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I Want to Feel and Be Alive

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    Some days I don't feel alive.

    At all. Depression is a brutal thing. :/
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 13, 2014

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    The Void

    Will never disappear.  It will continue to grow until it kills me.  Maybe then i will be free.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 1, 2009

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    I Want To Feel And Be Alive

    Right now I feel rather low in energy and not very alive but I want to feel full of energy and alive.
    aquarius3 aquarius3 61-65 1 Response Feb 17, 2012

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    Living Without Deprivation Of Love...

    I have recounted in many stories how I am alone physically for most of the day. I am also alone in my mind. My empathy and holistic beauty and intelligence is a repellent to most of the accepted members of society. I am proudly abnormal and seek solace on the fringes. Still, I am...
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2009

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    Living Without Appreciation

    What makes you smile? True appreciation of your loved  one? Encouragement keeps you going in life? You won't lift a book if not to discuss it with your dearest? You keep yourself idle to accompany your dearest in what ever they are doing? Are you a follower? If yes, then...
    picologupta picologupta 26-30 1 Response Apr 19, 2010

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    Apathy

    I suffer from blunted and dull emotions. It's hard to feel much of anything. I want to feel something, for anything! Just to remind myself I'm alive! I place a lot of limitations on myself. It stunts my ability to enjoy things. I can't free me from myself. I hope to get better...
    RalysEtnedra RalysEtnedra 18-21, M Jan 5, 2013

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    I Live!

    Personally, I think living life to the fullest is the best way to feel and be alive (on your own terms) - kinda like killing two birds with one stone.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M Nov 26, 2011

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    At this time in my life I long for rhe closeness of another person. To actually feel them rub against my skin, not just sex. I am longing for intimacy. Someone to surrender...
    ButtercupBrown15 ButtercupBrown15 36-40, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    im 15 and from iowa wished i could go on a date someone calling me cute loving up on me but i feel so alone in this world just wish someone could ask me out on a date and actually...
    kinky5000 kinky5000 13-15, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I wanted that feeling for so long to the point I just feel numb now, empty and broken yet I don't know why I have this hope inside of me that whispers "maybe someday a person will...
    twilight2929 twilight2929 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    100 things about me: 1. I'm from a (feel free to ask) background 2. im 5'11, I wish i was just one inch taller so i could say I'm 6' 3. I'm told i look like I'm 14 and 25 4. i...
    ZaxelReborn ZaxelReborn 18-21, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Today is a new day. last night I wanted to just cry and could not stop the nagative thoughts. I had had a good day spent is with a friend, swam and whent into the redwoods for a...
    rubyjuly rubyjuly 26-30, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Don't take life so seriously it's not like you're going to get out alive
    LOVExSEXxDREAMS LOVExSEXxDREAMS 16-17, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    This was a very common feeling for me when I've been in a relationship. I just wanted to give up on life because the one person I wanted didn't wanted me and I was always sticking...
    Kadeez Kadeez 13-15, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I would like to feel wanted by someone. I want to be that somebody to someone that can depend on me ... I want to lend a shoulder to cry on and a laugh to share... If only others...
    Justine75 Justine75 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    I am afraid.... don't know why i get this creepy feeling that my life is very short, i'll die in coming years. It's not my one time feeling... i think as if..it could be my last...
    sonalanimax sonalanimax 22-25, F 5 hrs ago

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    You know your heart is broken when you cry randomly for no real reason or when you feel this heavy weight in your chest that won't go. You know its broken when someone tries to get...
    Voldemortia Voldemortia 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I am married to a wonderful guy, and I am very happy, generally. Yes, he has his flaws, like all of us. Most of which I can live with, no problem. But one stands out for me, and I...
    Jerakeen Jerakeen 31-35, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I don't wanna live on this planet anymore...I want to live on the moon. I want to gaze on the earth as I see the stars and galaxies around it. See the distance planets even. For...
    spacekittens14 spacekittens14 16-17, F 8 hrs ago

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    I just need somewhere to write. Writing always makes me put my feelings in perspective. Writing makes my emotions feels in order. I can see it in third person view. It's not in...
    kiBraziki kiBraziki 18-21, F 8 hrs ago

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    There is no one i love, no one who really seems to love me. Love is the main reason people want to live, but what do you do when you have no love? I can't think of any reasons to...
    junosa junosa 13-15, F 9 hrs ago

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    I am alive. If that annoys you,too bad!
    comfi comfi 51-55, M 9 hrs ago

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    Ok, I know that age is just a number, but ... answer this honestly : What is the youngest would you, at almost 22, allow yourself to date? 22 year old girl with 17 year old guy...
    Storiesnotforthefaintofheart Storiesnotforthefaintofheart 18-21, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    when I was 10 thru 13 almost 14yrs old I was molested by two uncles and three of their teenaged son on a daily bases all five I hated to have sex with my uncles because it hurt but...
    wedomark69 wedomark69 51-55, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I used to see no point in self harm because it would only mean even more pain, but now what I see is a different pain that will temporarily distract me from the pain I constantly...
    bandgeekavery bandgeekavery 13-15, T 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I loved a guy whom i did not even know a thing or remember a thing about him. He says that we met when we were still children but i cannot bring myself to tell him i don't recall...
    Nyata Nyata 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    It makes me feel alive. It makes me feel a way no one else can make me feel.
    BloodyVictim BloodyVictim 16-17, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I believe my dreams are more than a reflection of my inner feelings. I believe my dreams were like a dimension, an escape from the melancholic reality I am in with. When I dream...
    Denglemteprinsesse Denglemteprinsesse 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Every time I ask my parents for something I feel guilty. I'm very frugal because my teachers once told us that children where very expensive to take care of, as a result I was...
    Hellooreopie Hellooreopie 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I want to feel alive.... I want to trust someone entirely... I want to laugh..... I want to feel desired.... I want to be completely honest & open..... I want to explore new...
    Curiousmissy Curiousmissy 31-35, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I guess I'm weird....I pick a random title and write a story to match it. So I'm depressed now...I don't like that. Nope, not one bit. It makes me sad. Like the time the MP's...
    rick4545 rick4545 36-40, M Jul 24

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    i love being asleep.. i can do anything i want. i cant take this life. i have to keep going on and on and have nothing different happening. i hate it here.. all i do is live a...
    danielfrost1995 danielfrost1995 18-21, M Jul 24

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    I want this too so bad to feel alive
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F Jul 24

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    I am sad today. not like the sad that makes one cry but the type that stops all productivity. I don't like being here. I feel so trapped. I stay in bed and try to sleep just to...
    bigheartsmallworld bigheartsmallworld 36-40, M Jul 22

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    I started crying for no reason. I just became overwhelming depressed. It's as if a wave of sadness splashed over me, flooding the beaches of my mind with its ever-present blueness...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I want to actually have someone to love and hold and cuddle when I'm upset I want to make sure she will be the happiest girl alive she can talk to me and I can be open to her for...
    Mickeymouse30 Mickeymouse30 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 21

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    I just want to escape my hell and be free for once in my life. I want to run away..... I want to go on a road trip.... I just want to get away from people that made my life a...
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M 4 Responses Jul 21

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    I just want to escape my hell and be free for once in my life. I want to run away..... I want to go on a road trip.... I just want to get away from people that made my life a...
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M Jul 21

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    I just want to escape my hell and be free for once in my life. I want to run away..... I want to go on a road trip.... I just want to get away from people that made my life a...
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M Jul 21

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    I just want to escape my hell and be free for once in my life. I want to run away..... I want to go on a road trip.... I just want to get away from people that made my life a...
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 21

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    I wanted to understand why you have been so blue, I started by telling you that I have been too. We both struggle with demons inside our minds, Our fear make us want to pull down...
    Seekingmeaning Seekingmeaning 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    I've never wanted anything more than to have a child. It's constantly on my mind. I see people walking with their kids through the stores and down the streets, and I just wish that...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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