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I Want to Feel and Be Alive

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    I Want To Feel And Be Alive - Right now I feel rather low in energy and not very alive but I want to feel full of energy and alive.
    aquarius3 aquarius3 61-65 1 Response Feb 17, 2012

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    The Void - Will never disappear.  It will continue to grow until it kills me.  Maybe then i will be free.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 1, 2009

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    Apathy - I suffer from blunted and dull emotions. It's hard to feel much of anything. I want to feel something, for anything! Just to remind myself I'm alive! I place a lot of...
    RalysEtnedra RalysEtnedra 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 5, 2013

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    Open My Eyes. - For once in my life I want to breath. See the true light of life and believe. That this world and my life will be alright. And I will be able to say I'm fine...
    ImOkayNow ImOkayNow 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2011

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    More Than Breathing -  Of course, you can be alive in the physical sense and not enjoy it.  You can be dead in the emotional sense and still breathing.  If you eat...
    dorobo dorobo 70+, M 5 Responses May 5, 2009

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    Some days I don't feel alive. At all. Depression is a brutal thing. :/
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I Live! - Personally, I think living life to the fullest is the best way to feel and be alive (on your own terms) - kinda like killing two birds with one stone.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 22-25, M Nov 26, 2011

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    Living Without Deprivation Of Love... - I have recounted in many stories how I am alone physically for most of the day. I am also alone in my mind. My empathy and holistic beauty...
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2009

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    Living Without Appreciation - What makes you smile? True appreciation of your loved  one? Encouragement keeps you going in life? You won't lift a book if not to discuss it...
    picologupta picologupta 26-30 1 Response Apr 19, 2010

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    I need to love and be loved! I need to like and be liked! I need to smile and be smiled at! I need to speak and be spoken to! I need to be held and to hold! I need to kiss and be...
    Sandyshaw13 Sandyshaw13 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    I do appreciate my life and all, but if I cold change my amount of liveable years with a dying person, I would. I'm not selfish enough to commit suicide and I just couldn't. I have...
    apatheticcoldheart apatheticcoldheart 18-21, F Mar 31

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    I wake up and do the same thing over and over again. Patterns patterns, obligations. Details of life pass me by as I indulge in societal humors. Nature, friends, adventure, living...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    The sun outside of me is beautiful, shining and inviting but I am glued to the floor in my house. Whatever I could choose to do would be silly and a waste of time. It would be...
    bjohnston62 bjohnston62 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    This song makes me feel like all the things I've been afraid to say are coming out in this song. It's a Jason Walker song and it's called echo. Echo ~ Jason Walker...
    silentlyhurtingeveryday silentlyhurtingeveryday 13-15, F Mar 24

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    I'm glad I'm not the only person who feels this way.. lately I just feel so alone. even if I'm in a crowd of people I feel like nobody is there. it's a terrible feeling. not only...
    michellemay michellemay 18-21, F Mar 18

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    I just write things as they happen. I want to kiss my son's girlfriend. I think this is only because she is young, though, and maybe because I have not kissed anyone the way I'd...
    Lgl700 Lgl700 51-55, M Mar 24

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    I always knew I was not normal. Since I was a kid I felt different from everyone, I felt sadder than everyone. I think I may have a mental disorder called affective bipolar...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 17

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    I have always wanted this, but in return to feel the same way about that person. I have finally found that person who makes me feel alive again. I would do anything for him and...
    Madii144 Madii144 18-21 Mar 29

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    I'm a Christian by faith and I love my faith and my Lord but lately I've been feeling like there's something trying to push away my faith from me and this battle has been going on...
    bariman956 bariman956 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I am not married and have no children except for 4 cats and one little dog that I love more than anything. However, reaching 50 is around the corner in a few years and I want to...
    tac3004 tac3004 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    *These lyrics explain my feelings perfectly* Habit (Stay High) - Tove Lo I eat my dinner in my bathtub Then I go to sex clubs Watching freaky people getting it on It doesn't...
    april4teenth april4teenth 18-21, F a week ago

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    I'm so tired of being here. I hate my life, it's so confusing, overwhelming and filled with pain. Nobody has ever loved me, not even my mom or sisters but if I were them I'd hate...
    bulimicbixtch49 bulimicbixtch49 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I feel out of place at times. I've left various groups of friends. I've cut my bonds before. I even lost all my emotions at a time and broke out of a relationship I had. I...
    HandsomeRocker HandsomeRocker 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    In my country there's a saying, there is none so blind as that one who don't whant to see, I am a med student, i'm on my last year, I'm on the top ten of my +120 class, I know...
    rdeschain rdeschain 22-25, M Mar 16

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    No hate. I really want to get pregnant and be a mother. I feel like even though I am young, I am ready for the responsibility of being a parent. I have wanted a baby for a long...
    justanotherpixie justanotherpixie 16-17, F 1 Response 11 mins ago

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    I just graduate and haven't found a job i want. My sis don't believe i will achieve. All i want is support not the mean words. I will live on my own with a **** it attitude i guess...
    spongechannie spongechannie 22-25, F 32 mins ago

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    Ever feel as if you keep dying? And for every "death", each time you have awoken from what felt like a death, you're never the same- who said you ever changed? You pull yourself...
    WaterSpiritt WaterSpiritt 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Hello I'm a 18 year old Persian girl from Belgium all the problems began when I was 1 and a half years old, I lost 4 fingers in an accident in the eyes of my mother and got...
    musawing musawing 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 16

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    I've got to stay strong. I've got to find a goal. I'm sure there are reasons for doing what I am doing. Right now, it's 3:25 in the morning. And I am trying to make sense of me...
    imprintedme imprintedme 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    Frozen winter part 3 Read part 2 and 1 before this one. As Zane and the other traveled in the jet to the ice cave where the spirt is supposed to be at they had a little trouble...
    darkwolf19 darkwolf19 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 18

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    Never good enough For myself I honestly try so hard And kick myself back down I can't impress myself Too much imperfection in my way Too many scars and pain All these memories...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 1 Response Apr 3

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    Distress call part 3 Dylan and Juanda where still sitting around in the cave thinking about their current situation. But every once in a while Dylan would look and at Juanda and...
    darkwolf19 darkwolf19 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Time is running out, I feel like i am about to burst, But i will not scream or shout, Only keep these feeling to myself, I know it is not good, But i can only trust myself Why...
    Alexob13 Alexob13 18-21, M Apr 2

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    4 months ago I found myself missing someone, someone who once meant so much to me had become a stranger. I felt like I couldn't let that happen, I didn't care if I came off as...
    MyThoughtsInWords MyThoughtsInWords 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    Literally feels like I am only alive because of my boyfriend.. Can't wait to be engaged. It feels like he is my hero. He's changed me so much and made me such a better person.
    pampsy pampsy 18-21, F Mar 19

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    Last Saint Patrick's Day I went out with some girl friends from cosmetology school. I hadn't really binge drank since I left college so I was excited for a real "night out" college...
    victoriaxbx victoriaxbx 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I feel like I am truly insignificant in this world. I don't understand why people use me and ditch me constantly; they get bored of me. People have happier lives without me...
    WaterSpiritt WaterSpiritt 18-21, F Mar 29

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    Latey, I've been feeling like my whole life has been a big joke and I've been being played from day one. My family was a joke. They didn't even want me. So I ended up in group...
    franhigg franhigg 41-45, F Apr 3

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    You was In my dreams again last night, We Touched lips, You Held me tight, I Woke up feeling you in my heart, In that one moment I felt so alive. X
    BrokenAngel35 BrokenAngel35 31-35, F Apr 4

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    Completely boring. Not satisfied with anything. Everything is just so repetitive to the point where my mind is going crazy. Honestly I'm finding it a struggle to be alive everyday...
    Yassmin Yassmin 18-21, F Apr 7

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    There were days that i feel so locked up.. too lazy to take a bath, brush my teeth, shut off my phone line... just googling all day stuffs about boredom, sadness, life... am i...
    hollyhelly hollyhelly 46-50, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Because we depend on other people for our happiness. I used to believe my ex made me so feel so alive. So what? He's gone now and I'm dead again? Nah. I make myself happy now. So...
    CindyLovely CindyLovely 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have been receiving a lot of messages from men who have shared ' mature' experiences on EP.I want to make it clear to everyone out there that I check your profile before adding...
    Susana1985 Susana1985 26-30, F 22 mins ago

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    Something just doesn't feel quite right. Not sure what but I can't sleep because of it. Well I'll probably find out sooner or later.
    shyguy38 shyguy38 18-21, M 7 mins ago

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    I have been through different circles of Hell for years now, and live to tell the tale, and fight another day. Though my parents would be sad to know what life has handed me in...
    Wynterfrost Wynterfrost 41-45, F 4 Responses Mar 16

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    Everyday I feel alone, empty.. Hollow Inside, no emotions what so ever, but when I see her I get this smile on my face and I'm just happy to see her. Because she made me feel like...
    CannibalizeTheMerciful CannibalizeTheMerciful 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    When my husband died, leaving me with four children I made a vow to myself that I was going to be both mum and dad to them. I didn't want them to suffer. I hid my feelings because...
    bluesky5 bluesky5 51-55, F Mar 21

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    Can I just give up now? Please? It get's so hard sometimes just living the life I do, completely alone. I literally have nobody. No friends and barely any family. It's getting...
    Jessie116 Jessie116 16-17, F 6 Responses Mar 29

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    7 Things to Remember When You Think You’re Not Good Enough “We can’t hate ourselves into a version of ourselves we can love.” ~Lori Deschene Sometimes I am really...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M Apr 3