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I Want to Kill My Self Because of This

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    I'm done!!!!! I'm tired of everyone leaving me,

    this depression is not ending any time soon, I'm a waste of space and not wanted. I even asked for help today and I didn't get it, this shows no one actually cares. Maybe tonight's the night.......
    Ki123 Ki123 18-21, F 35 Responses Dec 15, 2013

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    Im Lost...

    Ever since I was... five, i think, suicide has been appealing, and I have attempted it several times. The number of times Ive tried... I cant keep count. Recently, however, I met someone who... has done the same things as I have done, and seems to understand me. She and I... have...
    hahahalo13 hahahalo13 13-15 4 Responses Jan 13, 2013

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    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 28

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    I hate everything, I hate living,

    I hate everyone! No one understands!
    cam2476 cam2476 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 27

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    There's not a day that goes by

    that I dont think of suicide. There's not a moment in my miserable life that I feel like is worth living. And I try to reach out. I'm on my knees begging for help and nobody comes. Nobody believes there's anything wrong. Everyone thinks I'm overreacting. That I'm faking it. And...
    NowhereKid NowhereKid 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    I'm Me...

    I was beaten. I was emotionally abused. I was molested at the age of eight... I'm worthless, there is no possible way I could ever be something. The pain is just to much to deal with. No one even gives a damn. People even say I should. They're right... Why should I keeping going...
    MairuOrihara MairuOrihara 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 21, 2013

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    I was raped when I was 17.

    I was at a 4th of July party with a lot of my friends. Not one friend tried to help me or take care of me when it was obvious I drank way too much, when I couldn't sit up let alone stand or walk. Not one friend helped me after I was blacked out, I don't think they even noticed...
    MyMindCravesNectar MyMindCravesNectar 18-21, F 15 Responses Dec 27, 2013

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    I Want It To Be Over Already

    In order to keep functioning on a daily basis, I've had to make a deal with myself that I would never live to see thirty. I am turning 26. I'm not holding it together, it's like slapping tar paper over a leak when the roof is about to implode at any second. My friends keep...
    BlueSelkie BlueSelkie 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 13, 2013

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    I'm Sick Of This

    I don't know how to continue, I'm really struggling. I've been in and out of hospital the past year, but after four years of this destructive habit, I know I'm never going to be able to break it. I just want to be like everyone else, I want to be happy, go to school, whine about...
    jessmorison jessmorison 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2013

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    I've attempted suicide three times

    because of uncertainty and the undeniable feeling of dragging the people you care about down. I know it hurts and I know that if you may hate everything about yourself but the thing is, there's a good chance that you are the only one that thinks that you're nothing but bad...
    lydiathethingy lydiathethingy 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 21

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    sunkern sunkern 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 22

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    I am really on the verge of stabbing myself to

    death, my famous quote for today is do not trust anyone no matter how much you think you should, don't. I'm not sharing my story but I just need to just get it off my chest that I just cut really deep and I am thinking of just killing myself
    usarmyrangers usarmyrangers 13-15, M 3 Responses Apr 1

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    I've Felt This Way For As Long As I Can Remember

    My name is Matt and I'm a 21 year old college student.  I have been unhappy my whole life.  I've tried just about every medication out there for depression, only to find that it's not what's in my head that makes me sad, but what is all around me.  I've always been...
    toolfan714 toolfan714 18-21, M 13 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    I'm tired of every one

    and thing v.v why do I bother trying to keep myself happy when I'm not just shoot me
    Alonzoisgay Alonzoisgay 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 20

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    I WISH I COULD BE A BETTER PERSON FOR MY FAMILY

    , I HATE MYSELF IM SO ******* USELESS CANT EVEN GET A JOB
    sorrybouttheugly sorrybouttheugly 18-21 3 Responses Nov 29

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    I want to kill myself

    because I'm a horrible person and no one cares about me I'm still trying its just slitting my wrist didn't work neither did popping pills anybody have any other ideas i could try ?
    rosetta52213 rosetta52213 16-17, F 5 Responses Oct 6

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    I'm running out of reasons to get out of bed.

    I'm hurting so much and I need someone. My life is spiralling down and this is the only place I can express what I'm feeling. I think I'm dying and I don't know how to save myself. Because the person who is trying to kill me is hiding inside my brain. Someone.. Help me..
    Gordonzobeanz Gordonzobeanz 18-21, M 5 Responses Oct 7

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    I'm Not Even Scared Anymore.

    I'm not scared of the thought of death anymore. I simply just want to end my life and call it quits. I've always had an issue with depression and staying positive but this really just pushes me to the edge. I've always been bad when it comes to academics, the last time I had...
    Sennasenpaiz Sennasenpaiz 18-21, F 8 Responses May 9, 2012

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    Too Much Pain

    There's many reasons I can think of, but thee one I'm hurting from most is pain in my heart. Within two years I've lost my husband's family that I cherished dearly for the reason, I was raised without brothers/sister/aunts/uncles/grandma.. etc. After I felt abanded from them...
    Calif39 Calif39 36-40, F 5 Responses May 6, 2012

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    I really don't see a reason not to.

    I feel as if I have no future and living would just cause me to be more miserable. I find it hard to believe that people love and care about me, so why not? I've found that I'm not even scared of dying, that the only thing that's really keeping me alive is that I'm scared of...
    xSweetPea xSweetPea 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2013

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    There isn't anything here worth living for.

    Your brothers and sisters are ****** up people just as lost as you looking for whatever they need to find meaning in life. Generally through reinforced belief systems of other people- which can be chosen. Yes, everyone is looking for something and some people need to believe...
    sunkern sunkern 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 31

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    I'm done trying. like I'm done that's it.

    I'm going to kill myself. no one cares that I have feelings or that I have a different sexuality. I don't care anymore. I just know that I'm going to kill myself. when I don't know but its going to be soon so no one has to worry about me being a burden or anything anymore. I'm...
    belongtoLyann belongtoLyann 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 15

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    Untitled

    You know what's funny? How you told me you'd be my santuary until I'm back on my feet. The funnier thing? I wasn't ever back up on my feet when you stopped being my santuary. You promised that you'd make me take at least the majority of my stress away. All you had to do was keep...
    catchmeimfalling catchmeimfalling 16-17 Mar 4, 2013

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    I want to kill myself

    because I just dont bother life anymore. I am to tired. I am not really sad or anything, I am just so ******* tired. I see no point in life, there is more pain than pleasure. And I am too tired to do the same thing every single day.
    Amidala97 Amidala97 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 8

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    I don't want to feel like this anymore.

    I feel like I'm being suffocated and there's nothing for me. But, then I think about how selfish I'm being for wanting to kill myself that I sit in a daze trying to think of ways to make myself feel better for being this way.
    SugarNub SugarNub 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 7

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    This is something that I made on a note card

    about the issue or urges of suicide and self-harm. In this moment where are my thoughts and feelings on the issue of my self-harm (cutting & suicide). As powerful as they may be thoughts are nothing but thoughts, as a feeling is nothing more then a feeling they are not a think...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 15, 2013

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    I have no definite personality.

    I think I have borderline personality disorder, with one personality being cynical, cunning, narcissistic, extremely intelligent, lazy, and sadistic, another side being silly and begging for any respect or admiration, and my other side being kind, self-critical, depressed, tired...
    thedifferent thedifferent 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 10

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    I Miss The Old You

    i miss the days when you only talked to me the moments when i felt like there were only you and me the way you made efforts to get on and talk to me the way you calmed me down when i was mad at you the way you made me smile so happily the way we could talk things that actually...
    HakujitsuSeiten HakujitsuSeiten 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    I am so lonely. I am a nice guy

    and I have some friends. People like me a lot and I have never had trouble talking to girls, but no girl has ever shown any interest in me ever. I cannot deal with it anymore.
    memph31 memph31 31-35, M 6 Responses Oct 11

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    Drugs..Rape..Hate..Cutting..Burning..Drownding In My Own Tears...

    don't get me wrong I am thankful for the life god gave me..but I honestly have no ******* clue why he put me here everything I seem to do is wrong! taylor do this taylor u dident do that right.. whats wrong with you taylor.. grow up taylor I feel dead to my self..i don't know...
    taylor1234325 taylor1234325 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 8, 2013

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    Before You Kill Yourself Or Think About It, Read This

    Are you thinking about suicide? Thinking about how, if you killed yourself, nobody would care? Think again. If you kill yourself you will change somebodies world. That's right. They will see everything differently. Just hearing your name will burn their mind with memores. They...
    prettybrowneyes1993 prettybrowneyes1993 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 11, 2013

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    A gun store 11 miles away.

    Really? Not a question. An exclamation. Really though?
    ChangingFaces5 ChangingFaces5 22-25 Dec 4

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    Take Me Now Take Me Fast For There's Noting For Me Just Time To Past

    i don't want to live anymore there's noting for me to live for nobody understand's me nobody like's me i am broken i have spoken i am worth less i am more than dirt less i'm worth less i cant fight anymore i wont try any more unloved and i am only i am only judged...
    magicianguy magicianguy 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    There is genuinely no reason

    for me to be here. I have no potential to achieve anything and I am incapable of doing even the simplest of things. I hate what I see i the mirror and I wake up despising the world every morning. I hate my 'friends', my 'family' and my 'life'. If that is what you would call it...
    kaylaowens kaylaowens 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 21

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    There are plenty of things

    that I will never understand. How other people behave, why I was never good enough, why this is happening, why we're different. I am the kind of person who cherishes intellect and it kills me to know that I'll just never figure this out. That I'm always going to be in the...
    lydiathethingy lydiathethingy 13-15, F Oct 22

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    Tired!

    i don't know how i should describe this OR what i should say, but i really feel that i'm not able to make meaning out of my own words. there's not just a single reason or a person to blame and on top of that i just hate the "what if " condition! i'm tired of people around me, i'm...
    ar93 ar93 18-21, M 5 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    I was pity for one guy.

    He told me sad story about his life and said that his ex girlfriend cheated on him and I believed him. Then he asked me to be his girlfriend I said yes :( After that he cheated on me and said he want to break up. I was okay with that. But somehow it just hurts me inside because...
    Ayumikichi Ayumikichi 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 13

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    I just really tired of people

    who say stupid stuff to me like saying there my Friends v.v I should just die alredy I have nuthibg in this world anymore
    Alonzoisgay Alonzoisgay 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 22

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    I have wanted to kill my self

    so many times before, just to end it all and be free. One day I was planing my ending and listening to sad music on YouTube (cliche I know) when I saw this one video called watch if you know anyone that's suicidal, even you. http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=cETHTPeGvEc That's...
    lost1234567 lost1234567 16-17, F Mar 10

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    Im soo stupid. I had my chance at love a

    while back but i was too stupid and blind to notice she was in love with me. I messed up i just want to kill myself so i dont have to keep reliving it in my mind
    CuddlesNSnuggles CuddlesNSnuggles 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 26

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    I can't take it anymore.

    Is there anyone out there who can help me? I don't think I can last the night. I'm trying, but I don't think I can do it when I am alone like this and in so much pain. I don't know what to do. I can't live like this. I have done nothing to deserve this kind of pain. I can't take...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 18

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    i want to kill myself cause i have no one any

    more cant run away cause i don't have nowhere to go and no one to do it with
    columbus38 columbus38 13-15, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    No sanctuary from jerks.

    Who rule everything. But that deprives pals of me. So i live for my pals. And hope society begins to care more.
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M Aug 18

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    I don't know any of you.

    But here me out. I want to help you. Suicide isn't the answer and I'm sure you hear that a lot but you are all strong people to have made it this far, you can't deny that. You can make it farther. I will help you I want to help you, but life doesn't end here. You have an entire...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F Mar 29

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    My Mother.

    My mother; No, she's not abusive or a bad person. She's tried reaching out to me, but she just doesn't know how; She's the closest anyone has ever come to trying though. Sure, she's just like anyone else, she can say hurtful things every now and then. But then I look and see how...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 23, 2013

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    I want to kill myself

    because I was sexually abused and he gave me chlamydia . I want to kill myself because I've lost all of my friends , and I'm about to lose the remaining people I have once they find out I gave them chlamydia . I want to kill myself because I'm sleeping with my ex boyfriend who...
    Craexo Craexo 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 19

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    IloveAj2345 IloveAj2345 13-15, F 14 Responses Nov 3

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    just by how u made me believe what i have

    become. nothing. no not looking for attention.
    justlikejessejames justlikejessejames 36-40, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Why Muslim Must Hate Me This Much??

    i am indonesian... i am really sorry if my grammar such an awfull... i am christian... i live as christian for 25 years old now... i work in company which muslim is the majority... they do not seem to open their heart about anything that i do... everything that i do is like...
    lonelynicky lonelynicky 22-25 11 Responses Jan 8, 2009

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    I Can'T

    I can't deal. I'm such a failure.
    inkedmommy inkedmommy 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 26, 2013

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    I'm seriously about to kill myself,

    I'm sick of it here, I'm always getting stabbed in the back and mistreated. Everyone always uses me and I'm always getting blamed for things. **** this place! **** it all!
    TheDyingButterfly TheDyingButterfly 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 23

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