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I Want to Isolate Myself Again

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    Banned from society. Confined to myself. Away from people I could hurt. Away from those who hurt me. Exiled from life. I fear that i bring nothing but pain into the lives of others. I try not to...but thats all i have. I eventually hurt everyone. why should i be allowed to do...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 8 Responses Jul 20, 2008

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    Warning: this post is depressing. I just had to say this... I never have the chance to get anything off my chest... Sometimes my life just sucks. I don't know why I'm feeling...
    Sweetgirl120 Sweetgirl120 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 26

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    After maybe 3 months I cut again..
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    It's getting harder everyday to not cut. but it hurts to know that truthfully he lied to me and was pretty much better off when I was near death... The only thing keeping me alive...
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    I haven't dated anyone in years. And recently, it's slowly becoming unbearable to me. It's not like no one asks me out. It's just that I'm so scared of being vulnerable that i...
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    My wife has now been going to therapy for a agile and has apologized for the abuse. Things have been getting better and I think I'm falling in love with her again.
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    When I used to cut about a year ago I would only do it when I felt lonely. Now, I've been getting more lonely and get this sudden urge and it terrifies me.
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    For as long as I can remember I've never been comfortable in my own skin. Most of the little confidence I did have was shattered a few years ago, when the girls at my school...
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    Ever since I lost my job and became disabled with back problems, I have isolated myself. I don't really have any close friends in town. my bestie lives 17 hrs away. Sure we talk...
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    Im beginning to isolate myself, to those people who i removed from my circle im sorry :(
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    Finding myself. Again! Damn it... I've found myself *so many times* only to lose track again! On the other hand, the feeling reminds me of the little boy standing in a...
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    I want my blade again **** it im over fucken crying everyday all day over nothing!
    ToriJustTori ToriJustTori 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 25

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    Really need to starve myself again went on a binge for a week anyone up for giving me motivation to make sure I don't eat! Starving buddies even ?
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    But I just can't do it! I just think people are not interested in me at all! No one! Nothing! Maybe they don't need a broken and alone friend. I'm so broken and I don't know how to...
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    Yo! I've done this before but want to ask again.
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    meryemJo meryemJo 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 12

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