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I Was Anorexic

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 87 People

    It Was Never Enough, but love was.

     Wow. I was looking through some old photos today and now looking back I can see what other people saw. I was skin and bones. Here comes a painful story. When I was younger I was overweight, and my Barbie doll mother never let me forget it. She badgered me all the time...
    InsanelyMe08 InsanelyMe08 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 23, 2009

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    Last year in Jan of 2013 I had begun developing

    an eating disorder. It all started with graduation approaching and me just cutting a few calories and working out. It then became an obsession where I would go days without eating and spending entire days at the gym. By March I was down a whole 20lbs. I thought this was...
    haileyara23 haileyara23 18-21, F Jul 7

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    So, I was anorexic this one time,

    for about nine months or so; not a ton to say about it, perhaps this sharing is garbage, but when I was in my teens I was quite overweight and very sensitive about it. I started playing basketball in a lunch league and noticed I was losing a small amount of weight after two...
    namegame namegame 26-30, M Feb 18

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    Somehow I Miss It

    It was the worst time in my life, everyday was painful and I caused the people I love so much harm. But somehow I still miss it some days. The person I see in the mirror, even now my second year in recovery looks like an ugly stranger, and I feel myself longing for the face and...
    missdeth missdeth 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 21, 2011

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    I Was Anorexic

    I used to be "chubby". Not fat, but "chubby". I had what mothers call baby fat. I hated it. I was only in the 5th grade, but I was super self conscious about my wieght. I wouldn't wear bikinis, tank tops, or anything that might show my fat. Untill 7th grade when doctors...
    Anon97 Anon97 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 14, 2012

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    6th and 7th grade. In the beginning of sixth

    grade I was pretty chubby and someone decided to tell me that to my face, and before that I never cared about others thought, it hurt a lot. So I stopped eating as much. I would tell my mom I wasn't hungry or my stomach hurt. I don't think my family ever really noticed until...
    KarleeJo23 KarleeJo23 13-15, F 1 Response May 2

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    I am afraid of relapsing ...

    I have had eating disorders off and on as I was growing up. Growing up in the dance world, I guess it just came naturally - the best dancers were never the fat ones. Last year, it got to the point where I got really sick from it. I "recovered" so to speak, but now I think I am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 7, 2013

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    I wanted to try sharing my story just once.

    I've tried to blog about it once but chickened out. I have read so many other peoples stories and now here is mine. I am 23 now and haven't been anorexic for almost 2 years. My anorexia was never too bad but it came with bulimia and a binge eating as well. It started when I was...
    caloogie3 caloogie3 22-25, F Sep 16

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    Scary Times

    I wanted to loose weight. But, I did it the wrong way. I starved myself. I ate one yogurt, celery and exactly ten mini pretzels a day. I dropped 70lbs in less that 6 months. I started to faint. I didn't know I was fainting until my dad caught me in the shower. That was really...
    em3476 em3476 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 21, 2012

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    At 125 pounds, I have never really been

    satisfied with myself. Throughout my childhood, I can remember going weeks without eating much more than a servin of vegetables, or skipping out on that fatty food because I didn't need the extra weight. I've always thought that bones were beautiful, and I wanted to be like the...
    Tayns2010 Tayns2010 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 2

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    My Memory Of It

    I remember when I was anoxeric.  I was actually in the seventh grade when it happened.  I realized that I was borderline overweight just when summer came.  I started riding my bike almost six hours a day in the hot sun without any water in the beginning.  Then...
    rorschach246 rorschach246 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 10, 2009

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    iaintcomingupwithausername iaintcomingupwithausername 18-21, F Jul 23

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    I have always been obsessing with being thin

    ever since I was little. I have never allowed myself to get to a size 3 in pants, I am currently a size 0 and sometimes go down to a 00. When I reached size 1 last year, I decided to starve myself. I looked in the mirror and felt huge. I despised the fact that I didn't have a...
    petite19 petite19 18-21, F Apr 16

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    Middle School

    In sixth grade, I was kind of a chubby kid, and a lot of people made fun of me for that. I'd get called lard *** or some other horrible name every day. That lead to cutting. I thought if I cut myself, the pain would start to go away. A few weeks after I started cutting, I started...
    NathanRedd NathanRedd 22-25, M 1 Response May 20, 2013

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    Hello

    Hi. My name is Kat. I'm 16 with 18 month old twins! After I had my twins I couldn't stand the way my body looked so I decided that maybe if I stopped eating i'd loose some weight and finally be satisfied... I promised a friend i'd try it to a little bit, no more than a month... I...
    kitkat09 kitkat09 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2009

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    Skully17 Skully17 18-21, F Mar 9

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    7th Grade

    I use to have a bit of an eating disorder. I'd skip dinner sometimes or only eat a little. I convinced myself that it was okay to only eat fruit for my meals because it didn't have that many calories. I convinced myself that it was just a diet I was on, but I knew in the back of...
    jellybeamers jellybeamers 16-17, F May 11, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I used to weigh 120 and I'm at 150 now I'm so pissed !!! I'm willing to starv myself I need a water gating buddy or someone to keep me motivated until I get to 115 I'm 5'7
    imabee23 imabee23 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 27

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    I don't want to eat anymore I feel like I way to much but when I eat healthy I gain weight I stopped eating any more than a spoonful of something here and there my friend said she...
    Worriedaboutthefuture Worriedaboutthefuture 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    I have been anorexic for a few years. 2 of the years I was hospitalized. But I now know we have to eat. Without eating, we get no energy. Without energy, we die! Anyone who...
    childlover4evr childlover4evr 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    This thread makes me sad. The ignorance of everybody wanted to be anorexic is frustrating.
    TheAnonymousTroll TheAnonymousTroll 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 17

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    Anorexia is not a weight-loss strategy. It's a mental illness. Do you want to be unhealthy? Tired constantly? Lose your hair? Be constantly monitoring your body? Worry about food...
    ElleEstJolieLaide ElleEstJolieLaide 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 18

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    I'm anorexic and I hate looking at my body. My friend is skinny and pretty and has a nice body but I don't know how she manages to keep her figure. I try my best but I always find...
    StillFlawless StillFlawless 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    am a anorexic and i sometimes experience unbearable hunger pang's! i cant even think straight and am very irritable and moody in that state! any one, any tip's or advise? farakh
    farakhshaheen farakhshaheen 36-40 Nov 29

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    So yeah I'm becoming anorexic im sorta bulimic already just getting worse where I won't eat or if I do I throw up
    relapsing14 relapsing14 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 1

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    If I must be honest, I've dealt with Anorexia for 3 years. It's been an on and off battle. It got to the point where I literally forgot what hunger felt like. I'd always confuse it...
    katykinns666 katykinns666 18-21, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    Hello, I wanted to share this story, because I can't tell my mom neither my sister! They would freak. Everything started last year when I met this really skinny girl, let's call...
    samisol1 samisol1 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 17

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    I have been in recovery for several years now but I understand why they say with anorexia, or any other addiction, you are recovering, but nver fully recovered. Sunday my husband...
    lil0miss0sunshine lil0miss0sunshine 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    Im back down tothe weight i was at when i was sent to the hospital the first time.. im traped in this "thin" cage.. my hair is falliing out and im missing periods, im always cold...
    tiannadianee tiannadianee 18-21, F Dec 2

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    This time last year I was starving myself to extreme levels, fainting etc and now I literally eat my fridge. I'm not even hungry. I'm just bored and empty. I need help
    luneelfe luneelfe 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    So the other day I weighed my cats so that I could buy their flea meds...well to weigh them I get on the scale holding a cat, then put the cat down and write down the difference...
    lil0miss0sunshine lil0miss0sunshine 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I was 180+ lbs last June of 2013 I lost 60 lbs
    MrFoe MrFoe 13-15, M 2 days ago

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    I was raised by a mother who hated me and expressed her hate toward me every chance she had , my father was in and out of my life .. when he was in my life he was always drunk...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 6 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Hey people this happened when i was pregnant .When i was 8 months pregnant i was lying on the bed.Then my husand came and suddenly rubbed my navel.My navel had an outie.And this...
    VismayaRajesh VismayaRajesh 26-30, F 6 hrs ago

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    I remember on my birthday after dinner, I told my husband I wasn't full and my husband strapped me into a chair and put my arms behind my back and made me eat anything he gave me...
    maddytheMILF maddytheMILF 36-40, F 1 Response 27 mins ago

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    When I was 13, I started experimenting and it wasn't until I was 15 that I ever went all the way with a boy. Like a lot of young girl's first experiences... it was really awkward...
    HotBoxesDatRock HotBoxesDatRock 22-25, F 6 hrs ago

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    Ok. I have tried to tell my story before. It's so hard. I am 14 and I ain't told. When I was eight a guy abducted me. He stopped me in a country lane and wanted to know the way to...
    blodyn blodyn 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    This happened in June i was on my way to pick up my sister (this was my fault and i had just gotten my lisnse 2 or 3 month prier to the accident) and i was looking for the street...
    emmainal emmainal 16-17, F 1 hr ago

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    Ahh the time where you there was a balance between a 'real' childhood and the digital age. I miss my childhood. It was somewhat lonely but also very fun. I had a lot of Barbie...
    FierrrrceNadia FierrrrceNadia 18-21, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I found out Santa was not real when I was 7 but then I asked my mam I said "Santa isn't real is he " and she just says "I thought u already knew " how would I have known at 7 I was...
    Alisha5751 Alisha5751 18-21 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I thought he was different. He seemed straight up and for real. Now I just feel stupid. I should have known. While I'm trying to get closer I feel him pulling away. I didn't call...
    MNI1982 MNI1982 31-35, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Long story short, I found out about 9 months ago that my wife was cheating on me. I happened to go through her phone one day and found a pretty damning text message. She...
    donnie2419 donnie2419 31-35, M 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    After being with my wife for nine years I finally told her about my experiences as a child. The conversation happened the other night. I was drunk and I opened up about...
    Cnote7 Cnote7 41-45, M 7 hrs ago

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    I was 8 when it all started. Mostly for my color because everyone here in this town is white.. But then it got worse for my weight and teeth. Then it went to name calling and...
    janaeBoo janaeBoo 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    ...I was visiting my friend and she wanted me to grab her some Swedish fish from the gas station so I drove to the gas station and bought the Swedish fish and then when I was...
    BIaziken BIaziken 26-30, F 4 Responses 18 mins ago

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    He made me feel sad quickly. I just couldn't believe my idiocy. I fell for a guy pretending to care. Open the *** channel right up. I feel pretty bad today, right now. I...
    LastofmyPeople LastofmyPeople 31-35, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    When I was younger, I had many wild moments. When I tell people about them they can't believe them at all. Sometimes, I can't believe them either!
    jklly jklly 51-55, M 6 hrs ago

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