I Want to Stop Feeling

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 162 People

    I recently had to make a major decision,

    and now I'm dealing with consequences that tear at my insides. Picking between your future, job, schoolwork, versus trying to hold on to a relationship that's falling apart because of the other events in your life make it hard to see each other. Even though I made the decision...
    Nanders01 Nanders01
    18-21, M
    Sep 21, 2014

    Feel.

    i feel the pain on my heart all the time. but i didnt feel anything when i was digging a razor deep into my skin.
    asdflkjghlove asdflkjghlove
    16-17, F
    Jan 31, 2008

    To wake up and feel the se feelings in my head

    is nothing short of being prison. How can someone wake up and feel the way I do every second of the day. How do I cope? I don't time just keep ticking
    toniyl toniyl
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Sep 20, 2014

    I no longer want to be with my partner.

    But i still love him, and its restricting me, i literally can not leave him. The worst part is he knows this .
    CassieSamuel CassieSamuel
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 6

    And Start Doing

    I know it is up to me to do something and yet nothing is happening. I want to get more courage for something to happen.
    asert12345678 asert12345678
    31-35, M
    Feb 6, 2013

    Unsure

    everyday I wake up and I just feel so much pain a deep sorrow a sense of pain that I can't explain no matter what I do it won't go away it slowly consumes me. I wish I could just stop feeling everyones emotions its so draining.!
    T28 T28
    22-25
    Aug 2, 2008

    have you ever felt so broken?

    like the world is just out to get you?that the tears fall down your cheeks and cover the pillow? just curled in a ball wondering what you did wrong? no explanations. that the hurt is all you feel from your heart to your bones? that everything aches?
    moongoddess35 moongoddess35
    31-35, F
    Feb 26

    today I feel a rage on my way

    and I just want to give my head a shot so that I can past out immediately. I smell weeds someone passed by and immediately i understand why people wants to drug themselves because it is so painful to being awake.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 24

    Machine

    I want to stop feeling. I don't want to care so much. I hate taking every little thing personally, so personally that I dwell and dwell and dwell on it until I've totally blown it out of proportion. I want to stop feeling scared. I want to become a machine. No emotions...
    UnseenBlossom UnseenBlossom
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jan 3, 2009

    Feelings get in the way of reason

    and distort logic. I want to stop this in order to have a reasonable view on life and situations. It is taking me too long to get an understanding to make logical decisions in scenarios that arise in life.
    asert12345678 asert12345678
    31-35, M
    Feb 26

    I cant see anyone in pain i just cant it

    constricts my heart and i feel like crying !!
    anasteel2 anasteel2
    41-45, F
    Sep 20, 2014

    Good Idea

    I think if I stop feeling, I might start thinking a bit more! and I need to think, specially right now that everything has become so complected.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Mar 8, 2009

    When i left my partner i didnt miss him really.

    I saw someone for a little while, nothing serious wasn't going anywhere... But i find my self missing that guy.. Even tho im back with my partner .. Things arnt great ill admit, but i do love him I just CAN NOT STOP missing the other fella at all
    CassieSamuel CassieSamuel
    22-25, F
    Mar 10

    Stop...

    Can't I be apathetic for ever? I don't want to feel anymore. I don't want to get hurt. I don't want to be involved with others. I don't want to care anymore. I just want to stop feeling. I want to live my life and never think about other people.
    anschel anschel
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jan 4, 2009

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