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I Want to Disappear

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    I love my swing. It's there

    for me when I want to disappear, the way it's so peaceful so calming it's my only escape now days.
    Scaredmonster Scaredmonster 16-17, F Feb 17

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    I hate the feeling of not knowing what to do

    with yourself or not knowing where to go. The feeling of wanting to be nowhere and wanting to explode into nothing. The feeling that you're not needed anywhere and that you don't belong anywhere. Those are the moments I want to disappear.
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Its been said that "You've made your bed,

    now lie on it." Well I don't want to anymore. I want to change that ******* bed. I want to disappear. I have been suffocating for a while now. Forced to breath when I have to show that I'm okay. And by doing that I show or tell lies. Which will add to my burden and will make my...
    areYoureallyhere areYoureallyhere 22-25, F Mar 15

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    happinessallday happinessallday 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Far Away From the World

    I just want to go, run, leave this hell that I've managed to live in for so long. I can't do this and I don't know what made me think I could. I try and I try to be a good person, to help others, those less fortunate than myself but I still feel the pain, hurt, disapproval of...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 5 Responses Nov 9, 2007

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    xXwendellXx xXwendellXx 13-15, F Apr 27

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    I need help. I did something unforgivable.

    I feel like I cant breathe. I want to scream. I hate myself more than I could possibly hate anything. I am afraid of myself right now. I need help.
    sikandtired93 sikandtired93 18-21, F Feb 18

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    Okay so today someone went on my phone today

    and then saw I had ep and they stared at it like they knew what it was and then knew who I was. So now I am going to disappear for a while... Till this has all blown over. I love you guys thanks so much for all the help. Goodluck everyone Don't worry I will come back.:)
    Scaredmonster Scaredmonster 16-17, F Feb 24

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    That'd be nice. Disappearing.

    Not existing. Completely gone. Finally at peace. Not having to deal with what others say and do anymore. Disappearing would be wicked nice right now. I just need to disappear and never come back.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I just want to be gone,

    away from all of this. I'm already pretty much invisible to those who "care" about me, only a few people actually make me feel like I'm noticed, but that number is dwindling. I want to disappear to get away from glaring eyes and hateful words, from the image in the mirror, from...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98 16-17, F Mar 17

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    Everywhere I look I'm reminded of you,

    but when I look within I only see the person you destroyed... The oblivion you've brought into my life.... And I feel unappealing now... Like no woman will ever truly want me or find me attractive, I'm the stepping stone, not the destination, I want to just disappear, and watch...
    ddmagnum ddmagnum 22-25, M Apr 25

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    I feel like isolating myself

    and not talking to anyone for a couple wks not even this guy I like at church... He called to ask if j we're going and I really don't care I just want to be alone. I feel depressed and sad! I'm happiest when I'm alone. I dislike being around ppl I like to consider myself a loner...
    missyluvslilies missyluvslilies 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    Saigatatarica Saigatatarica 18-21, F Apr 7

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    Be Forgotten, Disappear

    I don't know how long it's been since I first had this thought "I want to disappear". All I know is that it doesn't let go of me anymore and that it comes back more and more often the more time passes by. Everyday on the way to school I wish that there's some accident...
    Miyazaki Miyazaki 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2009

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    Alone Already

    I am alone already. So can someone please tell me, what is seriouslly the point, of hanging around, and being alone. Whats the point sitting through the pain of beign alone, and facing the tears and the urges alone. And please don't say I'm not alone, because you don't know how I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    Sometimes I think, "What would it be like

    if I were to disappear?" Not dissolve into thin air, but just pack my bags and leave. Just leave town without any of my family knowing. I won't tell them (or any of my friends) where I'm going. I would not leave a note, a text, no nothing. Just get up and leave. To me...
    Peridot22 Peridot22 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 17

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    My Story

    Just like any other 10 year old girl, I loved my parents and relatives, friends too. Okay, I was a bit different. I loved everything. I loved life. My parents were always fighting, arguing. I didn't care, they fought before and they ALWAYS made up. This time seemed to be...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 25, 2013

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    I do want to disappear.

    Maybe not forever, but for an extended period of time. I would like to become someone else for awhile. Some person completely different than me. Just to experience not having the responsibilities of everyday things now. Would I like the new me better? Would I choose to stay in...
    jrf9782 jrf9782 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    I can't handle this anymore.

    i think I might go away, maybe if I go somewhere new, where no one knows me ill be okay. I can keep to myself and maybe then ill be okay. I just can't. I'm leaving, even if I have to walk. I don't know where I'm going but I'm leaving now.
    Jaybugg Jaybugg 26-30, F 7 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    Lately I've noticed I only mess things up,

    or disappoint people, or just say the wrong things and make someone angry when I didn't mean whatever they thought I meant... At least if I'm gone, fewer things will be messed up, not many people will be disappointed and less people will become perturbed by me saying stupid...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I want to go, escape this world quietly.

    Silently. I can't cope with the pain anymore. I have wasted away to a shell so i am effectively dead already. Even these words feel hollow. Everything is hollow. I have brought people nothing but pain and don't deserve to be here. I don't belong in this cruel world. I am just...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    Anonymity

    Scarification of the fingertips. Certificate of death for the name & number I was assigned at birth. Off the grid, no identification, no photos, no cell or email. no credit cards. No social security. No arrest history. No traceable records whatsoever. Hunt, fish, and farm. Build...
    mierdamundo mierdamundo 31-35 Oct 19, 2013

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    To Vanish

    to be free of the numbing in my chest, to finally feel nothing. I already lost everything because everyone took them away from me.Revenge rule's my lead but wouldn't it just be easier to eternally sleep just to rise to a place that i could actually call home
    c0dachan c0dachan 13-15, F 1 Response May 29, 2013

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    why can't I be brave enough to die?

    I'm already so f*cking coward to live...
    HowToFixASoul HowToFixASoul 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 23

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    Sometimes

     i mean it two different ways depending on what im feeling :P some times i just want to melt into the air and cease to exist...other times i just want to appear somewhere random, away from HERE. :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Nov 29, 2009

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    Fade Away

    First of all hello everyone out there, I am Misty. It's not like my life is full of miseries or bad luck but the thing is this mind of mine keeps playing tricks on me, once in a few months I feel totally down and spiral ling down into the deep dark hole of negativism and...
    Misty9190 Misty9190 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 17, 2009

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    Yep. Off the face of the Earth.

    Leaving no trace behind. That would work out nicely. Life is too hard. Just too much to handle sometimes, especially around this time. Trying to be understood and accepted by family. If I just disappeared then there would be nothing to worry about. Nothing to do. Nowhere to be...
    Give2Schitts Give2Schitts 13-15, T Apr 7

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    Erase Myself

    i constantly have this urge to disappear. to run away from the life i have, change my name and start over. i guess in a sense its not about disappearing entirely but just erasing my old life and starting a new one, becoming someone else. i want to reinvent myself as exactly who...
    GirlAnachronism13 GirlAnachronism13 18-21, F 11 Responses Feb 11, 2010

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    Feeling: Tired I want to disappear.

    just for a day or two. no phone calls, no emails no messaging unless I call, or messsage or want to get online to look up something on urban dictionary. no pressure no demands no... my heart pounds because i know I should answer this, but I just don't want to. but I have to...
    SweetKiester SweetKiester 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 3, 2014

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    This would be fantastic!

    :D To just slip away in the middle of the night, travel far far away from here with nothing but my headphones and my wits. Start completely from scratch in a new country, take a new name, start working. It would be perfect. A new place where everyone's a stranger and I keep...
    TheScotlandGuy TheScotlandGuy 18-21, M Mar 26

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    Right now. I don't want anything,

    Except to disappear. Not to have to see, or hear, or smell, or taste, or be a part of anything. I just want to stop existing. But I don't want to stop existing alone. I don't want to be alone.
    NearAsFarCanBe NearAsFarCanBe 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    I have this thought for a long time.

    But I've never got the guts to do it. Sometimes I wish that I can just disappear to somewhere new, where no one knows me. Sometimes I have the thought of killing my self. But then I was scared of the pain. I have a boyfriend that I've been with for almost two years. Last year...
    hRtXIII hRtXIII 22-25, F Jan 2

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    want to erase everything.

    .. just want to say good bye
    juryandrews juryandrews 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    I want to close my eyes

    and never wake up from the world I have built in my imagination
    Angel2345 Angel2345 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 26, 2014

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    No

    i did want to disapear fade away, but no more, am gonna live my life and enjoy it to the fullest.yes i will face hard times it wont always be easy but am gonna face things head on. i dont want to waste another moment here in this world.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 9, 2010

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    Why is it that when we chase something we truly

    want they always seem to push us away and when we finally give up and find someone that appreciate you they always want to come back there comes a point in time when it's a little to late I'm tired of the run around and I don't settle for second best. I still have feelings bit I...
    missyluvslilies missyluvslilies 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    And then reappear somewhere else.

    . Like teleportation.
    kRypt0lite kRypt0lite 22-25 a week ago

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    from people that know me.

    I want to fly to heaven and avoid this mess I have created and love myself maximally and be loved by love . And I want this dream to actually come true .
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow 16-17, F May 8

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    Why why doesn't anybody understand me?

    Why doesn't my mom tell my sister to stop hitting me? Why doesn't anybody understand I Have feelings too? Why why??
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 15, 2014

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    All Bonds Ripped Asunder

    Trapped. It's how I feel sometimes. I've never revealed who I really am to anyone. As such, I've been molded into who they think I am. To break free of that, to release who I am upon the world...ah such freedom. To be able to do what I want, go where I want, and to not have...
    KnightBlade KnightBlade 36-40, M 5 Responses May 10, 2009

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    All I wanna do is disappear

    until maybe I'm happy. But that'll never happen. So instead of disappearing, just let me die.
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 21, 2014

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    I have never been this sad,

    I want someone to help me escape all of this. I want to vanish without a trace, I want my family to think I'm dead and forget about me. I want to live somewhere else, enjoy being 22 without them holding me down.
    Saaa08 Saaa08 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 28, 2014

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    Someday, I think I'll disappear

    for good. Move somewhere else and leave my friends and family behind and never look back. When that day comes, that'll be the last time they have ever heard of me or saw me. My loved ones are better off without me. So, I think it's time to say goodbye forever.
    Peridot22 Peridot22 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 11

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    I've been working on disappearing.

    Inch by inch, pound by pound, one little bit at a time. Some day I'll be air.
    thepooloftears thepooloftears 26-30 2 Responses Apr 12

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    I so want to disappear.

    my life is beyond my energy now. my son is having cancer treatment and it is hell. I feel I cant do this anymore. he does not care anymore, he is so low. I feel so low
    amylee12 amylee12 46-50, F a week ago

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    It's Just Easier That Way.

     ever since i can remember ive thought of this. dissapearing. and it's not that i wan't to die it's just that it would be so much easier to not exist. ever. im tired of everythinG. everything goes wrong. i feel sometimes as if just trying to be happy...it's to much worl to...
    litaStar litaStar 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2009

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