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I Want To Know The Truth Of Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 5 People

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    what i want? what i dream of? what i supposed i do in my life? what should i give to other people? can i make other people laugh? can i make them happy? what should i do to make them happy? what should i do so that they accept me in their life? am i good enough to them? am...
    Agatha91 Agatha91 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2012

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    I've cut myself once, and I dont know if I should tell someone or not. I really don't know what to do or who I can trust.
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    I want to make the world around me a better place just to prove myself and for all those people who think of suicide as the only way out...You've to know that being able to breath...
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    It's been 8 months. I still haven't had the guts to throw my blades away, they're like my safety blanket, always there when I need them, but I've been doing well anyway. Especially...
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    I've looked everywhere, but I can't seem to find websites or things like that for people who like and want health problems from being fat. Of anyone knows of a site like this, or...
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    Screw pretending to be happy. This is EP. I can be as depressing and miserable as I want. I can't stand this. I want to slash my arm open but I can't because I have to pretend to...
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    I hate myself for being so needy. so clingy. I feel so stupid for... being me. I dont want to be alone... but maybe I really am a bad girlfriend. Im trying not to cut but... I feel...
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    yeah well... life is just great. like anyone'd care. I'm just depressing to be around. people don't want to be around someone who brings them down. I try to act okay. but it...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 4

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    I was caught cutting and had no option but to stop. I'm 41 days clean and I am so triggered. I'm going insane, I really need to cut. I just don't know where. I can't cut on my...
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    I have been clean for about 7 months. Ive had this missing cutting feeling for the whole time but like the past couple weeks I've been like CRAVING IT. Like my body's GONNA die...
    jess965 jess965 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    i cant take everything i hate myself to feel the cold blade across my skin see the blood dripping down to get some relief of this daily torment
    givenupforever givenupforever 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I have never self-harmed. I have delay with depression for about five years now and this is the first time cutting has ever crossed my mind. I have the sudden urge to do it and I'm...
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    I finally tell them and they dont believe it I show them proof they still dont and they block me over it...hes always gonna get what he wants and say what he wants to me and they...
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    There are times, usually when I screw up, where I just want to scratch and scratch at my forearms until I bleed. Luckily I'm in a good place at the moment but the struggle is still...
    flamingfangirl flamingfangirl 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    Hi...I'm Keira. I'm Irish and just moved to Canada. I love cute animals and want to be a veterinarian or possibly a teacher. I only like girls...that way, and would prefer to add...
    KissKeira KissKeira 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Javaneh is Persian for 'young sprout'. I prefer to just be called Java, even though this sounds like coffee or some island or something. I'm not big on geography. I like the...
    Javaneh Javaneh 18-21, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    man men lie n lie can't be real with there dam self
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    Why is everything so ******* depressing? Why am I such a failure? I fail...that's why I'm here, to fail and let people down...
    TeethTheSizeOfPianoKeys TeethTheSizeOfPianoKeys 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 2

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    There's no pain anymore, I cut and there's no pain, the blood runs down my arm and it's cold, there's no warmth. where do I go to feel??
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    I pretty much have already. I'm 17 and 612 lbs but gaining more every day. I can barley stand up even with people helping me and I can't stand or walk for about 30 seconds. I can't...
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    not even going out on a Friday. not been to work can't face anything. FML
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    I've been clean for a few weeks but i feel like that's all i can turn to, the razor blade.
    Hailey7685 Hailey7685 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    I wish to make someone happy in return from love(it don't need trully to be love, just be caring) and a family.
    HeterosexualTransexual HeterosexualTransexual 18-21, T Mar 8

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    I took off my bracelets and saw my scars and my bracelet marks too
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    ... and I cant help it when its the middle of the night and I sleep without my clothes on. Its so easily accessible.. theres no way you couldnt.
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    2 days clean....this is a torture so far....
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    Dyed hair the colors of night or day. Clothes draped, down in splendor, boots high in gear, illustrated like a fantasy hero. With a striking expression, I stand tall, strong, and...
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    Don't ask the question if you don't want the truth.
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    just change the title to - i feel alone and i'm crying would be accurate for me right now... was just on the phone to a guy i'm dating who asks me why i feel alone and then rubs...
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