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I Want to Drown In My Own Tears

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    Sometimes I Want To Drown In A River To Hide My Tears.

    There are times when I want to cry and just scream! Hit and beat up anything in my path. The fact that I'm gay makes me want to cry constantly since my mom doesn't accept me. She tries to shove religion down my throat because she tries to change me I've refuse to go to church...
    screamqueenrocker screamqueenrocker 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 13, 2011

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    Tearful

    My heart feels too heavy....I want to cry...desperately I need to cry...I want to see my eyes reddened....eyelids swollen shut....mouth corners turned down.....sobs racking my body violently....tears rolling down my cheeks on to my neck...Let me get drowned in the salty sea of my...
    tenderheart35 tenderheart35 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 13, 2011

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    The Silent Tear

    Near the door He paused to stand As he took his class ring Off her hand All who were watching Did not speak as a silent tear Ran down his cheek And through his mind The memories ran Of the moments they walked And ran in the sand hand in hand But now her eyes were so terribly cold...
    Alwaysthe2nd Alwaysthe2nd 13-15, F Aug 16, 2013

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    TEARS

    Slowly she puts the key in the door She gives a sigh of relief Another day has gone by She manages to keep it together With the false hope and that false smile She now takes of her make up And becomes the person she truely is The one who is sad, who sits alone crying...
    angel7 angel7 41-45 1 Response Mar 16, 2008

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    Teardrop

    If I could cry enough I would love to be able to drown in my own tears. No one knows and I cant explain how sad I feel at times. I usually cry when I am alone or having a bath. I hate my life. 
    angel7 angel7 41-45 4 Responses Mar 3, 2008

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    Cry

    She can not stop and listen to her body because she knows it stores all the pain. Neturing herself in anyway is hard It gets to close to feelings and she will break She will cry forever.
    angel7 angel7 41-45 Mar 8, 2008

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