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I Want to Feel Like I Matter

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    I Suppose

    you can only tell someone that you're suicidal when the response becomes, "if you want to do it so badly, you should just go ahead and do it." I don't even care if no one reads this or comments on this. it's just so that i don't have to tell the same person the same thing over...
    Amiera Amiera 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 20, 2013

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    C'est Impossible.....

    I do want to feel like I matter.  This has been one of the main themes of the problems I have with my stb ex, AgingTiger.  There is no need to go into the many times and ways in which he's shown me that I don't matter. I will only relate the latest slap in the face...
    lonesurvivor lonesurvivor 51-55, F 5 Responses Nov 9, 2010

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    I can't do this anymore.

    I'm tired of no one caring if they leave me behind.
    lonelydarling lonelydarling 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 7, 2014

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    Obsessed

    Why couldn’t Annie sleep yesterday? ‘Will there be any comments for my story?’ she wonders. She turns on her computer and waits impatiently as it connects. She goes online, only to find that no one has read it.No comments. No notifications. She waits.. An endless wait...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 13, 2013

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    Invisible, Forever And Always My Super Power.

    I just want to feel like a normal person! I can be in a room crowded with people I know but, theres always that need to isolate myself. I feel so unimportant. I can sit right in the middle of everything and no one will acknowledge me. It's like I don't even exist until someone...
    NubiieeCobain NubiieeCobain 16-17 Jan 2, 2013

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    IDK

    I don't understand why I'm the way that I am. My brother is the life of the party, I've always struggled to make friends. It's so lonely not having real friends who don't feel burdened by you sharing your pain with them. Does it ever get better?
    lamenlonely lamenlonely 31-35, F Nov 2, 2013

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    All I want to do is cry.

    I've been crying all day but it still isn't enough. Why do you push me away? What did I do to deserve this?
    madeline68 madeline68 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2014

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    No Talent. No One To Inspire. No Importance

    So I was on facebook and one of my close friends posted that a girl he didn't know messaged him saying that she was planning to commit suicide this Christmas and that listening to the song he wrote an recorded inspired her not to. I'm very proud of him but I wish I could do...
    SoloHD SoloHD 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 23, 2012

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    Alone, Always Alone.

    Little Girl Lost, Little Girl Scared, Scared of The world, she's not prepared. Angry little girl , little girl be quiet nobody cares. Selfish little girl don't you see nobody wants to see the blood you throw up? You disgust me. Attention seeker. *****, ***** , ***** . Little girl...
    NubiieeCobain NubiieeCobain 16-17 1 Response Jan 3, 2013

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    N/a

    It's so hard not to get that feeling. Like I'm in a room full of people and I don't even exist. I wish I were normal. I wish I were lovable. I look at other people around me and all I see is there magnetic personalities, and then there is me. I'm not even that interesting. I'm...
    Aksumite Aksumite 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2011

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    Kindly Tell Me Why...

    I'm tired of being told that I'm "important" when it's clear I'm not. One of these days, I want to not only feel as if I matter, but loved.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 19, 2011

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    Please look at me don't look thru me Please

    talk to me don't talk at me Please laugh with me don't laugh at me Please watch me and protect me I like the safeness you have let me feel The coldness has left my house it is Conpletely gone I thank you
    LAsuperstar LAsuperstar 70+, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2014

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    Quiet Girl With The Loud Thoughts

    Inferiority is my enemy. For as long as I could remember always felt like I wasn't inside my skin. Like I needed to be inside other people's mind posses their talents and features but not mine own because for the simple fact I wasn't recognized, I wasn't that "special girl", not...
    midnightpunk91 midnightpunk91 18-21 1 Response Dec 9, 2012

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    I Just Dont Know Anymore

    I cant help but to wonder what it feels like that i matter to someone. I have always felt like i didnt matter for anyone my entire life. i hope that one day that happens
    NDR1987 NDR1987 26-30, M May 7, 2013

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    I know I matter I try to let the people in my

    life know they matter. I go out of my way to juggle all the balls to make sure everyone's needs are met as best I can I want a certain someone to show I matter to him. That my needs are important and that he does his best to meet them. I do matter I am showing myself that...
    cailinAlainn cailinAlainn 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2014

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    Just Me

    I'm a very sensitive, deeply compassionate person. For the last 4 years I've had anxiety and the odd panic attack. I don't take anything for it and I try to talk myself through the thoughts, do EFT to relax and read almost daily. I've moved around a lot in the last 3 years...
    producedby229 producedby229 36-40 Aug 9, 2011

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    In The Later Years

    Everyone wants and needs to matter. At home and at  work. We're more then just a source to use selectively. To be convenient is sad.To be left behind because an elder parent "may" not be able to walk so far,  or get a kick out of he mall or the zoo..a nice  lunch date...
    wiseowl wiseowl 61-65, F 5 Responses May 21, 2011

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    Paycheck And Insurance

    I'm tired of just being needed. My superpower of invisibility is in full affect until something needs to be paid for or moved.
    daddypatric daddypatric 36-40, M 1 Response Nov 28, 2012

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    No One Has Proven It Yet

    No one's proven I matter to them yet. Some days I feel like I could go missing and the only ones who would notice are the people I'm living with because they wouldn't see me. My ex says I still matter to her, yet she's blown me off so many times, forgotten to call me when she...
    TheKidiKehT TheKidiKehT 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 28, 2009

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    Sad But True -

    Sometimes on my darkest days I feel like I don't matter - I could leave and no one would notice no one would miss me...
    TimeforT TimeforT 31-35, F 8 Responses Jun 29, 2008

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    I Feel Like I Don't Matter

    Maybe I am just sensitive or feeling sorry for myself, or maybe the world is just filled with self obsessed, selfish ******** who believe everyone is to do for them - I don't know? I really try to be a good person not because i have to but because this is who i am and let me...
    cmecry cmecry 26-30 3 Responses Dec 22, 2008

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    I love when a guy says idk how ur ex let u go

    or how ur ex could have treated u like tht because ur___________(can fill it in) It just makes me feel special and like someone finally appreciates me and notice the things I do.
    xSweetnessx xSweetnessx 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 19

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    I am not very good at much in this life, nothing that really contributes to the world in a way that matters. I trained to be a teacher in a subject that no one seems to care about...
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    I feel like I'm being bullied by everyone. My neighbors stayed up late and I knocked on the wall for them to be quiet. The women called me crazy and they sounded like they were...
    AnnonymousNum3 AnnonymousNum3 22-25, F 15 hrs ago

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    I honestly don't know what else I can do and say to get the same attention that everybody else gets when they text or call or anything at all. I try to do what I can and I try to...
    jdavid1979 jdavid1979 31-35, M Mar 29

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    As much as i would like to talk about my problems I feel like I actually am what I was accused of. Am I really as sensetive as I think I am or am I just as obsessive as they claim...
    GuiltBear GuiltBear 31-35, M 3 Responses Apr 7

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    I feel totally sh*t. I went to the concert of my two favorite bands yesterday yet now I just feel like there's no point to anything anymore. I feel like I hate everything. I hate...
    shhyoudontknowme shhyoudontknowme 16-17, F Apr 11

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    Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place, Like somehow you just don't belong And no one understands you? Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself...
    YesIAmAsian YesIAmAsian 18-21 Apr 17

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    I am an adult on the Autism spectrum. As a child, I never really had quality of friends. They often used me. I believe in a race of people/extraterrestrials called...
    NiggiMaskedSalesman NiggiMaskedSalesman 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    I have to be mom, who keeps the world revolving and upholds order, I have to be the significant other, who takes care of all the details, forces herself to care at every turn...
    MyCircus MyCircus 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 17

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    Feel like crap today..I feel I'm never gonna meet the right guy that's gonna accept me for me,and Im not sure i can become the idea of who I wanna be :/ I feel like the only guy...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 7 Responses Apr 18

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    I have three older brothers and two older sisters. I have often have dreams that are difficult to discuss with people because of their taboo nature. my youngest brother is 8 years...
    tulipswallllow tulipswallllow 51-55, F 19 hrs ago

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    I feel like I'm dying. I somehow manage to go through my daily routines but I no longer feel like there's a reason for me breathe. I feel like I'm just existing, not living; and...
    ILoveWeights ILoveWeights 26-30, M Mar 29

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    I hate taking pills and I don't remember the last time I took one. Always told myself I would only take it if im in a great deal of physical pain. This pill is not for any physical...
    anonamanda001 anonamanda001 18-21, F Mar 30

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    I was told today that I was a "heartless, no good human being" because I couldn't relate to what the person was saying when they said they were sad. I tried to explain that I...
    bledotbizdotuk bledotbizdotuk 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    I feel like I am not good at anything in life. I don't have any talent, skills. My parents provided me good education, I was sent abroad to study, but I can't succeed. I can't...
    T15h10 T15h10 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    I feel like I don't live up to anyone's expectations. I feel lately that it's just too much for me and I feel worthless. I don't work and I fear working in any store because I...
    MarioT96 MarioT96 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 9

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    I feel like i'm someone else. Like i'm watching this other person and she's screaming for serenity and she never gets it. She's begging on her knee's for anything that might save...
    rawr0 rawr0 18-21, F Apr 9

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    I feel alone all the time and I feel like no one understands me. I dont want to be here anymore I just want to run away and never come back
    boxking101 boxking101 16-17, M Apr 16

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    Im tired of everything. It seems like no one understands me. I got friends but i still feel lonely most of the time. Theyre only good for hang out and stuff, but idk, i feel like...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 18

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