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I Want to Feel and Be Alive

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    Living Without Deprivation Of Love...

    I have recounted in many stories how I am alone physically for most of the day. I am also alone in my mind. My empathy and holistic beauty and intelligence is a repellent to most of the accepted members of society. I am proudly abnormal and seek solace on the fringes. Still, I am...
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2009

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    I Live!

    Personally, I think living life to the fullest is the best way to feel and be alive (on your own terms) - kinda like killing two birds with one stone.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M Nov 26, 2011

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    Living Without Appreciation

    What makes you smile? True appreciation of your loved  one? Encouragement keeps you going in life? You won't lift a book if not to discuss it with your dearest? You keep yourself idle to accompany your dearest in what ever they are doing? Are you a follower? If yes, then...
    picologupta picologupta 26-30 1 Response Apr 19, 2010

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    Apathy

    I suffer from blunted and dull emotions. It's hard to feel much of anything. I want to feel something, for anything! Just to remind myself I'm alive! I place a lot of limitations on myself. It stunts my ability to enjoy things. I can't free me from myself. I hope to get better...
    RalysEtnedra RalysEtnedra 18-21, M Jan 5, 2013

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    Some days I don't feel alive.

    At all. Depression is a brutal thing. :/
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 13, 2014

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    The Void

    Will never disappear.  It will continue to grow until it kills me.  Maybe then i will be free.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 1, 2009

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    I Want To Feel And Be Alive

    Right now I feel rather low in energy and not very alive but I want to feel full of energy and alive.
    aquarius3 aquarius3 61-65 1 Response Feb 17, 2012

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    i lost my sences.numb i'll do anything for feeling alive again.
    juryandrews juryandrews 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    I want to go skydiving. Bungee jump from a high up place. Go ride in a hot air balloon. Take a helicopter ride to see the overview of a major city. Ride a mule to the bottom of the...
    tormentedinternally tormentedinternally 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    i wonder what night life is like in japan. (monday freak playing in my head)
    kkisu474 kkisu474 13-15, M Jan 19

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    I have been feeling like I don't get enough attention from my boyfriend. We have been through a lot. Long story short, he cheated on me, I found out from the other girl who was...
    Kristaaaaaaaaaaaa Kristaaaaaaaaaaaa 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I was used to be friend of crazy, funny, “alive and burning” people, I was used to have many girlfriends, even at the same time, I was living fast and that’s how any guy...
    calande calande 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Since we're kids, we don't fully understand life. We just observe, try to discover new things, and we're always having fun. The problem is when we grow up. We realize life is too...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 9

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    When the time comes and I meet that one special woman.My one and only soul mate.My every day goal and desire would to make her feel a happiness she has never felt in her lifetime.I...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 41-45, M Jan 21

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    why am I such a disappointment...i really want to run away from home and not give anyone else problems or struggles I just want to disappear. I just want to feel alive ! I hate...
    bunnypop bunnypop 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My story isn't unique. I know that, but I'm sharing it anyway to get it out of me, to maybe find some catharsis and healing from releasing my thoughts and feelings, and to maybe...
    livelaughlovedream3 livelaughlovedream3 41-45, F 32 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm nearly 22 years old, I live in a small village in Tunisia, I got my licence In LF in Language, litterature & English civilisation last year. Well my story is quite bitter...
    Ninaahj Ninaahj 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    I keep fantasizing about throwing a punch at someone so they will beat me up until I feel alive. I feel so guilty lately and It's such a lie that plays in my head, but I feel so...
    sweetsavanna sweetsavanna 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 9

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    hmmm I got hit by a train..... overdosed 3 times..... I don't know someone wants me alive
    solarenergy solarenergy 31-35, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I just want to be free. I want to feel alive. I want to be on top. But I'm down here. Not even knowing how to get back up on my own.
    Futuristic122 Futuristic122 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    Life for me is like a game Nothing matters and nothing is real..... I don't feel alive unless I am around people feeding off there energy and I enjoy when I can play my games with...
    DontScream4Help DontScream4Help 26-30, F Jan 5

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    I want to go everywhere, experience the different cultures and see the beautiful landscapes from all over. I would hate to live my life without experiencing all that there is here...
    MissWaddles MissWaddles 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Warning This Is A Rant; I really hate this part of been a girl :( the need of constant reminder that we are wanted and loved by someone. Why as humans we need that? The wanted...
    PandaaMee PandaaMee 22-25, F Jan 7

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    Of course I want someone I could tell anything to. But the more I think about, the more difficult it is for me to believe that it is actually possible. I sometimes feel like there...
    booky1234 booky1234 18-21, F 5 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Some time ago I read this article on some website, theunboundedspirit.com There's nothing new, but in my opinion the article is very well written. It made me think... 1. The...
    DiscoveringTheTruth DiscoveringTheTruth 22-25, F 6 Responses Jan 11

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    *ALIVE IN THE WORLD*I want to live in the worldNot inside my headI want to live in the worldI want to stand and be countedWith the hopeful and the willingWith the open and the...
    lunadelobos lunadelobos 41-45 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    My best friend, from age about 16 to 21, although I have known him for my entire life; died this past Friday. I have been trying to think of if I should write about it or not...
    milehighHeartbreak milehighHeartbreak 31-35, M Jan 21

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    So we got a new girl in my japanese class this year and she's sooooo beautiful, she has this long blonde-orange hair with a shade of pink and she always wears a bright bold lipsti...
    PrincessPolarBear PrincessPolarBear 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    A bit back my heart lepped with such joy, I could not contain it. As hard as my mind tried, my heart consumed logic and smothered my sanity. It was such a beautiful insanity I...
    Stickwithmebabe Stickwithmebabe 36-40, F 4 hrs ago

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    Love yours Love yours No such thing as a life that's better than yours No such thing as a life that's better than yours No such thing as a life that's better than yours No such...
    QuixoticConquistador QuixoticConquistador 26-30, M Jan 16

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    "Are you alive or barely existing," she asked me. I looked up at her with my glazed over eyes and puffy eyelids. "What?" She repeated herself again this time with an unreadable...
    thatrosegirl thatrosegirl 18-21, F Jan 13

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    "One Year, Today." I told you that she would live, That she would be different, but still she would be her. You did not believe me. You said she would not make it, and even if she...
    InnerWars InnerWars 13-15 1 Response Jan 19

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    Life is a beautiful gift. Even through all of the problems and struggles, life can be gorgeous when we step back, take our minds away from our daily lives, and just enjoy the...
    Lala365 Lala365 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 21

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    "This false self is never happy or fulfilled for long." An EP user suggested Ekhart Tolle to me and I am very grateful. I wanted to share "living in the now" in this experience...
    KemiKill KemiKill 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    This is another offshoot of my desire to have my hair cut really short. I sooo want to have the nape buzzed close, I just love the idea of clippers running up it. Why do I feel so...
    PixieDust2015 PixieDust2015 26-30, F 1 hr ago

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    Love, drugs and other things Do not know if anyone will read this anyway, but I feel that writing my story I let out everything that happened. I fell in love with a boy who was...
    karensbm karensbm 22-25, F Jan 11

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    If you have every planned to do something with your life, while you are still young enough to enjoy having some good honest fun? What about a bucket list, it has occurred to me...
    sensualbeauty1 sensualbeauty1 46-50, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I feel like my life has no meaning and therefor I should not continue this dreadful path. I think that people have as much right to die as to live. Why should suicidal thoughts...
    nuttyduck nuttyduck 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Hi ^u^. My name is Justin. So if u ever want to contact me say hi :). Background: read my featured story called~ i want to say thx you. :). But basically last year i was super...
    InfiniteMusic InfiniteMusic 13-15, M 3 days ago

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    The Death of My Godfather This happened a number of years ago but it feels just as painful now as it did at the time when i got the bad news about my godfather's death.He was not...
    dragonfang dragonfang 51-55, M Jan 2

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    At times i wished i wouldnt hv be born wish i could die beside ol my crazy thoughts i at tyms feel so lucky to be alive. lucky to hv a loving family, sweet friends and having a...
    sly15 sly15 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    When I think back to the day I almost successfully took my life I can remember feeling empty. Now I am so glad that my mom decided to come check up on me because if she hadn't I...
    TryingToLoveLifeNow TryingToLoveLifeNow 18-21, F Jan 12

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    I have been very lucky in this life of mine. Or is that even true? My world always appears so full of light. The outer rims of my soul like burning torches of fire in the night...
    Loverofpeace Loverofpeace 36-40, F 10 Responses Jan 13

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    My parents love me. And my sister. And my fiancée, actually. So, my parents and I had a chat tonight. A big one. Only lasted one hour, but it was big. Dad basically asked me if...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I have something I would like to say. I know it is irrelevant to many but to the few that it applies too.. I'm sorry. I've spent the last 3 years in depression. Feeling like my...
    Faelanthewulf Faelanthewulf 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    I feel alone. I know it isn't really true, but it certainly feels that way. My family and I don't fight, but we aren't close either. We just kind of...exist together. As far as...
    MadAsAHatterXII MadAsAHatterXII 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 14

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