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I Want to Feel Alive

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    Sick.

    The patterns, the de ja vu, the rewinds, the pauses. The stopping point. I feel as if life is making me sick. I do the exact same thing everyday, I feel the exact same ways, everyday. I feel dead. As if every motion has been done before. I want to do so many things.. . Seeing...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 19, 2012

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    Abstract

    Without pain....this life, this non-existence formed and molded by experiences that hurt and shame....I survive; I do not live. I want to know sunshine without rain. I want to feel roses without thorns. I want compassion and understanding without pity or fear. I want love of...
    bluehaiku bluehaiku 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2008

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    I Like The Woods.

    Go to the woods alone, and the trees and squirrels will watch for you. That quote is from my favorite peom, " How to be alone. " There has always been something about the woods that makes me feel reflective and whole. Same as the sea. The quietness without the total silence is...
    janealoneontheplain janealoneontheplain 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2012

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    I Want to Feel Alive

     I have a great family and friends who would do anything for me, but i dont feel a connection with any of them. I don't feel alive. I dont want to die but I dont care to live. I always do just enough to get by. I often feel smothered by people, especially friends. When this...
    samanthax samanthax 18-21 2 Responses Apr 29, 2008

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    i would like to stop feeling alone in life i

    would like to stop heaving to depend on people but i cant im 26 and fell like thats it time to find my forever dumpster
    shaggy9511 shaggy9511 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 24, 2014

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    Prisms

    I am a prism catching the last drops of sunlight of day, wanting to show my beauty but being stuck in place never moving.  I still hold on to my dreams but the dust has gathered on me until my beautiful facets no longer shine. What does it mean to feel?  I don’t think I can...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F Apr 27, 2011

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    Routine...

    I want to feel alive once again. Lately life seems like one big routine work that has to be done. I don't have any motivation to do anything. When I think about it there's nothing that makes me happy anymore. Most of the day I spend in my bedroom, I don't know where to begin to...
    sat321 sat321 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 15, 2010

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    Will Power Or Ill Power....

    Sometimes I train doing some movements I know like cartwheels.... well sometimes I do just for fun you know..... theese days my head was so busy..... I went out to the closest park, I then got a place with grass inside the park.... my muscles got sore..... I beated myself...
    TheX TheX 18-21, M Nov 14, 2011

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    Yes, I Want To Feel Alive.

    I feel that im waiting something to live. If i use my reasoning I know that the time is now¡¡ the life in going as water between the fingers, but what can I do? I feel that way. I guess I dont have "the motor" inside that other people have. I feel like a tree: only feeding on...
    marirosi marirosi 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 9, 2012

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    There's so many indicators. So many issues. I just don't think she wants me anymore. It's like I'm in an inevitable limbo, just waiting like some kind of emotional purgatory. I don...
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    I really need affection right now. Someone who'll tell me they care for me and actually love me enough to stay with me. I'm scared that I'll never feel that now.
    Radomguy1000 Radomguy1000 22-25, M 37 mins ago

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    I'm so glad I'm alive:-))) Last week,I almost got hit by a car on the road.i didn't saw it coming but luckily,my friends shouted at me to stop and thank god,I was alive.One more...
    randompenguinhere randompenguinhere 13-15, F 6 hrs ago

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    To use the humble word "deeply" is so very extremly inept of the knowledge inside of the actual depth that it's only at best an insult.But.... Alas, for the sake of humanity's love...
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter 41-45, F 11 hrs ago

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    When my mother became pregnant with me she always took drugs, like weed. So when I was born I was very small and had drugs in my system from her. I could have easily died but god...
    ForeverAWerewolfLover ForeverAWerewolfLover 13-15, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    How do I let go? How do I learn not to care? I texted you hours ago.... It was a simple message and I know you're busy, but it makes me sad when there is no response ... 'Thank you...
    Orangerocket Orangerocket 36-40, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    to Ustad Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan, i was in sixth class when my brother brought a new music cassette of a new pakistani artist home....he had borrowed it from one of his friend and...
    snuffal snuffal 26-30, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I've struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember. I have tried it all, but I'm just so impatient! But then I got an advice from a friend. Don't eat after the clock has...
    1beth1 1beth1 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    who doesn't? i love that feeling of being alive and creative, full of sparkle and hope. They say I have a mood disorder, so maybe that's why I'm craving feelings i cannot have to...
    cosmosdrift cosmosdrift 31-35, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I've been suffering with bipolar disorder my life in exact is becoming more and more overwhelmed and I am on the verge of collapsing and ready to die every moment of every hour my...
    Jolietillinois Jolietillinois 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    I semi recently (in june) moved in with my older sister because of the chaos going on where I used to live. My parents never took care of themselves (always assuming their...
    pumpkinpoptart pumpkinpoptart 16-17, T 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    to this:: And I'd give up forever to touch you 'Cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't wanna go home right now And all I...
    cosmosdrift cosmosdrift 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    Post 006 The end of Genesis Chapter 8 shows the world going back to normal. Genesis Chapter 9 is a covenant between god and Noah. Genesis Chapter 10 is a lot of lineage with the...
    DGA2000 DGA2000 61-65 4 days ago

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    I want to kill myself. I don't want to talk about it. I don't want help. I sure as hell don't want to read about how everything is going to get better or how everything happens for...
    SplitGivanni SplitGivanni 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    We had magic then the magic was gone. It seemed like that's how life is. We had a good run though. We reach a point and become complacent and content. Then you meet someone and...
    rick4545 rick4545 36-40, M 5 days ago

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    I had always been athletic and sporty and played my chosen sports to really high levels at both state, national and international levels. I broke a small bone in my ankle at the...
    Fit40club Fit40club 41-45, M Aug 27

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    It doesn't matter what people said As long as you know you have done it right It doesn't matter how people think of you As long as you know who you are in Christ It doesn't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 26

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    Exactly four years ago I was the happiest,luckiest girl alive.Had everything I wanted but I thought why not get some struggle and pain.And slowly situations got horrible...And I...
    GenuineAngel GenuineAngel 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 25

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    Sometimes tears say all there is to say Sometimes your first scars won't ever fade away Tried to break my heart Well it's broke Tried to hang me high Well I'm choked Wanted rain...
    BeachGypsy BeachGypsy 46-50, F Aug 25

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    Hello and welcome to my second post. Those who already know me know I hate god and that is true. What a lot of people don't know is that for 40 years I was a warrior and defender...
    DGA2000 DGA2000 61-65 3 Responses Aug 25

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    sometimes I think about it.how it felt to feel something just to remember I'm still alive to feel something other than numb something that hurt less than the emotional pain.I've...
    youngkinyteenmom youngkinyteenmom 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 24

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    I feel depressed to be alive.
    bluebunny01 bluebunny01 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    I guess I got a case of Sunday depression. It's not so much the day itself, but more the feelings I get. Usually I'm not the type to really need anyone to talk to all the time...
    CactusHugger CactusHugger 22-25 Aug 23

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    How To Turn Six Dollars Into Six Thousand Dollars: I found this on a bulletin board and decided to try it. A little while back I was browsing through newsgroups just like you are...
    manusundr manusundr 46-50, M Aug 22

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    I saw my psychologist today again. I threw up big time today in his building from ailments I've been experiencing from seeing lookalikes online AND offline of both men who attacked...
    loveismyfriend loveismyfriend 36-40, F Aug 22

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    I don't know how I feel, I do not know if this is official. I have this theory, where, if I ever had a girlfriend, another guy may take her away from me, somehow. I feel that way...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F Aug 20

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    In regards to my other stories, I found out that while my Fake Mother and her men molest me, they used and still may be using a liquid glue stick and ammonia, glass cleaner. They...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    sometimes I just wonder like if my parents are telling me saying they don't have enough money and **** like I have the feeling they are putting the blame on me...I don't know how...
    itsmereesa itsmereesa 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 19

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    Half open wooden curtain and half dark room, 3 days of non stop raining reminds me how long I am keeping my tears inside. Smooth sound of music, Anathema is playing and a strange...
    AshTaylor AshTaylor 18-21, M Aug 19

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    As I grow older and continue to battle the trials and tribulations of a man trying to survive one day at a time.One thing I have learned is that life is like spinning around like a...
    thebustierthebetter thebustierthebetter 46-50, M 1 Response Aug 18

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    "And I'm sorry, but I'm closer to seeing those mistakes that I've made. Take me into your arms, breathe me into your heart." -Heartist I don't know how to feel right now. I...
    Kkgunny Kkgunny 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    1. What is your middle name? - I have two Chinese middle names, Mei-Ling 2. How old are you? - 38 3. When is your birthday? - August 7 4. What is your zodiac sign? - Leo 5...
    loveismyfriend loveismyfriend 36-40, F Aug 17