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I Want to Kill My Self Because of This

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    I'm Me...

    I was beaten. I was emotionally abused. I was molested at the age of eight... I'm worthless, there is no possible way I could ever be something. The pain is just to much to deal with. No one even gives a damn. People even say I should. They're right... Why should I keeping going...
    MairuOrihara MairuOrihara 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 21, 2013

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    I'm Not Even Scared Anymore.

    I'm not scared of the thought of death anymore. I simply just want to end my life and call it quits. I've always had an issue with depression and staying positive but this really just pushes me to the edge. I've always been bad when it comes to academics, the last time I had...
    Sennasenpaiz Sennasenpaiz 18-21, F 8 Responses May 9, 2012

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    No one understands me.

    I hate myself so much. I just want to be happy & that doesn't even seem possible anymore. Happiness does not exist for me.
    adventuretimer adventuretimer 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 21

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    Look on the bright side,

    you're just going through a phase that when is completed, many will see a swan or a butterfly or peacock like appearance. Mesmerising to many.
    kamachulu kamachulu 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 29

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    I Want It To Be Over Already

    In order to keep functioning on a daily basis, I've had to make a deal with myself that I would never live to see thirty. I am turning 26. I'm not holding it together, it's like slapping tar paper over a leak when the roof is about to implode at any second. My friends keep...
    BlueSelkie BlueSelkie 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 13, 2013

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    i want to kill myself

    because im a terrible excuse for a human being. im anorexic and I have depression. my dad died like 6 years ago and my family is just terrible now, it's absolutely not the same. I only have one friend, but she doesn't ever care about me. I cry everyday :(
    jessicaxnguyen jessicaxnguyen 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I was raped when I was 17.

    I was at a 4th of July party with a lot of my friends. Not one friend tried to help me or take care of me when it was obvious I drank way too much, when I couldn't sit up let alone stand or walk. Not one friend helped me after I was blacked out, I don't think they even noticed...
    MyMindCravesNectar MyMindCravesNectar 18-21, F 15 Responses Dec 27, 2013

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    I just can't express my feelings anymore all I

    feel is sadness I can't get over my ex and I just want to be happy again my whole life is collapsing around me and I'm just tired of trying.
    emgg emgg 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 24

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    you know those nights

    where those voices are so loud and strong? when the hallucinations are more visual than ever? when your aching wrists just scream blood? it's nights like these, when my mind is most messed up, that I want to commit.
    suicidegetout suicidegetout 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 4

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    It just to much I can't stand it I lost every

    thing every one all I have is friends on a goddamned phone and computer and Im never gonna met them cuase noo I'm to psycho nooo I will kill them and and the girl I cared about I hate her I know she never loved me she just was scared and wanted to take my heart like she did and...
    Wolf267 Wolf267 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 24

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    I've Felt This Way For As Long As I Can Remember

    My name is Matt and I'm a 21 year old college student.  I have been unhappy my whole life.  I've tried just about every medication out there for depression, only to find that it's not what's in my head that makes me sad, but what is all around me.  I've always been...
    toolfan714 toolfan714 18-21, M 13 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    I Miss The Old You

    i miss the days when you only talked to me the moments when i felt like there were only you and me the way you made efforts to get on and talk to me the way you calmed me down when i was mad at you the way you made me smile so happily the way we could talk things that actually...
    HakujitsuSeiten HakujitsuSeiten 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    I'm Sick Of This

    I don't know how to continue, I'm really struggling. I've been in and out of hospital the past year, but after four years of this destructive habit, I know I'm never going to be able to break it. I just want to be like everyone else, I want to be happy, go to school, whine about...
    jessmorison jessmorison 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2013

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    I have wanted to kill my self

    so many times before, just to end it all and be free. One day I was planing my ending and listening to sad music on YouTube (cliche I know) when I saw this one video called watch if you know anyone that's suicidal, even you. http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=cETHTPeGvEc That's...
    lost1234567 lost1234567 16-17, F Mar 10

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    DigitalStar DigitalStar 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    Every one i know goes away in the end -Hurt by

    Johnny cash Every girl i like who likes me back just abandons me. They pick me up than they throw me down hard as i stumble up they kick me in the ribs. I hate it i want kill myself to end the pain and sorrow. Your probably thinking that im over reacting but put your self in my...
    CuddlesNSnuggles CuddlesNSnuggles 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 4

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    Take Me Now Take Me Fast For There's Noting For Me Just Time To Past

    i don't want to live anymore there's noting for me to live for nobody understand's me nobody like's me i am broken i have spoken i am worth less i am more than dirt less i'm worth less i cant fight anymore i wont try any more unloved and i am only i am only judged...
    magicianguy magicianguy 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    I swear if I keep just sexually abused by some

    guys that I go to school with I will kill my self but I told want to tell people about it
    phillips0430 phillips0430 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    or those of you have know me on this site,

    I have posted here and on other areas about my history with suicide and self-harm and the reasons that I want to kill myself and the reasons that I have given all my life.I have just lost a cousin to this, and yes I take it a little more personally then some other people because...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 3 Responses Jun 19

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    liviebuchanan liviebuchanan 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 19

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    Tired!

    i don't know how i should describe this OR what i should say, but i really feel that i'm not able to make meaning out of my own words. there's not just a single reason or a person to blame and on top of that i just hate the "what if " condition! i'm tired of people around me, i'm...
    ar93 ar93 18-21, M 5 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    I hate life I hate society I hate myself

    and I want to die. I don't have a bad life I have loving parents a nice home nothing to complain about there. But I don't fit in with society at all I'm a loser no one likes me I'm going to be single forever and I'm just don't agree with Society. I don't agree with society I don...
    superabe11 superabe11 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 29

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    Too Much Pain

    There's many reasons I can think of, but thee one I'm hurting from most is pain in my heart. Within two years I've lost my husband's family that I cherished dearly for the reason, I was raised without brothers/sister/aunts/uncles/grandma.. etc. After I felt abanded from them...
    Calif39 Calif39 36-40, F 4 Responses May 6, 2012

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    Drugs..Rape..Hate..Cutting..Burning..Drownding In My Own Tears...

    don't get me wrong I am thankful for the life god gave me..but I honestly have no ******* clue why he put me here everything I seem to do is wrong! taylor do this taylor u dident do that right.. whats wrong with you taylor.. grow up taylor I feel dead to my self..i don't know...
    taylor1234325 taylor1234325 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 8, 2013

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    I want to kill myself

    because I was sexually abused and he gave me chlamydia . I want to kill myself because I've lost all of my friends , and I'm about to lose the remaining people I have once they find out I gave them chlamydia . I want to kill myself because I'm sleeping with my ex boyfriend who...
    Craexo Craexo 18-21, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    doglover140 doglover140 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 8

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    Because I felt worthless.

    . My parents always get mad at me because of my behavior.. It's not my fault to have this mental and behavioral problem.. They always see the wrong things that I did.. They want me to change. But how am I gonna change my personality. This is the real me.. How am I gonna change if...
    Sabel25 Sabel25 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    I want to kill myself

    because I just dont bother life anymore. I am to tired. I am not really sad or anything, I am just so ******* tired. I see no point in life, there is more pain than pleasure. And I am too tired to do the same thing every single day.
    Amidala97 Amidala97 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 8

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    I hate it when people think

    that I'm joking or not being serious when I say something like this, or say that I'm just doing it for attention or anything like that. **** them! Everything I do isn't for attention, I don't hurt myself for attention I do it to take my mind off worse things in my life...
    lexigreen lexigreen 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 9, 2013

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    I'm a loner a loser a middle aged 44 year old

    man who's practically a virgin Depression has ripped my head apart for years I should be married at my age I have social problems relationship problems medical problems (epileptic) God take me to your waiting room please I hate this horrible existence (Is that ok ep allie)
    defoekeane defoekeane 36-40, M 1 Response Jun 7

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    Im Lost...

    Ever since I was... five, i think, suicide has been appealing, and I have attempted it several times. The number of times Ive tried... I cant keep count. Recently, however, I met someone who... has done the same things as I have done, and seems to understand me. She and I... have...
    hahahalo13 hahahalo13 13-15 4 Responses Jan 13, 2013

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    I have gotten to a point in my life guys with

    acceptance at least for the good and bad that comes in my life. It is called Common Humanity which means I am equally gifted and equally flawed. There is not one thing going on in my life right now, that i can't use the skills that I have to get what I want the right and safe...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 8

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    This is something that I made on a note card

    about the issue or urges of suicide and self-harm. In this moment where are my thoughts and feelings on the issue of my self-harm (cutting & suicide). As powerful as they may be thoughts are nothing but thoughts, as a feeling is nothing more then a feeling they are not a think...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M Dec 15, 2013

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    People think I'm happy

    and on ep they say I'm liar and I don't like it :(
    Houri Houri 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 26

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    I have Asperger's Syndrome

    and I'm just so sick of the constant misunderstandings between me and other people. Somehow in the end I'm always the idiot. But most of all it ******* sucks that I can't just be a normal girl like everyone else. I hate this disorder and my life and although I've been trying to...
    vivi9298 vivi9298 16-17, F 2 Responses May 29

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    Why Muslim Must Hate Me This Much??

    i am indonesian... i am really sorry if my grammar such an awfull... i am christian... i live as christian for 25 years old now... i work in company which muslim is the majority... they do not seem to open their heart about anything that i do... everything that i do is like...
    lonelynicky lonelynicky 22-25 12 Responses Jan 8, 2009

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    My Mother.

    My mother; No, she's not abusive or a bad person. She's tried reaching out to me, but she just doesn't know how; She's the closest anyone has ever come to trying though. Sure, she's just like anyone else, she can say hurtful things every now and then. But then I look and see how...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 23, 2013

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    I am so tired of worn down of remembering.

    Of being alone. I know, I have my whole life ahead of me and people keep telling me that "things will change" but when will I gain some form of feeling back?
    leimic leimic 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 18

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    thatonegirl156 thatonegirl156 16-17, F Jul 29

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    I am a useless thing,

    I have no worth at all.I am not smart nor talented or good at anything else.I don't want to live I don't want to be me.
    wassup305 wassup305 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    Untitled

    You know what's funny? How you told me you'd be my santuary until I'm back on my feet. The funnier thing? I wasn't ever back up on my feet when you stopped being my santuary. You promised that you'd make me take at least the majority of my stress away. All you had to do was keep...
    catchmeimfalling catchmeimfalling 16-17 Mar 4, 2013

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    I don't know any of you.

    But here me out. I want to help you. Suicide isn't the answer and I'm sure you hear that a lot but you are all strong people to have made it this far, you can't deny that. You can make it farther. I will help you I want to help you, but life doesn't end here. You have an entire...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F Mar 29

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    I'm done!!!!! I'm tired of everyone leaving me,

    this depression is not ending any time soon, I'm a waste of space and not wanted. I even asked for help today and I didn't get it, this shows no one actually cares. Maybe tonight's the night.......
    Ki123 Ki123 18-21, F 34 Responses Dec 15, 2013

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    forgetaboutme2 forgetaboutme2 16-17, F May 30

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    I swear if my dad asks me to stop seeing him

    ("to disown as a daughter") I WILL commit suicide. I love him to much I couldn't live without my dad. He says he loves me so much I will never know, but I still feel as if my own father hates me. I'm sorry daddy but if you go, I'm going altogether: dead...
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I really don't see a reason not to.

    I feel as if I have no future and living would just cause me to be more miserable. I find it hard to believe that people love and care about me, so why not? I've found that I'm not even scared of dying, that the only thing that's really keeping me alive is that I'm scared of...
    xSweetPea xSweetPea 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2013

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    Before You Kill Yourself Or Think About It, Read This

    Are you thinking about suicide? Thinking about how, if you killed yourself, nobody would care? Think again. If you kill yourself you will change somebodies world. That's right. They will see everything differently. Just hearing your name will burn their mind with memores. They...
    prettybrowneyes1993 prettybrowneyes1993 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 11, 2013

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    I am a very different person.

    And people always make fun of me. No one knows what its like being me.
    ginny1q1q ginny1q1q 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    Well, let's just say,

    if I had never met my parents or they had passed away, I'd already Be dead. But I couldn't do that to them. I couldn't ruin their lives.
    DarkOnTheInside13 DarkOnTheInside13 13-15, F Aug 11

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    mary261 mary261 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 19

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    I am just a complete

    and total failure. I am not smart and would never make it in college, i'm ugly, i am forever alone. I'm worthless to everyone around me and i can't wait in till i turn 18 so i can buy a gun a shoot my worthless *** and get this done and over with.
    laserabe1 laserabe1 16-17, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    No sanctuary from jerks.

    Who rule everything. But that deprives pals of me. So i live for my pals. And hope society begins to care more.
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M 2 days ago

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    I am really on the verge of stabbing myself to

    death, my famous quote for today is do not trust anyone no matter how much you think you should, don't. I'm not sharing my story but I just need to just get it off my chest that I just cut really deep and I am thinking of just killing myself
    usarmyrangers usarmyrangers 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 1

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