStar 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2009

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    I want to disappear into thin air

    and I don't want to come back. But I probably won't do that
    outcastx outcastx 16-17 1 Response Aug 27

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    Everything around me is determined to eclipse

    my existence. I hate being bound by other people. I want to disappear and start over, but it feels like I will never get away from people who only want to erase me.
    StringsofSolace StringsofSolace 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    Anonymity

    Scarification of the fingertips. Certificate of death for the name & number I was assigned at birth. Off the grid, no identification, no photos, no cell or email. no credit cards. No social security. No arrest history. No traceable records whatsoever. Hunt, fish, and farm. Build...
    mierdamundo mierdamundo 31-35 Oct 19, 2013

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    Anyone have any good ideas

    or plans on how to do this?
    MrFlirt202 MrFlirt202 46-50, M 5 Responses Sep 20

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    If I stay in my room,

    I know the kids will come knock on my door eventually. My wife might come and ask if I'm okay. I can't talk to them without hurting them, unless I pretend that everything's ok, unless I lie. What's the use telling them how I feel, they can't help me. Last night I was...
    Aeonian Aeonian 51-55, M 4 Responses Jul 26

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    I want to dissapear i hate myself

    and ruin everything
    annoying143 annoying143 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    Led From This World

    To go missing from this place. From family and friends, from husband and pets. What does it really mean to be ripped from everything, and shown just what happened; while I was away. For those who have seen the edges of this world, where there are cliffs higher than the tall sky...
    RoseSparrows RoseSparrows 26-30 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    I can't handle this anymore.

    i think I might go away, maybe if I go somewhere new, where no one knows me ill be okay. I can keep to myself and maybe then ill be okay. I just can't. I'm leaving, even if I have to walk. I don't know where I'm going but I'm leaving now.
    Jaybugg Jaybugg 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 6

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    My Perfect World

    You have reasons to lived for, I have none It's not my situation what make me think the way I think It's all together, It's the memory of a life lived half way through It's the projects I have never finish It's the exhaustion of trying to find something that doesn't exist at...
    Mags40 Mags40 41-45, F 2 Responses Feb 26, 2013

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    i dont like my gf saying it

    but i see y she does
    mabynah mabynah 13-15, M Jul 27

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    People try to tell me

    that things get better, but when? Im still sitting in this darkness and its annoying me because everything is a living hell. I dont belong anywhere, not even home. I just want to leave this planet... Theres just too much pain and suffering...
    AndThereTheButterfliesFlew AndThereTheButterfliesFlew 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 20

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    I wish I could disappearance.

    Maybe one day I will. I'm tired of the double standard. I don't want to find common ground. I want to forget your existence. Forever.
    DontMsgMe DontMsgMe 22-25, F Oct 11

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    I love my family but being a stay at home mom

    with four kids 8,2,and 6 month old twin boys. By the end of the day I wish I could close my eyes and just breath. My husband just don't understand. I feel like I have Boone I can talk to.
    trl242317 trl242317 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 19

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    i want to disappear and never show up ,

    just dont want to live anymore i got enough of this life ,,,,, i wish i disappear really bad , i just want to die since i'm not meant to live
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 15

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    I want to disappear from my life,

    but I want to observe my life for a distance. I want to see how people would act without me. I want to see what they do. Its hard to explain. It's like I want to be a stalker but not in that way. It's more of a dead spy. Like Ethan Hunt, just watching in the distance, blends in...
    emilesfault emilesfault 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 31

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    Who Should I Be?

    Call me Az, yeah that's it, my name, I really love it. I wish I could tell you everything..of everything about me, but it's really hard to get to know me..I don't even think that I know myself... I don't know what's wrong with me, my past begins to seem blur in my mind, and I'm...
    HakujitsuSeiten HakujitsuSeiten 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2012

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    I have and did for two weeks i spent a week off

    here and no one cared and I'm about to disappear for years....I tired of these feelings I keep having =(
    Kelloggz90 Kelloggz90 22-25, F Apr 18

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    No

    i did want to disapear fade away, but no more, am gonna live my life and enjoy it to the fullest.yes i will face hard times it wont always be easy but am gonna face things head on. i dont want to waste another moment here in this world.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 9, 2010

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    sadsadness sadsadness 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 3

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    Be Forgotten, Disappear

    I don't know how long it's been since I first had this thought "I want to disappear". All I know is that it doesn't let go of me anymore and that it comes back more and more often the more time passes by. Everyday on the way to school I wish that there's some accident...
    Miyazaki Miyazaki 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2009

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    Escape Plan

    I'm so sad I don't know how to express this anger, this sadness even writing won't work couldn't cry anymore I don't know what should I do to make them understand, it hurts for me, I even hate myself, because I don't know how to let go I want to know the truth, before I left...
    Nelangsa Nelangsa 22-25, T 1 Response Sep 8, 2013

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    Right now. I don't want anything,

    Except to disappear. Not to have to see, or hear, or smell, or taste, or be a part of anything. I just want to stop existing. But I don't want to stop existing alone. I don't want to be alone.
    NearAsFarCanBe NearAsFarCanBe 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    I dated my ex boyfriend

    when I was 23 and he was 34. I thought he was an angel at first. We were engaged twice. He just walked away from me with no explanation each time. The last time was when my dad died. That's not all either. He tried to force himself on me sexually 3 times when we were together...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 1 Response Jul 9

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    I don't know why but my mom doesn't like me.

    She's really friendly toward other people's kids but she hardly talks to me. But when she talks to me, it's either she's cursing me or she wants something from me. She was never the type who'd ask me if I was ok or check if I'm still breathing. Most of the time, I wish I wasn't...
    ireallyhatemyself ireallyhatemyself 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 4

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    I don't really know why.

    I have a good life and there isn't anything in particular I want to change, but I just feel like there's no point. I don't understand what the point was to exist in the first place. Give it to someone who cares. I never asked to exist. Once I'm gone everything will be...
    DarkerWaters1917 DarkerWaters1917 18-21 1 Response Aug 4

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    All Bonds Ripped Asunder

    Trapped. It's how I feel sometimes. I've never revealed who I really am to anyone. As such, I've been molded into who they think I am. To break free of that, to release who I am upon the world...ah such freedom. To be able to do what I want, go where I want, and to not have...
    KnightBlade KnightBlade 36-40, M 5 Responses May 10, 2009

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    It is just hardly feel alive

    and no one seem to recognize that i am eager to talk normal talks with anyone... I am just like in need of some space where people can talk with me about everything without being judged. I want to feel loved and not ignored. I want to have a job to make me busy but it is a wish...
    Egyptianguy34 Egyptianguy34 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    Time I Was On My Way.

    i've been thinking of leaving for quite some time now. i even have a few places picked out. i'm just scared i won't find what i'm looking for...  but that's part of the adventure, isn't it? i'm going to completely reinvent myself, no one will know me, the person i am now...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 28, 2007

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    Why why doesn't anybody understand me?

    Why doesn't my mom tell my sister to stop hitting me? Why doesn't anybody understand I Have feelings too? Why why??
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 15

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    I'd rather be a ghost

    or that dark quite one in the back no one knows about
    MerpR MerpR 16-17, F 1 Response May 19

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    I laid there unconscious in my bathroom floor.

    I was slowly slipping away. My body grew cold, I struggled to scream but nothing would come out of my mouth. I could feel my blood flooding onto the cold hard bathroom floor. Now that I was like this, I was scared to die. I slowly closed my eyes knowing that I couldn't scream, I...
    XxOutOfLovexX XxOutOfLovexX 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 1

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    I freakin hate myself.

    That feels strangely good to get out there.
    PrettyEyesBrokenSmile PrettyEyesBrokenSmile 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    I really wish I could.

    Hide myself away for a while.
    Inthepr0cess Inthepr0cess 22-25, F Aug 22

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    All I wanna do is disappear

    until maybe I'm happy. But that'll never happen. So instead of disappearing, just let me die.
    noahjames47 noahjames47 16-17, T 1 Response Feb 21

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    I'm abandoning this account

    for a while, maybe forever. There's this whole stupid process to delete your account now and I really don't have the energy to do it. So I'm going to delete the app on my phone. I'm happy I've met at least one decent person on here.. Anyways, bye.
    Inthepr0cess Inthepr0cess 22-25, F Aug 30

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    Would You?

    This world has so much beauty to offer, except others make it so hard for us to experience it. You can't even swim in a river because someone owns it. Did they create it? No , and thus GTFO. Because of the retarded society today I'm thinking more and more about how it would be...
    elvisguitar elvisguitar 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 3, 2011

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    Can I Just Start Over ?

    I want to go somewhere far away and restart, I want to go AWOL and let no one contact me. The ones that truly care would probably find me but no one knows me well enough to know where I want to go. I want to go to New Zealand and live and start fresh. Is that to much to ask for?
    Tyes Tyes 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 29, 2013

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    To Vanish

    to be free of the numbing in my chest, to finally feel nothing. I already lost everything because everyone took them away from me.Revenge rule's my lead but wouldn't it just be easier to eternally sleep just to rise to a place that i could actually call home
    c0dachan c0dachan 13-15, F 1 Response May 29, 2013

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    I was in a real dark place last year.

    I was always in that place but last year I really thought of just disappearing from everything or welcoming death. Then something amazing happened I had a self revalation that i was going to feel better about myself and i started to i thought i was finally going to get back on...
    craiglovesyou craiglovesyou 31-35, M Jul 31

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    29, Going On 90.

    I like to believe that I have lived my life with no regrets - as I've learned from my mistakes, some more than others, and I do have lots to be thankful for.  I've wanted to disappear long before things ever got "bad" for me in the adult world of financial burdens, etc.  I...
    eMonkey eMonkey 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 23, 2012

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    I use to get bullied

    and old memories are recreating themselves in my head and it's killing me. Im getting urges to cut myself again and I want to die. I have an amazing boyfriend and my friends are supportive and all but I can't help but feel that I don't belong. I try pushing the urges further...
    doomed4lyfe15 doomed4lyfe15 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Feeling: Tired I want to disappear.

    just for a day or two. no phone calls, no emails no messaging unless I call, or messsage or want to get online to look up something on urban dictionary. no pressure no demands no... my heart pounds because i know I should answer this, but I just don't want to. but I have to...
    SweetKiester SweetKiester 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 3

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    Alone Already

    I am alone already. So can someone please tell me, what is seriouslly the point, of hanging around, and being alone. Whats the point sitting through the pain of beign alone, and facing the tears and the urges alone. And please don't say I'm not alone, because you don't know how I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    Fade Away

    First of all hello everyone out there, I am Misty. It's not like my life is full of miseries or bad luck but the thing is this mind of mine keeps playing tricks on me, once in a few months I feel totally down and spiral ling down into the deep dark hole of negativism and...
    Misty9190 Misty9190 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 17, 2009

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    I have never been this sad,

    I want someone to help me escape all of this. I want to vanish without a trace, I want my family to think I'm dead and forget about me. I want to live somewhere else, enjoy being 22 without them holding me down.
    Saaa08 Saaa08 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 28

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    I Want To Leave Myself Behind

    I don't want to die. I'm not particularly miserable, and I don't hate myself. I don't want to leave my home or my family. I want to shed everything my life has been up to this point like an insect sheds its cocoon. I want to wipe myself off of the pages of the book and begin my...
    GirlvsWorld GirlvsWorld 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 11, 2013

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    AlwaysPersevere71 AlwaysPersevere71 41-45, M Jun 21

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    Here I Am Again...

    Again at home Its 9:30 late at night With 2 options run away and smoke maybe come back la