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I Want to Stop Hurting Myself

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    I Am One of You

    I  am one of you ive starved myself becalse of being in so much mental pain ive taken winow glass and went down both sides of my legs bealse i was in so much pain i still do the hurting thing becalse i know how to hide what i do to my self but not as much now mine...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 4 Responses May 14, 2009

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    3 Months

    I used to cut myself and I've tried to drown myself before, i felt like giving up and i felt like a failure, and failing at suicide doesnt really boost my confidence, but i told a councilor at school. She got me help and i havent hurt myself in almost 3 months. It was a lot...
    childcalledit childcalledit 22-25, T 3 Responses Oct 7, 2009

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    Maybe One Day

    I'm hoping one day i wont hurt myself anymore. I keep a lot of my emotions inside which is y i think i hurt myself. I don't let it out that way so i gotta let it someway and i sometimes it feels good. If that makes any sense at all. But I'm hoping i can learn to express my...
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2010

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    This pain that I live with.

    It's not even the cuts. They don't hurt, but instead the urges do. The fact that I do cut hurts. I hate what I'm doing to myself. I want to never cut again, but how can you stop doing something you love? It's mentally draining. The billion times I worry about my scars or cuts...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    I lost my best friend

    and idk what to do! She was everything i needed. And now she's gone. Last night i cut myself because i know i probably wont get her back. I miss her so much...
    alexislucash alexislucash 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2014

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    I was once a monster with only blood on my mind

    u were my best friend that helped me feel alive u made me see that I was not a killer but a lover so u cut ur name into my sick it hurt but I loved it Cuz it meant I was urs then u left me Cuz started to be normal but before u left u cut ur name on my heart that pain kills me I...
    vice13 vice13 16-17 Feb 1

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    Because I Forgot.

    I forgot just about everything that comes with hurting yourself. I forgot how easy it it to become addicted. I forgot how hard it is to constantly hide my scars. I forgot how much time it consumes. I forgot that it solves nothing. I forgot that it's an endless cycle of pain...
    Yoru Yoru 18-21 2 Responses Sep 24, 2011

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    I was starving myself and I put myself on a strict diet to eat 3 meals a day and nothing else. But recently, I just ate and ate, and now I have managed to gain so much more...
    bpc2415 bpc2415 13-15, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I've done this countless times but always go back to food and I absolutely hate myself for this. I wish I could starve myself because I want to be skinny, as skinny as a corpse...
    brokenxwings0 brokenxwings0 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    We are afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care at all.
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    There is no meI am multitudeI think I have been trying to fool myself with the idea that I can uncover the real me. That if I delve deep enough, explore long enough, that I will...
    jacquelinejones jacquelinejones 46-50 4 days ago

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    I miss cutting so much and want to start again but I'm afraid that someone will see it because it's summer time,so it's noticeable😔
    Nina157 Nina157 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I just took a pin and made my first cut. At first I just scratched my skin, too scared of the pain. But the mark it left looked beautiful, so i made more and I started to bleed...
    julespools julespools 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    I just did on my thigh ugh im so pathetic
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I haven't cut myself in about a month or so and all I can think about it starting up again. These thoughts terrify me.
    hannahkath hannahkath 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    Starting from when I was 11, I was suicidal and depressed and not one person noticed. It went on until I was 16 and then it got way worse. I was put on suicide watch one night and...
    Holdmecloser122 Holdmecloser122 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    I've sat here all evening and stuffed my face with a huge cheese and bacon burger, xxxl fries and a xxxl soda for after I've gorged on two sharer bags of chocolate, a sharer bag of...
    Bigblonde86 Bigblonde86 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    I want to love and appreciate my body and mind the way that they are and not beat myself up over my flaws.
    mohawkmom mohawkmom 26-30, F Jun 27

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    My gf sexts her ex bf..... My heart hurts
    alejandragucci alejandragucci 18-21, F Jun 26

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    I would love to role play with someone who would shrink me and make me be their baby boy!
    babymatty121589 babymatty121589 22-25, M Jun 26

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    I just want to sit there and bask in my glory.
    CaptainHoof CaptainHoof 18-21, M Jun 25

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    What do you see? What do you see in my eyes? Tell me. That is really what hurts the most... You were to blind to see. http://youtu.be/7qH4qyi1-Ys
    l1skub4n l1skub4n 26-30, F Jun 25

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    to myself im very too outspoken easy to talk to always comes off pleasant, talks hella a lot, very childlike ( only close friends see that side) serious when needed...what id wanna...
    apperentlyicanthavemynameagain apperentlyicanthavemynameagain 18-21, F Jun 22

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    So tell me, who will help me? When it's 4 am and a shaky hand has my blade against my skin.. And all these thoughts rush in. When my streak is no longer there and I'm in a fetal...
    UnderTheSleeves UnderTheSleeves 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 22

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    I've always wanted to see myself from a different point of veiw. When we look at ourselves we always see the imperfections. Do people see an akward girl? A dumb blond? What do they...
    Lalaloopsiebabe Lalaloopsiebabe 13-15, F Jun 21

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    My image of myself is not as others tell me I am. Intensely flawed, broken and worthless is often what I see when I look at my reflection. I struggle with the compliments that...
    Superficialsaint Superficialsaint 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 21

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    Yes..i would love to have someone in my life who would know me, understand me much more than i know my own self to tell me about the flaws i have, the good as well as the bad...
    Elaina12 Elaina12 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 21

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    More like to see how i look and act... and if I'm attractive 😂 but yeah
    DQcountry DQcountry 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 21

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    This I think would be interesting. Then I could see what I need to fix about myself. And what I'm really like.
    kRypt0lite kRypt0lite 22-25 Jun 21

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    Or do I? What if met me and thought I was a *****? That would be awkward!
    CaffeineJunky CaffeineJunky 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 21

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    I'd probably find out some stuff about myself that I didn't want to know.
    LonerToMost84 LonerToMost84 16-17, M Jun 20

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    For all those girls here on ep that want help to become immobile pm me , I am here to help you reach your weight. I do not care what your goal is .
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 20

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    I actually wouldn't want to meet myself. we'd have so much in common it would get pretty boring pretty quick.
    dnikalee1 dnikalee1 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 20

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    that would be cool..........
    bmorev bmorev 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 20

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    I think I'm awesome, but I'm probably biased. I would like to know what it's like to talk to me.
    WalkingMyOwnPath WalkingMyOwnPath 41-45, M Jun 20

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    To let go does not mean to stop caring, it means I can’t do it for someone else. To let go is not to cut myself off, it’s the realization that I can’t control another. To...
    aliveisawesome aliveisawesome 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 20

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    Just looking at the old scars makes me want to reopen them all. To feel the cold, dull blade of the scissors clawing away on my wrists, my legs, my whole being. I feel nostalgic...
    oddkinks oddkinks 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    every time I pick up food I look at my thighs so I won't eat it
    aliviacamilla aliviacamilla 13-15, F Jun 18

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    I have to start starving myself to lose weight ... I need help though! Is there a starving buddy out there? I need tips/and more
    onlystarve onlystarve 18-21, F Jun 18

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    I just cut. I want more. I need more. My blades are my only friends. Nobody cares.
    anthonyalfano anthonyalfano 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 18

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    I've been deeply insecure ever since I was about 11 years old and when I turned 15 my eating habits started becoming weird. I never could look at myself and like what I see. The...
    lovebugg11 lovebugg11 18-21, F Jun 17

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