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I Want To Know The Truth Of Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 5 People

    Who Am I?

    what i want? what i dream of? what i supposed i do in my life? what should i give to other people? can i make other people laugh? can i make them happy? what should i do to make them happy? what should i do so that they accept me in their life? am i good enough to them? am...
    Agatha91 Agatha91 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2012

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    I have posted about this soooo many times. I can not stand being lied to. When I am lied to it becomes really hard to believe what that person has to say. I don't like them. You'd...
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    I hate everyone. I mean it. I'm done caring about other people who don't even see me. I just want to be left completely alone. I don't want anyone. I don't want anyone to care...
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    Wow... Tonight... I want soo bad!!! To cut!!! My body is screaming for it... I just want to stop feeling.... I hate life... I hate everything (or almost everything there are some...
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    Since I was a teenager I've had the urge to cut myself and I was already seeing a counselor at the time for sexual abuse and anxiety so I told her my new urges and she didn't take...
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    it's really hard to not cut myself right now, but i don't know how much longer i can hold on, all the hateful comments, being blamed for things I've never done, school is not...
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    I want to but I know I shouldn't I know that it won't help and I know it will just make me feel worse after but even then cutting for me is like I'm in a ocean blind folded I can...
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    I'm home by myself.... I've been really triggered to hurt myself lately .-. Now seeing my arms with out a long sleeve shirt on... God I want to take a kitchen knife to my wrist
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    In 2015 I will love myself and I will become who I want to be :)
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    I tried so hard to resist cutting I begged myself I told myself I couldn't I even went through the torture of hiding it through my ahead again but I gave in and once j was insulted...
    sadnesskillsme sadnesskillsme 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    lostandlonleysoul lostandlonleysoul 16-17, F Jan 12

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    I can't because I threw out my blades. I am going crazy with out it. I don't know how to deal with my feelings like a normal human. I don't know I guess I'll ***** my problems out...
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    i hate my family, they know how to hurt you right where it hurts...
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    I don't know what's wrong with me. This isn't my usual self. I just wish I didn't exist right now :(
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    There's me again, ******* up everything again. I can't ever do anything right and this time I don't know if I can reverse it.
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    So I'm back....I didn't kill myself although I tried.....I'm doing so much better...except for right now I wanna cut really bad
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    Look at you, you’re young; & you’re scared. Why are you so scared? Stop being paralyzed. Stop swallowing your words. Stop caring about what other people think of you. Wear what...
    LetsAllGoToHell LetsAllGoToHell 26-30 Jan 12

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    My 7 months clean can go to hell. Im done. I really want to feel my blade slice my wrist again. Feelin that relieve again. Oh god..
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    I just want to release pain. Crying in shower. I wanna cut so bad.
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    Everything has just gone downhill. I want to stop, but I can't. I'm sick of feeling unloved and numb. 😔
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    If I don't go after what I want, I'll never have it. If I don't ask, the answer will always be no. If I don't step forward, I'll always be in the same place.
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    ... and die. Life sucks. Living in this world is hard to do.
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