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I Want To Say This To My Dad

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    Dad. I miss you terribly.

    When we made the decision to let you die I felt like it was murder. I know in my head it wasn't, but it was a horrible burden to have to take on and convince mom and brother it was the best decision. I just couldn't let you suffer for one more day, Dad. I know you were surprised...
    OneLifeKitten OneLifeKitten 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 6

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    I release you. You don't owe us; you don't owe

    me. Thanks for sleeping with my mom. I wouldn't be here otherwise. Thanks for begrudgingly writing child support checks until the day after my 18th birthday. Thanks for sending some money towards college after Mom made you. I know you said your obligations were done when...
    FakeIsTheNewReal FakeIsTheNewReal 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 6

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    I love you dad, so much

    that I was just thinking about you and mommy today and broke down badly. I was at my weakest point of my life today and I didn't have you both with me to hold on to. I was barely 7 when they made me sit in an arena, where people read out your funeral messages. All I knew then...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Nov 4, 2015

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    What the **** is wrong with you?

    Go **** yourself you *******.... **** I can't do this I can't even think about talking to him. It's all my fualt everything is always my fualt, I ruined it all.
    GoSameUrSelf GoSameUrSelf 18-21, T 1 Response Jan 7

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    Stfu and go yell at a therapist,

    not me. You obviously need one. Oh wait, you cant afford one because you pissed away your money and your marriage and your life in the ******* casino. Im not the cause of your problems, and neither are my mom and brother. You did this to yourself. You ****** up. Learn to live...
    tarara0414 tarara0414 18-21, F 5 Responses May 10, 2015

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    You'll never see this

    but I still have to say it. It hurts not being able to be with you in the hospital and through all of this, and I know although we never say directly that we love each other but we really do. You will always be my favorite man. Please don't leave yet, i'm not ready...
    Offing Offing 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    "I ****** hate you I never want to see you in

    my life and I'm glad u left" is what I would say to my dad
    ultimatewedgiegodess ultimatewedgiegodess 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    Today, I realised that you failed me

    as a father. You made me feel hated, unwanted and second best to my mum and other siblings. This doesn't mean that, as an adult, I can't forgive you. It doesn't mean that I need to go begging for approval, that I give people nothing but pain by simply existing. The way you...
    Nenmir Nenmir 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 10, 2015

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    Dear dad. I honestly don't know what to say

    because I never thought I'd be writing you a letter and sending it to heaven. You are my hero, my first love and I will never forget the time I had with you. No one will ever understand the connection we had and how much you raised me up when I was down. You were my knight in...
    alice0493 alice0493 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 2, 2015

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    I love you dad, you love us unconditionally

    and I thank you for everything for taking care of us and for providing everything we need even though you're all alone by yourself because mom's not around anymore but we never did felt like something's missing in our lives cuz u r here with us and supports us with all we wanna...
    SleepyHeadSnorelax SleepyHeadSnorelax 16-17, F 5 Responses Aug 27, 2015

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    Bittersweet

    My father is/was a mixed bag. Far from perfect, he beat both my brother and I, and he taught us to fight back physically when people hurt or teased us. His discipline was wildly inconsistent, sometimes hugs and understanding when a beating wouldn't have been unexpected...
    sumnerkagan sumnerkagan 46-50, M 11 Responses Jul 2, 2010

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    Me let you live twice.

    Once before rental properties Once before retirement My reward Broken on psychiatric meds And you staying a deluded monster. Third time me wont stop me. So. Prepare for disabled Since you wont stay away.
    JustBipolarMe JustBipolarMe 46-50, M Dec 9, 2015

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    Dear Daddy

    Dear Daddy, What I'm about to say is what I've been going through. All the things I've seen and thought since the day that I lost you. It was late the other night, when I got that call. The Officer said you were gone. and my world began to fall. I fell to the bed and...
    LC87 LC87 22-25, F 7 Responses Jun 22, 2010

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    tonythetaurus tonythetaurus 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    I didn't deserve your anger

    or your cruelty. Now you want me to be there for you and make your life less lonely. I had forgiven you but then the abuse started all over again. I'm staying away for now!! We shall see what tomorrow brings.
    deleted deleted 26-30 22 Responses Aug 7, 2015

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    I miss you like crazy,

    I still think to myself Ill call Dad he will know then realize I can't anymore. I wish heaven had a phone.. xoxooo
    hazeleyes71 hazeleyes71 41-45, F 8 Responses Oct 22, 2014

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    Daddieeee! I miss you

    so much! Come back to me, will you? "'( I know you can't dad, but I love you so much. and I'm so lonely too. (:'"*(
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 5, 2015

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    I love you as a father,

    but I hate you as a person.
    lifeishurtful lifeishurtful 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 27, 2014

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    A year and a half ago a started to write about

    you Dad. I painted a nice picture. Now I can hardly believe I wrote that. I had had enough distance in space and time to create that fantasy filled with denial because I wanted to be at peace with my parents for my own peace of mind. While there was some facts in my story...
    stufy stufy 51-55 2 Responses Jan 8

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    I know you'll never see this

    and I know that even if you did you wouldn't care. Because of you i have so many issues I can't keep track of them all. The biggest has been trying to find someone to replace you but I've never come close You're the one that sent mom into this depression You're the one who was...
    StacyBeth StacyBeth 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 29, 2015

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    That he's always right.

    ..I'm just slooooow on the uptake :))
    WynterSolstice WynterSolstice 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 6

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    sadcookiemonster sadcookiemonster 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    I can't stand you....

    Last night you where screaming at me... Asking me why I did it.... You know why I did it, but you never care until now, leave me alone
    Rustedarmor Rustedarmor 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    You can't change what you did.

    I will always be your daughter saying you hate me and I'm an accident doesn't change that. You didn't even get to know me. I cry and cry at night because I know you'll never change your mind. I love you want nothing bad for you I just wanted you to love me.
    deleted deleted 26-30 22 Responses Jul 28, 2015

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    sighselly sighselly 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2015

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    I often wonder why you hated me.

    What I did or didn't do that made you decide I wasn't worth loving. I torture myself watching these stupid reality shows with dads walking daughters down the isle or helping them buy their wedding dresses and it brings tears to my eyes knowing I'll never have that. What exactly...
    ctstranger ctstranger 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    You could love me better

    if you put the liquor down.
    Jadathomps2 Jadathomps2 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    To my step dad thank you

    for being there for me for taking me off the streets you and mom left too early I love you thank you daddy
    PrettyLittleJane PrettyLittleJane 22-25, F 6 Responses Jan 6

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    Well dad, you broke my heart long

    before any boy had the chance to.
    TikaTikaTika TikaTikaTika 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 11, 2015

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    I wish I tell him off.

    .. If I could say anything to him it would be a sarcastic list of him being a horrible father. Hey dad remember that time when I was little and you decided to buy cigarettes instead of baby food? Hey dad remember that time you invited your brother to live with us when my mum was...
    RachelDare RachelDare 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    Dad I hate you...you left me

    and mom...I thought you loved us...you said you would never leave...you said you would always be here for me...so where are you now?! Of with another woman...you are the skum under my shoe and I will hate you forever until I die...just go too hell now...I hate you...
    SexySam93 SexySam93 22-25, F 9 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    My Dad was never around

    when I was growing up.He was usually busy in his office and came back late too tired to interact with me.Now he is nearing 80.He has changed.We have become closer.He is still an avid reader and passes his list of books to me to buy.I care for you ,dad and wish you stay in the...
    whitesunshine87 whitesunshine87 51-55, F 4 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    Hey Hey you hoor Drop ded Wife

    number four Telling uncle jeff That his drinking Was ruining family image When you had a gifted kid You ran into the hospital With your drinking The only gifted minor the family had Huhmp a cactus you moron You corrosive sack of bs 2.7 of your 4.0 kids...
    JustBipolarMe JustBipolarMe 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 8

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    Sometimes I really want to call you

    and tell you how damaged I am. How it still hurts when you say that you didn't want to have a girl, especially someone like me. I know you think I am stupid, weak, unworthy and don't really see me as a daughter. After all, you only remember me when you want to show something to...
    Writerannie Writerannie 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    Despite the fact I hate you

    for what you've done to my mom, and how awful of a cold bitter man that you are, I thank you. I thank you by showing me what an awful human being you are. I was lucky to break the cycle with my wife and I will never call my daughter the names you called yours. I hate you but I...
    feralserpentine feralserpentine 31-35, M Jan 6

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    Why did you leave me like that.

    ., knowing we weren't on good terms? Did you have to go that time? Was "HE" calling you? The worst thing about that was i couldn't follow you there just yet. I'm sorry dad... I was angry at you for having an affair .. I guess you didn't love mom anymore.. You got tired raising...
    MissBrave22 MissBrave22 22-25, F Jan 6

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    Rasuna Rasuna 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 18, 2015

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    Rustedarmor Rustedarmor 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 5

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    daddy I love u. I love u no matter how much

    money u have as long as I can still see u i don't care were we go and how much it cost I love u even if u get drunk sometimes and u call us and u don't know wat ur saying I love u even if u and mommy rint together anymore and u havent lived with us since I was 5 I love u...
    chocolatecrazy9010 chocolatecrazy9010 13-15, F Sep 19, 2015

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    Thanks for proving to me

    that not only can a person live without a father, but learn how to block out what people say. it made me realize that you bullying me and abusing me have me scars and scars that prove I'm tough enough to handle anything.
    lizzie9787 lizzie9787 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    As i have grown up- funny how dumb i thought

    you were at 14, then how wise you became when i got married and had kids. I realized how smart you are about the age my fourteen yr old was telling me how dumb i was....thanks for providing stern boundaries, always loving even when i wrecked the car or i didn't understand why i...
    scratchitharder scratchitharder 46-50, M 5 Responses Feb 21, 2015

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    I want to tell you that I miss you every single

    day. My life has never been same since you left us. I wish there was some way to have you back in my life. You were always a great support and always had been the best friend I miss alot now.
    littlestars littlestars 26-30, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Even though we had our issues in the past our

    relationship has grown into a neutral stance. I can see you putting in the effort to be a better person and has given me the hope even the cruelest people can have a change of heart. But you can still be an ******* at many times. Thank you for giving me shelter, food, a home...
    badazzbasicbich badazzbasicbich 22-25, F 12 hrs ago

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    Thanks Dad... I Guess

    I know that I'm not the only person to have had this experience. Life is not always sweet but we can make of it what we choose. My father was completely disassociated… from everything not just me. When he got home from the office he sat and played solitaire, never...
    newdaydogEP newdaydogEP 66-70, M 81 Responses Jun 20, 2010

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    My dad and me were never in a good place.

    Since he knows nothing about me, this summer I decided to write down my lifestory, hoping that by the end he would've been crying. 10 pages of complete cruel honesty.
    Storyofmylife1905 Storyofmylife1905 18-21, F Jan 7

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