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I Want to Kill My Self Because of This

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    I am so alone, I had a great girl in my life

    that decided to leave. I don't have a car or a full time job now, I feel useless. I'm struggling to get out of bed. I have terrible insomnia. I just want this torment to end. I don't know or care if I'll be missed, I just want to die.
    Derfthequantumpotato Derfthequantumpotato 18-21, M 1 Response May 3

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    My Mother.

    My mother; No, she's not abusive or a bad person. She's tried reaching out to me, but she just doesn't know how; She's the closest anyone has ever come to trying though. Sure, she's just like anyone else, she can say hurtful things every now and then. But then I look and see how...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23, 2013

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    You know what's funny? How you told me you'd be my santuary until I'm back on my feet. The funnier thing? I wasn't ever back up on my feet when you stopped being my santuary. You promised that you'd make me take at least the majority of my stress away. All you had to do was keep...
    catchmeimfalling catchmeimfalling 16-17 Mar 4, 2013

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    I want to end it all.

    I've had enough nothing's gone right for my so far this year and my life's only gunna get harder if it's much like this 😢😢
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 3

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    i havnt been on here

    for quite some time. but recently i have seen myself slipping worse than i used to be fofore. im starting to think of death more and i keep thinking over and over again about shooting myself in the head. i have nobody to turn to and i just dont know what to do with myself. i...
    Searching4MyJuliet Searching4MyJuliet 22-25, M Jul 21

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    I'm ready to just forget

    and go...go on forever and never come back...
    nomnommings nomnommings 16-17, F Feb 28

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    I hum under my voice

    and you think I made a sigh so you literally scream at me!?!? F U!!!! I start to lose the will to give a flying F if you got problems. Just cause your bipolar and emotionally handicap dosnt mean I should suffer every day! God f ing dammit...... but dont worry, ill sit here like...
    DeathAngelS300 DeathAngelS300 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 19

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    When I was 12 my mothers boyfriend raped me

    and took my virginity. My mom told me I was a liar and that I "wanted her man" when I was thirteen she threw me out of the house telling me and I quote "I will choose him over you any day!" So I left. I spend the first couple of days hungry tired and just stressed sleeping on...
    Kenjitsu Kenjitsu 22-25, F 4 Responses May 21

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    I'm at that crossroad

    where I won't necessarily commit suicide but if I happen to be crossing the road and a car happened to be driving towards me, I wouldn't move away.
    Sib232228 Sib232228 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 9

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    My life was a heaven then I personally turned

    it into hell. Long story, but the point is that is ALL my fault, I did many simple mistakes I could have easily avoid. I was warned many times in many different ways, but I screwed it all. Many people would miss me and suffer because of me, but I am not the same person they used...
    MySelfIsAfterMe MySelfIsAfterMe 26-30, M May 15

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    I was molested and sodomized

    before I even entered school. It happened a lot. And it shaped the person I am. The person I hate. And I really don't think I'll make it.
    anthonymunizz anthonymunizz 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 14

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    I've Felt This Way For As Long As I Can Remember

    My name is Matt and I'm a 21 year old college student.  I have been unhappy my whole life.  I've tried just about every medication out there for depression, only to find that it's not what's in my head that makes me sad, but what is all around me.  I've always been...
    toolfan714 toolfan714 18-21, M 13 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    Tired!

    i don't know how i should describe this OR what i should say, but i really feel that i'm not able to make meaning out of my own words. there's not just a single reason or a person to blame and on top of that i just hate the "what if " condition! i'm tired of people around me, i'm...
    ar93 ar93 22-25, M 5 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    I don't want to live

    because I'm gay and married to the most wonderful person in the world.
    okieboy444 okieboy444 56-60, M Jun 17

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    I don't know any of you.

    But here me out. I want to help you. Suicide isn't the answer and I'm sure you hear that a lot but you are all strong people to have made it this far, you can't deny that. You can make it farther. I will help you I want to help you, but life doesn't end here. You have an entire...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F Mar 29, 2014

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    I'm Not Even Scared Anymore.

    I'm not scared of the thought of death anymore. I simply just want to end my life and call it quits. I've always had an issue with depression and staying positive but this really just pushes me to the edge. I've always been bad when it comes to academics, the last time I had...
    Sennasenpaiz Sennasenpaiz 18-21, F 8 Responses May 9, 2012

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    Hey everyone, I'm 13

    and I live in the U.S. And I want a suicide partner, I just can't live like this anymore, please message me if you wanna join me. I want to either shoot myself, jump off a cliff/high building, poison myself with carbon monoxide, or hang myself.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 4

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    I really want to kill myself.

    My life is going on horribly. My mother has psychotic depression, she has been on an affair for 9 years & has just recently stopped after being diagnosed with psychotic depression, & we aren't the wealthiest family out there. My dad use to be a gambler. I'm labeled as stupid in...
    mangoseed mangoseed 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    I Want It To Be Over Already

    In order to keep functioning on a daily basis, I've had to make a deal with myself that I would never live to see thirty. I am turning 26. I'm not holding it together, it's like slapping tar paper over a leak when the roof is about to implode at any second. My friends keep...
    BlueSelkie BlueSelkie 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 13, 2013

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    I hate life I hate society I hate myself

    and I want to die. I don't have a bad life I have loving parents a nice home nothing to complain about there. But I don't fit in with society at all I'm a loser no one likes me I'm going to be single forever and I'm just don't agree with Society. I don't agree with society I don...
    superabe11 superabe11 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 29, 2014

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    I Miss The Old You

    i miss the days when you only talked to me the moments when i felt like there were only you and me the way you made efforts to get on and talk to me the way you calmed me down when i was mad at you the way you made me smile so happily the way we could talk things that actually...
    HakujitsuSeiten HakujitsuSeiten 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    Before You Kill Yourself Or Think About It, Read This

    Are you thinking about suicide? Thinking about how, if you killed yourself, nobody would care? Think again. If you kill yourself you will change somebodies world. That's right. They will see everything differently. Just hearing your name will burn their mind with memores. They...
    prettybrowneyes1993 prettybrowneyes1993 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 11, 2013

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    This is something that I made on a note card

    about the issue or urges of suicide and self-harm. In this moment where are my thoughts and feelings on the issue of my self-harm (cutting & suicide). As powerful as they may be thoughts are nothing but thoughts, as a feeling is nothing more then a feeling they are not a think...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 15, 2013

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    hello its not really want its need

    and its because i lost the ability to feel i lost all my brain receptors i cannot be happy i cannot have fun i cannot feel love and i just lost the ability to cry im sorry but this is not a life and i lost it to defamation of false character i was force on a drug so i need to...
    jone91 jone91 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 4

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    Are you serious just kill me

    now I'm done with people I can't do this anymore
    Alonzoisgay Alonzoisgay 13-15, M Aug 8

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    I Can'T

    I can't deal. I'm such a failure.
    inkedmommy inkedmommy 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 26, 2013

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    Life is challenging me lately,

    every day in summer vacation is a busy day,with no time toeven relax,I'm starting to lose it,and the worst thing is that my mom kept on nagging me all the fking time and I'm sick of it,if she hates me THAT much,I'd rather kill myself
    avengerthesoulmyhate avengerthesoulmyhate 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    Take Me Now Take Me Fast For There's Noting For Me Just Time To Past

    i don't want to live anymore there's noting for me to live for nobody understand's me nobody like's me i am broken i have spoken i am worth less i am more than dirt less i'm worth less i cant fight anymore i wont try any more unloved and i am only i am only judged...
    magicianguy magicianguy 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this.

    You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over. You take out those razor blades, and cut for...
    Theguy0298 Theguy0298 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 19

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    I hate my life. I am born into a semi wealthy

    family, however, money has nothing to to with this (maybe a little). I grew up thinking life is wonderful, and that I will experience many things as I grow up, with loving parents who would do everything to set me on the right track in life, or until I can make solid choices. I...
    itshouldhavebeenezbb itshouldhavebeenezbb 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 28

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    If you are suicidal, please get help

    if you can't find help within yourself. But, please, do not seek help from your teenage friends, especially if they struggle with their own issues. Please please please. Not only are you being subjected to the hurtful things your brain says to you, you subject others to it. You...
    junipersun21 junipersun21 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    Too Much Pain

    There's many reasons I can think of, but thee one I'm hurting from most is pain in my heart. Within two years I've lost my husband's family that I cherished dearly for the reason, I was raised without brothers/sister/aunts/uncles/grandma.. etc. After I felt abanded from them...
    Calif39 Calif39 36-40, F 5 Responses May 6, 2012

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    Im Lost...

    Ever since I was... five, i think, suicide has been appealing, and I have attempted it several times. The number of times Ive tried... I cant keep count. Recently, however, I met someone who... has done the same things as I have done, and seems to understand me. She and I... have...
    hahahalo13 hahahalo13 13-15 4 Responses Jan 13, 2013

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    The time is nearing for me to do this.

    After passing my seventeenth birthday the adult life and demands are seeping in, and life is becoming even more cruel. I always fight to get what I want in life, but I've been fighting so hard for some things and I literally can do nothing more, unless I had a large amount of...
    maurylight maurylight 18-21, F Jan 27

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    I have no definite personality.

    I think I have borderline personality disorder, with one personality being cynical, cunning, narcissistic, extremely intelligent, lazy, and sadistic, another side being silly and begging for any respect or admiration, and my other side being kind, self-critical, depressed, tired...
    thedifferent thedifferent 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 10, 2014

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    I have wanted to kill my self

    so many times before, just to end it all and be free. One day I was planing my ending and listening to sad music on YouTube (cliche I know) when I saw this one video called watch if you know anyone that's suicidal, even you. http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=cETHTPeGvEc That's...
    lost1234567 lost1234567 16-17, F Mar 10, 2014

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    I want to kill myself,

    and rise again from the dead. Kill the girl, and let the woman be born !
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 11

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    I battled so much depression,

    and the voices in my head told me to
    Mylifename Mylifename 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 11

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    I really don't see a reason not to.

    I feel as if I have no future and living would just cause me to be more miserable. I find it hard to believe that people love and care about me, so why not? I've found that I'm not even scared of dying, that the only thing that's really keeping me alive is that I'm scared of...
    xSweetPea xSweetPea 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2013

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    There's not a day that goes by

    that I dont think of suicide. There's not a moment in my miserable life that I feel like is worth living. And I try to reach out. I'm on my knees begging for help and nobody comes. Nobody believes there's anything wrong. Everyone thinks I'm overreacting. That I'm faking it. And...
    NowhereKid NowhereKid 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 26, 2014

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    my best friend is in the hospital he's been

    there for 3 days now and he's unresponsive and there not sure if he's going to make it I don't think I would make it without him and it's my fault he called me 9 times that night and I wasn't there for him
    Kidsinthedark Kidsinthedark 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    IloveAj2345 IloveAj2345 13-15, F 11 Responses Nov 3, 2014

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    I was raped when I was 17.

    I was at a 4th of July party with a lot of my friends. Not one friend tried to help me or take care of me when it was obvious I drank way too much, when I couldn't sit up let alone stand or walk. Not one friend helped me after I was blacked out, I don't think they even noticed...
    MyMindCravesNectar MyMindCravesNectar 22-25, F 14 Responses Dec 27, 2013

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    shortfry3 shortfry3 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 12

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    Because of me not feeling wanted.

    I want someone to want me. I want to feel loved. Why can't I have happiness like everyone else? I'm so unlucky it should be considered a talent or some type of magical power. I just want someone who's there for me. I'm not asking for much all I ask for is to feel wanted.
    IILoveHarryII IILoveHarryII 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    I'm Me...

    I was beaten. I was emotionally abused. I was molested at the age of eight... I'm worthless, there is no possible way I could ever be something. The pain is just to much to deal with. No one even gives a damn. People even say I should. They're right... Why should I keeping going...
    MairuOrihara MairuOrihara 13-15, F 3 Responses