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I Was Once Not Myself

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    Broke Down

     my husband tore me down ... when i met him i was a very strong person . over the course of three yrs  ... the old star was gone .  i was so unsure of myself ... i wasnt allowed to take a shower by myself or anything . I still when im at my moms ask if its okay to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 2, 2008

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    Confused And Struggling. Help Me.

    I am not sure how it started. Everything's unsure. It was blurry. It was difficult and dark. All I know is that I have these diseases of Nervous Breakdown and Anxiety Depression. It is really difficult to compose words to translate everything I have been through. It's been so...
    AinaRosales AinaRosales 18-21, F Nov 20, 2012

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    My Break-down.

    One thing I am sure of is that the person of 2 years ago is not the me I am today. I was completely controlled by my illnesses, no medication, no therapy. I was hell breathing. - RDW
    randomdriftwood randomdriftwood 21-25, F Sep 14, 2007

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    I Hated Who I Was...

    A lot had happened. I might go into that someday, but for now, all you need to know is that a lot happened... I became someone I hated. I became someone snappy, irritable, reclusive... undesirable... But slowly, I've changed. And I'm finally becoming someone I love. Someone...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 23, 2008

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    Still Not

    I'm still not really myself. I kind of switch about to different people depending on whoever I'm with. I don't really know who I am anymore.
    brighteyed brighteyed 18-21, F Sep 14, 2007

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    I once had a long distance relationship with a wonderful woman. We used to talk every night, often until two or three in the morning. If the night was clear, we would both look...
    unluckE unluckE 31-35, M 3 Responses Jan 13

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    So i already posted 1 story. And now is time for my 2nd story.Belive me it is really hard for me to talk about this.It started when I was with my friends and having a small party...
    StayStrong4ever123 StayStrong4ever123 13-15, F Jan 18

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    I like a game and these kids much older than me, called me obsessive and a loser I never told anyone till now
    fnafplayer12 fnafplayer12 13-15, F Dec 30, 2014

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    I lost myself. All my hopes and dreams went down the toilet long ago. I was once thin and beautiful but didn't think so. Therefor I gave up on everything. Now I am ugly and fat I...
    dragthewaters4 dragthewaters4 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 6

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    I lived with my mom and her mom from birth till I was about 6. she was 16 raising me. I didn't know any different, it was the way I was raised, how I was influenced, the life I...
    summerwinterfallspring summerwinterfallspring 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    Biggest mistake I ever made.... I was bullied myself in high school I taken my anger out on someone and I bullied her.... She has forgiven me completely but she made it clear the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 18

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    I was thinking about a patient of mine the other day on the way home from work. He was a very intellectual man, full of innovative ideas and always spoke to me of his dreams. He...
    sensualbeauty1 sensualbeauty1 46-50, F 2 hrs ago

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    A while ago I found this beautiful chrysalis, but its wings were hurt, I didn't know what to do with it, since I'm only a sloth . I was so concentrated in my own nature, with my...
    Nyah27 Nyah27 26-30 9 hrs ago

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    I can relate to everyone here. I wouldn't consider myself jaded, but I have no complete trust in anyone. I wasn't always this way, and a younger more naive version took everyone at...
    Kidpanama Kidpanama 26-30, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    there comes a time you have to admit you are wrong. That time came for me recently. As far as I can tell, I screwed up. Royally. I said things that I cannot take back. Did things...
    AceWarbringer AceWarbringer 31-35, M 18 hrs ago

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    Honestly I am 34 and no high school education. I had kids at 18,29,21 . Been married 2x and never done a damn thing for myself . I come from a place and daily that has the...
    KittenHasClaws1980 KittenHasClaws1980 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    Single and alone, it was a huge change which I never signed up to go through. Every single day, I go out into the big scary world, and I live my life without him. I would go...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 7 Responses Jan 9

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    God and me (Nothing but the truth) Every time I find evidence, I end up doubting if its true evidence. But theres always someone telling me its true, I was made this was. I...
    HandyMannyWanny HandyMannyWanny 16-17, M a week ago

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    The life is all about that, right? Being at least a step further now as you was yesterday. Improving yourself by sensing, experiencing and doing things you've never done before...
    rolandback rolandback 41-45, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Why do you hurt me?I loved you.Why do you make me cry?I loved you.You used to make me laugh.I loved you.I must leave now, it’s the only way.But please know there was a time...
    Cherbelle Cherbelle 41-45, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Ok. So rey ex girlfriend dumpd me after dating for 4 months. She told me that she was having problems at home. She also told me that she didn't want to hurt me. But she broke my...
    lovehate1994 lovehate1994 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Search - My rant is for no one and for everyone. Why do we leave our close ones and come online? Is it to escape reality or to find another reality? Online or offline - are these...
    MindOVMatter MindOVMatter 36-40, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    So I really don't know how to talk about this, because I really never have went this deep into it due to fear. But for the past year I have been isolating myself and reliving it...
    mentallytortured mentallytortured 18-21, F 58 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    …and I never get bored of myself or hate myself... I love being myself at all times; perhaps I am a little narcissistic... Oh well, better than self hating, no? Although I don't...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    My experience started the end of summer starting my sophomore year. My family moved as we just lost our house. The house my parents rented had a guy living next door that was a bit...
    princesskimber princesskimber 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 18

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    74th post..Well you might have noticed I haven't been posting here in a while. I'm still around. The 20th passed and I'm still alive. Had a bad week struggling all week with the...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Where do I go from here? That is the question I continue to ask myself. I feel like I'm stuck. Healing is the ultimate goal, but how do you know when you've reached that point...
    willowsweep willowsweep 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 17

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    I've sworn to myself that THIS year I WILL lose weight so that I can feel better about myself. I have low self esteem, partly because I feel ugly because I'm so fat. Whenever I get...
    ConfessionsOfALostGurl ConfessionsOfALostGurl 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    I find it very disturbing that people don't believe that this man tried to rape me. I met him in California. He was there for work. He was in production at Miramax so he travelled...
    winnhasmyheart winnhasmyheart 41-45, M Jan 7

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    I was in love once. Actually twice. And I lost both of them. In different ways. The first was when I was 19. Even though I was young, it was not typical teen puppy love. Nor was...
    ManinNY ManinNY 41-45, M Jan 13

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    I know that my sense of humor is odd at times so I keep a lot of comments to myself. But if people could hear what is rolling around in my brain they would either laugh with me or...
    jfar123 jfar123 41-45, M 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    This year I went up to my grandparents for Xmas... I decided under no circumstances would I be a scrooge, have anyone upset me or just darn right make it a painful experience. In...
    lilygeorge12 lilygeorge12 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    I made a mistake I told myself I would never make, I let someone else be my happiness. Now I feel like my world is being torn apart. I had never believed in love, and I had...
    Unbloomed Unbloomed 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    Although, I am still quite shy, and perhaps always will be so, I have made many improvements in my self. The biggest one was to stop being what I thought others wanted me to be. I...
    Myfairlady1 Myfairlady1 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I am a romantic. I grew up always KNOWING I would get married and have kids. Well, it seems like time is passing, and I'm not sure if it's cause my future wife needs time to age...
    milehighHeartbreak milehighHeartbreak 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    I suppose it doesn't matter now that we broke up, but I still feel it gripping on to me. My girlfriend was bi-polar, depression and family trouble. She was my first love, and it...
    Inviticus Inviticus 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 19

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    We've been together since I was 16. I'm 23 now, so that makes 7 years. For being so young being with this man has molded me into who I am today. I don't know my adult life...
    QLC23 QLC23 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    i never actually this done because I once saw my brother have his done and it made such an impression on me I never did it myself. I remember once getting punished for calling my...
    foggymorning20 foggymorning20 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 22

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    I tried so hard to resist cutting I begged myself I told myself I couldn't I even went through the torture of hiding it through my ahead again but I gave in and once j was insulted...
    sadnesskillsme sadnesskillsme 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    I've never come out to anyone I know, but now I am on the Internet. I'm gay. I'm bi. I'm straight. I really don't know. Once the hormones finally hit, I found myself looking at...
    dexter06 dexter06 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    Toads lament....revisited! Dream drenched in his awakening, he clung to the fragile Dissolving weave of silken fancy until the last lingering threads of her departing whisper...
    Bobhoglin Bobhoglin 46-50, M 2 Responses Jan 20

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    I do not know why I posted the last story. I think I'm just weird and over it. All of my sh!t's gonna be on blast one day. If not, then I've pretty much given up on becoming famous...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    Hidden in the depths of time in another world I once sat, a world where life was friendly, safe, nothing harmed. Then as I grew it was ******** from me and not of my own doing...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F Jan 4

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    some people might think im crazy. this is why im saying it here. you may not trust what i am about to say. and honestly i dont blame you. i didnt trust myself either. i have two...
    darkwhispershadowsoul darkwhispershadowsoul 22-25, M 4 Responses Jan 19

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    I was talking to my mum once and I asked her a question and she didn't answer. I said it again. And again. Then u started saying weird things to get her attention. No response. I...
    mejustbeingme123 mejustbeingme123 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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