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I Want to End the Grief And Agony

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 207 People

    There Is Hope And A Sun That Never Ceases To Shine - Please Read

     I hope this story inspires anybody who is struggling with grief and loss. I want you to know there is a light and it will shine for you and everyone you have ever lost.When I attempted to contact my mother with the methods I have used, these are the words I received...
    CARITASANGEL CARITASANGEL 51-55, F Jan 4, 2010

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    Ohh The Agony, The Agony.

    Eventually I will get out of my slump and move on with my life, but for now you all have suffer through my misery just a little bit longer.  Sorry.  My spirits are a little better even though the ex has already professed true love to another a week after she broke up...
    thomasriley99 thomasriley99 31-35, M Jul 20, 2010

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    Grief.

    Amidst everything else going wrong, as it usually does and I have become accustomed to, my daughter has decided to put my granddaughter up for adoption at 23 months. One might say "holy ****" you take her. I guess that would be the normal reaction. But, take her, I will not...
    Amalie76 Amalie76 31-35 Dec 1, 2013

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    Pain is a part of life.  Things happen to scar and twist you until you think that you will never believe in anything.  That there is no atrocities you can't commit to survive.Then, after you wallow in it for a while; You go beyond it and emerge human again. We all share...
    monalisasmiled monalisasmiled 46-50, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2007

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    Family

    there is so much hurt and pain in my family and i am not god with copeing with life let alone with any one eles i dont go out i stay in day in and day out that way there s no shouting fighting i am afraid of every thing life sends me amd i cant stand it any more i want to leave...
    nannamilly nannamilly 51-55, F Dec 13, 2012

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    I'm really interested in P...

    I'm really interested in Psychology.I try to look at everything   psychogically, or try to figure out why people do or say certain things.  I also received A's in any Psychology classes I've taken.
    silvermystics silvermystics 51-55, F 1 Response May 28, 2007

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    "Life is Pain, H...

    "Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who tells you anything different is selling something." - The Princess Bride
    BlackLili BlackLili 21-25, F Feb 11, 2007

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    Lost My Truly Love

    It's all about my true love of ex girlfriend, we've been together for 2 1/2years on April 1, 2010 - July 4, 2012 she's awesome person ever but unfortunately when she does really mad turns to judgement and negatives about some people, thats i doesnt like it and very laidback down...
    Korj Korj 18-21, F Sep 16, 2012

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    I Want to End Any Pain That Ev...

    I want to end any pain that ever existed.
    drthbeauty drthbeauty 16-18, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2007

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    Within Me

    Its all stuck inside. I cant even write about it anymore, let alone talk about it. AHHHH. i need it to end.
    sufferingmypaininsilence sufferingmypaininsilence 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 12, 2012

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    God Yes, Sometimes It Feels Li...

    God yes, sometimes it feels like thats all my life is. Then I look at the world and it looks like thats all there is anywhere - so much pain, so many wars so much death and the pee who should care don't
    Psyche Psyche 26-30, F Jun 15, 2007

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    Life, Death & the Paranormal

    Interested in Life, Death & the Paranormal?  You won’t want to miss three winning personalities discussing these issues on LIFE--Conversations on the Edge on BlogTalkRadio. JOIN Best Selling Author and Award Winning Broadcaster Joel Martin, executive producer...
    ksaavedra ksaavedra 46-50, F Feb 15, 2009

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    Who Doesn't. But Sin...

    Who doesn't.  But since the only way out, that I can see, is death.  I try not to think about it too much. I am in a dark place at the moment, I'm sure a lot of people out there can appreciate that.  Sometimes it's hard to think of others, especially when you've...
    DarkPhoenix DarkPhoenix 31-35, F 1 Response May 28, 2007

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    What's There to Go On For???

    I though I was dealing well with my son's suicide with the help of friends and counseling, but I have started to become sadder and sadder and am really contemplating suicide.  I am distanced from my family, my daughter pushes me away and I don't feel I contribute anything to...
    sadmom53 sadmom53 51-55, F 2 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    Come Sit With Me On My Mourning Bench

    I have recently written up my personal account of coping with grief in the family on my blog.  I hope it will be helpful to someone. Check it out: http://davidwillows.squarespace.com/journal/2009/3/7/come-sit-with-me-on-my-mourning-bench.html
    DavidWillows DavidWillows 36-40 2 Responses Mar 21, 2009

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    Life After Loss Comes Through Understanding and Creativity.

     This event will be beneficial for those suffering the loss of a loved one. Life after loss comes through understanding and creativity. On October 17th, Dr. Betty J. Kovacs will present The Surprising Creativity of Grief: A Seminar for the Bereaved & the Curious at...
    ksaavedra ksaavedra 46-50, F Oct 4, 2009

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    In the World, Yes... ...

    in the world, yes... but not mine... i'm doing fine.
    kbrooks81 kbrooks81 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2007

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    A Journey Through Darkness

    Hello, This internet radio show will likely be of interest and comfort to you.  It will focus on death.  The featured guest on the show has written a book about all the incredible experiences surrounding the deaths in her family.  She is a very credible and...
    ksaavedra ksaavedra 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 13, 2008

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    One Last Time

    I know ur over it u know i m over it i know i m a good actor i know i can't act in front of u i know u've moved on i know i should too i know ur not the one for me do u know nobody can dare love u as much as i do i live by u i can die for u i know ur happy with ur life but but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 6, 2012

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    Will This Pain End?

    One night after I came home from iceskating with my friends, my Dad told me that my grandfather was a little sick. I knew something was wrong, I sat in my room praying to God to please let me see him again. The next day, my parents told me they had to tell me something. I went to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 24, 2011

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    Thats a Great Question. ...

    Thats a great question. But I'd like some clarification. Your grief and agony or mine. As posed it seems to be yours , in which case i'd be a lot more agreeable to the notion. I have screwed up so many times at such degrees of magnitude that it seems a bit late to self terminate...
    Mountainman923518 Mountainman923518 56-60, M May 28, 2007

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    tell me there's a purpose to this terrorism i call life ....

    many times, i think, yes, i'd end the agony and pain in almost any way i could.  but i believe it to be my life's design.  there's something to come of this.  i've already learned so much and changed, for the better, on such a dramatic scale that this life i live...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 1 Response May 28, 2007

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    In the quiet hours of the day, I often wonder if you are with me. I wonder if you are you okay... If I close my eyes and breathe releasing my daily strife, I hear your voice inside...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    My best friend, from age about 16 to 21, although I have known him for my entire life; died this past Friday. I have been trying to think of if I should write about it or not...
    milehighHeartbreak milehighHeartbreak 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    I have a new life, my life changed on the 10th January 2010. Your life can change too - here is how: This group may currently only have a few members, but the content is visible...
    tcennoC tcennoC 51-55, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I want to know how many people were in a roller coaster relationship? MM and I have ended our relationship a dozen times. Each time is more painful than the last. I feel so...
    onmyowntwofeet onmyowntwofeet 36-40, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I have what I need to end my life....but anytime I try to justify what I'm doing, the only answers I'm given are,"you are so loved and you are worth this life" or "think of all the...
    diabeticHailey diabeticHailey 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 10

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    I suffer Endometriosis. Diagnosed at 14 after years of agony. It returned after my lap so now I'm on a trial of new hormonesz
    everydaylunatic everydaylunatic 18-21, F Jan 7

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    Where were you? Where were you when I needed to cry myself to sleep? Where were you when I wanted to kill myself? Where were you when I rolled on the floor bawling because I couldn...
    whyusteens whyusteens 13-15, F Jan 19

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    I am in an amazing relationship. I love him more than anything and I never thought that I would fall in love. The problem is, he's the only person I feel I have and I am terrified...
    UncannyPlane21 UncannyPlane21 18-21, F 8 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    A few days ago, my beloved friend Alexander passed away. After 18 long years of life, and tremendous hardship, it was his time to slip from this world and into the loving arms of...
    KoalaRising KoalaRising 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    I built my life around being us. Now I'm free to be myself. The first 9 months was grief...everything that goes with it. I'm lookin at it as a blessing now.
    efron1 efron1 31-35, M 6 days ago

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    God. Help me. I feel so alone. It kills me every now and then. I want to live another life but I don't and I can't leave my current. I can't lose everything. That'll be the end of...
    MargoRothSpiegelman MargoRothSpiegelman 18-21, F 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Yep I want to make a scary movie where the black guy doesn't die where he stay alive at the end, I want to make the realist scary movie where people are not running and falling for...
    LoneLegend LoneLegend 13-15, M 16 hrs ago

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    I find attachment styles interesting. We all develop one of the 4 styles..secure, anxious preoccupied, dismissive avoidant and fearful avoidant. The theory is that you develop...
    sartur sartur 36-40, F 3 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I've been doing well. I quit just before the year ended so in two days it will be a full month smoke free. It wasn't easy,Lord knows it wasn't but it's definitely been rewarding. I...
    TheGirlFromJupiter TheGirlFromJupiter 18-21, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    been off my meds for days....losing the strength to keep fighting. ....i just want to close my eyes and let it all end.....
    Anastas17 Anastas17 18-21, T 8 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I can't get over him. I'm married with kids and so is he but our story began way before that happened. We went to high school together and couldn't keep away from each other...
    40sandfab 40sandfab 41-45, F 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I can't accept that life is short. I can't accept that... It's hard. You just want to grab someone you love and tell them how much you love them and how much they mean to you...
    undeadsuperhero undeadsuperhero 13-15, F 4 hrs ago

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    I can't accept that life is short. I can't accept that... It's hard. You just want to grab someone you love and tell them how much you love them and how much they mean to you...
    undeadsuperhero undeadsuperhero 13-15, F 4 hrs ago

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    Was i wrong to text this?.... You first turned down my idea of going out big for New Years. I was more than willing to pay for the hotel. But you didn't want to. Then I proposed...
    taty1123 taty1123 31-35, F Dec 31, 2014

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    Five days ago my lung burst filling my chest cavity with air that in turn caused my lung to fully collapse unable to re-inflate under the pressure. This has resulted in several...
    madesomemistakes madesomemistakes 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 17

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    Finally the end of all this.
    nothingandno1 nothingandno1 26-30, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I'm just tired of everything. Tired of waking up everyday wishing I'd stayed asleep. Going through the days using every bit of my strength just to fake it to make it. I AM TIRED...
    irreelevance irreelevance 16-17, F 6 hrs ago

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    rozata1213 rozata1213 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    Society has long become more open to the idea of older man - younger woman relationship and older woman - younger man relationship as well. Hollywood has brought in the practice of...
    sarahcc11 sarahcc11 26-30, F 4 hrs ago

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    I Have been thinking about proximity flysuit in the French alps for a while now.. I just came across this article where I reckon they might have exaggerated agony and concerns on...
    h4n5dj22 h4n5dj22 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 4

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    My fiancé committed suicide a month ago...I die a little more every day without him...I don't know why I continue to fight the urge to take my life, because living without him is...
    diabeticHailey diabeticHailey 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 7

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