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I Was Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 91 People

    I am afraid of relapsing ...

    I have had eating disorders off and on as I was growing up. Growing up in the dance world, I guess it just came naturally - the best dancers were never the fat ones. Last year, it got to the point where I got really sick from it. I "recovered" so to speak, but now I think I am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 7, 2013

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    7th Grade

    I use to have a bit of an eating disorder. I'd skip dinner sometimes or only eat a little. I convinced myself that it was okay to only eat fruit for my meals because it didn't have that many calories. I convinced myself that it was just a diet I was on, but I knew in the back of...
    jellybeamers jellybeamers 16-17, F May 11, 2013

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    My Memory Of It

    I remember when I was anoxeric.  I was actually in the seventh grade when it happened.  I realized that I was borderline overweight just when summer came.  I started riding my bike almost six hours a day in the hot sun without any water in the beginning.  Then...
    rorschach246 rorschach246 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 10, 2009

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    6th and 7th grade. In the beginning of sixth

    grade I was pretty chubby and someone decided to tell me that to my face, and before that I never cared about others thought, it hurt a lot. So I stopped eating as much. I would tell my mom I wasn't hungry or my stomach hurt. I don't think my family ever really noticed until...
    KarleeJo23 KarleeJo23 13-15, F 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    It's honestly nothing like people think,

    it's beyond explanation. It's hell. People glamorize it, young girls start off thinking "I'll just get that thigh gap, and I'll stop." But when you lose weight, it becomes an addiction, the sound of someone saying "wow. You look skinnier" becomes a drug, your goals become too...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    I wanted to try sharing my story just once.

    I've tried to blog about it once but chickened out. I have read so many other peoples stories and now here is mine. I am 23 now and haven't been anorexic for almost 2 years. My anorexia was never too bad but it came with bulimia and a binge eating as well. It started when I was...
    caloogie3 caloogie3 22-25, F Sep 16, 2014

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    A lot of people look at me

    and think "but you're not extremely skinny, you can't be anorexic." Or "but you've eaten junk food, you just can't be anorexic." Anorexia nervosa is a mental illness, it's an eating disorder, you can be 300 or 100 pounds and still have anorexia. And yes.. We still eat, we...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    So, I was anorexic this one time,

    for about nine months or so; not a ton to say about it, perhaps this sharing is garbage, but when I was in my teens I was quite overweight and very sensitive about it. I started playing basketball in a lunch league and noticed I was losing a small amount of weight after two...
    namegame namegame 26-30, M Feb 18, 2014

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    Skully17 Skully17 18-21, F Mar 9, 2014

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    It Was Never Enough, but love was.

     Wow. I was looking through some old photos today and now looking back I can see what other people saw. I was skin and bones. Here comes a painful story. When I was younger I was overweight, and my Barbie doll mother never let me forget it. She badgered me all the time...
    InsanelyMe08 InsanelyMe08 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 23, 2009

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    Hello

    Hi. My name is Kat. I'm 16 with 18 month old twins! After I had my twins I couldn't stand the way my body looked so I decided that maybe if I stopped eating i'd loose some weight and finally be satisfied... I promised a friend i'd try it to a little bit, no more than a month... I...
    kitkat09 kitkat09 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2009

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    I Was Anorexic

    I used to be "chubby". Not fat, but "chubby". I had what mothers call baby fat. I hated it. I was only in the 5th grade, but I was super self conscious about my wieght. I wouldn't wear bikinis, tank tops, or anything that might show my fat. Untill 7th grade when doctors...
    Anon97 Anon97 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 14, 2012

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    Middle School

    In sixth grade, I was kind of a chubby kid, and a lot of people made fun of me for that. I'd get called lard *** or some other horrible name every day. That lead to cutting. I thought if I cut myself, the pain would start to go away. A few weeks after I started cutting, I started...
    NathanRedd NathanRedd 22-25, M 1 Response May 20, 2013

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    Last year in Jan of 2013 I had begun developing

    an eating disorder. It all started with graduation approaching and me just cutting a few calories and working out. It then became an obsession where I would go days without eating and spending entire days at the gym. By March I was down a whole 20lbs. I thought this was...
    haileyara23 haileyara23 18-21, F Jul 7, 2014

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    iaintcomingupwithausername iaintcomingupwithausername 18-21, F Jul 23, 2014

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    Somehow I Miss It

    It was the worst time in my life, everyday was painful and I caused the people I love so much harm. But somehow I still miss it some days. The person I see in the mirror, even now my second year in recovery looks like an ugly stranger, and I feel myself longing for the face and...
    missdeth missdeth 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 21, 2011

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    Scary Times

    I wanted to loose weight. But, I did it the wrong way. I starved myself. I ate one yogurt, celery and exactly ten mini pretzels a day. I dropped 70lbs in less that 6 months. I started to faint. I didn't know I was fainting until my dad caught me in the shower. That was really...
    em3476 em3476 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 21, 2012

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    At 125 pounds, I have never really been

    satisfied with myself. Throughout my childhood, I can remember going weeks without eating much more than a servin of vegetables, or skipping out on that fatty food because I didn't need the extra weight. I've always thought that bones were beautiful, and I wanted to be like the...
    Tayns2010 Tayns2010 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 2, 2014

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    I have always been obsessing with being thin

    ever since I was little. I have never allowed myself to get to a size 3 in pants, I am currently a size 0 and sometimes go down to a 00. When I reached size 1 last year, I decided to starve myself. I looked in the mirror and felt huge. I despised the fact that I didn't have a...
    petite19 petite19 18-21, F Apr 16, 2014

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    I used to be thin.. I want to go back to that <3 Ana buddy?
    Tallandthin Tallandthin 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    I'm always concerned about my weight and sometimes it's all I can think about. I spend my free time looking at skinny girls on Pinterest and I want to be just like them. I also...
    ucookie ucookie 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Throw back time when I was 16, I was a male teen model, and everything was good and perfect. Later I started to get real busy, didn't really pay that much attention on my nutrient...
    JamesLindberg JamesLindberg 22-25, M Mar 12

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    In school , I was often misunderstood. I have a lot of haters and people who 'act' as my friends but insulted me at my back. I could I always hear people feel disgust when they...
    Delicasy Delicasy 13-15, F a week ago

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    Lol any other anorexics like to watch cooking shows? I love watching Hells Kitchen Funny story I also dream about food. Specifically chocolate pie. One day I think I'd like to eat...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    I just want to say to all these 'pro ana' girls that what your doing is ridiculous...you wouldnt be pro cancer or pro heart disease....so why on EARTH would you be pro ana? As...
    GeorgiaAlicee GeorgiaAlicee 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    This all started when i was 12 back in 2013. I had a really skinny friend and she used to always brag about her body, but she wasnt that pretty. I stopped hanging out with her...
    samisol12 samisol12 26-30, F Mar 16

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    Today I weighed in at 99.5 lbs. It has been my dream since I was 14 to be under 100 lbs again. At 14 I was 5'2" and now I am 5'4" The sad part is, now I just want to shrink more...
    daisycuddling daisycuddling 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    The other day I had to weigh in for sports. My weight had to be under 90. I knew I was over it so for a few days I cut back on food and then didn't eat for 2 days before weigh in...
    Evain121 Evain121 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    I wish I didn't eat. I wish I didn't feel empty. I wish I knew who I am. I wish I could go back to who I was. I wish I was skinny. I wish I was me.
    TeenagerInPain TeenagerInPain 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I drank water and held my pee to weigh in at 103.0 lbs exactly at weigh in yesterday. but this morning, I weighed in at 101.5 lbs. Why is it that I just want to be sub 100 lbs...
    daisycuddling daisycuddling 22-25, F Mar 5

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    I just had a huge really bad panic attack and I was wondering what coping mechanisms you guys have for restaurants and for when Ana wont shut up and wont stop making you feel...
    SafetyPatrolRoxUrSox SafetyPatrolRoxUrSox 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 7

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    I miss the feeling of wasting away
    Unicornpeasant Unicornpeasant 18-21, F Mar 18

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    Watching a documentary on Self harm and they're talking about eating disorders, it isn't just a choice, it's a mental illness, like bipolar. However, watching this is making me...
    NavyGirlfriend94 NavyGirlfriend94 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    I've seen this girl named Ana. She's pretty thin and tall. She has the smallest frame I've ever seen. And not one single flaw. I met this girl named Ana. She introduced herself...
    recoveringteen00 recoveringteen00 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I still have strong feeling in relation to my previous care coordinator from the early intervention team that she was a hater and perceiving me as a dirty immigrant and she was...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F 4 Responses Mar 14

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    As a kid I was always up to something or other, but normally the only person in any danger was me, and more specifically, if you've read any of my posts on the subject, it was my...
    Mick672 Mick672 41-45, M 2 Responses Mar 17

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    pt 2 I knew where we were going. without a word, but with heart pouring I was marched towards the house. I fell and was slapped across the face twice for a punishment. once...
    rachael982 rachael982 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I've always been a socially awkward person, which I've grown into accepting as just one of my flaws. Yet it lingers in my mind a really disturbing moment in my childhood where I...
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    It’s been over nine years since I was kidnapped and turned into a pet. After I opened up to my first wife on Halloween she told me it might help me to right down everything that...
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    One christmas night, I dicide it to go see what my causin got for Christmas he was a bit drunk and had done drugs, then randomly he ask for a kiss i sed no. He keeped asking over...
    LuzMadrid LuzMadrid 16-17, F Mar 2

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    Yesterday morning, I had been up all night prepping for a hackathon up in NYC I was going to with two of my friends. We were planning on taking the train there, but unfortunately...
    addictedtoeverything addictedtoeverything 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 2

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    I am a whistle blower who had attempted to expose some ugly truths about a provincial government Ministry. That was back in the day when I believed that justice was about evidence...
    wronglyaccused71 wronglyaccused71 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    Twice. By the same guy. He was my friend. He went on to rape another friend of mine. She took him to trial and he wasn't even convicted. The second time haunts me always. He...
    samcanread samcanread 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 2

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