Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Want to Stop Hurting Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 67 People

    This pain that I live with.

    It's not even the cuts. They don't hurt, but instead the urges do. The fact that I do cut hurts. I hate what I'm doing to myself. I want to never cut again, but how can you stop doing something you love? It's mentally draining. The billion times I worry about my scars or cuts...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 10, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Am One of You

    I  am one of you ive starved myself becalse of being in so much mental pain ive taken winow glass and went down both sides of my legs bealse i was in so much pain i still do the hurting thing becalse i know how to hide what i do to my self but not as much now mine...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 4 Responses May 14, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Maybe One Day

    I'm hoping one day i wont hurt myself anymore. I keep a lot of my emotions inside which is y i think i hurt myself. I don't let it out that way so i gotta let it someway and i sometimes it feels good. If that makes any sense at all. But I'm hoping i can learn to express my...
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Because I Forgot.

    I forgot just about everything that comes with hurting yourself. I forgot how easy it it to become addicted. I forgot how hard it is to constantly hide my scars. I forgot how much time it consumes. I forgot that it solves nothing. I forgot that it's an endless cycle of pain...
    Yoru Yoru 18-21 2 Responses Sep 24, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I was once a monster with only blood on my mind

    u were my best friend that helped me feel alive u made me see that I was not a killer but a lover so u cut ur name into my sick it hurt but I loved it Cuz it meant I was urs then u left me Cuz started to be normal but before u left u cut ur name on my heart that pain kills me I...
    vice13 vice13 16-17 Feb 1

    Your Response

    Cancel

    3 Months

    I used to cut myself and I've tried to drown myself before, i felt like giving up and i felt like a failure, and failing at suicide doesnt really boost my confidence, but i told a councilor at school. She got me help and i havent hurt myself in almost 3 months. It was a lot...
    childcalledit childcalledit 22-25, T 3 Responses Oct 7, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I lost my best friend

    and idk what to do! She was everything i needed. And now she's gone. Last night i cut myself because i know i probably wont get her back. I miss her so much...
    alexislucash alexislucash 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    I wish my brain had an off switch, I just can't stop punishing myself
    Badaboomtish Badaboomtish 36-40, M 2 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It makes me feel alive. It makes me feel a way no one else can make me feel.
    BloodyVictim BloodyVictim 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    This is my ultimate fantasy. Piling on the pounds while confined to my bed by my own massive body. I would need a tube of weight gain shake constantly pumped into my mouth. There...
    anatome anatome 18-21, F 16 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    feel so destroyed i always expected this...that it will fade away this illusion i cherish...i lived in..for some bright moments in my life i was ready to give all...never taken...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 3 Responses 23 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I haven't cut in maybe 7 months but I haven't been taking my meds like I should 😢
    PurpleHart PurpleHart 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    After 3 surgeries and and a biopsy coming up on the 30th I can no longer continue grad school . I have to learn to put myself and my health first . Who knows maybe this will lead...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My emotions are out of whack... Help
    thecrystaltan thecrystaltan 16-17, F 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have a habit of blaming myself. I'll get treated badly on an emotional level and i get upset but then when hubby apologises i forgive and say its not his fault. Then I walk...
    Moodygirlie Moodygirlie 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    when I first began to express myself, I got judged a lot. Either it was for what I was wearing, my makeup , my music I listened to. I'm here to tell you guys just to be yourself...
    scaredscarlet scaredscarlet 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm new to this but I want some feed back on twin flames I have a story through remember I didn't about twin flames its Long but interesting because is over a 7 year period Hello...
    june2009 june2009 22-25, M 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    UGH!! I want to cut right now. I get made fun of in school for having autism. This one girl keeps bullying me an hitting me I cant anymore. UGH!!! Holding a razor right now.
    NaomiSarah1 NaomiSarah1 18-21, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I do not allow others who are miserable with their life. to take my joy! I will stand on what I know is right even if I stand alone. I will help anyone who truly needs a hand. I...
    Babeondwy Babeondwy 41-45, F a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    If you touch me, I can stop touching myself..
    PinkSpotlight PinkSpotlight 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 23

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Well I promised someone I wouldnt cut anymore, never said I wouldnt beat myself with a drum stick
    ksnowman ksnowman 18-21, M Jul 22

    Your Response

    Cancel
    crap is it normal for your wrist to hurt after 2 weeks since i last cut?
    imapainter imapainter 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 21

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've been weaing tights since I was a child, now I'm near 30 years old, and I decided to try out a skirt & heels... What can I say... I found them fun, exciting, and more than...
    LegStyles LegStyles 26-30, M Jul 20

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Dear Achelle, Hey, what are you doing? You know what, many told you that you are a good person,caring,sweet and loving. You always think about others first right? :) Do you...
    Achelle07 Achelle07 22-25, F Jul 19

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Broken relationship, difficulty in adjustment in a new environment,not being able to do that wished to do, suffering from inner critic,not being able to speak loudly and clearly...
    mahataz mahataz 18-21, F Jul 18

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Looking for a wild girl 15-30 who's willing to get on skype with me for some "Fun" Just message me if your interested
    ketrasau ketrasau 18-21, M Jul 17

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It sounds strange, but I want to give myself argyria, which is a condition where the body has a large buildup of silver and will permanently turn your skin blue. Like, Papa Smurf...
    Novagain Novagain 31-35, M Jul 17

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I don't know who I am and I am frustrated. I always pretend to be someone else. It worked, but it no longer happy. I want to be myself, but I don't know me....well, I know me just...
    anonymousgirl003 anonymousgirl003 18-21, F Jul 17

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It's been almost 14 months, when is it going to stop hurting...
    Madison18 Madison18 18-21, F Jul 17

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've been clean all summer. But i long to slide a blade over my wrists one more time... One is after all, all it takes.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I want to not worry about sleepless nights spent crying and hurting myself. I want to not spend days at a time alone in my room. I want to have friends and people to talk to. I...
    mattheadplus mattheadplus 16-17, M Jul 15

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Found a pencil sharpener and removed the blade. Nearly 3 months are down the drain due to a piece of metal.
    Demifaun Demifaun 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 15

    Your Response

    Cancel
    If you want to just point out how stupid or shallow I seem , don't bother to comment. I know what I am thanks :) Saying I always want to look my best doesn't really sound too bad...
    KILLsonia KILLsonia 18-21, F 10 Responses Jul 14

    Your Response

    Cancel
    1: My name is Emily. 2: I'm 15. 3: My middle name is Rose. 4: I have a twin sister who is 2 minutes older than me 5: We are fraternal though. 6: I am very indecisive 7: My...
    Emsickles Emsickles 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 13

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I am not a man that lives in this world to lie. Fabricate and sugarcoat things because it will hurt you. Lieing and feeding/living lie lives is going to hurt so much worse then...
    bigbear9521 bigbear9521 18-21, M Jul 13

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have decided to be bold And go through with acconplishing My goal without second guessing My self ..... Who cares if i fall... I Will stand up again ... And again.... Because i...
    leiyah leiyah 26-30, F Jul 13

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I want to cut and be done with everything too much to handle havent gone to school in about 2 weeks UGH Hugs?
    NaomiSarah1 NaomiSarah1 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 13

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I am an Ordained Minister of the Universal Life Church. Any private conversations are covered by Spiritual Advisor Confidentiality. I won't ever divulge the contents and I don't...
    FatherDan FatherDan 70+, M Jul 13

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm so ******* stupid!!! I'm such a dumb *** and no one cares about me .-. I try so hard to talk to my family but they all ignore me.... I wish my mom would of got an abortion...
    PrincessManuela PrincessManuela 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    cant decide on just putting this on vacation or deleting it entirely. id be happiest if i could leave everything permanently. id go and erase the memories of me that others...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 1 Response Jul 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    oone of my friends hung herself. and its all my fault.
    bpc2415 bpc2415 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I want you to take a deep journey into my mind. I was a 4th grader when it all began. I was moving to a new school and I was really shy. I had a crush on this girl named Sandra and...
    HelpingKid HelpingKid 13-15, M Jul 11

    Your Response

    Cancel