I Want To Kill The Demon Within Me

Everyone has a demon inside that makes everything look dark and surrounds us with sorrow and nightmares... 18 People

    I was sexually assaulted twice;

    once at 11, and again at 17. I now get nightmares of rape, and dreams of suicide.
    zydeko zydeko
    18-21
    Apr 11, 2015

    I Can'T

    I don't know what to do anymore. I haven't slept I've been listening to fozzey and vanc, trying to take the pain away. It's like everytime I have a clear mind all I think about is him kissing her! And it breaks my heart but it's the only way that I can still feel it beating is...
    DaisyMae7 DaisyMae7
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 23, 2013

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