I Want to Recover From Bulimia Nervosa

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 192 People

    I do not want to feel like this anymore.

    I want to recover. I lay in bed every night and think about how I've failed again at beating this. I feel ashamed to talk to anyone about it. I can't see why anyone will ever love me if they knew. I'm exhausted all the time. My mind is a mess. My chest hurts. Hair is thinning...
    AspireToBeFree AspireToBeFree
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 24, 2015

    I Need Help...

    I've been bulimic for 5yrs now. I've hit a low point lately. I moved to a new city where i didn't know anyone, and with no one always around I've been more actively bingeing and purging and i just feel like I've hit rock bottom. Someone please tell me how you've beat this.
    7fromheaven 7fromheaven
    3 Responses Oct 21, 2008

    After working in a nursing home

    and seeing how much taking care of your body plays a part in your life later, I'm afraid of the damage I have already done. My teeth are rotting and hurt and I can't hold anything in anymore. Can't enjoy family get togethers or simple things. I can't take what this is doing to...
    jussme91 jussme91
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 13, 2014

    I have been struggling

    for a few days now and the binge aspect has been a bit overwhelming. I have realised that I just need to keep focused and live in the moment- because this is the most important one and one which you will never get back (a little cliched I know). I have realised that there are...
    lolinghappily03 lolinghappily03
    22-25, F
    Jan 29, 2014

    anybody ever tried 'the easy way' to recover

    from an addiction? (know how it functions, know it's not you, do neither dight nor give up bug accept the urge, and rewire your nerve system) works very well with smoking and worked with weed for me as well, so i will try it on the binging part from tomorrow on - wish me good...
    ochsgrochs ochsgrochs
    26-30, M
    1 Response Aug 28, 2015

    What I Love Most Wnats Me Gone.

    Hi my name is Kimberly and I am bulimic. That’s a pretty solid definition. I mean I can be defined by more than this such as; white, female, ginger, 19 and a half years old. I like to play Mario kart and hula hoop also. For me though-at this point in my life- my major...
    ktrueds ktrueds
    1 Response Sep 21, 2013

    I am so done with bulimia.

    I want to eat normally. I want to be able to not think about food or when I'm eating next all day every day. But the addiction to food and caring a lot about how your body looks is a horrible combination. I want to recover, but I don't want to gain weight, and now I'm stuck in a...
    Ehenry7 Ehenry7
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 21, 2014

    Diary of An Anorexic/bulimic

    One day when I returned from highschool I found my grandmother in the living room; she was over my place and planning to stay for a few days. The first thing she noticed was that I gained weight since she had last seen me. And the very first comment that she made...
    Tonija Tonija
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 21, 2009

    Beloved fellow sufferers.

    Something awesome has happened to me; After being suffering from bulimia for four years and having wasted lots of time, money and energy, I have the feeling that the Eating Disorder is coming to an end. What has happened is that over the time I have read an uncountable...
    ochsgrochs ochsgrochs
    26-30, M
    1 Response Oct 5, 2015

    My Biggest Wish Is To Recover.

    My biggest dream is to recover bulimia. I'm tired of the shame.I'm tired of the fear.I'm tired of my lies and bad excuses.I'm tired of stealing the food from my siblings and parents.I'm tired of going to bed late because of homework I haven't finished because of bulimia.I'm...
    rikkegade rikkegade
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 15, 2012

    That Was A Close One...

    I ALMOST binge/purged. My fiance was gone allll day. I didnt eat all day until 4:30. I was starving... I made a small meal.. Banana with 80 calorie bun and fake low cal peanut butter. After eating it I felt more hungry and wanted to binge sooo bad!! But I didnt! So proud of...
    o0kymmie0o o0kymmie0o
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 15, 2012

    Just Want To Break Free

    My bulimia started when I was 13 and was at its worst when I was 15 & 16. I was purging everything that ate and every now and again I would spend a day just binging and purging.  For the past two years my bulimia has gotten better but since I have stopped purging all the...
    missdaydreamer missdaydreamer
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 28, 2010

    I am 36 years old and have been battling this

    horrible disease for 20 years. I need NEED to recover, it's so damn hard. This is the worst feeling ever. I want to fully enjoy my life and my awesome family (I have a loving husband and an active six year old son). I've been pretty health issue free over the years, which made...
    wendisaw wendisaw
    36-40, F
    Jan 11, 2014

    More than anything. I've tried

    so many times and when I think it's all going great; I relapse.. yet again, and then I can't escape the cycle for so long after that. I used to not realise the impact it was having on my life; the 3 years I've had this. But it's I fired to me that it probably has impacted me...
    rhiamia rhiamia
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 22, 2015

    My Friend

    someone very special to me tole me recently about her having bulimia and wanting to recover from it. i want to help her i but i dont know how. i've started reading all the forums i can find on the subject but i guess what would really help is some advice from people who have or...
    dunnowhattodoo dunnowhattodoo
    18-21, M
    1 Response Nov 4, 2012
    j3nnalov3m3 j3nnalov3m3
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 22, 2015

    All I Ever Wanted Was Everything

    I am 22 years old struggling with bulimia. I have been attending counseling and trying very hard. I have my good days and my bad days. My boyfriend has been very supportive throughout this process. I just really need to speak to people who are actually going through this too.
    slc90 slc90
    26-30, F
    Dec 7, 2012

    I am currently 20 and I have had bulimia

    nervosa on and off since I was about seven. I want to recover I am tired of obsessing with food and carbs and calories and binging and purging. I hate myself for it someday's I can't concentrate because I am so anxious that people can see my disgusting habit and that I am...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 3, 2016

    Today is a bit of a struggle

    but I know I can break this. I have to keep strong.
    lolinghappily03 lolinghappily03
    22-25, F
    Jan 30, 2014

    Hello, gods and goddesses.

    .... I have struggled with bulimia for over 6 years: daily binging and purging, alcohol abuse, stealing, anxiety, and depression. Before that, it was a solid 10 years of self-contempt and endless criticism, uncomfortable in my skin. I am done struggling, though. Now, it's not...
    ElementYogi ElementYogi
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 18, 2014

    This Is The Year

    Bulimia has stolen six years from me........I remember having so much control over food, I was orthorexic. Nothing deemed unhealthy would ever pass my lips and anything that did had to be "earned" by exercise.One day I think I cracked and ate a whole box of cereal bars...
    ladyEm ladyEm
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Jan 8, 2010

    awesome infotmations

    and work sheets to help you/me fight the eating disorder. i'm almost done with part one and must say that i actually picked up quite a bit! about:reader?url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.cci.health.wa.gov.au%2Fresources%2Fconsumers.cfm
    ochsgrochs ochsgrochs
    26-30, M
    Sep 22, 2015

    Nobody is perfect and nothing is absolute.

    Every moment we have to make different decisions and only in that moment will these decisions be relevant. I can write down all the information that I can gather about eating healthily etc but I cannot predict and future and must be MORE adaptable and not use my mistakes as an...
    lolinghappily03 lolinghappily03
    22-25, F
    Feb 1, 2014

    Where Do I Start?

    What started as a way of relieving over-eating becomes a routine to relief stress and anger. There's no doubt there's a body-image reasoning behind my bulimia, but I've used it now as a weapon to make myself feel better, that I'm at least in control of something. I'm a student in...
    huntingjanuary huntingjanuary
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 11, 2010

    I am tired of letting my body define me.

    .. It has taken control over my life and my identity. I want to stop upward or downward comparing my body to models and friends. What started out just being ice cream... Turned into on going purging. I am ashamed of what I do and how long it has taken over. No one knows. I hide...
    HalfPerfect HalfPerfect
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jan 8, 2015

    New Here And A Bit Nervous

    Hi to anyone who might be reading this... I have undulated between anorexia and bulimia since I hit puberty and I am now 22... At the moment I am in a severely bulimic phase but apart from my family (who I don't live with currently) nobody knows and it feels like a massive burden...
    charlotte349 charlotte349
    2 Responses Jun 26, 2013

    Recovery And Meditation

    For the past week, I've felt a little different. I am still bingeing and purging, but it's gone from twice a day to once a day. To many this may sound like not a very big deal, however, I am ecstatic! I feel this shift in my habits and life... slowly gaining respect, love and...
    cicigirl cicigirl
    22-25, F
    Aug 29, 2011

    When you wake up in the morning

    and want to rip your body off When you wish to be invisible When your value comes from the amount of space you take up When the whole meal you just want to be rid of fulfillment Please remember You deserve even more You deserve space You deserve acceptance You are enough No...
    dutyface dutyface
    26-30, F
    Jan 29, 2015

    It's been 15 years...

    .. I just want to cry. I have no life. I have no home. I live with my parents who are desperately ashamed of me and would like me to move out. I have no life and isolate myself from everyone. I have no close friends anymore, they all got fed up of my lack of contact, or social...
    ladyEm ladyEm
    26-30, F
    Feb 25, 2016

    For my personal experience (Now,

    recover from bulimia for > a year), before getting rid of the root of this bulimia problem , I had been focusing only my weight or my weight-line ,my leg ,my thigh so on... I had been watching my calories intake everyday and maybe every meals for almost 10 years. It is...
    belleeec belleeec
    31-35, F
    Jun 25, 2014

    A Bitter Smile, A Sore Throat

    At the age of twelve, I was hospitalized for about three months with anorexia. I was about 5' 2" and I'd whittled myself down to a sixty-seven-pound skeleton. Fortunately, I put enough weight back on to avoid welcoming any significant physical damage. Unfortunately, the smallish...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jul 10, 2011

    Hello, im the new kid!

    will introduce my self viral! have been stuggling with that issue almost 9 years! Never realized the time! Been to doctors but never achieved to finish my programm. When smt is going wrong its my secret friend im counting down 365 days and this is officialy the say ONE.Stay close...
    lilcici90 lilcici90
    26-30, F
    Aug 8, 2014

    My Bulimia Exposé!

    The problem with bulimia is that it's more than an illness; it's an addiction, and like with any addiction, it makes it impossible for you to stop and think about the reasons that lead you to it. I too, never once took the time to analyse what I was really doing. Looking in as...
    mmnnc mmnnc
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Oct 27, 2012

    Guilt Ridden

    I have a personal history of obsessive and compulsive behaviors. I have struggled with bulimia and anorexia since I hit puberty. I have never really been over weight. I’m not really over weight now, and this keeps me from being honest about my problems. I am a 28 year old...
    VlizabethV VlizabethV
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 31, 2012

    Talk To Me

    I have bulimia and I desperately want to recover, someone message me and offer me some support please?:( and if you are also suffering from this disorder i would be happy to talk to you and try to support you, we can do it together, someone please message me x
    recoverymia recoverymia
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Feb 22, 2013

    and it happened again.

    after little more than one month i've done it again - let myself puke all the emotions i don't have away. the problem is that i have food cravings because i do not know anymore what else makes me happy/how to cope with emotions, which lead to binge eating. this happens like...
    ochsgrochs ochsgrochs
    26-30, M
    1 Response Sep 30, 2015

    I have had bulimia for about a year now

    and it is honestly ruining my life. I have always been an anxious person and felt a little bit insecure- when I was younger I had these rituals that I completed to make myself feel safe. But then this anxiety/ need to control came to be all about food. I also have a history...
    lolinghappily03 lolinghappily03
    22-25, F
    Jan 27, 2014

    Struggiling With My Recovery From Bulimia

    I have been dealing with this horrible disease for over 10 years and I desperatly want to be cured, I have a wonderful husband and a wonderful 3 year old that I want to live for. I had a very rought child hood that I think triggered this disorder so that I could have some control...
    jakobsmommy0513 jakobsmommy0513
    4 Responses Jul 29, 2012

    I'm ready to move on from this disease.

    It controls my life and I hate living a secret. I can't tell anyone, but I am looking for support and someone who can recover together.
    misternomad misternomad
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 3, 2015

    I Never Thought It Would Happen To Me

    This is an incomplete story. I am looking for it's ending, and I am hopeful. One day I want to live free from eating disorders. My story starts two years ago, with some events that dented my self-esteem and confidence. At the time, I used food to cope, and used it to stuff my...
    RemarkablySparkly RemarkablySparkly
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 15, 2012

    Staying Positive

    3 weeks binge/purge free. Feels so good!
    o0kymmie0o o0kymmie0o
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Jan 24, 2012

    Every time I purge, I tell myself it's going to

    be last time. The last time I do things that make me want to purge and the last time I actually purge. And I feel good about it for like a week. Then I get out of control again and the cycle repeats. I'm so sick of feeling out of control and like a failure. I'm so sick of...
    Sa5mRachel Sa5mRachel
    22-25, F
    Apr 29, 2014

    Give Me Some Energy

    Last night, i decided to do some research and try to find people i can interact with who have bulimia. this website has been something i have been looking for, and hopefully something to help me recover. so, now to my story. I am 18 years old a freshman in college, and once again...
    lwstiar lwstiar
    2 Responses Apr 11, 2011

    Confessions of a Bulimic

     (TO ALL THOSE WHO SUFFER FROM BULIMIA NERVOSA...YOU CAN RECOVER <3)   It all started when i saw myself through the eyes of others. when people laughed at me, mocked me, bout my weight, about how fat and ugly i was. this happened on a daily basis and i kept...
    Skam Skam
    6 Responses Jul 11, 2009
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