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I Want to Feel and Be Alive

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    Some days I don't feel alive.

    At all. Depression is a brutal thing. :/
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 13, 2014

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    Apathy

    I suffer from blunted and dull emotions. It's hard to feel much of anything. I want to feel something, for anything! Just to remind myself I'm alive! I place a lot of limitations on myself. It stunts my ability to enjoy things. I can't free me from myself. I hope to get better...
    RalysEtnedra RalysEtnedra 18-21, M Jan 5, 2013

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    Living Without Appreciation

    What makes you smile? True appreciation of your loved  one? Encouragement keeps you going in life? You won't lift a book if not to discuss it with your dearest? You keep yourself idle to accompany your dearest in what ever they are doing? Are you a follower? If yes, then...
    picologupta picologupta 26-30 1 Response Apr 19, 2010

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    Living Without Deprivation Of Love...

    I have recounted in many stories how I am alone physically for most of the day. I am also alone in my mind. My empathy and holistic beauty and intelligence is a repellent to most of the accepted members of society. I am proudly abnormal and seek solace on the fringes. Still, I am...
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2009

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    I Live!

    Personally, I think living life to the fullest is the best way to feel and be alive (on your own terms) - kinda like killing two birds with one stone.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M Nov 26, 2011

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    I Want To Feel And Be Alive

    Right now I feel rather low in energy and not very alive but I want to feel full of energy and alive.
    aquarius3 aquarius3 61-65 1 Response Feb 17, 2012

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    The Void

    Will never disappear.  It will continue to grow until it kills me.  Maybe then i will be free.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 1, 2009

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    I have never broken a bone or majorly hurt myself but I don't need that to make me feel thankful. Just seeing others being sick or hurry makes me feel so thankful of my good health...
    NoName123451 NoName123451 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    I just want to be wrapped in his arms. to feel him protecting me. keeping harm away. making me feel cherished. to snuggle and cuddle up to him.
    evolnillef evolnillef 70+, F 1 hr ago

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    that I didn't run 3 miles yesterday, and I might not run today, and that I stayed up too late, and I'd probably end up sleeping in, and that I'm fat, and not loosing weight, so I...
    justalittlewallflower justalittlewallflower 16-17, F 2 hrs ago

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    I don't know what exactly triggered my depression. All I know is that it hovers over me and it's negatively impacting my life. Sometimes I feel lonely, sometimes I feel angry...
    misanthropicpessimist misanthropicpessimist 13-15, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    .........Best friend is wanting to commit suicide... what else is there to do when you cant help them....they're across an ocean...you can't get them professional help.......i feel...
    bpc2415 bpc2415 13-15, F 4 hrs ago

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    I want to find true love... The kind of love that is unconditional, patient, and kind. The kind of love where you can be yourself, with no make up, where you haven't showered, are...
    anhonestgirl anhonestgirl 26-30, F 5 hrs ago

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    This is a recent development for me. For most of my life, I have had passions, interests, and a strong drive to pursue great experiences. However, I feel that, these days, my...
    curiouscallipso curiouscallipso 22-25, F 5 hrs ago

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    I've fully changed my mind now... I DO Want to Be Someone's Everything!! =) The hope & possibility of it, whilst in his arms is more magnificent an experience than I EVER Could...
    AdoraGel AdoraGel 31-35, F 7 hrs ago

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    I never knew fat guys were such good lays! I think they must try harder cause they feel they got something to prove or whatever. Plus I love that crushing, can't breathe feeling...
    CrazyMilfDaughter CrazyMilfDaughter 18-21, F 6 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    You think your over an ex, an ex that was was the worst possible role model for your children and always in trouble, playin, lying and all the things you just don't want in a...
    187Lockdown 187Lockdown 31-35, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I am this way almost every day. I just dislike spending time in preparing for food. I want to focus on my brain work. Eating requires time to hunt for food and after eating I would...
    ExileMyself ExileMyself 26-30, F 8 hrs ago

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    July 6, 2015 Every 6th of the month, I always remember that day I confessed my feelings for you. We were both scared,maybe cofused but our feelings were the same. We felt...
    Achelle07 Achelle07 22-25, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I was on vacation and that gave me time to get a bird-view on my life and my choices. Sadly, I didn't see a pretty view. I allowed my feelings to mask my life views and for awhile...
    StrongWoman9 StrongWoman9 26-30, F 9 hrs ago

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    It is an annoying feeling when thinking of a Girl, my right hand often goes inside my pants, and i often get sticky fingers after sometime. In public transport, i often find any...
    zemli zemli 22-25, M 11 hrs ago

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    and sexuality! What do you think this means? I tried to watch to adult videos last night. One was a man and woman and the other was two women. I, against my will, got turned on...
    girlinwhite girlinwhite 18-21, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Truth be told, I have always felt... Different. Back when I was younger (say 5-7) I actually thought I was a girl, but had "some thing" sewn on to my "privates." As the years went...
    CoconutVW CoconutVW 16-17, M 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    Most of my life I have been called ugly and I have only had on boyfriend as he only wanted me for my body and we broke up the next day. All of my friends look way better than me...
    JusttMee123 JusttMee123 13-15, F 7 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    The smallest number of children I've ever wanted was 3. I was nine then, and the number has just continued growing. As I got older, I could see myself with a bigger family, and...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 4 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I wish that I could fly Into the sky So very high Just like a dragonfly I want to get away I want to fly away
    kaeri kaeri 31-35, F 19 hrs ago

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    I live with my parents at the age of 29 I'd been away from them since 15 years ago then now I feel that I have them around but they never wanted what's best for me and now I feel...
    billyofhollywood billyofhollywood 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    How do I forget the image in my heart. Though now its etched with pain yet still alive. Breathtaking is my loneliness.. A piercing pain prevails in the countless hours of day and...
    winterfall winterfall 36-40 1 day ago

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    This is my life goal is to return to the internal state before dying inside. To return to the days when I dreamed and the sun shined bright where it was a joy to awaken not a...
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    It has been awhile since I've had some fun and felt really alive. I've been working hard, and spending a lot of time on the road commuting. I am overdue for some excitement. But...
    Danielle1011 Danielle1011 51-55, F 1 day ago

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    I am a twenty one year old university student and I really want to experience what it feels like for someone to love and care for me. This might sound a little bit weird but the...
    Trust1993 Trust1993 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    What is Depression? I was asked today what depression is like to me... And it really took me by surprise, because usually, no one cares to ask, because no one cares. See...
    MissAutumn MissAutumn 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    When i was 15 years old, my father told me he wanted three children. He mentioned three names, my two half-brothers and the name of a new baby daughter he wished for. After that...
    kanvilma kanvilma 22-25, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    The story is posted here because I believe many of Israel’s supporters are in this group (The title implies more of a disapproval rather than a question, I feel). Many people...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 8 Responses 3 days ago

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    I lead the most boring life. No friends. A husband that ignores me. Is it suppose to be this bad after 17 years of marriage? Is this the norm. I want to feel alive.
    hcsunshine hcsunshine 41-45, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    helping others is the best medication for entire mind, body and soul, by helping others, we help ourselves. I feel better than just "good" helping someone else I feel ALIVE and...
    snoopymg snoopymg 36-40, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    It's not really accurate to say I love my husband's best friend. I don't know him well enough, and being "in love" is really just infatuation anyway. Well, whatever you call it, I...
    jennytressler jennytressler 41-45 4 days ago

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    I feel the heat of the sparks, running up and down my body, setting every nerve on fire. It isn’t a bad feeling though. In fact, I feel, well, alive....
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    "You are most you, at your best, when you create the roles that make you feel most alive: witty, lyrical, speculative, loving, but also, and here's the rub, cynical, sarcastic...
    PuckDrop PuckDrop 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    My eyes, pools of dark water, have blossomed into iridescent lotuses, for I am surrounded by so many wonderful, beautiful people. Even without my sweet mother, I am feeling loved...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I feel like I will never be able to live my dreams. There's too many people in the world stopping me. I am an only child. I was so very lonely. I grew up in a home without love...
    wishtobefree wishtobefree 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Today I was informed that a close friend of our family past away, I feel bad because I didn't say goodbye while he was still alive.
    MillerMac MillerMac 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 28

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