I Want to End the Grief And Agony

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 218 People

    There Is Hope And A Sun That Never Ceases To Shine - Please Read

     I hope this story inspires anybody who is struggling with grief and loss. I want you to know there is a light and it will shine for you and everyone you have ever lost.When I attempted to contact my mother with the methods I have used, these are the words I received...
    CARITASANGEL CARITASANGEL
    51-55, F
    Jan 4, 2010

    Family

    there is so much hurt and pain in my family and i am not god with copeing with life let alone with any one eles i dont go out i stay in day in and day out that way there s no shouting fighting i am afraid of every thing life sends me amd i cant stand it any more i want to leave...
    nannamilly nannamilly
    51-55, F
    Dec 13, 2012

    I Want to End Any Pain That Ev...

    I want to end any pain that ever existed.
    drthbeauty drthbeauty
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Feb 11, 2007

    Life, Death & the Paranormal

    Interested in Life, Death & the Paranormal?  You won’t want to miss three winning personalities discussing these issues on LIFE--Conversations on the Edge on BlogTalkRadio. JOIN Best Selling Author and Award Winning Broadcaster Joel Martin, executive producer...
    ksaavedra ksaavedra
    46-50, F
    Feb 15, 2009

    What's There to Go On For???

    I though I was dealing well with my son's suicide with the help of friends and counseling, but I have started to become sadder and sadder and am really contemplating suicide.  I am distanced from my family, my daughter pushes me away and I don't feel I contribute anything to...
    sadmom53 sadmom53
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Jul 11, 2008

    A Journey Through Darkness

    Hello, This internet radio show will likely be of interest and comfort to you.  It will focus on death.  The featured guest on the show has written a book about all the incredible experiences surrounding the deaths in her family.  She is a very credible and...
    ksaavedra ksaavedra
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Dec 13, 2008

    Life After Loss Comes Through Understanding and Creativity.

     This event will be beneficial for those suffering the loss of a loved one. Life after loss comes through understanding and creativity. On October 17th, Dr. Betty J. Kovacs will present The Surprising Creativity of Grief: A Seminar for the Bereaved & the Curious at...
    ksaavedra ksaavedra
    46-50, F
    Oct 4, 2009

    In the World, Yes... ...

    in the world, yes... but not mine... i'm doing fine.
    kbrooks81 kbrooks81
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jun 15, 2007

    Come Sit With Me On My Mourning Bench

    I have recently written up my personal account of coping with grief in the family on my blog.  I hope it will be helpful to someone. Check it out: http://davidwillows.squarespace.com/journal/2009/3/7/come-sit-with-me-on-my-mourning-bench.html
    DavidWillows DavidWillows
    36-40
    2 Responses Mar 21, 2009

    Who Doesn't. But Sin...

    Who doesn't.  But since the only way out, that I can see, is death.  I try not to think about it too much. I am in a dark place at the moment, I'm sure a lot of people out there can appreciate that.  Sometimes it's hard to think of others, especially when you've...
    DarkPhoenix DarkPhoenix
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 28, 2007

    "Life is Pain, H...

    "Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who tells you anything different is selling something." - The Princess Bride
    BlackLili BlackLili
    22-25, F
    Feb 11, 2007

    Will This Pain End?

    One night after I came home from iceskating with my friends, my Dad told me that my grandfather was a little sick. I knew something was wrong, I sat in my room praying to God to please let me see him again. The next day, my parents told me they had to tell me something. I went to...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 24, 2011

    Pain is a part of life.  Things happen to scar and twist you until you think that you will never believe in anything.  That there is no atrocities you can't commit to survive.Then, after you wallow in it for a while; You go beyond it and emerge human again. We all share...
    monalisasmiled monalisasmiled
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Feb 11, 2007

    I'm really interested in P...

    I'm really interested in Psychology.I try to look at everything   psychogically, or try to figure out why people do or say certain things.  I also received A's in any Psychology classes I've taken.
    silvermystics silvermystics
    51-55, F
    1 Response May 28, 2007

    tell me there's a purpose to this terrorism i call life ....

    many times, i think, yes, i'd end the agony and pain in almost any way i could.  but i believe it to be my life's design.  there's something to come of this.  i've already learned so much and changed, for the better, on such a dramatic scale that this life i live...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 28, 2007

    One Last Time

    I know ur over it u know i m over it i know i m a good actor i know i can't act in front of u i know u've moved on i know i should too i know ur not the one for me do u know nobody can dare love u as much as i do i live by u i can die for u i know ur happy with ur life but but...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 6, 2012

    Within Me

    Its all stuck inside. I cant even write about it anymore, let alone talk about it. AHHHH. i need it to end.
    sufferingmypaininsilence sufferingmypaininsilence
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 12, 2012

    Thats a Great Question. ...

    Thats a great question. But I'd like some clarification. Your grief and agony or mine. As posed it seems to be yours , in which case i'd be a lot more agreeable to the notion. I have screwed up so many times at such degrees of magnitude that it seems a bit late to self terminate...
    Mountainman923518 Mountainman923518
    56-60, M
    May 28, 2007

    Ohh The Agony, The Agony.

    Eventually I will get out of my slump and move on with my life, but for now you all have suffer through my misery just a little bit longer.  Sorry.  My spirits are a little better even though the ex has already professed true love to another a week after she broke up...
    thomasriley99 thomasriley99
    31-35, M
    Jul 20, 2010

    Grief.

    Amidst everything else going wrong, as it usually does and I have become accustomed to, my daughter has decided to put my granddaughter up for adoption at 23 months. One might say "holy ****" you take her. I guess that would be the normal reaction. But, take her, I will not...
    Amalie76 Amalie76
    31-35
    Dec 1, 2013

    God Yes, Sometimes It Feels Li...

    God yes, sometimes it feels like thats all my life is. Then I look at the world and it looks like thats all there is anywhere - so much pain, so many wars so much death and the pee who should care don't
    Psyche Psyche
    26-30, F
    Jun 15, 2007

    Lost My Truly Love

    It's all about my true love of ex girlfriend, we've been together for 2 1/2years on April 1, 2010 - July 4, 2012 she's awesome person ever but unfortunately when she does really mad turns to judgement and negatives about some people, thats i doesnt like it and very laidback down...
    Korj Korj
    18-21, F
    Sep 16, 2012

    Related Experiences

    Well its been a long and bumpy road my friend, you've done so much for me it's unbelievable. you've saved my life and helped me find the one I love most in the world. ups and...
    randomboy42 randomboy42
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 21
    I can't believe it has come to this. EP is going away. I first stumbled onto EP in February, 2014 after being rejected by my husband of 15 years for the umpteenth time. Crying...
    lightblueeyes lightblueeyes
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Apr 21
    I had EP for 4 years. I had met a lot of cool people on here. Today EP its ending at 4pm.... If your reading this take care & be brave don't be afraid of living life in the real...
    staystyleandsmile staystyleandsmile
    18-21, F
    Apr 21
    The end is near... I have an email set up for my friends to be able to chat with me. Just message me in the next 6 hrs if you want it
    nevets68 nevets68
    46-50, M
    Apr 21
    Hi EP, I'm BioticCactus and here's my shïtty last speech. My real name is Alberto Di Ianni, and I'm a depressed sod, sorta. I'm glad I found you guys tbh, EP has made my life a...
    BioticCactus2 BioticCactus2
    13-15, T
    1 Response Apr 20
    Someone, anyone! My armpits are craving to be tortured by fingers and feathers, my ribs are dying to be counted and spider tickled to no end, my tummy wants those spider tickles...
    TicklishBaby TicklishBaby
    18-21, F
    Apr 20
    Someone, anyone! My armpits are craving to be tortured by fingers and feathers, my ribs are dying to be counted and spider tickled to no end, my tummy wants those spider tickles...
    TicklishBaby TicklishBaby
    18-21, F
    Apr 20
    # 19. Before this ends, I'd love to tell 10 more things about myself. 1. My biggest goal or ambition is to provide for the needy. If earning money is the way to do it, then I...
    Abi936 Abi936
    22-25, M
    Apr 20
    I just want to say that Experience Project really helped me during the tough times, and I made some good friends too. I feel more confident in coming out in the future ask openly...
    inserthappyfacehere inserthappyfacehere
    13-15, M
    Apr 20
    I just lost everything worth living for. Again. The one time I decided to live and fight and have faith, I end up losing everything. Life is a cruel joke. I'm done being its victim...
    IAmDaenerysTargaryen IAmDaenerysTargaryen
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 20
    Since ep is ending, I guess why not. 1. I'm 18, I'd give you my name but I don't trust people. 2. I smoke occasionally 3. I am brutally honest 4. My favorite color will...
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 20
    It was the night we both lost our virginity when I discovered how much I love torturing my boyfriend's balls. He was lying in bed naked ready for me. I wanted to jump on him...
    Abby7gail Abby7gail
    22-25, F
    Apr 19
    So, I'm thinking this might be my last experience to write on EP. I made my account after deleting Facebook. I just wanted that outlet. When I look back to the day I first made...
    ExploreroftheUnknown ExploreroftheUnknown
    18-21, M
    Apr 19
    FOR EP HARASSER SUNNYYELP.... HAVE SHARED MONTHS AND MONTHS OF MY PERSONAL EXPERIENCES IN HERE, and I am very, very sad that this is comimg to and end and I will miss this place...
    LozzyFromRome LozzyFromRome
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Apr 19
    ok, I never thought of posting this but since ep is closing I thought it would help It was two years ago that this happened, but it started much before that, a friend of mine. in...
    guiltyofinnocence guiltyofinnocence
    18-21, T
    2 Responses Apr 18
    I live in one of the biggest cities in Florida yet I feel like its the smallest, never-ending place in the world. I don't fit in here and it's extremely hard to find people like me...
    Caleyz Caleyz
    18-21, F
    Apr 18
    So, yeah, my life is turning into a count down as I realize that part of my routine will be irrevocably changed because of EP's ending. I check the Me Too app every single day...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming
    18-21, T
    Apr 18
    Daniel 12:8 -10 8 Although I heard, I did not understand. Then I said, “My lord, what shall be the end of these things?” 9 And he said, “Go your way, Daniel, for the words...
    CHIGENTLE2012 CHIGENTLE2012
    26-30, M
    Apr 18
    I've known some wonderful people here on EP and have had some great conversations. All good things must come to an end and so must this one as well. I would love to remain in...
    chilloutab2 chilloutab2
    36-40, M
    Apr 17
    Hey there, I'm new to Ep and before I get started I want to thank you for reading . My name is Lukas DeFranco and for awhile now I've been in a constant cycle of the same boring...
    LukasDeFranco LukasDeFranco
    22-25, M
    Apr 16
    Watching all these ghost videos and murders and urban legends and videos where people say in the future people will find out and I'm just over here rethinking my whole existence...
    Botdf1shutup Botdf1shutup
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 16
    Well, I have returned. Why ? Because since I heard the news of EP shutting down I knew I have to come here one more time to take a stroll down the memory lane before it's too...
    PhoenixTearz PhoenixTearz
    31-35, M
    Apr 16
    Starting from today I'm going to "eradicate" people from my life. The constant emotional roller coasters wrecked. It's pointless and contributes nothing good into my life. I'm...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee
    70+, F
    2 Responses Apr 15
    great wala baat hai na..har baar jab bhi koshish kiye tumko help kar de, tumko thoda comfort kare..aur har baar ulte mereko kharab kar deta hai tum..jitna sa khud ko ek ek din kar...
    BrokenSB BrokenSB
    22-25, F
    Apr 15
    We have become very familiar with EP. Whether aware or not, we have accepted it as a home/a playground, a scape from our realities. It became a refuge and a dumpster for things we...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 14
    I have been thinking about a divorce for years now. My spouse has quite a temper and it doesn't take much to go from simple annoyance to shouting. The term 'pick your battles...
    Casimo Casimo
    41-45, M
    Apr 14
    On Feb.23rd 2016 my 16 year old sister committed suicide. I can't handle this pain I'm in. She was the only person I felt actually understood me. I don't know how to move on I just...
    Taylorm236 Taylorm236
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Apr 14
    What's the point of dating sites? I've been on them for 2 years. I've signed up for so many ones. I have even paid for memberships. half the time, I can't get people to even...
    WritingsFromThePast WritingsFromThePast
    22-25, T
    3 Responses Apr 13
    THE FINAL CHAPTER Now I want to make a long story short But things with my son and I was a constant change, Well with me any way I changed jobs, but i kept things to what he grew...
    streets718 streets718
    26-30, M
    Apr 13
    THE FINAL CHAPTER Memories growing up on Holidays were grand I wanted to build the same thing for Charles Halloween the house was all made up we had the ghost that flew around...
    streets718 streets718
    26-30, M
    Apr 13
    THE FINAL CHAPTER Things were fine for a while, until it got to the time for Charles to start school, new school clothes were needed I had to fine away to earn more money So I...
    streets718 streets718
    26-30, M
    Apr 13
    Hi, I am 23 years old and have been trying to figure out what on earth my body is up to from the age of 15. I have had painful and heavy periods from about the age of 15 (I...
    stilllearning20 stilllearning20
    22-25, F
    Apr 13
    Trolls don't make me at all glad EP is ending. I have long heard much discussion of "trolls" as a negative part of the EP experience. I don't know exactly what people have in mind...
    conceptualclarity conceptualclarity
    51-55, M
    4 Responses Apr 12
    So I see people are trying to post more experiences and let more things off their chest and telling their stories before EP closes. So I decided, hey, I might as well join the...
    jaeger053 jaeger053
    16-17
    Apr 12
    Why do I always go through this. You know when you really care about someone and they mean everything to you. Those people who impact your life unexpectedly. I fell in love with...
    Thelostsoulslasthope Thelostsoulslasthope
    13-15, F
    Apr 12
    Christian Greed https://dochub.com/timesoftrouble/kWbzzO/christian-greed What can truly amaze a genuine believer that looks only to the Father is just how true his words on world...
    timesoftrouble timesoftrouble
    56-60, M
    1 Response Apr 11
    It's going to really suck when the 22nd rolls around because I already know I will forget that EP has shut down... I know it's going to happen a few more times after the first...
    SweetDreamsRubi SweetDreamsRubi
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Apr 10
    I don't have anyone to talk to, and I'm starting to give up on this world. I don't even know how to start a conversation with people that I want to know without saying something...
    rawda92 rawda92
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 10
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