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I Want to Feel Alive

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    Yes, I Want To Feel Alive.

    I feel that im waiting something to live. If i use my reasoning I know that the time is now¡¡ the life in going as water between the fingers, but what can I do? I feel that way. I guess I dont have "the motor" inside that other people have. I feel like a tree: only feeding on...
    marirosi marirosi 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 9, 2012

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    I Like The Woods.

    Go to the woods alone, and the trees and squirrels will watch for you. That quote is from my favorite peom, " How to be alone. " There has always been something about the woods that makes me feel reflective and whole. Same as the sea. The quietness without the total silence is...
    janealoneontheplain janealoneontheplain 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2012

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    Abstract

    Without pain....this life, this non-existence formed and molded by experiences that hurt and shame....I survive; I do not live. I want to know sunshine without rain. I want to feel roses without thorns. I want compassion and understanding without pity or fear. I want love of...
    bluehaiku bluehaiku 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2008

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    Routine...

    I want to feel alive once again. Lately life seems like one big routine work that has to be done. I don't have any motivation to do anything. When I think about it there's nothing that makes me happy anymore. Most of the day I spend in my bedroom, I don't know where to begin to...
    sat321 sat321 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 15, 2010

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    I Want to Feel Alive

     I have a great family and friends who would do anything for me, but i dont feel a connection with any of them. I don't feel alive. I dont want to die but I dont care to live. I always do just enough to get by. I often feel smothered by people, especially friends. When this...
    samanthax samanthax 18-21 2 Responses Apr 29, 2008

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    Will Power Or Ill Power....

    Sometimes I train doing some movements I know like cartwheels.... well sometimes I do just for fun you know..... theese days my head was so busy..... I went out to the closest park, I then got a place with grass inside the park.... my muscles got sore..... I beated myself...
    TheX TheX 18-21, M Nov 14, 2011

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    i would like to stop feeling alone in life i

    would like to stop heaving to depend on people but i cant im 26 and fell like thats it time to find my forever dumpster
    shaggy9511 shaggy9511 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 24

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    Thriving more than surviving.

    Without going jerk.
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M Sep 1

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    Sick.

    The patterns, the de ja vu, the rewinds, the pauses. The stopping point. I feel as if life is making me sick. I do the exact same thing everyday, I feel the exact same ways, everyday. I feel dead. As if every motion has been done before. I want to do so many things.. . Seeing...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 19, 2012

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    Prisms

    I am a prism catching the last drops of sunlight of day, wanting to show my beauty but being stuck in place never moving.  I still hold on to my dreams but the dust has gathered on me until my beautiful facets no longer shine. What does it mean to feel?  I don’t think I can...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F Apr 27, 2011

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    Semi-charmed life- third eye blind I'm packed and I'm holding, I'm smiling She's living, she's golden, she lives for me Says she lives for me Ovation, her own motivation She...
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    It all started with a simple glance. In the beginning of the year I'm sitting in Health and I'm a signed a spot I look around the room and see the back if this extremely cute guy...
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    its like I'm always waiting for him to notice me even though I'm right there. he lied to me and hurt me and maybe doesn't even know how to love me. I feel empty but I chase the...
    themuffingirly themuffingirly 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    I feel so freaking old and tired. I want to feel alive again. I think I spend too much time alone.
    StormyG1 StormyG1 46-50, F 13 Responses Dec 13

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    sylvia. everyday since she betrayed me. nothing but nightmares and pain of losing my soulmate of 4 yeqr one who knew everything about u n vice versa n every dream ect. the one who...
    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M Dec 1

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    i feel dead inside and i feel that i'm going crazy because i cant understand what is going on with me. i don't feel anything and i do at the same time its so confusing like i get...
    sb159 sb159 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    There was once a You and I, the sun shined in our eyes when we looked at Eachother. We use to entwine fingers, feel more, breathe more. The nights of sneaking out to see each other...
    Xenasdreams Xenasdreams 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 2

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    The holidays have lost their luster and excitement for me. When I was a child I would always be the most excited to visit family and open gifts. Now it almost feels like i am going...
    InspireMeZilly InspireMeZilly 26-30, F Dec 7

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    And I have him, too. He is my lover and friend. So passionate and thoughtful, he showers me with attention and affection. Brilliant and powerful, the company he runs does business...
    1HisMsAdler 1HisMsAdler 41-45, F 5 Responses Nov 27

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    I love music and watching my fave bands live is even better! I went to my first concert in 1999 to see The Goo Goo Dolls then I saw Godsmack, Breaking Benjamin, and Hed P.E. in 2...
    unluckyme86 unluckyme86 26-30, F Dec 3

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    I feel something so right By doing the wrong thing And I feel something so wrong By doing the right thing I couldn't lie, couldn't lie, couldn't lie Everything that kills me makes...
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    i'm being productive. i'm feeling alive...good.
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    Bullying only makes people sad, depressed and feel worthless! So why do people bully? Is it because they're weak? Is it because they're jealous? I don't know why you should think...
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    my happy moments are like flash light in long dark cold night i can't be happy with my present i want feel happy even for short time
    narmer2015 narmer2015 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    Do you believe in god ? are you religious ? i don't believe in god , probably i am atheist .. but i think god is just as feeling but i can't say for sure .. i read many books from...
    r110 r110 22-25, M 6 hrs ago

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    Hi, This message is a far cry from my usual cheery goofy updates, but I guess being so far from my family at this time of year has me emotional and has got me thinking. I am a...
    doryx doryx 26-30, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Has anyone seen the movie "Stuck In Love" ? If So, I Feel Like Samantha . Live for the Moment, (sadly) Promiscuous, & Afraid of Getting Hurt Kind of Girl . (I Hope That Did Not...
    siennaivy siennaivy 13-15, F 2 hrs ago

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    I suppose it's the fact that I never had a big family. No siblings (that I know of, anyway - my "dad" may well have other children). I've never felt like I really belonged to...
    IntoTheWyld IntoTheWyld 22-25, F 4 hrs ago

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    Never too late- three days grace This world will never be what I expected And if I don't belong who would have guessed it I will not leave alone everything that I own To make you...
    trayomis trayomis 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    I just want to be loved despite my bad days and good days. Despite my quirks and flaws. I am tired of snide remarks that are made into jokes, passive-aggressiveness, etc. I don't...
    onafaerieswings onafaerieswings 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    I'm currently studying because I want to get in a University (Rank 1-70 International). However I feel really stupid despite studying a lot and I feel like I I don't get into a...
    T055 T055 16-17, F 2 hrs ago

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    I'm alive. I'm happy just to be alive. I had a full day, a normal day. I was out for a while, just driving, windows down, music blasting, and feeling like a part of the world...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 30

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    I've gone to college twice now. I took a few classes at the community college in my hometown, which really ddidn't amount to anything at all other than one experience that meant a...
    IntoTheWyld IntoTheWyld 22-25, F 4 hrs ago

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    I am and I love it feels so good to finally feel comfortable in my body and not care what others think.
    Chubbyhubby230 Chubbyhubby230 31-35, M 5 hrs ago

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    I don't want to sit here and have people think I'm feeling sorry for myself. It's time to let out this pain. So, I met a man seven months ago. He was practically everything I liked...
    ChellyRocker ChellyRocker 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    I wish I can help and make that someone change in a positive way. I don't want that someone to fall into the wrong path and suffer. Do it for the people around you, they appreciate...
    TetraZL TetraZL 13-15, F 5 hrs ago

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    You know when you really want a boyfriend, and some people say that you're bloody to young, there are still plenty of time?? I mean like really, one minute of loneliness feels...
    Gayvegetarian Gayvegetarian 16-17, M 5 hrs ago

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    I jacked a guy off from behind in the shower, it was so nice to feel him shoot. I want to Jo a guy again, any takers?
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