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I Want to Find Myself Again

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 195 People

    Gosh This Is A Big Step

    And I'm scared to take it. Sure, I've journaled in my personal diary giving expression to my most intimate, personal, and secret thoughts, feelings and desires. But no one reads it but me. I don't want to be hurt but often times I am. I find that all to often I am misunderstood...
    Littlel1 Littlel1 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 5, 2013

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    My mother passed away

    when I was 3 from a drug overdose and I never even knew her.... I've been told so many story's I don't know what to do think anymore... I know live with my nana and not a day goes past without me thinking about it :(
    rosie1995 rosie1995 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 15

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    The Black Angel

    im katie of two worlds some say ... the katie you know is the happy, kind and advice giving, give a sholder to cry on person .. the other me .. well.. i am the black angel of soul creatures ' black angels prtect and fight for what they believ in .. and wont stop till they win...
    k8ewazhere k8ewazhere 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2011

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    Indecisive: Help!

    I want to be a teacher but I want to be a Social Worker as well. I want to be a graphics designer but I also want to be a Criminologist...all four things I know I'm good at and really passionate about but in the process I have lost sight of what I really want to do. How do I...
    chuckles12 chuckles12 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 17, 2013

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    I Lost Myself

    i lost myself from the abuse i go through i lost myself when i became a victim of suicide im different from once i was im not the same happy kid i use to be. but im still happy around the close ones so i dont see them hurt the scras mark up my rists give me pain when i get...
    k8ewazhere k8ewazhere 18-21, F Jul 29, 2011

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    I Miss You Kindal And Who You Once Were...

    I miss the tired morning me who would wake up a (bit grumpy) to go to work and stop by Starbucks for a nice Cafe Mocha every morning or a huge iced tea with lemon in summer from Carls Jr. I didn't like my job but I miss having my own paycheck and my own money I miss the me...
    Kindal Kindal 46-50, F 7 Responses Apr 18, 2010

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    Why Did I Abandon Me

    My clear thoughts are gone. Everything that made me feel like myself is not inside me anymore. I was strong and I was fun I was a lot of things really , but this here this person I am now is just not any of those things. I am not myself I am not even a tiny bit of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 15, 2009

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    The Evolution Of Me

    i felt so alone and lost in a system that constantly wrecks you. As soon as you think you're comfortable with the family or facility they stick you in then they move you again. Those people are abusive, some very very abusive physically, verbally, sexually, and emotionally. I...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 10, 2013

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    Married With Children

    I've been with the man who is now my husband for 13 years, married for 6, have 2 kids, a house and a career. Everything I always wanted but now its here I feel lost. At every milestone I've become a bit more compromised and diluted. I think I've become really boring so I avoid...
    Mrsbenn Mrsbenn 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2012

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    My mother passed away

    when I was 3 from a drug overdose and I never even knew her.... I've been told so many story's I don't know what to do think anymore... I know live with my nana and not a day goes past without me thinking about it :(
    rosie1995 rosie1995 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    I Hate Who I Am Now.

    I used to know exactly who I was, and I was happy, and at peace. I was who I want to be. Some bad things in life happened, as they do to everyone every once in a while, and I lost myself completely. I used to have the tightest grip on reality, and now, I'm living life through a...
    justbreatheart justbreatheart 18-21 2 Responses Feb 29, 2012

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    The Dastardly Deeds Of Dr. Dubious

    No not really, maybe some other time. Right now.. Something different than what you expected. I've seen so many questions come across the QnA here, So I had decided to write a little short Story.. then changed my mind. Instead, I was thinking of offering a piece of me to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 13, 2013

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    Lost

    I'm just a broken man who's trying to piece himself back together.
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 26, 2011

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    Duuude!

    I woke up, and i wasn't there. I looked for me all morning, and I was nowhere to be found. It's weird for me to disappear like that, i do n't usually do those things, but today it happened.  I checked the kitchen, backyard, living room, bathroom everywhere and I simply...
    Th3D0ct0r Th3D0ct0r 26-30 7 Responses Aug 14, 2009

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    My First Step..

    So, I said I'm lost and I confessed !! now what ?? I don't want to feel like this forever.. I need to move on.. To go to the next step... to start my journey to find myself.. Isn't that the point of this group ? we should help each other to find ourselves.. I'll start today by...
    Cinchona Cinchona 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 19, 2010

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    How Can I Find Myself?

    my name is nevo graduated from faculty of economics and political science :and i work as apolitical researcher but the big problem is it i dont love my job : and i want to work as another field which i dont know
    nevoo nevoo 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2013

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    Lost By Your Lies

    i was locked in a deeper sleep When i fell in love in oh-so deep He was just normal and a talented guy And with those eyes, i felt so high Then when we knew each other very well We started to form a bond A bond that starts to feel heaven And at the end it hurt like hell I admit...
    SecretWriter7 SecretWriter7 16-17, F Dec 20, 2012

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    I Want to

    I want to find myself again, it seems that I have gone missing, and I can't find myself. It seems like I have been missing for so long. I want to find myself again....
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 2, 2009

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    Steel Rain, Glacial Wind, Immolating Comfort.

    There is a strangeness that we seem to embrace each and every single time it comes around. Foremost however, I'm going to set the ambiance of these surroundings. Techno music playing lightly across 5.1 surround speakers, you notice that it's basically worthless to have that...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 8, 2012

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    Lost My Soul

    These few days, my soul, it's lost. It's fading off to an unknown realm, a place I could never ever be myself anymore. My soul, it's weak and withered by all those scars and pains and bad experiences. It yearns to be free, free from this ugly body. This cage of a body who held it...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 18-21, F Mar 29, 2012

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    Really Lost

    I lost myself when I was 15 years old and now I'm 62 and I'm still REALLY lost. How do you EVER know when your OK? How do you know whats OK?  Does it really matter anymore since I'm old now anyway? There's no time left to start a real life at my age. Just trying to get...
    DianaDD DianaDD 61-65, F 1 Response Jul 30, 2009

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    The Pain Of Divorce And Starting Over

    I am a mother of 3 and have been abandoned, rejected and going through a ugly divorce. My x husband to be is with someone and is constantly exposing my little ones to the paramour. My oldest has been abandoned by him too. I am trying to deal with the pain and rejection but it...
    bvrincon bvrincon 41-45 May 15, 2010

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    Where Did I Go?

    I have lost myself and don't know where to find me.  I keep searching only to find this shell. Someday maybe soon I will find me.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 20 Responses Jul 30, 2009

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    I Want To Know Whats Its Like

    I want to know what it feels like to feel again, not to go through life numb, like its just a role am playing. I forgot what it feels like to have friends of any kind. I really have forgot how to even interreact with anyone besides family or my children.
    see5 see5 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 17, 2013

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    Will The Hurt Stop

    She is leaving..this time for good. Your not going with me she said. "Do you want to be with me?" her reply "no"Crushed I love her more and hate her to. She was honest.Why does it hurt so? "Truth hurts"OK So make it stop. Friends can only understand when they have been there. I...
    cataclysm74 cataclysm74 36-40 Sep 16, 2011

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    I feel lost. Im numb to everything.

    Im demotivated, frustrated, broken.. You name it. I cant do anything I love anymore. I cant get my life together. He took a part of me and i feel like im someone else. I cant do anything right, nothing feeels right anymore. I cant remember what I was like before him and Idk how...
    caijedu caijedu 18-21, F Jan 8

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    I Just Don't Know Where I Am

    I feel lost.. don't know what I really want... Feels like I can't take desicions anymore.. Feels like i don't know from where to start.. Can't figure out my own emotions! Do I want him or not ? Do I want to go thru this or not? I don't know.. Do i want to move forward or...
    Cinchona Cinchona 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2010

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    Commitment and relationships are the least of my worries at the moment. I am trying to find myself. I am trying to find what I believe in and why. I am pressured too easily so I...
    anitamigna anitamigna 18-21, F Oct 12

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    i don't know who i am anymore..i've changed so much that i lost myself in this life. i'm not depressed, i'm not unhappy. i'm...just lost. and i fear i won't be able to find myself...
    FishWhoLearnedToFly FishWhoLearnedToFly 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    which results in me hating myself even more.
    ohwritteninthestars ohwritteninthestars 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 22

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    I have been on a search for who I am for quite awhile now. Every time I think I am getting closer, everything implodes. Work doesn't help anything, and neither does going out...
    LilBoyBluu LilBoyBluu 22-25, M Sep 29

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    I hope this is normal, but I would have no problem taking part in being the biggest disappointment in existence. They're always on my case about everything--you can't go to...
    BigBlittleb123 BigBlittleb123 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 6

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    I'm a girl who never wants to diet! I wanna get fatter and fatter til I'm immobile!
    GrowingGirl98 GrowingGirl98 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 10

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    I'm starting to be more attracted to girls 😮. Females can turn me on now. Gosh, I'm gay.
    jeaaane jeaaane 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 20

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    Encontrados Encontrados 36-40, M Oct 3

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    You can't really blame me. And even if you did, I still wouldn't care :/
    KazeDream KazeDream 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    Yea me too... Idk what's happening but my mommy said I need magnums... Is that like a pistol or something?
    KayvonJr KayvonJr 13-15, M Oct 11

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    I truly admire people who choose to shine even after all the **** they've been out through!!!!
    Anngeleyes Anngeleyes 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    1. My friend in England used to call me show and tell. 2. I am the biggest procrastinator in the whole world. I will always find a way to do something other than work. 3. I had a...
    channy205 channy205 16-17, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Personally I think alone time is needed for everyone!!! I've found especially after a break up, you need time alone to find yourself again :)
    Chevy1973 Chevy1973 36-40, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    All my life I have pushed myself to do things that are difficult and that scare me. On a daily basis I purposely put myself in situations that I do not like, that terrify me. Why...
    mattturcs mattturcs 26-30, M Oct 12

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    The great times are when you are five years old. No pressure on your shoulders, and you are mystified towards the world. So many things to learn! So much fun to have! Siblings are...
    SugarAndStrawberries SugarAndStrawberries 13-15 1 Response Oct 8

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    Ok, reality bites... It's so hard to find her (heavensbluerose) ...!!!! :'( I feel like the prince looking for Cinderella, with only a glass shoe as a lead.. and mind you i...
    Listening2us Listening2us 26-30, F Oct 9

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    I hate living with married people, especially when they're both friends of mine. When they fight, I know neither is hitting the other so I don't get involved. It's awkward and...
    TheBadgeringWitness TheBadgeringWitness 26-30 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Never have I thought of killing myself or try hurting myself in ways that would end my life easily. I started to beat myself a few days ago and it felt good. I feel like I deserve...
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 4

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    Ok, reality bites... It's so hard to find her ...!!!! :'( I feel like the prince looking for Cinderella, with only a glass shoe as a lead.. and mind you i search for every...
    Listening2us Listening2us 26-30, F Oct 9

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    1. I cried on my birthday. 2. I find myself listening to the same songs over and over again until i eventually get sick of them. 3. I really like peach iced tea. 4. I've never...
    channy205 channy205 16-17, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    It's weird. I really really want to learn and enjoy this organic chemistry stuff, but I can't get in the mood. It's pretty cool stuff learning how to isolate, and make compounds...
    colorstone colorstone 31-35, M Sep 23

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    I just wrote a story in another place about "happiness." Yes I have been trying to find that elusive thing they call happiness for quite some time now...just when I think I have...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    There was a time I had no friends. So I decided to change myself. I wore lots of makeup, fancy cloths, stuck out my boobs with a push up bra, and had my hair nice. Within two days...
    Fifidog Fifidog 16-17, F 3 Responses a week ago

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