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I Want to Feel Alive

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    I Want to Feel Alive

     I have a great family and friends who would do anything for me, but i dont feel a connection with any of them. I don't feel alive. I dont want to die but I dont care to live. I always do just enough to get by. I often feel smothered by people, especially friends. When this...
    samanthax samanthax 18-21 2 Responses Apr 29, 2008

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    Routine...

    I want to feel alive once again. Lately life seems like one big routine work that has to be done. I don't have any motivation to do anything. When I think about it there's nothing that makes me happy anymore. Most of the day I spend in my bedroom, I don't know where to begin to...
    sat321 sat321 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 15, 2010

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    Abstract

    Without pain....this life, this non-existence formed and molded by experiences that hurt and shame....I survive; I do not live. I want to know sunshine without rain. I want to feel roses without thorns. I want compassion and understanding without pity or fear. I want love of...
    bluehaiku bluehaiku 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2008

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    Yes, I Want To Feel Alive.

    I feel that im waiting something to live. If i use my reasoning I know that the time is now¡¡ the life in going as water between the fingers, but what can I do? I feel that way. I guess I dont have "the motor" inside that other people have. I feel like a tree: only feeding on...
    marirosi marirosi 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 9, 2012

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    Will Power Or Ill Power....

    Sometimes I train doing some movements I know like cartwheels.... well sometimes I do just for fun you know..... theese days my head was so busy..... I went out to the closest park, I then got a place with grass inside the park.... my muscles got sore..... I beated myself...
    TheX TheX 18-21, M Nov 14, 2011

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    Sick.

    The patterns, the de ja vu, the rewinds, the pauses. The stopping point. I feel as if life is making me sick. I do the exact same thing everyday, I feel the exact same ways, everyday. I feel dead. As if every motion has been done before. I want to do so many things.. . Seeing...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 19, 2012

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    Prisms

    I am a prism catching the last drops of sunlight of day, wanting to show my beauty but being stuck in place never moving.  I still hold on to my dreams but the dust has gathered on me until my beautiful facets no longer shine. What does it mean to feel?  I don’t think I can...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F Apr 27, 2011

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    I Like The Woods.

    Go to the woods alone, and the trees and squirrels will watch for you. That quote is from my favorite peom, " How to be alone. " There has always been something about the woods that makes me feel reflective and whole. Same as the sea. The quietness without the total silence is...
    janealoneontheplain janealoneontheplain 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2012

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    i would like to stop feeling alone in life i

    would like to stop heaving to depend on people but i cant im 26 and fell like thats it time to find my forever dumpster
    shaggy9511 shaggy9511 22-25, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I've been walking through a fog for too long. I can't remember the last time I felt this alive. Quiet 7am Sunday morning, cold fresh air, bright sun poking its head over the...
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    I'm a night owl. I've always been since I've been a young child . I feel more energized. I only wish more places were open at that time. IHOP is open but I don't feel like hoppin...
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    2 years ago I tried to commit suicide and failed... I am still alive yet after all this time... I really only regret staying alive. That's it really, I regret not dying all that...
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    I want to be inlove because I want to know what love is. I want to feel alive To love and to be heartbroken is maybe the best part of life I want to be inlove and be loved I...
    monah monah 22-25, F Jul 10

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    Do you believe in soulmates? If so ever wondered where your one was? On a remote island maybe? At your work or school? maybe they your best friend Or maybe they weren't even born...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 11

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    It is just hardly feel alive and no one seem to recognize that i am eager to talk normal talks with anyone... I am just like in need of some space where people can talk with me...
    Egyptianguy34 Egyptianguy34 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    I am unassuming, if you walked past me , the average vanilla would not even notice me, quiet, eyes cast down. I know the feeling when i catch his eye, he is dominant. I have to...
    intrigue30 intrigue30 36-40, F 2 days ago

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    ...and if I'm being honest, sometimes I never want to give up this bad habit. How can something capable of killing me make me feel alive? Right now it's the only thing that's...
    XxbixtchybellaxX XxbixtchybellaxX 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Feeling alive from total freedom, shivering from a soft breeze.
    Goodnatured Goodnatured 46-50, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    She was the purest beauty But not the common kind She had a way about her That made you feel alive
    Lexi2014 Lexi2014 41-45, F Jul 11

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    I don't know what to do. I feel I'm potentially getting close to a situation in which I'll either jeopardize my marriage or be forced to say good-bye to my best friend. I don't...
    saundra04 saundra04 26-30, F 7 hrs ago

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    When I looked out today And saw that the sky was gray I thought about the way You loved days like this And driving in to town It really started coming down Bringing me back around...
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F 6 hrs ago

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    Yes I do I want to because when I'm alone I feel like there's no one to hurt me and I can't hurt anyone. I can't trust people because I've always had people in my life that hurt me...
    Coolman1222 Coolman1222 13-15, M 3 hrs ago

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    I'm wallowing and I can't seem to find a way to feel secure and completely happy in my every day life. That's not to say that I am unhappy. I'm not. A lot of things have been going...
    LadyOfLorien LadyOfLorien 18-21, F Jul 6

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    The world is getting cold and it's only getting colder but I don't think it will ever get as ice cold as the hearts of many of our own.Greed,Fear,Money,Religion,etc. these are some...
    PeaceAtSoul PeaceAtSoul 16-17, T 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    Dear *******, I don't think you realize how much you hurt me, how much everything you did affected me in a bad way. I hope that one day, a girl you love makes you feel worthless...
    awaywego4 awaywego4 26-30, F Jun 29

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    What happens to me is that I'll feel weird being alive at all. I'll feel "weird" being a human being. I'll feel hyper-aware of my existence, and I'll feel like I'm in a vast...
    59Ballons 59Ballons 13-15 Jun 29

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    My story if I told most wouldn't believe half of it.Sometimes I don't believe half of it but it's all true.There are much worse off in this world filled with misery.So to tell my...
    bignatbreastluver bignatbreastluver 46-50, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Last night I had a dream and I can't stop thinking about it. I miss my ex-fiancé even though I should hate her for what she did to me, I still love her it's been over a year since...
    Mijuru Mijuru 18-21 22 hrs ago

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    I've never understood why I've always felt so ashamed of crying and why I've never been able to get rid of the feeling that crying is a sign of weakness. I ended up weeping in...
    OpenlyHonestly OpenlyHonestly 22-25, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I am alive and that's enough for me! Air giving me oxygen for living! When I am lonely, my heart speak with me! I started my own story, so I want to complete it! I want to die...
    Jms04 Jms04 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    A young couple were dancing the night away on a hot evening in a London nightclub. So sweltering, many of the men were shirtless. Not this guy though. The gf unbuttoned her bf's...
    jasblyth jasblyth 31-35, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Scratch the crust – blood, Pick your nose – blood, Brush your teeth – blood, Sew the sock – blood, Every 28 days – blood, Are we alive? Since rubbing rusty iron makes the...
    NchK NchK 31-35, F Jul 12

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    I am incredibly lucky to be alive I was born premature 2 months before I was supposes to be born I was born 19 days after my parents got married on November 1st 1997 So I was born...
    ECrierie ECrierie 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    If another entity did to us what we've done to this world we would call them "evil". We eat and clothe ourselves with the meat and skin of animals. We do the same with plants...
    honestyreality honestyreality 22-25, F 4 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I'm Just One Person Who's Trying To Swim But In Reality Drowning In Her Own Misery. People Want To Know Why I'm Like This , Others Just Ignore It. Family It Doesn't Seem Like They...
    AlexisMarieMason AlexisMarieMason 18-21, F 7 hrs ago

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    When I was a kid I always wanted a family like the ones that I would watch on the television. My mother had 2 jobs during the time. My father well let's say........ Poppa was a...
    natashaxxs natashaxxs 31-35, F Jul 17

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    The longest relationship I've ever had is almost two years. I just called it off and I feel terrible... All that time spent with someone, all the planning and talking about...
    Tayway22 Tayway22 13-15, F 8 hrs ago

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    I have a lot of friends. But one thing about them. Some tell my business. My best friend tell my business, she even make fun of me about it. Once I'm done telling her my business...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 5 Responses 30 mins ago

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    I work with the elderly and everyday after listening to their stories I am more grateful to be alive and well. I strive to utilize my time wisely to maximize my existence.
    lovinlife27 lovinlife27 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    OK so its my turn, gotta say, this one is even more accurate than the last test I saw, it describes me perfectly..... except for the dancing part, I cant dance to save my life...
    GoodMan1988 GoodMan1988 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 15

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    Looking in the mirror I always had a huge scar on my right side of my face. I never knew a day when I didn't see it and I can't imagine my face without it. I got it in a car...
    rukesh3 rukesh3 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I get frusrated so often when i write. My mind and heart says one thing but my hands are like a different part of me.like someone else body hooked to my brain. Some zombie or...
    WildSherry13 WildSherry13 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    i am not depressed ,i know that,but these days i feel like i dont need to be alive,i have no carrier,i'm not good at any thing,i'm not interesting in any thing special,i'm not...
    aryanm828 aryanm828 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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    he makes me feel so special sometimes like he would do anything for me but then he gets me off guard and hurts me a lot and he doesnt care, i told him that i cutted and he just...
    xxSuicidalPrincessxx xxSuicidalPrincessxx 13-15, F Jun 29

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    I know this sounds stupid, and I am not ever going to commit suicide so dont think that, but I got to thinking the other day, why are we alive? Why are we here? Whats the purpose...
    emmy63637 emmy63637 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    . I like to make up songs while I'm brushing my teeth! And it makes me laugh when I hear myself ! 2. I'm hopelessly addicted to using exclamations points excessively!!!! 3. I have...
    Alicexnum2 Alicexnum2 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    I really thought I was facing the real possibility of death with this one, but thank you God I'm alive! 😁 Going to be healing for a long time and it hurts like crazy to laugh...
    Mirandaluvslife Mirandaluvslife 36-40, F Jul 13

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    Something.. like... I want to be out there, somewhere. Fresh, new, ... Like when on vacation and you step into a new house, or shop you havent been in. Maybe it is the same as...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M Jul 14