I Want to Recover From Bulimia and Depression

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    Here Again

    Hi, I last wrote here a couple of weeks ago explaining my situation. I have to thank the two people who commented, i really aporeciate it. I fancy writing today, I hope nobody gets tired! I just wanted to say I have been doing a lot of research about this illness. I have read...
    carmenjean carmenjean
    18-21
    5 Responses Feb 23, 2009

    Alcoholism, Depression and Bulimia

    Bulimia started for me when I moved away to university at age 18. It was harder than I thought, and I ended up isolated and lonely. I started binging and purging during the day and partying at night. I eventually moved home again, but I kept on partying, mainly drinking alot...
    charlane charlane
    31-35
    1 Response Aug 4, 2009

    Here It Is.....

    This is hard, where do you start? Do I really want to dig deeper into that dark pit that makes me want to close my eyes and make it all go away? Well I suppose I have too. When I was in high schoool I often times used food as a filler, filling time, filling the emprtiness...
    fallenlight fallenlight
    26-30
    Mar 30, 2011

    Fighting Bulimia

    Hi. I am seventeen, going on eighteen in a couple of months. I have been bulimic for jut over two years now. Only a bout six weeks ago, i decided i had had enough. I could not carry on like this. It all began after a big family lunch. I had been injured for a month after...
    carmenjean carmenjean
    18-21
    8 Responses Feb 5, 2009

    Hell

    hi, i have been bulimic since the age of 15 and am now 36.   my potassium is low, the doctor tells me my kidneys are not functioning well and my uric acid is high and i now get severe gout...   a warning i am sure yet i still cant stop or control the binge/purge...
    domzig domzig
    36-40
    3 Responses Mar 27, 2009
    xoxoCharlierose xoxoCharlierose
    22-25, F
    Nov 7, 2014

    Does It Ever End?

     I have been battling depression and bulimia for three years now. I can remember how it started, like it was yesterday. I was born in a foreign country and came here to the USA when I was eight years old. Years passed as I dreamed about the day when I was going to see all of...
    EmotionallyDead EmotionallyDead
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 9, 2010

    I Never Thought I'd Be Here

    Hello everyone, I am writing because I just don't know where to turn.  About 7 yrs ago I lost alot of weight going from 187 lbs to 110 lbs.  I have pretty much maintained my weight give or take a few lbs.  Over the past 2 yrs I have been under alot of stress...
    desperateforhelp desperateforhelp
    36-40
    1 Response Aug 26, 2009

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