I Wanted to Save My Mom, But I Failed

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    I Really Did

    I love my mom, I wanted to save her so bad. She was a acholic, and she did a lot fo drugs. She was in rehab for most of teenage years, I was going to help her because I loved her. Sometimes I wish she would of told me she loved me more but that didn't really matter to me...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 19, 2009

    I Didnt Fail....

    It was just a losing battle.   All the bandaging her wrists, the hiding the pills, the cooking, the cleaning, the consoling, the begging, the pleading, the keeping calm, the trying so ******* hard, the lying, the reassuring, the loving, it didn't, couldn't, and never will...
    Tesse Tesse
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 24, 2008

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