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I Want to Stop Hurting Myself

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    I lost my best friend

    and idk what to do! She was everything i needed. And now she's gone. Last night i cut myself because i know i probably wont get her back. I miss her so much...
    alexislucash alexislucash 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2014

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    Maybe One Day

    I'm hoping one day i wont hurt myself anymore. I keep a lot of my emotions inside which is y i think i hurt myself. I don't let it out that way so i gotta let it someway and i sometimes it feels good. If that makes any sense at all. But I'm hoping i can learn to express my...
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2010

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    This pain that I live with.

    It's not even the cuts. They don't hurt, but instead the urges do. The fact that I do cut hurts. I hate what I'm doing to myself. I want to never cut again, but how can you stop doing something you love? It's mentally draining. The billion times I worry about my scars or cuts...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    I was once a monster with only blood on my mind

    u were my best friend that helped me feel alive u made me see that I was not a killer but a lover so u cut ur name into my sick it hurt but I loved it Cuz it meant I was urs then u left me Cuz started to be normal but before u left u cut ur name on my heart that pain kills me I...
    vice13 vice13 16-17 Feb 1

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    3 Months

    I used to cut myself and I've tried to drown myself before, i felt like giving up and i felt like a failure, and failing at suicide doesnt really boost my confidence, but i told a councilor at school. She got me help and i havent hurt myself in almost 3 months. It was a lot...
    childcalledit childcalledit 22-25, T 3 Responses Oct 7, 2009

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    I Am One of You

    I  am one of you ive starved myself becalse of being in so much mental pain ive taken winow glass and went down both sides of my legs bealse i was in so much pain i still do the hurting thing becalse i know how to hide what i do to my self but not as much now mine...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 4 Responses May 14, 2009

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    Because I Forgot.

    I forgot just about everything that comes with hurting yourself. I forgot how easy it it to become addicted. I forgot how hard it is to constantly hide my scars. I forgot how much time it consumes. I forgot that it solves nothing. I forgot that it's an endless cycle of pain...
    Yoru Yoru 18-21 2 Responses Sep 24, 2011

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    In lot of ways....i´m really creative when it comes to that
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 5 Responses Mar 31

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    My heart will not stop hurting. I just want to sleep
    Nurse68 Nurse68 41-45, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I want to change my life. I've taken already some steps, but I can't stop now or it's all just gonna revert back to where I started from! Changing who I am, how I look at the world...
    Featherwings Featherwings 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    key word: want to but I can't. it's getting hard with the aching stomach and the weird looks from people whenever I don't finish and once I start I can't stop and I just want to...
    awayfromlife awayfromlife 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I know this sounds really stupid, but I have terrible issues dealing with guilt, and there have been so many times when I lay face down under the covers in my bed and think about...
    TheEnduringSunrise TheEnduringSunrise 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Nice Thought I am afraid human nature stops this from ever being a reality which is such a pity as I believe most people are generally kind and loving etc unfortunately greed and...
    nakednudist nakednudist 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 11

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    A few things about me... I leave disjointed pieces of myself all over the Internet. I do not have multiple personalities in a schizophrenic sense, but I am tired of the separation...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    I really really want to cut. I ****** this guy today and he started getting a little to rough so I told him I was done and to stop but he didn't listen. I kept telling him to stop...
    monstertrainwreck monstertrainwreck 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I feel that this need becomes an addiction and I keep chasing the next high here. I have stopping myself for the past week pretty much but I am so need of a fix right now. I don...
    jacqueline1972 jacqueline1972 36-40, T 2 Responses Apr 6

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    I've been clean for two months, but honestly I don't want to be anymore, I need to, or at least I feel like I need to, I just need it ti stop, I need to feel okay again at least...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 13

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    I wish I had it in me to be selfish and only care about myself. It's not fun being everyone's support when you don't have your own.
    shestehsweetest shestehsweetest 18-21, F Apr 4

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    My addiction to the sensuous beauty of ****, does nothing to help me to pretend to be content with my sex life. Ohhhhh, to be wanted and desired like this... http://sirs...
    BexAddiction BexAddiction 36-40, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Today I will accept that I spent a lot of my time on the phone. I think I did ot because I was searchig for some sort of approval. I also spread my blog at the internet so that...
    energymustmove energymustmove 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I want to make the world around me a better place just to prove myself and for all those people who think of suicide as the only way out...You've to know that being able to breath...
    Sparklecat Sparklecat 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 28

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    8 years ago I was pregnant with son s who was to be born with a birth defect. My bf who is now my husband woke me up while he was drunk and started kicking, hitting, and pulling my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 15

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    Okay bye I'm going to go cut myself I'm sorry Alexa but my feelings are hurt and I want the pain to go away
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response Apr 16

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    i promised my best friend that i wouldnt cut myself and im 26 days clean but i just feel so empty and sad and terrible and idk i feel like cutting is the only way that i can take...
    bandsth0 bandsth0 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 17

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    There's always moments like this where I just have the incredible urge to cut myself. Thanks family. I love you too.
    PrincessPolarBear PrincessPolarBear 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    I wanna cut myself now....I messed up on so much I thought I knew things thought I had it figured out turns out I was all wrong and things r worser then what they seem
    lostbrokeheart lostbrokeheart 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    Woohoo! I feel like I'm on the right path to seek self reinvention! I've almost secured a job at a fabulous retail store, am finally cutting my hair for a fresh look, changed my...
    fairynights fairynights 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    I'm so ******* tired of being a friendly person all the time. Those moments when I feel like punching that person in the gut cuz they're too narrow-minded and rude.... What could I...
    ArtInsanity ArtInsanity 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 17

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    Tomorrow I'm going to start starving myself again.. If anyone has this same goal please give me a shout I need a buddy.. I am 19
    ThinWish ThinWish 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I finally tell them and they dont believe it I show them proof they still dont and they block me over it...hes always gonna get what he wants and say what he wants to me and they...
    lostbrokeheart lostbrokeheart 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 26

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    Be who I want when I want wherever I want.
    Abilohman Abilohman 26-30 1 Response Apr 12

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    I want to eat and eat till I can't even sit up or look over my enormous belly full of food
    fattenmelikelugia fattenmelikelugia 18-21, M Apr 1

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    Urges, urges. Seeing my scars fade is such a huge trigger, it makes me want to remake them. I'm 16 days clean, I miss it. I think I'll take a shower and eat something and take a...
    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    My head hurts right now ..I wish I could just go to sleep bc this is bullshit -__-
    Regretiam Regretiam 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I am me. I am an original, not a copycat. I am a Disney baby. I am a Skillet junkie. (Christian rock, metal) I am 37 years old but I don't look, sound, dress, talk or act like a...
    blankcheck4urhart blankcheck4urhart 36-40, F Mar 26

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    2 days clean....this is a torture so far....
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 26

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    Dyed hair the colors of night or day. Clothes draped, down in splendor, boots high in gear, illustrated like a fantasy hero. With a striking expression, I stand tall, strong, and...
    Reanou Reanou 16-17, F Mar 26

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    Just one, from my wrist to my elbow. That sounds like a fantastic idea.
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 6 Responses Apr 2

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    Say "Hello", and leave five words to sum up your day......
    1LikeMind 1LikeMind 51-55, M 4 Responses Apr 2

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    I am 25 and 350 pounds. I love being fat. When I sit down my belly rolls out and my thighs are huge. I only have one issue I can't get out of my apartment now.
    ssbbwgurl ssbbwgurl 22-25, F Apr 4

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    Mayra Rosales actually ate herself to immobility. When I first saw her story I thought she was much older. However, she was became immobile in her early 20's. I noticed bottom...
    fetishfat fetishfat 36-40 1 Response Apr 6

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    I feel so ******* anxious...like, I just wanna gouge my eyes out and rip the flesh off my face. I feel like I'm gonna throw up. My stomach feels like it's gonna crawl out of my...
    EmbraceTheEVIL EmbraceTheEVIL 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 8