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I Was Once Not Myself

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    Broke Down -  my husband tore me down ... when i met him i was a very strong person . over the course of three yrs  ... the old star was gone .  i was so unsure of...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 2, 2008

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    Confused And Struggling. Help Me. - I am not sure how it started. Everything's unsure. It was blurry. It was difficult and dark. All I know is that I have these diseases of Nervous...
    AinaRosales AinaRosales 18-21, F Nov 20, 2012

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    My Break-down. - One thing I am sure of is that the person of 2 years ago is not the me I am today. I was completely controlled by my illnesses, no medication, no therapy. I was...
    randomdriftwood randomdriftwood 21-25, F Sep 14, 2007

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    I Hated Who I Was... - A lot had happened. I might go into that someday, but for now, all you need to know is that a lot happened... I became someone I hated. I became someone...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 23, 2008

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    Still Not - I'm still not really myself. I kind of switch about to different people depending on whoever I'm with. I don't really know who I am anymore.
    brighteyed brighteyed 18-21, F Sep 14, 2007

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    For a while back in elementary school. There were some older "tough" guys that liked to pick on the younger ones and I often got in the way. It wasn't that bad but they would shout...
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    I don't believe that once someone has cheated, they are always a cheater. I think it depends very much on the scenario, and what the 'cheater' gained from the infidelity. If it's...
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    I had been overweight since age 6, with my heaviest being 215lbs around age 13. We never really had any money, so I was never really taught how to manage my naturally curly hair...
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    When I was younger people would tell me I was pretty and going to grow up and be beautiful. I wish it was true . Back in 4th - 7th grade literally every boy thought I was ugly and...
    dawn11235 dawn11235 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    It was a group phone chat service for adults... and we had to listen to keep people from being jerks or spouting out there phone number or addresses (you would be surprised,). We...
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    In high school I was a great student. ignoring the fact that I was undocumented and focusing on my studies. My dream was to go to a big name conservatory and create music and art...
    Arieamarxus1 Arieamarxus1 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    Being a mistress was fun. It was just like old times. Last time I saw him was month ago. The sexual spark was still there. I can still feel his **** pulsating my aching flesh and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 31

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    I can't stop emailing you. You hurt me Greg and made me feel like such a fool. I put my trust in you and (you know how hard it is for me to trust people) and you betrayed it! You...
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    Still am—and proud to be! ;)
    AICLover AICLover 13-15, F Mar 31

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 3

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
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    There was once a guy from my Christian school (I was initially Christian going in as an eighth grader) who I really liked. He had a feminine edge to his behavior, but I overlooked...
    ArchSeven327 ArchSeven327 18-21, M Mar 18

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    Tonight I went a liit further than normal. I wanted to full on abuse myself. I tied my ankles together and then I put a belt snug around my neck, sat on the floor and tied it to...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21 Apr 4

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    Coming to, or rejoining the living was an interesting experience. I can now say that I do not fear death, delirium maybe, but not the process of dying. The ride toward it was...
    paufui paufui 51-55 Apr 2

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    One time at school I had just taken a shower and had wrapped myself in a towel. I stepped out and was slammed against the wall by four girls I didn't particularly like. They spread...
    gibbo28 gibbo28 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I've only been on EP for three days, and it's already helping me with my ongoing battle with depression. Or rather, it's helping me to help myself. I'm the kind of person who...
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    There was once i went to the pool at a hotel but i wasn't staying there, i went there with my dad, younger brother, my aunt and two cousins, one same age as me and one 2 years...
    Som3son3 Som3son3 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I wet my pants last night. I was at the bar and when they were closing there was a line up at the ladies room. I took a taxi home and was holding myself all the way. When I got...
    wetmarie wetmarie 36-40, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Life is full of surprises, irony and twists, and one night at work I had one in mine. A few years ago after a satisfying Easter dinner with my family, I set off for an overtime...
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    I write this tonight as it flows through my fingertips once more. It so awesome to be given a gift to write specifically revealing my thought to you. See, its something i have...
    TheCunylinguist TheCunylinguist 41-45, F 13 hrs ago

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    questions. I was a witness of my mother abusing when I was 5, of my mother beating when she was pregnant. I was under constant stress of "what will happen next". I was constantly...
    schyzo schyzo 26-30, F 46 mins ago

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    .....I cut myself for the first time about 3 weeks ago.... It stung. I remember the night so clearly. I was depressed because I found out my crush had sex with another girl when I...
    WolfGirl31 WolfGirl31 13-15, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I actually stopped a while back. Not really, like last year after Christmas. It's hard but I did and I'm proud of myself. My girlfriend looked down on me for it, though she has...
    ExileTraveler ExileTraveler 13-15, F 12 hrs ago

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    First time I met him, I thought he was the sweetest guy ever... we had fun, he treated me with the greatest respect.... Soon after he became telling me what to wear, how to act...
    Samysam Samysam 22-25, F 12 hrs ago

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    So recently I have been wetting the bed again. Which is really embarassing and unpleasant. I haven't wet my bed since I was 6 and I haven't wet my pants during the day for even...
    Jonaayy Jonaayy 13-15, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    ==> beware if hughgo<== he's a bully. Yes, everyone has opinions. Fair enough. But, Thank you. It's worth it. You shouldn't have threatened & tell me to shoot myself. Really...
    TheCunylinguist TheCunylinguist 41-45, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I wrote this a while ago, it seems such a long time. I was reading it again, and I'm so much happier now. I am where I'm supposed to be. I thought I was in Love. To forgive and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 29

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    I am working on that, it might take some time. Maybe a life time, who knows. Rome wasn't built in a day and I like to think I'm real about it. I just chip away little by little!
    KawaiiBoy KawaiiBoy 18-21, M 2 hrs ago

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    I don't want to have to change myself to get a man to like me. Usually I do have to though. I have to pretend not to like something, or pretend to like what they like. Or else they...
    Dreamer32 Dreamer32 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 hr ago

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    My room is probably my favorite place go stay. I like curling into my bed and shutting my eyes and just floating away. It's insane to me how hours of sleep can only feel like...
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    The Girl That Once Was She was amazed at first, falling fast for his smile She knew this could be her love His envious spirit seemed so divine She was sure he was sent from above...
    Somethingelsetotry Somethingelsetotry 31-35, M Mar 25

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    It's been over half a year since I cut myself for the first time. I got home from school and had been stressed and as they say "when it rains, it's pouring". I got inside my...
    iSabishii iSabishii 18-21, F Mar 24

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    Hi, it's Dakota again. I've already told my story of being raped by my uncle and three strange men last summer, just after I turned 14. One of the men was killed in a bad drug deal...
    mouthdakota mouthdakota 18-21, M 12 Responses Apr 4

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    Hi, it's Dakota again. I've already told my story of being raped by my uncle and three strange men last summer, just after I turned 14. One of the men was killed in a bad drug deal...
    mouthdakota mouthdakota 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 4

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    Hi, it's Dakota again. I've already told my story of being raped by my uncle and three strange men last summer, just after I turned 14. One of the men was killed in a bad drug deal...
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    Hi, it's Dakota again. I've already told my story of being raped by my uncle and three strange men last summer, just after I turned 14. One of the men was killed in a bad drug deal...
    mouthdakota mouthdakota 18-21, M 10 Responses Apr 4

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    I love to express myself with the simplicity of words. They take you on adventures, its wonderful. I love writing stories and poems and other things. They're all so fun to make...
    DanielleCaylen DanielleCaylen 13-15, F 12 hrs ago

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    Is it me? Everything is crumbling. Nothing makes sense. Relationships are broken. Bonds that should be permanent are severed, leaving behind ragged edges of frayed cord. I know I...
    Missjayne1 Missjayne1 31-35, F Mar 17

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    The only way for me to fully escape the pressures of this world is to do it through music. Either playing or listening it doesn't matter but I guess it depends on how my day went...
    Konalover0210 Konalover0210 16-17, F Apr 7

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    I once read an interesting perspective about the people you will encounter in your life, it states: "25% of people you meet: will never like you; 25% of people you meet: won't...
    FussBox FussBox 26-30, F Apr 7

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    Growing up was hell. It was hard to to say the least. Lost my father to suicide. Never met the guy. His family has never cared or wanted to be a part of my life. Even when I needed...
    Iammyownworstenemy79 Iammyownworstenemy79 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    I am pathetic. My emotions are consuming me. I just wanted to end it. Yet, the unsteady hand of the blade could not cut. As hard as i tried to move it closer to my pale flesh, the...
    NotTheOnlyOne23 NotTheOnlyOne23 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago