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I Want to Stop Hurting Myself

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    Maybe One Day

    I'm hoping one day i wont hurt myself anymore. I keep a lot of my emotions inside which is y i think i hurt myself. I don't let it out that way so i gotta let it someway and i sometimes it feels good. If that makes any sense at all. But I'm hoping i can learn to express my...
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2010

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    I lost my best friend

    and idk what to do! She was everything i needed. And now she's gone. Last night i cut myself because i know i probably wont get her back. I miss her so much...
    alexislucash alexislucash 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2014

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    3 Months

    I used to cut myself and I've tried to drown myself before, i felt like giving up and i felt like a failure, and failing at suicide doesnt really boost my confidence, but i told a councilor at school. She got me help and i havent hurt myself in almost 3 months. It was a lot...
    childcalledit childcalledit 22-25, T 3 Responses Oct 7, 2009

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    This pain that I live with.

    It's not even the cuts. They don't hurt, but instead the urges do. The fact that I do cut hurts. I hate what I'm doing to myself. I want to never cut again, but how can you stop doing something you love? It's mentally draining. The billion times I worry about my scars or cuts...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    Because I Forgot.

    I forgot just about everything that comes with hurting yourself. I forgot how easy it it to become addicted. I forgot how hard it is to constantly hide my scars. I forgot how much time it consumes. I forgot that it solves nothing. I forgot that it's an endless cycle of pain...
    Yoru Yoru 18-21 2 Responses Sep 24, 2011

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    I Am One of You

    I  am one of you ive starved myself becalse of being in so much mental pain ive taken winow glass and went down both sides of my legs bealse i was in so much pain i still do the hurting thing becalse i know how to hide what i do to my self but not as much now mine...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 4 Responses May 14, 2009

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    I was once a monster with only blood on my mind

    u were my best friend that helped me feel alive u made me see that I was not a killer but a lover so u cut ur name into my sick it hurt but I loved it Cuz it meant I was urs then u left me Cuz started to be normal but before u left u cut ur name on my heart that pain kills me I...
    vice13 vice13 16-17 Feb 1

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    I tried writing this experience once but it shut down in the middle, so I'm a little frustrated but I'll try again. I was saying that I find myself doing things just for the sole...
    Shamandora Shamandora 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    Wish People Would Just Chill Out And Stop Hurting Each Other
    goodnites1011 goodnites1011 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I haven't cut myself in such a long time. It's been months since I've had urges but I really want to hurt myself and tear myself apart today. I don't know what to do. I can't get...
    burningcolors burningcolors 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I want a bullet(s) inside me maybe I'm just insane, but for some reason I fancy having a bullet(s) inside of me, I don't know why. I want to shoot myself in the bicep, in the leg...
    IFeelSoLonely101 IFeelSoLonely101 18-21, M Feb 14

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    yeah well... life is just great. like anyone'd care. I'm just depressing to be around. people don't want to be around someone who brings them down. I try to act okay. but it...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    It's a struggle, but I know inner peace comes from it. Perhaps I'll never be 'happy.' I think I can be okay with that, as I have lost something that was so dear to me, but perhaps...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I lost my razor and was about a good 2 month since I have cut myself. I felt like part of myself was missing when I lost it. I sometimes have this urge to cut myself. Then I don...
    NocturnalMiss23 NocturnalMiss23 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    I'm an introvert and that's why im bad in expressing myself. its not helping that my face is a stoic and unemotional one, looks like -_- at all time. often because of that, people...
    namingishard namingishard 18-21, F Feb 16

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    I though EP would be a place where I could anonymously be myself without fear or judgment, but the fact is that due to the nature of my life, I can never be myself ANYWHERE. If...
    milkysecret milkysecret 36-40, F 4 Responses Feb 17

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    It's been 3 years. I want to so bad. My skins practically itchy I wanna see the white flesh. The way it splits. First pink then white then full of blood. Flayed open. It'll...
    thebeautifulprincess thebeautifulprincess 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 20

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    I remind myself I was never lost in the first place. Like that song. Didnt know I was lost... When do we lose ourselves? Do we really? or just learning and wanting more means we...
    R0GUE R0GUE 70+ a week ago

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    I touch myself any time I can and as much as I can. I enjoy it and touching myself feels good.
    planter715 planter715 51-55, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I can't stand blood.. But at times of my life things get so pent up that I feel like I'm going to explode and the only way to distract myself or let some of the pain out is to...
    insomniac16 insomniac16 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Well I felt so locked that I started to supress my inner feelings in the fear of loosing people.But now I know I m loosing them no matter what I do but I will not express myself...
    UniqueAngel123 UniqueAngel123 18-21, F Feb 4

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    im afraid of being home alone I just have a strong urge to cut right now I dont know how long I will last and im so scared of myself and urges I just started trying to quit...
    Crystalsgirl08 Crystalsgirl08 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    sometimes am well rounded and sometimes i just wanna lock myself in my closet its really bad kinda depression! because ive lost interest in everything and hating even my fam i feel...
    anonymously5 anonymously5 22-25, F a week ago

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    Time to leave self doubt, worry, fear, second guessing myself,and playing out false scenarios in my head that are usually negative. Time to make my load a little bit lighter by...
    Anonymouscoast Anonymouscoast 22-25 6 days ago

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    How do I keep myself from cutting? I need help
    homesickbaby homesickbaby 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I've cut myself once, and I dont know if I should tell someone or not. I really don't know what to do or who I can trust.
    jeanine281 jeanine281 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    i want to get fat i am 14 need someone from leeds england to feed me up amd stuff me i am already a bit fat but i want to be immobile girls who want to feed me message me
    prodemonz prodemonz 13-15, M 1 Response a week ago

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    500 and want to be 800. god I want to be an immobile pig, fat and oinking. a true slob. I don't care about health (have too many health problems to list and I smoke too) but I like...
    immobilekattie immobilekattie 22-25, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I want to...but I'm not going to. It's just hard to stay strong :(
    XxFuckYouxX XxFuckYouxX 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I don't know who to believe....or who to trust.... I just want to end it... I'm done with getting hurt... I'm tired of getting hurt...
    nomnommings nomnommings 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    There are times, usually when I screw up, where I just want to scratch and scratch at my forearms until I bleed. Luckily I'm in a good place at the moment but the struggle is still...
    flamingfangirl flamingfangirl 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Mostly emotional. I keep going back to the past, try to reason with old friend/boyfriends. It just turns out terrible.
    Mathclass1999 Mathclass1999 13-15, F Feb 4

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    I'm stupidly clumsy and always do things that come back to bite me later.
    UnfinishedStar UnfinishedStar 18-21, F Feb 5

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    How do I move on and look straight ahead?
    justhatgurl justhatgurl 16-17, F Feb 8

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    i was just wet my pants stood there for like 7 mins peeing a river load on floor then i sat in mess an cried while my dog sniffed me an other licked the mess DX
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 18-21, M Feb 11

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    It's how I escape from the pain for a lil while and right now I really just need to escape. :'(
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 6

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    Great...just great...i can't remember where's my blade now....
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 9 Responses Feb 12

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    If the truth be know, everyone has touched themselves, the question is did they finish the job? The first time for me was age 12, it was pleasant then and it still is today. Its...
    sunrise1946 sunrise1946 66-70 4 Responses Feb 12

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    I crave it i wanna feel the cold blade across my pale flesh an watch my ruby blood create a river....maybe then i will be free
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 18-21, M Feb 19

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    Sadly yes. I won't to cut badly.not fun
    lileva lileva 16-17, F Feb 19

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