I really want to..but I can't
people know how to make me feel bad about myself
sometimes I try to love myself but I'm afraid to work hard to do that & then it take someone a second to convince me I shouldn't
...but I just really don't know how anymore. It's like I've been this way for so long that this is the only way I know how to feel about myself. Without it, I sometimes think that my very identity would evaporate...