I Want to Stop Hurting Myself

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    I Am One of You

    I  am one of you ive starved myself becalse of being in so much mental pain ive taken winow glass and went down both sides of my legs bealse i was in so much pain i still do the hurting thing becalse i know how to hide what i do to my self but not as much now mine...
    lunnas lunnas
    41-45, F
    4 Responses May 14, 2009

    Because I Forgot.

    I forgot just about everything that comes with hurting yourself. I forgot how easy it it to become addicted. I forgot how hard it is to constantly hide my scars. I forgot how much time it consumes. I forgot that it solves nothing. I forgot that it's an endless cycle of pain...
    Yoru Yoru
    18-21
    2 Responses Sep 24, 2011

    I was once a monster with only blood on my mind

    u were my best friend that helped me feel alive u made me see that I was not a killer but a lover so u cut ur name into my sick it hurt but I loved it Cuz it meant I was urs then u left me Cuz started to be normal but before u left u cut ur name on my heart that pain kills me I...
    vice13 vice13
    16-17
    Feb 1, 2015

    This pain that I live with.

    It's not even the cuts. They don't hurt, but instead the urges do. The fact that I do cut hurts. I hate what I'm doing to myself. I want to never cut again, but how can you stop doing something you love? It's mentally draining. The billion times I worry about my scars or cuts...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 10, 2014

    I lost my best friend

    and idk what to do! She was everything i needed. And now she's gone. Last night i cut myself because i know i probably wont get her back. I miss her so much...
    alexislucash alexislucash
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 27, 2014

    Maybe One Day

    I'm hoping one day i wont hurt myself anymore. I keep a lot of my emotions inside which is y i think i hurt myself. I don't let it out that way so i gotta let it someway and i sometimes it feels good. If that makes any sense at all. But I'm hoping i can learn to express my...
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 21, 2010

    3 Months

    I used to cut myself and I've tried to drown myself before, i felt like giving up and i felt like a failure, and failing at suicide doesnt really boost my confidence, but i told a councilor at school. She got me help and i havent hurt myself in almost 3 months. It was a lot...
    childcalledit childcalledit
    22-25, T
    3 Responses Oct 7, 2009

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