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I Want to Isolate Myself Again

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    Banned from society. Confined to myself. Away from people I could hurt. Away from those who hurt me. Exiled from life. I fear that i bring nothing but pain into the lives of others. I try not to...but thats all i have. I eventually hurt everyone. why should i be allowed to do...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 8 Responses Jul 20, 2008

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