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I Want to Disappear

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    Fade Away

    First of all hello everyone out there, I am Misty. It's not like my life is full of miseries or bad luck but the thing is this mind of mine keeps playing tricks on me, once in a few months I feel totally down and spiral ling down into the deep dark hole of negativism and...
    Misty9190 Misty9190 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 17, 2009

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    Have you ever heard news

    that you never thought you'd hear? And didn't know how to respond or react to it? Have you ever loved someone that can never be yours? The aching in your heart so great that you feel useless, like you can't move, in fear of falling apart? The man I love, my best guy friend, has...
    DeJeKlu DeJeKlu 18-21, F Apr 11

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    Far Away From the World

    I just want to go, run, leave this hell that I've managed to live in for so long. I can't do this and I don't know what made me think I could. I try and I try to be a good person, to help others, those less fortunate than myself but I still feel the pain, hurt, disapproval of...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 5 Responses Nov 9, 2007

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    All I wanna do is disappear

    until maybe I'm happy. But that'll never happen. So instead of disappearing, just let me die.
    noahjames47 noahjames47 16-17, T 1 Response Feb 21

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    Why why doesn't anybody understand me?

    Why doesn't my mom tell my sister to stop hitting me? Why doesn't anybody understand I Have feelings too? Why why??
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 15

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    I Want To Erase My Existence

    I feel that all my life, all I have been doing is hurting people, people I love. If I continue to exist, I will just continue to hurt others. I know that to be hurt and to hurt others are the human way of life, that it is inevitable. We realize our existences and our true selves...
    Hanan88 Hanan88 18-21 2 Responses Jun 11, 2013

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    Erase Myself

    i constantly have this urge to disappear. to run away from the life i have, change my name and start over. i guess in a sense its not about disappearing entirely but just erasing my old life and starting a new one, becoming someone else. i want to reinvent myself as exactly who...
    GirlAnachronism13 GirlAnachronism13 18-21, F 10 Responses Feb 11, 2010

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    I just want to disappear

    and never come back..no one needs me, so what's the point of staying? I'm getting tired of waking up everyday to a pointless life that's not worth living. I just want to go away for awhile..start over..let go of all my worries and insecurities for awhile. I just want to...
    NarikoHana NarikoHana 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 25

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    Sometime I think I just want to leave

    and go abroad. Go to a country I've never been and just travel.
    anna1145 anna1145 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 17

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    I have never been this sad,

    I want someone to help me escape all of this. I want to vanish without a trace, I want my family to think I'm dead and forget about me. I want to live somewhere else, enjoy being 22 without them holding me down.
    Saaa08 Saaa08 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 28

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    To Vanish

    to be free of the numbing in my chest, to finally feel nothing. I already lost everything because everyone took them away from me.Revenge rule's my lead but wouldn't it just be easier to eternally sleep just to rise to a place that i could actually call home
    c0dachan c0dachan 13-15, F 1 Response May 29, 2013

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    I can't handle this anymore.

    i think I might go away, maybe if I go somewhere new, where no one knows me ill be okay. I can keep to myself and maybe then ill be okay. I just can't. I'm leaving, even if I have to walk. I don't know where I'm going but I'm leaving now.
    Jaybugg Jaybugg 22-25, F 8 Responses Jan 6

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    Melt

    Do you ever have one of those days where you wish you could melt into the floor and disappear? I get that feeling sometimes. Mostly when I'm embarrassed, worried, afraid, or under pressure. Right now it's under pressure and worried. It over something so small too. But for...
    afterthought12 afterthought12 22-25, F Jul 25, 2013

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    Here I Am Again...

    Again at home Its 9:30 late at night With 2 options run away and smoke maybe come back later Keep sitting here feel my tears running down my cheeks Listening to some depressing music Watching videos of people cutting them self, suicide ect.. looking into the dark wondering why I...
    iminpain iminpain 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 28, 2010

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    Sometimes

     i mean it two different ways depending on what im feeling :P some times i just want to melt into the air and cease to exist...other times i just want to appear somewhere random, away from HERE. :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Nov 29, 2009

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    It's Just Easier That Way.

     ever since i can remember ive thought of this. dissapearing. and it's not that i wan't to die it's just that it would be so much easier to not exist. ever. im tired of everythinG. everything goes wrong. i feel sometimes as if just trying to be happy...it's to much worl to...
    litaStar litaStar 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2009

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    If I could become small

    and disappear Beneath your shield I'd have no fear If I could shrink and fade away Safe in your arms I'd long to stay
    SpiritQuest2014 SpiritQuest2014 46-50, F Feb 13

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    Alone Already

    I am alone already. So can someone please tell me, what is seriouslly the point, of hanging around, and being alone. Whats the point sitting through the pain of beign alone, and facing the tears and the urges alone. And please don't say I'm not alone, because you don't know how I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    Led From This World

    To go missing from this place. From family and friends, from husband and pets. What does it really mean to be ripped from everything, and shown just what happened; while I was away. For those who have seen the edges of this world, where there are cliffs higher than the tall sky...
    RoseSparrows RoseSparrows 26-30 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

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    Misunderstandings....

    lies after lies....from ppl u trust....i feel so bad right now...ppl spread false rumors and im the wrong one in this story....wth....they look at u smiling....but once u turn around they stab u....ppl who u believe ur friends....i know im not perfect..i do a lot of mistakes...
    ardesia ardesia 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    My Story

    Just like any other 10 year old girl, I loved my parents and relatives, friends too. Okay, I was a bit different. I loved everything. I loved life. My parents were always fighting, arguing. I didn't care, they fought before and they ALWAYS made up. This time seemed to be...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 25, 2013

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    Can I Just Start Over ?

    I want to go somewhere far away and restart, I want to go AWOL and let no one contact me. The ones that truly care would probably find me but no one knows me well enough to know where I want to go. I want to go to New Zealand and live and start fresh. Is that to much to ask for?
    Tyes Tyes 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 29, 2013

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    There are so many mistakes I've made in my life

    and because they won't leave me alone, I wish I could disappear. All it takes is something small to trigger all the memories of my mistakes to come crashing back like the worlds biggest wave. I hate knowing every day that my brother hates me so much that he wishes I was dead...
    rdhdstepchld rdhdstepchld 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    Whats The Point Of School

    im so upset with myself. i graduated from college, i don't even feel educated. i have no energy to look for work after i was terminated from a job i hated. i moved with my partner to his parents camp ground to open a food truck, our relationship fell apart, i had to go, it was...
    Ix6o Ix6o 26-30 Oct 27, 2013

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    I Want to Ride Off Into the Sunset!

    I want to ride of into the sunset and leave all of my worries and trials of this earth behind. Right now!
    Candita Candita 22-25, F 6 Responses May 21, 2007

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    Time I Was On My Way.

    i've been thinking of leaving for quite some time now. i even have a few places picked out. i'm just scared i won't find what i'm looking for...  but that's part of the adventure, isn't it? i'm going to completely reinvent myself, no one will know me, the person i am now...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 28, 2007

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    Hi

    i feel the same way i feel like im dying inside i have borderline personality disorder im in so much pain im hating life and dont want to be here either i know i should be enouraging i feel like im not even here i think i need to get help i hate depression i also cant cry and i...
    happycamperallday happycamperallday 46-50, F Sep 8, 2013

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    Would You?

    This world has so much beauty to offer, except others make it so hard for us to experience it. You can't even swim in a river because someone owns it. Did they create it? No , and thus GTFO. Because of the retarded society today I'm thinking more and more about how it would be...
    elvisguitar elvisguitar 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 3, 2011

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    Escape Plan

    I'm so sad I don't know how to express this anger, this sadness even writing won't work couldn't cry anymore I don't know what should I do to make them understand, it hurts for me, I even hate myself, because I don't know how to let go I want to know the truth, before I left...
    Nelangsa Nelangsa 22-25, T 1 Response Sep 8, 2013

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    Anxiety-living In General

    Soo...I am about to be 30. I have lived a long pretty full life up until a few years ago. That is when it happened....if you get grossed out easily, please stop reading! I lived with a roommate in a place that had bad mold. I got an infection and would spit up buckets of phlem...
    Katvondim Katvondim 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 23, 2013

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    All Bonds Ripped Asunder

    Trapped. It's how I feel sometimes. I've never revealed who I really am to anyone. As such, I've been molded into who they think I am. To break free of that, to release who I am upon the world...ah such freedom. To be able to do what I want, go where I want, and to not have...
    KnightBlade KnightBlade 36-40, M 5 Responses May 10, 2009

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    Ditto

    I know the feeling of wanting to disappear but when I think about it what would it really solve.  I also think about the ones that it would hurt.  It seems like it would just be so easy to just disappear and never look back but I love my husband and children to much to...
    rondat rondat 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2007

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    Gone

    i want to be gone!just fly away a never be seen from again..no one likes me any way
    KidFlaky KidFlaky 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 26, 2013

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    Do I Want To Disappear

    I'm always so concern about myself - I think I'm a selfish person and only thinks about myself, and this feeling just continue to grow and makes me feel sick, that I can't even stand myself. If everything I produce is just something sick and ugly, if the existence of myself never...
    ClaraL ClaraL 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 7, 2013

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    Not Die, Just Go Away, Like Never There

    My past, present, and future are one and the same.  Start but never finish, commit but never deliver, promise but always break it.  My high school career is a farce, my future a watery mirage.  I'm in a rut that I don't think I can pull myself out of this time...
    Hohnoroa Hohnoroa 16-18, F 11 Responses Dec 5, 2007

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    My Perfect World

    You have reasons to lived for, I have none It's not my situation what make me think the way I think It's all together, It's the memory of a life lived half way through It's the projects I have never finish It's the exhaustion of trying to find something that doesn't exist at...
    Mags40 Mags40 41-45, F 2 Responses Feb 26, 2013

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    Be Forgotten, Disappear

    I don't know how long it's been since I first had this thought "I want to disappear". All I know is that it doesn't let go of me anymore and that it comes back more and more often the more time passes by. Everyday on the way to school I wish that there's some accident...
    Miyazaki Miyazaki 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 3, 2009

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    I Want To Leave Myself Behind

    I don't want to die. I'm not particularly miserable, and I don't hate myself. I don't want to leave my home or my family. I want to shed everything my life has been up to this point like an insect sheds its cocoon. I want to wipe myself off of the pages of the book and begin my...
    GirlvsWorld GirlvsWorld 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 11, 2013

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    Whats The Point In Life

    Being a 29 year old female who has never had a relationship is not really that normal, being me who is a fuked up depressed weird fat ugly useless ***** is the main reasons to why I'll be eternally single . I feel numb I feel suicide I feel down n sad I feel lonely n depressed I...
    loulouisblue loulouisblue 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2013

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    No

    i did want to disapear fade away, but no more, am gonna live my life and enjoy it to the fullest.yes i will face hard times it wont always be easy but am gonna face things head on. i dont want to waste another moment here in this world.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 9, 2010

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    Anonymity

    Scarification of the fingertips. Certificate of death for the name & number I was assigned at birth. Off the grid, no identification, no photos, no cell or email. no credit cards. No social security. No arrest history. No traceable records whatsoever. Hunt, fish, and farm. Build...
    mierdamundo mierdamundo 31-35 Oct 19, 2013

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    Why Am I Still Here?

    I always tell myself that things are going to get much better once im able to get away from my family because i've finally realized their the source of my depression. I have hardly any friends i know my family never even notices me i already feel pretty alone in the world and...
    foreveraloneandscarred15 foreveraloneandscarred15 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 8, 2013

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    29, Going On 90.

    I like to believe that I have lived my life with no regrets - as I've learned from my mistakes, some more than others, and I do have lots to be thankful for.  I've wanted to disappear long before things ever got "bad" for me in the adult world of financial burdens, etc.  I...
    eMonkey eMonkey 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 23, 2012

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    It's cold.... My room is cold; I have opened my

    window and it's still winter here, because I thought might get a high fever something, awhile I try to go to sleep. Today, I was hopeless that my fear is clicking day by day, feeling sorrow and depress. I felt like everything that I'll be alright, but once again... I really...
    LadyVivi LadyVivi 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 27

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    I have and did for two weeks i spent a week off

    here and no one cared and I'm about to disappear for years....I tired of these feelings I keep having =(
    Kelloggz90 Kelloggz90 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    Who Should I Be?

    Call me Az, yeah that's it, my name, I really love it. I wish I could tell you everything..of everything about me, but it's really hard to get to know me..I don't even think that I know myself... I don't know what's wrong with me, my past begins to seem blur in my mind, and I'm...
    HakujitsuSeiten HakujitsuSeiten 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2012

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    I Just Want To Leave

    How amazing would.it be though? leaving everything and starting everthything all over again, no one would have to know anything about you, you would have absolutely no reputation what's so ever. You would have the opportunity to start every friendship all over again. School would...
    lelia90 lelia90 13-15, F 1 Response May 23, 2013

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    I Want Truth

    I'd rather lost everything, everyone I love, rather than being confuse like this. probably it's my own problem. probably it's real. I don't care if this is my lifetrap : abandondment problem, but I'm so sure about this. Just give me the truth! truth is what's been said equals to...
    Nelangsa Nelangsa 22-25, T 2 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    I wish I could disappear. Finding no reason to live. I love her so much so badly. She loves me more than I love her but for somedays she's not talking to me like before. I don't...
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    Well, I do now, I mean, while I can still remember the ones I knew, and to which, in comments bound to follow, I'll add all the newer ones still. From memory, and more or less in...
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    I dont have fear, its just pain, but I relate to being bored. Thats what I say in my head all day. I am so bored with life. I am so over the human existance. Eat sleep school, eat...
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    I'm a big guy. Always the largest in the room. So why do I want a small girl? (Not meaning young). I am sooo attracted to tiny women. There's a woman that lives near me. She's...
    largemuscledmale largemuscledmale 36-40, M Mar 23

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    My parents struggled with their marriage when I was in high school, after that I realized I wanted a stable, happy relationship, and never wanted to cheat or be cheated on... I saw...
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    I want someone who I can trust or someone I can get close to. My life has been a mess and I feel like all my close friends have disappeared. I want a true friend who can understand...
    JNguyen104 JNguyen104 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 21

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    WELL..... I have been tagged 3 times now for this.... by 3 of my closest friends, so I guess I had better do it.. Here goes... FIVE (more) things about me that you may/may not...
    SweetKiester SweetKiester 36-40, F 7 Responses Mar 24

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