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I Want to Leave the Past Behind

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    Stop Me From Loving You

    Time and again I have been trying over and over To straighten myself from the darkest thing I’ve ever done in my life. I have tried to be responsible in my actions Be mature enough to stand and correct that miscalculated presumption, Of a luscious mistake I so love to...
    chrisfairy chrisfairy 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2010

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    Every Year.

    Three years ago, a week before christmas, I tried to kill myself. I was in the hospital for a week, and lied to get out. Now every year since, I think; Maybe this year.
    imgettingthere imgettingthere 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 20, 2011

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    I'M Closing The Door

    Today is your birthday baby and your mothers birthday aswell. I have decided to burie you today. It's been 10 years of you haunting me. Its been 10 whole damned years and I've never been able to get over you. Your mother is doing great. she just totally replaced us with another...
    tyson2jr2004 tyson2jr2004 26-30, M Mar 29, 2013

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    I Just Wish It Never Happened

    I want to forget about the big mistake i made with my ex.  I sent him a picture and I really regret doing it. But he ended up being the nice guy and not distributing of it and now i just want to forget about it cause it's over and done with.
    puppiluv puppiluv 18-21, F Jul 10, 2008

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    "The Past Is a Foreign Country..."

    "... they do things differently there", or so L. P. Hartley wrote in the opening line of The Go-Between. I find these words to have an altogether more sinister meaning to me than they were probably intended. I did things very differently indeed, and yet it is as if that...
    binaryqueen binaryqueen 18-21 Jul 9, 2008

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    Awakening

    Some people come into our lives and quickly go.Forgotten soon. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same. I can relate to it because I have been through a similar phase. Its more than a decade now. You have occupied my thoughts...
    coldontheinside coldontheinside 26-30 1 Response Aug 6, 2013

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    Oh Ho

    every year i find da same old friends with them i have spent a lots of fun and.......................this year i want extremly new new only new
    braindrains braindrains 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 10, 2012

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    Leave The Past Behind

    Leave the past behind,That what I'm gonna do,Lighten the load,No use,Worrying about the past,It's gone,Can't be undone,I'll look,To the future.
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 Apr 20, 2012

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    Let The Guilt Go

    I carry around a lot of guilt for things that I know weren't honestly my fault or in my control. I need to let it all go, and then maybe I'll be able to move forward with my life.
    gorejussxpsycho gorejussxpsycho 22-25, F 1 Response May 19, 2012

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    Mom why are you doing this to me?

    Why are you causing me so much pain and suffering? Why do you look at me with those eyes of disgust and call me a devil?All I did was obey you and care about you. But you took your pain of the World and trusted upon your children. You were naive and young, and you decided to...
    AndrogynousBeauty AndrogynousBeauty 22-25 1 Response Dec 13, 2013

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    Leaving the Past

    I would like to escape selective parts of my past  - but it continues to follow me !
    yrral32 yrral32 61-65, M 2 Responses Dec 31, 2011

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    I Wish

    I want to start all over. I want to leave my problems behind. I wnt to leave my friends and family behind. Even though i love the, i just feel like its too much. Its hard staying in touch with friends when they don't live as close to you anymore. I want to be able to do what i...
    pandora102693 pandora102693 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 19, 2012

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    The Past

    The past,Wanna leave it behind,Move on,Live life,A new beginning,Coming soon,Then,And only then,I'll be free,Free of the past,Lightened,Will be my load.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 28, 2012

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    Get Steppin'!

    I met my partner about a year ago, he's almost 40 and I'm just past 30. I dread visiting any of his friends, cause all they do is reminisce about their past, looooooooong ago. I mean, they aren't 20 anymore, let it go, save the stories for when you're 60 and can't get out and...
    wavystarz wavystarz 31-35, F 1 Response May 24, 2008

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    Forward

    The past... for as long as I remember has been best characterised as a cloudy day with a few streaks of sunlight peeking out. The odd thing is that I keep searching for the sunlight and although I find it, it doesn't seem real. It lacks warmth, it lacks strength it's just...
    boundlessZERO boundlessZERO 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 28, 2013

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    Light My Past On Fire

    For the last 2 New Years Eve's in arow I have brought  in the New Year with a meditation circle.....We write on paper all the things we want to leave behind in the closing year on paper and then light it on fire and drop it into a bowl...a little ritaul known as the "Burning...
    mystiqueshadow mystiqueshadow 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 13, 2011

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    The Feeling Of Sorrow Always Overcomes Me....

    Today was just an ordinary day beautiful day clear skies and beautiful bright light outside I feel like I'm sinking in my own flesh I don't know what to do or who to turn to anymore....I hate being hurt and no one is there to hear me out. Sometimes I just wish someone was there...
    Sayuri09 Sayuri09 22-25, F Apr 3, 2013

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our

    school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my mind I was thinking "you know what, I'm gonna try to talk to her, I need to man up, I need to know how to talk to a girl and here's my first...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 3

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    Desperate To Leave The Past Behind...

    I don't want to leave the past behind... I am DESPERATE to.  I don't know how much power I have over that, though.  I deal w/ bad dreams and haunting flashbacks that don't let me leave anything behind.  Family that rubs all my mistakes in my face and uses any...
    laneyluv laneyluv 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 9, 2010

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    I Overpower It

    I freed myself from its bondage and it will no longer have any power over me and I will not miss it or long for it.  I left you behind and I am not looking back.
    jc2009 jc2009 41-45, M 7 Responses Sep 14, 2010

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    I Want To Leave The Past Behind

    I stay there all the time. I'm beginning to stay there too much. There is much I can't forget-ever.But other stuff-I know I could do without those memories-why do I hold on to them anyway?I became an alcoholic but sobered up, I've done good things, and I've done bad. So while I'm...
    BCBoomer58 BCBoomer58 56-60, F 7 Responses May 25, 2010

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    Sometimes I feel so broken

    because of my past. Like I am crazy or I will never get to be happy.
    Tatyana63 Tatyana63 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 9

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    Stuck In The Past

    A little under 25 college student, sitting waiting at school to start my shift. Sad, alone but not afraid. Few more years before I go to the police academy thinking so much of the future and the struggles of it. Only one thing helps ease the pain of the best times when I was...
    STRESSOUT19 STRESSOUT19 18-21, M Jul 2, 2013

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    donnjb donnjb 26-30, M Feb 4

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    I'm constantly thinking about past awkward

    and embarrasing experiences i've had and it makes me feel like ****..
    bsm96 bsm96 18-21, M Apr 3

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    A Difficult Thing.

    Past is a very difficult thing. It's hard thing to leave behind. It moves you forward with one hand and pulls you back with the other.
    CreedenceGold CreedenceGold 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 14, 2012

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    Vices.

    Im 26 years old . Im from the U.K , and I live in Colombia with most of my family. I have been working here now for the past two years. When I left the U.K, I had problems with vices in my life, like alchol, cannabis , and smoking. I thought that if I was to change my life...
    Ravol Ravol 26-30 1 Response Feb 27, 2012

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    My first best friend turned his back away from

    me. I turned my back away from my second best friend. Even though I'm now okay with my first best friend, I can't help but remember the good memories we had. What's more sickening about me is that I didn't regret turning my back away from my second best friend ( even though I...
    13robert13 13robert13 13-15, M Apr 5

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    Ex Girlfriend

    I had my first girlfriend when I was a sophomore in high school. We had promised forever and planned to get married and all that fun stuff. I believed she was my first love and that she meant everything to me. She was a junior at the time. We were each others firsts for...
    kayyyy3319 kayyyy3319 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23, 2013

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    I want to leave this place

    and never look back.
    emilynicolexx emilynicolexx 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I Wish Not to Regret...

    there have been a lot of "what ifs" and "if onlys" in my life but i wish i could just leave the past behind and move on... it has been a tough ride and i just hope that i'd be able to go on and live life without remebering the painful things that happen...
    unicahija unicahija 21-25, F 4 Responses Dec 9, 2007

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    Stop Thinking About It.

    I've had past experiences that where really painful. I don't dwell on them but sometimes I think about it and it haunts me sometimes, but I don't let it haunt me. My parent's divorced about five years ago (will be this December) and my big bro and I are still not over the fact...
    TheatreLover22 TheatreLover22 22-25, F Aug 15, 2012

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    The Past Haunts Me

    I still dwell on the girl that got away and the pains of growing up.  I was far from the popular kid in school growing up.  I was constently teased and told how unattractive and ugly I was.  That has stuck with me for a long time, even know I still get nervous and...
    TRhino TRhino 31-35, M 4 Responses Jul 31, 2008

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    To Move Forward

    Forgive but don't forget. We all make mistakes. Forgetting isn't all that bad either, but worse is repeating. Look to the future. Time heals if you let it. A fragile body can't bear any more hatred (both received and given.) Love. Live.
    LadyofDaydreams LadyofDaydreams 22-25 Jul 18, 2010

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    So, I'm going trough a bad break up I was with

    him for over 10 years. I thought he was the one but it turns out when I tired of waiting and asked for a serious commitment he said I Wasn't the One, and that he didn't see himself with me and my family. Amazing after I forgave two infidelities because he said he was...
    CybrMnky CybrMnky 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    I Feel I Have

    This has been one of my greatest challenges. Mistakes, regret, joy, lust, love and youth. Remembering, holding onto these things, I nearly gave up on my happiness. It was a process, to forgive myself, to forgive others, and to let go. I hit a point, trying so hard to be free of...
    peacefulknowing peacefulknowing 22-25, F Mar 15, 2012

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    Just Go

    I think about it sometimes. Getting up and just leaving this life behind. Starting over somewhere else as someone new. Would it be harder or easier? Would I regret it or find it to be the best decision I've ever made? My past has turned me into someone I hate. There is nothing...
    TheRelapseDevil TheRelapseDevil 18-21, F Feb 18, 2013

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    Still Not There Yet.

    I am getting closer day by day, it usually feels, to finally leaving everything in the past. But, I still have days with flashbacks. It feels like I am experiencing it firsthand again when I have the flashbacks. I am trying to forget because some of it I have a hard time handling...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 19, 2012

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    If I Could Change the Past I Would Change....

    If there was one thing I could change in my past it would be how I treated my mom when i was younger. I took her for granted, was mean and snobby to her. i didnt listen to her when I should have. And now i feel guilty and regret it. As I get older I learn to appreciate people.
    missashshalee missashshalee 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 25, 2008

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    Me Also!

    I would love to leave the past in the past-------and I know that sounds like it would be very simple right? Well to a point it is the fact is that some things are really trying to some ones mental state of mind.  a point 9/11/2001 all those helpless people that were at work or...
    Garfield123456789 Garfield123456789 46-50, M 1 Response Sep 28, 2011

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    I Want To Leave It But It Still Haunts Me Badly

    I want to leave my past , but i think most probably I wont forget it till death , It might fade away a little , wont wash away from my brain and heart . I saw weird dream at night . Well , It was yesterday , I saw a most disgusting dream , I feel I have lot insecurity about my...
    richa12345678 richa12345678 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    The Past Is Called The "past" For A Reason

    The dictionary says it best 1. Gone by 2. Of, having existed in, or having occured during a time previous to the present The past is not the present and it is definitely not the future and although it is okay to reflect on the past, you can not live in the past because the is...
    SelfDefinedPrisoner SelfDefinedPrisoner 31-35, F Nov 10, 2012

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    Leaving My Past Behind

      It was years ago, when I first learned that I was hanging onto my past which had been unhealthy. I recognized that my past just wasn't going away. Though years of therapy and self-help books I could see where my negative patterns were destroying my life. There were a...
    Sara600 Sara600 56-60, F 1 Response Jun 11, 2010

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    I Understand Now

    for many years ive been mad at my past because i didn't understand the meaning to it . now i understand . it took a few years and im still working on it but im getting there . it feels good to finally fin a place were i can just speak my mind and no bull in it i am as real as all...
    vickyfortin vickyfortin 18-21, F Jul 25, 2012

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    Not Hiding Behind The Pain Anymore

    I have lived my entire life either in pain or being put down by people. I can't do that anymore, I have to stop listening to people who have no right to treat me like I'm nobody. From the age of eight, starting with my step-dad calling me names and molesting then raping me for...
    ldsexylady261 ldsexylady261 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 3, 2010

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    I Have Left Things Past In The Past.

    I have really experienced A LOT OF CHANGE in the past few years. I have lots of painful memories; mainly things done TO me or my son and how my family has disintegrated since my mother die that I have preferred to "leave in the past". One year ago, I made a choice to follow my...
    Missalaineyeus Missalaineyeus 46-50, F Jun 4, 2012

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    They Won't Let It Go...

    Just because people in my life refuse to not let the past go - doesn't mean I have to. I have a choice in my own life and I choose to have loving and supportive people in it. I will always love my family - always. However they seem to think that I have made some grave "mistake...
    breathePeaceLove breathePeaceLove 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 14, 2011

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    I Have Left My Past..

    I have left most of my past and regrets, I only have one I am stuck with. That is my mother, I love this town but I have to get out :)
    Greenlander Greenlander 16-17, F 3 Responses May 9, 2010

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    Taking the First Step

    I could write hundreds of stories about the past, but that wouldn't help me at all to move on. I need to forget what's been, start a new life... Sometimes I wish I could erase my past and forget everything, because I feel it dragging me down, it's making me heavy. I want to be...
    Lliannan Lliannan 31-35 2 Responses Aug 13, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    "Experience is simply the name we give our mistakes." - Oscar Wilde In that case I have some really good experience. But that's in the past and I want to keep it there. But what...
    insanitycuresboredom insanitycuresboredom 22-25, F Mar 28

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    I am here to tell you about me, my vision and my reality. I'm looking for three women and two men to join me in leaving society. Leaving it all behind and building a community of...
    leaving6622 leaving6622 36-40, M Apr 15

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    I'm tired of people's stupid problems and worrying about things i DONT give a **** about. I love weed and i want to do something with it for the rest of my life; grow it, own a...
    Justdoitessay Justdoitessay 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 28

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    Ive had a really hard and bad experiences in the past. I got bullied which led me to quit and not finishing college. But now i really regret quitting college and letting those...
    changemylonelyworld changemylonelyworld 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    The men who I called my father, two uncles, brother, and the two girls I called my sisters all physically and sexually abused me when I was little. They made me a slave and they...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    This is my dream Just to leave everything behind and move Far far far away I want a new start New home New friends Just a chance to start over Clean slate
    dawn11235 dawn11235 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Sometimes I just want to run away from my life and be free. Start over somewhere else as someone else. I don't want a past or to remember anything from the past. I'm just tired...
    aguythatknows aguythatknows 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 15

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