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I Want To Know The Truth Of Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 5 People

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    what i want? what i dream of? what i supposed i do in my life? what should i give to other people? can i make other people laugh? can i make them happy? what should i do to make them happy? what should i do so that they accept me in their life? am i good enough to them? am...
    Agatha91 Agatha91 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2012

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    I feel that this need becomes an addiction and I keep chasing the next high here. I have stopping myself for the past week pretty much but I am so need of a fix right now. I don...
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    THIS IS REALLY IMPORTANT Comment down below what you associate as being silly. Only once you've done that continue reading- So maybe you relate being silly to a child capering...
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    Today I will accept that I spent a lot of my time on the phone. I think I did ot because I was searchig for some sort of approval. I also spread my blog at the internet so that...
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    Okay bye I'm going to go cut myself I'm sorry Alexa but my feelings are hurt and I want the pain to go away
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response Apr 16

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    i promised my best friend that i wouldnt cut myself and im 26 days clean but i just feel so empty and sad and terrible and idk i feel like cutting is the only way that i can take...
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    I don't hurt myself. However, I have felt like doing so. The only time I feel like hurting myself is when I am in a large amount of emotional pain. Sometimes hurting on the outside...
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    There's always moments like this where I just have the incredible urge to cut myself. Thanks family. I love you too.
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    I wanna cut myself now....I messed up on so much I thought I knew things thought I had it figured out turns out I was all wrong and things r worser then what they seem
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    Woohoo! I feel like I'm on the right path to seek self reinvention! I've almost secured a job at a fabulous retail store, am finally cutting my hair for a fresh look, changed my...
    fairynights fairynights 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    I'm so ******* tired of being a friendly person all the time. Those moments when I feel like punching that person in the gut cuz they're too narrow-minded and rude.... What could I...
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    Be who I want when I want wherever I want.
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    I run my fingers across my skin , its so smooth All I want to do is destroy it . Its the first time I have wanted to do it in about two weeks . I get episodes like this . one...
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    I want to, and I am, but I just can't get to the O point right now. ;(
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    Best cut is when I close my eyes . And just cut three places really fast on wrist. I rather feel the pain outside than in
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