I Was Abused By My X

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    I Had a Gun Held Up to My Head

    That son of a b*tch I was dating named Derek...he shoved me up against a wall and put a loaded .45 up against my head and demanded that I said I loved him. I did, but he pushed it harder and harder up against me and it hurt and I was soooo scared and so now ANY kind of physical...
    xXbleedingtearsXx xXbleedingtearsXx
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 15, 2008

    I have so much anger

    and hurt right now. I'm mad at myself and mad at him. I don't understand how I could let this happen.
    lovedumb lovedumb
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jul 14, 2014

    I was abused by Stanley McClain,

    a Federal Correction officer. Slapped in the face by this monster who is 260 pounds. He claimed that there were no marks on my face so he did not hit me. He was not arrested. How can he get away with hitting a woman and lying about it?
    strongeringod strongeringod
    41-45, F
    1 Response Dec 21, 2014

    I Was

    I was abused by my ex, some people thought he was the best person in the whole world. But on one knew when he got drunk or was in a ****** mood that he was the worst person in the world. He would never make his mark noticable I would always get bruises on my arms from him, the...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 19, 2009

    Its Hell To Be Abused By A Man

    I am African and I dated a black man from my country in the year 2003, This man abused me beat me up and even locked me up in his house and I couldnt get to work he just didnt care I almost lost my job...he was jealous of me if i spent time with my friends... no matter how hard i...
    cher79 cher79
    31-35, F
    Sep 16, 2012

    Here's Why He Went to Jail...

    Afew incidents later, a few months have passed... he seems to be doing a lot better. He hasn'r had an episode in a month or so... he has been to counciling, gotten a job, going to college... just when you think they've turned in around... It was April 23, we watched a movie at my...
    sadkittykat sadkittykat
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 25, 2007

    I don't understand how an abuser does not feel

    any shame or guilt that compels him to do the right thing. The day before he left me, after I was emotionally beaten down and at my breaking point, he said he loved me and cared about me. And then the next day he left me. It's good he is gone. But he has played with my mind so...
    LiveKindly LiveKindly
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 15, 2014

    I don't know why I took it

    for so long, or why I had a life with him? Ladies, the biggest sign to tell u things are bad are I you're afraid of your man. If you're afraid, you need to go. I hate the bruises and the choking. I hated the head slams on the ground, and the bring thrown around like a doll. I...
    Nothingspecial4 Nothingspecial4
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 8, 2013

    Love Gone Wrong

    help i need some serious advice....i am doing animation course.during this time i grew friendly with an intructor who is 8 yrs my senior...that's it....after that day i befriended some guy who was also studying...and the last day of the lecture...he shook hands with me...as in we...
    positvefire positvefire
    1 Response Apr 11, 2009

    Everything Was Great,..for a While.

     When I was 16 years old, I met "the greatest guy" in high school. We had everything in common and spent every waking moment together. He was 19 at the time and was living on his own. Well, a few months later he lost his job and could no longer pay his rent so my...
    Flutterbies Flutterbies
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Mar 13, 2008

    I Was Lucky

    We dated for a little more than a month. God, what was I thinking!?. He made my life a living hell. And I can't fully recover from that episode of my life. He abused me mentally, emotionally, intellectually and sexually. The thing that tortures me the most is the fact that I...
    caritus caritus
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Jan 23, 2008

    It's honestly the worst thing ever

    and I would never wish abuse upon my worst enemy. I can't take back this past year and a half and I regret it every day. It truly does suck. I really feel for all of the women/girls out there who went through or are currently going through this. Please, if you are being abused...
    cak22 cak22
    22-25, F
    Mar 31, 2014

    Me Too

    She broke my heart  ;)
    Dragonette Dragonette
    41-45, T
    1 Response Apr 12, 2009

    Why Do I Still Want Him Back?

    My past relationships have consisted of long distance, and mentally beat up. My ex would get in my head and mess with me. Calling me stupid, ugly, fat, told me i should kill myself, i'm worthless, but why? I did nothing wrong, it made no sense at all. I never did anything wrong...
    CrazyRasins CrazyRasins
    16-17, F
    Nov 15, 2012

    I was abused by my ex fiancé.

    We had been friends for years. He had a a lot of issues then went through a life changing event that I supported him through. He went sober. No drugs, no alcohol. He was a changed man. We began dating and shortly after, he proposed. We moves in together. Went through some...
    KnightingaleAM KnightingaleAM
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 14, 2014

    I Thought He Was The One

    I was 15 a freshman in highschool i was sitting at a table and i looked up and saw the most beautiful smile. His name was nick i was too shy to talk to him so i had a friend talk to him he texted me that day i almost screamed in class. Nick was a beautiful person but most girls...
    afraidofloss afraidofloss
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 14, 2012

    Still Think Of Him

    he used to throw me up against walls and put his hands on my neck. he would cuss me out and make me cry. i was with him for three years. its been two years now since me and him have been done. sometimes i wonder was it my fault he did what he did to me or was it his? alot of it...
    mimibubbles2011 mimibubbles2011
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 20, 2012

    Went From One Abuse to Another

    I went from a very physically abusive relationship to a mentally abusive relationship.  I married the man who was mentally abusive and it took me a long time to realize what he was doing to me.  He's my ex husband now, and we have a child together so we still have a lot...
    keyna keyna
    36-40, F
    4 Responses May 31, 2008

    As of Monday night I am no longer with my

    abuser. Even though I don't have to experience the continued abuse, I feel incredibly empty and depressed. I feel like I should be happy, but I can't seem to experience any positive feelings right now. My chest hurts and I feel like I was left after he made sure I was beaten...
    LiveKindly LiveKindly
    26-30, F
    Nov 13, 2014

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    mimimgbimby mimimgbimby
    22-25, F
    Jun 1, 2015

    Still Recovering

    I've always been one who turns bad experiences into something positive.  I guess it is sort of a survival instinct in me.  I had been physically abused since I was a tiny child and also in my first couple of relationships when I was young. ...
    mulbig mulbig
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 24, 2009

    My first husband and I got married in a hurry.

    He was deployed when we got in contact after not having seen each other since high school. We were married while he was home on R&R. It was a surprise to our families. I moved across the country to be with him. Things were great at first. Till I found out he was hiding a...
    blackcatpinkbow blackcatpinkbow
    31-35, F
    Oct 5, 2015

    I Don't Understand...

    How is it possible for someone to hurt the one they "love"? I did nothing wrong. I was faithful. I treated him like a king. So why did he always insist on hurting me? It would be something as simple as not knowing something... I didn't know the answer to his question so he called...
    KelBell14 KelBell14
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 20, 2013


    She didn't mean to. She would just get so angry to see me already hurt. I was already hurtting myself, and i didn't want her doing the same. My friends all think shes a b itch for hurting me, not just my heart. She didn't mean to. She would hurt herself, cut, burn, throw up...
    paws615 paws615
    1 Response Feb 26, 2008

    I Saw Him.

    My daughter and I went out for supper wednesday evening. The restaurant is located inside a mall. We entered the mall, and I saw him about 5 feet away... he looked back at us, but kept walking. As we ate in the restaurant, he entered through the back entrance, looked at me, and...
    sadkittykat sadkittykat
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 10, 2007

    The Worst 3 Years of My Life

    Travis and I met in highschool we were in 11th grade. I thought he was great sweet, funny, and really cute! I was amazed at how fast I fell in love with him...about 3 months into our relationship my mom got remarried and moved 45 min. away. At this point Travis started getting...
    bhertz88 bhertz88
    1 Response Jan 16, 2009

    So, people want to know part 2.

    I guess I'm willing to share it now. So we met up, we grew closer, but I noticed that he had started to change. He was very manipulative, and whenever I'd catch him lying and try to leave he would get violent or he would hurt himself. It was terrifying for me, and this went on...
    fastlife22 fastlife22
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 16, 2014

    Abused While Pregnant

    He and i were together for a year, and at that point, we had a few 'small' incidents where he was a bit too aggresive with me ie. (grabbing my arm and shoving me, or smacking me in the face with a hat) and this time i really didnt see it coming. What was a small stupid fight...
    jewlziez jewlziez
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 18, 2008

    I was emotionally abused

    for 4 years before he started to physically abuse me. It started with him being drunk and grabbing my arm at a bar until I almost screamed, I had a bruise the next day (my birthday). He then drunk again a few months later punched me as I was driving home, he called me a...
    osafloja osafloja
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 29, 2015

    They don't even remember How can a family

    forget Family that supposed to love me and care for me The natural friends the ones that aren't meant to abandon you Know me less than those free to How can they forget About me being abused raped cheated everything Manipulated into loving someone taking them back as they...
    polarbearlove polarbearlove
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 14

    Used and Abused

    My ex and I had a business and she used me as she did nae hae the best ehad fae business. Well I tuaght her alkl she needed tae ken and then she left me and moved far away. She nae langer needed me so she found a younger lad as she was a braw few years younger than me. But siad...
    Raibeart Raibeart
    51-55, M
    1 Response May 2, 2008

    Jason: he said he loved me,

    he proposed to me, he hurt my family to the point of them hating me ,he hurt me he punched me in my stomach knowing I was carrying our baby, I lost the baby, he cheated on me. He brought back an infection .... He battered my body. He was much bigger and stronger, I pissed him...
    cupidzgift cupidzgift
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 30, 2014

    Ok so it's taken me a very long time to realise

    and stop defending him. I still love him, I still want to be with him and I know everything he did to me but it's starting to sink in that for most of our relationship my boyfriend abused me so that now I feel worthless. Just what he wanted so that I would never leave him and he...
    Kerry1304 Kerry1304
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 14, 2014

    For a Year and a Half

    It started out as a normal relationship, and I really fell for him. I was already diagnosed with depression, although it wasn't as bad then as it is now. About 4 - 5 months into the relationship, was the first incident. We went to McD's drive through for a bite to eat, me...
    sadkittykat sadkittykat
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Sep 25, 2007

    Abusive Ex Boyfriend Would Have Killed Me

    Even through it was almost 3 years ago, it still freaks me out. though i seem to hide it well and laugh it off when people bring it up. ( i think because I'm embarrassed by it)  I was with him for just over 6 months, though at about 3 months i started and my family started...
    CrackedNut CrackedNut
    18-21, F
    Nov 23, 2010


    I remember having my Aunt from Texas come over for a visit.  I was so excited,  I hadn't seen her since I was 10 or so.  I enjoyed every moment she was there.  That is until her 3rd day visiting.  The mail arrived and along with it was a letter from my...
    ichooselife ichooselife
    36-40, F
    10 Responses Jul 2, 2008

    The Worst Day Of My Life

    my x and i had been on and off for 3 years and he apparently started taking steroids to get bigger in hockey...( he was goalie). He got mad at me one day when he was driving me to get coffee, and he stopped the car and pushed me out. I fell face first and my two front teeth got...
    robertacubs robertacubs
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 22, 2010

    I Was Emotionally Abused:(

    and guess what? i think, it's also my fault...i just gave in way too much---i always assumed he was right and i was wrong... he really broke my heart. it was just too much. i became so paranoid and was always feeling guilty for things i didn't have to be guilty about...i was...
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Apr 13, 2009

    Sooo Glad He's Gone.

    My ex boyfriend used to hit me, thinking it was funny when he would leave big bruises on my arms and thighs. If i wouldnt listen to him, he'd punch me in the arm as if i would. I never hit back, i didnt see a point because he would just hit me agian, and harder. My friends hated...
    BellaVara BellaVara
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 18, 2009

    I Was Abused By My Ex And Never Told Anyone...

    I was with my boyfriend for 2 years and i have to say that those were the worst 2 years of my life. It started out ok we were in love but afte a couple months he complained i didn't love him cause i was there...so i basically moved in with him and only went to visit my sister...
    ambrose684 ambrose684
    2 Responses Dec 17, 2010
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