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I Want to Find Myself Again

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    Gosh This Is A Big Step

    And I'm scared to take it. Sure, I've journaled in my personal diary giving expression to my most intimate, personal, and secret thoughts, feelings and desires. But no one reads it but me. I don't want to be hurt but often times I am. I find that all to often I am misunderstood...
    Littlel1 Littlel1 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 5, 2013

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    Indecisive: Help!

    I want to be a teacher but I want to be a Social Worker as well. I want to be a graphics designer but I also want to be a Criminologist...all four things I know I'm good at and really passionate about but in the process I have lost sight of what I really want to do. How do I...
    chuckles12 chuckles12 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 17, 2013

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    Duuude!

    I woke up, and i wasn't there. I looked for me all morning, and I was nowhere to be found. It's weird for me to disappear like that, i do n't usually do those things, but today it happened.  I checked the kitchen, backyard, living room, bathroom everywhere and I simply...
    Th3D0ct0r Th3D0ct0r 26-30 7 Responses Aug 14, 2009

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    I Want To Know Whats Its Like

    I want to know what it feels like to feel again, not to go through life numb, like its just a role am playing. I forgot what it feels like to have friends of any kind. I really have forgot how to even interreact with anyone besides family or my children.
    see5 see5 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 17, 2013

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    Steel Rain, Glacial Wind, Immolating Comfort.

    There is a strangeness that we seem to embrace each and every single time it comes around. Foremost however, I'm going to set the ambiance of these surroundings. Techno music playing lightly across 5.1 surround speakers, you notice that it's basically worthless to have that...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 8, 2012

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    My mother passed away

    when I was 3 from a drug overdose and I never even knew her.... I've been told so many story's I don't know what to do think anymore... I know live with my nana and not a day goes past without me thinking about it :(
    rosie1995 rosie1995 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 15, 2014

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    Will The Hurt Stop

    She is leaving..this time for good. Your not going with me she said. "Do you want to be with me?" her reply "no"Crushed I love her more and hate her to. She was honest.Why does it hurt so? "Truth hurts"OK So make it stop. Friends can only understand when they have been there. I...
    cataclysm74 cataclysm74 36-40 Sep 16, 2011

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    I feel lost. Im numb to everything.

    Im demotivated, frustrated, broken.. You name it. I cant do anything I love anymore. I cant get my life together. He took a part of me and i feel like im someone else. I cant do anything right, nothing feeels right anymore. I cant remember what I was like before him and Idk how...
    caijedu caijedu 18-21, F Jan 8, 2014

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    How Can I Find Myself?

    my name is nevo graduated from faculty of economics and political science :and i work as apolitical researcher but the big problem is it i dont love my job : and i want to work as another field which i dont know
    nevoo nevoo 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2013

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    Lost My Soul

    These few days, my soul, it's lost. It's fading off to an unknown realm, a place I could never ever be myself anymore. My soul, it's weak and withered by all those scars and pains and bad experiences. It yearns to be free, free from this ugly body. This cage of a body who held it...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 22-25, F Mar 29, 2012

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    The Pain Of Divorce And Starting Over

    I am a mother of 3 and have been abandoned, rejected and going through a ugly divorce. My x husband to be is with someone and is constantly exposing my little ones to the paramour. My oldest has been abandoned by him too. I am trying to deal with the pain and rejection but it...
    bvrincon bvrincon 41-45 May 15, 2010

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    I Lost Myself

    i lost myself from the abuse i go through i lost myself when i became a victim of suicide im different from once i was im not the same happy kid i use to be. but im still happy around the close ones so i dont see them hurt the scras mark up my rists give me pain when i get...
    k8ewazhere k8ewazhere 18-21, F Jul 29, 2011

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    Lost By Your Lies

    i was locked in a deeper sleep When i fell in love in oh-so deep He was just normal and a talented guy And with those eyes, i felt so high Then when we knew each other very well We started to form a bond A bond that starts to feel heaven And at the end it hurt like hell I admit...
    SecretWriter7 SecretWriter7 16-17, F Dec 20, 2012

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    My First Step..

    So, I said I'm lost and I confessed !! now what ?? I don't want to feel like this forever.. I need to move on.. To go to the next step... to start my journey to find myself.. Isn't that the point of this group ? we should help each other to find ourselves.. I'll start today by...
    Cinchona Cinchona 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 19, 2010

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    I Want to

    I want to find myself again, it seems that I have gone missing, and I can't find myself. It seems like I have been missing for so long. I want to find myself again....
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 2, 2009

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    I Hate Who I Am Now.

    I used to know exactly who I was, and I was happy, and at peace. I was who I want to be. Some bad things in life happened, as they do to everyone every once in a while, and I lost myself completely. I used to have the tightest grip on reality, and now, I'm living life through a...
    justbreatheart justbreatheart 18-21 2 Responses Feb 29, 2012

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    Married With Children

    I've been with the man who is now my husband for 13 years, married for 6, have 2 kids, a house and a career. Everything I always wanted but now its here I feel lost. At every milestone I've become a bit more compromised and diluted. I think I've become really boring so I avoid...
    Mrsbenn Mrsbenn 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2012

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    Why Did I Abandon Me

    My clear thoughts are gone. Everything that made me feel like myself is not inside me anymore. I was strong and I was fun I was a lot of things really , but this here this person I am now is just not any of those things. I am not myself I am not even a tiny bit of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 15, 2009

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    The Black Angel

    im katie of two worlds some say ... the katie you know is the happy, kind and advice giving, give a sholder to cry on person .. the other me .. well.. i am the black angel of soul creatures ' black angels prtect and fight for what they believ in .. and wont stop till they win...
    k8ewazhere k8ewazhere 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2011

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    My mother passed away

    when I was 3 from a drug overdose and I never even knew her.... I've been told so many story's I don't know what to do think anymore... I know live with my nana and not a day goes past without me thinking about it :(
    rosie1995 rosie1995 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 15, 2014

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    I Just Don't Know Where I Am

    I feel lost.. don't know what I really want... Feels like I can't take desicions anymore.. Feels like i don't know from where to start.. Can't figure out my own emotions! Do I want him or not ? Do I want to go thru this or not? I don't know.. Do i want to move forward or...
    Cinchona Cinchona 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2010

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    The Dastardly Deeds Of Dr. Dubious

    No not really, maybe some other time. Right now.. Something different than what you expected. I've seen so many questions come across the QnA here, So I had decided to write a little short Story.. then changed my mind. Instead, I was thinking of offering a piece of me to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 13, 2013

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    Really Lost

    I lost myself when I was 15 years old and now I'm 62 and I'm still REALLY lost. How do you EVER know when your OK? How do you know whats OK?  Does it really matter anymore since I'm old now anyway? There's no time left to start a real life at my age. Just trying to get...
    DianaDD DianaDD 61-65, F 1 Response Jul 30, 2009

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    Lost

    I'm just a broken man who's trying to piece himself back together.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 26, 2011

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    The Evolution Of Me

    i felt so alone and lost in a system that constantly wrecks you. As soon as you think you're comfortable with the family or facility they stick you in then they move you again. Those people are abusive, some very very abusive physically, verbally, sexually, and emotionally. I...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 10, 2013

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    Where Did I Go?

    I have lost myself and don't know where to find me.  I keep searching only to find this shell. Someday maybe soon I will find me.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 20 Responses Jul 30, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    I've been running my whole life. Taking jobs in different cities and towns, disappearing in and out of peoples lives. I know it's selfish and callous but here I find myself again...
    NewDay9 NewDay9 31-35, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I haven't cut in about 2 years. its been hard on me lately. with stress at home, family issues, and working all the time but it not being enough. I want to tell my husband but I...
    Ravenslove1408 Ravenslove1408 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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    This really isn't an article but actually an answer by Marcus Geduld to the question "What do you do if you're 24 and have wasted a lot of time?" on Quora.com. Enjoy! "It may...
    light108 light108 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    love that adrenergic rush but hate myself for procrastinating every act.am i to be blamed?if only my brain can be as sharp as this..if only my imagination can fly as high as this...
    dramaqueen95 dramaqueen95 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    so I'm married, but i've only ever been intimate with my wife ever in my life, and sometimes i just find myself looking around and wondering what other women are like. I don't...
    DragoMuseveni DragoMuseveni 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    I'm a sophomore in college and I don't know what I want to do with my life at all. I know you can't get a decent job anymore without a college degree, but I don't want to waste my...
    dexter06 dexter06 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    I don't like the words," I love you", I say to myself,"I can't, I need some air. I need to be me." then you see that I am about to walk away. you speak for the heart saying please...
    bigheartsmallworld bigheartsmallworld 36-40, M 2 days ago

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    In a dark waste land I found the light Suddenly finding my urge to fight Either that or stay out of sight But no matter what it will be alright Trapped in my eternal night I...
    Fuckeverything9 Fuckeverything9 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I've been feeling so terrible today. I started cutting myself again, and my mom walked in just as I put away the blade. I'm so happy she didn't see anything... Ughhh im losing it...
    CallMeNobody CallMeNobody 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    story of my life!!! lol I always say I'm done, and then find myself trying again. that is the definition of insanity.....
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 2 days ago

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    I cut myself last night and then again today but I still want to cut and I want to talk to my boyfriend but he won't talk to me and I told him I was thinking about going to a...
    christinelol christinelol 13-15, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    My name is Sebastian, I am a 16y kid from Europe and I live together with 2 alcoholic parents. It affects me very much and they don't give me the support I need. Now I'm in high...
    Sebastian10 Sebastian10 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    My name is Sebastian, I am a 16y kid from Europe and I live together with 2 alcoholic parents. It affects me very much and they don't give me the support I need. Now I'm in high...
    Sebastian10 Sebastian10 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    My name is Sebastian, I am a 16y kid from Europe and I live together with 2 alcoholic parents. It affects me very much and they don't give me the support I need. Now I'm in high...
    Sebastian10 Sebastian10 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    There's no reason to try again this time. I got all my facts straight. I'm done.
    simmerdame simmerdame 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    And honestly, I don't like it... Deep in the inside, I know it's better to just accept that I'm not nice at all, which is how I've seen myself as for a long time now. I know as...
    Sil833 Sil833 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    You cannot become who you need to be by remaining who you are. Keep finding yourself you awesome and beautiful creature.
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 3 days ago

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