what i want?
what i dream of?
what i supposed i do in my life?
what should i give to other people?
can i make other people laugh?
can i make them happy?
what should i do to make them happy?
what should i do so that they accept me in their life?
am i good enough to them?
this life, these circumstances. I feel silenced and isolated.
I keep looking outside trying to fix me. and it's so cliche its ******* nauseating. but it's the truth. I chose a career that its my Job to fix people. to look outside of me, and at someone else. I just want to not...
it seems simple on its face but we all wear blinders to simple fact. say what you will of therapy, but its helped me find the truth of myself.
what do i want? what is the one thing i would trade my life for.
and i realized what that is. simple yet so far away.