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I Was Molested As Child

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    As a person who was molested

    and raped while younger, I find it oddly arousing to fantasize about experiencing it as an adult. I realize that for some, the thought of this is a huge turn off, but for me, there's something hugely arousing about the idea of being forced to feel good. Sure, it could be under...
    pebbles7 pebbles7 36-40, F 6 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    After being with my wife

    for nine years I finally told her about my experiences as a child. The conversation happened the other night. I was drunk and I opened up about everything. It was the most liberating conversation. I truly think this will get her and I back on track. Of course, only time will...
    Cnote7 Cnote7 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 17, 2014

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    Geeklvngrl28 Geeklvngrl28 26-30, F 2 Responses May 19

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    I never talk about this,

    but when i was around 6-9 years old, my older sister would rape me. She doesn't remember at all, we honestly have a good relationship, i forgot about it for many years but recently realized what really happened. We'd play games all the time and there was 1 game where i'd pretend...
    Thisultraviolence Thisultraviolence 16-17, F 2 Responses May 11

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    When I was 8 or 9 I was raped by some other

    boys down the road from my house. There was three of them , but two of them did it and the third just watched. I tried to get him to help but he just laughed. After I thought it was ok to play with my hinny. I have been doing it for the last 20 plus year. I am married to my...
    hamtex hamtex 36-40, M 3 Responses Apr 25

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    As a child my mom was divorced,

    she found a guy she really liked and she started dating him, I was around 7, and he would always go into the bathroom with me after my bath and he would always wanted to make sure I was dry.. He would check.. Everything.. When I got a little older I had realized what he was...
    MaciP MaciP 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 25, 2014

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    18 months old. That was my earliest childhood

    memory. 18 months old and I can remember textures, smells, colors, taste, and most importantly you. You are the biggest reason for my first real memory. I was just a baby. innocent, helpless, small, afraid. you should have been the one who protected me. you were... my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 6, 2014

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    On my mother's side I mostly have female

    cousins. I hung out with two male cousins during family gatherings which happen every thursday, one 1 year younger and the other five years older. Lets call them cousin A and B repectively. I was best friends with cousin B since the day I was born apparently. I can't put a date...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 23

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    Before I start telling you,

    I am not asking for sympathy or for you to feel bad for me, I just want to share it you guys. I remember it just like it was yesterday. At my house it just didn't feel normal to me. I was homeschooled majority of my life and that had an impact on my social life. The memories I...
    xMikayla xMikayla 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I have been molested at least three times in my

    life. The other two doesn't really affect me as an young adult. The one out of the three that does is my mom, she touched more than two times. I don't think about very much until, me and my mom were watching the movie "The unsaid". She said how could a mother do that to...
    jellyrolls34 jellyrolls34 18-21, F 7 Responses May 3

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    and it wasnt the big horrible thing other

    people think it was. i got addicted to sex when other kids were playing with dolls. so what? it is what it is. and i love who i am xx
    jennyisaslut jennyisaslut 16-17, F 9 Responses Jan 11

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    I remeber being molested.

    As a kid by a family friend, he would come in a night and sleep with me having me touch him while he touched me. This happend for days or weeks i dont remeber but i has effected my self-esteem badly now i think i may be gay or BI because of it.
    danlowthewild danlowthewild 26-30, T 2 Responses Mar 22

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    Really? I deserve to be molested

    because I'm stupid? How sweet, I guess I learned my lesson. Never speak out against drugs on the Internet.
    Knixveus5 Knixveus5 18-21, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    When I was about 8 years old my friend he was 11

    or 12 at the time he stayed the night with me and told me that I should reach over and grab his hard d*** because it would feel really good so hesitantly I did and I felt really weird about it as my hand was on it then he reached over and grab mine and started playing with it to...
    tboy1152 tboy1152 41-45, M 1 Response May 3

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    By my paternal grandfather.

    The earliest occurrence I can remember, I was two or three years old, and the most recent was when I was 13. Only my mother knows about this, but I need to get it off my chest. Whenever we'd stay at their house, he would act strangely. He wouldn't let go of me after I hugged...
    ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes ThatOneGirlWithTheBlueEyes 18-21, F 12 Responses Jan 30, 2014

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    CyanideY CyanideY 70+, F 3 Responses May 11

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    Mixed Feelings About It

    I was molested by a family member from when I was 6 until I was 12 and I told that story in the "I Was Molested by My Uncle" group. I wanted to tell a different story and I wasn't sure where to put it. I couldnt find a group about being molested by a stranger so I figured I'd put...
    KimmieDelta KimmieDelta 18-21, F 7 Responses Oct 11, 2012

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    My dad played with me

    when I was young and I liked . I am odd
    brie1107 brie1107 13-15, F 8 Responses Jun 4, 2014

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    My neighbor used to invite me over to way candy

    and ice cream and we watches movies and it was all stuffs I wasn't allow to do at home and we couldn't afford it anyway and then he started having me sit on his lap while I ate ice cream or lick candy pieces off of the front of his pants and he liked to take pictures of us...
    JadenLangVageta JadenLangVageta 13-15, F 5 Responses Apr 6, 2014

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    I want to thank everyone

    for allowing me to share what had happened to me when I was so young. It has really helped me overcome a lot talking and explaining what had happened to me.
    sarah95w sarah95w 18-21, F 5 Responses May 3, 2014

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    I was molested by my uncle

    when I was 8, now 13. I talked to the police but he wasn't arrested beacuse i didn't give them enough information...
    IntrovertLyssa IntrovertLyssa 13-15, F 4 Responses Apr 22

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    I don't even remember much of it.

    I never asked myself what was that and how I feel about it. I was in 8-9 year old and he was my friend's teen brother 15-16 old maybe. He use to take us in his bed room... I remember him removing my pants and touching me and making me hold his penis. I also think I use to enjoy...
    Adam4u Adam4u 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 2

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    I need to talk to someone ASAP please I'm kinda

    breaking down right now but someone on EP just told me he he's dry humping his stepdaughter who don't contact PLEASE HELP ME
    Geeklvngrl28 Geeklvngrl28 26-30, F 2 Responses May 19

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    I was molested for 10 years

    and raped for 13 now I'm 17 and I can't tell my counselor or the police or any friend about it because my mother threatened me for 16 years to not tell because my brothers that hurt me for 13 years has a GPA of a 4.5 he was at 3-4 top colleges supper smart. I am just a 17...
    JuanR JuanR 22-25, M 3 Responses May 8

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    Just to be clear.. Im a boy 15.

    The fact that this is to some extent anonymous makes this easier to talk about i have never spoke about this to anyone.. So i have very vivid memories of when i was around 5 or 6 my uncle molested me but the thing is i cant make heads or tales if this was a dream or not but...
    Callumcd1 Callumcd1 13-15, M 6 Responses May 7

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    I'm learning to accept my feelings

    and how I am when experiencing them. For a very long time I have laughed at myself. Never been able to get close to anyone because of something that happened to me at 7 years of age. I still have flashbacks. I still remember the man with the mullet wearing a red g-string doing...
    hospitalrooms hospitalrooms 31-35, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    When I was about 4-7 a 40 year old guy

    who was very close to my family would come over to visit, and we he came over he would hug me and sit me on his lap. He used to rub up against my behind and I somewhat knew it was wrong but I never said anything out of fright. One night my cousins and I were at a bonfire and we...
    kristen1993 kristen1993 22-25, F 4 Responses May 5

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    When I was young my dad had my cousins come

    sleep over they were both girls so we can have family time and get to know our cousins more well that night the first night they came over they had went into my room my sister was in there we were playing games like children normally do and that night we were having s'mores...
    cittykatluv cittykatluv 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 16, 2014

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    It's hard to write this without wanting to

    scream... Being locked in closets, dragged under beds, etc. I had no choice but to let it happen, with everyone saying, "it's alright." Friends, family, friends of family... Hitting my head on the floor at 6 years old and waking up, having to find my clothes was the hardest by...
    HelloEla HelloEla 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    I was molested by older guys in the cinema And

    I liked it I need to talk about this
    mathstrainer mathstrainer 61-65, M 3 Responses Mar 28

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    I'm messed up! I've always been straight

    until one day I went to meet a girl she seemed really cool and our first date was to stay out all night smoking weed in the park to be romantic, we had been talking online for ages and built up trust, she would send lots of pics of her, the night finally came so I went to meet...
    audiogasm audiogasm 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 23, 2014

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    my cousin molested me

    when I was 10. bastard.
    ashleythis ashleythis 31-35, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I was molested as a child between the ages of

    about 4-7, and I am really just now in my mid-twenties coming to terms with the lasting effects. I never understood why it was so hard for me to trust or become intimate with my boyfriends or any man in my life. I feel like I'm broken because the only time I can make myself...
    Mimo8989 Mimo8989 26-30, F 3 Responses May 18

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    It was supposed to be a normal summer day.

    We went to a diner I'd never been to, a park, sweet tea, I was staying the night at my best friend's house. Those french fries were some of the best I've tasted in my life. I love diner food. I enjoyed the park, too. The flowers there were beautiful. I loved my best friend's...
    h0les h0les 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    Begging for a rope to save me from drowning in

    vicious childhood flashbacks and i am thrown an anchor instead. He must be starving because no matter where i am, his ghost demands to be fed. I haven't seen his eyes in twenty years and yet my memory recalls them in horrific detail even during the intimate relations in the...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 41 Responses Feb 14

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    Whenever I try to post a story it ultimately

    gets deleted! I made this stupid account so that I could vent about what happened to me but nothing is posting.
    insecured insecured 18-21, F 13 Responses May 10

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    I grew up with sex and

    even when I was 6 I liked it and I don't think I could ever have a bf my age. I know people think that people like me are all sick and twisted, but it's all people like me have ever known. If it wasn't for sex we wouldn't be loved. And just because I like it done to me doesn...
    thumper15 thumper15 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 8

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    every friday i had to spend the night with my

    aunt and uncle until i was 13 because my parents both had to work late. we would watch a movie eat pizza popcorn and drink kool aid. and every saturday morrning i woke up sick and naked. my aunt told me i was sick because i allways ate to much. later in life i found out i was...
    verdeguy verdeguy 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    I hate that word. It makes it sound

    so disgusting, but like I'm the one who is disgusting, not the one who's doing it. It makes me feel different, not normal, like what they both did defines me and I can't change that, ever. And I know that I can't change what they did, but I can change how I am affected by it. I...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 5 Responses Apr 5

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    Neighbour

    I was getting ready to go next door to swim when I drop my towel and I was bending down I was about 12 at the time. There was hands on my waist as the guy bend down and picked up my towel. I was freaking out because I was wearing a bikini that was tied by strings. The guy was...
    XxTeresaaBoooxx XxTeresaaBoooxx 16-17, F 10 Responses Sep 8, 2013

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    So I really don't know how to talk about this,

    because I really never have went this deep into it due to fear. But for the past year I have been isolating myself and reliving it, as well as getting worse and worse with my PTSD. I was molested before this, but this is the one that effected me most, I guess because it was my...
    mentallytortured mentallytortured 18-21, F 54 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    Imagine being a little girl- Your innocence is

    taken away from you- You are messed up for the rest of your life- It never disappears from your head- The images and the feeling of helplessness can still be felt- It doesn't take much to bring me back to that traumatic time in my life that lasted so many years after it was...
    SilviaAnnGinger SilviaAnnGinger 36-40, F 6 Responses Jan 8

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    it happened when I was a little girl

    and it saved me. I know people would disagree but my life was screwed from the second I was born. He saved me from emotional torture from my father as my father looked at no more his innocent daughter but a filthy used piece of trash he didn't want. I miss my molester to this...
    rozata1213 rozata1213 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 15

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    I hope some people are reading this!

    Just knowing I can tell my story knowing people are reading will help. See I was sexually molested by my father as a child. His name is William jackman an he was a doctor in the navy as well as a captain. He molested me while he was the commanding office of the naval academy in...
    Judyb42 Judyb42 41-45, F 8 Responses Apr 2

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    Feeling depressed right

    now I cant sleep... thoughts bout it keep coming to me and I can't stop it. :( What do I do?
    mypawshaveprints mypawshaveprints 18-21, F 1 Response May 13

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    I Was Molested By 3 Different People As A Child .

    My experience starts in preschool . I believe I was about 3 years old when the first situation happened . She was one of the two daycare student teachers . Her name was either Melody or Melanie and she abused me on more than one occasion even though I can only vividly remember...
    Kingmingyao Kingmingyao 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 27, 2013

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