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I Was Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 94 People

    I have always been obsessing with being thin

    ever since I was little. I have never allowed myself to get to a size 3 in pants, I am currently a size 0 and sometimes go down to a 00. When I reached size 1 last year, I decided to starve myself. I looked in the mirror and felt huge. I despised the fact that I didn't have a...
    petite19 petite19 18-21, F Apr 16, 2014

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    At 125 pounds, I have never really been

    satisfied with myself. Throughout my childhood, I can remember going weeks without eating much more than a servin of vegetables, or skipping out on that fatty food because I didn't need the extra weight. I've always thought that bones were beautiful, and I wanted to be like the...
    Tayns2010 Tayns2010 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 2, 2014

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    6th and 7th grade. In the beginning of sixth

    grade I was pretty chubby and someone decided to tell me that to my face, and before that I never cared about others thought, it hurt a lot. So I stopped eating as much. I would tell my mom I wasn't hungry or my stomach hurt. I don't think my family ever really noticed until...
    KarleeJo23 KarleeJo23 13-15, F 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    Scary Times

    I wanted to loose weight. But, I did it the wrong way. I starved myself. I ate one yogurt, celery and exactly ten mini pretzels a day. I dropped 70lbs in less that 6 months. I started to faint. I didn't know I was fainting until my dad caught me in the shower. That was really...
    em3476 em3476 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 21, 2012

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    So, I was anorexic this one time,

    for about nine months or so; not a ton to say about it, perhaps this sharing is garbage, but when I was in my teens I was quite overweight and very sensitive about it. I started playing basketball in a lunch league and noticed I was losing a small amount of weight after two...
    namegame namegame 26-30, M Feb 18, 2014

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    Skully17 Skully17 18-21, F Mar 9, 2014

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    It's honestly nothing like people think,

    it's beyond explanation. It's hell. People glamorize it, young girls start off thinking "I'll just get that thigh gap, and I'll stop." But when you lose weight, it becomes an addiction, the sound of someone saying "wow. You look skinnier" becomes a drug, your goals become too...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    It Was Never Enough, but love was.

     Wow. I was looking through some old photos today and now looking back I can see what other people saw. I was skin and bones. Here comes a painful story. When I was younger I was overweight, and my Barbie doll mother never let me forget it. She badgered me all the time...
    InsanelyMe08 InsanelyMe08 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 23, 2009

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    My Memory Of It

    I remember when I was anoxeric.  I was actually in the seventh grade when it happened.  I realized that I was borderline overweight just when summer came.  I started riding my bike almost six hours a day in the hot sun without any water in the beginning.  Then...
    rorschach246 rorschach246 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 10, 2009

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    I Was Anorexic

    I used to be "chubby". Not fat, but "chubby". I had what mothers call baby fat. I hated it. I was only in the 5th grade, but I was super self conscious about my wieght. I wouldn't wear bikinis, tank tops, or anything that might show my fat. Untill 7th grade when doctors...
    Anon97 Anon97 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 14, 2012

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    iaintcomingupwithausername iaintcomingupwithausername 18-21, F Jul 23, 2014

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    7th Grade

    I use to have a bit of an eating disorder. I'd skip dinner sometimes or only eat a little. I convinced myself that it was okay to only eat fruit for my meals because it didn't have that many calories. I convinced myself that it was just a diet I was on, but I knew in the back of...
    jellybeamers jellybeamers 18-21, F May 11, 2013

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    Last year in Jan of 2013 I had begun developing

    an eating disorder. It all started with graduation approaching and me just cutting a few calories and working out. It then became an obsession where I would go days without eating and spending entire days at the gym. By March I was down a whole 20lbs. I thought this was...
    haileyara23 haileyara23 18-21, F Jul 7, 2014

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    I am afraid of relapsing ...

    I have had eating disorders off and on as I was growing up. Growing up in the dance world, I guess it just came naturally - the best dancers were never the fat ones. Last year, it got to the point where I got really sick from it. I "recovered" so to speak, but now I think I am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 7, 2013

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    A lot of people look at me

    and think "but you're not extremely skinny, you can't be anorexic." Or "but you've eaten junk food, you just can't be anorexic." Anorexia nervosa is a mental illness, it's an eating disorder, you can be 300 or 100 pounds and still have anorexia. And yes.. We still eat, we...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    Middle School

    In sixth grade, I was kind of a chubby kid, and a lot of people made fun of me for that. I'd get called lard *** or some other horrible name every day. That lead to cutting. I thought if I cut myself, the pain would start to go away. A few weeks after I started cutting, I started...
    NathanRedd NathanRedd 22-25, M 1 Response May 20, 2013

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    Somehow I Miss It

    It was the worst time in my life, everyday was painful and I caused the people I love so much harm. But somehow I still miss it some days. The person I see in the mirror, even now my second year in recovery looks like an ugly stranger, and I feel myself longing for the face and...
    missdeth missdeth 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 21, 2011

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    Hello

    Hi. My name is Kat. I'm 16 with 18 month old twins! After I had my twins I couldn't stand the way my body looked so I decided that maybe if I stopped eating i'd loose some weight and finally be satisfied... I promised a friend i'd try it to a little bit, no more than a month... I...
    kitkat09 kitkat09 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2009

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    I wanted to try sharing my story just once.

    I've tried to blog about it once but chickened out. I have read so many other peoples stories and now here is mine. I am 23 now and haven't been anorexic for almost 2 years. My anorexia was never too bad but it came with bulimia and a binge eating as well. It started when I was...
    caloogie3 caloogie3 22-25, F Sep 16, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    Hi, guys. Well, the title sort of speaks for itself... I want to train myself to be anorexic. I have done plenty of research on the adverse effects of anorexia, but for me...
    umngirl12 umngirl12 18-21, F Apr 9

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    any time i eat i feel like i have failed. i am anorexic and i am happy because i no lomger give into food. i am strong. i would love of pro ana buddy
    gonnadieskinny gonnadieskinny 13-15, F Apr 20

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    idk If I am becoming anorexic but I really just need to lose weight. Need someone to keep me on track!
    Need2bSkinny Need2bSkinny 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 23

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    I know what you guys are going through- I still feel it today and I consider myself recovered. But here's the thing, a lot of you might not understand this because I didn't, but...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I think I'm becoming anorexic. I don't know. This past few days I've been ashamed of the food I eat afterwards... And I found myself eating less and less. I guess also because I'm...
    SefysMommy SefysMommy 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    I was bullied from the age of 2 till I was 11. During my two years at nursery I never made any friends which made me vulnerable. The other children physically bullied me, but if I...
    Englishgirl98 Englishgirl98 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 22

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    I feel so horrible I was at 98 lbs PERFECT at that point ik but then, my BD came and I gained then Easter and now I'm back to 111LBS please can someone help I want Ana back in my...
    Annmarierosewood Annmarierosewood 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    I've gone through a lot of abuse over my weight from friends and doctors and I'm always told I'm to skinny and although I was once happy with my weight I'm being told that being...
    anniethe27th anniethe27th 16-17, F Apr 8

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    I am totally horrified and disgusted with myself. I've had 841 calories today and I haven't even eaten dinner. Its because at lunch they were giving out free ice cream floats. I...
    Brimmless Brimmless 18-21, F Apr 10

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    Trigger Warning: A year later and I am STILL struggling to get better... It's such a vicious cycle...I have gotten down to 450 calories a day...maximum exercise output as...
    BeThinXsin BeThinXsin 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    I thought this would help.. all of you want this.. You want to be unhealthy.. I want help overcoming this.. obviously this was the wrong place. had to say it. And I feel disgusted...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 15

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    Okay, in the last 2 years, I've gained about 20lbs. I'm sure this was caused by medication side effects. I'm under 150lbs, but still think I'm fat, i hate everything about my body...
    careylynn careylynn 31-35, F Apr 24

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    The thing I hate the most about fasting, is the constant hunger pains and the hunger headaches. I always get bad headaches. But when I express this to my mother, she gets mad...
    cravingniht cravingniht 22-25, F Apr 25

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    Day six was a total success!
    Jupiterfl04 Jupiterfl04 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I ate as little as I possibly could today-1074. That might seem like a lot to some of you, but with my parents deciding what I eat for breakfast and dinner, it was an...
    Brimmless Brimmless 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Today was a day of weakness. Cookies kept being available for some reason.. Today I ate: Cereal: 382 calories Pizza: 340 calories Glass of milk: 122 calories Cookies: 399 calories...
    Brimmless Brimmless 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    day 2. all I ate today was a small fruit cup with no apples from chic-fil-a, and a small snack sized bag of pretzels . I feel confident about this. I drink water constantly. I...
    inevertoldne1 inevertoldne1 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    day three I been doing well but I got asked what I wanted from subway and before I could say no I was spurting a sandwich...i calculated it and it's 400 cal JUST for the sandwich...
    inevertoldne1 inevertoldne1 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am 19 years old.I am NOT a troublemaker or "bad girl"-I don't drink or do drugs,a make straight "A"s in school and I have never had an issue with the law for as much as a traffic...
    MICHELLE994060 MICHELLE994060 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    This story is really pathetic and has turned my completely cold to the idea ever being with a guy. My brother passed away 2.5 months ago. He was 29 (suicide) and my best friend...
    finallyfree2fly finallyfree2fly 26-30, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I was 8 years old riding my bike in the neighborhood and my chain broke and this man helped me because I had cut my foot and skinned my knee. he brought my bike down to his garage...
    barefootjamie barefootjamie 18-21, M 4 hrs ago

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    SEX ED WITH MOTHER- Felt like sharing a story. This takes place back in the 80's my dad and mom split up. My mom and me had to move in with my grand mother. After that I with drew...
    AL38DD AL38DD 31-35, M 4 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I was a hero back in 1975 there was a shooting at my high school a young man came in looking for his X g/f when he found her he started shooting at will he hit her with 7 rounds of...
    Normanbosworth49 Normanbosworth49 46-50, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Two wrecks in one weekend, with the same vehicle! Who has that kind of luck?! OH yeah... ME! :/ This Friday was the first one. I own up... it was my fault! That's what happens...
    emerald emerald 36-40, F 6 Responses 4 hrs ago

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