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I Want to Forgive Myself

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    8 years ago I was pregnant with son s

    who was to be born with a birth defect. My bf who is now my husband woke me up while he was drunk and started kicking, hitting, and pulling my hair which sent me into an early labor and i delivered my son. I held on to this secret for many years. My son died after 5 months in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 15, 2015

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    Forgiveness Has The Power To Heal

    Forgiveness can comfort you on difficult days, smiles when sadnes intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for our eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 19, 2012

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    Sick Of People Making Fun Of You Because You Cut Your Self I Am?

    hey i'm rhonda people would make fun of me because i cut myself and i don't think its funny. so what i have many problems and other people to and i want to start a club who wants to join? person # 1: i do! 
    bleedouttears bleedouttears 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

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    Feeling Betrayed

    I almost don't wanna talk about it- this feeling of betrayal and guilt.  I know that it isn't rational but I cannot forgive my body to reacting to that man who hurt me.  I feel dirty and depraved sometimes and nothing i know stops those feelings, even if i understand...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 12, 2008

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    Release Me.....

    I forgive myself for not being completely honest with you about my own strengths, weakness, and abilities.I forgive myself for ever believing I'm not worth anything I need OR desire.I forgive myself for choosing to believe I've ever done anything "wrong" for I've always done the...
    fulheart fulheart 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 4, 2011

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    Enough Self Loathing Already

    It's time now to move on and forgive myself for the past, I can't change it. Self punishment is exhausting and completely pointless, don't do it!
    Eggyegg Eggyegg 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 14, 2011

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    Walking Alone...

    I have literaly blown up every relationship I have made. I have this, dissease, I started when I was 11 to make up stories, make up stories about my life and tell them to people. So now I am 26, I stoped lying a year ago through the help of G-d. But still, I look back and I see a...
    andreafloram andreafloram 26-30 Jun 15, 2011

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    The Only Way to Move On...

    I want to forgive myself but instead of that I keep punishing me...Whenever things are getting better, unconsiously I start doing things that will make me feel worse,cause I believe I don't deserve happiness...That's the only explanation I can give to the self-distructive feeling...
    just4adream just4adream 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 22, 2007

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    Can A Devil Have Wings Too?

    When someone is kind I become happy. I begin to anticipate that tomorrow would be the same way. And I will no doubt corrupt somebody again. Seriously this is uncool, to have desires when I'm a devil....
    Rioyoki Rioyoki 22-25, F Dec 17, 2010

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    It's Harder to Forgive Myself

    It's strange. I'm very forgiving and understanding with others when they slip up, even with something major. Though I may feel hurt for a little while, I'm inclined to try to understand where they are coming from and see their side and forgive them as quickly as possible...
    moonlitReveries moonlitReveries 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 23, 2009

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    It Is Never Too Late To Forgive Ourselves

    I feel so much guilt inside me. I dunno where I put it. It weighs me down heavily. I cannot take it anymore. Wish I throw all that junk into dustbin! I want to forgive myself!  To my surprise, more I forgave myself, lighter my burden became I discovered a...
    abhayam abhayam 36-40, M Mar 17, 2010

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    Forgive...

    I want to forgive the child I remember who trusted  his parents... But I can't... I hate him...I want to forgive the child who didn't stand up, didn't scream... But I can't... I hate him...I want to forgive the boy  who never told the teachers what the kids did to him... But I...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 25, 2011

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    I have an urgent need to forgive myself

    for something I did in high school. For years I've been very harsh with myself about this mistake and I've been telling myself that what I did was deplorable and that I don't deserve forgiveness, and even worse, that I don't deserve to find love and freely love who I love...
    NamelessNomad NamelessNomad 22-25, F Jan 20, 2015

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    My Own Guilt Makes It Imposible To Forgive Myself

    I know that I am my own worst enemy,  I am very hard on myself, I find myself constantly apologizing to everyone for things that happen that I had no control over. I can find it in my hart to forgive another person if they have caused me harm in any way and I truly hold no...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 31, 2011

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    In The Process

    I am in the process of forgiving myself. I have made a lot of mistakes while pursuing "love and happiness"... I had two toxic relationships one after the other, I put my life on hold for them and they didn't changed their lives or plans for me... now I have to start over again...
    magicpie magicpie 36-40, F Mar 14, 2011

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    Forgivness

    Forgiving myself for things I do is easier than forgiving myself for things I take responsibility for that other people do.This seems to be a major defect in my character.
    mailmanshadow mailmanshadow 51-55, M Sep 2, 2011

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    I Wish I Could...

    I would love to be able to forgive myself for my cutting problem. But it's really hard to. I understand that it's in my past, but everytime I look at my scars, it's really hard to believe that I'm mentally and emotionally stable yet. I depended on cutting for almost 3 years...
    xXPsychochic56 xXPsychochic56 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 8, 2010

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    Site

     www.explorefaith.org/forgive.  Articles about forgiveness
    Kirsche Kirsche 26-30, F Feb 18, 2008

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    I Will Never Forgive Myself.

    Looking back on my life, everyone ADORED me. I was wicked popular, little kids wanted to be me, and everyone else wanted to know me. I sounds cocky to say but it's how it was. And when I think of how people saw me, it makes sense that they liked me. I was crazy, and outgoing...
    Chelszyo Chelszyo 18-21, F Jun 8, 2012

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    I Want To Forgive Myself

    We humans, need to learn how to forgive. Not only other people, but mostly ourselves. That's where things get hard. I do believe, that it's easier and less painfull to forgive another human being than yourself. I slept with my best friend a while ago, when we were drunk. That...
    elizahopkins elizahopkins 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2009

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    So Do I.

    There was a period in my life up to when I was about 13-14 when I didn't have any power to help. What I think is the turning point of my life is when I was about 6-7 years old that I felt so helpless. I was watching my beautiful mother get puchched to the ground by my father and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 8, 2010

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    I Didnt Tell Him

    I m 23 years old and have living with the thought that I have a forever STD since I was 16.  I now know I don't, oddly enough. I recently was in a relationship with someone I cared for very much. We moved fast emotionally and fell head over heals. He thought I was perfect...
    bean23 bean23 22-25, F Dec 4, 2009

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    I Want To Forgive Myself

    i would cut myself almost every minute i hate it, and i want to forgive what this person made me do its personal though. i would also cry every time i get home. 
    bleedouttears bleedouttears 13-15, F Dec 2, 2010

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    There's nothing more crucial in this life

    than learning to forgive yourself. This act is not merely forgetting, nor is it condoning the mistakes you've made in your life; it's accepting that what has happened has happened, and learning to accept that you can't change them. See them for what they are; embrace the...
    JackP94 JackP94 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 30, 2014

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    Not Even Sure Why I Am Writing This

    There is something from my past that I have yet to forgive myself for...and frankly not sure I ever really will. Yeah yeah...I know...who do I think I am?  God forgave me do I think I have more right not to than Him...well no... Head and heart just dont always agree...
    Lexus Lexus 36-40, F 5 Responses Dec 7, 2007

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    Intrapersonal Anger Management?

    There are so many thoughts floating around my head -- things that I am constantly angry at myself for. I want to know what it's like to be emotionally stable and revel in peace of mind. Sometimes I feel like I'm fighting with myself everyday, blaming myself for terrible things...
    paperalias paperalias 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 6, 2008

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    Serenity

    Just something I wanted to share.  More for myself than anyone.  Still, maybe something that can help us all at certain times. According to Wikipedia, the prayer is most often attributed to theologian Reinhold Niebuhr.  However, there is some doubt as to the true...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 4 Responses Sep 6, 2009

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    Because I know I hurt you. Because I was wrong. The past beliefs I had weren't right. I need to learn more and that's alright. I need forgiveness As everyone needs it...
    Everyheartbeat Everyheartbeat 26-30 20 hrs ago

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    not to make too much of it...i have a long way to go. talking has finally started to put things together. pieces of the past that provided the vital "why"? why do i do what i do...
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    I feel that most people in my life are only there due to convenience. I don't feel any "bond" or connection with even my closest friends and family anymore. I know it's my fault...
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    Dear Tummy, I’m sorry for being empty, I had nothing to offer. I’m so scared when I hear you raged at God but so afraid when your labels became my labels too. I am so sorry...
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    I want to do a lot of things. I want to help people. I want to inspire them. Well atleast try to. There are a lot of things going on my mind right now. The one main concern is that...
    Avanya Avanya 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    We all tend to fall in love with the Wrong guy the one we call "Mr.Perfect." The one we're to blind to see doing anything Wrong but that's the same guy who cheats on us but we...
    Navae Navae 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Seeing your name on my phone again is enough to make my day. Knowing that you thought of me enough to reach out, even if it is just a funny picture makes me warm inside. You need...
    saraandherfoxes saraandherfoxes 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    Forgive people when you can someday you will need someone to forgive you
    justmyself11 justmyself11 51-55, M 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    If you can't forgive ..you're not hurting them you're only hurting yourself. ..
    lovelee83 lovelee83 26-30, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I keep trying to forget what I did. The night my dad died I left the room. He was on hospice and he was at home. I hired someone to care for him 24 hours a day but I gave him...
    omgomg123 omgomg123 46-50, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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