.. But I also need to think on how to save my money.
The thing is... I'm worried about my finances. Got to control myself from spending too much now.
I will do budget trips anyway.
I love my life! Lol!
Nothing significant has changed, but that may be the reason for my discontent. I want things to change. I want to look forward to something, lie awake at night unable to fall asleep because I'm too excited. I haven't felt excited for anything in too long. I feel like I've given...
that run through my mind.
Are like a parent, whose child he can not find.
He knows where she is, but no matter.
His vision is blocked, by an unseen splatter.
Is it pride? Is it sadness? Is it fear?
Selfish emotions, his mind doesn't want to hear.
Love drives him on, aimlessly...
I have lost both my mother and my best friend to cancer. The thing about cancer, specially in the final stages, is that you know the end is coming, and it leaves you time, sometimes too much of it, to reflect on your life and what really matters.
What struck me the most is...
entire life and never experience death, and people like me have had it in our face from an early age. The phone call in the middle of the night or a letter sent home to a young soldiers parents are all things that I have had to experience. My first real taste of loss was when I...
an amazing book I got for about fifty cents somewhere, but it is priceless. And I think it could impact your lives, as well, in a positive enlightened way. It's called Who Moved My Cheese? by Spencer Johnson, M.D. It has four characters in it, two mice called Sniff and...
because I don't want to just vegetate and survive - go to work, go home, eat, sleep etc - and I'm not interested in status symbols, marriage, children or settling down. I want to live my life like a beautiful adventure or like a work of art. I want to travel, I want to make...
No matter how old you are there's a lot of temptation in life. Whether it's temptation to have sex, do drugs, or do things for money... They're everywhere. But there's one temptation everyone always seems to fall for. And that's the temptation to change yourself for other...
I have to remember, when I am deep in battle.
And the odds are against me, not to get rattled.
To stay pure of heart, and clear of mind.
When I fight with myself, to myself I am unkind.
It is the past, and the future my foes.
They remind me, of fear and of time long ago.
.. I've suffered from bipolar depression for almost 6 years now, I've lost so much I've lost my innocence to a monster that raped me, I've lost friends and I've lost hope that everything eventually will be fine. It wont. I just want to be able to live my life to the fullest.
what do I see?
I see the eyes of an old soul staring back at me.
One that has played the game, more times than most.
And what can only be described as a ghost.
The ghost of my past, but it does not come to scare.
It is knowledge and wisdom, that it has come to share.
I also see...
of my soul
To cherish every second of this journey
For she is nothing but an untamed desire
I want to live
Daring and wild
For the sake of my heart
To ravel in the beauty that is now
For she is passionate, articulate and captivated
She will not be held
I will not go gently...
A few months back I decided to drastically change my life. After my 7 year relationship ended and a friend of mine committed suicide - I made the decision to STOP waiting for real life to begin and pursue my dream.
So, I left my corporate marketing job in Paris, packed my bags...
**** friends, **** enemies , **** whatever brings you down. Just be you and have fun man. I started taking risks in my life , stopped being shy and scared and just went for it. Even though my life isn't complete or even close to what I want I'm slowly beginning to be happy.
A lot has happened in life since I was last on EP and changes have been happening. To say that I am living in interesting times resonates and some times have been good and some have been not so good, however this is life. I will write about the good as we all have experienced...
I have let you go.
And other times, I feel like I must know.
So in my confusion, I check and see.
If you have the same, ****** up feelings as me.
I never get answers, just become more confused.
Sometimes I am angry, but don't know at who.
Is it you, or is it me? My mind has to...
and living. I was the type of girl who would walk with her head bowed in the hallway, going straight to class without stopping to "chat" or "catch up" or "hang out" with others. I didn't willingly engage in human interaction, and perhaps I made good grades. Perhaps I did well on...
people my whole life and now being independent is hard I hardly spend time at home my home doesn't feel cosy a bit like a garage to hold my car. I want to stay at home more and do my own thing but I'm disconnected from it.
brother yesterday. He had tried to reach me several times during the day but I was at work. We are very close he and I. His tone when we did finally connect made me question what was up. He has had health issues in the past. Yes he also likes to play mind games with me. But to...
once was fun, or at least that's what I thought……
The truth is, in a tangled web was I caught.
Half truths and lies, ingrained in my brain.
That led me to believe, I was winning this game.
But as I look back, I have a theory.
On why I believe, that life became so dreary.
love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.I’ve learned-that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.I’ve learned-that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.I’ve learned-that no...
Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm and...
you are always there.
Your luminescence shines, no matter what you wear.
Your pull controls, the greatest of waves.
You are beautiful, in every stage.
When I look, deep into your eyes.
You see, right through me I cannot hide.
You inspire me, to do great things.
When I listen...
we all go through struggles that shape us and change us. At times our losses may be far more than our gains, we may start looking at others who seem to have it better than us with envy and hate not knowing what they gone through or what they have lost in return of that gain.