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I Want To Know The Truth Of Myself

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    what i want? what i dream of? what i supposed i do in my life? what should i give to other people? can i make other people laugh? can i make them happy? what should i do to make them happy? what should i do so that they accept me in their life? am i good enough to them? am...
    Agatha91 Agatha91 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2012

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    Hey. This is my first story on EP, so I'd like to tell about myself. Ok, so, who am I? Here, just call me samoralsophy. I believe in God and consider myself a Christian, but I do...
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    I haven't done it for a month and a half but I'm slowly losing my grip and I just really don't want to add to this awful mosaic of scars but I feel like I need it to think clearly...
    fanatic458 fanatic458 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    I threw my blades away a few days ago but I feel so alone right now. I feel sick that I personify them, like they are my friends, but now I've lost them and I don't know what to do...
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    I'm a strong person and my capacity for emotional pain is high... but these last 4 months have been incredibly rough. A new wave hits when I'm not even ready to recover or regain...
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    I'm constantly hurting emotionally... I used to self harm.. it helped deal with all the problems for a while.. for a while, I was in control of my problems.. no one could hurt me...
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    Any one has a razor .i really need to cut myself and see my blood . I am sick of always hurting myself from inside if I can't stop myself from inside I will do it on the outside.
    Lonelyvamp2 Lonelyvamp2 13-15, F Apr 4

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    Im f*cking tired of as**oles with no emotional skills about love blaming on me their bulls*it. I know how to love,how to give my all and the best of me,what love means and how to...
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    20th day clean today, it's amazing but right know there's nothing else I want to do. I try to keep myself busy, but I don't think I can handle it tonight
    wxnbz4713 wxnbz4713 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    If being myself isn't enough then what is?!?! I'm not gonna act fake just to get somebody to like me, I don't need a lot of friends, I could care less if someone doesn't like me. I...
    16countrygirl 16countrygirl 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I don't want to have to change myself to get a man to like me. Usually I do have to though. I have to pretend not to like something, or pretend to like what they like. Or else they...
    Dreamer32 Dreamer32 22-25, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm in love with him. I want to be with him so badly... I want to do other things as well.... I would love to just travel the world and do anything and everything. But, I am...
    Cagedbird2 Cagedbird2 16-17 Mar 25

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    ......I am... I don't know.... I can't.... I have to, I'm going to, I...I can't focus, I want to write, to explain but I don't have any words, I just can't... ....I have to resist...
    BlackRosesTurnBlue BlackRosesTurnBlue 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 28

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    I was cut-free for about 4 months, but today I cut again. I am dealing with relationship problems. I love my boyfriend, he loves me, but because he is under his parent's rules, he...
    likeyouknowme likeyouknowme 18-21, F Mar 30

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    I haven't done it for 9 days but the urge is just too strong. It's all I can think about. I don't know how much longer I can last.
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    I feel the urge to cut but I'm trying not to! I'm hoping someone being on here and typing how I feel will make the urge lessen but I'm not so sure it will!! All I can think about...
    ariel2891 ariel2891 22-25, F Mar 22

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    i know for a fact that moving on is a process... but sometimes i wish i have an amnesia to instantly forget him. i really hate him and that someone else.. a ***** and a jerk...
    princessdinamunti princessdinamunti 22-25, F Mar 26

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    Not literally, but if I'm on my death bed I will put myself in a food coma with whatever I can afford. 3 months to live? You bet I want second breakfast.
    Twichl Twichl 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    I do not love myself which in turn makes it hard for me to love or show affection towards other people.
    MissMisunderstood1 MissMisunderstood1 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    I'v been clean for 2 weeks but i broke that tonight...i just couldn't take it anymore...i didn't know what else to do...
    Rememberme79 Rememberme79 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 31

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    It's my number one addiction and I can't help but always say yes to it. Cutting is my only relief but I cut all over my body so much that I have to dress like it's winter all the...
    bulimicbixtch49 bulimicbixtch49 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I have bean bully so many time I have cut myself so may times I have bean hurt so many times
    Nyamal Nyamal 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    Honestly I just cut myself because I had a fight and It just makes me made when people say stuff about it behind my back!!
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    Where blood runs black And you keep falling back Your feelings attack Hope, you lack So tempting is the blade Images will never fade You hide in the shade But you know....with...
    Mikesmithg1 Mikesmithg1 16-17, M 2 Responses Apr 11

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    Trying to figure myself out and who I am. Honestly idk who I am anymore.
    briiiBriii93 briiiBriii93 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I really do. I'm only like 2 or 3 days clean, but I'm just losing hope. I know you don't want me to cut, Spencer, but like I told him, I can't promise anything right now.
    EmoSakurachan EmoSakurachan 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I want to die now. And I probably will. Blood loss tends to have that affect on people. I'm going to go cut myself until I die . . . Wonder how many strokes it will take. Guess...
    AVampireGirl AVampireGirl 13-15, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I just wanna freakin cut myself
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 14 Responses 4 days ago

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    I really wish i could talk to my bf and really say how i feel but he dont like talking so now when i need to talk i just keep it to myself becuase he will not want to talk.
    lizzy1015 lizzy1015 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I want to change si badly. Many people have hated me because of my lazy personality and unacceptable attitude. I want to be different, I want to give my best to be that person, I...
    SecretsNeverHidden SecretsNeverHidden 22-25, F Mar 28

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    I just wanna be me and only me. Not what you want me to be. I was born me not you.. I'm never going to be what you try to make me...
    xxNoexcuseformexx xxNoexcuseformexx 13-15, F Apr 5

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    Please . . . Leave me alone . . . Have you not tormented me enough? Please, please, I'm begging you . . . Go away . . . Leave before I become angry. I don't want to hurt you...
    AVampireGirl AVampireGirl 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    I want to dye my hair, and lose weight and become a better person. I've been this same boring person for about 2 years. Let's make some new changes! Maybe I can convince my mom to...
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    Living a life for Christ can be very challenging at times as it sometimes feel like the more that I more the more my prayers se to be denied? I am at a crossroad right now of...
    bubblysunshine bubblysunshine 31-35, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm just sitting here right now looking for a reason not to cut. I can't find one. I want to feel good. I want to cut.
    jasonpw jasonpw 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Happily married, Vietnam Vet, love life. Enjoy meeting new people. Message me anytime.
    dt943 dt943 61-65, M Mar 21

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    I started cutting a couple years ago, on and off, never anything too serious. Recently I started back up again and I am having a harder time controlling the urge not to..
    carryonlipbalm carryonlipbalm 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    Fuuck!!! I was clean for like three weeks, but yesterday I was drunk and stupid. The most annoying thing is it was such an impulsive action. I wasn't even alone, my boyfriend was...
    wxnbz4713 wxnbz4713 18-21, F Mar 26

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    Actually already did. My emotions are so mixed right now.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F Mar 28

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    I've been cutting since 3rd grade. Stopped for a year here and there but it kind of controls your life and comes back each time. Wish I didn't have the urge to do so but it helps...
    Rebecca12K Rebecca12K 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    Ive turned out to be everything i said i would never be :( 🔪🔫🚽
    colexo colexo 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    To the right person this idea excites me greatly.
    tarkovsky tarkovsky 26-30, M Apr 2

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    you were born an original, don't die a copy <3
    steffanibette steffanibette 13-15, F Apr 5

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    I've been self harming since third grade, and It was on and off. I've been clean for a month, but had a relapse tonight. So much blood.😔
    flinm flinm 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 9

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    I think I am there - I can only walk into the kitchen or bedroom on my own... I now need support to leave the house... walking is just too difficult now and leaves me breathless...
    hugefattygirl hugefattygirl 22-25, F 11 Responses 6 days ago

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    That should be enough right? You don't have to like me just accept me for me. Unfortunately most days I have to 'behave' in a socially accepted way. It's fake and it sucks.
    BleedingOrchids BleedingOrchids 13-15, F 5 days ago