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I Want to Disappear

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    Yep. Off the face of the Earth.

    Leaving no trace behind. That would work out nicely. Life is too hard. Just too much to handle sometimes, especially around this time. Trying to be understood and accepted by family. If I just disappeared then there would be nothing to worry about. Nothing to do. Nowhere to be...
    Give2Schitts Give2Schitts 13-15, T Apr 7, 2015

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    Would You?

    This world has so much beauty to offer, except others make it so hard for us to experience it. You can't even swim in a river because someone owns it. Did they create it? No , and thus GTFO. Because of the retarded society today I'm thinking more and more about how it would be...
    elvisguitar elvisguitar 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 3, 2011

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    i cry myself to sleep almost every night.

    im so lonely. i just want to leave n never look back. my own fiance doesnt even know im so depressed, if he even cares anymore. i feel like everyone would be better if i just left.
    cooper3366 cooper3366 31-35, F 4 Responses Aug 1, 2015

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    Alone Already

    I am alone already. So can someone please tell me, what is seriouslly the point, of hanging around, and being alone. Whats the point sitting through the pain of beign alone, and facing the tears and the urges alone. And please don't say I'm not alone, because you don't know how I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    Fade Away

    First of all hello everyone out there, I am Misty. It's not like my life is full of miseries or bad luck but the thing is this mind of mine keeps playing tricks on me, once in a few months I feel totally down and spiral ling down into the deep dark hole of negativism and...
    Misty9190 Misty9190 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 17, 2009

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    Be Forgotten, Disappear

    I don't know how long it's been since I first had this thought "I want to disappear". All I know is that it doesn't let go of me anymore and that it comes back more and more often the more time passes by. Everyday on the way to school I wish that there's some accident...
    Miyazaki Miyazaki 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2009

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    Today the weight of my existance I try to push

    off. My eyelids carry a heaviness that torments with sorrow every daylight moment. I lament having created so many attachments complicating a departure.
    Dominantvelvet Dominantvelvet 46-50, M Dec 16, 2015

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    I hate the feeling of not knowing what to do

    with yourself or not knowing where to go. The feeling of wanting to be nowhere and wanting to explode into nothing. The feeling that you're not needed anywhere and that you don't belong anywhere. Those are the moments I want to disappear.
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520 18-21, F 1 Response May 27, 2015

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    Why why doesn't anybody understand me?

    Why doesn't my mom tell my sister to stop hitting me? Why doesn't anybody understand I Have feelings too? Why why??
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 15, 2014

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    Theendisirrelevant Theendisirrelevant 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2015

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    "Maybe you should just fall,

    and leave the world and lose it all, if that's what you need to finally see, I'll be with you through it all!"~Nothing More
    typicallymisunderstood typicallymisunderstood 13-15, F Sep 11, 2015

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    To Vanish

    to be free of the numbing in my chest, to finally feel nothing. I already lost everything because everyone took them away from me.Revenge rule's my lead but wouldn't it just be easier to eternally sleep just to rise to a place that i could actually call home
    c0dachan c0dachan 16-17, F 1 Response May 29, 2013

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    If I had a place to go I'd run away.

    Willing to exchange something for a place to stay for a few days before moving on to the next place. Seriously considering doing it at this point. Just want to see the world and escape the problems that are around me right now.
    icecoldheart1518 icecoldheart1518 16-17, F Jan 31

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    This pegs me exactly right now.

    Lowest of lows, memories swarming in from the entirety of my life. Friends lost, family gone. Their faces haunting me with the promise that I'll never forget. The things I never said, the things I did say when I should have kept my mouth shut. I wish I could just crawl under a...
    GreenEyedFox GreenEyedFox 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 1

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    It is so tempting. So often,

    I have thought about buying a bus ticket, getting a friend to drop me off at the station, and just leaving it all behind. Going somewhere new, meeting new people, being a new person where no one knows who I am. No pre-conceived notions of who I should be. It is sounding better...
    thecutestpanda thecutestpanda 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 23, 2015

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    I want to go away, forever.

    My parents would've been much happier if they had aborted me as a child. I am constantly just a nuisance, a bother, a financial burden. My older brother is perfect. The one that alway obeys. When I was a child, I told myself I'd kill myself by the time I turned thirteen. That...
    earlyexit earlyexit 22-25, F Dec 24, 2015

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    I keep thinking to myself

    why am I so confined and restricted to stay where I am because I'm binded by laws. Yes it's my fault I got into a lot of legal trouble and I'm Stuck unable to even leave the state. But the world is so vast so why am I stuck sitting in this god forsaken middle of nowhere town...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 11, 2015

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    cashetty69 cashetty69 51-55, M Nov 26, 2015

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    My Story

    Just like any other 10 year old girl, I loved my parents and relatives, friends too. Okay, I was a bit different. I loved everything. I loved life. My parents were always fighting, arguing. I didn't care, they fought before and they ALWAYS made up. This time seemed to be...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 25, 2013

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    Boombutterflyeffect Boombutterflyeffect 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    Feeling: Tired I want to disappear.

    just for a day or two. no phone calls, no emails no messaging unless I call, or message or want to get online to look up something on urban dictionary. no pressure no demands no... my heart pounds because i know I should answer this, but I just don't want to. but I have to so I...
    SvveetKiester SvveetKiester 41-45, F 9 Responses Jul 31, 2015

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    Lately I've felt overwhelmingly alone unloved &

    rejected. I don't have any interest in close friends and no matter how hard I try, can't seem to associate with them like I used to. Not surprisingly, they don't seem bothered by it at all and happily carry on with themselves. I have so much piled on my plate with work and...
    potatoesily potatoesily 16-17, F Oct 14, 2015

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    Bombshellbarbie Bombshellbarbie 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 17, 2015

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    i screwed up this evening.

    .. already felt depressed and now feel horrible... just wanting to disappear. :(
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 6, 2015

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    I have had all I can take

    and I don't want to deal with anything any longer. At least I would be at peace if I was on my own.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    Sometimes

     i mean it two different ways depending on what im feeling :P some times i just want to melt into the air and cease to exist...other times i just want to appear somewhere random, away from HERE. :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Nov 29, 2009

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    Sometimes I really wish I could im over my

    family and I'm over people from school I have no one I can trust or believe even if they tell me I'm pretty no matter how many times I don't believe it I've been hurt all threw my life people from school say I'm not good enough that I'm ugly and I'm always going to be alone. I...
    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful 18-21, F Nov 14, 2014

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    my husband tells me to pay the internet,

    so I go and take care of that. afterwards I go to drive home and hit the curb while turning and blow my tire out and had some damage to our van. while calling for roadside assistants I mentioned I got into a small accident because of the damage, so now my husband is upset...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2015

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    I've been working on disappearing.

    Inch by inch, pound by pound, one little bit at a time. Some day I'll be air.
    thepooloftears thepooloftears 26-30 2 Responses Apr 12, 2015

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    I feel I have lost everything.

    I am so tired of pretending I am happy for the sake of others when my world is crashing down on me. I don't have the energy anymore. I can't sleep, I am sad, lonely, angry, depressed and I feel empty inside. Everytime something starts to go right so much wrong happens. This...
    LadyLacey LadyLacey 46-50, F 3 Responses Jun 8, 2015

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    I'm starting to regret moving altogether.

    Nearly been a year and I'm still living out of my suitcase. As welcoming as Dad is, I don't feel home here. I can't build a life unless he helps me. Maybe I should pack up and move back.
    Bobbiin Bobbiin 18-21, F Jan 27

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    WynterSolstice WynterSolstice 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2015

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    No

    i did want to disapear fade away, but no more, am gonna live my life and enjoy it to the fullest.yes i will face hard times it wont always be easy but am gonna face things head on. i dont want to waste another moment here in this world.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 9, 2010

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    to vanish from this mortal plain,

    and leave nere a memory to remain. to quit this game of foolish rage to be no more uppon the stage. the lies of life to murder truth, the face of evil shows its proof. the soul to burn like sacred flame till only ashes do remain. to wander far from distant shores that i may...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    just not doing well. A lot going on.

    not wanting to face people. struggling with things and exhausted. just wish I could hide.
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 36-40, F 4 Responses Jul 31, 2015

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    fayth2015 fayth2015 31-35, F Oct 25, 2015

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    dqtxeb25 dqtxeb25 22-25, F Oct 31, 2015

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    I just feel like anyone i hates me.

    I don't like when they see me happy and they bring me down because they enjoy my misery,i just want to fade away because i'm just going to end up being some old,faded memory that nobody cares about
    Psychoimagination14 Psychoimagination14 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 11, 2015

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    All I wanna do is disappear

    until maybe I'm happy. But that'll never happen. So instead of disappearing, just let me die.
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 18-21, F Feb 21, 2014

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    i want to hide, disappear,

    not be seen, or something.... my 6 year old threw a huge tantrum. he stomped his feet, screamed his head off, and making such a commotion. we live in an apartment. i sure hope my neighbors doesn't call the cops from all the noise. i feel so embarrassed. cops were called on me...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2015

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    Will anyone talk to me?

    Just random ****, nothing special.
    Theendisirrelevant Theendisirrelevant 13-15, F Oct 24, 2015

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    I feel the urge and need to stop existing.

    If someone could make me disappear, that would be great.
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 1, 2015

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    I want to go, escape this world quietly.

    Silently. I can't cope with the pain anymore. I have wasted away to a shell so i am effectively dead already. Even these words feel hollow. Everything is hollow. I have brought people nothing but pain and don't deserve to be here. I don't belong in this cruel world. I am just...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 3, 2015

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    Feeling: Tired I want to disappear.

    just for a day or two. no phone calls, no emails no messaging unless I call, or messsage or want to get online to look up something on urban dictionary. no pressure no demands no... my heart pounds because i know I should answer this, but I just don't want to. but I have to...
    SweetKiester SweetKiester 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 3, 2014

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