I Want to Sleep to Escape the Pain

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    I Love Sleep.

    I love to sleep. Sometimes I wish I could just sleep forever.. and stay in my dream world where I'm not depressed and lonely... and there is no empty feelings. My dreams help me escape from real life. I wish I could just stay there. In that dream world... I hate the moment I...
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes
    18-21, F
    Nov 4, 2009

    In My Dreams I Am Perfect

    Sleep is what I love the most. It takes me to a place other than this physical existence where I feel so shackled. I dont see happiness I feel so ******* lost! I ask myself..am I to blame for this path Ive taken? Wasnt I strong enough to resist all the pain. I know Ill never find...
    PurpleQueenofNowhere PurpleQueenofNowhere
    26-30, F
    Aug 10, 2011

    How I avoid reality.

    At my worst, I sleep over 13 hours every day. I suffer from moderate depression and social anxiety disorder. It is just so much easier to go to sleep then to face my life. However, sleep isn't the only unhealthy outlet I have to escape. I also use TV, Books and Movies to create...
    marleyisso marleyisso
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 23, 2012

    I Hate Myself...

    I am a stupid teenager. I make stupid mistakes. I have make stupid choices. It keeps up with it all. The pain. I watch my love walk down tbe corridors, not even noticing my feelings. Most of the time, I cry myself to sleep. I wish I were mentally stronger. Elena, I wish you were...
    WolfElena1212 WolfElena1212
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 22, 2013

    Escaping Away To Dreamworld

    I always do that. When I feel depressed or angry, I just lie down and cry on my pillow until I fall asleep. Sure, I feel like I've got a hangover later (headache + runny nose + puffy, red eyes), but atleast for a little while, I've escaped my problems. It may sound cowardly, and...
    DarkAngel123 DarkAngel123
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 10, 2010

    I Wish

    I wish I could sleep for a hundred years, like sleeping Beauty. The pain I go through daily is so hard to live with I only get relief when I sleep This way if I slept for a hundred years all the people behind my pain would be long gone. I've started sleeping early just so I don't...
    Klong91 Klong91
    22-25, F
    May 20, 2010

    I Often Have Done This...

    I used to sleep so much as a lonely boy that my family (not just Mom and Dad) would stay on my back about "getting busy with something". They never seemed to realize WHY I slept so much- so I could be in a happier world- they simply thought I was being too lazy! :-( NOT a good...
    GodsLovedMan GodsLovedMan
    41-45, M
    1 Response Oct 21, 2012

    Heartbreak and Ending Friendships

    I just want to go to sleep, and never wake up. Just sleep through it all, die and never know. To get rid of everything, to take control and just do what needs to be done. But I always get cold feet, so i just sleep it off, but it never quite helps all the way.
    Heathie Heathie
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 4, 2009

    One Day At a Time. . . .

    I'm working to take good care of myself one day at a time.    It seems my anxiety waxes and wanes like the cycles of the moon, when I'm feeling overwhelmed I go to ,my default escape- sleep.  The bliss of not having to be awake to "deal". Yet upon...
    rebelucion rebelucion
    36-40, F
    3 Responses May 26, 2009

    Sleep The Pain Away

    All I want to do is sleep so I wont have to deal with life which is so painful. I try to escape the pain but running away from it does not help. I wish this emotional baggage would leave NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!
    sufferingmypaininsilence sufferingmypaininsilence
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 11, 2012

    I Do It Constantly

    It's sad and a waste of life, but I'm don't know what I'm becoming or whats wrong with me. I'm not interested in reading. Or television. Or taking the bus out. I have the motivation of a corpse. I have things that trouble me. My life depresses me. So i take pills and sleep alot.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Nov 10, 2009

    Dreaming.

    I fall asleep in hopes of dreaming that everything will be like the way it was before, back when everything was okay. Everytime I wake up and realise I'm back to the hell I've delt through, I feel like crying. I don't wish to get up, I just wish for everything to become okay. I...
    SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick SkinnyThoughtsAndRedLipstick
    18-21, F
    Mar 20, 2013

    I Dont Think Im Depressed... But I'm Always Tired

    So I sleep... a lot. When i don't work, i sleep. When i'm not with my boyfriend... i sleep. I'll even sleep instead of eating when i'm hungry... and i love food. I really don't know how to tell if i'm depressed. Let me share with you my backstory: [[[[ When i was 20, I became...
    Kristle Kristle
    22-25, F
    Aug 1, 2011

    Good Night World

    I have a depression problem. So when ever I get depressed, the main thing I want to do is sleep. When I'm asleep, I am at peace. Sure I may have bad dreams here and there, but sometimes even those bad dreams are better than reality. When I'm having a good dream, I just never want...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 1, 2012

    It Hurts!

    Today I finally got my closure but it came at a huge price. He finally had to admit that he treated me appallingly. He had to face what he had done, the damage he has caused, the pain and suffering he has made me go through all because he was a selfish coward. He told me he...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 25, 2012

    How Else Can You Deal With The Pain?

    After one of those days...when you confirmed what you already knew: outside your room...everything out there it's not worth it...the world isn't a nice place, most people are ugly inside, and you still endured the best you can and tried to be a functional, responsible...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 5, 2010

    Oh That Would Be Great !

    if i could just stay asleep forever. i love sleeping. i hate it when i wake up to someone (my mom most of the time)  telling me to get up to go take the dog outside or take out the trash ect. i just want to go to sleep for weeks. in fact, i want to go to sleep now even...
    needhelpconfused needhelpconfused
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Oct 27, 2009

    I Think I'll Do That Right Now

    Pop a Klonopin. I feel rejected in general(other people have jobs and significant others) and on EP?. And I still am freaking out a little about Blueapocalypse even though I should tell myself he's the freak.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 27, 2009

    Sleep Gives Me Peace

    when i sleep i forget all proplems my heart never hurt me in bed .. and when i wake up i feel  better ... when u wanna feel peace .. relaxing .. go to sleep
    yasminehateslifealot yasminehateslifealot
    13-15, F
    Jan 7, 2010

    I Do

    I sleep to escape the pain, when its that time of the month, or when I am sick *Like today* I sleep to escape the pain & it usually works. Today it worked well for me. I was only up for about maybe a whole hour today, before now, & I feel better.   Sometimes...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 6, 2009

    Is it normal to feel complete agonizing torture

    the moment you open your eyes every morning and realize your body won't let you sleep anymore after 16 hours?
    alen79 alen79
    36-40, M
    Jan 11, 2015

    You Are My Dream....

    I have a problem. The problem is my head is in the clouds. My mind is in a fantasy. My heart beats in a different world. My eyes see a different world. This is not reality. This is not the cold hard truth. This is not real... Half in and half out, as If in a lucid dream. I see...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Oct 24, 2013

    Sleep To Forget

    I sleep so I won't have to be awake and think about my emotional problems. When I sleep I'm at peace. It's like my only escape and my problems are forgotten unless I dream about them. Sometimes when you sleep on it you feel a little better when you wake up or just...
    keepdreaming keepdreaming
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 6, 2010

    All The Time

    I sleep!, whenever I am upset, sad, depressed, angry about something, or am under a lot of pressure i sleep. It has become second nature, its how i run from things... if something really upsetting has happened between me and someone close... instead of trying to figure it out...
    LonelyPandaBear LonelyPandaBear
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 3, 2011

    I Have Escaped

    sleep was my escape from my abuse  sleep was my peace i didnt have to feel the pain of getting hit and abused i didnt have to be there beclase sleep took me to a diffrent land a land of safty and peace sleep was my ecsape
    lunnas lunnas
    41-45, F
    1 Response Nov 2, 2009

    The pain I'm going through is unbearable,

    I dont know if its period pains or just cramps and it has been going on for sometimes now.....I dont really want to cry anymore Its not worth my tears...I'm even failing to sleep can anyone help how can I escape this pain#cries
    MissLouw MissLouw
    22-25, F
    Sep 9, 2014

    Often

    I do it more often then I would like to admit. I love sleep it's the only time I don't feel pain. I don't have to think or feel. When I awake from a long sleep I immediately feel dread. I am afraid if I stay awake I will lose my sanity so I close my eyes real tight and try to get...
    HurricaneLeia HurricaneLeia
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Sep 18, 2009

    Sometimes....

    Sometimes all I want to do is to sleep the pain away. I want to close my eyes, and go to sleep till all the pain that I am dealing with, and suffering with will just go away. Almost everyday is a daily painful day, its one more day that I hate looking forward to. I hate waking...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses May 28, 2009

    Been There, Done That, and I Know It Hurts

    I don't do this much any more.  I've found other coping strategies which are fairly easy to do, like taking a walk.  There have been periods in my life, though, that were very painful, and the blissfulness of sleep was one of the best places to run from my issues...
    UnderEli UnderEli
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Jul 23, 2009

    Pain Sleeps With Me !

    It is just that I don't feel bad when I'm asleep ! and the moments before I fall asleep is the only moments I feel safe !
    Sunson Sunson
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Oct 31, 2009

    I'M Never Awake At Home

    When I went home for winter break, I remembered why I left in the first place. I just didn't want to be around the negativity and since I don't get out much, I became nocturnal. took some Benadryl during the day when I didn't feel like dealing with it and was awake at night when...
    NDieHard NDieHard
    22-25, F
    Mar 12, 2013

    Sleep Please!

    Sometimes all I want to do is to sleep the pain away. I want to close my eyes, and go to sleep till all the pain that I am dealing with, and suffering with will just go away. Almost everyday is a daily painful day, its one more day that I hate looking forward to. I hate waking...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 6, 2009

    Sleep Is My Escape

    I don't sleep to escape pain, just life in general.Too much work to do?  Naptime!Hungry but too lazy to go get food?  Nap and I won't feel hungryHeadache?  Naptime!Confused? Naptime!Sad? Naptime!Angry? Naptime!Bored? Naptime!Overwhelmed?  Naptime!
    SaveWorldSaveMyself SaveWorldSaveMyself
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Mar 22, 2011

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