I Want to Feel Alive

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    Routine...

    I want to feel alive once again. Lately life seems like one big routine work that has to be done. I don't have any motivation to do anything. When I think about it there's nothing that makes me happy anymore. Most of the day I spend in my bedroom, I don't know where to begin to...
    sat321 sat321
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jul 15, 2010

    I Like The Woods.

    Go to the woods alone, and the trees and squirrels will watch for you. That quote is from my favorite peom, " How to be alone. " There has always been something about the woods that makes me feel reflective and whole. Same as the sea. The quietness without the total silence is...
    janealoneontheplain janealoneontheplain
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 14, 2012

    Sometimes I gotta feel my pulse to know I'm

    alive, Sometimes I gotta jump off that building, to see if I can fly. And still survive.
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch
    18-21, F
    Sep 14, 2015

    Will Power Or Ill Power....

    Sometimes I train doing some movements I know like cartwheels.... well sometimes I do just for fun you know..... theese days my head was so busy..... I went out to the closest park, I then got a place with grass inside the park.... my muscles got sore..... I beated myself...
    TheX TheX
    18-21, M
    Nov 14, 2011

    i would like to stop feeling alone in life i

    would like to stop heaving to depend on people but i cant im 26 and fell like thats it time to find my forever dumpster
    shaggy9511 shaggy9511
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jul 24, 2014

    Abstract

    Without pain....this life, this non-existence formed and molded by experiences that hurt and shame....I survive; I do not live. I want to know sunshine without rain. I want to feel roses without thorns. I want compassion and understanding without pity or fear. I want love of...
    bluehaiku bluehaiku
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jul 29, 2008

    Yes, I Want To Feel Alive.

    I feel that im waiting something to live. If i use my reasoning I know that the time is now¡¡ the life in going as water between the fingers, but what can I do? I feel that way. I guess I dont have "the motor" inside that other people have. I feel like a tree: only feeding on...
    marirosi marirosi
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Jul 9, 2012
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 17, 2014

    Prisms

    I am a prism catching the last drops of sunlight of day, wanting to show my beauty but being stuck in place never moving.  I still hold on to my dreams but the dust has gathered on me until my beautiful facets no longer shine. What does it mean to feel?  I don’t think I can...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    Apr 27, 2011

    I Want to Feel Alive

     I have a great family and friends who would do anything for me, but i dont feel a connection with any of them. I don't feel alive. I dont want to die but I dont care to live. I always do just enough to get by. I often feel smothered by people, especially friends. When this...
    samanthax samanthax
    18-21
    2 Responses Apr 29, 2008

    Sick.

    The patterns, the de ja vu, the rewinds, the pauses. The stopping point. I feel as if life is making me sick. I do the exact same thing everyday, I feel the exact same ways, everyday. I feel dead. As if every motion has been done before. I want to do so many things.. . Seeing...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 19, 2012

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    arhg arhg
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    Kitty79 Kitty79
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    lovesthenightsky lovesthenightsky
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    deleted deleted
    26-30
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    shecanonlydream shecanonlydream
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