I Want to Live Again

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    Giving Strangers A Chance

    I was thirteen. My first boyfriend had just dumped me (again) after cheating on me (again). I felt very alone. I didn't know who to trust or what to do. I also couldn't tell my parents, because they were Mormon and strongly against any relationships that passed friendship...
    newlife0204 newlife0204
    18-21, F
    May 2, 2011


    As I type this with infuriating, overwhelming frustration, I feel the paralysis in my life reigning on me with extraordinary force. First off, it is important to clearly define what paralysis is. It is not simply a description of a lifestyle or a sense of repetition in one’s...
    itsmylifenilioa itsmylifenilioa
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 11, 2012


    Starts with chest pain Wave of heat Tingle Syncopy Heart pounding Fear No heart problems on X-ray EKG or echo. Should I be worried about CPVT? Age=36
    Cindymcg Cindymcg
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2013

    I do !!!!! And i want a boob guy lol !

    !! Gues hormones going to my head !!@@
    anasteel2 anasteel2
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jan 21, 2015


    i've made so many mistakes in my life that I can't fix it up in this life. I think if I could live again I wouldn't live my life like this one now.
    numb numb
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 24, 2007

    Today at 5 am, after a night without a wink of

    sleep I have come to realise that I don't want to die.Dying is the easiest thing to do;to die is to say I quit.Dying is the easy way out.And because I believe in rebirths it means coming back to the same place, same world, same problems I left unattended. I have been hurt and...
    stranger001 stranger001
    26-30, F
    Jun 4, 2014

    Rewind Please

    i simply want to go back and change that cold night in february 2004.  i am in dire need of a time machine, please! although i realize i'm a much better person these days and that many positive things have come my way as a result of that night, i sincerely miss my old life...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Jun 29, 2007

    I have mono and multiple other health problems

    and I'm stuck at home sick and depressed and I just want to live again
    sammylynn333 sammylynn333
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 25, 2014

    When I Look Back.....

    i feel like i am standing at a cross road....i can see ways before me but i cann't decide which one i should choose!!i have always thought that i need a smooth life full of peace.....a gud satisfying teaching job and solitude with books and music.....i never expected anything...
    snuffal snuffal
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 29, 2011

    I'm rotten inside, trying to feel joy

    now actually causes me pain. I look back at what I've done and achieved and try to remember the great feelings that gave me but now I find just pain there... How did I get here? I want to be me again. I want to live again!
    johnjw johnjw
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Feb 22, 2014

    Break Free

    My early childhood was pretty good. I was a child, I went to school, I did things with friends, life was simple and fun and worries were never that big. When I was 12, I became an adult. I saw my father punch my mother, I called 911, he was arrested, and in that moment I lost the...
    serenitykat serenitykat
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 17, 2011

    I Wanna Live Again

    I wanna live again,Move on,Enjoy life,Soon,So soon,My dream-home,Will be available,Can't wait,Live again,Be me,Independent,The worst part,Waiting for procession date!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Mar 1, 2012

    When Will I Live Again

    Ever since I moved here I have a feeling I am not complete. I left my ex boyfriend behind along with all my true friends. The lack of self confidence, low self esteem, and my many insecurities dragged me into depression. I am now less social and I don't have many friends. I feel...
    Sammy122 Sammy122
    13-15, F
    1 Response May 30, 2011

    I Wish

    I have not been happy in quite sometime. lets see, my mother and father joined in on raping me, and because of this i will die young. and that was probably the least worst thing. because of the abuse from them my mind automatically blacks out my day to day life. i have been dead...
    zparkyy zparkyy
    3 Responses May 9, 2012

    I've Lost Hope

    I can't say for sure I have lost hope. It depends on how one reacts to life when hope is gone. I have always lived my life on the hope that things will get better. I have worked very hard towards a better life...all my life...well since Jr. High school. Even through depression...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Oct 26, 2011

    Start Over

    I want to seek something so to start again. To know where I am going and have a greater sense of confidentiality. To not be scared and go out where I belong.
    asert12345678 asert12345678
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Jul 16, 2012

    Taping Leaves Back On The Trees

    Going to try to lay this out without sounding whiny. I was married for 23 years, & have two daughters ages 15 & 19. We moved to different states every couple of years & as a result, for 23 years we had no friends for more than a couple of years at a time. In short, I was the...
    sevvv sevvv
    Oct 2, 2012

    What It Means To Live

    Most days it feels like I'm barely breathing. I'm doing so many things at once. Between college, wanting to read and write like crazy at this particular moment, I feel overwhelmed with a sense of that missing something. I hardly laugh anymore, I hardly smile. The only times I...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks
    26-30, F
    Jan 28, 2012

    There Goes The Spirits~

    I know, that people all over the world are suffering in their own kind of problems and everyone's is different. I've lost myself, or you may say, my passion for life and sense of reality. I'm like dead but alive? "A sense of automation, going through the motions of life but...
    Silver92 Silver92
    Jun 4, 2012

    Where Did I Go?

    I get up each morning but I don't really live my life. I just go through all the motions. Sometimes I don't even do that! I just put off things I know I should do. I feel so overwelmed like my world has crashed and I am merely a survivor trying to find her way in this world...
    CatastrophicDreamer CatastrophicDreamer
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Oct 2, 2007
    johnjw johnjw
    41-45, M
    Feb 22, 2014

    Boyfriend... With A Husband On The Side.

    I love my boyfriend, but I am married and my husband and I live together. My boyfriend and I have been involved for 20 years but never seemed to want to be together for whatever reason.We have both pretty much just been on "standby" for one another always at anytime. We have...
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Apr 30, 2012


    I feel so lonly like no one is there for me and it hurts a lot that my family will treat me this. Im 17 years old and i feel like my family doesen't care about me. They all get along perfectly but no one gets along with me im always fighting with everyone and i do say mean things...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 3, 2012

    Why Do I Have To Feel This Way

    There was once a time when I was so so happy. I look back at those days and wonder what went wrong, when I started feeling I guess you could say not myself. I mean I do have moments of happiness like when I see my son do something new or when it was his first day of pre k last...
    Wnt2BmeAgain Wnt2BmeAgain
    26-30, F
    Sep 9, 2012
    deleted deleted
    Apr 3, 2014

    I Am Not Me Anymore

    My Life Forever Changed At Age 11 A Nightmare I Re-live Often, (I Learned Then Love Is A LIE) From That Moment On I Begin Searching For Something Deep Inside, Smiling On The OutSide While Hurting Within.... At 15 I Gave What Was Left Of Me Away Thinking It Would Help Take Some Of...
    UnKnown000 UnKnown000
    May 10, 2012

    Orphaned Adult

    My young mother recently died in my arms, in my home of cancer. I am an only child. She was all I had, I was all she had. I'm terrified of each day now. I miss her so much it hurts to breathe. I was born to be left behind over and over again. Everyone has gone. I will never...
    Pitrescue4 Pitrescue4
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Sep 20, 2012

    Would Like to Just Start

    No sure I've had the chance to more than exist But i would love the chance to start Haven't had the chance to do much But would love the chance to try Haven't had the chance to see much But looking forward to when i do Haven't had a chance to reach for my dreams But would...
    tulick tulick
    31-35, F
    11 Responses May 31, 2008

    Time To Live

    I almost died last year . After numerous surgeries I am recovering. Today is the time to live and make each moment count
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 18, 2012

    For My Rapists

    Rapists, I thought Id write you a letter.Before I begin this letter is not meant to threaten you, or to tell you to kill yourself, hurt yourself, or cause any pain. This letter is meant to show you what the effects of your actions has had on my life, a real person, your "victim...
    Sugarbabyyy2011 Sugarbabyyy2011
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jan 28, 2011

    Girl With The Broken Smile...

    Girl with the broken smile, I love you. You're beautiful, your'e wanted, you're heart is full of dreams that will come true. Now I know it may not seem possible, but it is. You will find a way to see yourself through. Life is a jungle...it has dangers, it has messes, it has...
    Sugarbabyyy2011 Sugarbabyyy2011
    18-21, F
    Jan 29, 2011

    Dont Know What To Do

    i`m married to a man that dont care about nothing i have been trying for nine years for him to do the right thing .... i have been depress i need my life back from looking for work to get him to pay bills so much is being pulled out of me. i was doing better with out him...
    free504 free504
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Mar 12, 2012

    Being Undead Sucks

    i want to live again too. i cannot tell you how terrible it is being a zombie. i mean all you get to eat are brains and it takes forever to get to the mail box cause you can't walk normally anymore due to rigor mortis. I mean at least vampires get to fly and turn into a freaken...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

    Somewhere Along The Line I Died On The Inside

    I seriously feel dead on the inside. I feel like I am always crying on the inside. I can't remember the last time I felt happy. I wish I could go back to a point in time when I felt motivated to accomplish things in life.
    1anonymous1 1anonymous1
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 4, 2011

    People Don't Realize

    People don't realize just how alone I feel inside when battling the darkness of depression.  The hopelessness, despair, sadness and inability to make even the smallest decision are sometimes too much too take so I withdraw completely into myself instead.  People and...
    PiscesDream PiscesDream
    51-55, F
    7 Responses Apr 12, 2007

    Yes I Do I Really Do I Have To Learn To Help Myself More

    I want to live again even when facing these dark times i walk with a candle this time im hanging on to hope and god because i use to simply give up. i use to seriouly hate me and sabotage myself so much it was a torment ,I find myself in similar emotinal loops .. but i also reach...
    mysteriousmistymoon mysteriousmistymoon
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Sep 13, 2010

    I want someone to waste their time on me.

    I want someone to love me for who I am. I want to live like a normal person again and not be so depressed. At the moment, I don't want to be alive, but I don't want to commit suicide. I just want to find somewhere I belong.
    charityjoyy charityjoyy
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 12, 2014

    Oh Taste And See...

    Intense longing sweeping over my mind and soul. No movement in my heart. None at all. It has died and fallen into a state of unconsciousness that no heart should ever go. Lord why? Why am I here in this state? Lord, I loved you before I know I did. I believed in the one you...
    KKmm3 KKmm3
    18-21, M
    Jul 22, 2012

    Boyfriend With....... Husband On The Side..cont My Heart Must Mend, Breaking Cycles

    So I sat husband down and I told him things that made me feel how I felt. I did get very vivid with him. In doing so, husband gave me nothing but a smug attitude that at such a serious time I was not feeling. We've been here before. This is what he always does. I asked him...
    36-40, F
    1 Response May 24, 2012

    Somewhere Along The Way, I Lost Myself.

    A lot of stressful things have happened to me in a short amount of time, and nowadays I spend my days going through the motions, not really living. I do the things I do without finding any meaning in them. I used to be so happy, I believed in so much, had so many plans, but...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 16, 2011

    I Want to Live Again , Without the Pain

    Many people see what I seem to be but only some know who I am , Most of the people that surround me think I can face anything that I fear nothing ,  Through the years I have learned how to hide my true self. I have been hurt, disappointed and betrayed ,  I was always...
    41-45, F
    7 Responses Oct 18, 2006

    Funny Thing... The Grass Isn't Greener! (boyfriend.. With Husband On The Side)

    When going through the "what if's" and "I want to be with my boyfriend", ... Well that boyfriend wasn't ready. I really had to do things for me and get me right so in breaking off with husband, I did continue to talk to bf as well, NOW I SEE WHY WE NEVER BECAME A UNIT!. He has...
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jun 7, 2012

    I Want To Live Again

    i can't wait to see a day when my life is the i want it to be, i want to let go of my depression and sadness and be what i'm supose to be not in a disguise not who i'm not. i want to be who i really am.... 
    bleedouttears bleedouttears
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Dec 2, 2010

    I have lost so many opportunities to shyness

    and fear all I want is just one more chance.
    shaunrain shaunrain
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Mar 17, 2014

    I don't want to have bdd anymore.

    I don't want to have hirsutism anymore. I want to feel normal and not spend every minute of my life obsessing. I envy people who have normal lives. They don't know how lucky they are. I just survive.
    saddeena saddeena
    41-45, F
    Jun 13, 2014
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