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I Was An Abused Child

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    I recently admitted finally out loud I was

    abused as a child. It took me a very long time. I have always masked my pain with sex, and those desires have grown increasingly intense and kinky. I don't feel bad about it. I'm just wondering if that is why. Anyone else find this to be the case?
    MarriedSwingerBull MarriedSwingerBull 36-40, M Sep 18, 2015

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    I was beat battered bruised

    but I never gave up my parents broke my ribs but never shattered my soul I believe in forgiveness the only way to move on. I am a survivor. I am resilient
    Emocupcake37 Emocupcake37 18-21, F 4 Responses May 22, 2014

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    Bethany17 Bethany17 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 15, 2014

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    Some of the abuse children suffer is not

    physical, but leaves scares of a different sort. I suffered some things that fall into the roll your eyes category. My family were alcoholics, and my father in particular unbelievable amounts. Every day was organized around his drinking. I grew up being taken to bars every...
    slowman0000 slowman0000 56-60, M Jul 24, 2015

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    Well, here we go...When i was a child i cam

    into the world with an alcoholic father he was abusive...he smoked weed and drank a lot liquor and beer well he would send me to my room a lot weeks and months at a time i often remember summers going buy and heating spaghetti noodles up on the propane stove beside my bedroom...
    SeJunior SeJunior 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 21, 2014

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    My mom verbally, emotionally,

    mentally abused me my whole life. I hate her for all that she's put me through.
    Tianaluvsyou Tianaluvsyou 16-17, F 6 Responses Jan 17, 2015

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    It all started when my mom moved her

    and myself out of my grandmother's home into an apartment with her new boyfriend, my unborn sister's father. I was six going on seven. Moving for me was already really disappointing, I missed my uncle and aunt, and my cousin just a few years younger than me, but I missed my...
    Shug16 Shug16 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2015

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    I mean, my mom was an alcoholic.

    She would get violent. She often burned me with her cigarettes. I don't like having to be reminded of my experiences with that b*tch. Hey, she passsed when she was drunk and driving. I missed her, but then again, she abused me.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 26, 2015

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    I was emotionally and physically abused by my

    father during my childhood. Later on I was used in a financially abusive manner by my father. Somehow this all culminated in me becoming a prostitute/escort/sex worker. I'm not sure if I beat the system or if I got beat. But I feel really lonely most of the time. Even if I can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 12, 2015

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    can a kid be responsible

    for its sexual interest?
    graciious graciious 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 1, 2015

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    My grandfather was a pedi file molested me

    for years....my grandmother was heartbroken when I told her she protected me, because use it stopped. my family has disowned me because now as an adult they don't believe me, because he didn't molest my brother too.....whaaaat? He had to leave where my mom grew up because of...
    kdighton kdighton 51-55, F Jul 31, 2015

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    My parents both work full time jobs.

    Since I was adopted they had a women babysit me and clean the house for 13 years (of my life). That entire time I was molested by her and She was the only real parent I ever knew. My brother was always an angry person but I was the only one who knew it for a long time because he...
    Trashboat1 Trashboat1 18-21, F Oct 13, 2015

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    In October, I saw my abuser

    for the first time in 11 years. I was adopted and my mothers first husband physically, emotionally, and sexually abused me. he is the root cause of most of my fears that as a child I suppressed because I didnt know how to handle them, as an adolescent I couldn't come to terms...
    cillasavage cillasavage 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 18, 2014

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    My parents believed this: Spare the rod,

    spoil the child. I was beaten with wooden boards, belts and switches. To them it was discipline, to me It made me scared and angrier.
    SentimentalMood SentimentalMood 36-40, F 5 Responses Jan 24

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    My father was an angry violent drunk I'm not

    ready to say what happened yet
    Gothicemogirl Gothicemogirl 22-25, F 12 Responses Apr 30, 2014

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    My dad is actually very abusive,

    Mainly verbally, but he has hit me. He never really ever quietly told me to stop something, he remains silent until he gets annoyed then he beats the **** out of you. as a young kid, I was terrified of my dad. All he had to say was "you want me to kick your ******* ***?" And...
    bflyboo14 bflyboo14 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 22, 2015

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    When I started this new account i said I would

    use it to share more of my story. Well that didn't work out to well considering I've only posted two or three experiences about my life and the rest are pretty much just pictures, my dogs, and song lyrics. xD So as a new attempt at sharing here is another part of my life...
    LivviyLove LivviyLove 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 2, 2014

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    Broken lines across the mirror shows my face ,

    all red and bruised . And I scream and I scream .but no one comes running . Excuse me ma'am I'm I your daughter ? In the night she dances away the pain . Mommy don't you understand the damage you have done . For you it's just a memory but for me it still lives on .so burn me...
    kittenmajor kittenmajor 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 23, 2015

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    Caravan

    While we were living in a little caravan, my father would send my brother and I out to walk, to get his time alone to beat our mum because the caravan was so small and he wanted to be particularly violent. He planned this enough to be able to send us out. it was not rage, but...
    demonizd demonizd 31-35, M 10 Responses Feb 15, 2009

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    When i was 6 years old my mum sent me to england

    for a better education. to live with my dad & stepmom,four half sisters and two half brothers, none of them treated me like a sister. They all wanted me to go back to my mum and to be honest so did I. Dad had a heart attack few months after which meant he was hospitalised for a...
    maat123 maat123 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 10, 2014

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    Sometimes we have to be our own mother.

    Sometimes we have to be our own teacher. Sometimes we have to be our only friend. I have a great belief in the inherent strength we all have inside us. Children who have been able to grow themselves away from the abuse and destruction of a dysfunctional 'family' life are...
    Faerylight Faerylight 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 20, 2015

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    My parents never really thought about what they

    said, or did to me. They never really hit me that much, my did did occasionally if I did something wrong, but I actually like pain, so they didn't see much sense in hitting me all the time. Most of my abuse was emotional and verbal. I don't think people realize that things...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 26, 2015

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    Emotional-middle and early high school

    both in school and at home; considered suicide and also revenge.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M 2 Responses Jul 22, 2015

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    I was abused as kid for about 3 years,

    abused phisically and mentally by my own parents, my educators, and my friend. it was long rough 3 years in my elementary days, I got no place that I can call as a shelter, as a brat to experience helish treatment whereever I goes. live for the family with financial difficulty...
    giga6164 giga6164 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 29, 2015

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    This is a topic that I've posted on here before

    but quickly deleted. Obviously it's a very personal subject.. but I know I need to shed light on it... secrets don't heal. I've mentioned it here on EP because... well, because I'm anonymous here. I experienced Dissociative Amnesia because of sexual molestation when I was 5...
    StarLily71 StarLily71 41-45, F 2 Responses Sep 13, 2015

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    My mom used to drink a lot,

    so she would always come home drunk and beat me and my brothers and sister. She would say we're useless kids. This contributes to my depression and self-hatred. This all was when I was 10 I think.
    MangaMinx MangaMinx 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 16, 2015

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    So I recently found out

    that the man that sexually abused me when I was 4 was just arrested for for touching a 10 year old inappropriately I really would like to help the victims case. What do I do? Do I call the jail and ask for the lawyer representing the victim? I'm not sure what I can do. But I...
    Scal92 Scal92 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 27, 2015

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    My Life

    I was raised by my mother until i was 4. Then the state took me away to live with my grandmother. Many people dont believe that I can remember as far back as i can in the detail that i can. My mother started abusing me when i started to walk on my own. She would hit me or not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 6, 2013

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    Was I Abused? I remember

    when my mother had first became lesbian. ... and one girlfriend in particular, had 2 children of her own. We were playing in the living room and mikayla started taking stamps and stamping their mothers (my mom's girlfriend) new white lazy boy. Both me and my sister started...
    LotusFlower994 LotusFlower994 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    When I was around 4 years old,

    my biological parents began to abuse me for no reason. They called me a devil's child and use to torture and starve me. I remembered they use to tie my arms above my head and whip me with belts and chains as I begged them to stop or water board me. I still have nightmares from...
    Lucas14 Lucas14 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 6, 2014

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    When I was 4 he brought home a little orange

    kitten. It was very cute and my sister and I played with her for a bit. A couple hours later he couldn't find the kitten and was convinced I let her outside and that she was gone. I promised I didn't but it didn't matter. I was helping look for her in the bathroom when he...
    reluctantamazon reluctantamazon 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    when I was born my mother couldn't except me .

    .. I still don't know why. However my dad loved me to bits and took really good care of me while my mum couldn't even look into my eyes or was out parting. when I was two my brother came along and my mum and dad was immediately attached to him. they wanted a boy so they were sooo...
    kstra38 kstra38 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 25, 2015

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    It has been over 12 months

    since I have broken a vicious cycle of physical abuse (younger years) and emotional abuse (most of my childhood and adult life) that my mother subjected me to. It controlled and affected my every thought and action. I am probably never going to be normal as a result but I am...
    antixmars antixmars 41-45, M 3 Responses Sep 19, 2015

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    I always used to cringe

    whenever my dad would tell when my parents lived together. It was like telling was a sport to him. He never stopped. He never put his hands on my mom, but he has hit me and my sister before. I remember when I moved in with my dad when I turned 15 how everything was alright for...
    lizzie9787 lizzie9787 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2015

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    my dad was physically

    and emotionally abusive. he used to beat my mom and make my brother and I watch. when my mom wasn't around he'd try to hit my brother, so I'd step in. that got me landed in the ER twice. yet I wouldn't trade my childhood because it made me strong. f#cked up but strong
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 25, 2015

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    ForYouIWillWait ForYouIWillWait 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2015

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    Tonight I'm having random body aches.

    Lower back especially. I've read somewhere this isn't unusual for survivors of child abuse. Phantom pains plaguing me. This is new. The pain is. I'm not sure if it's because I just turned 43, or if it's because new things have been surfacing. Deep down I feel like this pain is...
    scarecrow71 scarecrow71 41-45, M 2 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    Its all started when i moved to switzerland.

    Im from Holland. When i came to Switzerland i was 12. Its was hard because i couldn't speak any english, i wasn't able to communicate so i couldn't really makr friends. Later i got more and more friends . The problem was that at home i wasn't always safe.. I got beaten up by my...
    EmilySwitzerland EmilySwitzerland 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 5, 2014

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    My memories are not intact,

    it's bits and pieces for the most part. Some things that will always stick out is his face contorted with rage. The way he would sit on me and pin me to the floor, poking me in the chest over and over, laughing at me. The way he would try to trick me into revealing something I...
    reluctantamazon reluctantamazon 36-40, F 7 Responses Jan 28, 2015

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    me too very brutally by my dad

    but i forgave him but will always remember
    afterthedead afterthedead 56-60, M 1 Response Jul 21, 2015

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    My mother married a terrible guy in my tween

    years. I remember meeting him for the first time and telling my mom that I didn't like him. I remember feeling really uncomfortable around him and a red flag kept going up. I told my mom and she thought I was just jealous of him taking some of her attention. I was right though...
    2infinityandbeyond 2infinityandbeyond 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 13, 2014

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    It started when I was 9 lasted till I was 13 he

    was my Mom's bf he made me feel so special and grown up!
    Megansback Megansback 31-35, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Just cause you had a ****** childhood doesn't

    mean you should physically and emotionally abuse us. I hope karma. Comes and bites you. For all those times
    Avila96 Avila96 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    Picture Day Blues-"Come on,

    honey,give me a smile for Mama!" The photographer tried to encourage me. My tear stained face was emotionless. I sat perched on the crate completely numb to the outside world as I contemplated the beating that surely awaited me at the end of the school day. My mother's obscenity...
    Amkp0794 Amkp0794 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 7, 2015

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    My father has always had anger problems,

    and issues with patience. He claimed it was discipline but as the years passed I assured myself it wasn't. I've come to the point where I have seen a new side to my father but the thoughts of the past still linger, and the pain he caused my brother & I.
    RandomExistence RandomExistence 16-17, M 2 Responses Oct 13, 2015

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