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I Want to Feel and Be Alive

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    Some days I don't feel alive.

    At all. Depression is a brutal thing. :/
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 13, 2014

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    Living Without Appreciation

    What makes you smile? True appreciation of your loved  one? Encouragement keeps you going in life? You won't lift a book if not to discuss it with your dearest? You keep yourself idle to accompany your dearest in what ever they are doing? Are you a follower? If yes, then...
    picologupta picologupta 26-30 1 Response Apr 19, 2010

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    I Live!

    Personally, I think living life to the fullest is the best way to feel and be alive (on your own terms) - kinda like killing two birds with one stone.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M Nov 26, 2011

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    Apathy

    I suffer from blunted and dull emotions. It's hard to feel much of anything. I want to feel something, for anything! Just to remind myself I'm alive! I place a lot of limitations on myself. It stunts my ability to enjoy things. I can't free me from myself. I hope to get better...
    RalysEtnedra RalysEtnedra 18-21, M Jan 5, 2013

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    The Void

    Will never disappear.  It will continue to grow until it kills me.  Maybe then i will be free.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 1, 2009

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    Living Without Deprivation Of Love...

    I have recounted in many stories how I am alone physically for most of the day. I am also alone in my mind. My empathy and holistic beauty and intelligence is a repellent to most of the accepted members of society. I am proudly abnormal and seek solace on the fringes. Still, I am...
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2009

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    I Want To Feel And Be Alive

    Right now I feel rather low in energy and not very alive but I want to feel full of energy and alive.
    aquarius3 aquarius3 61-65 1 Response Feb 17, 2012

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    every day I feel like a piece of me dies. I need music to stay alive. even that doesn't work sometimes.
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    It doesn't matter what people said As long as you know you have done it right It doesn't matter how people think of you As long as you know who you are in Christ It doesn't...
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    Sometimes tears say all there is to say Sometimes your first scars won't ever fade away Tried to break my heart Well it's broke Tried to hang me high Well I'm choked Wanted rain...
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    Hello and welcome to my second post. Those who already know me know I hate god and that is true. What a lot of people don't know is that for 40 years I was a warrior and defender...
    DGA2000 DGA2000 61-65 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    sometimes I think about it.how it felt to feel something just to remember I'm still alive to feel something other than numb something that hurt less than the emotional pain.I've...
    youngkinyteenmom youngkinyteenmom 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I feel depressed to be alive.
    bluebunny01 bluebunny01 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I guess I got a case of Sunday depression. It's not so much the day itself, but more the feelings I get. Usually I'm not the type to really need anyone to talk to all the time...
    CactusHugger CactusHugger 22-25 4 days ago

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    I saw my psychologist today again. I threw up big time today in his building from ailments I've been experiencing from seeing lookalikes online AND offline of both men who attacked...
    loveismyfriend loveismyfriend 36-40, F 5 days ago

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    I honestly hate it and it scares me.. I just feel completely numb. I don't feel anything, and when I do, I'm sad. I've lost my interests, I have no goals or ambitions, and I'm...
    KittyCassidy KittyCassidy 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I don't know how I feel, I do not know if this is official. I have this theory, where, if I ever had a girlfriend, another guy may take her away from me, somehow. I feel that way...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F a week ago

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    In regards to my other stories, I found out that while my Fake Mother and her men molest me, they used and still may be using a liquid glue stick and ammonia, glass cleaner. They...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    sometimes I just wonder like if my parents are telling me saying they don't have enough money and **** like I have the feeling they are putting the blame on me...I don't know how...
    itsmereesa itsmereesa 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 19

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    Half open wooden curtain and half dark room, 3 days of non stop raining reminds me how long I am keeping my tears inside. Smooth sound of music, Anathema is playing and a strange...
    AshTaylor AshTaylor 18-21, M Aug 19

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    thebustierthebetter thebustierthebetter 46-50, M 1 Response Aug 18

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    "And I'm sorry, but I'm closer to seeing those mistakes that I've made. Take me into your arms, breathe me into your heart." -Heartist I don't know how to feel right now. I...
    Kkgunny Kkgunny 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    1. What is your middle name? - I have two Chinese middle names, Mei-Ling 2. How old are you? - 38 3. When is your birthday? - August 7 4. What is your zodiac sign? - Leo 5...
    loveismyfriend loveismyfriend 36-40, F Aug 17

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    Cannot seem to find my way up. Causing me to wonder if I'm actually dead. This is not logical, but life is not logical. I keep seeing the word UNINSPIRED everywhere I look. I...
    pearlesque pearlesque 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    Ok. Here goes. I. Don't. Like. Being. Me. I hate everything about me. I hate my physical me and I hate my mental me. The only reason I'm still alive is because I would rather...
    WhyCantYouBeReal WhyCantYouBeReal 51-55, F 3 Responses Aug 15

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    Every time I shower I feel so good and relieved about so much, right when the water hits my skin I just can't help but feel free. It's great, I love water so much. I am grateful...
    FemaleTrouble88 FemaleTrouble88 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    When the blood is pumping through your veins and you are filled with excitement, when she kisses you and everything else disappears except her and you, when you are just so furious...
    MadAsAHatterXII MadAsAHatterXII 18-21, M Aug 14

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    Because, why not? Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. Answer: "the context and the suspected intention. She must" ... Wow. Speaking of context, where...
    Whobody Whobody 16-17, M Aug 13

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    I don't know if I'm lucky to be alive since I don't really like this life I have to live. But, I have almost been killed so many times. I could have been squished by a Mack truck...
    Mossonarock Mossonarock 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 13

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    I definitely feel more aware and spiritual I kind of feel like it's calming and I appreciate the beauty
    LVibes LVibes 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    When i was younger i drank enough alcohol that should have killed me twice..but i am alive and realized drinking isnt that important and that i can be happy without it.
    BeingMe843 BeingMe843 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 12

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    I want to die, but I'm not suicidal. I'm just...curious. I want to know what happens after all this. I want answers to my questions and I feel as though I'm not going to be able...
    StrawHatWanderer StrawHatWanderer 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 12

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    I've been having these experiences most of my life but I ignored them until just recently when they started becoming more obvious to me. I'm still not sure of what it is but I feel...
    KnownUnknown12 KnownUnknown12 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 12

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    The night awakens a certain crazy within me that I don't normally express during the day
    svnflowrrr svnflowrrr 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    So the idea of suicide Wasnt stranger as its now I m aching so ******* much deep inside my soul I could imagin how much my family will be upset and sad but I'm really sorry I can't...
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 11

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    So the idea of suicide Wasnt stranger as its now I m aching so ******* much deep inside my soul I could imagin how much my family will be upset and sad but I'm really sorry I can't...
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 11

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    So the idea of suicide Wasnt stranger as its now I m aching so ******* much deep inside my soul I could imagin how much my family will be upset and sad but I'm really sorry I can't...
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 11

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