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I Want to Get Over My Childhood Trauma

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    Still Don't Feel Right.

      I was sexually taken advantage of by my two older step brothers since I was 3. I don't remember when it stopped because my mind's blocked out the actual memories... It's just recently that I've been having flashbacks of what leaded up tot the instances, since my...
    imustbecrazy imustbecrazy 18-21 2 Responses Feb 9, 2010

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    Childhood Trauma Changed My Life Forever

    I was an accident that happened because two teenagers living three houses apart were not careful. My mom was histrionic and my father rather weak or perhaps over accommodating. I was sexually abused by my mother which seems rarer than abuse by the father. My mother would take...
    sean1968 sean1968 51-55, M Feb 18, 2013

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    I Can't Bare This Anymore

    I am 16 now, and 22 weeks pregnant too add to the stress. I am impregnanted by my ex who forced himself on me, and he isn't even staying around to help. I have always had massive trust issues; but now I have those in addition to my fear of men. Men always hurt me...people always...
    AliiCupcake AliiCupcake 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 25, 2012

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    Didn't Know What I Did Wrong To Deserve This

    When i was six years old to ten years old, my brother(older) and i were mentally, physically, emotionally abused. I was slightly sexually abused, but my brother wasn't. I don't remember much but i remember some stuff. I was being abused my my ex step-mother, and my father knew...
    Wolfkitten67 Wolfkitten67 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 22, 2011

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    My Mother Licked Me

    Hi everybody. First off, I'm a male, age 25. I'm sorry if my language is a little off, english is not my first language. I want to share a story about my mother and her actions, which has caused me a lot of trouble when trying to succeed in a relationship . My mother used to...
    kasperaksel kasperaksel 22-25 7 Responses Nov 23, 2010

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    Shame - Your Verdict

    Trauma goes unnoticed... Gandhi... a serious subject. He was prepared to suffer; to suffer imprisonment, starvation, punishment, beatings and even death... in his service to God; in his obedience to God's laws, as he understood them, and believed them to be. What of me? What...
    Btrue21self Btrue21self 51-55, M Apr 21, 2013

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    I'm So Lost

    I know Something happened.  I can feel it deep within me.  I'm me but I'm not.  I say all these things, and I become overwhelmed with fear and rage.  I tell him to go away, and that I hate him.  But I dont know who he is, or what he looks like.  I just know that he...
    ScarletBegonias86 ScarletBegonias86 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 30, 2011

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    It hurts it hurts so bad ,

    go away... Hardly eaten.. No energy for the gym today.. I'm stuck ..
    Freeyourself3 Freeyourself3 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 6

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    A Child Born From Sin

    From the perspective of the average person, I look like a regular guy attending his first year of college.; I have a lot of friends, I have a family and I have my music (I'm a music performance major in college.) Behind the image of the regular guy is a history of abuse, neglect...
    Cerorizo Cerorizo 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 18, 2013

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    I Wish I Could Rid Myself Of This Guilt Inside Me

    I have not been a victim of abuse but I've been affected by it all the same. When I was ten years old my beloved brother, my only sibling, was kidnapped by an acquaintance where he suffered sexual abuse, beatings, and brutal physical torture. He was rescued after three weeks. He...
    lauren71 lauren71 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 11, 2013

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    The Game

    My mom's boyfriend used to wait for me to get out of the shower when I was 4 or 5 years old. He'd wait in the master bedroom for me to come out of the bathroom, then said we'd play the naked towel game. He'd have me jump up and down on the bed, naked. I wasn't allowed to get...
    rc12333 rc12333 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 31, 2010

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    A Child Born From Sin, Part II

    My previous post was a detailed explanantion on my childhood traumas as well as my life, but in this portion I will be furthering detailing my thoughts on being born from an affair. A month ago (right before Christmas) my father (who I had been estranged to for most of my life...
    Cerorizo Cerorizo 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 19, 2013

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    Through Glass

    The sixth entry to my memoir "A Child Born From Sin" I'm looking at you through the glass... Praying that one day you'll come inside... You'll stand infront of me.... And call me your son.... A father, what is a father? Is a father someone who is loving and kind? Is a father...
    Cerorizo Cerorizo 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 20, 2013

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    The Crap That Came With Wanting A Father

    my name is tyra. i am now 15 years old and i know that im probably one of the youngest people on this sharing their story but im not coping. when i was born my parents split up due to my health issues. my mum didnt want me and therfore left, she lived across the street from me...
    nailvarnishes nailvarnishes 16-17 2 Responses Dec 20, 2012

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    Biker

    I am a survivor of abuse, a social worker, and a proud member of Bikers Against Child Abuse (B.A.C.A), we are a non-profit organization in Sacramento County (and surrounding areas) that works to empower children and lend support to those that have been or are currently...
    bacachikk bacachikk 31-35 Jul 9, 2010

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    The Division Of Abuse

    I grew up in a lower middle class family of four children with an abusive, alcoholic father and a neglectful mother living in denial. My Father would constantly put me down, insult me, sexually degrade me and hit me, usually when he was drunk. When these things would happen my...
    katewc katewc 22-25 Nov 7, 2012

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    I Hope My Story May Help Others

    There is so much I could write here to explain what has happened over my lifetime, but I will try and sum it up as best as possible. First off, I am 22 years old and I made my big move out of my parent's home when I was 19. My father is a sociopath and my mother is a weakling who...
    Katscopia Katscopia 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 30, 2012

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    Is There Hope?

    Hello, I have had a fair share of lows in life. I was repeatedly molested by my sister as a child and before today I couldn't bring myself to tell this to anybody.The memories still haunt me.I developed a coping mechanism over the years where I began to shut out everybody from my...
    daneren daneren 22-25, F 2 Responses May 23, 2013

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    I Love You, Big Brother

    Ever since I was a young child I could never understand the concept of love or care, the only thing I ever understood was neglect, abuse and confinement. My childhood can best be described as brutal; from a young age I abused both physically and emtionally by my alcoholic mother...
    Cerorizo Cerorizo 18-21, M 4 Responses Feb 20, 2013

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    Never Got To Share My Story

    When I was younger our family lives in the perfect suburbs, the perfect house, etc. mainly it's what my mother expected. Yet every night I would fall asleep to my parents screaming and throwing things. When I was 10 my mother served my father with divorce papers on Xmas eve...
    Toughmama Toughmama 22-25 2 Responses May 16, 2012

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    I Am Just So Lucky

    Most of the stories I have read so far are about abuse in all forms or domestic violence. I just wanted to say that I am deeply sorry, so, so sorry for what you all had to go through, and I'm always here if you want to talk. I'm not just saying that, I'm being completely honest...
    peacelovestrength peacelovestrength 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2012

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    Beaten

    It was the shear humiliation. Not the pain. Knowing I was 14, as tall as an adult, and being beaten over and over until i was black and blue. They were threatened by my intellect, my questioning authority and the rules. I was told I would not be normal, my life would be filled...
    starzzy31 starzzy31 26-30, F Jul 19, 2012

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    My Life

    ok im new at this but i cant seem to get over things on my own.. to start with, both of my parents are alcholics, my mom is worse than my dad.. when i was little they fought all the time over everything, and more often than not it got phisical and i ended up with my granny. She...
    89linda 89linda 22-25 2 Responses Sep 16, 2012

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    Very Much So

    It's the reason for my severe amnesia. The problem is is that I'm sixteen and I'm still not ready to talk about it. I keep having the same flashback over and over and over again. Any ideas on how to deal with it?
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy 22-25, F Apr 20, 2012

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    Help Me For The Sake Of My Boyfriend And I's Relationship.

    Hello Everyone, I'm Tai. I am 18 and every much afraid of Rottweilers. My boyfriend recently bought a German Sheppard mixed with Rottweiler. I'm so afraid I don't want to go over his house anymore because the dog is there. It is a three month old girl named, Panzer. I told him I...
    forthesakeofus forthesakeofus 18-21, F 2 Responses May 1, 2012

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    Still Weeping

    I just came from a movie and once again the deep, painful tears from childhood trauma came pouring out in the theater and lobby. I learned long ago in group therapy to just let my feelings and tears flow when the pain comes up and, as much as I'd like to be over it, it's ok with...
    jimrich jimrich 70+, M Feb 16, 2011

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    Trama From Familiy

    WhatbI cant stand is all my life I know something was wrong .I always have issue with family.I always felt I did not belong and everything always no big deal .I feel trap and grow up in wrong environment.My dad always yelling and stress .But my mom cheated on dad with my ex bf...
    kellner27 kellner27 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 16, 2013

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    More Than Anyone Knows....

    I want to get over my childhood trauma. I want to get rid of the night mares, the flashbacks, the everything, but I know that two things have to happen for that to happen, I get the **** out of here, and I get into cousling of some kind....I just don't want to wake up in the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Nov 20, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    Tomorrow I start an intense 8 week program at a local hospital. The program is for adult women who survived childhood trauma and abuse. I was sexually abused when I was 6 - 9 years...
    Etheros Etheros 46-50, F 5 Responses Nov 23

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    This was not written by me but I think it's worth a share: What I witnessed via social media last night made my heart hurt. I’m not sure I could’ve handled even being in a city...
    TheTonesss TheTonesss 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 25

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    I have struggled with major depression, as a direct result of complex high betrayal trauma, ever since I was a little girl. From the time I was 7 years old until the time I was 9...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 23 Responses Nov 18

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    My traumatic childhood is complicated in a way and kind of just said my whole life story sorry for how long it is..... i mean like really long. Okayy i am going to start with my...
    chocolate1616 chocolate1616 18-21, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Prologue- It wasn't every day or even most days. As I grew older. As days turned to weeks to months and finally years. At the oddest moments. The light would be sapped from my...
    TenThousandSorrows TenThousandSorrows 22-25, F Nov 20

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    Prologue- It wasn't every day or even most days. As I grew older. As days turned to weeks to months and finally years. At the oddest moments. The light would be sapped from my...
    TenThousandSorrows TenThousandSorrows 22-25, F Nov 20

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    I joined Experience Project because - well for a whole swirling storm of reasons, but the common thread is - I have never really felt able to SHARE what's going on inside me. 1...
    elevating elevating 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    Today is the end of week 3 of 8 in the childhood abuse and trauma recovery program I'm in. The first week was difficult just learning the schedule, meeting all the facilitators...
    Etheros Etheros 46-50, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I've been seeing a therapist for a while now. The plan has been to work through my traumatic past, which has been something I've done my best to avoid. My therapist is patient...
    RedHotCrazyPerson RedHotCrazyPerson 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm not sure how much people will actually read this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention...
    AlissaCupcakes AlissaCupcakes 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    I wanted to describe myself but I don't know how, so instead I used a hetalian paste up thing. I'll do more. The Allies America (Alfred F. Jones) You love hamburgers (x) You...
    AlabasterFrog AlabasterFrog 13-15 Nov 23

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    Why is a 47 year old man on here? This site has as young as 13 yr olds on it after all. I'll tell you why. When I was young I was very unhappy all the time, sometimes suicidal...
    mslvr01 mslvr01 46-50, M 4 Responses Nov 28

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    Mommy's Promise: Two Children,Three Countries,& a 12 Year Oddesey- Childhood ended forever for Serkha the summer she turned 6. Unstable and somewhat neglectful at the best of...
    Serkha Serkha 22-25, F Dec 5

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    I'm 19 years old, and I have never felt so pressured to be someone else. My family doesn't know anything about the real me. They don't know that I smoke, don't know the music I...
    Weightlessfigures Weightlessfigures 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    I want love so bad. And I believe I've found it in my boyfriend. But alas, being a terrible, trauma filled person does not let you love or be loved easily, and every day is a...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 7

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    Because after tomorrow, I won't be able to be on EP, for god knows how long. My mom taking away my phone over the holidays to "make me appreciate the things I have." I have...
    SweetcakesJr SweetcakesJr 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    I feel nervous typing this as my beautiful baby sleeps beside me and my very handsome husband, who is a great father and a good person, snores nearby. I just feel so ungrateful, or...
    iamowl iamowl 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 24

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    I dream about it everyday. My simple wedding. Not inviting too many people. As long as it's me, him and my baby girl there. Oh and a few close friends. And his family, not so much...
    Singlemother78 Singlemother78 31-35, F 6 hrs ago

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    I think that most people with any kind of social interaction these days suffers from some form of body image problem, or at the very least a desire to appear attractive to others...
    EmperorJulian EmperorJulian 46-50, M 3 Responses Nov 19

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