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I Wanted Someone Dead

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    Hatred Is Intense

    Im not an angry person, im actually very loving, very peaceful. But i have wanted someone dead. And it begins with hatred. a hate so strong it makes you sick, i use think whats wrong with me. The person i wanted dead had never done anything wrong to me physically but i knew that...
    agonyblue agonyblue 18-21 Aug 27, 2011

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    I Killed Him Many Times

    He hurted me so bad that i wanted him dead. I killed him many times in my imagination, my writings and nightmares. but he was still there breathing. it offended me that he was still alive. i kept killing him in everyway. i even turned into a vampire to drain him from blood. it...
    lovefollower lovefollower 26-30, F 10 Responses Jul 3, 2009

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    Guess Different To A Point

    i want a step father dead but i want him dead by my hand not killed the way he was doing hard time for abuse of his power as a USMC recurter, I want to know who helped him get my wife in the USMC and who helped him do it the i want to watch him died the same way she was killed...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M May 31, 2011

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    A Death Wish

    I wanted a few of my relatives dead. I wanted a few neighbors in my building dead. They have aggravated my emotions to the point where I have a death wish on them. And I avoid them at all costs. I'm not a very violent person, but I get aggressive sometimes. I don't usually hurt...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T Dec 29, 2012

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    I Wanted Stepdad Dead

    When I was a young girl I used to pray to GOD to please just kill my stepdad.I did it all the time,I would lay in my bed and cry because I was sooo pissed off at him,I was so sick of him.He would be drunk again and the monster would come out and I was afraid of the monster.Now he...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 3 Responses Jul 5, 2009

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    27th post. So basically my husband bashed me for years and years. There were things thrown at me such as plates, glass ashtrays, tables, punches, choking, whatever he felt like at...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    I always wanted someone to care about me , I give them all the attention and loving I have but they just throw it away like garbage , for once I want someone to care about me the...
    romero1719 romero1719 13-15, M Dec 1

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    62nd post. Well here I am again, and I live to see another day. Nobody killed me and I didn't kill anybody, and I guess today I feel like it was all just a dream. It's easy to...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    Please someone make me feel wanted for once in my life !! All my life I have never felt wanted, and want that opportunity once in my life...
    Blissfullkim Blissfullkim 26-30, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I was preyed upon by someone who I now see as a psychopath. We started dating and he was fun, exciting, interesting, giving me everything I needed out of a relationship ... Except...
    Barrettgirl Barrettgirl 36-40 10 hrs ago

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    18th post. For anyone who has been following my posts this one is a must read. I am shaking and my hands are sweating bullets because I know this is the truth of it all. The actual...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 5 Responses Nov 24

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    58th post. I'm back to my story and it's back. The wanting to die feeling. I hate myself, I hate this world, I am ugly, I am a doormat, I am pathetic. Nobody loves me. Such a...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    56th post..This will be my last post on the Sydney siege. 2 innocent lives were lost early this morning, as a selfish individual stormed a coffee shop and decided to play God for a...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    60th post. I hope everyone takes the time to read this post. This happened about half an hour ago, but let me start at the beginning. It's Sunday 2.20am when I started writing this...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    15th post. My panic attack yesterday left me emotionally and physically drained. The way I'm feeling today, there is no way in the world I am going to beat this fight. I would much...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 21

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    When I first met Wade, it was while playing X-Men Legends II: Rise of Apocalypse, he appeared completely brainwashed by Mr Sinister. And the funny thing is that he was aware of it...
    PeterPalmer PeterPalmer 22-25, M Nov 30

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    40th post...Wow, it's my 40th birthday in 3 months and this is my 40th post. I'm going to take this post as being symbolic. How am I feeling today?? I can feel the bad feelings...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    22nd post. Ok lets go into my health, just so I can give a history on how I think my depression might have been triggered, and slowly began to rise. All through my life I was very...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    44th post. Well I'm almost done telling my story, maybe about 10 more in depth posts to come, and a few randoms. I've saved the best for last, as in the events that led up to my...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    17th post...Let me start this post with a little apology. I take antidepressants, and they have kept me from, metaphorically speaking, pulling the trigger. But one of the downsides...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    Isn’t it supposed to be the people that love you and say how much they care for you support you? I know I’m pretty damn stupid as everyone keeps telling me but I’m smart...
    LoveLessOne97 LoveLessOne97 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    26th post. So here is another blast from the past. This probably happened about 2 years ago, at the height of my anxiety, and when my mental illness was developing into much more...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F Nov 30

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    I wet to a new school this year for just this year. I made a friend. He was nice and caring and I began to trust him. that was my first mistake.... He walked me to class and he let...
    Jaylynn99 Jaylynn99 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    My grandpa...the only one that meant anything to me out of my blood relation. I never met him until I was 13. We weren't super close, we didn't visit often, but I could completely...
    orchids2blu orchids2blu 36-40, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    59th post. A few years back I used to work for a major insurance company. I had just gotten a transfer into the city, and I had been appointed to the new position of a learning and...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm 33 single mom can't get a boyfriend no one wants to date a single mom. I've been lonely for so many years I have no family. The only family I had was my brother and he died...
    mysadlife1111 mysadlife1111 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    rejection over and over and over again. "your nice but....im just not ready". My long term relationship ended because apparently i was not right for them, because we just didn't...
    tom1978 tom1978 31-35, M 1 Response Nov 26

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    i feel dead inside and i feel that i'm going crazy because i cant understand what is going on with me. i don't feel anything and i do at the same time its so confusing like i get...
    sb159 sb159 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    25th post. It's been a few days since I have posted, and I have to say it has been a roller coaster of emotions. At times I have felt elated and invincible. Other times I have felt...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    35th post. If you thought the physical, mental and emotional abuse was the worst of it, then I need to just say, you haven't heard the best part of it yet. The part that actually...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 5

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    I am going through one of the worst breakups that I've ever experienced in my life. I am 27 years old and I was in a relationship for almost 3 years. When we met, We were happy...
    lonetraveller24 lonetraveller24 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 25

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    My demon stood with me He who took all i had from me, Who had stolen away from me Family, Joy and Peace. I sought help from my savior, Christ, Praying for strength, begging for...
    TwentyTwoReasons TwentyTwoReasons 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 27

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    28th post. A couple of other times that spring to mind when I think about the abuse, were two instances where once again I can't understand what went wrong. A few years back we...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    I was in 8th grade when I first had the feeling for a certain boy. I saw him at the park and talked to him all night. I then started talking to him on Facebook since he was a grade...
    arianagrande14 arianagrande14 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    I died a little inside when the walking dead wasn't on last night. I didn't think I could make the last break but imma try and be a trooper in this one. SOMEONE GIVE ME A NEW SHOW...
    Puck4Eva Puck4Eva 16-17, F 10 Responses Dec 8

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    I have a necklace that ever time I open the locket I cry... It has a breast cancer sign on the outside of the locket When I pone it i see a pic of my dead grandma She died from...
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    To the girl he left me for, I always wondered who you were and what you were like. I wanted to see why he chose you and not me. Secretly, I wanted you to be superficial and...
    missssyme missssyme 31-35, F 6 Responses Dec 11

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    61st post. Just walked up to the doorway of the guest bedroom. Stood staring at him as he slept peacefully. He was softly snoring and I just stood there looking at him. A million...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    me in bed: i wish i was dead me peeing: i wish i was dead me eating: i wish i was dead me 24/7: i wish i was dead
    Angelcum Angelcum 18-21, F 13 Responses Nov 23

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    I belong to a fair number of experience groups but none as inspiring to me (and apparently none less understood by everyone else) as this one. I think the lack of understanding...
    johnstlouis johnstlouis 56-60, M Nov 29

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    Many years ago I was dumb and naive. I never realized that there was a girl that wanted me. We were friends. I never realized what was in my subconscious. Looking back, I see all...
    ManinNY ManinNY 41-45, M 4 days ago

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    So I'm writing again and Im on my iPhone so I hope my words aren't changed. I have gone through a lot even recently and I guess I'm trying to understand more. Of course the...
    cutie7710 cutie7710 36-40, F 3 days ago

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    don't you think there is no such thing as unconditional love... you always have your reasons for liking or loving someone or something, and these reasons are like your conditions...
    pitchy28 pitchy28 13-15, F 10 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Legit I don't understand why this is so hard to believe, is it so hard to talk to someone legit? All I want is someone who 1. Isn't all about getting photos 2. Isn't all about...
    4EVRANDEVR 4EVRANDEVR 16-17, F 5 hrs ago

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    I have an emotionally unavailable, passive aggressive husband. Where does he get it? His parents. His parents are divorced and both had a part in ruining him but his mom had the...
    Ladyscorpioz Ladyscorpioz 36-40, F Nov 24

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