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I Was Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 93 People

    I used to be, This whole week,

    we've been on the road, and we've only been eating greasy food, and now I feel really fat. I'm considered just stop eating so I won't gain anymore weight.. But I don't want to start bad habits again.
    kaylynx kaylynx 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    iaintcomingupwithausername iaintcomingupwithausername 18-21, F Jul 23, 2014

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    I am afraid of relapsing ...

    I have had eating disorders off and on as I was growing up. Growing up in the dance world, I guess it just came naturally - the best dancers were never the fat ones. Last year, it got to the point where I got really sick from it. I "recovered" so to speak, but now I think I am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 7, 2013

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    It's honestly nothing like people think,

    it's beyond explanation. It's hell. People glamorize it, young girls start off thinking "I'll just get that thigh gap, and I'll stop." But when you lose weight, it becomes an addiction, the sound of someone saying "wow. You look skinnier" becomes a drug, your goals become too...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    So, I was anorexic this one time,

    for about nine months or so; not a ton to say about it, perhaps this sharing is garbage, but when I was in my teens I was quite overweight and very sensitive about it. I started playing basketball in a lunch league and noticed I was losing a small amount of weight after two...
    namegame namegame 26-30, M Feb 18, 2014

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    6th and 7th grade. In the beginning of sixth

    grade I was pretty chubby and someone decided to tell me that to my face, and before that I never cared about others thought, it hurt a lot. So I stopped eating as much. I would tell my mom I wasn't hungry or my stomach hurt. I don't think my family ever really noticed until...
    KarleeJo23 KarleeJo23 13-15, F 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    My Memory Of It

    I remember when I was anoxeric.  I was actually in the seventh grade when it happened.  I realized that I was borderline overweight just when summer came.  I started riding my bike almost six hours a day in the hot sun without any water in the beginning.  Then...
    rorschach246 rorschach246 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 10, 2009

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    I Was Anorexic

    When I was 11 or 12, I was overweight. I hated every day of it. I eventually resorted to starving myself. I was about 13 and I weighed 62 pounds. I thought I was still overweight. My mom wondered why I was getting skinnier. I told her my appetite was changing. She caught on that...
    Feb 13, 2013

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    Middle School

    In sixth grade, I was kind of a chubby kid, and a lot of people made fun of me for that. I'd get called lard *** or some other horrible name every day. That lead to cutting. I thought if I cut myself, the pain would start to go away. A few weeks after I started cutting, I started...
    NathanRedd NathanRedd 22-25, M 1 Response May 20, 2013

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    I wanted to try sharing my story just once.

    I've tried to blog about it once but chickened out. I have read so many other peoples stories and now here is mine. I am 23 now and haven't been anorexic for almost 2 years. My anorexia was never too bad but it came with bulimia and a binge eating as well. It started when I was...
    caloogie3 caloogie3 22-25, F Sep 16, 2014

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    Last year in Jan of 2013 I had begun developing

    an eating disorder. It all started with graduation approaching and me just cutting a few calories and working out. It then became an obsession where I would go days without eating and spending entire days at the gym. By March I was down a whole 20lbs. I thought this was...
    haileyara23 haileyara23 18-21, F Jul 7, 2014

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    Scary Times

    I wanted to loose weight. But, I did it the wrong way. I starved myself. I ate one yogurt, celery and exactly ten mini pretzels a day. I dropped 70lbs in less that 6 months. I started to faint. I didn't know I was fainting until my dad caught me in the shower. That was really...
    em3476 em3476 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 21, 2012

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    At 125 pounds, I have never really been

    satisfied with myself. Throughout my childhood, I can remember going weeks without eating much more than a servin of vegetables, or skipping out on that fatty food because I didn't need the extra weight. I've always thought that bones were beautiful, and I wanted to be like the...
    Tayns2010 Tayns2010 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 2, 2014

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    Skully17 Skully17 18-21, F Mar 9, 2014

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    7th Grade

    I use to have a bit of an eating disorder. I'd skip dinner sometimes or only eat a little. I convinced myself that it was okay to only eat fruit for my meals because it didn't have that many calories. I convinced myself that it was just a diet I was on, but I knew in the back of...
    jellybeamers jellybeamers 18-21, F May 11, 2013

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    Hello

    Hi. My name is Kat. I'm 16 with 18 month old twins! After I had my twins I couldn't stand the way my body looked so I decided that maybe if I stopped eating i'd loose some weight and finally be satisfied... I promised a friend i'd try it to a little bit, no more than a month... I...
    kitkat09 kitkat09 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2009

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    I Was Anorexic

    I used to be "chubby". Not fat, but "chubby". I had what mothers call baby fat. I hated it. I was only in the 5th grade, but I was super self conscious about my wieght. I wouldn't wear bikinis, tank tops, or anything that might show my fat. Untill 7th grade when doctors...
    Anon97 Anon97 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 14, 2012

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    A lot of people look at me

    and think "but you're not extremely skinny, you can't be anorexic." Or "but you've eaten junk food, you just can't be anorexic." Anorexia nervosa is a mental illness, it's an eating disorder, you can be 300 or 100 pounds and still have anorexia. And yes.. We still eat, we...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    Somehow I Miss It

    It was the worst time in my life, everyday was painful and I caused the people I love so much harm. But somehow I still miss it some days. The person I see in the mirror, even now my second year in recovery looks like an ugly stranger, and I feel myself longing for the face and...
    missdeth missdeth 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 21, 2011

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    I have always been obsessing with being thin

    ever since I was little. I have never allowed myself to get to a size 3 in pants, I am currently a size 0 and sometimes go down to a 00. When I reached size 1 last year, I decided to starve myself. I looked in the mirror and felt huge. I despised the fact that I didn't have a...
    petite19 petite19 18-21, F Apr 16, 2014

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    It Was Never Enough, but love was.

     Wow. I was looking through some old photos today and now looking back I can see what other people saw. I was skin and bones. Here comes a painful story. When I was younger I was overweight, and my Barbie doll mother never let me forget it. She badgered me all the time...
    InsanelyMe08 InsanelyMe08 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 23, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    What I would do to be stick thin and look like these girls in Vogue etc. They are so beautiful yet so skinny. Jealous doesn't cut it.
    danyellelakin danyellelakin 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I was anorexic on & off for years, and I think the anorexia is coming back. I refuse to eat unless someone forces me to & then I cry afterwards. I also have been obsessively...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 3 Responses May 11

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    My story is kind of complicated as I knew the guy who raped me quite well. I confided in a few people who one of who seemed to have since told him or his ex girlfriend (my ex best...
    buglivesinshit buglivesinshit 26-30, F 1 hr ago

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    I was 130 and today I am 124! I'm aiming for 100lbs
    corriesweet corriesweet 13-15, F 10 hrs ago

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    I am not anorexic, I have anorexia. I have toes, but I am not a toe.
    decimatedxdreams decimatedxdreams 18-21, F May 7

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    I am anorexic. My family and counselor are trying to help me recover but the thing is, the guilt is too much. I burn it all off anyways, even through I want to try for my family. I...
    CyanideSpider CyanideSpider 13-15, F May 10

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    This month will mark a full 2 years I've been recovered completely, I can honestly say anorexia is NOTHING like you think it is, it hurts me to see thousands of little girls...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 Responses May 12

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    I need help today my bf had me meet his sister and they wanted to go to lunch ( recovering from anorexia) and I agreed but I'm still not comfortable eating in front of others yet...
    virgo1998 virgo1998 18-21, F 1 Response May 24

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    With reluctance, today I threw out my chocolate. I realized just knowing it was there in the 3rd drawer down of my dresser was holding me back. I feel so relieved. Why didn't I do...
    Brimmless Brimmless 18-21, F May 5

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    ANOREXIA IS NOT A WILLFUL DISEASE! You can't develop it simply because you want that is being very ignorant. I actually had anorexia for five years that included five inpatient...
    JuliaHHL JuliaHHL 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    I wish I was skinny so I could find clothes that'd fit me and I'd fit in more with everyone around me. Everyone here is below American size zero. I'm a size 6 and I feel so fat...
    Letmebee Letmebee 22-25, F 2 Responses May 15

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    day 2. all I ate today was a small fruit cup with no apples from chic-fil-a, and a small snack sized bag of pretzels . I feel confident about this. I drink water constantly. I...
    inevertoldne1 inevertoldne1 22-25, F May 1

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    day three I been doing well but I got asked what I wanted from subway and before I could say no I was spurting a sandwich...i calculated it and it's 400 cal JUST for the sandwich...
    inevertoldne1 inevertoldne1 22-25, F 1 Response May 2

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    JESUS FREAKING CHRIST. My mom went to Krispy Kream and she said she was only gonna get one for herself, but decided to get a box for us instead. WHAT THE HELL WOMAN!?! It's like...
    Brimmless Brimmless 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6

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    Today was weird. I originally planned to eat a little more than usual so people wouldnt get suspicious, but I accidently ended up eating about 400 less than usual. Huh.
    Brimmless Brimmless 18-21, F May 12

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    I use to weigh 116 pounds, I am a small frame, 5"7 3/4, small waist, and was underweight for myself. Now, I am 145 pounds still a small frame but my thighs, legs, arms, face, hips...
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX 16-17, F 1 Response May 23

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    I am sarah... I am 15 and im 5'4 or 5'3 and i weigh 175 pounds... I used to weigh 120 until my oldest sister killed herself.. Food was the only thing that would comfort me... I...
    newanorexicgirl newanorexicgirl 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I went on an hour long walk after a concert tonight and one of my neighbors called the police. As soon as I heard the sirens I of course ran quickly back to my home, but I had no...
    LittleChut LittleChut 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    When I was little my brothers friend Jonathan would come over and we play a game called the Cubs and bear and what would happen is he'd take the covers and put them over us and he...
    QUEEN186 QUEEN186 13-15, F 11 hrs ago

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    At the present time I feel constantly anxious and persecuted .. I'm struggling with self hate and not accepting myself ...I feel so ashamed of myself and I feel I'm not worthy of...
    restlessuk restlessuk 31-35, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I was gang raped. It started when I was walking home from School, while I was walking a man behind was following me while I was walking then he suddenly put his hand over my mouth...
    elainenguyen619 elainenguyen619 36-40, F 4 hrs ago

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    Just to be clear I'm a 14 year old boy... It suck on how bad of a memory I have, yet somehow I can remember that day all to vividly. I was only 3 and this went on for about 2 years...
    ImperfectWeirdo ImperfectWeirdo 13-15, T 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I was molested by a family member when I was 12. I recently came out and told me family about it, and it's been reported.
    LittleMsWallFlower LittleMsWallFlower 18-21, F 1 Response