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I Was Once Not Myself

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    Still Not

    I'm still not really myself. I kind of switch about to different people depending on whoever I'm with. I don't really know who I am anymore.
    brighteyed brighteyed 18-21, F Sep 14, 2007

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    My Break-down.

    One thing I am sure of is that the person of 2 years ago is not the me I am today. I was completely controlled by my illnesses, no medication, no therapy. I was hell breathing. - RDW
    randomdriftwood randomdriftwood 18-21, F Sep 14, 2007

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    Confused And Struggling. Help Me.

    I am not sure how it started. Everything's unsure. It was blurry. It was difficult and dark. All I know is that I have these diseases of Nervous Breakdown and Anxiety Depression. It is really difficult to compose words to translate everything I have been through. It's been so...
    lovelymade lovelymade 18-21, F Nov 20, 2012

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    I Hated Who I Was...

    A lot had happened. I might go into that someday, but for now, all you need to know is that a lot happened... I became someone I hated. I became someone snappy, irritable, reclusive... undesirable... But slowly, I've changed. And I'm finally becoming someone I love. Someone...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 23, 2008

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    Broke Down

     my husband tore me down ... when i met him i was a very strong person . over the course of three yrs  ... the old star was gone .  i was so unsure of myself ... i wasnt allowed to take a shower by myself or anything . I still when im at my moms ask if its okay to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 2, 2008

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    Over the past few weeks I have had a large jump in my weight gain. I had not weighed myself in a few days and was surprised this morning when I saw that I weighed 240 pounds. This...
    coolsean1 coolsean1 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I once really struggled with body image, I hated my body, even though I was skinny, then I started drinking, and on piled the weight. I realized, I was happier with the extra...
    BasicallyFat BasicallyFat 22-25, F 9 Responses Apr 14

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    before on the right and after  left- 
    chunky44 chunky44 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 8

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    I just saw a riveting movie, Midnight in Paris. The only thing I regret it's not seeing it earlier. I remember how much i avoided it and I misjugded it only by its cover...
    onenico onenico 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    In the moment. In that moment. I was not myself - the one I always have been, no more. A promise made, broken. I made the right choice, and it's haunting me. The thoughts, the...
    LuluMoualla LuluMoualla 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 20

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    after my biological father got deported, me and my mother moved back to her hometown and there she met my stepfather. well, ex stepfather now. i was 3 years old when they met, i am...
    mercedezr95 mercedezr95 18-21, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    If you are a friend of mine.. You hit me once I will silently forgive you. You hit me for the second time ill forgive you again but guilt trip you a little and think that it...
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether 18-21 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    About a year ago , I got really drunk after receiving some bad news , I then got it into my head to sleep with a man I did not know without using protection During our encounter...
    babina8 babina8 31-35, F 5 hrs ago

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    King Me I saw the world through the lens of a pinhole camera. I saw nothing. I was blind. In between a black hole and a super nova is where you'll find me. Imploding and expanding...
    BennyBoy68 BennyBoy68 46-50, M 1 hr ago

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    i dont know what to do i think im spirling downwards. im a failure and i just want to give up. ill never make it into college i know people dont care about that stuff bc of...
    JannieL3 JannieL3 16-17, F 16 hrs ago

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    A question for you guys who remembers pooping themselfs when you was a kid and how did you do it did you stand there? Did you squat what position was you in when you was having the...
    Mushypanties12 Mushypanties12 18-21, M 3 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I have done it few times for the common reasons 1-wanting to feel anything if that feeling is pain. 2- being angry at myself or others n it was my way of letting it out. I used to...
    candles700 candles700 22-25, F 13 hrs ago

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    I lost you. I lost myself in fear of losing you. I wish I didn't do but I did. People say fools rushin. People say everything happens for a reason. You changed me. I turned into...
    piperweant piperweant 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    With a crafting knife, during art class, while I was cutting card. Wasn't that deep, but I bled alright.
    Profweird Profweird 22-25, M 11 hrs ago

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    From last night! I came home from work, decided I needed some dinner. Which wasn't really a lot, but still. Look at how big I am. My belly was definitely happy with me afterwards...
    ILikeMyGirlBBW ILikeMyGirlBBW 18-21, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I wish I wasn't so hard on myself but I'm afraid if I stop I won't have any motivation to move forward. It's as if I have this real of all my shortcomings and it just plays again...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I hate everything about me. I have a shy and nice personality and because of that people think of me as a pushover. I hate the way my body looks and how ugly my face is. I am very...
    atr7887 atr7887 26-30, M 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    It feels like every time I wish or dream something big for myself it happens to my friend instead. Since high school I've been watching her live me dreams while I'm constantly left...
    telliellie telliellie 26-30, F 23 mins ago

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    So, I'm tired of life in general. I look on here and all of these younger people accept themselves. Fine...fine. But I'm f.ucking 22 years old and I still am having problems being...
    Pride49 Pride49 22-25, M 3 Responses Apr 22

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    Πνευματική Αθεϊσμός I just want to clear up a few things. I'm not some kid, playing in the sand, pretending to cast curses or spells on people. I'm not some...
    TheAnonymousINFx TheAnonymousINFx 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    A week ago, I decided to beat my record of 27 hours of holding. I did, by and hour. I woke up with an empty-feeling bladder, as I went to the lav in the middle of the night. I...
    fulltothebrim fulltothebrim 22-25, F 15 hrs ago

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    I’m still in love with you, and I want you so to love me. If I had the nerve, I’d stay and lie, hoping that I could make you love me again as I am, for myself. And so forget...
    lifeisunfairrr lifeisunfairrr 16-17, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    In some ways, I have little room to talk.  I'm electronically connected these days 24/7.  However, there's a huge difference between myself and the youth of today. I...
    Extant1 Extant1 51-55, M 10 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    The footsteps of your silence echo like thunder through the space we once shared. Loneliness and yearning March along the empty halls, casting dark shadows in an already bleak...
    Missjayne1 Missjayne1 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    What I once thought was love...was disguised as young silliness. But once you came into my life...all of that "love" faded away and I got punched in the face and said to myself...
    UndisputedTruth UndisputedTruth 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 9

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    I don't like working in the hospital but I need to for experience. hospital experience is essential and will serve as bridge to my dream. And so I need to sacrifice. I tried...
    icedwithin17 icedwithin17 26-30, F 9 hrs ago

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    As life gets better I hate myself more. I'm trying so hard to improve but the numbers on the scale keep going up. is it muscle? I mean honestly I really cant tell a huge...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger "... a phrase we are all too familiar with. A phrase that I've always considered to be cliche or played out. I phrase I once considered a...
    irreelevance irreelevance 16-17, F Apr 9

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    For feeling weak!! I'm currently on day 17 of quitting drinking & rather than feel better for it I'm getting worse as the days go on. I feel anxious & depressed to the point I can...
    TrustxxIssues TrustxxIssues 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    Still don't understand what the hell happened ...... He wanted to take some chick to prom even though we are in college and then he started acting suspicious. I asked him what was...
    CRizma7 CRizma7 18-21, F Apr 18

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    By that I mean I'll say something once and repeat it once, twice, thrice, etc. I do this because if I don't get some sort of reply first time over, than I think that I wasn't heard...
    lunarsolar36 lunarsolar36 13-15, T Apr 20

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    Once I almost killed myself on PURPOSE because I was so mad. At my parents (obviously) They took away my laptop and iPad because they didn't want me "staying up all night." I...
    ChocolateGirl04 ChocolateGirl04 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Believe me when i tell you this you dont have to not many people are going to see this anyways. i would like to share. Me now still a kid still going through school having to face...
    BenDenRiv BenDenRiv 13-15 2 Responses Apr 20

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    I was bullied from the age of 2 till I was 11. During my two years at nursery I never made any friends which made me vulnerable. The other children physically bullied me, but if I...
    Englishgirl98 Englishgirl98 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 22

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    0. Height? 1,63 cm. 1. Virgin? Eh... 2. Shoe size? 6 (USA standard). 3. Do you smoke? Nope 4. Do you drink? Um yeah, lots of water and soda. 5. Do you take drugs? When I'm sick. 6...
    AtLoss AtLoss 16-17, T Apr 27

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    I am NOT who I once was because I feel like all my life people try to change me people always had to put their two cents in my life they make me feel like I was never good enough...
    sixcolorz sixcolorz 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I was affected by the way I was raised greatly. Because I was raised not of others, but by myself. It makes me very different. Instead of having guidance or influence, I had to do...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 16