I Was Molested - and I Never Told

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    It's too late. Too late to tell them what

    happened that night. Too ashamed. I never told a soul, never confessed, never weeped. Wait, maybe once, when I was pretending to sleep. Now I'm not the same, nothing will ever be the same. The hand prints are still burning against my skin. So I push away everyone, even my...
    LeepFrog29 LeepFrog29
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 18, 2015

    "Big girl stuff" is what he called it.

    Come into my room and tell me if he didnt believe I liked it he would hurt me. I was ******* 7 years old. I told my mum when I was 7 and she didnt believe me. And In court they asked if I liked him before he started alledgidly doing these things and I said I didnt like him...
    QuinnMac12 QuinnMac12
    13-15, F
    4 Responses Aug 23, 2014

    I Reflect On Life I was a victim of molestation

    at a young age. Homeless and had a Druggie parent. I never told anyone about this until a few months ago because I always felt embarrassed and honestly I felt really ashamed. When you go through something traumatic like that or anything as a child you tend to ask the question...
    Salyssasalenee Salyssasalenee
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Feb 10

    How Much Of What We Think We Remember Is Real?

    I look around me in school and wonder how many other girls were molested by their uncles, fathers, brothers. Is it still happening to some of them? I've never told anyone. I wear a smile to hide what's going on inside me so can their smiles be just masks as well? Am I the only...
    KimmieDelta KimmieDelta
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 6, 2012

    I was 12 when doctor started ******* me off

    and molesting me. And by then I was old enough to sort of understand what was going on and the situation. And that just because he was doing this to me he wasn't hurting me and he would stop if I told him to. And I knew I could tell an adult and it would stop and he would get in...
    touchedboy touchedboy
    46-50, M
    5 Responses Dec 26, 2015

    Was my best friend's older brother.

    I still see him from time to time even now, he doesn't bother me anymore, he's married and has a son. He just gives me this strange look when no one else is looking, but even when he had a chance hasn't tried to touch me anymore. Ok, guess I should start at the beginning of the...
    SaraBlaze SaraBlaze
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 20

    I was sexually abused between the ages of 6-8

    by my cousin who is 6 years older than me. I have vivid memories of the incidences and believe the first was when I spent the night over his house. I don't remember fighting him off or going along with it, but he should have and did know better. Now, I am 28 and still very...
    Krisi288 Krisi288
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 6

    UPDATE: So as y'all know I held a secret

    for 4 years. Last night, I finally told my parents. I feel free in a way. I no longer have to keep it to myself but I still don't feel relieved. My parents still have to finish talking about how to deal with this. For those of you who were molested or raped or abused in any way...
    sophie0511 sophie0511
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Aug 9, 2015

    When I was little my mom was a nurse.

    She would leave and I would get sad, she would tell me to go get in my step dad's bed so I would go back to sleep, that was okay for a while. Then he started to touch me. I woke up one morning to find my legs numb entangled with his. I have a step sister, who is his blood...
    42chwgca 42chwgca
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 9
    jennyisaslut jennyisaslut
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jan 16
    jennyisaslut jennyisaslut
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 11, 2015

    When I was sixish, I had moved back in my

    grandmothers house with my parents and siblings after a bug hurricane. Apparently one night I was crying in my sleep. My step father at the time, came in to my room to 'console me' but he didn't. He took my pants and underwear off and touched me. He touched me in ways that...
    Adikitty Adikitty
    18-21, F
    Sep 23, 2015

    I was maybe 6 or 7 then

    and he was 13. I had no idea what he was doing to me so I just allowed it. I eventually learned that it was wrong when I grew up. He and I never talked about it even until now. And I doubt he has any idea I still remember what he did to me. It's weird but I actually liked the...
    sexyinglasses sexyinglasses
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Nov 9, 2015

    I was molested by my stepfather

    when I was 13-14. I'm 32 now, and to this day I have never told a soul. I always faked being asleep the many many times it happened. I didn't know what to do, and I sometimes feel guilty about being so weak. Weak to allow it and weak not to speak up. They divorced due to his...
    thelonereader thelonereader
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Feb 12, 2015

    Second Time

    The second time happened only a month after my sister started abusing me. She'd take me into our bathroom daily. And I always prayed, Dear God, please let my mom walk in, if she walked in she could stop her. But at the same time, I DIDN'T want my mother to know. I knew, if my mom...
    3Times 3Times
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Aug 24, 2013

    after a wedding in a car with an old

    relative started kidding me on my mouth and I thought it was normal because I've seen other family members kiss their kids a quick mouth kids -just touching lips - But he got his mouth in my tongue and started caressing the inside of my thighs and putting my hand on top of his...
    Selfharmer9705 Selfharmer9705
    18-21, M
    Jan 18

    I know this is an experience page

    but I have a question in regards, how do I tell my husband what happened to me? Do I just say it straight out with the correct terminology or explain it? I don't know how to express myself when I think about telling someone. My husband will be the first person I have ever told.
    bonsimba bonsimba
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Sep 22, 2015

    Well I was about 4 or 5

    and I used to live with my grandma at one day I was over at my aunts house. She had 2 sons and I would always go hang out with the younger one, Alex, and one day we were in his room and he said he wanted to show me something. I was a little girl, so naturally I said OK The...
    Tearya13 Tearya13
    13-15, F
    Oct 3, 2015

    I was molested by five of my family members

    and i never told anyone. It started when i was 12 years old.
    Og94 Og94
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Feb 14

    is it molestation if you liked the attention i

    know i liked the attention i got from it
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Nov 10, 2015
    Kennedy12 Kennedy12
    13-15, F
    5 Responses Dec 20, 2015

    (BEWARE, THIS IS LENGTHY AND DEscriptIVE) It

    was another night my uncle had stayed over to go work with my dad the next morning. I remember playing with my pink princess bouncy ball in the family room with my two younger sister's Rachel and Char. As we were throwing it to each other, uncle Dan ran in and took the ball and...
    loverenzy loverenzy
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 11

    CHAP. I pt.II Like my stepdads abuse wasn't

    enough, the house maid molests and abuses me also. For some reason, I feel like people who are abused, are continuously being bothered by other molesters. It's like we attract them or something. Anyway, the maid is disgusting. She's in her late 40's and she's fat and looks...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 15, 2015

    It Went On For 6 Years

    I was molested by my uncle from when I was 6 years old until I was 12. I remember exactly how it started. He was painting the fence at grampa's house. Me and my cousin Kathy asked if we could help. I was wearing shorts and a t-shirt. Uncle Rick was kneeling down next to me. He...
    KimmieDelta KimmieDelta
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 10, 2012

    I am 5 yrs. old, and still,

    some times I sleep with my parents...lately I am doing it more since my granddad, who lives a door down is really sick and I feel scared... I do not know why..Tonight, I open my eyes and realize that I am "by myself" in my parents bed...and remember that my granddad is sick...
    Marife7128 Marife7128
    51-55, F
    4 Responses Sep 23, 2015

    never done anything like this

    but i was kind of feeling like a piece of **** for never telling anyone. i was molested when i was, i think 15, by my sister's husband. the father of her 3 children. it happened when i was asleep, i had woke up and he was standing over me, touching me. i cried right afterwards...
    fharris43 fharris43
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 20, 2015

    It has always made me feel guilty.

    Idk I guess maybe I think its my fault somehow. It happened for a long time when I was younger but I never had the nerve to tell anyone. I still wonder if it would have been different if i had.
    kim14b kim14b
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Jul 3, 2014

    I Thought It Was A Fun Game

    He used to babysit and we used to play dress up I never thought it was bad we used to go in my mums room and I would get stuff out he would get a bra and panties set out and sometimes a skirt and a top We would go down stairs and play mans and dad just laughing and kissing Then...
    kellycooper kellycooper
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 12, 2013

    I Am A Coward

    I've already told my story here in the group about my being molested by my uncle. It's just a part of who I am now and most of the time I'm not bothered by it. I've learned to supress it I guess - just to not dwell on it. I can't change it so what good would fretting about it do...
    KimmieDelta KimmieDelta
    18-21, F
    11 Responses Dec 4, 2012

    This is always an interesting story to

    tell When I was 6 years old. I got into a fist fight at school because the other classmate wouldn't let me play with the toy I wanted to play with. Obviously I was sent to the principals office, to explain, I didn't lie and told her what happened, and she abused me, and simply...
    Nihl Nihl
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Oct 11, 2015

    I was molested and raped by my adopted brother

    when I was like 8 or 9 years old. He took my innocence from me. I told him No as he said we should do what the people on the tv were doing. I tried to push him off. That night I just slid inside myself and stayed numb. I never told a soul as he kept coming back seemed like...
    Pertgen16 Pertgen16
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 19

    my babysitter i had to stay with.

    . used to play doctor with me and she that way pinched my bums nd rubbed it making me feel that i was getting a shot. it was cruel sometimes when she got irritated by me as a child. my butt since thn became sensitive to touch but my mental strength becomes stronger to take...
    imthespirit imthespirit
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Feb 13

    he was out neighbor, married with 3 kids,

    his wife even ran a daycare center. I'm not sure if any other girls there were touched but I think from the time I was 14 to 15. I never told because at the time I didn't have a computer and I would go over there to use theirs and I was afraid I wouldn't be able to use it any...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Jun 19, 2015

    This app saved my life (literally).

    When I first got this app, I was ready to end my life. I believed it wasn't worth all the pain and tears. When I shared my story, I felt weight being lifted off my shoulders. I was able to talk to some amazing people on here who saved my life. Someone called me a hero on here...
    sophie0511 sophie0511
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 24

    Did anyone else ever enjoy the molestation?

    My sister's took turns sucking me and having me do vaginal intercourse with them from the time I was 9 until I was 13. They were 12 and 15.
    hardluckguy73 hardluckguy73
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Nov 23, 2014

    I was 4 or 5 when it started.

    she was probably 12. I stayed to like it... now I'm 30 and we still mess around with each other when we're together
    alcid506 alcid506
    26-30, M
    1 Response Nov 9, 2015

    Be The Stranger

    I'm a poet... So instead of writing it down in a story I decided to put it in a poem... "you can trust me" he said, "Im a friend" he said. 34 to me meant protection. Before circumstance removed its adhesive, I was labeled as innocent. 34 was identified as a family friend, no...
    TheIvyWolf911 TheIvyWolf911
    18-21, F
    Nov 22, 2013

    The last time was Christmas Eve three years ago.

    I've told one person and I've always felt like the outsider looking in, disconnected. I never felt like it actually happened but it did four times, and I don't know how to feel about it. I don't feel angry or lost or hurt. I feel like I've just watched a car collision and I'm...
    naturalnobody naturalnobody
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 9, 2014

    I used to make excuses

    for why I woke up with my pants unbuttoned.. I was 6 when my parents got divorced, 7 when my mom started dating. 8 when they got a house together. He was 19-20. I can't remember WHEN it started but I remember what he did to me. He started going into my room at night and put his...
    Sadeyesx Sadeyesx
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 11, 2015

    I'm watching dr. Phil right now

    and they're talking about a girl who was molested and it bring up so many memories. I'm like crying right now. I'm 22 and I have been raped and/or molested by a few different people in my life. I hate it. I wish I could forget.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Nov 20, 2014

    At least...I think so.

    My father used to be so good at manipulating people and making him think that it was for their own good, or that they wanted it. Or asked for it. I was confused, and now my brain functions only to make the memories of it all blurry and dream-like, so I can't fully remember if I...
    SourQueen SourQueen
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 6, 2014

    I am still getting molested.

    And idk if I ever will tell. I've only told one person. And I've never even met her
    Chocolateloverteam Chocolateloverteam
    13-15, F
    6 Responses May 30, 2014

    I was molested by a family member,

    when i was 13, i was so young, had no idea what was happening but was very traumatizing. I ask myself why alot, if it was my fault, should i have done something diffrent.its hard to let go but im trying.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    9 Responses Feb 13

    i wish i spoke. now its too late.

    ..there are no proofs
    ishiyu ishiyu
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Nov 24, 2015

    I was touched inappropriately at a young age

    like 4-10 can't remember exactly, by a family member.. & then it happened again with a different family member when I was about 13.. Thank god it was nothing more but damn..
    hungrybish hungrybish
    18-21, F
    Apr 19

    I should have said something

    when I had the chance. now, he's living his life... he's happy... I'm depressed, keep getting flashbacks and nightmares, I'm scared of people who touch me or who look at me "that way". he messed me up and when I hear someone who's been molested.. I break down because no one...
    bisexualteen98 bisexualteen98
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Apr 3
    ithappentome2 ithappentome2
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Dec 18, 2015

    I was 8 years old when he first touched me.

    He was in the basement spending the day at our house watching tv. I went to ask him if he wanted to play with me and my sisters, because he usually would. He told me he was too tired to play so I told him ok. I went turned around and went to walk upstairs until he strangely...
    loverenzy loverenzy
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 11

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