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I Want to Stop Hurting Myself

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    This pain that I live with.

    It's not even the cuts. They don't hurt, but instead the urges do. The fact that I do cut hurts. I hate what I'm doing to myself. I want to never cut again, but how can you stop doing something you love? It's mentally draining. The billion times I worry about my scars or cuts...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    Maybe One Day

    I'm hoping one day i wont hurt myself anymore. I keep a lot of my emotions inside which is y i think i hurt myself. I don't let it out that way so i gotta let it someway and i sometimes it feels good. If that makes any sense at all. But I'm hoping i can learn to express my...
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2010

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    I Am One of You

    I  am one of you ive starved myself becalse of being in so much mental pain ive taken winow glass and went down both sides of my legs bealse i was in so much pain i still do the hurting thing becalse i know how to hide what i do to my self but not as much now mine...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 4 Responses May 14, 2009

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    I lost my best friend

    and idk what to do! She was everything i needed. And now she's gone. Last night i cut myself because i know i probably wont get her back. I miss her so much...
    alexislucash alexislucash 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2014

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    Because I Forgot.

    I forgot just about everything that comes with hurting yourself. I forgot how easy it it to become addicted. I forgot how hard it is to constantly hide my scars. I forgot how much time it consumes. I forgot that it solves nothing. I forgot that it's an endless cycle of pain...
    Yoru Yoru 18-21 2 Responses Sep 24, 2011

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    3 Months

    I used to cut myself and I've tried to drown myself before, i felt like giving up and i felt like a failure, and failing at suicide doesnt really boost my confidence, but i told a councilor at school. She got me help and i havent hurt myself in almost 3 months. It was a lot...
    childcalledit childcalledit 22-25, T 3 Responses Oct 7, 2009

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    I tried so hard to resist cutting I begged myself I told myself I couldn't I even went through the torture of hiding it through my ahead again but I gave in and once j was insulted...
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    it's really hard to not cut myself right now, but i don't know how much longer i can hold on, all the hateful comments, being blamed for things I've never done, school is not...
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    I never have before, but I really want to right now. I want my body to feel the pain that my mind has to go through. I dont even really know what Im upset about right now...
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    I can't find another way of feeling alive...i often avoid eating or sleeping...i am not cutting cuz my parents would be really upset but i want to do it so much...and our family...
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    My 7 months clean can go to hell. Im done. I really want to feel my blade slice my wrist again. Feelin that relieve again. Oh god..
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    Alli13146 Alli13146 13-15, F Jan 11

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    If I don't go after what I want, I'll never have it. If I don't ask, the answer will always be no. If I don't step forward, I'll always be in the same place.
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    how can I fit in to your busy world? will my absence will cause more space in your crowded life, or its unnoticeable..? acceptance is such a hard word to swallow..
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