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I Want to Feel Alive

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    Will Power Or Ill Power....

    Sometimes I train doing some movements I know like cartwheels.... well sometimes I do just for fun you know..... theese days my head was so busy..... I went out to the closest park, I then got a place with grass inside the park.... my muscles got sore..... I beated myself...
    TheX TheX 18-21, M Nov 14, 2011

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    I Like The Woods.

    Go to the woods alone, and the trees and squirrels will watch for you. That quote is from my favorite peom, " How to be alone. " There has always been something about the woods that makes me feel reflective and whole. Same as the sea. The quietness without the total silence is...
    janealoneontheplain janealoneontheplain 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2012

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    Routine...

    I want to feel alive once again. Lately life seems like one big routine work that has to be done. I don't have any motivation to do anything. When I think about it there's nothing that makes me happy anymore. Most of the day I spend in my bedroom, I don't know where to begin to...
    sat321 sat321 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 15, 2010

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    Prisms

    I am a prism catching the last drops of sunlight of day, wanting to show my beauty but being stuck in place never moving.  I still hold on to my dreams but the dust has gathered on me until my beautiful facets no longer shine. What does it mean to feel?  I don’t think I can...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F Apr 27, 2011

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    I Want to Feel Alive

     I have a great family and friends who would do anything for me, but i dont feel a connection with any of them. I don't feel alive. I dont want to die but I dont care to live. I always do just enough to get by. I often feel smothered by people, especially friends. When this...
    samanthax samanthax 18-21 2 Responses Apr 29, 2008

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    i would like to stop feeling alone in life i

    would like to stop heaving to depend on people but i cant im 26 and fell like thats it time to find my forever dumpster
    shaggy9511 shaggy9511 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 24

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    Abstract

    Without pain....this life, this non-existence formed and molded by experiences that hurt and shame....I survive; I do not live. I want to know sunshine without rain. I want to feel roses without thorns. I want compassion and understanding without pity or fear. I want love of...
    bluehaiku bluehaiku 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2008

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    Sick.

    The patterns, the de ja vu, the rewinds, the pauses. The stopping point. I feel as if life is making me sick. I do the exact same thing everyday, I feel the exact same ways, everyday. I feel dead. As if every motion has been done before. I want to do so many things.. . Seeing...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 19, 2012

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    Yes, I Want To Feel Alive.

    I feel that im waiting something to live. If i use my reasoning I know that the time is now¡¡ the life in going as water between the fingers, but what can I do? I feel that way. I guess I dont have "the motor" inside that other people have. I feel like a tree: only feeding on...
    marirosi marirosi 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 9, 2012

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    Its been a while! Feels like I found my smile again when a few weeks back I was wondering if i ever would... :)
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    No one has ever made me feel so much as you do you know who you are!!
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    I'm staying up all night tonight...if anyone needs a late night buddy I'm here ;3
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    Caroline came over yesterday, and picked me up for our nearly seven hours (she doesn't speed along the autoroutes) drive south from Tours here to Canet Plage, Canet en Roussillon...
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    My new pretty purple tree :)
    Frankineedles Frankineedles 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    I love it. I love pain and torturing myself, especially emotionally. And sometimes that scares me, but mostly it scares me that the people around me are afraid for me. That they...
    sevenforasecret sevenforasecret 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Write more about this experience (optional)I'm a 38 year old guy. I look and act younger. At 35 I fell in love and got my new love-after dating 3 months-preganant. things moved...
    allarevessels allarevessels 36-40, M Aug 11

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    Write more about this experience (optional)I'm a 38 year old guy. I look and act younger. At 35 I fell in love and got my new love-after dating 3 months-preganant. things moved...
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    Write more about this experience (optional)I'm a 38 year old guy. I look and act younger. At 35 I fell in love and got my new love-after dating 3 months-preganant. things moved...
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    I feel truly broken on the inside. So broken that it's becoming hallow and I don't know how to feel anymore. The only thing that keeps me from falling apart is because I am a role...
    Vickypearl Vickypearl 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    What's wrong with me? I know my heart is beating but I am numb. I don't feel alive and I can't shake it. I have bouts of depression, I think. I just don't feel a thing, I know...
    SignalSarge SignalSarge 46-50, M Aug 5

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    Hit like if you feel alive and happy. Cox they dont last forever :)
    aliakhtar17 aliakhtar17 18-21, M Aug 14

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    "In the end, nothing changes." This quote had entered my mind a few days ago, and it's making me go through the five stages of grief. Recently, I became separated from 98% of...
    Laevatein Laevatein 13-15, M 14 hrs ago

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    Because I'm not living and I want to feel alive again, to be able to live.
    Yuan127 Yuan127 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 18

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    the title pretty much sums up the past 2 months of my life... I am so stuck at the moment, the one person I sort of trust (my care coordinator) is on holiday and I have no one to...
    RobynGreen RobynGreen 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    more some of my fav songs lines :3 1: how meny times do i have to tell you, even if you cry, your beutilful to ~ All of me - nighycore 2: we are the ones, the ones you left...
    AkariMei AkariMei 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    Things that makes me happy: Tattoos Nature Ocean Friends Animals Travel Food Sleep Feeling alive
    jcelli jcelli 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    Once again Facebook asking me What's on my mind. Dearest, you know?... I haven't words to tell or explain that mess inside of my head. But... Today I want to try. Try to start talk...
    WhineWolfe WhineWolfe 16-17, F Aug 19

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    It's been almost eight years since i've fallen in love. My first and I'm afraid it would be the last. Four years since I had that relationship with her. We almost lasted a year but...
    xenna2 xenna2 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I know that having a companion in life is not needed, it's wanted. But at times where all you want is to be held by your significant other that want feels like a need. I'm...
    nottheaveragegirl nottheaveragegirl 16-17, F Jul 29

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    I am 28 years old boy, I am handsome, smart, my height is 6 feet, slim body, currently i am general manager of a company. I want a true love, i want feel the happiness of love, i...
    yoggie1985 yoggie1985 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 13

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    It's been a while since i did anything, last time it was some lsd and it wasn't a nice trip :S paramedics got involved and stuff but that was mostly because of my friends freaking...
    jafetgx jafetgx 22-25, M 1 hr ago

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    I suffer very badly with social anxiety disorder and I feel like its now ruining my life to the point where I don't see the point in being alive anymore. My self-esteem is...
    bobthespider bobthespider 18-21 Aug 6

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    A SERIOUS MATTER NOT WORTH JOKING AROUND! It’s easy to see a person so bubbly, energetic, humorous and alive, thinking ‘wow that person has it all, a great life’ maybe they...
    imperfectedsoul imperfectedsoul 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    I should be grateful for my health, a roof over my head and everything that I do have, yet...I still hurt... The pain just never goes away... How I always feel, is like my heart...
    FUFLOOTA FUFLOOTA 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    You know who you are, you're the one I lay in bed every night thinking about, the one I met online, and fell in love with. Your name is Dylan, we met on an app called hot or not...
    KoolKandon KoolKandon 13-15, M 56 mins ago

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    I have been married for 10 years, together for 14. My husband and I have two children together. Almost our entire relationship he has worked two jobs, almost never home and even...
    dragonflydreams dragonflydreams 26-30, F 3 hrs ago

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    I feel guilty for being alive. I feel guilty for being able to breath and walk and talk. I feel guilty for ruining my parents lives by being born. I wish they never met and got...
    sewshow sewshow 18-21 Aug 6

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    I dislike talking about this sort of thing. I suppose it is because it makes me feel weak, I don't know. I have not felt right since I was really little. I have been anxious...
    jord4567 jord4567 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    My whole life I've been trying to figure out what normal is, and how to be it.. My earliest memory is breaking something, I don't even really know what it was, a cup maybe? or...
    JanusTheTwoSidedCoin JanusTheTwoSidedCoin 18-21, M 6 hrs ago

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    I am currently writing this to thank a close friend, someone who I’m not sure knows this, but is an amazing person. And to the rest of you reading this i hope to inspire or...
    InfiniteMusic InfiniteMusic 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 18

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    I've been single for the past few years. At first, I told myself I was choosing to be single--to learn more about myself. However, after trying to date and failing to get even...
    unfilteredme unfilteredme 31-35, M 2 Responses Aug 3

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    Last night I had a dream and I can't stop thinking about it. I miss my ex-fiancé even though I should hate her for what she did to me, I still love her it's been over a year since...
    Mijuru Mijuru 18-21 Jul 27

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    I feel like if i show how alone i feel i would end up screaming in a room full of people or just speeding up to the end and die already to end the torture. It cant keep going on...
    Noahn85 Noahn85 26-30, M 6 hrs ago

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    I recently ended a failing relationship, as much as I didn't want to, and it's left me feeling very depressed and lonely. I feel like what little friends and family I do have in...
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    The doctors said they don't know how I survived my car accident I thought when I woke up in a burning car and couldn't feel my face that I would survive but I am lucky to be alive...
    ChandlerTitus1 ChandlerTitus1 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    This is a message for those who feel that life is not good, there is no hope, and they want to end it all. Let me start by sharing two stories to help me to get my message across...
    tcennoC tcennoC 51-55, M 2 Responses Aug 10

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    I suppose I haven't been through enough pain. Only this time like every other time, the pain I'm experiencing is with myself. What am I even doing right now? Why am I feeling the...
    XxTINYAZNxX XxTINYAZNxX 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 6

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