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I Want To Know The Truth Of Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 5 People

    Who Am I?

    what i want? what i dream of? what i supposed i do in my life? what should i give to other people? can i make other people laugh? can i make them happy? what should i do to make them happy? what should i do so that they accept me in their life? am i good enough to them? am...
    Agatha91 Agatha91 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2012

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