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I Was Once Not Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 44 People

    I Hated Who I Was...

    A lot had happened. I might go into that someday, but for now, all you need to know is that a lot happened... I became someone I hated. I became someone snappy, irritable, reclusive... undesirable... But slowly, I've changed. And I'm finally becoming someone I love. Someone...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 23, 2008

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    My Break-down.

    One thing I am sure of is that the person of 2 years ago is not the me I am today. I was completely controlled by my illnesses, no medication, no therapy. I was hell breathing. - RDW
    randomdriftwood randomdriftwood 21-25, F Sep 14, 2007

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    Still Not

    I'm still not really myself. I kind of switch about to different people depending on whoever I'm with. I don't really know who I am anymore.
    brighteyed brighteyed 18-21, F Sep 14, 2007

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    Broke Down

     my husband tore me down ... when i met him i was a very strong person . over the course of three yrs  ... the old star was gone .  i was so unsure of myself ... i wasnt allowed to take a shower by myself or anything . I still when im at my moms ask if its okay to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 2, 2008

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    Confused And Struggling. Help Me.

    I am not sure how it started. Everything's unsure. It was blurry. It was difficult and dark. All I know is that I have these diseases of Nervous Breakdown and Anxiety Depression. It is really difficult to compose words to translate everything I have been through. It's been so...
    AinaRosales AinaRosales 18-21, F Nov 20, 2012

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    I have been hearing lots of alerts of young girls going missing or being assaulted or murdered and it breaks my heart cause I still remember how I felt during my ordeal at 16 and...
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    My mother makes me hate myself......I understand that a mother must correct you and stuff. My mother once told me that she hates me when I was in grade 8. she reminds me of...
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    Everything is changing too fast. I could still remember the first time I actually looked, inspected and saw myself in the mirror. I noticed every detail, and everything. But now...
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    I've cut myself once, and I dont know if I should tell someone or not. I really don't know what to do or who I can trust.
    jeanine281 jeanine281 13-15, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Yesterday morning, I had been up all night prepping for a hackathon up in NYC I was going to with two of my friends. We were planning on taking the train there, but unfortunately...
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    Got my drink spiked, sexually assaulted and fell pregnant because of it. At first I was going to keep the baby but I realised I was doing so out of feeling pressured by my...
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    20 Facts about me 1. I was 5 lbs when I was born and I am still petite. 2. I was born in Queens, New York 3. I am the oldest of 5 children 4. I love any type of music (but I am...
    Delicateflower98 Delicateflower98 16-17, F 8 hrs ago

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    Hi, I'm Joanna. I'm 26 years old, and I'm from Winder, G.A.. I believe in myself. No one is going to believe in you. You have to believe in yourself! Put yourself first. Be your...
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    Hehe.. Mermaids exists.. :P books are there. One direction is there. And I was chasing someone who isn't even talking to me straight. I'm just scared that I'll die near a pile of...
    chocolateinmyblood chocolateinmyblood 16-17 13 hrs ago

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    I wish I wasn't me.
    wassup305 wassup305 16-17, F 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    in my opinion one should not think about sucide. if you even think about it you are coward. you are just running away from your problems, your mistakesor from this world because...
    divyam18 divyam18 16-17, M 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I tried writing this experience once but it shut down in the middle, so I'm a little frustrated but I'll try again. I was saying that I find myself doing things just for the sole...
    Shamandora Shamandora 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    It was the summer after high school graduation. I was young, dumb and didn't really know what I wanted. I had jumped the gun and held off on having a grad party until close to the...
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    I'm unable to be involved in relationships that have healthy exchanges of affection, compassion, and love. This is not my choice, but the result of many years of chronic anxiety...
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    Hence the name change. It only takes me once to learn my lesson. I've had enough life experiences that I can adjust myself accordingly. I am very grateful for resilience. It is...
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    I hate my life so much, I really have been compensating whether or not I should kill myself, but I can never bring myself to it, like it's just thoughts; but seriously Life's...
    Krchan2 Krchan2 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    I became clinical depressed when I was 15. I tried to kill myself for the first time when I was 16, after my emotionally abusive boyfriend dumped me. I am 20 years old now, I don't...
    terrywill15 terrywill15 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 17

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    Please, to those who come across my post, I'm in desperate need of advice. Approximately 3-4 months ago I found out my boyfriend of six years cheated on me. "Always trust your...
    Jninety3 Jninety3 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I don't hate myself for the way I look anymore ... I hate myself for the person I am ... I realize how ******* awful I am to everybody!! I'm just so mean to people all the time and...
    suicidalblonde suicidalblonde 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    I'm normally not suicidal, but sometimes I do feel terrible about my life, and I'm only seventeen ******* years old! If I did kill myself would my 'friends' care? Probably only my...
    emilesfault emilesfault 16-17, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    i hate myself sometimes , i hate being hurt by other people. I'm sick of falling for people and they rejecting me. I want someone to love me and care for me. I want to be happy
    justa333 justa333 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    all i have to do is get online to HATE myself even more and feel more depessed.
    gurldeleted gurldeleted 41-45, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I've never wanted to kill myself. But I have wondered what the people who say they're my friends would react to me dying
    TheWinterSpirit TheWinterSpirit 13-15, M 1 hr ago

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    Tomorrow is going to be tough. I'm scared. Terrified. Utterly bare with no armor. When did I lose it? Did I ever have one to begin with? How do explain myself. How do I confess...
    DeijiDaze DeijiDaze 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    Today I observed myself talking to my fiancée on Skype. I noticed I didn't commit myself 100% to loving her, but rather around 65%. The other 35% was loving me. Feeling the sorrow...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M 3 Responses Feb 3

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    The pictures above indicate what my fake Mother's boyfriend's Father did because of her lies. She told these "men", and their families that I was a product of an African American...
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    I am a whistle blower who had attempted to expose some ugly truths about a provincial government Ministry. That was back in the day when I believed that justice was about evidence...
    wronglyaccused71 wronglyaccused71 46-50, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I started going to this academy in 2013 around September. I was in a relation and I was happy . I asked my teacher if I could come early one day and meet up with my boyfriend this...
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