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I Want to Stop Hurting Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 64 People

    3 Months

    I used to cut myself and I've tried to drown myself before, i felt like giving up and i felt like a failure, and failing at suicide doesnt really boost my confidence, but i told a councilor at school. She got me help and i havent hurt myself in almost 3 months. It was a lot...
    childcalledit childcalledit 22-25, T 3 Responses Oct 7, 2009

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    Because I Forgot.

    I forgot just about everything that comes with hurting yourself. I forgot how easy it it to become addicted. I forgot how hard it is to constantly hide my scars. I forgot how much time it consumes. I forgot that it solves nothing. I forgot that it's an endless cycle of pain...
    Yoru Yoru 18-21 2 Responses Sep 24, 2011

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    I lost my best friend

    and idk what to do! She was everything i needed. And now she's gone. Last night i cut myself because i know i probably wont get her back. I miss her so much...
    alexislucash alexislucash 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2014

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    This pain that I live with.

    It's not even the cuts. They don't hurt, but instead the urges do. The fact that I do cut hurts. I hate what I'm doing to myself. I want to never cut again, but how can you stop doing something you love? It's mentally draining. The billion times I worry about my scars or cuts...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    Maybe One Day

    I'm hoping one day i wont hurt myself anymore. I keep a lot of my emotions inside which is y i think i hurt myself. I don't let it out that way so i gotta let it someway and i sometimes it feels good. If that makes any sense at all. But I'm hoping i can learn to express my...
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2010

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    I Am One of You

    I  am one of you ive starved myself becalse of being in so much mental pain ive taken winow glass and went down both sides of my legs bealse i was in so much pain i still do the hurting thing becalse i know how to hide what i do to my self but not as much now mine...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 4 Responses May 14, 2009

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    I was once a monster with only blood on my mind

    u were my best friend that helped me feel alive u made me see that I was not a killer but a lover so u cut ur name into my sick it hurt but I loved it Cuz it meant I was urs then u left me Cuz started to be normal but before u left u cut ur name on my heart that pain kills me I...
    vice13 vice13 16-17 Feb 1

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    I haven't cut myself in such a long time. It's been months since I've had urges but I really want to hurt myself and tear myself apart today. I don't know what to do. I can't get...
    burningcolors burningcolors 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    Hi...I'm Keira. I'm Irish and just moved to Canada. I love cute animals and want to be a veterinarian or possibly a teacher. I only like girls...that way, and would prefer to add...
    KissKeira KissKeira 18-21, F 15 hrs ago

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    It's been 8 months. I still haven't had the guts to throw my blades away, they're like my safety blanket, always there when I need them, but I've been doing well anyway. Especially...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I was caught cutting and had no option but to stop. I'm 41 days clean and I am so triggered. I'm going insane, I really need to cut. I just don't know where. I can't cut on my...
    smgasf smgasf 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 8

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    I lost my razor and was about a good 2 month since I have cut myself. I felt like part of myself was missing when I lost it. I sometimes have this urge to cut myself. Then I don...
    NocturnalMiss23 NocturnalMiss23 26-30, F Feb 27

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    Screw pretending to be happy. This is EP. I can be as depressing and miserable as I want. I can't stand this. I want to slash my arm open but I can't because I have to pretend to...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I hate myself for being so needy. so clingy. I feel so stupid for... being me. I dont want to be alone... but maybe I really am a bad girlfriend. Im trying not to cut but... I feel...
    Bigcat1697 Bigcat1697 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am being struggling a long time in finding out who I really am ,I being trying out various activities which I thought would fit my personality but unfortunately it did not help...
    darkheart93 darkheart93 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 13

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    I've cut myself once, and I dont know if I should tell someone or not. I really don't know what to do or who I can trust.
    jeanine281 jeanine281 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 2

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    i cant take everything i hate myself to feel the cold blade across my skin see the blood dripping down to get some relief of this daily torment
    givenupforever givenupforever 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I've looked everywhere, but I can't seem to find websites or things like that for people who like and want health problems from being fat. Of anyone knows of a site like this, or...
    ThePlanetSaturn ThePlanetSaturn 13-15, M Mar 8

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    I finally tell them and they dont believe it I show them proof they still dont and they block me over it...hes always gonna get what he wants and say what he wants to me and they...
    lostbrokeheart lostbrokeheart 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I want to...but I'm not going to. It's just hard to stay strong :(
    TeethTheSizeOfPianoKeys TeethTheSizeOfPianoKeys 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 28

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    I don't know who to believe....or who to trust.... I just want to end it... I'm done with getting hurt... I'm tired of getting hurt...
    nomnommings nomnommings 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 28

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    There are times, usually when I screw up, where I just want to scratch and scratch at my forearms until I bleed. Luckily I'm in a good place at the moment but the struggle is still...
    flamingfangirl flamingfangirl 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    yeah well... life is just great. like anyone'd care. I'm just depressing to be around. people don't want to be around someone who brings them down. I try to act okay. but it...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 4

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    But jerks rule. Until they dont. So that wish fails often.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 8

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    im cutting my self and i hope i die
    taken102 taken102 13-15, F 4 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    man men lie n lie can't be real with there dam self
    theysay32 theysay32 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 2

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    Why is everything so ******* depressing? Why am I such a failure? I fail...that's why I'm here, to fail and let people down...
    TeethTheSizeOfPianoKeys TeethTheSizeOfPianoKeys 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 2

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    There's no pain anymore, I cut and there's no pain, the blood runs down my arm and it's cold, there's no warmth. where do I go to feel??
    crabspanner crabspanner 36-40, M Mar 4

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    I pretty much have already. I'm 17 and 612 lbs but gaining more every day. I can barley stand up even with people helping me and I can't stand or walk for about 30 seconds. I can't...
    bigfatteen1 bigfatteen1 16-17, M 4 Responses Mar 5

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    not even going out on a Friday. not been to work can't face anything. FML
    CheatingTracy CheatingTracy 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 6

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    I've been clean for a few weeks but i feel like that's all i can turn to, the razor blade.
    Hailey7685 Hailey7685 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    I wish to make someone happy in return from love(it don't need trully to be love, just be caring) and a family.
    HeterosexualTransexual HeterosexualTransexual 18-21, T Mar 8

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    I took off my bracelets and saw my scars and my bracelet marks too
    elephant17 elephant17 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    ... and I cant help it when its the middle of the night and I sleep without my clothes on. Its so easily accessible.. theres no way you couldnt.
    AlexasValencia AlexasValencia 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 13

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    I have been clean for about 7 months. Ive had this missing cutting feeling for the whole time but like the past couple weeks I've been like CRAVING IT. Like my body's GONNA die...
    jess965 jess965 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I have never self-harmed. I have delay with depression for about five years now and this is the first time cutting has ever crossed my mind. I have the sudden urge to do it and I'm...
    Tiledoqueen Tiledoqueen 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    I absolutely love thanksgiving. I already eat a lot as it is but my girlfriend and pig out soooooo much. Every year i gain quite a few pounds around the holidays and i love it...
    Ilovefat44 Ilovefat44 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I am me. I am an original, not a copycat. I am a Disney baby. I am a Skillet junkie. (Christian rock, metal) I am 37 years old but I don't look, sound, dress, talk or act like a...
    blankcheck4urhart blankcheck4urhart 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    2 days clean....this is a torture so far....
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dyed hair the colors of night or day. Clothes draped, down in splendor, boots high in gear, illustrated like a fantasy hero. With a striking expression, I stand tall, strong, and...
    Reanou Reanou 16-17, F 17 hrs ago

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    Ever since I was younger, I don't react to disappointing others very well. I had always been wary about how they see me and how I should act around them because I feel like no one...
    JalynArr JalynArr 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    I just had to let to go the person I loved the most in my life out of my life. It was constantly like trying to fit together puzzle pieces when there were always some missing. I...
    newsoul93 newsoul93 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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