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I Want to Feel Alive

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    I Want to Feel Alive

     I have a great family and friends who would do anything for me, but i dont feel a connection with any of them. I don't feel alive. I dont want to die but I dont care to live. I always do just enough to get by. I often feel smothered by people, especially friends. When this...
    samanthax samanthax 18-21 2 Responses Apr 29, 2008

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    Yes, I Want To Feel Alive.

    I feel that im waiting something to live. If i use my reasoning I know that the time is now¡¡ the life in going as water between the fingers, but what can I do? I feel that way. I guess I dont have "the motor" inside that other people have. I feel like a tree: only feeding on...
    marirosi marirosi 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 9, 2012

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    Will Power Or Ill Power....

    Sometimes I train doing some movements I know like cartwheels.... well sometimes I do just for fun you know..... theese days my head was so busy..... I went out to the closest park, I then got a place with grass inside the park.... my muscles got sore..... I beated myself...
    TheX TheX 18-21, M Nov 14, 2011

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    Routine...

    I want to feel alive once again. Lately life seems like one big routine work that has to be done. I don't have any motivation to do anything. When I think about it there's nothing that makes me happy anymore. Most of the day I spend in my bedroom, I don't know where to begin to...
    sat321 sat321 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 15, 2010

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    Sick.

    The patterns, the de ja vu, the rewinds, the pauses. The stopping point. I feel as if life is making me sick. I do the exact same thing everyday, I feel the exact same ways, everyday. I feel dead. As if every motion has been done before. I want to do so many things.. . Seeing...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 19, 2012

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    Prisms

    I am a prism catching the last drops of sunlight of day, wanting to show my beauty but being stuck in place never moving.  I still hold on to my dreams but the dust has gathered on me until my beautiful facets no longer shine. What does it mean to feel?  I don’t think I can...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F Apr 27, 2011

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    Abstract

    Without pain....this life, this non-existence formed and molded by experiences that hurt and shame....I survive; I do not live. I want to know sunshine without rain. I want to feel roses without thorns. I want compassion and understanding without pity or fear. I want love of...
    bluehaiku bluehaiku 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2008

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    I Like The Woods.

    Go to the woods alone, and the trees and squirrels will watch for you. That quote is from my favorite peom, " How to be alone. " There has always been something about the woods that makes me feel reflective and whole. Same as the sea. The quietness without the total silence is...
    janealoneontheplain janealoneontheplain 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2012

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    It is just hardly feel alive and no one seem to recognize that i am eager to talk normal talks with anyone... I am just like in need of some space where people can talk with me...
    Egyptianguy34 Egyptianguy34 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    ...and if I'm being honest, sometimes I never want to give up this bad habit. How can something capable of killing me make me feel alive? Right now it's the only thing that's...
    XxbixtchybellaxX XxbixtchybellaxX 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Feeling alive from total freedom, shivering from a soft breeze.
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    She was the purest beauty But not the common kind She had a way about her That made you feel alive
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    I'm wallowing and I can't seem to find a way to feel secure and completely happy in my every day life. That's not to say that I am unhappy. I'm not. A lot of things have been going...
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    awaywego4 awaywego4 26-30, F Jun 29

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    What happens to me is that I'll feel weird being alive at all. I'll feel "weird" being a human being. I'll feel hyper-aware of my existence, and I'll feel like I'm in a vast...
    59Ballons 59Ballons 13-15 Jun 29

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    I feel it in my existence. As a human and for being on this planet and even living or existing. Endless pain. Nothing make sense and everything makes me unhappy, I could never even...
    DrowninginFear DrowninginFear 18-21, F Jul 16

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    I am alive and that's enough for me! Air giving me oxygen for living! When I am lonely, my heart speak with me! I started my own story, so I want to complete it! I want to die...
    Jms04 Jms04 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm so ugly I have to wear make up to cover my uglyness no one wants a ugly girlfriend or wife I'll be alone all my life I hope it's true god has a person for everyone cause I feel...
    tamaraiwannaknow tamaraiwannaknow 16-17, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    NchK NchK 31-35, F Jul 12

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    ECrierie ECrierie 16-17, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I want to see myself like in the movies; With a gay best friend, a guy friend and a girl friend. :p lmao but I think that is too much to ask. I haven't found a best friend that is...
    Wewerethereinthattime Wewerethereinthattime 18-21, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    StokesQuirky StokesQuirky 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    So today I went out with my science captain buddy and my teachers and their class. And I wasn't really feeling too happy but then seeing them happy made me happy and it was just...
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    lovinlife27 lovinlife27 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    OK so its my turn, gotta say, this one is even more accurate than the last test I saw, it describes me perfectly..... except for the dancing part, I cant dance to save my life...
    GoodMan1988 GoodMan1988 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 15

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    Looking in the mirror I always had a huge scar on my right side of my face. I never knew a day when I didn't see it and I can't imagine my face without it. I got it in a car...
    rukesh3 rukesh3 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    AQUARIUS SIGN The key feature of Aquarius sign is non-traditional approach to life. Aquarius sign is characterized by curiosity and the ability of deep insight into secrets. These...
    Skylar2000 Skylar2000 13-15, F 5 hrs ago

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    I am alone. I have my parents, my siblings, my friends, but I still feel empty. I don't know how to describe it. I felt love once- if one could believe a girl so young could...
    GemmaWeasley GemmaWeasley 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I like a lot of guys. Practically every single guy in my class. The lame part is, several found out and use it against me. If they ask for something several times, I give it to...
    asianlame asianlame 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 hr ago

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    i am not depressed ,i know that,but these days i feel like i dont need to be alive,i have no carrier,i'm not good at any thing,i'm not interesting in any thing special,i'm not...
    aryanm828 aryanm828 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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    CallmeShaneyney CallmeShaneyney 13-15, F Jun 29

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    emmy63637 emmy63637 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    . I like to make up songs while I'm brushing my teeth! And it makes me laugh when I hear myself ! 2. I'm hopelessly addicted to using exclamations points excessively!!!! 3. I have...
    Alicexnum2 Alicexnum2 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    I really thought I was facing the real possibility of death with this one, but thank you God I'm alive! 😁 Going to be healing for a long time and it hurts like crazy to laugh...
    Mirandaluvslife Mirandaluvslife 36-40, F Jul 13

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    Something.. like... I want to be out there, somewhere. Fresh, new, ... Like when on vacation and you step into a new house, or shop you havent been in. Maybe it is the same as...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M Jul 14

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    I mean people without depression don't know how it is to live with it I hate how my mother comes up to me and says "I know how you feel" and then I say to her "do you have...
    Meeppeep Meeppeep 16-17, M 1 day ago