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I Was Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 100 People

    Somehow I Miss It

    It was the worst time in my life, everyday was painful and I caused the people I love so much harm. But somehow I still miss it some days. The person I see in the mirror, even now my second year in recovery looks like an ugly stranger, and I feel myself longing for the face and...
    missdeth missdeth 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 21, 2011

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    I used to be, This whole week,

    we've been on the road, and we've only been eating greasy food, and now I feel really fat. I'm considered just stop eating so I won't gain anymore weight.. But I don't want to start bad habits again.
    kaylynx kaylynx 16-17, F May 30

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    My Memory Of It

    I remember when I was anoxeric.  I was actually in the seventh grade when it happened.  I realized that I was borderline overweight just when summer came.  I started riding my bike almost six hours a day in the hot sun without any water in the beginning.  Then...
    rorschach246 rorschach246 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 10, 2009

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    It's honestly nothing like people think,

    it's beyond explanation. It's hell. People glamorize it, young girls start off thinking "I'll just get that thigh gap, and I'll stop." But when you lose weight, it becomes an addiction, the sound of someone saying "wow. You look skinnier" becomes a drug, your goals become too...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 5

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    Middle School

    In sixth grade, I was kind of a chubby kid, and a lot of people made fun of me for that. I'd get called lard *** or some other horrible name every day. That lead to cutting. I thought if I cut myself, the pain would start to go away. A few weeks after I started cutting, I started...
    NathanRedd NathanRedd 22-25, M 1 Response May 20, 2013

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    Skully17 Skully17 18-21, F Mar 9, 2014

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    7th Grade

    I use to have a bit of an eating disorder. I'd skip dinner sometimes or only eat a little. I convinced myself that it was okay to only eat fruit for my meals because it didn't have that many calories. I convinced myself that it was just a diet I was on, but I knew in the back of...
    jellybeamers jellybeamers 18-21, F May 11, 2013

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    I have always been obsessing with being thin

    ever since I was little. I have never allowed myself to get to a size 3 in pants, I am currently a size 0 and sometimes go down to a 00. When I reached size 1 last year, I decided to starve myself. I looked in the mirror and felt huge. I despised the fact that I didn't have a...
    petite19 petite19 18-21, F Apr 16, 2014

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    A lot of people look at me

    and think "but you're not extremely skinny, you can't be anorexic." Or "but you've eaten junk food, you just can't be anorexic." Anorexia nervosa is a mental illness, it's an eating disorder, you can be 300 or 100 pounds and still have anorexia. And yes.. We still eat, we...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    I Was Anorexic

    When I was 11 or 12, I was overweight. I hated every day of it. I eventually resorted to starving myself. I was about 13 and I weighed 62 pounds. I thought I was still overweight. My mom wondered why I was getting skinnier. I told her my appetite was changing. She caught on that...
    Feb 13, 2013

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    Last year in Jan of 2013 I had begun developing

    an eating disorder. It all started with graduation approaching and me just cutting a few calories and working out. It then became an obsession where I would go days without eating and spending entire days at the gym. By March I was down a whole 20lbs. I thought this was...
    haileyara23 haileyara23 18-21, F Jul 7, 2014

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    Hello

    Hi. My name is Kat. I'm 16 with 18 month old twins! After I had my twins I couldn't stand the way my body looked so I decided that maybe if I stopped eating i'd loose some weight and finally be satisfied... I promised a friend i'd try it to a little bit, no more than a month... I...
    kitkat09 kitkat09 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2009

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    Its odd because this is the first time I have

    been on EP for about 3 years... reading all my old anorexia stories is really strange, like a time warp almost. I'm pleased to say that time is over for me now, but I can't say I don't struggle with body image. Ive been thinking about how its weird that just because I am a...
    Illlusion Illlusion 18-21, F 11 hrs ago

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    At 125 pounds, I have never really been

    satisfied with myself. Throughout my childhood, I can remember going weeks without eating much more than a servin of vegetables, or skipping out on that fatty food because I didn't need the extra weight. I've always thought that bones were beautiful, and I wanted to be like the...
    Tayns2010 Tayns2010 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 2, 2014

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    I wanted to try sharing my story just once.

    I've tried to blog about it once but chickened out. I have read so many other peoples stories and now here is mine. I am 23 now and haven't been anorexic for almost 2 years. My anorexia was never too bad but it came with bulimia and a binge eating as well. It started when I was...
    caloogie3 caloogie3 22-25, F Sep 16, 2014

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    So, I was anorexic this one time,

    for about nine months or so; not a ton to say about it, perhaps this sharing is garbage, but when I was in my teens I was quite overweight and very sensitive about it. I started playing basketball in a lunch league and noticed I was losing a small amount of weight after two...
    namegame namegame 26-30, M Feb 18, 2014

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    iaintcomingupwithausername iaintcomingupwithausername 18-21, F Jul 23, 2014

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    I was anorexic for the dumbest reason ever ,

    but it did change my life. Because of that experience now when I get upset I don't eat or I feel sick. I have never been above 110 pounds. So when I decided to do this . I lost a lot of weight.
    cheerdiva cheerdiva 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    I am afraid of relapsing ...

    I have had eating disorders off and on as I was growing up. Growing up in the dance world, I guess it just came naturally - the best dancers were never the fat ones. Last year, it got to the point where I got really sick from it. I "recovered" so to speak, but now I think I am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 7, 2013

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    6th and 7th grade. In the beginning of sixth

    grade I was pretty chubby and someone decided to tell me that to my face, and before that I never cared about others thought, it hurt a lot. So I stopped eating as much. I would tell my mom I wasn't hungry or my stomach hurt. I don't think my family ever really noticed until...
    KarleeJo23 KarleeJo23 13-15, F 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    I Was Anorexic

    I used to be "chubby". Not fat, but "chubby". I had what mothers call baby fat. I hated it. I was only in the 5th grade, but I was super self conscious about my wieght. I wouldn't wear bikinis, tank tops, or anything that might show my fat. Untill 7th grade when doctors...
    Anon97 Anon97 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 14, 2012

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    It Was Never Enough, but love was.

     Wow. I was looking through some old photos today and now looking back I can see what other people saw. I was skin and bones. Here comes a painful story. When I was younger I was overweight, and my Barbie doll mother never let me forget it. She badgered me all the time...
    InsanelyMe08 InsanelyMe08 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 23, 2009

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    Scary Times

    I wanted to loose weight. But, I did it the wrong way. I starved myself. I ate one yogurt, celery and exactly ten mini pretzels a day. I dropped 70lbs in less that 6 months. I started to faint. I didn't know I was fainting until my dad caught me in the shower. That was really...
    em3476 em3476 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 21, 2012

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    It's taken me a while to even admit that he was controlling and emotionally abusive because I loved him and still do but I can see things clearer now that I'm not with him. He was...
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    And it hurt like hell when he told me it was my choice to have him in my life. I'm not even worth fighting for
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    The tiniest comments put me in such a funk! I was bsing with one of my favorite customers about life and cancer and hardships etc. she finishes off the conversation with "do you...
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    I have bin inside of a mental institution around 14 times for around a month or two each time for the past 3 years. it was interesting for the most part. I got to meet some...
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    I've been hit before. This past weekend I got hit again. A kid merged into my car without checking his blind spot, causing a fender bender, then fled the scene of the accident...
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    I was abused as kid for about 3 years, abused phisically and mentally by my own parents, my educators, and my friend. it was long rough 3 years in my elementary days, I got no...
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    I wasted so much time on one person that now I only have a few friends
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    cheated on is not the word I have been cheated on by every single boyfriend and they said it was cause other girls were better looking which at time was bitter about it but it...
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    I'm 13 5ft8 and 180 pounds, I'm so fat and I need help, right now I'm bulimic but its not giving me any good results, I need an ana buddy and was hoping to swap numbers with...
    Anorexictobe Anorexictobe 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I was anorexic but my friends helped me to get through that but now my body affected by me being anorexic in the past, I'm eating like normal person but I still loose weight and I...
    Myself1myself2 Myself1myself2 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I'm trying to become anorexic and need a buddy to talk with and get tips from
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    Hey guys, I'm here to help of you need it. I promise I can help you and I promise you're not alone. Seriously, message me.
    Kittykat2174 Kittykat2174 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Hey!! I want one or a group whit ana friends! One of my problems are that I don't se me as an anorexic and I want to become a anorexic. But I don't know how to hide it from my...
    Blueisnice Blueisnice 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Just when I think I am getting better the bad thoughts start up again. I lost so much weight after my divorce, I was getting so many compliments, and I looked amazing. Now, however...
    lil0miss0sunshine lil0miss0sunshine 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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