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I Want to End the Grief And Agony

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 212 People

    I Want to End Any Pain That Ev...

    I want to end any pain that ever existed.
    drthbeauty drthbeauty 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2007

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    Will This Pain End?

    One night after I came home from iceskating with my friends, my Dad told me that my grandfather was a little sick. I knew something was wrong, I sat in my room praying to God to please let me see him again. The next day, my parents told me they had to tell me something. I went to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 24, 2011

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    In the World, Yes... ...

    in the world, yes... but not mine... i'm doing fine.
    kbrooks81 kbrooks81 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2007

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    "Life is Pain, H...

    "Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who tells you anything different is selling something." - The Princess Bride
    BlackLili BlackLili 18-21, F Feb 11, 2007

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    God Yes, Sometimes It Feels Li...

    God yes, sometimes it feels like thats all my life is. Then I look at the world and it looks like thats all there is anywhere - so much pain, so many wars so much death and the pee who should care don't
    Psyche Psyche 26-30, F Jun 15, 2007

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    Lost My Truly Love

    It's all about my true love of ex girlfriend, we've been together for 2 1/2years on April 1, 2010 - July 4, 2012 she's awesome person ever but unfortunately when she does really mad turns to judgement and negatives about some people, thats i doesnt like it and very laidback down...
    Korj Korj 18-21, F Sep 16, 2012

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    Family

    there is so much hurt and pain in my family and i am not god with copeing with life let alone with any one eles i dont go out i stay in day in and day out that way there s no shouting fighting i am afraid of every thing life sends me amd i cant stand it any more i want to leave...
    nannamilly nannamilly 51-55, F Dec 13, 2012

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    I'm really interested in P...

    I'm really interested in Psychology.I try to look at everything   psychogically, or try to figure out why people do or say certain things.  I also received A's in any Psychology classes I've taken.
    silvermystics silvermystics 51-55, F 1 Response May 28, 2007

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    Grief.

    Amidst everything else going wrong, as it usually does and I have become accustomed to, my daughter has decided to put my granddaughter up for adoption at 23 months. One might say "holy ****" you take her. I guess that would be the normal reaction. But, take her, I will not...
    Amalie76 Amalie76 31-35 Dec 1, 2013

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    tell me there's a purpose to this terrorism i call life ....

    many times, i think, yes, i'd end the agony and pain in almost any way i could.  but i believe it to be my life's design.  there's something to come of this.  i've already learned so much and changed, for the better, on such a dramatic scale that this life i live...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 1 Response May 28, 2007

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    Thats a Great Question. ...

    Thats a great question. But I'd like some clarification. Your grief and agony or mine. As posed it seems to be yours , in which case i'd be a lot more agreeable to the notion. I have screwed up so many times at such degrees of magnitude that it seems a bit late to self terminate...
    Mountainman923518 Mountainman923518 56-60, M May 28, 2007

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    Come Sit With Me On My Mourning Bench

    I have recently written up my personal account of coping with grief in the family on my blog.  I hope it will be helpful to someone. Check it out: http://davidwillows.squarespace.com/journal/2009/3/7/come-sit-with-me-on-my-mourning-bench.html
    DavidWillows DavidWillows 36-40 2 Responses Mar 21, 2009

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    Who Doesn't. But Sin...

    Who doesn't.  But since the only way out, that I can see, is death.  I try not to think about it too much. I am in a dark place at the moment, I'm sure a lot of people out there can appreciate that.  Sometimes it's hard to think of others, especially when you've...
    DarkPhoenix DarkPhoenix 31-35, F 1 Response May 28, 2007

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    What's There to Go On For???

    I though I was dealing well with my son's suicide with the help of friends and counseling, but I have started to become sadder and sadder and am really contemplating suicide.  I am distanced from my family, my daughter pushes me away and I don't feel I contribute anything to...
    sadmom53 sadmom53 51-55, F 2 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    A Journey Through Darkness

    Hello, This internet radio show will likely be of interest and comfort to you.  It will focus on death.  The featured guest on the show has written a book about all the incredible experiences surrounding the deaths in her family.  She is a very credible and...
    ksaavedra ksaavedra 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 13, 2008

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    Life After Loss Comes Through Understanding and Creativity.

     This event will be beneficial for those suffering the loss of a loved one. Life after loss comes through understanding and creativity. On October 17th, Dr. Betty J. Kovacs will present The Surprising Creativity of Grief: A Seminar for the Bereaved & the Curious at...
    ksaavedra ksaavedra 46-50, F Oct 4, 2009

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    Life, Death & the Paranormal

    Interested in Life, Death & the Paranormal?  You won’t want to miss three winning personalities discussing these issues on LIFE--Conversations on the Edge on BlogTalkRadio. JOIN Best Selling Author and Award Winning Broadcaster Joel Martin, executive producer...
    ksaavedra ksaavedra 46-50, F Feb 15, 2009

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    Ohh The Agony, The Agony.

    Eventually I will get out of my slump and move on with my life, but for now you all have suffer through my misery just a little bit longer.  Sorry.  My spirits are a little better even though the ex has already professed true love to another a week after she broke up...
    thomasriley99 thomasriley99 31-35, M Jul 20, 2010

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    One Last Time

    I know ur over it u know i m over it i know i m a good actor i know i can't act in front of u i know u've moved on i know i should too i know ur not the one for me do u know nobody can dare love u as much as i do i live by u i can die for u i know ur happy with ur life but but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 6, 2012

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    Pain is a part of life.  Things happen to scar and twist you until you think that you will never believe in anything.  That there is no atrocities you can't commit to survive.Then, after you wallow in it for a while; You go beyond it and emerge human again. We all share...
    monalisasmiled monalisasmiled 46-50, F 3 Responses Feb 11, 2007

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    There Is Hope And A Sun That Never Ceases To Shine - Please Read

     I hope this story inspires anybody who is struggling with grief and loss. I want you to know there is a light and it will shine for you and everyone you have ever lost.When I attempted to contact my mother with the methods I have used, these are the words I received...
    CARITASANGEL CARITASANGEL 51-55, F Jan 4, 2010

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    Within Me

    Its all stuck inside. I cant even write about it anymore, let alone talk about it. AHHHH. i need it to end.
    sufferingmypaininsilence sufferingmypaininsilence 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 12, 2012

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    I don't know who is the one but, I guess that one should be not hiding things to me and anything related to her or her family. I want to be loved. I don't know if I find that one...
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    My boyfriend and I have been together for a long time. I started out as the other woman. As far as I know he has never cheated on me. That is not the issue. We seem to get stuck in...
    justplainconfused1974 justplainconfused1974 36-40, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Because I'm too toxic at times and is very dependable on others and I'm not good at anything but making smoothies. I'm terrified of those I find attractive and don't like those...
    Nual Nual 22-25, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    My affair ended a few months ago. She was found out by her husband and he rang to tell me it was over. Since then......NC. Has been so hard trying to move on with no closure, no...
    welder00 welder00 36-40, M 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    One year ago today, I got a phone call that ripped my heart out. I felt pain I had never felt before. Even as I took in the news, I was bargaining with God, begging to go back to...
    lostit77 lostit77 46-50, F 6 Responses Apr 19

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    I admit this without it lingering over my head but I just wanted to share a thought with some fellow EPers my age and older even those close to my age that actually "know" what I...
    Msprissy Msprissy 36-40, F 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I am looking for more good players to add to my friend list. I like to have at least a few good people on my team when I play. I mostly play farm grief. It's my favorite and I play...
    heavenlyrose118 heavenlyrose118 41-45, F Apr 18

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    I'm not sure what I'm going to do.. I've worked so hard to pull myself together, to hide and stop my depressed thoughts, I did everything, I really felt like I was getting better...
    MaeveBrennan MaeveBrennan 18-21, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Since last night I went back and forth, I would start to write this post and then .... I would delete. Some times I even completed the post but never found the courage to actually...
    Pand0rasCharm Pand0rasCharm 70+, F 11 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I made a post addressing adults around my age, older, close to my age, it didn't matter if someone younger commented but the reason for my post was to get a "mature" response that...
    Msprissy Msprissy 36-40, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Well, I basically did! I had a family party to go to and last time I saw my family, I was told that I needed to get bigger. At 270 pounds then, and 275 pounds now, I am still...
    fatjigglebelly fatjigglebelly 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    The past several years of my life have been turbulent. The afternoon of December 26th, 2007, my father, younger brother, and I went to my older sister's house to drop off some...
    QOE23 QOE23 18-21, F Apr 14

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    no one told me grief felt so much like fear
    raebaybrown raebaybrown 22-25, F Apr 19

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    "Deep grief sometimes is almost like a specific location, a coordinate on a map of time. When you are standing in that forest of sorrow, you cannot imagine that you could ever find...
    holdingstrong holdingstrong 31-35, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    At times I'd like to break you.. And drive you to your knees.. At times I'd like to break through.. And hold you endlessly..
    FaitAccomp1i FaitAccomp1i 70+, M 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    after a long hot day, it's nice to come home take a shower, wear a comfy t-shirt and grab a bottle of cold, cold beer while watching my favorite tv crime series...then i noticed my...
    alx99 alx99 36-40, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    1) It will depend on who i add to my circle 2) I am awkward so I can't really keep a conversation going sorry >.< 3) I know I'm 14 but I won't take **** from people 4) Don't...
    AskingAllTimeHorizon AskingAllTimeHorizon 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Im bored and i stayed after school for culinary club, but it ended early. I cant go home till 5 o'clock and its only 3:00. (T-T) Somebody talk to me...
    mauri18 mauri18 16-17, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Look into my eyes and witness first hand the chaos that lurks within my head, and experience an agony so potent it absorbs al tears and leaves you with a parched throat and running...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 19

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    Hi, old friends. I've had major revelations. Mom's approval: I would appreciate it, but it's not going to happen. Upon speaking with my psychiatrist regarding my discontinuation...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 5 Responses Apr 19

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    But I know now I am Incapable. My heart holds no love for I have all but ripped my heart from its cage and lit it on fire. My caring is out of my own wicked self image and...
    KateTheStraightedge KateTheStraightedge 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 22

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    As time goes on and I interact with people, I realize men are truly stupid. You have to spell everything out for them. They make excuses for everything too. Only by the grace of...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 11