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I Want to End the Grief And Agony

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    Who Doesn't. But Sin...

    Who doesn't.  But since the only way out, that I can see, is death.  I try not to think about it too much. I am in a dark place at the moment, I'm sure a lot of people out there can appreciate that.  Sometimes it's hard to think of others, especially when you've...
    DarkPhoenix DarkPhoenix 31-35, F 1 Response May 28, 2007

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    Pain is a part of life.  Things happen to scar and twist you until you think that you will never believe in anything.  That there is no atrocities you can't commit to survive.Then, after you wallow in it for a while; You go beyond it and emerge human again. We all share...
    monalisasmiled monalisasmiled 46-50, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2007

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    "Life is Pain, H...

    "Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who tells you anything different is selling something." - The Princess Bride
    BlackLili BlackLili 18-21, F Feb 11, 2007

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    Ohh The Agony, The Agony.

    Eventually I will get out of my slump and move on with my life, but for now you all have suffer through my misery just a little bit longer.  Sorry.  My spirits are a little better even though the ex has already professed true love to another a week after she broke up...
    thomasriley99 thomasriley99 31-35, M Jul 20, 2010

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    God Yes, Sometimes It Feels Li...

    God yes, sometimes it feels like thats all my life is. Then I look at the world and it looks like thats all there is anywhere - so much pain, so many wars so much death and the pee who should care don't
    Psyche Psyche 26-30, F Jun 15, 2007

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    There Is Hope And A Sun That Never Ceases To Shine - Please Read

     I hope this story inspires anybody who is struggling with grief and loss. I want you to know there is a light and it will shine for you and everyone you have ever lost.When I attempted to contact my mother with the methods I have used, these are the words I received...
    CARITASANGEL CARITASANGEL 51-55, F Jan 4, 2010

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    I Want to End Any Pain That Ev...

    I want to end any pain that ever existed.
    drthbeauty drthbeauty 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2007

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    Lost My Truly Love

    It's all about my true love of ex girlfriend, we've been together for 2 1/2years on April 1, 2010 - July 4, 2012 she's awesome person ever but unfortunately when she does really mad turns to judgement and negatives about some people, thats i doesnt like it and very laidback down...
    Korj Korj 18-21, F Sep 16, 2012

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    Within Me

    Its all stuck inside. I cant even write about it anymore, let alone talk about it. AHHHH. i need it to end.
    sufferingmypaininsilence sufferingmypaininsilence 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 12, 2012

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    Grief.

    Amidst everything else going wrong, as it usually does and I have become accustomed to, my daughter has decided to put my granddaughter up for adoption at 23 months. One might say "holy ****" you take her. I guess that would be the normal reaction. But, take her, I will not...
    Amalie76 Amalie76 31-35 Dec 1, 2013

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    One Last Time

    I know ur over it u know i m over it i know i m a good actor i know i can't act in front of u i know u've moved on i know i should too i know ur not the one for me do u know nobody can dare love u as much as i do i live by u i can die for u i know ur happy with ur life but but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 6, 2012

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    tell me there's a purpose to this terrorism i call life ....

    many times, i think, yes, i'd end the agony and pain in almost any way i could.  but i believe it to be my life's design.  there's something to come of this.  i've already learned so much and changed, for the better, on such a dramatic scale that this life i live...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 1 Response May 28, 2007

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    Come Sit With Me On My Mourning Bench

    I have recently written up my personal account of coping with grief in the family on my blog.  I hope it will be helpful to someone. Check it out: http://davidwillows.squarespace.com/journal/2009/3/7/come-sit-with-me-on-my-mourning-bench.html
    DavidWillows DavidWillows 36-40 2 Responses Mar 21, 2009

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    In the World, Yes... ...

    in the world, yes... but not mine... i'm doing fine.
    kbrooks81 kbrooks81 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2007

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    I'm really interested in P...

    I'm really interested in Psychology.I try to look at everything   psychogically, or try to figure out why people do or say certain things.  I also received A's in any Psychology classes I've taken.
    silvermystics silvermystics 51-55, F 1 Response May 28, 2007

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    A Journey Through Darkness

    Hello, This internet radio show will likely be of interest and comfort to you.  It will focus on death.  The featured guest on the show has written a book about all the incredible experiences surrounding the deaths in her family.  She is a very credible and...
    ksaavedra ksaavedra 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 13, 2008

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    Life After Loss Comes Through Understanding and Creativity.

     This event will be beneficial for those suffering the loss of a loved one. Life after loss comes through understanding and creativity. On October 17th, Dr. Betty J. Kovacs will present The Surprising Creativity of Grief: A Seminar for the Bereaved & the Curious at...
    ksaavedra ksaavedra 46-50, F Oct 4, 2009

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    Family

    there is so much hurt and pain in my family and i am not god with copeing with life let alone with any one eles i dont go out i stay in day in and day out that way there s no shouting fighting i am afraid of every thing life sends me amd i cant stand it any more i want to leave...
    nannamilly nannamilly 51-55, F Dec 13, 2012

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    Thats a Great Question. ...

    Thats a great question. But I'd like some clarification. Your grief and agony or mine. As posed it seems to be yours , in which case i'd be a lot more agreeable to the notion. I have screwed up so many times at such degrees of magnitude that it seems a bit late to self terminate...
    Mountainman923518 Mountainman923518 56-60, M May 28, 2007

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    Life, Death & the Paranormal

    Interested in Life, Death & the Paranormal?  You won’t want to miss three winning personalities discussing these issues on LIFE--Conversations on the Edge on BlogTalkRadio. JOIN Best Selling Author and Award Winning Broadcaster Joel Martin, executive producer...
    ksaavedra ksaavedra 46-50, F Feb 15, 2009

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    What's There to Go On For???

    I though I was dealing well with my son's suicide with the help of friends and counseling, but I have started to become sadder and sadder and am really contemplating suicide.  I am distanced from my family, my daughter pushes me away and I don't feel I contribute anything to...
    sadmom53 sadmom53 51-55, F 2 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    Will This Pain End?

    One night after I came home from iceskating with my friends, my Dad told me that my grandfather was a little sick. I knew something was wrong, I sat in my room praying to God to please let me see him again. The next day, my parents told me they had to tell me something. I went to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 24, 2011

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    whenever theres a happy disposition in life i've always notice that they have strong belief in god. i use to believe in Jesus i think I am still today but whenever theres tragedy...
    HoneyClover HoneyClover 26-30, F 11 hrs ago

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    homelessness, chronic unemployment,prison, death, or living with abusive family. bad health (that can be fixed), and a bad life. all because im on only child, im poor, and i spent...
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    Colours Into hearts Bursting out Knowing love was lusting loud Beating like drums of whispers Screaming sighs of the sinner Below, she swims and strides The way she fills...
    Ymfas Ymfas 26-30, M 21 hrs ago

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    Grief is not linear. It comes back around. Loss is one of the hardest things I've had to deal with.
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    A letter I wrote to my boyfriend : I wish things were the way they used to be when we first met or just in the beginning of our relationship... I remember when I first started to...
    LuvLostSoul LuvLostSoul 26-30, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    My first intense experience... My wife was contacted by a guy on OKC, who also sent a message to me. He and I hit it off pretty well, on friend level. My wife and he also clicked...
    contextualshift contextualshift 36-40, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I know in your eyes, I did the most unimaginable, unforgivable thing. I am human. I did what I did to forget all the hurt, disappointment, and to keep from having horrible...
    purtyinpink17 purtyinpink17 36-40, F Jul 21

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    rodama1970 rodama1970 41-45, M Jul 21

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    I'm so full of anger of so many things and somethings are just not fixable so you got to let go and move on as most say. I fear the peaceful feeling I remember will never return...
    galerie2015 galerie2015 51-55, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    This post is literally just a nonsensical rant to the world from an anonymous person who has issues. My apologies to you poor saps who actually read this. Right now i'm a college...
    Tsukasa102 Tsukasa102 18-21 Jul 16

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    I was in a relationship where both of us were married. I ended it almost 2 months ago after his wife found out. I also decided at that time to tell my husband, as the guilt ate...
    meok12 meok12 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 16

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