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I Want to Find Myself Again

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    Why Did I Abandon Me

    My clear thoughts are gone. Everything that made me feel like myself is not inside me anymore. I was strong and I was fun I was a lot of things really , but this here this person I am now is just not any of those things. I am not myself I am not even a tiny bit of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 15, 2009

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    The Dastardly Deeds Of Dr. Dubious

    No not really, maybe some other time. Right now.. Something different than what you expected. I've seen so many questions come across the QnA here, So I had decided to write a little short Story.. then changed my mind. Instead, I was thinking of offering a piece of me to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 13, 2013

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    I Want To Know Whats Its Like

    I want to know what it feels like to feel again, not to go through life numb, like its just a role am playing. I forgot what it feels like to have friends of any kind. I really have forgot how to even interreact with anyone besides family or my children.
    see5 see5 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 17, 2013

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    Duuude!

    I woke up, and i wasn't there. I looked for me all morning, and I was nowhere to be found. It's weird for me to disappear like that, i do n't usually do those things, but today it happened.  I checked the kitchen, backyard, living room, bathroom everywhere and I simply...
    Th3D0ct0r Th3D0ct0r 26-30 7 Responses Aug 14, 2009

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    I feel lost. Im numb to everything.

    Im demotivated, frustrated, broken.. You name it. I cant do anything I love anymore. I cant get my life together. He took a part of me and i feel like im someone else. I cant do anything right, nothing feeels right anymore. I cant remember what I was like before him and Idk how...
    caijedu caijedu 18-21, F Jan 8, 2014

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    Really Lost

    I lost myself when I was 15 years old and now I'm 62 and I'm still REALLY lost. How do you EVER know when your OK? How do you know whats OK?  Does it really matter anymore since I'm old now anyway? There's no time left to start a real life at my age. Just trying to get...
    DianaDD DianaDD 61-65, F 1 Response Jul 30, 2009

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    My mother passed away

    when I was 3 from a drug overdose and I never even knew her.... I've been told so many story's I don't know what to do think anymore... I know live with my nana and not a day goes past without me thinking about it :(
    rosie1995 rosie1995 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 15, 2014

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    Lost My Soul

    These few days, my soul, it's lost. It's fading off to an unknown realm, a place I could never ever be myself anymore. My soul, it's weak and withered by all those scars and pains and bad experiences. It yearns to be free, free from this ugly body. This cage of a body who held it...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 22-25, F Mar 29, 2012

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    My mother passed away

    when I was 3 from a drug overdose and I never even knew her.... I've been told so many story's I don't know what to do think anymore... I know live with my nana and not a day goes past without me thinking about it :(
    rosie1995 rosie1995 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 15, 2014

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    Where Did I Go?

    I have lost myself and don't know where to find me.  I keep searching only to find this shell. Someday maybe soon I will find me.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 20 Responses Jul 30, 2009

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    The Pain Of Divorce And Starting Over

    I am a mother of 3 and have been abandoned, rejected and going through a ugly divorce. My x husband to be is with someone and is constantly exposing my little ones to the paramour. My oldest has been abandoned by him too. I am trying to deal with the pain and rejection but it...
    bvrincon bvrincon 41-45 May 15, 2010

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    My First Step..

    So, I said I'm lost and I confessed !! now what ?? I don't want to feel like this forever.. I need to move on.. To go to the next step... to start my journey to find myself.. Isn't that the point of this group ? we should help each other to find ourselves.. I'll start today by...
    Cinchona Cinchona 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 19, 2010

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    Lost

    I'm just a broken man who's trying to piece himself back together.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 26, 2011

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    Steel Rain, Glacial Wind, Immolating Comfort.

    There is a strangeness that we seem to embrace each and every single time it comes around. Foremost however, I'm going to set the ambiance of these surroundings. Techno music playing lightly across 5.1 surround speakers, you notice that it's basically worthless to have that...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 8, 2012

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    I Just Don't Know Where I Am

    I feel lost.. don't know what I really want... Feels like I can't take desicions anymore.. Feels like i don't know from where to start.. Can't figure out my own emotions! Do I want him or not ? Do I want to go thru this or not? I don't know.. Do i want to move forward or...
    Cinchona Cinchona 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2010

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    The Evolution Of Me

    i felt so alone and lost in a system that constantly wrecks you. As soon as you think you're comfortable with the family or facility they stick you in then they move you again. Those people are abusive, some very very abusive physically, verbally, sexually, and emotionally. I...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 10, 2013

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    Indecisive: Help!

    I want to be a teacher but I want to be a Social Worker as well. I want to be a graphics designer but I also want to be a Criminologist...all four things I know I'm good at and really passionate about but in the process I have lost sight of what I really want to do. How do I...
    chuckles12 chuckles12 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 17, 2013

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    Gosh This Is A Big Step

    And I'm scared to take it. Sure, I've journaled in my personal diary giving expression to my most intimate, personal, and secret thoughts, feelings and desires. But no one reads it but me. I don't want to be hurt but often times I am. I find that all to often I am misunderstood...
    Littlel1 Littlel1 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 5, 2013

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    How Can I Find Myself?

    my name is nevo graduated from faculty of economics and political science :and i work as apolitical researcher but the big problem is it i dont love my job : and i want to work as another field which i dont know
    nevoo nevoo 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2013

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    I Hate Who I Am Now.

    I used to know exactly who I was, and I was happy, and at peace. I was who I want to be. Some bad things in life happened, as they do to everyone every once in a while, and I lost myself completely. I used to have the tightest grip on reality, and now, I'm living life through a...
    justbreatheart justbreatheart 18-21 2 Responses Feb 29, 2012

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    The Black Angel

    im katie of two worlds some say ... the katie you know is the happy, kind and advice giving, give a sholder to cry on person .. the other me .. well.. i am the black angel of soul creatures ' black angels prtect and fight for what they believ in .. and wont stop till they win...
    k8ewazhere k8ewazhere 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2011

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    I Want to

    I want to find myself again, it seems that I have gone missing, and I can't find myself. It seems like I have been missing for so long. I want to find myself again....
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 2, 2009

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    I Lost Myself

    i lost myself from the abuse i go through i lost myself when i became a victim of suicide im different from once i was im not the same happy kid i use to be. but im still happy around the close ones so i dont see them hurt the scras mark up my rists give me pain when i get...
    k8ewazhere k8ewazhere 18-21, F Jul 29, 2011

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    Lost By Your Lies

    i was locked in a deeper sleep When i fell in love in oh-so deep He was just normal and a talented guy And with those eyes, i felt so high Then when we knew each other very well We started to form a bond A bond that starts to feel heaven And at the end it hurt like hell I admit...
    SecretWriter7 SecretWriter7 16-17, F Dec 20, 2012

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    Will The Hurt Stop

    She is leaving..this time for good. Your not going with me she said. "Do you want to be with me?" her reply "no"Crushed I love her more and hate her to. She was honest.Why does it hurt so? "Truth hurts"OK So make it stop. Friends can only understand when they have been there. I...
    cataclysm74 cataclysm74 36-40 Sep 16, 2011

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    Married With Children

    I've been with the man who is now my husband for 13 years, married for 6, have 2 kids, a house and a career. Everything I always wanted but now its here I feel lost. At every milestone I've become a bit more compromised and diluted. I think I've become really boring so I avoid...
    Mrsbenn Mrsbenn 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    Last year was a game changer for me..i left my boyfriend of five years last February. It was difficult to do but I don't regret it. It took me over a year to work up the courage...
    lambkin lambkin 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 6

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    How long is my journey going to take? According to Ekhart Tolle, this is not a good question" It makes you lose the now. Ekhart Tolle: The power of now can only be realized...
    KemiKill KemiKill 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Everything my stalker has done/is doing is the definition of what stalking is. If they didn't enjoy and want my pain, tears, self injuries, and anguish, they would stop. Each...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 Jan 7

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    I've never come out to anyone I know, but now I am on the Internet. I'm gay. I'm bi. I'm straight. I really don't know. Once the hormones finally hit, I found myself looking at...
    dexter06 dexter06 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    Ugh, figuring myself out and trying to be okay with it and trying not to worry so much about it is so draining and difficult. I think I've discovered a new part of myself and it's...
    figuringmyselfout figuringmyselfout 18-21 1 Response Jan 7

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    I have a disease that only some of my friends know about...it is not public knowledge because of the exclusion, ridicule, etc. that comes with it...because of that I struggle with...
    teemass teemass 46-50, M Jan 5

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    It's kinda weird that you can think about someone as much as you want and they have no idea.
    Cheshirea Cheshirea 18-21, F Jan 10

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    I find everything confusing. My boyfriend cheated, lied and got overly possessive. I finally left him but can't seem to move on with life. I guess I still love him at times and...
    HeldonWhite HeldonWhite 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    Today I cut my self again.. I felt so down. I didn't even go to school I just told my mom I was sick
    Gamer0808 Gamer0808 13-15, F a week ago

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    I do !!!!! And i want a boob guy lol !!! Gues hormones going to my head !!@@
    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F 4 Responses Jan 21

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    Love Ramblings I saved you for me My sight is restored My ragged breath is captured Whether in this moment Or forevermore I don't remember Who saved who...
    PoetryNEmotion PoetryNEmotion 51-55, F 5 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    because I didn't cut deeply enough :(
    vinvicau vinvicau 66-70, M Dec 31, 2014

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    I am definitely on a journey of self discovery and I'm going to go all nerdy on you and compare it to Lord of the Rings. I feel it highly beneficial to have a few Allies (thanks EP...
    KemiKill KemiKill 36-40, F 6 Responses Jan 11

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    Everyday is a new opportunity to do better. The seed is freshly planted, with only a single green blade peaking above the soil. I hope to cultivate it and make it into a strong...
    KemiKill KemiKill 36-40, F 6 days ago

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    I need to move on and forget my ex of 20 yrs but how
    Kimberlee123 Kimberlee123 41-45, F 3 days ago

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    cant wait until i pick up the knife and start scratching my self with it. im done with the crap of every day life that i go through. no one listens. and i get treated like a mat at...
    alysia28 alysia28 13-15, F 6 Responses Jan 5

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    It been a long hard year. A very stressful year. A very painful and mundane year. The new year was approaching and I knew I needed a change, a fresh start, a new beginning, and...
    desire2bebald desire2bebald 41-45, F 4 Responses Jan 17

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    If anybody sees this, please answer. It's a very serious question concerning my current "relationship" with the supposed Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I am not a Christian. I feel...
    narutobuddy narutobuddy 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 6

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    Every time I seem to find myself getting to better place...my mind just won't let it happen. I've been in such a good state of mind all week, but last night my nightmares came back...
    vault101 vault101 26-30, F Jan 18

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    Isn't this it? At the root of it all, doesn't it just come down to this? As a child I was physically cared for, loved at a safe distance, and enjoyed as long as I was quiet. My...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 4 Responses Jan 21

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    If anybody sees this, please answer. It's a very serious question concerning my current "relationship" with the supposed Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I am not a Christian. I feel...
    narutobuddy narutobuddy 13-15, M 14 Responses Jan 6

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    I was the perfect child in the perfect family. Good grades, sporty, i have ADD but once that issue was settled my life was generally the perfect childhood. It's hard to express how...
    Cannibalcheezecake Cannibalcheezecake 18-21, F Jan 19

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