I Was Once Not Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 41 People

    Broke Down

     my husband tore me down ... when i met him i was a very strong person . over the course of three yrs  ... the old star was gone .  i was so unsure of myself ... i wasnt allowed to take a shower by myself or anything . I still when im at my moms ask if its okay to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 2, 2008

    Confused And Struggling. Help Me.

    I am not sure how it started. Everything's unsure. It was blurry. It was difficult and dark. All I know is that I have these diseases of Nervous Breakdown and Anxiety Depression. It is really difficult to compose words to translate everything I have been through. It's been so...
    lovelymade lovelymade
    18-21, F
    Nov 20, 2012

    My Break-down.

    One thing I am sure of is that the person of 2 years ago is not the me I am today. I was completely controlled by my illnesses, no medication, no therapy. I was hell breathing. - RDW
    randomdriftwood randomdriftwood
    22-25, F
    Sep 14, 2007

    Still Not

    I'm still not really myself. I kind of switch about to different people depending on whoever I'm with. I don't really know who I am anymore.
    brighteyed brighteyed
    18-21, F
    Sep 14, 2007

    I Hated Who I Was...

    A lot had happened. I might go into that someday, but for now, all you need to know is that a lot happened... I became someone I hated. I became someone snappy, irritable, reclusive... undesirable... But slowly, I've changed. And I'm finally becoming someone I love. Someone...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 23, 2008

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