I Want to Disappear

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    Fade Away

    First of all hello everyone out there, I am Misty. It's not like my life is full of miseries or bad luck but the thing is this mind of mine keeps playing tricks on me, once in a few months I feel totally down and spiral ling down into the deep dark hole of negativism and...
    Misty9190 Misty9190
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Jun 17, 2009

    At moments like these all I want to do is

    disappear. To not be found, sounds great. I hate this feeling yet its unavoidable at times.
    RandomExistence RandomExistence
    16-17, M
    Dec 2, 2015

    Would You?

    This world has so much beauty to offer, except others make it so hard for us to experience it. You can't even swim in a river because someone owns it. Did they create it? No , and thus GTFO. Because of the retarded society today I'm thinking more and more about how it would be...
    elvisguitar elvisguitar
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Dec 3, 2011

    I'll pay the rent tomorrow

    and it will be the last dime I've got, I don't know if I should kill myself or wait until I starve to death
    AshTaylor AshTaylor
    26-30, M
    1 Response Nov 9, 2015

    I feel the urge and need to stop existing.

    If someone could make me disappear, that would be great.
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 1, 2015

    Lately I've felt overwhelmingly alone unloved &

    rejected. I don't have any interest in close friends and no matter how hard I try, can't seem to associate with them like I used to. Not surprisingly, they don't seem bothered by it at all and happily carry on with themselves. I have so much piled on my plate with work and...
    potatoesily potatoesily
    18-21, F
    Oct 14, 2015
    Theendisirrelevant Theendisirrelevant
    13-15, F
    1 Response Aug 20, 2015
    Bombshellbarbie Bombshellbarbie
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 17, 2015

    I want to go away, forever.

    My parents would've been much happier if they had aborted me as a child. I am constantly just a nuisance, a bother, a financial burden. My older brother is perfect. The one that alway obeys. When I was a child, I told myself I'd kill myself by the time I turned thirteen. That...
    earlyexit earlyexit
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 24, 2015

    To Vanish

    to be free of the numbing in my chest, to finally feel nothing. I already lost everything because everyone took them away from me.Revenge rule's my lead but wouldn't it just be easier to eternally sleep just to rise to a place that i could actually call home
    c0dachan c0dachan
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 29, 2013

    just another day where I just want to disappear.

    just too much going on. a lot on my mind and so drained.
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79
    36-40, F
    1 Response Sep 12, 2015

    Be Forgotten, Disappear

    I don't know how long it's been since I first had this thought "I want to disappear". All I know is that it doesn't let go of me anymore and that it comes back more and more often the more time passes by. Everyday on the way to school I wish that there's some accident...
    Miyazaki Miyazaki
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 3, 2009

    Feeling: Tired I want to disappear.

    just for a day or two. no phone calls, no emails no messaging unless I call, or message or want to get online to look up something on urban dictionary. no pressure no demands no... my heart pounds because i know I should answer this, but I just don't want to. but I have to so I...
    SvveetKiester SvveetKiester
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Jul 31, 2015

    Sometimes

     i mean it two different ways depending on what im feeling :P some times i just want to melt into the air and cease to exist...other times i just want to appear somewhere random, away from HERE. :)
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Nov 29, 2009

    I used to chat to a homicide detective.

    He was working a missing persons case and he told me with a far away look in his eyes.. remembering something horrific "it's a lot easier to disappear then you think..." It stuck with me.. His dark soul was so appealing... I miss him...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses May 26, 2015

    It seems like it it'll be

    so much easier to not exist of be somewhere else. At home it feels like pure poison. I know I'm still young I just feel like I should know myself by now and accomplished somethings in life. I don't want to kill myself but I wouldn't mind dying either.
    idreamdaily idreamdaily
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Sep 10, 2015

    I am sorry. No matter what I do,

    I will never be good enough for you. I just want you to know that I try my best. I don't know what to do, so you'll be satisfies with me. I am sorry for not being your ideal child. It hurt when you say and treat me like this. Don't compare me with what you gone through. It hurt...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 11

    I love my swing. It's there

    for me when I want to disappear, the way it's so peaceful so calming it's my only escape now days.
    Scaredmonster Scaredmonster
    18-21, F
    Feb 17, 2015

    Far Away From the World

    I just want to go, run, leave this hell that I've managed to live in for so long. I can't do this and I don't know what made me think I could. I try and I try to be a good person, to help others, those less fortunate than myself but I still feel the pain, hurt, disapproval of...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Nov 9, 2007
    cashetty69 cashetty69
    51-55, M
    Nov 26, 2015
    fayth2015 fayth2015
    31-35, F
    Oct 25, 2015

    i screwed up this evening.

    .. already felt depressed and now feel horrible... just wanting to disappear. :(
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79
    36-40, F
    1 Response Oct 6, 2015

    I feel I have lost everything.

    I am so tired of pretending I am happy for the sake of others when my world is crashing down on me. I don't have the energy anymore. I can't sleep, I am sad, lonely, angry, depressed and I feel empty inside. Everytime something starts to go right so much wrong happens. This...
    LadyLacey LadyLacey
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Jun 8, 2015

    All I wanna do is disappear

    until maybe I'm happy. But that'll never happen. So instead of disappearing, just let me die.
    oliviairene47 oliviairene47
    18-21, F
    Feb 21, 2014

    just not doing well. A lot going on.

    not wanting to face people. struggling with things and exhausted. just wish I could hide.
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Jul 31, 2015

    I seriously give up. I really want to disappear.

    I don't know who to beg to but PLEASE MAKE ME DISAPPEAR. I never wanted to be like this. Everything just gets much worse than before and I can't bear it anymore. I want to end everything so much ))))))))))':
    GummiBr GummiBr
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Feb 26

    If I had a place to go I'd run away.

    Willing to exchange something for a place to stay for a few days before moving on to the next place. Seriously considering doing it at this point. Just want to see the world and escape the problems that are around me right now.
    icecoldheart1518 icecoldheart1518
    16-17, F
    Jan 31

    I'm starting to regret moving altogether.

    Nearly been a year and I'm still living out of my suitcase. As welcoming as Dad is, I don't feel home here. I can't build a life unless he helps me. Maybe I should pack up and move back.
    Bobbiin Bobbiin
    18-21, F
    Jan 27

    I have had all I can take

    and I don't want to deal with anything any longer. At least I would be at peace if I was on my own.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    Jan 25

    I keep thinking to myself

    why am I so confined and restricted to stay where I am because I'm binded by laws. Yes it's my fault I got into a lot of legal trouble and I'm Stuck unable to even leave the state. But the world is so vast so why am I stuck sitting in this god forsaken middle of nowhere town...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Sep 11, 2015

    Well I do not want to

    but I would like the dirty laundry to. Maybe I am complaining in the wrong group. Sorry
    IPleadthe5th IPleadthe5th
    41-45, F
    Aug 1, 2015

    I want to go, escape this world quietly.

    Silently. I can't cope with the pain anymore. I have wasted away to a shell so i am effectively dead already. Even these words feel hollow. Everything is hollow. I have brought people nothing but pain and don't deserve to be here. I don't belong in this cruel world. I am just...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 3, 2015

    No

    i did want to disapear fade away, but no more, am gonna live my life and enjoy it to the fullest.yes i will face hard times it wont always be easy but am gonna face things head on. i dont want to waste another moment here in this world.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Dec 9, 2010

    Sometimes I really wish I could im over my

    family and I'm over people from school I have no one I can trust or believe even if they tell me I'm pretty no matter how many times I don't believe it I've been hurt all threw my life people from school say I'm not good enough that I'm ugly and I'm always going to be alone. I...
    Youareallbeautiful Youareallbeautiful
    18-21, F
    Nov 14, 2014

    Will anyone talk to me?

    Just random ****, nothing special.
    Theendisirrelevant Theendisirrelevant
    13-15, F
    Oct 24, 2015

    I can't handle this anymore.

    i think I might go away, maybe if I go somewhere new, where no one knows me ill be okay. I can keep to myself and maybe then ill be okay. I just can't. I'm leaving, even if I have to walk. I don't know where I'm going but I'm leaving now.
    Jaybugg Jaybugg
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Jan 6, 2014

    Feeling: Tired I want to disappear.

    just for a day or two. no phone calls, no emails no messaging unless I call, or messsage or want to get online to look up something on urban dictionary. no pressure no demands no... my heart pounds because i know I should answer this, but I just don't want to. but I have to...
    SweetKiester SweetKiester
    41-45, F
    1 Response Aug 3, 2014

    to vanish from this mortal plain,

    and leave nere a memory to remain. to quit this game of foolish rage to be no more uppon the stage. the lies of life to murder truth, the face of evil shows its proof. the soul to burn like sacred flame till only ashes do remain. to wander far from distant shores that i may...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    Feb 5

    "Maybe you should just fall,

    and leave the world and lose it all, if that's what you need to finally see, I'll be with you through it all!"~Nothing More
    typicallymisunderstood typicallymisunderstood
    13-15, F
    Sep 11, 2015

    Yep. Off the face of the Earth.

    Leaving no trace behind. That would work out nicely. Life is too hard. Just too much to handle sometimes, especially around this time. Trying to be understood and accepted by family. If I just disappeared then there would be nothing to worry about. Nothing to do. Nowhere to be...
    Give2Schitts Give2Schitts
    13-15, T
    Apr 7, 2015

    my husband tells me to pay the internet,

    so I go and take care of that. afterwards I go to drive home and hit the curb while turning and blow my tire out and had some damage to our van. while calling for roadside assistants I mentioned I got into a small accident because of the damage, so now my husband is upset...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79
    36-40, F
    1 Response Aug 19, 2015

    i cry myself to sleep almost every night.

    im so lonely. i just want to leave n never look back. my own fiance doesnt even know im so depressed, if he even cares anymore. i feel like everyone would be better if i just left.
    cooper3366 cooper3366
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Aug 1, 2015

    I'm losing my friends

    because of a decision I made. I don't think I can fix this and I don't know what to do. I just don't want to hurt anymore and I don't want to hurt anyone else. I want to disappear.
    sophie0511 sophie0511
    16-17, F
    Oct 26, 2015
    Boombutterflyeffect Boombutterflyeffect
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 7

    I just feel like anyone i hates me.

    I don't like when they see me happy and they bring me down because they enjoy my misery,i just want to fade away because i'm just going to end up being some old,faded memory that nobody cares about
    Psychoimagination14 Psychoimagination14
    13-15, F
    1 Response Sep 11, 2015
    WynterSolstice WynterSolstice
    41-45, F
    1 Response Nov 5, 2015

    Maybe life isn't for everyone.

    I don't understand how life, as we know it, works. I don't know why. I don't know what. It doesn't make sense. No matter how hard I try I cannot wrap my head around human existence. It is nothing and everything. We are so impossibly beautiful. I cannot comprehend.
    pancakesarebetterthanwaffles pancakesarebetterthanwaffles
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 12
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 4, 2015

    it's like being stuck in reverse,

    is so complicated so dificult and it hurts me so bad, muy brother died a month ago and today is his anniversary of his death so yeah...he was the only person I trusted so I have 1 month without trusting in somebody...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 19

    Alone Already

    I am alone already. So can someone please tell me, what is seriouslly the point, of hanging around, and being alone. Whats the point sitting through the pain of beign alone, and facing the tears and the urges alone. And please don't say I'm not alone, because you don't know how I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    10 Responses Aug 29, 2010

    It is so tempting. So often,

    I have thought about buying a bus ticket, getting a friend to drop me off at the station, and just leaving it all behind. Going somewhere new, meeting new people, being a new person where no one knows who I am. No pre-conceived notions of who I should be. It is sounding better...
    thecraziestpanda thecraziestpanda
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Aug 23, 2015

    I've been working on disappearing.

    Inch by inch, pound by pound, one little bit at a time. Some day I'll be air.
    thepooloftears thepooloftears
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 12, 2015
    dqtxeb25 dqtxeb25
    22-25, F
    Oct 31, 2015

    I hate the feeling of not knowing what to do

    with yourself or not knowing where to go. The feeling of wanting to be nowhere and wanting to explode into nothing. The feeling that you're not needed anywhere and that you don't belong anywhere. Those are the moments I want to disappear.
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 27, 2015

    Why why doesn't anybody understand me?

    Why doesn't my mom tell my sister to stop hitting me? Why doesn't anybody understand I Have feelings too? Why why??
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 15, 2014

    i want to hide, disappear,

    not be seen, or something.... my 6 year old threw a huge tantrum. he stomped his feet, screamed his head off, and making such a commotion. we live in an apartment. i sure hope my neighbors doesn't call the cops from all the noise. i feel so embarrassed. cops were called on me...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79
    36-40, F
    1 Response Sep 23, 2015
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