I Want to Have Fun and Feel Alive Again

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    I wish that I could fly Into the sky So very

    high Just like a dragonfly I want to get away I want to fly away
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 5, 2015

    A Child

    The last time i honestly felt ALIVE was like 2nd or 3rd grade. Before children became really judgmental-before i became self concous. Before my mom got harsh...it was like my eyes weren't fully open yet-i didnt know what the world was about then. I was actually innocent.
    lostprophet lostprophet
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 11, 2009

    I want to have fun, dance crazy

    and laugh and enjoy being alive
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 26, 2015

    Yes

    I would very much like to stop being so frakking depressed all the time and just forget everything and have fun. Like this guy;http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mxX7SRuU0hoLike being focused on something that doesn't make me want to claw my face off.
    Toukos Toukos
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 16, 2013

    I'M Excited To Find Myself.

    After finally deciding to end my marriage of 24 years, I so excited to find myself. Over the years of taking care of him and raising kids I lost myself. I think I put myself and my wants on the back burner for way to long. I'm ready to live and have fun!
    summerfire summerfire
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Jun 18, 2013

    I'm getting in my car next week

    and traveling across the country. It's the only thing I can think to do in order to escape from the state of mind I am in.. I have felt very depressed--something that started in my mid-teens--and now that I am in my mid-twenties I have reached a point where I do not feel joy or...
    hob0xcor3 hob0xcor3
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 1, 2014

    I want a fcuk buddy! I want someone to spend my

    evenings with. Someone I don't have to fit into my life.
    youaretheonlyexception youaretheonlyexception
    26-30, F
    4 Responses May 26, 2015

    Please lord god Jesus in the heavens!

    I'm the most alive person with the best attitude but I have this darkness I can't control or manage.. I hate the word control.... I also feel like I'm my most authentic self when I'm off of my meds but again need to find that balance. And somehow heal from past without having to...
    Flowerpower5678 Flowerpower5678
    22-25, F
    Dec 22, 2015

    I"M Not Dead Yet

    Hello, I'm 48 years old and my husband is 52. We have 2 kids, 21 and 22. Our son is out of the house so I do feel a little bit of the empty nest syndrome. But it is also a new chapter in our lives. I do find myself questioning how to put more meaning into my life...
    Goddess65 Goddess65
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Oct 27, 2013

    I Need To Take A Breath.

    It's not that I dont have a social life or interests. Everything in my life just seems and feels dead, as if time has stopped.
    LiljaBean LiljaBean
    18-21, F
    Sep 18, 2012

    Been in a unfulfilling marriage

    for seventeen years. I now am planning for "D"-day (divorce day) when my youngest goes off to University. I have a year and a half left. I have spent all my years of marriage raising children and helping my husband further his business. I am married to a procrastinator who is...
    Buffy68 Buffy68
    46-50, F
    1 Response Dec 6, 2014

    Looking back when I was in my early twenties I

    laughed more often (even without alcohol), I always made a dull moment fun for me and friends. How did I lost that? How do I reclaim it back?
    marie419 marie419
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Mar 1, 2014

    I Owe It All To You!

    Climber1, This is a public "Thank you" for bringing life, love and laughter to me. I am so alive these days. sigh.......... *smile* I love how you love me!!!! (hug) X .... one more...sigh.... I love you with all my being!
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze
    56-60, F
    2 Responses Aug 22, 2013

    I Think I Will Always Want This

    On those days when life is just too much, when the spark is gone and when there is no way out, I will always dig down deep for this feeling.  To want this means that there is still hope.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    12 Responses Apr 9, 2008

    Massive life gamble alert!

    So in Feb I plan to go to Aus on a working holiday visa and quite frankly I'm bricking it! I'm leaving a reasonably good job that is taking me places which is why I'm scared....but hey life's for living right!! Hope to meet loads of nice people, learn lots and have some cheeky...
    jakeyp24 jakeyp24
    26-30, M
    1 Response Oct 30, 2015

    I want to meet new friends

    and have fun and feel alive again. I've been in a loveless passionless marriage for too long now. Lead separate lives and I've been stagnant for too long. I need to feel alive
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 26, 2015

    Yeah. I think it's about time I end my negative

    mentality. It's time I try to live again. I'm gonna try and if I have to make small little steps to it, I will. I just have to be patient. Saying that reminded me of of chief. Farewell :)
    itcheru itcheru
    22-25, F
    Nov 7, 2015

    57% Joyless

    Being stuck in a trap of self-consciousness has cost me a lot in my life- stopped me from doing things I wanted to do, getting close to those I wanted to be closer to , and prevented me from being daring enough to drive my life where I really wanted it to go. Because I`ve never...
    Cinderelly Cinderelly
    36-40, F
    25 Responses Aug 22, 2008

    I Miss Living. I Miss Me

    It will be 14 yrs this summer that I have been with my husband and in that time I have slowly lost me. I do nothing that I love. I don't know if I have ever really lived and that scares me to death. There is so much I want to do and not even things that are extravagant. Simple...
    Ulalume383 Ulalume383
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jun 5, 2013

    what a very simple idea.

    .. feeling alive while living. it seems like it would be very difficult to avoid. instead though, its very difficult to manage. I blame it on money. can't go explore the world on my income. when I try to save... the car brake down or some other such nonsense. boo!!! can't keep...
    atiekay atiekay
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 11, 2015

    want to return to the days i was ammused by the

    littlest of things. Days where i was happy for just wakening up and glad to be alive. now i wake up wanting to sleep more and not get out of bed. i just want to be me again.
    justDlight justDlight
    18-21, M
    Jul 6, 2015

    all I need is someone to go out with & discover

    what's in this mysterious world, like how I used to do when I was a child, but now I'm nothing but a silly guy who turns on the history channel
    boom991 boom991
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 8, 2015

    Again???

    I don't want to have fun and feel alive again...I never have really had fun and felt alive.  To me it's more like I want to have fun and feel alive for once.
    RopinTexan RopinTexan
    22-25, M
    5 Responses Aug 22, 2008

    lol. So far when have i ever been this way ?

    ! huh !?!?!?!?! no . I am depressed to deeply. I feel so so unimaginably bad. Leave me alone let me cry ok. I am sick about all that is happening . SHUT UP AND GO
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow
    16-17, F
    Apr 7, 2015

    I Want To Have Fun For Once At Least .

    OK i am really bored I've been bored for a few years now i really need fun i am like going to escape from my family and just want to travel alone to a fun place but if i had enough money i need a vacation from all the routine that i am living will my friend used to call me rock...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jan 13, 2012

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    yardie11226 yardie11226
    31-35
    Feb 10, 2015

    It feels so good to live in a world full of

    color. I used to be really depressed but I feel alive finally. I thank god everyday I'm out of my hole. Life is beautiful. Nature is beautiful. Love is in the air
    Flowerpower5678 Flowerpower5678
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 8, 2015

    I love that picture. We use to cliff jump with

    my cousin when we were kids. Of course secretly, the adults would kill us, if they found out! lol
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 8, 2015

    This is my life goal is to return to the

    internal state before dying inside. To return to the days when I dreamed and the sun shined bright where it was a joy to awaken not a burden. I look back and remember how hopeful I once was. I will obviously never had those same dreams because they are dead but to feel alive...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 5, 2015

    Last night should have been fun,

    but was overshadowed by the fact I had to work in the morning. Also a canceled date has been weighing on my mind. I just want to find a girl to have fun with and shares my interests.
    nocturnalhound nocturnalhound
    31-35, M
    1 Response Oct 3, 2015

    Wow what a zing. My first shift in a fast food

    restaurant (world leader, no names). I'm a crew member, being trained on grills by a super positive, supportive trainer. And it's all done by countdown timer and sensible policies. I really like the controlled environment, and it's easy to leave work at work. The manager said...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife
    26-30, M
    Feb 9, 2015

    I Want To Be Me Again.

    I have been married to my husband for 14 years,  we both had children when we married that are now grown.  My Daughter is away at college now, and I am learning that me and my husband have nothing in common anymore.  We live our lives day to day, hardly...
    MKsweetness MKsweetness
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Feb 13, 2010

    Come Out And Play

    I want to swing on swing,slide down a slide,yell just because I can.I want to spin around in a circle as fast as I can and fall down dizzy.I want to laugh till my stomach hurts and smile so much my cheeks hurt.I want remember what it's like to feel full of life and happy to wake...
    BrokenFairytale BrokenFairytale
    26-30, F
    Sep 18, 2012
    Ang012685 Ang012685
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 7, 2015

    I want to go skydiving.

    Bungee jump from a high up place. Go ride in a hot air balloon. Take a helicopter ride to see the overview of a major city. Ride a mule to the bottom of the Grand Canyon. Travel overseas to Egypt,Greece,Paris, and China. I want to feel like I'm more than just a small town boy...
    tormentedinternally tormentedinternally
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jan 25, 2015

    Before Mr. Right comes,

    I want to have mindblowing sex with someone. No strings attached. Explore and do every of my fantasy. That person is still lucky to have me for a very short time.
    Sen22 Sen22
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 14

    I Want to Have Fun and Feel Alive Again

    I have been married for 31 years, my husband yells all the time and he is always angry and mean. I am so sick of it, so tired of being depressed because of him. I so want to feel ALIVE and have some FUN before I am too old to do anything!
    TeaBear TeaBear
    46-50
    3 Responses Aug 26, 2008

    I embrace change and creativity.

    I want to dive in to all that is good and right. I don't want to live without knowing. I want to know all the answers... This is my hearts intentions.
    Femmeheartsoul Femmeheartsoul
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 7, 2014

    Want to Have Fun Before I Am Too Old to Enjoy It!

    I have been married longer than I was ever single!  I met my husband when I was 15, got married at 19 and became a mother at 26.  Now I am 46, havent been to a club in so long it is not even funny.  The last time I went dancing was with my husband...
    peanutbrittle peanutbrittle
    46-50, F
    7 Responses Apr 8, 2008

    How To Feel Alive Again???

    I have 24 years and all the time I live with my parents and I want to live alone. But I don't have permanent job and it's hard to find one. And I have problems with my health. My friend don't know me and they have in mind only drinks and to go out but I don't want any more go out...
    lonely1988 lonely1988
    22-25
    1 Response Apr 19, 2012

    I Need A Social Life

    It has been a long time since I've had a social life. My soon to be ex was always happy just being home and doesn't have friends. I have several friends but I've been so busy with work, marriage problems, and depression and anxiety that I feel like I've forgotten how to have a...
    firespryte firespryte
    41-45, F
    1 Response Aug 31, 2012

    any gus live in south Carolina in the Anderson

    area around Anderson? If so hmu. im 17/f looking for some fun
    Simonsaysbendover Simonsaysbendover
    18-21, F
    Jun 24, 2014

    At least I wanted to.

    I thought I could, but I can't
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 3, 2015

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