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I Was Raped and Feel Scared All the Time

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    I am currently 14, When I was about four I lost

    my mom in a vicious custody battle. I lived with my dad and did not see my mom at all. I met my grandparents a while before i lost my mom. A little time after, my grand father raped me. I don't remember much of what happened. I can't even tell you if he actually took my...
    RayneZ RayneZ 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 11, 2014

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    I've been reading many of these stories

    and my heart has absolutely broken. Please, please if you are raped or abused I am asking you to please call the police. It's not something that 'just happens' it is not something that you can just shrug off. It is a crime. A heinous, disgusting crime. You do not want to protect...
    mandamooki mandamooki 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 19, 2014

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    Help

    Help she screams but know one listens Help she cries but they ignore The door shuts tight On that unforgettable night He gets into her bed She lays there her clothes shed She cries until the pain is away And she wishes she was dead for a day Help she screams Life’s not what...
    wishme2death wishme2death 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2012

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    Crying again; flashbacks.

    Great just great!!!
    angkath80 angkath80 31-35, F 7 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    I was 10 and I'm 13 now.

    . It was Christmas and all of my family was at my Grandmas and all of is kids were playing outside... My grandma told us to come inside to eat and all the kids did but, my cousin asked if I wanted a ride on his back and I said yes. He took me behind the garage and he raped me...
    Jayjay10234 Jayjay10234 16-17, F 14 hrs ago

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    Ripping Me Away

    She got stolen. Her only piece of life. Her identity. The monster took it away. There was no one to save her. The girl was trapped in the mirror. The monster tore apart her identity to shreds and all the girl could do was sit in silence and wait until the monster was done...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 18 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    last year i was raped

    and im always scared ive tried to kill myself everyday and night since it happened i feel so scared and alone my body is all cuts and scars i dont know what to do anymore
    alanahlouise alanahlouise 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    Again

    He was here on Sunday and last night. And as I said before when he knocked I would answer. But, last night my 9 year old sister was home, too. I told her to lock herself in her room. She diddnt ask why she just did what I asked. When I thought she was safe I answered the door...
    Crazylover15 Crazylover15 18-21, F 10 Responses Jan 15, 2013

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    When I was 7 years old my father married a

    woman,she was very sweet and had two kids.A girl who was 6 and a boy who was 10. One day we were playing "school",my step brother told her to go get something for him.He came over to me and started touching me in strange places.At first,being so young I didn't understand,but I...
    TerraMeranda TerraMeranda 13-15, F 6 Responses Feb 19, 2014

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    Hi. I'm here to share to my story,

    not to get attention. But to let people out there that have gone through this, and still are, are not alone. Around 2 years ago, I, myself, thought I was in love. Apparently I was wrong, you'll understand. This boy and I had a very strong connection and were very romantic. No...
    lovelygirll2323 lovelygirll2323 13-15, F 1 Response May 31, 2014

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    dazedandlost dazedandlost 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    I don't feel safe in this world,

    when I was 14 my uncle raped me every night for four months straight, in the day time he was the nicest person you would never know and then at night when he would come in my room he was a monster. I struggle with this pain everyday and night.
    openbookbri openbookbri 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2014

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    When I was 13 my mum had to go to my Uncles

    funeral in Atlanta and she told me I couldn't go so I stayed home with my step dad and it first he was being REALLY nice then he touched me. The next day he raped me and when my mum came home I told her and she just told me that I was a liar and I was trying to ruin our family...
    Arabellathebeautiful Arabellathebeautiful 13-15, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    When I was 18 years old,

    I was raped. I have never really spoken of it before. One night, after the bar, completely intoxicated, me and my friend met a couple of English men. We had decided to go back to their hotel room. My friend ended up throwing up and fell asleep on the bathroom floor. Though I was...
    mitted mitted 18-21, F 9 Responses Mar 22, 2014

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    So I am thinking about getting a abortion cuz

    Idk if I can live knowing I am carrying a rapists baby.. But idk If I could live with killing a baby..
    alwaysmeforever alwaysmeforever 16-17, F 6 Responses Nov 19, 2014

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    frankcarter770 frankcarter770 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 3

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    From the time I was 4

    until the time I was 12, I was raped by my step grandfather...and I'm almost positive my grandmother knows... I just came out about what happened to me a year ago and I am severely struggling to recover. I suffer from night terrors and have to take sleeping meds to sleep...
    beautiuldisasterz9 beautiuldisasterz9 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I Was Raped By My Stepdad

    Since i was 10 years old, my step-father has often raped me. the first time i tried to tell my mom about it, she told me that i was lying, that all i was doing was trying to run off another one of her boyfriends, both my parents would often beat us black and blue. When I as...
    firepanda firepanda 22-25, F 14 Responses Aug 14, 2011

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    i was raped by 7 people ,

    i'm so scared , i still remember being forced to get naked
    cheejean cheejean 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    I have posted this before,

    but I am really upset over this once again and I guess I'm just looking for some advice or comfort. I have told few people about my experience and to be honest I just got the urge to let anyone know that I'm not okay. Last year I got raped. The only person who I feel...
    ohheycelia ohheycelia 18-21 1 Response Jan 14

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    Okay I said it I was raped gang raped actually

    by 3 guys they also kicked punched me and i tried to fight back but i hav no strenght neither muscle im freakin skinny lanky and they putted a knife against my throat if i didnt behave that i will die and then this guy putted my pabts down and they were makin bets the freakin...
    xLittleRed xLittleRed 18-21, M 7 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    When I was younger (7) my cousin (9) began

    molesting me. He would do it every time I went over to my aunt aka his mothers house. My family are pretty close, and so I went there often, along with my other cousins. He would take me to private areas like his room or outside in the backyard and he would touch me...
    BVNG BVNG 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 18, 2014

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    I was raped by my ex best friends older brother.

    He was 23 at the time and I was 13. I'm 17 now and still have nightmares and everything. It feels like this will always haunt me.
    Roadtorecovery31997 Roadtorecovery31997 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 16, 2014

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    This is a poem I have written about my

    experience of betrayal by someone close to me. I hope it helps someone else trying to come to terms with fighting "The Monster" all of us face when we have experienced rape. The Monster A warm familiar voice A reassuring hug A glad smile And whiskers that brush my face...
    purplemessenger purplemessenger 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 22, 2014

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    I Humbly Request Your Input

    It is difficult to ask this of a woman who has suffered through rape, but I'm not sure who better to ask for input. First, let me put this out there: I am a male. I am not looking to be turned on at the expense of your pain. So here's the situation. I am in the midst of writing...
    Sharpie7 Sharpie7 51-55, M 8 Responses Oct 18, 2012

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    Life After?

    I am a wife and a mother to 5 great kids. To avoid daycare costs my husband worked days for a distribution company and I worked nights at a gas station about 15 minutes from home.  There was many people to come in to my work.. some said hello and...
    lifeafter lifeafter 26-30, F 11 Responses Jun 1, 2007

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    I am 15 years old and

    when I was 13 my step dad raped me and it still going on. i didn't know what to do I cried, begged him to stop but he just wouldn't stop! I told my mum but she just called me a liar. It's all my fault I could of stopped him but I didn't everything is my fault.
    Arabellathebeautiful Arabellathebeautiful 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    when I was 5, I was well uhm raped He came into

    my room and well I don't want to say it at all but it was the most horrific experience of my life and just thinking about it again makes me want to break down and cry
    TerrabyteMcEwan TerrabyteMcEwan 16-17, M Dec 4, 2014

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    When i was 2 or 3 im not sure how old

    but i was raped by a guy my mom used to see. My mom brother this guy and i were sitting in our livingroom in ouur apartment. Well this guy got my mom so drunk to the point that she passed out and he picked me up took me diaper off walked into my moms room shut and locked the...
    harlemwildcatbaby harlemwildcatbaby 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 13

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    It's been six years, everyone keeps telling me

    to get over it. But when your only 6 and it happens every night for 3 years, it's kinda hard to just 'move on' or 'get over it' there's no getting over it. What my step-dad did will hunt me forever
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    If something is “taboo” then everyone knows

    not to talk about it. Someone has to defy that. To be taboo, that defies all odds, and shows everyone that someone can be independent with their words. First amendment. One of the biggest taboo, and have been for the longest, make people cringe at the very thought. They make...
    SamanthaJadeee SamanthaJadeee 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 18, 2014

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    He lives across the street

    and 3 houses down. I always look if he is home or not, even when I don't face that way, I make sure. I check every single Acura TL when I'm driving to see if it's him. I check his FB so I never walk into the places he works at. I lock all the doors when I'm home. I've had...
    AlanaLlama AlanaLlama 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12, 2014

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    Iv never done this before excuse the long story

    but I need to get every detail off my mind I have no One else to talk to I'm hoping some1 will understand I was on holiday when it happened to me the first night me and the girls got drunk at the hotel bar I drank too much I admit it but I usually always know what I'm doing but...
    Candlelight01 Candlelight01 22-25, F 10 Responses Apr 20, 2014

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    Lately, I find myself in

    that place again. I can feel it. I can hear them. I just picture myself begging her to wake up. Crying her name. And she doesn't move. I begged her for help. she didn't move. She was awake. She heard me crying for her. And she didn't move.
    mitted mitted 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    I am starting this new thing called 'life of

    hope' which is where people can talk to me about thier problems confidently, and basically I give advice. I want to do this because I want to make a difference and change how people feel, well try anyway.. So this page is just for people to talk. I can be a friend to anyone. But...
    lifeofhope lifeofhope 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    The Perfect Guy?

    I'm Laura and I'm 19. I want to tell you the story of how I was raped. I have never told anyone and every time I try to write about it I can't get it out. I just want someone to hear my story. I was 16 years old, and its been 3 years since I was violated by a man. He changed me...
    AFallenStar AFallenStar 18-21, F 25 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    When does all this start to get easier?

    , I don't know how much more I can cope with. It's all too much for me,I thought it would've been easier by now,it happened near enough two years ago. Someone please help me?!?!
    OliviaWillow13 OliviaWillow13 13-15, F 5 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    I Was Raped!!

    After I was legally separated I went out on my first date with a man that I knew for a year. He was my tae-kwon-do Master and he was also my children's instructor. I was at his studio 5 days a week for just little over a year. When he asked me out I was so excited as I not only...
    AlwaysRemembers AlwaysRemembers 41-45, F 47 Responses Mar 31, 2007

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    Yup. I was raped this past November.

    I don't really want to go into much detail about it. But it was by three high schoolers. I feel different. I hate my body more and I feel like I'm always dirty because of it. But thank god I am not pregnant.
    Divergent0 Divergent0 13-15, F 15 Responses Jan 25, 2014

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    I am 15 years old and

    when I was 13 my step dad raped me and it still going on. i didn't know what to do I cried, begged him to stop but he just wouldn't stop! I told my mum but she just called me a liar. It's all my fault I could of stopped him but I didn't everything is my fault.
    Arabellathebeautiful Arabellathebeautiful 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'M Sick Of Being "The Victim"

    Alright guys prepare for a long story... Between 12-14 years old, I was raped on a daily basis by my moms boyfriend. Me and him were so close. He was like a father to me, and yet he totally took advantage of me at such a young age. He had a gun on him when it happened and told...
    seev4hn seev4hn 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    My Friend'S Dad

    It makes me so sad to look back at who I used to be. I mean yeah, I was probably naive, but I was 15, aren't you supposed to be? Growing up is supposed to be a gradual process, yet I had to grow up overnight. It was February the 3rd, 2012. My boyfriend had dumped me two months...
    delilahisabella delilahisabella 18-21 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    I woke up at 3 am cuz of nightmares

    now I just cant go back to sleep at all..
    alwaysmeforever alwaysmeforever 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 4, 2014

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    I Remember Too Much - Trigger Warning -

    Sometimes my brother needed to leave for several days at a time, often out wooing club owners on weekends to get them to give him a job, so he got one of his friends to stop over and stay with me. I was offended that he thinks I need a babysitter, but gave up on arguing with him...
    EmptyUnderMyHat EmptyUnderMyHat 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 19, 2013

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    The Tragedy, The Wreckage.

    It's been 4 years. 4 years since you've raped me. I can't look in the mirror without feeling disgusted. I can't sleep without seeing your face laughing at me. It disgusts me that you did this. It makes me want to puke. I have no hatred towards you. I just have questions...
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 6 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    I've almost wrote to this experience a million

    times, but always ended up leaving it blank. But I feel like I'm alone and I'm suffocating. I was molested when I was 7. Odd as it sounds I didn't know enough for it to do much to me. I knew it for what it was. I knew that it hurt, and I knew that it made me sick. I had...
    NotFirstNotLast NotFirstNotLast 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    I'm usually alright, I have a support worker,

    I have a great boyfriend. But tonight I can't cope. I'm alone and my boyfriend is away to his parents for Christmas. I don't know why I feel terrible right now. I had a panic attack while driving on Christmas eve. I drove past my ex's old flat by mistake. 90 miles away from...
    mccallysulkin mccallysulkin 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    I Was Raped By My Father

    He started molesting me at 2 or 3 years old .He slowly groomed me and trained me by terrorizing me into thinking he would kill my mother and brothers .If I didn't let him he beat all of us black an blue .At the age of 5 I told my older brother who was 11 what was going on but he...
    rcrisp rcrisp 36-40, F 39 Responses Jun 4, 2007

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    I am slowly coming to terms with being raped

    and the brutality of the incident. I can't talk about it with just anyone after that last time a friend I hadn't seen in 10 years laughed. And would often say in a loud voice how funny it was that I was beaten and bashed. I still don't get it. I tried online dating to boost my...
    heyitsabike heyitsabike 31-35, F 6 Responses Oct 18, 2014

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    I was recently on a cruise **** going away

    for vacation. On the last night of the cruise I met a guy and we hit it off, drinking and having a good time. I only had a couple of drinks, but I felt so drunk for some reason. We ended up going back to his room. We were kissing and he started to touch me down there. I remember...
    hellomer hellomer 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    It's true. Judge me for it,

    I don't care. People don't realize how horrible it is mentally. It changed everything in your life. I couldn't sleep for months, I hope no one ever has to go through it, and if you have, I understand you 100%
    margaret707 margaret707 22-25, F 6 Responses Dec 14, 2013

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