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I Want to Feel and Be Alive

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    Some days I don't feel alive.

    At all. Depression is a brutal thing. :/
    Whoami30 Whoami30 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 13, 2014

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    The Void

    Will never disappear.  It will continue to grow until it kills me.  Maybe then i will be free.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 1, 2009

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    I Want To Feel And Be Alive

    Right now I feel rather low in energy and not very alive but I want to feel full of energy and alive.
    aquarius3 aquarius3 66-70 1 Response Feb 17, 2012

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    Living Without Deprivation Of Love...

    I have recounted in many stories how I am alone physically for most of the day. I am also alone in my mind. My empathy and holistic beauty and intelligence is a repellent to most of the accepted members of society. I am proudly abnormal and seek solace on the fringes. Still, I am...
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2009

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    Living Without Appreciation

    What makes you smile? True appreciation of your loved  one? Encouragement keeps you going in life? You won't lift a book if not to discuss it with your dearest? You keep yourself idle to accompany your dearest in what ever they are doing? Are you a follower? If yes, then...
    picologupta picologupta 26-30 1 Response Apr 19, 2010

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    Apathy

    I suffer from blunted and dull emotions. It's hard to feel much of anything. I want to feel something, for anything! Just to remind myself I'm alive! I place a lot of limitations on myself. It stunts my ability to enjoy things. I can't free me from myself. I hope to get better...
    RalysEtnedra RalysEtnedra 18-21, M Jan 5, 2013

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    Maybe the reason I can't go through with coitus isn't because I'm worried about accidents. Maybe the reason all the intimate stuff feels forced is because it is. Maybe I can't do...
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    Sit out in the garage all day. I don't feel like i can relate. I feel persecuted and unwanted. I really don't enjoy being here. But, i have little choice.
    Stealth3369 Stealth3369 41-45, M 2 hrs ago

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    It is that feeling where you want nothing more than to be with her, you want to grab her by the waist pull her close and kiss her deep. You want to let your passion for her to take...
    TexasBrian TexasBrian 36-40, M 3 hrs ago

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    .. Heard about the earthquake in Taiwan, today, and how many casualties have been identified.. it was 6.4 in magnitude, they said. I know earthquakes are common.. but this one...
    bellabong bellabong 26-30, F 20 hrs ago

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    That feeling that's bursting through your veins like sparks of fire whenever you're doing something that excites you? I think that's when you're most alive. It ignites something in...
    BloodEpiphone BloodEpiphone 13-15, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    I feel bored all the time in everything that I do. It doesn't matter who I'm talking to, or where I am, or what's going on. I have this extreme boredom all the time in every...
    Lyric8 Lyric8 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My mind is in a place full of noise. Constant buzzing, full of thoughts, ruminating, contemplating. I figured that there's no use complaining on this gift/curse but it's hard to...
    Shahedansharif Shahedansharif 16-17, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Face down with the LA curbside endings With the ones and zeros. Downtown was the perfect place to hide. The first star that I saw last night was a headlight Of a man-made sky...
    cosmosdrift cosmosdrift 31-35, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm alive and feel so healthy! Life is a journey and along the way I've picked up souvenirs, little knick-knacks (scars) to remind me where I've been, and how blessed and fortunate...
    Strngluv Strngluv 51-55, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    What hurt the most wasn't how you dug the knife But pulling it out after stabbing me twice Just leaving me there, bleeding out my life Thing about pain is, it makes you feel alive...
    BeatTheBest BeatTheBest 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    Life is like a dream , at one point you feel in heaven , at the other you fall in the hell . There are so many things happening to me these days. I really don't find a reason why...
    jessicatong jessicatong 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I want to see rainbows and butterflies Every time I close my eyes And reserve the right to be mesmerised, By the pure delight that awaits me every night; Waking up in the morning...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 6 days ago

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    I will die or I will be alive yes well today answer many peoples question am going in search of answer well am an atheist I dont believe in god or. ghosts but in my village...
    shekarleader shekarleader 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    Tonight I came across this great site on how to save your marriage. Link: http://www.marriagebuilders.com//graphic/mbi8111_quit.html And as I am sitting here reading along, all I...
    neptunemoon neptunemoon 41-45, F a week ago

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    So I just "learned" or feel seriously like nobody truly cares about me, how I feel, or anything that happens in my life. From being lied to, to people just disappearing without...
    tiger3cub8 tiger3cub8 46-50, M 1 Response a week ago

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    When someone comes along in your life ... Someone you see something of yourself in .. They make you feel amazing , happy, content , excited , coy, strong, ambitious . They make you...
    SoleExecutioner SoleExecutioner 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 29

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    OPEN HEAVENS FELLOWSHIP DAILY DEVOTION DON'T MISS THE WHOLE POINT! Songs of Solomon 2:10 (NLT) My lover said to me, “Rise up, my darling! Come away with me, my fair one...
    ganyoji ganyoji 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    It is hard to not sin and I suspect I will always be somewhat of a sinner. Confessing would make be feel better about the fact that no one alive can avoid sin. It would make me...
    Balletomane Balletomane 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 27

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    I am an internet vampire. I was given up for old. Marriage had begun a downhill fall ten years ago and I was full of loneliness and darkness. Life had become just a day to day drag...
    boldtimer boldtimer 66-70, M Jan 26

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    Ever since I was little, I had this feeling that I don’t belong to this world. My parents would tell me what is right and wrong, but I’ve always acted how I felt it was right...
    electus electus 18-21, M Jan 26

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    I am so much more happy and outgoing when I have dressed femininely and am feeling ultra femme'. As the female inside is released I feel bubbly inside and more confident, more...
    amandatrane1 amandatrane1 51-55, T Jan 26

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    I've wanted to for some time but no formal courses exist near me so I've had to teach myself. I started using Rosetta stone, but I wasn't grasping it because of the different...
    Fealda Fealda 22-25, F Jan 25

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    You were like my glue, the glue that held everything together, now you are gone!! and everything is falling apart!! I don't know where to start! I don't know how to explain my...
    Joysummers Joysummers 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 23

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    Place your hand over your heart. You feel that? That is called purpose. You’re alive for a reason, so don’t ever give up.The person who completes suicide, dies once...
    Grace2U Grace2U 66-70, F Jan 23

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    1. the older I get the more judgemental I am becoming of others 2. The older I get, the more I prefer my own company. 3. I've suffered, battled and come out the other end from...
    princesseyelid princesseyelid 26-30, F Jan 23

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    It all started when i was in my college. i was good in studies and was a member of my band too. i was short in attendance always because i used to go out for events. I had a group...
    champabhi champabhi 26-30, M Jan 22

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    I always feel this way, and I know what is missing. Half a year ago I climbed the mountain Galdhöpiggen. This kind of outdoors life is what I run on. That is what I live for. And...
    darkspiritwolf darkspiritwolf 18-21, F Jan 21

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    I want to talk to you. I really do. A day without asking something feels so blue. When I send that message though, the feelings changed. No, I resist the shift and deny the pain...
    Tripnotic Tripnotic 18-21, M Jan 21

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    -The Ocean by The Bravery To Build A Home by The Cinematic Orchestra I Want To Feel Alive by The Lighthouse and the Whaler Between the Bars by Elliott Smith Who Are You, Really...
    ArtemisOfTheInfernalLands ArtemisOfTheInfernalLands 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 21

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    the most hatful feeling in the world is when you feel like a loser .. everyone around you make new thing , make changes in there lives while you still the same nothing changes all...
    nawasa nawasa 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    Its always the same, i know its wrong but i still do it. i dont have a reason to stop. the urge is strong. when you cut, the skin around the cut gets puffy and pink. the blood...
    SW33TdArkness SW33TdArkness 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    I always come to life after dark! Could I be a vampire? How would I know? Haha
    Sarahinthecity Sarahinthecity 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    1. One of my most favourite authors: Khalil Gibran 2. I LOVE foreign languages 3. My hobby: Writing novels 4. I am a social worker 5. I love listening to music and playing...
    Loretta78 Loretta78 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    1. Music is my biggest passion, next to writing 2. I'm a Gemini Sun Scorpio Rising and Leo Moon and believe in astrology  3. I'm Mexican American 4. Been playing guitar for 6...
    DIlchotome DIlchotome 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 19