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I Want to Isolate Myself Again

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    Banned from society. Confined to myself. Away from people I could hurt. Away from those who hurt me. Exiled from life. I fear that i bring nothing but pain into the lives of others. I try not to...but thats all i have. I eventually hurt everyone. why should i be allowed to do...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 8 Responses Jul 20, 2008

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    And I did!! I went along to a class last night. The first dance class I have been to in years. I was very nervous!! The class was small to start off with, which helped so much...
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    I've been 9 weeks clean but I don't know how much longer I can do this. I pretend to be happy way to much. Only time I am happy is when I'm with my boyfriend and can forget the...
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    Yay.... I've haven't self harmed for a good 3 days now. Its been really really hard with all the crap I've been dealing with lately. But when I eventually succumb to my knife, it...
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    For as long as I can remember I've never been comfortable in my own skin. Most of the little confidence I did have was shattered a few years ago, when the girls at my school...
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    It's so sad people are so isolated from society the only way they can Connect is through a cam.... sad group
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