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I Want to Get Over My Childhood Trauma

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 197 People

    I think people often underestimate what

    depression does to a person. I go from externalization/narcissism in dissociative states to internalization/depression. In other words; I go back and forth from deluding myself and avoiding it, to not deluding myself, which gives room for the slow unbearable process of...
    Outdoctrination Outdoctrination 18-21 1 Response Jul 31

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    The Game

    My mom's boyfriend used to wait for me to get out of the shower when I was 4 or 5 years old. He'd wait in the master bedroom for me to come out of the bathroom, then said we'd play the naked towel game. He'd have me jump up and down on the bed, naked. I wasn't allowed to get...
    rc12333 rc12333 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 31, 2010

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    Still Weeping

    I just came from a movie and once again the deep, painful tears from childhood trauma came pouring out in the theater and lobby. I learned long ago in group therapy to just let my feelings and tears flow when the pain comes up and, as much as I'd like to be over it, it's ok with...
    jimrich jimrich 66-70, M Feb 16, 2011

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    Childhood Trauma Changed My Life Forever

    I was an accident that happened because two teenagers living three houses apart were not careful. My mom was histrionic and my father rather weak or perhaps over accommodating. I was sexually abused by my mother which seems rarer than abuse by the father. My mother would take...
    sean1968 sean1968 51-55, M Feb 18, 2013

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    My Life

    ok im new at this but i cant seem to get over things on my own.. to start with, both of my parents are alcholics, my mom is worse than my dad.. when i was little they fought all the time over everything, and more often than not it got phisical and i ended up with my granny. She...
    89linda 89linda 22-25 2 Responses Sep 16, 2012

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    It hurts it hurts so bad ,

    go away... Hardly eaten.. No energy for the gym today.. I'm stuck ..
    Freeyourself3 Freeyourself3 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 6, 2014

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    Trama From Familiy

    WhatbI cant stand is all my life I know something was wrong .I always have issue with family.I always felt I did not belong and everything always no big deal .I feel trap and grow up in wrong environment.My dad always yelling and stress .But my mom cheated on dad with my ex bf...
    kellner27 kellner27 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 16, 2013

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    The Division Of Abuse

    I grew up in a lower middle class family of four children with an abusive, alcoholic father and a neglectful mother living in denial. My Father would constantly put me down, insult me, sexually degrade me and hit me, usually when he was drunk. When these things would happen my...
    katewc katewc 22-25 Nov 7, 2012

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    Biker

    I am a survivor of abuse, a social worker, and a proud member of Bikers Against Child Abuse (B.A.C.A), we are a non-profit organization in Sacramento County (and surrounding areas) that works to empower children and lend support to those that have been or are currently...
    bacachikk bacachikk 31-35 Jul 9, 2010

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    My Mother Licked Me

    Hi everybody. First off, I'm a male, age 25. I'm sorry if my language is a little off, english is not my first language. I want to share a story about my mother and her actions, which has caused me a lot of trouble when trying to succeed in a relationship . My mother used to...
    kasperaksel kasperaksel 22-25 7 Responses Nov 23, 2010

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    I'm So Lost

    I know Something happened.  I can feel it deep within me.  I'm me but I'm not.  I say all these things, and I become overwhelmed with fear and rage.  I tell him to go away, and that I hate him.  But I dont know who he is, or what he looks like.  I just know that he...
    ScarletBegonias86 ScarletBegonias86 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 30, 2011

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    Through Glass

    The sixth entry to my memoir "A Child Born From Sin" I'm looking at you through the glass... Praying that one day you'll come inside... You'll stand infront of me.... And call me your son.... A father, what is a father? Is a father someone who is loving and kind? Is a father...
    Cerorizo Cerorizo 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 20, 2013

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    Is There Hope?

    Hello, I have had a fair share of lows in life. I was repeatedly molested by my sister as a child and before today I couldn't bring myself to tell this to anybody.The memories still haunt me.I developed a coping mechanism over the years where I began to shut out everybody from my...
    daneren daneren 22-25, F 2 Responses May 23, 2013

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    Very Much So

    It's the reason for my severe amnesia. The problem is is that I'm sixteen and I'm still not ready to talk about it. I keep having the same flashback over and over and over again. Any ideas on how to deal with it?
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy 26-30, F Apr 20, 2012

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    Didn't Know What I Did Wrong To Deserve This

    When i was six years old to ten years old, my brother(older) and i were mentally, physically, emotionally abused. I was slightly sexually abused, but my brother wasn't. I don't remember much but i remember some stuff. I was being abused my my ex step-mother, and my father knew...
    Wolfkitten67 Wolfkitten67 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 22, 2011

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    I Love You, Big Brother

    Ever since I was a young child I could never understand the concept of love or care, the only thing I ever understood was neglect, abuse and confinement. My childhood can best be described as brutal; from a young age I abused both physically and emtionally by my alcoholic mother...
    Cerorizo Cerorizo 18-21, M 4 Responses Feb 20, 2013

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    I Am Just So Lucky

    Most of the stories I have read so far are about abuse in all forms or domestic violence. I just wanted to say that I am deeply sorry, so, so sorry for what you all had to go through, and I'm always here if you want to talk. I'm not just saying that, I'm being completely honest...
    peacelovestrength peacelovestrength 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2012

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    I Hope My Story May Help Others

    There is so much I could write here to explain what has happened over my lifetime, but I will try and sum it up as best as possible. First off, I am 22 years old and I made my big move out of my parent's home when I was 19. My father is a sociopath and my mother is a weakling who...
    Katscopia Katscopia 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 30, 2012

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    Still Don't Feel Right.

      I was sexually taken advantage of by my two older step brothers since I was 3. I don't remember when it stopped because my mind's blocked out the actual memories... It's just recently that I've been having flashbacks of what leaded up tot the instances, since my...
    imustbecrazy imustbecrazy 18-21 2 Responses Feb 9, 2010

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    The Crap That Came With Wanting A Father

    my name is tyra. i am now 15 years old and i know that im probably one of the youngest people on this sharing their story but im not coping. when i was born my parents split up due to my health issues. my mum didnt want me and therfore left, she lived across the street from me...
    nailvarnishes nailvarnishes 16-17 2 Responses Dec 20, 2012

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    Never Got To Share My Story

    When I was younger our family lives in the perfect suburbs, the perfect house, etc. mainly it's what my mother expected. Yet every night I would fall asleep to my parents screaming and throwing things. When I was 10 my mother served my father with divorce papers on Xmas eve...
    Toughmama Toughmama 22-25 2 Responses May 16, 2012

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    A Child Born From Sin, Part II

    My previous post was a detailed explanantion on my childhood traumas as well as my life, but in this portion I will be furthering detailing my thoughts on being born from an affair. A month ago (right before Christmas) my father (who I had been estranged to for most of my life...
    Cerorizo Cerorizo 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 19, 2013

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    Beaten

    It was the shear humiliation. Not the pain. Knowing I was 14, as tall as an adult, and being beaten over and over until i was black and blue. They were threatened by my intellect, my questioning authority and the rules. I was told I would not be normal, my life would be filled...
    starzzy31 starzzy31 26-30, F Jul 19, 2012

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    I Can't Bare This Anymore

    I am 16 now, and 22 weeks pregnant too add to the stress. I am impregnanted by my ex who forced himself on me, and he isn't even staying around to help. I have always had massive trust issues; but now I have those in addition to my fear of men. Men always hurt me...people always...
    AliiCupcake AliiCupcake 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 25, 2012

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    Shame - Your Verdict

    Trauma goes unnoticed... Gandhi... a serious subject. He was prepared to suffer; to suffer imprisonment, starvation, punishment, beatings and even death... in his service to God; in his obedience to God's laws, as he understood them, and believed them to be. What of me? What...
    Btrue21self Btrue21self 51-55, M Apr 21, 2013

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    A Child Born From Sin

    From the perspective of the average person, I look like a regular guy attending his first year of college.; I have a lot of friends, I have a family and I have my music (I'm a music performance major in college.) Behind the image of the regular guy is a history of abuse, neglect...
    Cerorizo Cerorizo 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 18, 2013

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    More Than Anyone Knows....

    I want to get over my childhood trauma. I want to get rid of the night mares, the flashbacks, the everything, but I know that two things have to happen for that to happen, I get the **** out of here, and I get into cousling of some kind....I just don't want to wake up in the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Nov 20, 2009

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    Help Me For The Sake Of My Boyfriend And I's Relationship.

    Hello Everyone, I'm Tai. I am 18 and every much afraid of Rottweilers. My boyfriend recently bought a German Sheppard mixed with Rottweiler. I'm so afraid I don't want to go over his house anymore because the dog is there. It is a three month old girl named, Panzer. I told him I...
    forthesakeofus forthesakeofus 18-21, F 2 Responses May 1, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    and i will i have officially decided to leave my childhood home, i am shooting for october 10th or anytime before christmas. still coming up with a plan but i will post more...
    musicvortex musicvortex 13-15, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    It is such an uncomfortable feeling seeing someone you once loved move on so fast? I guess in some ways this is good because I get an overwhelming feeling of strong dislike towards...
    SkylerAsh SkylerAsh 18-21, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I'm tired of looking for you. If you want me come find me. I will warn you I am far from perfect. You'll have your hands full being with me. I'll be clingy and needy. I'll even...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 6 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    It is quite difficult to build up team spirit specially among young people. You see, adolescence is an interval of research. A lot of youths are confused and troubled. Something...
    angoracheck53 angoracheck53 41-45, F 17 hrs ago

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    I started dressing in my mothers clothes when I was 10. To this day I'm not sure why I did it, but one afternoon in the summer I was home alone for a couple of hours, bored or...
    MichelleTiedup MichelleTiedup 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Everything seemed simple back then, I was happy I lived at my grandparents house with my mother. Honestly if it weren't for my grandparents, I never would be close to guessing what...
    Jaylaska Jaylaska 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    All adults want the only thing is to go back to childhood days ...whr v dnt know anything..evn no need to face any probs😝😋..miss u akka..
    jegan7639 jegan7639 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    I miss some of my childhood but most of it was very unhappy because I came from an abusive home. But I do miss mostly being ten-14 because that was when I got a little bit more...
    BunheadSalamander BunheadSalamander 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    So here i am, on the internet... trying to let it out, trying to tell my story.. It took me so long to realize and admit that its not me who's bad and emotionless in my family. My...
    Sadlostlittlegirl Sadlostlittlegirl 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    March 25th 2015 I was quite happy as I'd had a few days off work, for the first time since Christmas 2014, and it had been incredibly demanding, so I was ready for a break. I'd...
    NottsProfGent NottsProfGent 46-50, M 6 days ago

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    When I was younger I was physically and mentally abused by my mother. In my early childhood my dad was an alcoholic who would drink come home and beat my mom. We would have to...
    Lost2334 Lost2334 26-30, M a week ago

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    Someone can ask me why I resent you so much but it's emotions that I've battled with for years. I know you didn't want me even when I was in my mothers womb... Then you brought us...
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    My two older brothers were downright nasty to me sometimes when I was growing up. They used to trick me into climbing into the large plastic toy bin and then they'd shut the lid...
    ImOnFireAah ImOnFireAah 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 22

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    Born into an abusive family. My father was physically and verbally abusive and it never let up until one day he was arrested. My mother, of course, stayed with him because she didn...
    Liftofferik Liftofferik 26-30, M Aug 22

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    I'm fourteen years old and a freshman in high school. I'm about 200 pounds. I haven't been able to forgive my mom for initially causing my weight. However, the truth is, obesity...
    EndTheFatKid EndTheFatKid 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    From the moment I was born premature, 'til about the age of 8 I was in and out of hospitals A LOT! Because of this I suffered a lot of mental medical trauma. One of the side...
    k4rri3w0lf12 k4rri3w0lf12 26-30, T Aug 22