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I Was Once Not Myself

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    Still Not

    I'm still not really myself. I kind of switch about to different people depending on whoever I'm with. I don't really know who I am anymore.
    brighteyed brighteyed 18-21, F Sep 14, 2007

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    My Break-down.

    One thing I am sure of is that the person of 2 years ago is not the me I am today. I was completely controlled by my illnesses, no medication, no therapy. I was hell breathing. - RDW
    randomdriftwood randomdriftwood 21-25, F Sep 14, 2007

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    Confused And Struggling. Help Me.

    I am not sure how it started. Everything's unsure. It was blurry. It was difficult and dark. All I know is that I have these diseases of Nervous Breakdown and Anxiety Depression. It is really difficult to compose words to translate everything I have been through. It's been so...
    AinaRosales AinaRosales 18-21, F Nov 20, 2012

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    Broke Down

     my husband tore me down ... when i met him i was a very strong person . over the course of three yrs  ... the old star was gone .  i was so unsure of myself ... i wasnt allowed to take a shower by myself or anything . I still when im at my moms ask if its okay to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 2, 2008

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    I Hated Who I Was...

    A lot had happened. I might go into that someday, but for now, all you need to know is that a lot happened... I became someone I hated. I became someone snappy, irritable, reclusive... undesirable... But slowly, I've changed. And I'm finally becoming someone I love. Someone...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 23, 2008

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    I finally let him go... He was once my fiancé back year 2010, we've been friends before we became lovers and i can say he is my male counterpart. I became pregnant and sadly we...
    AlexieMartinez AlexieMartinez 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    It's not even a second thought anymore, I need to get fatter. I get jealous looking at pictures of people who are obese, I dream of the day I'll be their size too. I have a goal of...
    enplumpen enplumpen 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 6

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    Years ago, I was going through a divorce. Husband cheated and was leaving me. I met a coworker. Good looking, musician, I was extremely flattered. Sex was beyond amazing. We would...
    UnfortunateCookie UnfortunateCookie 36-40, F Nov 19

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    I felt so attracted to you, you were nice and talked about things in common at work! Jaja how stupid and blind I was, you were just backstabbing me!
    ScarletAlexah ScarletAlexah 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    All of the great lines in all of the best Love stories like "Love is never having to say your sorry" and so on, are only lines, imagine if you will never telling your spouse your...
    jonesfornow jonesfornow 56-60, M Nov 21

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    I think now around 4 or 3 years ago. I got bullied for 3 years straight. And all the negativity is still haunting me..
    DepressedFool DepressedFool 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 18

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    I hate when this happens. I like to be wrong but 9 times out of 10 im right. This is the only time i wanted to be wrong...
    xxjellybabyxx xxjellybabyxx 26-30, F 4 Responses Dec 3

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    I wrote this in 09 Am I me? Can I really only be me? Does it make sense to say that I am only Me, different from all else, and existing as only myself. I certainly don't...
    chimbie88 chimbie88 31-35, M Nov 25

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    I was once happy and then lost my smile forever......
    exhuberantviolet exhuberantviolet 18-21, F 12 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    The more and more i learn about myself, the idea of what i want from my life is becoming clear.Materialistic things do matter but i need something which is way above than the...
    imurfriend imurfriend 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 10

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    9th post. My second daughter was born in 1997, very cute, but then again babies are so adorable. Their innocence always gets me. I discharged early from hospital, like I had done...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F Nov 19

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    So here's the thing about this time of year.. it was once my favorite time of the year, because it was filled with love, family and holiday spirit. See, I was sexually abused as a...
    willowsweep willowsweep 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 22

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    I was once driving at night and I was coming up to a stoplight. The light was red, so I started to break. When I got closer to it, the light had changed to green, but for some...
    Emilia0659 Emilia0659 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    When I was 10 years old.I was molested by my dad while my mother was sleeping in the same bed. I woke up feeling a tickling sensation and realized that a hand was down my pants. I...
    Lovleyes Lovleyes 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    So wake me up when it's all over.. When I'm wiser and I'm older.. All this time I was finding myself and I didn't know I was lost..
    Anngeleyes Anngeleyes 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 6

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    23rd post. Not long after I recovered from the kidney stone, I started getting upper abdominal pain. They would come and go in spurts, and at the beginning a couple of panadol...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    Coming out was the best thing I have ever done for myself. I have always been the one that worries about everyone else first then I deal with my problems later. Since I was younger...
    foreverbeautifultoni foreverbeautifultoni 18-21, F 6 hrs ago

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    well i am the type of person that would try everything to help others, help them laugh, a very "hyper" as you may say...i try to keep up this happy face just so people can like me...
    neeuQ neeuQ 18-21 10 hrs ago

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    THE AFTERMATH... I LOVE GOD FOR MAKING ME, NOT ONLY AS A HUMAN, BUT AS AN INCAPABLE HUMAN... MAYBE IT WAS MEANT FOR ME TO SUFFER... I KNOW MY DESTINY... I LOVE YOU MY DEAR...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    WHY just why. That was awful and I feel even worse about myself than I already did feel. I had to go otherwise my money would've been cut completely and I would starve to death. I...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I have always been the shy girl. The wired girl. Iv always loved playing sports was never really into makeup. I would much rather play soccer or football than go shopping. I was...
    Ampk Ampk 18-21, F 20 hrs ago

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    In October, I saw my abuser for the first time in 11 years. I was adopted and my mothers first husband physically, emotionally, and sexually abused me. he is the root cause of most...
    cillasavage cillasavage 18-21, F 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    When I was about 5-6, my mother and father divorced, and my mum got custody of me. Dad wasn't too happy, and he started threatening to kill us and stuff. Once he came over at night...
    sierralayne sierralayne 26-30, F 19 hrs ago

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    hey everyone, I have experienced an awakening, and realized that my father was not the good man he remembers himself being, nor do i remember him being. My dad constantly brought...
    chidoc chidoc 26-30, M 20 hrs ago

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    17th post...Let me start this post with a little apology. I take antidepressants, and they have kept me from, metaphorically speaking, pulling the trigger. But one of the downsides...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    I used say...I don't.I won't.I CANT hate myself....but I do.Sometimes I just look at myself....I think about myself and I just feel disgusted.... ashamed... unworthy...terrible. It...
    irreelevance irreelevance 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    25th post. It's been a few days since I have posted, and I have to say it has been a roller coaster of emotions. At times I have felt elated and invincible. Other times I have felt...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    12th post. This one might be a sensitive topic for some people so you can give it a miss if you need to. By the time my second daughter was 2 years old the gambling and the abuse...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 19

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    I never knew what REAL betrayal was, until 2014 came along, and presented me with a trail of heartbreak. Not only did one person hurt me this year, but three others did too...
    BeautifullyBroken10x BeautifullyBroken10x 18-21, F 41 Responses Dec 2

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    27th post. So basically my husband bashed me for years and years. There were things thrown at me such as plates, glass ashtrays, tables, punches, choking, whatever he felt like at...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    I have given you everything. I have presented myself as the cup at your winner's circle. I bow down at your presence. Your beauty steals my breath almost constantly. And all the...
    risa1068 risa1068 18-21 16 hrs ago

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    Then I was on the toilet for hours the next day.
    whatsnewpussycat whatsnewpussycat 18-21 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    As I'm sitting this house wondering what going to happen in my later life. As right now I do not understand myself because there so much stuff that I wanted to do. Well I can't do...
    colonaileen colonaileen 26-30, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Younger women dating older men mainly because younger women are attracted older men. older men mature, confident, stable .Mature guys always know how to treat their women.These...
    kerencc12 kerencc12 26-30, F 1 hr ago

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    28th post. A couple of other times that spring to mind when I think about the abuse, were two instances where once again I can't understand what went wrong. A few years back we...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    1)My name is Tessa. 2)My real name is Theresa actually but people call me Tessa. 3)I'm American. 4)I'm originally from Washington. 5)I moved to New York 2 years ago. 6)I have a...
    Tessa3 Tessa3 22-25, F Dec 5

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    I enlisted for the military in early March. I had wanted to join since the 8th grade despite the depression and anxiety I suffered again and again. I worked hard to lose weight and...
    KeiKeiChan KeiKeiChan 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10

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