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I had a really bad nervous breakdown last year after a lot of emotional abuse from my family thats been there throughout my childhood, i had just tried to squash it away and not realise how lonely I felt. Then over time it just got so...
Seems I've always struggled in life, though I've aways been the one to face the future with hope and give encouragement; but it's hard being strong, putting on that happy, confident face all the time.
I just want someone to take my hand and hold me tight and tell me...
be on guard, doing my best to remain invisible to feel even some level of closure.
When I'm being touched it's the worst I feel nothing but fear and panic that they're to hurt me, even if it's a partner which makes things easier seeing in single.
I wish things was different...
out with someone too
I won't feel sorry for me, I'm getting drunk
But I'd much rather be somewhere with you
Laughing loud on a carnival ride, yeah
Driving around on a Saturday night
You made fun of me for singing my song
Got a hotel room just to turn you on
You said pick me up...
Hard to find a way to get through, it's a tragedy
Pulling at me like the stars do, you're like gravity
Even if the wind blows
It makes it hard to believe
How you gonna love, how you gonna feel?
How you gonna live your life like the dream you have is real?
If you lost your way, I...
I have trouble finding things that make me feel safe. I've had too many things happen, and so I am always scared of what's going to happen next, or how I'll deal with it. I 'look over my shoulder' all the time to see if something's lurking back there, waiting to strike. I know I...
since I was a kid. I stress out about every little thing. I would love to have someone in my life who understands this and makes me feel safe enough to share my worries with them without feeling pathetic and weak for worrying about the little things. Someone who has my back and...
A day in the life of me can look a little something like this:wake up, have stresseat breakfast with stressgo to school with stressat school, stressed!doing work I don't really understand 80% of the time, feeling stressedand so on, and so forth... STRESSbut when I come on EP, I...
I said, "I'll never let you go"
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, "Don't leave me here alone"
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight
Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
A couple days ago some guys tried to rob me.
It was a group of 7-8 black guys all taller than me (I mean I am pretty short hispanic guy, most males are taller than me). They were wearing dark clothes; one guy asked me what time it was and then they started grabbing at my watch...
I want to feel safe from myself. I know the steps I can take to be "safe" (ie: stop cutting/burning myself, stop purging, get rid of the hoarded pills, the revolver and ammo.), but can't bring myself to DO them.
Thankfully, I am not a danger to anyone else - just...
I'm scared, scared of everything. I am intimidated by the life itself and all that it brings to me. I find myself holding myself back, just that the Life wouldn't notice me.... I'm sure that if I would get all it's attention, I would be in so much trouble.
Oh, how I yearn to...
i would love for a sense of security in my life. i have dreams and aspirations, and slowly but surely i'll reach them. but i feel thoroughly detached from the world sometimes. my house has been broken into (at least once), as have others' that i know. the imminent destruction...
and reluctant to try new things, I met an amazing guy. I met him in March, but nothing happened between us until June. We got really close, and we dated for a while. He made me feel safe. Even though I felt safe with him, I hated being with him. He was great, perfect even, but I...
The time I felt safe.
Was in my exs arm.
I felt protected and loved.
Until he cheated.
I have him another chance.
He blew it.
I didn't even comment with a text or a sound.
I just let him be him, somewhere else.
I'm listening to the song btw :) lol