I Want to Lock Up My Heart and Never Open It to Anyone Again

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    I kinda have... I never really wanted to I just

    have. I'll have deep feelings for someone for a few days, but then they just disappear one day like they were never there. It's happened like 5 times since my last relationship. :/ I hope eventually I'll open my heart up again and let love back in. I've lost all desire to be...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 17, 2014

    Keeping My Guard Up

    I've learned the best way to prevent your heart from getting broken is to act like you don't have one.I just got my guard up,fed up with you letting me down every time.I'm tired of believing all of your lies. I'm tired of you proving me wrong every time. I'm tired of getting my...
    BreatheEasyAgain BreatheEasyAgain
    36-40, F
    May 22, 2013

    I am tired of opening it

    and being played with ENOUGH !!! ******* worthless despicable excuse of a human male specimens of our species !!:-@
    anasteel2 anasteel2
    41-45, F
    1 Response Sep 17, 2014

    Separate

    The man I have my babies for walked out the door one day and never returned. He now lives with his ex. I wish I neverd loved. I wish my heart was locked up. I hurt so bad cause he is never coming back.
    Babefe5 Babefe5
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Jun 22, 2013

    Love Hurts Sometimes

    I recently (recently being a month ago) decided to give up on girls and the prospect of finding a great relationship.......after admitting my feelings for someone I have known for years and developed feelings for, she didn't care........she brushed my feelings aside like they...
    SuperheroFanboy SuperheroFanboy
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Apr 22, 2013

    Dilemma

    Should I be happy that you are back or SAD because I can't embrace you with open arms?
    BreatheEasyAgain BreatheEasyAgain
    36-40, F
    May 19, 2013

    Lock Up Myheart

    If I would lock up my heart and never open it to anyone again then it is the end.  I have been hurt many times, and I still open my heart.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr
    36-40, F
    2 Responses May 16, 2011

    Claustrophobia

    hi I suffer from claustrophobia and it is getting worse......... lifts   trains...tunnels...back of 2 door cars etc etc     Recently I seem to be thinking of it a lot.. My story starts when I was 23 and 6 months pregnant with my first child.  I...
    close close
    51-55, F
    Aug 12, 2010

    I Thought I Found The One

    and then he broke my heart.  i want to be happy again but i want to hide under a rock.  i never leave my place except to go to work, which is the only good thing in my life right now it seems (besides friends and family).  when i am busy i dont have a chance to think about...
    CanIPushRewind CanIPushRewind
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 20, 2011

    Love Isnt In Me Any More

    she cries alone staring at pictures of an amazing man she will never haveeven though he teased her made her feel like he felt something for herthen when she asked if he really didhe said.....no(i just wanted to add this happened a while ago)
    brokenandalone brokenandalone
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 28, 2010

    I'm am bit for this topic

    but a lot if people say they get hurt by people they try to love. If it helps, realize that there are almost 8 billion people on this planet. I'm sure there is a vast amount that would be perfect for you. If the ones who hurt you by breaking your heart. Look at the common...
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits
    22-25, M
    Sep 18, 2014

    Hi I use to do this but it got to the point ive

    never been loved and it was killing me so I opened up and I have some bad experiences that were upsetting I open my heart to people just for them to mess with it it's like having an open wound by that I mean when I'm kind there never kind back the same way I'm worrying that I'm...
    lor44 lor44
    16-17, F
    Oct 6, 2015

    "broken down, tossed aside,

    heart ripped out, fallen, breathless, struggle found, suffocation, feelings lost, emotions reamed, dreams drowned chaos abound." Well I opened up my heart again to someone I thought I could trust. The feelings seemed mutual and I grew to love her in the past two years. I...
    thenumberonepain thenumberonepain
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 12, 2014

    Is It Worth It

    Why. whats the point. If i knew that love hurt this bad would i have loved. The place where my heart was is a dark empty hole. The pain day after day. night after night. hurts to breath. every beat is a wourld of hurt. Why would i want to open it ever again. the damage is done...
    mommy1978 mommy1978
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Jan 28, 2010

    Rogue's Love Tale of Woe

    I had found the one who took my breathe away. He was right in my back yard. I saw him, and recognized him immediately. I knew that my heart belonged to him. I am always very cautious to whom I lend my heart. So I find it a difficult concept, that It was so easy for him to break...
    RogueAlphaFemale RogueAlphaFemale
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Nov 26, 2008

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