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I Want to Feel Alive

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    I Want to Feel Alive

     I have a great family and friends who would do anything for me, but i dont feel a connection with any of them. I don't feel alive. I dont want to die but I dont care to live. I always do just enough to get by. I often feel smothered by people, especially friends. When this...
    samanthax samanthax 18-21 2 Responses Apr 29, 2008

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    Will Power Or Ill Power....

    Sometimes I train doing some movements I know like cartwheels.... well sometimes I do just for fun you know..... theese days my head was so busy..... I went out to the closest park, I then got a place with grass inside the park.... my muscles got sore..... I beated myself...
    TheX TheX 18-21, M Nov 14, 2011

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    Routine...

    I want to feel alive once again. Lately life seems like one big routine work that has to be done. I don't have any motivation to do anything. When I think about it there's nothing that makes me happy anymore. Most of the day I spend in my bedroom, I don't know where to begin to...
    sat321 sat321 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 15, 2010

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 17, 2014

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    Abstract

    Without pain....this life, this non-existence formed and molded by experiences that hurt and shame....I survive; I do not live. I want to know sunshine without rain. I want to feel roses without thorns. I want compassion and understanding without pity or fear. I want love of...
    bluehaiku bluehaiku 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2008

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    Yes, I Want To Feel Alive.

    I feel that im waiting something to live. If i use my reasoning I know that the time is now¡¡ the life in going as water between the fingers, but what can I do? I feel that way. I guess I dont have "the motor" inside that other people have. I feel like a tree: only feeding on...
    marirosi marirosi 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 9, 2012

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    Sick.

    The patterns, the de ja vu, the rewinds, the pauses. The stopping point. I feel as if life is making me sick. I do the exact same thing everyday, I feel the exact same ways, everyday. I feel dead. As if every motion has been done before. I want to do so many things.. . Seeing...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 19, 2012

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    i would like to stop feeling alone in life i

    would like to stop heaving to depend on people but i cant im 26 and fell like thats it time to find my forever dumpster
    shaggy9511 shaggy9511 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 24, 2014

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    I Like The Woods.

    Go to the woods alone, and the trees and squirrels will watch for you. That quote is from my favorite peom, " How to be alone. " There has always been something about the woods that makes me feel reflective and whole. Same as the sea. The quietness without the total silence is...
    janealoneontheplain janealoneontheplain 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2012

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    Prisms

    I am a prism catching the last drops of sunlight of day, wanting to show my beauty but being stuck in place never moving.  I still hold on to my dreams but the dust has gathered on me until my beautiful facets no longer shine. What does it mean to feel?  I don’t think I can...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F Apr 27, 2011

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    I want to meet new friends and have fun and feel alive again. I've been in a loveless passionless marriage for too long now. Lead separate lives and I've been stagnant for too long...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 26

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    I want to have fun, dance crazy and laugh and enjoy being alive
    missynona missynona 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    and pretty hurt. forgot how this felt like.
    olahjagger olahjagger 22-25, F May 12

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    warped tour last year.....kinda sucked because of the people i went with but the mosh pits for attila and falling in reverse were insane. would love to go again.
    kinkystapler kinkystapler 18-21, F May 12

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    I love your beauty and radiance..the touch or your rays as you caress me from head to toe. You paint me with the softness of your brush, turning my skin a delicious lovely golden...
    sensualbeauty1 sensualbeauty1 46-50, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I want to tell others what's truly happening because it's hard to tell the ones I'm close to. I'm afraid to get help, I don't want to be put on meds. Ik I've told a lot of people I...
    Byeluv Byeluv 16-17, F 1 Response May 3

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    I came looking for any connection. Any word to make me feel alive. Self doubt that gripped on so long starting to vanish. Slowly replaced by confidence. That built the foundation...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 8

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    After being stuck in the same, seemingly endless broken cycle. I feel as if the only way for hope is to break free of the ordinary; I don't have roots, maybe someday I could. I...
    LivingToLearnLearningToLove LivingToLearnLearningToLove 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    1. I am 5'7 & VERY proud. 2. I was born in Florida, raised in NY. 3. I am birracial. My mother is Puerto Rican & my Dad is Jamaican. 4. I identify as bisexual. 5. I am VERY...
    shesdifferent516 shesdifferent516 18-21, F Apr 25

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    So there's this hole inside me that can't be filled. It's void and needs to be filled up. I'm beginning to see maybe I need crisis to fill this void. I'm attracted to people who...
    AlricVirgil AlricVirgil 26-30, M 1 Response May 4

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    hello ladies, I was lead to experience because I heard all of you are really supportive and may know what I'm going through I still live with my parents and I crossdress daily...
    tmrwcanwait tmrwcanwait 18-21, T May 6

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    hello ladies,I am from Orange county, California, I was lead to experience because I heard all of you are really supportive and may know what I'm going through I still live with...
    tmrwcanwait tmrwcanwait 18-21, T 1 Response May 6

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    hello ladies,I am from Orange county, California, I was lead to experience because I heard all of you are really supportive and may know what I'm going through I still live with...
    tmrwcanwait tmrwcanwait 18-21, T 1 Response May 6

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    I feel alive when I can't sleep because of the burning scars -funny enough I punish myself for things other people did to me.
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F May 10

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    Somebody make me feel alive and shatter me
    MangaIsLoveMangaIsLife MangaIsLoveMangaIsLife 13-15 2 days ago

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    Part of wishes the riots get worse and more frequent. I secretly want be alive to see a revolution happen in America
    abercrombie99 abercrombie99 16-17, M May 2

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    And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's meant to be broken I just want you to know who I am And you can't fight the tears...
    Littl3Madam Littl3Madam 18-21, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Memories.. Sometime memories are our only chance to keep the past alive and to remember what is long forgotten. Some of them are bad and we don`t want to remember and others are...
    tomanyfeeling28 tomanyfeeling28 26-30, F 7 hrs ago

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    Depression.. It's eating me alive.. To be honest, I don't know how much longer I'll survive When every night I'm praying : "Please God Let Me Die" Wakes up and distracts his mind...
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I don't want to be here. Everything is so sad. My father came for a visit today and to help me with some paper work. He saw a letter from my psychiatrist and said "well this is...
    absolom absolom 41-45 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    What is Life? Life is complex Life is beautiful It's beautiful Life is rich and amazing Life was given to us by God Life is limited So why waste time? Each and everyday is a...
    LeahLoveeU LeahLoveeU 13-15, F 2 Responses May 14

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    BON JOVI "Wanted Dead Or Alive" It's all the same, only the names will change Everyday it seems we're wasting away Another place where the faces are so cold I'd drive all...
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 2 Responses May 16

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    0.77. I remember that Google was mentioned on "60 minutes" 0.78. I am not afraid of dogs 1. "As good as it gets" - it was an interesting movie 2. Sometimes my keyboard-playing are...
    Clothed Clothed 41-45, M Apr 29

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    There's a difference between living and being alive. Everyone that's not dead... Is alive. People walk and wander through life being alive. They will never have that edge, take...
    hunterw0lf hunterw0lf 41-45, M Apr 30

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    Am i Afraid to l lose weight because i feel as if i have in to what everyone wants but i want it to. I want to be respected for who i am not what i look like. But at the same time...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    Okay I have been diagnosed with ADHD and Dyslexia but I always feel like I am different. That I am off some how. I don't really know how but just that I not normal. I have always...
    CuteButTheDevil CuteButTheDevil 16-17, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I started off wondering if I could actually think of 100 interesting things about myself. The answer was a resounding NO. I got about halfway through this and got sick of myself...
    SlushyAseSparkles SlushyAseSparkles 22-25, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    We who have been called are feeling a darkness trying to oppress our calling ,,it is not me alone or you alone ,the body is being attacked as never before to quit . We hear we...
    rckt148 rckt148 56-60, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    What is a Mother? For me I was lucky I had a friend’s mother stand up for me when I was young, and even before I fully understood what was being done I knew she loved me like her...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M May 9

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    I am 50% Yup'ik Eskimo. my mother was full Yup'ik Eskimo and she met my father when he was stationed in anchorage. they married, had me and one other. my brother did not make it...
    Anuska23 Anuska23 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I keep wondering why I am a target for abuse, rejection, being shunned, and abandoned by many? I feel no matter what I do or say to people, I'm just not good enough to be their...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T 1 hr ago

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