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I Want to Stop Hurting Myself

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    3 Months

    I used to cut myself and I've tried to drown myself before, i felt like giving up and i felt like a failure, and failing at suicide doesnt really boost my confidence, but i told a councilor at school. She got me help and i havent hurt myself in almost 3 months. It was a lot...
    childcalledit childcalledit 22-25, T 3 Responses Oct 7, 2009

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    I lost my best friend

    and idk what to do! She was everything i needed. And now she's gone. Last night i cut myself because i know i probably wont get her back. I miss her so much...
    alexislucash alexislucash 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    It's been over half a year

    since I cut myself for the first time. I got home from school and had been stressed and as they say "when it rains, it's pouring". I got inside my apartment and I suddenly felt... empty. Empty in a whole new way. I felt like I watching a movie inside my head. Like those hands...
    iiSabishii iiSabishii 18-21, F Mar 24

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    Because I Forgot.

    I forgot just about everything that comes with hurting yourself. I forgot how easy it it to become addicted. I forgot how hard it is to constantly hide my scars. I forgot how much time it consumes. I forgot that it solves nothing. I forgot that it's an endless cycle of pain...
    Yoru Yoru 18-21 2 Responses Sep 24, 2011

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    This pain that I live with.

    It's not even the cuts. They don't hurt, but instead the urges do. The fact that I do cut hurts. I hate what I'm doing to myself. I want to never cut again, but how can you stop doing something you love? It's mentally draining. The billion times I worry about my scars or cuts...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 10

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    Maybe One Day

    I'm hoping one day i wont hurt myself anymore. I keep a lot of my emotions inside which is y i think i hurt myself. I don't let it out that way so i gotta let it someway and i sometimes it feels good. If that makes any sense at all. But I'm hoping i can learn to express my...
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2010

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    I Am One of You

    I  am one of you ive starved myself becalse of being in so much mental pain ive taken winow glass and went down both sides of my legs bealse i was in so much pain i still do the hurting thing becalse i know how to hide what i do to my self but not as much now mine...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 4 Responses May 14, 2009

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    When I get frustrated or extremely upset or argue with someone I want to hurt myself. Its mainly when I argue with my close friends and mother. I feel so bad about things I said or...
    kleox7x kleox7x 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I want to cut myself so badly right now. I feel so useless and dumb, and pointless. that's all. i don't even feel like elaborating on that, if im honest
    caffeineeforowls caffeineeforowls 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm honestly rather addicted to cutting myself. I stopped 5 years ago but recently relapsed. I don't want to be like that either, but the pain from cutting makes me feel better. I...
    Verasayshi Verasayshi 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Every day i do the same stupid ****. Cutting of burning myself because its a release. Then i get angry at myself for cutting and then cut more to release that anger. Im stupid...
    RazorToMySkin RazorToMySkin 16-17, M a week ago

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    I have started doing risky things - mainly meeting strangers for sex - to hurt myself. And it's working. I've been lucky so far that the men have been safe. But I keep pushing...
    chumiloons chumiloons 41-45, F Sep 4

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    I am a stuntman and am pursuing a career in it it's like an inner obsession to be a thrill junkie and hurt myself (not on purpose)! Idk why I just do
    MTBlake33 MTBlake33 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    I feel like I'm worthless, I feel sad and angry and i feel neglected by my friends. I have always felt like I would never cut myself because at that time in life I was happy and...
    AnonymousSloth AnonymousSloth 13-15 3 days ago

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    Well, this isn't really a past experience but here goes... Since I left college, the people who I thought were my friends are ignoring me and sometimes it really feels like I'm...
    smify123146 smify123146 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 4

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    I know it takes two but why don't I hold him accountable too for the end of our relationship? We got into a fight in February and stopped talking to each other, it was a game of...
    shasha73 shasha73 41-45 4 days ago

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    I know it takes two but why don't I hold him accountable too for the end of our relationship? We got into a fight in February and stopped talking to each other, it was a game of...
    shasha73 shasha73 41-45 4 days ago

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    I can't seem to let my past go.. I cNt stop thinking of the horrible things I've done Asa teenager now I 20 yrs old .. But it haunts me to this day to think of those things I did...
    amoriette amoriette 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I wish I could just be happy with what I am and what I can accomplish...when I don't feel the love from anyone...like really feel the love...I then get down on myself thinking it...
    saturnsdaughter saturnsdaughter 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 29

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    I do. I really ******* do. *runs hands through my hair* because life right now is so hard and now I can't even think straight and it's killing me to be the way I am.. with everyone...
    BENDrowned BENDrowned 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Well my cutting streak that was only happening because of people wanting me to stop and my family being around making me not cut is going to end today. Im kind of happy.... Or...
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M Sep 5

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    Im normally very good with controlling my emotions and am not a vulnerable person but I cant stop thinking about all the bad things I have done in the past, its really troubling me...
    petealoop petealoop 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 12

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    Me and my exfiance broke up over a year ago, i still beat myself up over what could have been if we would have stayed together
    kait1121 kait1121 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 12

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    "NO LIMBS, NO LIMITS!" I am going to probably write one of the harshest comments in public now, but I think it is my duty, I can't stand to just stare and keep reading without...
    TNTandCHOCOLATE TNTandCHOCOLATE 31-35 Sep 7

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    I have been having these STRONG urges to cut I am trying to stop for my girlfriend but it's hard to do it for someone else :(
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 4 days ago

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    Right now I want to be able to cut myself so that blood just comes out in gushes I want to do that and then watch it as I am listening to some of my favorite music I want to do...
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 4

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    Ugh I'm so tired of being fat but when I try to starve myself I can neverrrrrr do it cuz when I see food I eat . I weigh 128 and I'm 5'1 I wanna be atleast 115 . So I'm going to...
    Kaileyynicole Kaileyynicole 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I find myself wanting to cut. Been clean for 2 months. Trust me im trying really hard to stay clean. I've been a cutter since i was 13 i think... Was able to stay clean for 3 years...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    In order for the person on the outside to feel like who i am on the inside i am going to: Dye my hair- a dark red Change my style- to gothic and alternative. I also want to wear...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 23

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    Your probably mot going to understand this But im to tired to hurt myself like. I want to go to sleep But im still going to try I feel like i have to I have to prove this
    KovusShame KovusShame 13-15, F Sep 2

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    I cut myself again and I want to do more. Sometimes it never goes away.
    nofrankinway nofrankinway 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I always am myself when it comes to anyone. I feel that it's better to be real and not fake. Life is way better that way.
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    I'm sick of not being able to find anything good about myself.
    Theycallherelly Theycallherelly 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 2

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    Being myself doesn't work, I'm too weird for everyone. I don't know what should I be instead.
    ThatAwkwardOne ThatAwkwardOne 16-17, M Sep 12

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    I need help. I have to introduce myself to 7 and 8 year olds, because I'll be assisting their class at dance for the next year, But I don't know how to do it
    Swagaliciousk Swagaliciousk 13-15, F Sep 13

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    Hello everyone, what sup. Alizeh here. I shall introduce myself to you all. Well my name is Alizeh, I am 23 years old and I was born and raised in Karachi, Pakistan. I did my...
    alizehasif alizehasif 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 13

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    it's getting incredibly hard to resist right now...i keep trying to go to sleep but it's hard to when i have this urge..i know i probably sound really pathetic and i know i'm...
    Rememberme79 Rememberme79 16-17, M Aug 23

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    Anyone want to be my starving buddy? I just can't take it anymore I just want to be skinny I'm starting tomorrow morning
    Maria134747 Maria134747 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    I hurt so bad. I tried so hard. I wrote a poem, worked a little on my book, worked on my drawing for my friend...but it hurts too much and my wrists are hot with need to relieve...
    ForeverBlueForeverAlone ForeverBlueForeverAlone 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 27

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    I want to right now but i have to wait a couple hours so my parents dont wake up possibly and walk into my room
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M Aug 27

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    I am just sitting here... Putting my feelings in a word document... doesn't help much... I don't think i want to live much longer... the sun is being drown out... i can no longer...
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 30

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    I want to I've been wanting so much lastly after last week when I almost went a little to deep I got scared but it been to hard not too do it I have to!!!!!!!!!! But this I want...
    Amyann114 Amyann114 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 30

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    It's funny....how even though you want to die, collapse on the floor and forget about the world...you can lose yourself in the pain...and it makes life that little bit more...
    SuicidalUnicorn SuicidalUnicorn 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 3

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    From the number of posts here, doesn't it seem strange why people still get married nowadays? I think the entire institution of marriage is flawed. Forgive my ranting here but IMHO...
    novembermountain novembermountain 41-45, F Sep 3

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    Get it memorized. Ana has a boyfriend, and it is yours truly. If you're going to add me to the circle MAINLY due to the fact Ana uses this account most of the time, just delete...
    PerfectTwo18 PerfectTwo18 13-15, F Sep 5

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    I forgive everybody else, but your self is the hardest to forgive. I want to forgive me. Do you forgive me? Will you treat me better than I have been treated?
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 2 Responses Sep 6

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    The last day was good. But then I spent the whole time thinking it though and it was ok; now everything finally sinking in and all want to do is cut.
    Amyann114 Amyann114 13-15, F 1 Response