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I Was Raped and Feel Scared All the Time

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    The 7 Strangers

    Hi! My name is Sophia. I am 15. When I was 14, I had a horrible experience. I was raped. It was after practice. I was waiting for my mother to come and pick me up. Then, a strange man walked up to me. I didn't know him, but this was common. At my school there is a very common...
    thebrokendream thebrokendream 13-15, F 20 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    I don't feel scared necessarily,

    just empty or angry when I think about it. Maybe it's shock. I don't know. Today I had to go in and talk to my doctor and he wanted to know if I was pressing charges. When I told him I was not, he was not happy with me. I just want to move on with my life. There is way more to...
    zeetalo zeetalo 26-30, F Jan 13

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    I was raped 10 years ago

    and never told anyone or sought help. Today for the first time I am getting counseling for it and I'm scared.
    EMH1983 EMH1983 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 10

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    When I was 14, I got raped by a guy I didn't

    know. I am now 18 and still cannot handle what happened to me. I never spoke to anyone about it. No one knows. And it has effected me to the point where I can't do certain sexual acts with my partner, I can't talk to men that have light blue eyes, and I can't fall asleep without...
    MoonlightLove237 MoonlightLove237 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    How Much Was I Worth?

    Some writing from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com trigger warning for child sexual abuse. How much did they pay you daddy? How much was I worth? Was I a good girl, doing the things you had showed me since birth? You told me I was growing and said I was meant to...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 22, 2013

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    I was raped by my dad many many times from

    when I was 6-14....I was 14 when I finally told my mom then we went to the police and they said "it wasn't enough evedence" so mom let him back.... The next summer he left again... And I started telling my mom and the police about all the things he had done to me.... Touched...
    themockingjay4evr themockingjay4evr 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 12

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    Everything They Have Warned You About

    I am not american, so sorry for any mistakes. Also not a very good writer. I guess I will try to tell you this story, as much I can remember of it. I do not know how old I am and for awhile I had no clue where I was. Have you ever heard of those kids that get kidnapped off the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 12 Responses Mar 8, 2013

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    I Was Raped... And No One Knows.

    I was raped in January 2012. I am only thirteen. This is my story... Please dont judge me. I lost my virginity at age twelve. My boyfriend at the time kind of pressured me into sex in the summer of 2011. I did want to,, but I am young I wanted to wait more than anything. I...
    AnonymousShadow AnonymousShadow 13-15, F 19 Responses Jul 31, 2012

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    This all happened about 5 years ago.

    It was like 12:00am and I was sleeping. I woke up because I could hear my big brother walking to my bedroom. I pretended I was asleep so he would just go away. But instead he came into my room and undressed. He started shaking me and when I opened my eyes he dragged me to the...
    Ella09098 Ella09098 22-25, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Again

    He was here on Sunday and last night. And as I said before when he knocked I would answer. But, last night my 9 year old sister was home, too. I told her to lock herself in her room. She diddnt ask why she just did what I asked. When I thought she was safe I answered the door...
    Crazylover15 Crazylover15 18-21, F 10 Responses Jan 15, 2013

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    My Friend'S Dad

    It makes me so sad to look back at who I used to be. I mean yeah, I was probably naive, but I was 15, aren't you supposed to be? Growing up is supposed to be a gradual process, yet I had to grow up overnight. It was February the 3rd, 2012. My boyfriend had dumped me two months...
    delilahisabella delilahisabella 16-17 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    Iv never done this before excuse the long story

    but I need to get every detail off my mind I have no One else to talk to I'm hoping some1 will understand I was on holiday when it happened to me the first night me and the girls got drunk at the hotel bar I drank too much I admit it but I usually always know what I'm doing but...
    Candlelight01 Candlelight01 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I was raped, in my holiday to spain.

    It was the most therrifying thing I've ever been trough. I'm still afraid when I'm outside alone and it's dark. I get anxious. It's almost 3 years ago. I can't have a normal relationship with boys, I've never had one. I just wish it could be easy for me too. All my friends are...
    anonimousgirl anonimousgirl 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 16

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    I Was Raped!!

    After I was legally separated I went out on my first date with a man that I knew for a year. He was my tae-kwon-do Master and he was also my children's instructor. I was at his studio 5 days a week for just little over a year. When he asked me out I was so excited as I not only...
    AlwaysRemembers AlwaysRemembers 41-45, F 42 Responses Mar 31, 2007

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    Raped!!! Me!!!

    Please write any questions and all reactions, whether kind or not. I want to know the reactions of others like me. I was sitting on a bench in the park when a man picked me up and threw me in a large white van. I blacked out and when I came to, I was strapped to a table with ten...
    sallie12345 sallie12345 13-15, F 11 Responses Mar 10, 2013

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    *Trigger Alert* By A Friends Brother

    This might be a bit detailed, I just need to say it. It started when I was 7. I would always go round my friends (let's call her Sally) her brother would usually be there. He often stated at me. I told Sally but she said he stared at everyone. One time, Sally's brother (I'll...
    livelaughlove2904 livelaughlove2904 13-15, F 10 Responses Aug 26, 2013

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    Ripping Me Away

    She got stolen. Her only piece of life. Her identity. The monster took it away. There was no one to save her. The girl was trapped in the mirror. The monster tore apart her identity to shreds and all the girl could do was sit in silence and wait until the monster was done...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    When I was fourteen, I thought it would be

    really really cool to go to this stupid party. All of my friends were going and I was super excited. I couldn’t wait to get there and when we did, we didn’t waste any time getting started. My friend introduced me to this guy and I remember thinking that he was really cute...
    tharilyn tharilyn 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    When I was 7 years old my father married a

    woman,she was very sweet and had two kids.A girl who was 6 and a boy who was 10. One day we were playing "school",my step brother told her to go get something for him.He came over to me and started touching me in strange places.At first,being so young I didn't understand,but I...
    TerraMeranda TerraMeranda 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 19

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    I Was Raped By My Father

    He started molesting me at 2 or 3 years old .He slowly groomed me and trained me by terrorizing me into thinking he would kill my mother and brothers .If I didn't let him he beat all of us black an blue .At the age of 5 I told my older brother who was 11 what was going on but he...
    rcrisp rcrisp 36-40, F 40 Responses Jun 4, 2007

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    When I was 18 years old,

    I was raped. I have never really spoken of it before. One night, after the bar, completely intoxicated, me and my friend met a couple of English men. We had decided to go back to their hotel room. My friend ended up throwing up and fell asleep on the bathroom floor. Though I was...
    mitted mitted 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 22

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    dunwitdis dunwitdis 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    Lately, I find myself in

    that place again. I can feel it. I can hear them. I just picture myself begging her to wake up. Crying her name. And she doesn't move. I begged her for help. she didn't move. She was awake. She heard me crying for her. And she didn't move.
    mitted mitted 18-21, F 8 Responses Mar 24

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    I'M Sick Of Being "The Victim"

    Alright guys prepare for a long story... Between 12-14 years old, I was raped on a daily basis by my moms boyfriend. Me and him were so close. He was like a father to me, and yet he totally took advantage of me at such a young age. He had a gun on him when it happened and told...
    sevencats sevencats 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    Has anyone had a boyfriend,

    friend or spouse that does things that may cause triggering? How did you handle talking to them about it? As people can probably tell my other stories I was assaulted by someone who worked key word here worked for the police. Anyways my husband knows about it but he watches cops...
    funsnowgal funsnowgal 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 15

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    Sometimes Too Much To Handle

    I have been through alot of difficult times in my life all this started from when i was just 11 years old parents death was the first set back. I started living in school hostel where I was molested by my school warden I decided to live with my uncle he had 2 sons who one night...
    silenthelper silenthelper 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 4, 2013

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    I was wondering how long you all have been

    coping with this.. It's been just over 3 months for me and i struggle to go out of my house and be around males :( when will this get better:(
    SecretGirl14 SecretGirl14 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 20

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    I Don't Trust Anyone

    I was in 7th grade and my best friend was a guy, I knew he liked me. We would always hangout and sometimes his friend would hangout with us. Well one day I was at his house while his friend was over and he had to help his sister with stuff. So i was in his room with his friend...
    miriwad miriwad 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 26, 2013

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    I Remember Too Much - Trigger Warning -

    Sometimes my brother needed to leave for several days at a time, often out wooing club owners on weekends to get them to give him a job, so he got one of his friends to stop over and stay with me. I was offended that he thinks I need a babysitter, but gave up on arguing with him...
    EmptyUnderMyHat EmptyUnderMyHat 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 19, 2013

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    Help

    Help she screams but know one listens Help she cries but they ignore The door shuts tight On that unforgettable night He gets into her bed She lays there her clothes shed She cries until the pain is away And she wishes she was dead for a day Help she screams Life’s not what...
    wishme2death wishme2death 13-15, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2012

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    I was a raped a few years ago by not just a

    random at the party but my friends Fathey
    Jadewaves Jadewaves 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 5

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    Yup. I was raped this past November.

    I don't really want to go into much detail about it. But it was by three high schoolers. I feel different. I hate my body more and I feel like I'm always dirty because of it. But thank god I am not pregnant.
    Divergent0 Divergent0 13-15, F 16 Responses Jan 25

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    Okay I said it I was raped gang raped actually

    by 3 guys they also kicked punched me and i tried to fight back but i hav no strenght neither muscle im freakin skinny lanky and they putted a knife against my throat if i didnt behave that i will die and then this guy putted my pabts down and they were makin bets the freakin...
    xLittleRed xLittleRed 16-17, M 6 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    I was raped and almost killed.

    Even though my boyfriend has been so helpful I cant even let him touch me without feeling scared. What do I do?
    Claudi1802 Claudi1802 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 7

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    The fact has become more apparent.

    If my dad wakes me up unexpectedly I get scared my little dog kicked my shoulder lightly and I woke up all horrified. There's something with loud noises too, I can't stand it. It's just really strange. I've never been so afraid or frighten easily before. I also need to solve my...
    WhitePetalDaisy WhitePetalDaisy 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    Life After?

    I am a wife and a mother to 5 great kids. To avoid daycare costs my husband worked days for a distribution company and I worked nights at a gas station about 15 minutes from home.  There was many people to come in to my work.. some said hello and...
    lifeafter lifeafter 26-30, F 11 Responses Jun 1, 2007

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    I was raped and i live with

    that guy. He was my step dad. Every night he go my room and just raped me. I was raped for 3 year straight and i do get flashback all the time.
    stackhousesarah16 stackhousesarah16 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 6

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    Trigger Warning.

    Ive just rambled on and on, it wont make much sense, but i needed to tell somebody, something, anything. I used to think I had a good life, i do still, but not as good as it was. I used to think everything was beautiful, everything and everyone. I could tell you why mud was...
    Nightmaree Nightmaree 18-21, F 10 Responses Mar 4, 2013

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    Fourteen

    I was at camp during winter break, my parents and grandparents in Europe, visiting the sight-seeing places there. It was my eighth year there, since I'd been going every winter. I was fourteen, and looking forward to seen my friends, and very disappointed to find that none of...
    MaikoHikara MaikoHikara 22-25, F 6 Responses Jan 5, 2013

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    I never share this but i was raped awhile ago

    but i'm really scared all the time but i hide it and i have nightmares bout it. I need someone who went through what i have
    unlovedone9 unlovedone9 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    Him. His scent lingers in my mind,

    old spice deoderant and tide. His facial hair that I begged be gone. His black tanktops and sagging jeans. His jacket, the same jacket used to abuse and comfort me. His necklace, the ring on it. He used to let me where it sometimes, if I was good. The Jacket. I remember this...
    Maroon5lover912 Maroon5lover912 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    I Humbly Request Your Input

    It is difficult to ask this of a woman who has suffered through rape, but I'm not sure who better to ask for input. First, let me put this out there: I am a male. I am not looking to be turned on at the expense of your pain. So here's the situation. I am in the midst of writing...
    Sharpie7 Sharpie7 51-55, M 9 Responses Oct 18, 2012

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    It's true. Judge me for it,

    I don't care. People don't realize how horrible it is mentally. It changed everything in your life. I couldn't sleep for months, I hope no one ever has to go through it, and if you have, I understand you 100%
    margaret707 margaret707 22-25, F 6 Responses Dec 14, 2013

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    The Tragedy, The Wreckage.

    It's been 4 years. 4 years since you've raped me. I can't look in the mirror without feeling disgusted. I can't sleep without seeing your face laughing at me. It disgusts me that you did this. It makes me want to puke. I have no hatred towards you. I just have questions...
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 5 Responses Mar 3

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    Haunted

    When i was 15, i went to the mall with some of my friends, we went into spencers. well you know in there you can barely see anything because they keep it so dark, well i wondered off from everybody and i ran into this guy he was about in his twenties, he was really nice he...
    ANM123 ANM123 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 31, 2012

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    When I was 11, I went to a summer camp near my

    hometown in southern Missouri. I remember the exact date. June 17. Things were fun at first, being homeschooled all my life I hadn't really had any friends, so making new friends was always a good thing. But things turned bad quite quickly. I faintly remember leaving my drink at...
    allioo244566 allioo244566 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 5

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    (after sharing this story and getting the comments I did, I have never felt like so blessed, I am not alone and there is support. I can't explain the feelings I have. But thank you all )

    I am 20 years old, and in my life I have been sexually abused more than once. Some of which I blame myself for being young and naive and letting myself get into situations which most young people wouldn't have. But I still have a choice to say No. Im not going to go through all...
    jezkahmariie jezkahmariie 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 1, 2012

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    This past Saturday after a a night out at the

    pub with my sister and her friend I got too drunk so they sent me in a cab and gave me can money and I also told the cab driver I have money too then after that it was a complete blur to me... The morning after my head hurt my right thigh hurt and it pains me so say this but "my...
    Kwolfleg Kwolfleg 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 11

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    You Asked For This.

    Everyday i'm haunted by that night. I thought he loved me, I though he meant he would never hurt me. But, sometimes we're all maid out to be a fool. It seemed like any other day, it was my 15th birthday. My ex and I went to a fire to spend my birthday with our friends. I knew...
    realwithmeex realwithmeex 16-17, F 5 Responses Aug 30, 2012

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    I'm always so scared.

    ..it's been like this since i was 8. my mother raped me and I still live with her. I'm 13 now... I really don't think I'll ever get over it. I can't stand to be touched by anyone anymore...it always scares me. I cry alot because of it...it's happened alot...I've never tried to...
    angelcutie angelcutie 13-15, F 5 Responses Dec 24, 2013

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    I was raped two weeks ago by four men.

    They drugged me, beat me half to death and raped me for hours upon end. I'm struggling with how to deal with all of this. It still seems so unreal to me at times, like it was all just a bad dream. I don't know who I am right now. I feel like they took a piece of me that I'll...
    AsherBlu89 AsherBlu89 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 22

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    Im now 15,but when I was 8 I was raped by my

    step-dad.He abused me for months but because I was young I didn't think anything about it.I was in the bath one day and I asked if someone would pass me a towel.So my step-Dad came in and pulled me out the bath.Threw me on the floor and started fingering me.He made me blow him...
    heidlousdale heidlousdale 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 5

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    It happened again.. I can't believe it.

    I seem to be a magnet for these people. Do I look like a sl*t or wh*re or something? It seems like it sometimes.. It happened two weeks ago, I'm posting it this soon because I've been through it before and I know you all are so kind and helpful. Basically, my mum and step dad...
    livelaughlove2904 livelaughlove2904 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    The Perfect Guy?

    I'm Laura and I'm 19. I want to tell you the story of how I was raped. I have never told anyone and every time I try to write about it I can't get it out. I just want someone to hear my story. I was 16 years old, and its been 3 years since I was violated by a man. He changed me...
    AFallenStar AFallenStar 18-21, F 26 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    I was raped three years ago by a good friend.

    I can't help but feel scared of men. I don't know what to do.
    scoutharper scoutharper 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    I'm Still Scared.

    I was 9 going on 10 the first time he touched me. He was my babysitter, so he told me he had to bathe me because I wouldn't get cleaned the right way. I knew the way he was touching me wasn't right, but it all came back to him saying my mom wanted me to be clean so he had to...
    aciss20 aciss20 18-21 4 Responses Aug 13, 2013

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