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I Want to Feel Alive

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    Routine...

    I want to feel alive once again. Lately life seems like one big routine work that has to be done. I don't have any motivation to do anything. When I think about it there's nothing that makes me happy anymore. Most of the day I spend in my bedroom, I don't know where to begin to...
    sat321 sat321 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 15, 2010

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    Sick.

    The patterns, the de ja vu, the rewinds, the pauses. The stopping point. I feel as if life is making me sick. I do the exact same thing everyday, I feel the exact same ways, everyday. I feel dead. As if every motion has been done before. I want to do so many things.. . Seeing...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 19, 2012

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    Prisms

    I am a prism catching the last drops of sunlight of day, wanting to show my beauty but being stuck in place never moving.  I still hold on to my dreams but the dust has gathered on me until my beautiful facets no longer shine. What does it mean to feel?  I don’t think I can...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F Apr 27, 2011

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    i would like to stop feeling alone in life i

    would like to stop heaving to depend on people but i cant im 26 and fell like thats it time to find my forever dumpster
    shaggy9511 shaggy9511 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 24, 2014

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    Yes, I Want To Feel Alive.

    I feel that im waiting something to live. If i use my reasoning I know that the time is now¡¡ the life in going as water between the fingers, but what can I do? I feel that way. I guess I dont have "the motor" inside that other people have. I feel like a tree: only feeding on...
    marirosi marirosi 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 9, 2012

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    I Like The Woods.

    Go to the woods alone, and the trees and squirrels will watch for you. That quote is from my favorite peom, " How to be alone. " There has always been something about the woods that makes me feel reflective and whole. Same as the sea. The quietness without the total silence is...
    janealoneontheplain janealoneontheplain 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2012

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    I Want to Feel Alive

     I have a great family and friends who would do anything for me, but i dont feel a connection with any of them. I don't feel alive. I dont want to die but I dont care to live. I always do just enough to get by. I often feel smothered by people, especially friends. When this...
    samanthax samanthax 18-21 2 Responses Apr 29, 2008

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    Will Power Or Ill Power....

    Sometimes I train doing some movements I know like cartwheels.... well sometimes I do just for fun you know..... theese days my head was so busy..... I went out to the closest park, I then got a place with grass inside the park.... my muscles got sore..... I beated myself...
    TheX TheX 18-21, M Nov 14, 2011

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    Abstract

    Without pain....this life, this non-existence formed and molded by experiences that hurt and shame....I survive; I do not live. I want to know sunshine without rain. I want to feel roses without thorns. I want compassion and understanding without pity or fear. I want love of...
    bluehaiku bluehaiku 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2008

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    It's been like months when I finally came over the crap. Good books,Good friends got me back. But well Living alone and trying to figure out everything never works. People who say...
    ThisIsMeYeah ThisIsMeYeah 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 22

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    I feel a pinch of Peacefull-ness its the only time of the day I feel alive and wanted
    Whyicry Whyicry 13-15, M Apr 5

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    It feels so good to live in a world full of color. I used to be really depressed but I feel alive finally. I thank god everyday I'm out of my hole. Life is beautiful. Nature is...
    piperweant piperweant 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    SKRILLEX! Who ever participated a Skrillex live concert? I watched him three times live . There were the best three days of my life. I felt so alive. I thought: it worth it living...
    richardwagner richardwagner 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    lol. So far when have i ever been this way ?! huh !?!?!?!?! no . I am depressed to deeply. I feel so so unimaginably bad. Leave me alone let me cry ok. I am sick about all that is...
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    there's nothing I want more.
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    Prologue Onyx Pond At a distance it was a large onyx oval nestled in the woods. After midnight, the pond shimmered under the watchful moon. To me, it was a perfect picture of yin...
    MidnightScribe MidnightScribe 36-40, M 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I love that picture. We use to cliff jump with my cousin when we were kids. Of course secretly, the adults would kill us, if they found out! lol
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 8

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    all I need is someone to go out with & discover what's in this mysterious world, like how I used to do when I was a child, but now I'm nothing but a silly guy who turns on the...
    boom991 boom991 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 8

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    I am dragging my life just draggin it there are no goals no expectations no hope ....
    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    As the rain falls...so does my tears. How can something that feels so right be so wrong? The sparkles in her eyes totally undressed me....Her eyes were bright as the Northern Star...
    Tr3asur3dLuv Tr3asur3dLuv 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    A while ago I was thinking of things that I value/believe in. So..These are some of those things: 1.Peace,I value peace a lot,it's pretty important to me.I try not to start...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    With every second I spent with her it felt divine, I felt blessed by just being within the light of her company, everytime I looked into her eyes I felt truly at peace, and when...
    anonymousdrummer anonymousdrummer 13-15, M a week ago

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    I am dead inside can’t ever wake up I will live with myself just unplug me now life has used me enough. I have killed my heart nothing left. My all efforts go in vain.I don't...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 Apr 10

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    its so hard living simple in this complicated world where you feel a thing is right and everyone else wanna make it wrong. We seek answers; why am living, who am I, why am I from...
    ojeezy ojeezy 22-25, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Thank you for being such a good friend to me... I pray a friend for life... Have I ever told you how much you mean to me? You mean so much to me. Thank you for helping me see the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 9

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    This isn't one of the original stories you're going to find on here, or anywhere. This is a story that will tell you what defines me, and how I got here. I'm not perfect. It's...
    bemyforeverlove97 bemyforeverlove97 16-17, F Mar 23

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    Here's some poetry: Who Are You Really? (poetry about being confused about if someone actually cares) Who Are You Really? I wish we could talk about our feelings Sometimes I...
    SeeingAuras SeeingAuras 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    Here i am, i guess i cant run of ep Nobody Will read this, is better like that. Is a cold night, about to finish my turn... The cold wind plays with my hair, Cuz Im alone here. I...
    Mysorrow Mysorrow 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    I don't feel alive or real unless I'm doing something dangerous or stupid and then I just feel worse after the experience. I do suffer from dissociation but I think it goes deeper...
    buffalobilll buffalobilll 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    It's been a long.long,long,way to long time. I need a woman to make all this frustration betaken away from my mid and body!Dear God in heaven please bring to me a woman to end my...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 46-50, M 6 days ago

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    When you go through two decades during which you experience nothing but pain every day, hour, minute, and second, you feel alive and strong, like you've endured an enormous ordeal...
    insidious2014 insidious2014 18-21, M Mar 23

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    She is my best friend we meet in the university we eat to gather we do our projects together we come in the same time, I liked her because she is always happy and laughing at my...
    collegegirl20 collegegirl20 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    for longer then I can remember I am and have been tired of being alive I have always thought of killing myself but I can't jump off the cliff I sit at the edge feet hanging off the...
    Tempzero Tempzero 22-25, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Place your hand over your heart. Do you feel it? That is called purpose. You’re alive for a reason so don’t ever give up. The person who completes suicide, dies once. Those...
    ArtLover01 ArtLover01 66-70, F 1 day ago

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    I think my mum who doesn't sound like my real mum really hate me ... It is a long story but since I existed I feel rejected by her and the way she talks to me and treat me shows...
    restlessuk restlessuk 31-35, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    -- Glimpse -- a very brief, passing look, sight, or view. a momentary or slight appearance. a vague idea; inkling. I get this during the day. Maybe just after having woken up in...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M a week ago

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    I want to die. Im not getting anywhere with my life... My parents never encourage me, they always tell me to "just deal with it". Well i cant anymore. Im 18 and I cant get a job, I...
    ShizukaiOkami ShizukaiOkami 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 7

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    Filling out these surveys is helping me not think about the bullies of my yesteryears. :) Name five latest favorite songs: 1. Fight Song by Rachel Platten 2. Feel The Light by...
    blankcheck4urhart blankcheck4urhart 36-40, F Apr 6

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    1. How do you define honesty? When you say and do things that are not a lie to yourself or others 2. What is your biggest fear or worry? Nothing so humongous God can't help me feel...
    blankcheck4urhart blankcheck4urhart 36-40, F Apr 4

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    These days I feel so pained and traumatised as I keep reliving my racist experience with the mental health professional ..I know I was treated like this just for two fact 1-I have...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    Don't worry, I'm not. I'm posting this for people who are. I want you guys to read this. Breath. Whatever you're doing right now. Take a deep breath, than another. You are so...
    Destroyer2266 Destroyer2266 16-17, M 3 Responses Mar 21

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