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I Want to Stop Hurting Myself

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    I was once a monster with only blood on my mind

    u were my best friend that helped me feel alive u made me see that I was not a killer but a lover so u cut ur name into my sick it hurt but I loved it Cuz it meant I was urs then u left me Cuz started to be normal but before u left u cut ur name on my heart that pain kills me I...
    vice13 vice13 16-17 Feb 1

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    I Am One of You

    I  am one of you ive starved myself becalse of being in so much mental pain ive taken winow glass and went down both sides of my legs bealse i was in so much pain i still do the hurting thing becalse i know how to hide what i do to my self but not as much now mine...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 4 Responses May 14, 2009

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    Because I Forgot.

    I forgot just about everything that comes with hurting yourself. I forgot how easy it it to become addicted. I forgot how hard it is to constantly hide my scars. I forgot how much time it consumes. I forgot that it solves nothing. I forgot that it's an endless cycle of pain...
    Yoru Yoru 18-21 2 Responses Sep 24, 2011

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    I lost my best friend

    and idk what to do! She was everything i needed. And now she's gone. Last night i cut myself because i know i probably wont get her back. I miss her so much...
    alexislucash alexislucash 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2014

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    Maybe One Day

    I'm hoping one day i wont hurt myself anymore. I keep a lot of my emotions inside which is y i think i hurt myself. I don't let it out that way so i gotta let it someway and i sometimes it feels good. If that makes any sense at all. But I'm hoping i can learn to express my...
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 21, 2010

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    3 Months

    I used to cut myself and I've tried to drown myself before, i felt like giving up and i felt like a failure, and failing at suicide doesnt really boost my confidence, but i told a councilor at school. She got me help and i havent hurt myself in almost 3 months. It was a lot...
    childcalledit childcalledit 22-25, T 3 Responses Oct 7, 2009

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    This pain that I live with.

    It's not even the cuts. They don't hurt, but instead the urges do. The fact that I do cut hurts. I hate what I'm doing to myself. I want to never cut again, but how can you stop doing something you love? It's mentally draining. The billion times I worry about my scars or cuts...
    thoughtfulstars thoughtfulstars 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    I don't hurt myself. However, I have felt like doing so. The only time I feel like hurting myself is when I am in a large amount of emotional pain. Sometimes hurting on the outside...
    unreciprocated unreciprocated 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    My parents were extremely critical of me when I was a kid and I just wasn't the person they wanted me to be so I made up this girl; the perfect daughter. I did everything I could...
    GirlInABottle GirlInABottle 13-15, F May 9

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    I feel like I live a double life. I'm bigender and I haven't told my parents yet so when ever I dress as guy it's a night so they won't know. At day I'm a girl but at night I'm a...
    justthatnormal justthatnormal 13-15, T 2 Responses May 10

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    I've been doing it for 4 years.. I just relapsed this month and I was so close to 6 months. I stopped but the urge to do it is so damn strong. I was so close to 6 months but I...
    PureLies PureLies 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 28

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    I do... It's been almost a month and I miss that feeling .its not that something wrong has happened,I just feel like I'm losing some real friends and I don't want to do that,I...
    Sophiakhan1 Sophiakhan1 18-21, F 4 Responses May 10

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    Everyday I want to crawl under a rock and die a failed at suicide I went to a hospital and the thing was everyone told me to do it a few days ago I sat down in the middle of the...
    13Margareth 13Margareth 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    Am I that boring of a person? Do I really make other people happy? What do I Do to make others uncomfortable? Why Do people stop talking to me after a day? :/:( Am I considered a...
    TheMasterMan1 TheMasterMan1 16-17, M Apr 29

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    I'm new here, I love to write poetry to express myself but often feel I need real people to talk to and be myself around that won't judge me, im comfortable with who I am but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 8

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    Every day I have to fight the urge to cut myself. I can feel myself slowly giving in though. I've worked so hard to be clean for this long. I just miss it, it felt so good. I don't...
    Poisonedmystery Poisonedmystery 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    April 28, 2014, my father found out about my planned suicide attempt. He has "helped" me (yelled at me, told me I'm overreacting, says there's nothing to be sad about, etc.) for...
    MadiofAsgard MadiofAsgard 16-17, F 6 Responses Apr 28

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    I've always found feeding, or encouraging girls to eat to be fun, but over the years I've noticed it's more fun when I'm full and feeling stuffed myself, maybe I'm more of a mutual...
    towmoss towmoss 18-21, M May 7

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    Sometimes i feel like my parents dont know who i am. sometimes when i talk to them, i know for a fact that they're only hearing the parts that they want to hear . They make me so...
    haleymarr haleymarr 13-15, F 2 Responses May 9

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    Lol sounds abit corny , anyway ... Hello people :) I'm new here obviously lol just thought I'd introduce myself to the virtual world .. So here's me introducing myself :) friends...
    FancyPantiesBitches FancyPantiesBitches 18-21, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    i wonder what it would be like if i met myself from someone else's point of view. like if they saw me as a good person, a good friend, anything.
    Peridot22 Peridot22 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 29

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    I am so angry at myself. I have been cutting and enjoy it. it makes me feel more satisfied with my self-loathing.
    XxautychanxX XxautychanxX 13-15, F 3 Responses May 10

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    I feel alive when I can't sleep because of the burning scars -funny enough I punish myself for things other people did to me.
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F May 10

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    Why is it so hard for me to express myself?
    BrowningEmpress BrowningEmpress 18-21, F 2 Responses May 16

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    I run my fingers across my skin , its so smooth All I want to do is destroy it . Its the first time I have wanted to do it in about two weeks . I get episodes like this . one...
    devilgirl123zombie devilgirl123zombie 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 26

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    My parents are both preachers. They want me to fit in this tiny box of perfection. But I don't want what they do. They push and push. If i say one wrong thing or say something they...
    pyrodexx46 pyrodexx46 16-17, F 4 Responses May 12

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    I never felt free in my entire life. All my life I have been trapped by overprotected parents. If I trust or love someone, they will throw all those negative trash on me. They...
    redsilver26 redsilver26 18-21, F 3 Responses May 13

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    I want to, and I am, but I just can't get to the O point right now. ;(
    xxandrea xxandrea 18-21, F 4 Responses May 1

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    I want to but I can't because as soon as I do, people start judging. you don't know me, you don't know what I've vbeen through, so just let me express how I feel.
    LurkingShadow LurkingShadow 13-15, F May 9

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    I ate too much today. Tomorrow I will only eat between 3pm and 6pm and it will only be dinner. This weekend I am going on a trip with my mom so I will have to eat normally :/ I...
    infintelyforever infintelyforever 16-17, F May 12

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    Triplek30 Triplek30 31-35, F 1 Response May 13

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    I have a heart condition, so my family, cardiologist and I all agreed that I should take a break from uni and work for a year, until I am well enough to go back. Now they make me...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F May 14

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    But I can't. Literally. I don't think I was born in the right body... or something. I feel like an animal. I feel that I have ears (animal) and I can feel them changing position to...
    TheMissingTriforce TheMissingTriforce 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Nothing last forever. So live it up, drink it down, laugh it off, avoid the drama, take chances and never have regrets. Because at one point everything you did was exactly what you...
    Tiffany94 Tiffany94 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Does anyone else have this problem? It happens all the time with me.
    heymanwhatsup heymanwhatsup 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I relapsed, again. From 11 back down to 0.
    MagicEyes95 MagicEyes95 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 27

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    It's been 5 months, but the urge never goes away.... How do you distract yourself??
    SimplyEm SimplyEm 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 27

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    I hide away in my shower at home, my parents always yell at me and I'm tired of it. right now I'm in the shower its where I go when I need support on ep, can anyone help?
    Lonewalker1432 Lonewalker1432 13-15, M 4 Responses Apr 27

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    I'm 15 years old and I'm a freshman in Baldwin. I love my chickens, my ducks, and my dog Luke.
    ObsessiveSuicidal ObsessiveSuicidal 13-15, F May 1

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    Best cut is when I close my eyes . And just cut three places really fast on wrist. I rather feel the pain outside than in
    officialjaylove officialjaylove 18-21 11 Responses May 5

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    I bottle up my anger and feelings and then later on I'll freak out over a really small thing because I've bottled it for a long time.
    backwoodsbarbiehurr backwoodsbarbiehurr 16-17, F 2 Responses May 8

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    some of the ppl using this are not using it correctly this is for ppl who suffer from things Luke maladaptive daydreaming or MD not for u to play on here for fun
    anshaw anshaw 13-15, F May 9

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