I Was Addicted to Xanax

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    When I Was a Xanax Addict

    Between the ages of 18 to 22 years old, I was a benzodiazepine addict.  Doctor shopping was my thing and I would acquire such medicines like Valium (diazepam), Serepax (oxazepam), Rivotril (clonazepam) and Ativan (lorazepam).  Any were good but my favorite was...
    Morfius Morfius
    26-30, M
    9 Responses Dec 26, 2008

    No More...

    I was prescribed Xanax when I was 15 years old and from that moment on my full on addiction had begun. Stealing, lying, cheating, fighting. I've been through it all. From suicide attempts to probation. I am now happy to say I have an entire year clean from this drug. Message me...
    lostincali20 lostincali20
    22-25, F
    Oct 10, 2013

    Still Am, Actually

    But hey, there are worse things.
    Aw8ingf8 Aw8ingf8
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Jan 26, 2010

    Regret Ever Taking Xanax

    I was on Xanax ER for 3 yrs for muscle spasms from an accident. When I didn't need it, I was weaned off too fast by my doctor. The withdrawal symptoms I went through were unbearable and I just wanted to die. 5 months later I have a pounding heart beat constantly. When it gets...
    dawngri dawngri
    Sep 24, 2012

    When Did Not Need To

    i was on xanax i toke it when i did not need to i was put on it fore stress i did not know what to do when i talked to my doctor i told hem i wand off of it the only thing it did fore me was it put my to sleep i know how all of you feel if you want to talk let me know thank you...
    dragonage2 dragonage2
    Jan 8, 2013

    Somebody Help!

    I am not personally taking Xanax, but this is my story,  My fiance and I lost our son in March of 2009 who was born 4 months premature and only survived three hours.  After about a week, my fiance began to expierence anxiety attacks so we went to talk to the doctor...
    concerned09 concerned09
    2 Responses May 23, 2009

    Stepson Takes Without Permission

    I'm having a dilemma. My 18 yr stepson takes things without asking. This bothers me I tell my wife but she does nothing. It's getting me angry and I'm ready to confront this my way. Any suggestions? Serious replies only plz. I am ready to explode and can't do it no more.
    sufferin4life sufferin4life
    41-45, M
    Apr 28, 2012

    Very Scared To Come Off Xanax

    About three and a half years ago I moved to Florida to take care of my mom.  She had terminal cancer.  My family is a dysfunctional mess.  My sibling who lived in FL refused to do anything and I was resentful and felt burdened.  It was horrible and as a result...
    ElizaDay66 ElizaDay66
    8 Responses Oct 12, 2010

    Xanax Is Torture Please Help

    I wrote devil created xanax, i need help to break a 10-60 2mg bar habit of 6 crazy years. Its been two months that i tried stopping cold turkey due to financial difficulties. I had five grand mal siezures and now expierencing mild psychosis, muscle spasms, irritability, insomnia...
    stacyyyg stacyyyg
    22-25, F
    Dec 7, 2012

    I am 51 and mother of 2

    that never thought I woulad become addicted to drugs, I was prescribed xanax 20 years ago, started out 2 . 5 a day and gradually was raised to 1ml 2xday then stared taking that 3 and 4 times aday. I new I was a having a problem with this and a friend told me she thought I had an...
    sheila5862 sheila5862
    51-55, F
    1 Response Mar 18, 2014

    Huh Im Tired Of This

    well today my mom found out i took 30 dollars from her to buy xanaxes now my family knows and are saying hurtfull things i beat myself up everyday over the things ive done and sometimes i am so deppressed i dont know why im here i am a burden on my whole family and been for 10...
    triqratra triqratra
    2 Responses Jun 15, 2011

    I Wish I Had Known

    I have always sufferred severe anxiety. So, in early 2007, when I was 22 years old, I went to my general doctor to seek advice on how to control my panic attacks. I honestly did not know there were such things as anti-anxiety medications, and I had never heard of Xanax. I was not...
    starrhoda starrhoda
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 16, 2009

    It Started In 2004

    I was diagnosed with severe anxiety disorder. My doctor used to give them to me like they were candy. At one point in my life, I was doing upwards of 14mgs a day. I relapsed so many times i have lost count. When any of you went through withdrawal, how long did it take you to...
    pixelghost pixelghost
    26-30, F
    May 24, 2012

    Too Good To Be True

    When I was a junior in college, my shrink  (who turned out to be a beeyotch)  prescribed Xanax for my depression.  I don't know why;  it's not for depression.  I guess it's for anxiety.  Anyway, for about a month I felt good good good.  I...
    Sage360 Sage360
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Dec 9, 2009

    A Season In Hell

    I was addicted to Xanax and, as a result, I lost so much. I had it all--prestige, money, career--and it all vanished one day when I decided that Xanax was more important to me than anything else. I wrote a memoir of my ordeal that is now available at Amazon for Kindle download...
    Noles222 Noles222
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jan 25, 2010

    Vent Away! That's What A Lot Of Us Are Here For As Well

    Your lucky  you have a doctor that gives you xanax . I have come to earn all about this drug. For me it has been a real lifesaver. I don't have insurance anymore. If anyone knows of an honest pharmacy in the usa. Please let me know'ThanksJanet
    jancat310 jancat310
    51-55, F
    Apr 2, 2012

    Relapse: Going Through Hell

    I started using xanax a couple of years now by a neighbor. I being a addict didnt know i would become addicted to them. but I did. I recently relapsed and its back through hell again. I've withdrawled various times now from it and it's horrible. but here I am again. I feel lost...
    sufferin4life sufferin4life
    41-45, M
    May 6, 2012

    It Started When I Was 17

    i have cerebral palsy which means i'm in a wheelchair and i have constant leg pain when i was 17 my doctor prescribed me loratabs an xanax at first they helped alot just by taking a half but over time the pain got worse i was up to 2 pills a day one in the morning and at night...
    JustChrisCarter JustChrisCarter
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 14, 2012

    Im Still Going Through It

    well im 34 now and when i was 14 years old to 15 years old i used to get a couple from my father cause i always had panic attacks from 2000 to 2003 i was a herion addict which i got in trouble for stealing to support my habbit and i had a son which i did qiut heroin but ive been...
    triqratra triqratra
    2 Responses Jun 15, 2011

    It's been six months.

    .. I'm thinking about jumping off this wagon. I think I was more fun and that people liked me better when I was high. Honestly, I just miss it!! Ugh! I don't know. Maybe I just liked myself better when I was high.
    Wh1tegr1pr0blm3s Wh1tegr1pr0blm3s
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jan 31, 2014

    had 2 seizures from taking xanax abusively

    for 7 years. took up to 10-12mg a day. lost jobs and got into multiple car accidents. I was mixing xanax with other stuff like xyrem (GHB) and cocaine and marijuana. it soon took a toll on my body and developed muscle spasms and twitches. evil drug im a pharmacy tech and i...
    NicoSteez NicoSteez
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 6, 2015

    Growing Up Can Be Hard...

     I had a friend who loved pills and ended up introducing me to them.  For two years I was in a cycle of drug addiction and depression.  I attribute most of that to pills, especially benzodiazepines marketed under the brand name xanax and valium.  My friend...
    deleted deleted
    Jan 31, 2010

    In the Middle of Addiction and Depression...

    I've been on Xanax for almost 7 years now. I was perscribed them when I was fifteen after I had tried to commit suicide, shortly after my mother had tried to do it herself. My mother had failed in her attempt as I did less then a year later. She had me go to her own therapist...
    Rioyoki Rioyoki
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Aug 26, 2008

    The Life Of A Xanax Baby Benzo Addict:

    I never knew what benzos were until my wife,kids and I moved to Spring Hill, FL. I suffer from insomnia, anxiety, panic attacks,etc..  so I met neighbors that take benzos. I made a stupid decision to ask my neighbor what are those that ya take. I was told xanax and that they...
    sufferin4life sufferin4life
    41-45, M
    1 Response Jan 30, 2011

    My Love Affair

    Yes, I was prescribed xanax by my dr. for anxiety. No one ever told me they were addictive, I just thought it's xanax just a lil pill. Well, that pill was going to kill me or I was going to kill it. Love hate relationship by all means. I did not have the funds to go into detox...
    Puzzlingout Puzzlingout
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Aug 26, 2008

    Xanax doesn't make me feel good,

    just tired and groggy mainly, yet there was a time I was very addicted to it.
    Percyhappy Percyhappy
    31-35, F
    Dec 1, 2014

    Im Still Going Through It

    well im 34 now and when i was 14 years old to 15 years old i used to get a couple from my father cause i always had panic attacks from 2000 to 2003 i was a herion addict which i got in trouble for stealing to support my habbit and i had a son which i did qiut heroin but ive been...
    triqratra triqratra
    1 Response Jun 15, 2011

    Try benzobuddies for support withdraw techniques

    and hope. I'm completely benzo and alcohol free. And feel great. The fear of withdraws are worse than the actual thing. San me anything
    sirnatural sirnatural
    41-45, M
    Jun 28, 2015

    The Devil Created Xanax

    Im 22 years old, the first time i tried xanax was when i was about 16. From then i started popping sticks everyday. When i reached age 18 i was a crazy addict. Ive always had cars somehow god saved me multiple times because i would take up to 30 2mg xanax bars and go drive, most...
    stacyyyg stacyyyg
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Dec 7, 2012

    It all started when I was fresh out of high

    school. I grew up in a small, rural German/Chzech town in central Texas. Needless to say, these small communities have a way of raising sheltered naive individuals. Add to that growing up with a verbally and sometimes physically abusive father, and you can bet that I was one of...
    Rawj777 Rawj777
    Sep 2, 2014

    Xanax Has Taken Away 5 Years Of My Life!

    I was prescribed this evil drug for "situational anxiety" as my family dr put it. I had just found out my husband was cheating on me. My world was turned upside down. Xanax helped with the panic attacks. It helped me sleep. It helped me deal with life. If I had known that 5 years...
    L7muhl L7muhl
    41-45, F
    1 Response Aug 15, 2013

    HELP Me!

    I am a new member here, looking for people to talk to about my xanax addiction. I am currently struggling badly to overcome my xanax addiction. I become heavily addicted to xanax in february 2009. I have severe anxiety and panic attacks. My doctor has me on 150mg of zoloft and...
    SarahZZZ1 SarahZZZ1
    22-25, F
    8 Responses Sep 1, 2009

    I Had To Have It..

    I hope this will help some people. About 6 ears ago I was introduced to Xanax. My parents had died almost at the same time, and I was left with some heavy responsibilities--a house, a business..and an estate to settle. I could handle the responsibility--but it gave me a lot of...
    dimpsie7 dimpsie7
    46-50, F
    Sep 9, 2013

    If I Had Known.

    If I knew 4 years ago that by taking one little pill i would be sitting here, my life crumbled to peices I would have never takin it thats a promise. about 4 years ago I started taking xanax after I had my son, a friend gave them to me to help me sleep I was suffering from post...
    jst42day jst42day
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jul 11, 2012
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