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I Was Raped and Feel Scared All the Time

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    I can still hear the screams.

    .. my screams the sound of knuckles hitting bone the muffled cries the pleading the icy responses the indifference the questions I know they hear me screaming why wont they help me the feeling of being completely alone broken and bleeding no one asking about the cuts and bruises...
    Kitten222489 Kitten222489 22-25, F 2 Responses May 13

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    I've been reading many of these stories

    and my heart has absolutely broken. Please, please if you are raped or abused I am asking you to please call the police. It's not something that 'just happens' it is not something that you can just shrug off. It is a crime. A heinous, disgusting crime. You do not want to protect...
    mandamooki mandamooki 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    If someone touches me,

    I flinch. If he touches me, I slap him, or scream, or gasp, or anything like that, especially if we're alone. But then actually if we're alone, I can't do anything. He's started keeping me alone with him more often. He's started using duct tape and rope and forcing me all the...
    Betruetoyourselfxx Betruetoyourselfxx 13-15, F 5 Responses May 17

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    "Sorry but I have to **** you" was the last

    thing I heard before everything changed. I've never told a soul. I can't. They wont treat me the same. Im terrified it'll happen again. And I feel like if I just keep drinking. As long as I'm not sober, I know I'll be fine.
    NowhereKid NowhereKid 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    Justice... There is no justice in rape.

    I was raped when i was 16 (6 years ago) yet it haunts me everyday! 6 years on and he is still ruining my life. He turned my life upside down and is still haunting my dreams. He was never convicted for what he did. Yet i am paying the life sentence. I see him often with...
    angelheelz angelheelz 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    its true and its all i can think im

    so scared thinking its going to happen again i dont know what to do with myself theres nothing i can do and i hate it and i hate the memories they had stopped for a little bit and i was starting to live again but now they are back like a heavy cloud weighing over me and im just...
    maylane maylane 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 15

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    He lives across the street

    and 3 houses down. I always look if he is home or not, even when I don't face that way, I make sure. I check every single Acura TL when I'm driving to see if it's him. I check his FB so I never walk into the places he works at. I lock all the doors when I'm home. I've had...
    PookiePizookie PookiePizookie 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12

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    I Was Raped... And No One Knows.

    I was raped in January 2012. I am only thirteen. This is my story... Please dont judge me. I lost my virginity at age twelve. My boyfriend at the time kind of pressured me into sex in the summer of 2011. I did want to,, but I am young I wanted to wait more than anything. I...
    AnonymousShadow AnonymousShadow 13-15, F 30 Responses Jul 31, 2012

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    Raped!!! Me!!!

    Please write any questions and all reactions, whether kind or not. I want to know the reactions of others like me. I was sitting on a bench in the park when a man picked me up and threw me in a large white van. I blacked out and when I came to, I was strapped to a table with ten...
    sallie12345 sallie12345 13-15, F 11 Responses Mar 10, 2013

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    Iv never done this before excuse the long story

    but I need to get every detail off my mind I have no One else to talk to I'm hoping some1 will understand I was on holiday when it happened to me the first night me and the girls got drunk at the hotel bar I drank too much I admit it but I usually always know what I'm doing but...
    Candlelight01 Candlelight01 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 20

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    It's true. Judge me for it,

    I don't care. People don't realize how horrible it is mentally. It changed everything in your life. I couldn't sleep for months, I hope no one ever has to go through it, and if you have, I understand you 100%
    margaret707 margaret707 22-25, F 5 Responses Dec 14, 2013

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    I Was Raped By My Father

    He started molesting me at 2 or 3 years old .He slowly groomed me and trained me by terrorizing me into thinking he would kill my mother and brothers .If I didn't let him he beat all of us black an blue .At the age of 5 I told my older brother who was 11 what was going on but he...
    rcrisp rcrisp 36-40, F 40 Responses Jun 4, 2007

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    Yup. I was raped this past November.

    I don't really want to go into much detail about it. But it was by three high schoolers. I feel different. I hate my body more and I feel like I'm always dirty because of it. But thank god I am not pregnant.
    Divergent0 Divergent0 13-15, F 16 Responses Jan 25

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    it wasnt just one occasion

    or by one person theres lots of memeories and i often have flashbacks no matter what i do i cant seem to bring myself out of flashbacks. i end up reliving it over and over again and i cant take it. please if anyone knows any way of bringing yourself out of a flashback please...
    maylane maylane 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 14

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    I was raped three years ago by a good friend.

    I can't help but feel scared of men. I don't know what to do.
    scoutharper scoutharper 18-21, F Apr 9

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    I was only in 4th grade

    and I'm now almost in 7th. He was my first REAL boyfriend I never had been in such a serious relationship with someone before This story is the reason I believe that it doesn't matter what age you are you can be in love I was sort of raped, but just went along with it because...
    loverr2233 loverr2233 13-15, F 2 Responses May 3

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    I Remember Too Much - Trigger Warning -

    Sometimes my brother needed to leave for several days at a time, often out wooing club owners on weekends to get them to give him a job, so he got one of his friends to stop over and stay with me. I was offended that he thinks I need a babysitter, but gave up on arguing with him...
    EmptyUnderMyHat EmptyUnderMyHat 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 19, 2013

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    i can hardly even think about it without crying.

    I feel it now. The hot tears running down my face. Ill have to hide it. From my parents. From my friends. From everyone. This is my story. I was 10 years old. He was 11. I was a tiny thing, only about 50 pounds. No i wasnt to skinny. Just very short and little. He was my best...
    cloakedgarden cloakedgarden 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 5

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    The 7 Strangers

    Hi! My name is Sophia. I am 15. When I was 14, I had a horrible experience. I was raped. It was after practice. I was waiting for my mother to come and pick me up. Then, a strange man walked up to me. I didn't know him, but this was common. At my school there is a very common...
    thebrokendream thebrokendream 16-17, F 20 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    Ripping Me Away

    She got stolen. Her only piece of life. Her identity. The monster took it away. There was no one to save her. The girl was trapped in the mirror. The monster tore apart her identity to shreds and all the girl could do was sit in silence and wait until the monster was done...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 11 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    Everything They Have Warned You About

    I am not american, so sorry for any mistakes. Also not a very good writer. I guess I will try to tell you this story, as much I can remember of it. I do not know how old I am and for awhile I had no clue where I was. Have you ever heard of those kids that get kidnapped off the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 12 Responses Mar 8, 2013

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    When I was 18 years old,

    I was raped. I have never really spoken of it before. One night, after the bar, completely intoxicated, me and my friend met a couple of English men. We had decided to go back to their hotel room. My friend ended up throwing up and fell asleep on the bathroom floor. Though I was...
    mitted mitted 18-21, F 11 Responses Mar 22

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    How Much Was I Worth?

    Some writing from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com trigger warning for child sexual abuse. How much did they pay you daddy? How much was I worth? Was I a good girl, doing the things you had showed me since birth? You told me I was growing and said I was meant to...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 22, 2013

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    Im a boy so i was never really raped.

    . The thing is, when you are raped.. Please, dont be afraid and dont be shy to tell anyone that you are raped!! Its your right!! Please dont be afraid.. When you are raped the first person that can help you, is yourself! So speak up! Your right to say no is violated so dont be...
    1LimitBreaker1 1LimitBreaker1 18-21, M 1 Response May 7

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    Okay so I've been on here a while

    and I think I finally feel comfortable sharing my story. I lived with my uncle most of my life, from age 6 to age 17. I never felt comfortable around him. He was very intimidating. When I was 12 he told me he wanted to talk to me. He told me he loved me and I didn't give it a...
    anonymous2396 anonymous2396 18-21, M 4 Responses Jul 10

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    Okay I said it I was raped gang raped actually

    by 3 guys they also kicked punched me and i tried to fight back but i hav no strenght neither muscle im freakin skinny lanky and they putted a knife against my throat if i didnt behave that i will die and then this guy putted my pabts down and they were makin bets the freakin...
    xLittleRed xLittleRed 18-21, M 6 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    Life After?

    I am a wife and a mother to 5 great kids. To avoid daycare costs my husband worked days for a distribution company and I worked nights at a gas station about 15 minutes from home.  There was many people to come in to my work.. some said hello and...
    lifeafter lifeafter 26-30, F 11 Responses Jun 1, 2007

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    I really need a boyfriend there

    for me when I wake up in the middle of the night scared and be there to comfort me so I am not scared anymore
    AAmmyyPPiiee AAmmyyPPiiee 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Haunted

    When i was 15, i went to the mall with some of my friends, we went into spencers. well you know in there you can barely see anything because they keep it so dark, well i wondered off from everybody and i ran into this guy he was about in his twenties, he was really nice he...
    ANM123 ANM123 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 31, 2012

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    Again

    He was here on Sunday and last night. And as I said before when he knocked I would answer. But, last night my 9 year old sister was home, too. I told her to lock herself in her room. She diddnt ask why she just did what I asked. When I thought she was safe I answered the door...
    Crazylover15 Crazylover15 18-21, F 10 Responses Jan 15, 2013

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    I CANT. STOP. CRYING.

    Feeling broken, unlovable, alone, and that I will never be whole. I feel irreparably damaged. Who will want a broken person? Who will love someone like me? Who will be willing to put the time and energy to help me heal? Maybe I should just join a convent-hey, a job for life.
    imreel imreel 31-35, F 2 Responses May 21

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    I am currently 14, When I was about four I lost

    my mom in a vicious custody battle. I lived with my dad and did not see my mom at all. I met my grandparents a while before i lost my mom. A little time after, my grand father raped me. I don't remember much of what happened. I can't even tell you if he actually took my...
    RayneZ RayneZ 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 11

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    This all happened about 5 years ago.

    It was like 12:00am and I was sleeping. I woke up because I could hear my big brother walking to my bedroom. I pretended I was asleep so he would just go away. But instead he came into my room and undressed. He started shaking me and when I opened my eyes he dragged me to the...
    Ella09098 Ella09098 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 16

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    When I was younger (7) my cousin (9) began

    molesting me. He would do it every time I went over to my aunt aka his mothers house. My family are pretty close, and so I went there often, along with my other cousins. He would take me to private areas like his room or outside in the backyard and he would touch me...
    loudd03 loudd03 13-15, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    The fact has become more apparent.

    If my dad wakes me up unexpectedly I get scared my little dog kicked my shoulder lightly and I woke up all horrified. There's something with loud noises too, I can't stand it. It's just really strange. I've never been so afraid or frighten easily before. I also need to solve my...
    YourFavoriteFlower YourFavoriteFlower 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 15

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    Help

    Help she screams but know one listens Help she cries but they ignore The door shuts tight On that unforgettable night He gets into her bed She lays there her clothes shed She cries until the pain is away And she wishes she was dead for a day Help she screams Life’s not what...
    wishme2death wishme2death 13-15, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2012

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    Lately, I find myself in

    that place again. I can feel it. I can hear them. I just picture myself begging her to wake up. Crying her name. And she doesn't move. I begged her for help. she didn't move. She was awake. She heard me crying for her. And she didn't move.
    mitted mitted 18-21, F 9 Responses Mar 24

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    I grew up in a country setting

    when I went to beauty school I was 15 on ROP. I made friends with older girls in bad neighborhoods. I got to spend the night at Sherrys home. My dad met her parents. It seemed ok. Sherry was 4 years older. Soon her boyfriend and brothers got There. It was a party for her brother...
    JMay1994 JMay1994 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 8

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    Back in 2011 I experienced the worst thing

    that can happen to any human along side death . Rape. As the months flew by I joined a group with a few girls of whom I call my sisters .. I never really talked much but they all knew that I cared . A year passed and I started to put that life long scar in the back of my head...
    keyonna95 keyonna95 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 2

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    Hi. I'm here to share to my story,

    not to get attention. But to let people out there that have gone through this, and still are, are not alone. Around 2 years ago, I, myself, thought I was in love. Apparently I was wrong, you'll understand. This boy and I had a very strong connection and were very romantic. No...
    lovelygirll2323 lovelygirll2323 13-15, F 2 Responses May 31

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    My Friend'S Dad

    It makes me so sad to look back at who I used to be. I mean yeah, I was probably naive, but I was 15, aren't you supposed to be? Growing up is supposed to be a gradual process, yet I had to grow up overnight. It was February the 3rd, 2012. My boyfriend had dumped me two months...
    delilahisabella delilahisabella 18-21 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    I'M Sick Of Being "The Victim"

    Alright guys prepare for a long story... Between 12-14 years old, I was raped on a daily basis by my moms boyfriend. Me and him were so close. He was like a father to me, and yet he totally took advantage of me at such a young age. He had a gun on him when it happened and told...
    sevencats sevencats 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    The Tragedy, The Wreckage.

    It's been 4 years. 4 years since you've raped me. I can't look in the mirror without feeling disgusted. I can't sleep without seeing your face laughing at me. It disgusts me that you did this. It makes me want to puke. I have no hatred towards you. I just have questions...
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 6 Responses Mar 3

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    I posted another experience with the entire

    story of it (well, close to entire... left a lot out,) but I just needed to write again. I need to vent sometimes. I cannot stop thinking about Brandon. He's everywhere. I close my eyes and I see him. I dream of him. I see him in flashbacks doing it to me over and over. I don...
    champdetrefle champdetrefle 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 3

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    The Perfect Guy?

    I'm Laura and I'm 19. I want to tell you the story of how I was raped. I have never told anyone and every time I try to write about it I can't get it out. I just want someone to hear my story. I was 16 years old, and its been 3 years since I was violated by a man. He changed me...
    AFallenStar AFallenStar 18-21, F 26 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    I'm just so dumb! Why am I letting this ****

    affect me! I lose control just stepping in my room. I also freak when someone touches me even the slightest friendliest touch. I don't have anyone I trust, my mom is trying to force me to stay in my room. I've been raped twice in there and just looking in it triggers that...
    Fuckup08 Fuckup08 13-15, F 7 Responses May 4

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    I remember it all started

    when my mum got remarried and we moved into our new house with my new step dad everything was fine at first I started a new school and made new friends. Me and my step sister made friends with a girl next door at first she was so kind and sweet but things changed after we got...
    scaredmaree scaredmaree 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 2

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    It was almost 2 years ago.

    I was a little drunk at a small gathering then two boys came in that we didn't invite. Constantly asked them to leave but they didn't. I was taken into a room by one, I kicked, cried and screamed. After they left, I realised they had stolen from me too. I spoke to my friends and...
    hdrvhkj hdrvhkj 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 13

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    I Was Raped!!

    After I was legally separated I went out on my first date with a man that I knew for a year. He was my tae-kwon-do Master and he was also my children's instructor. I was at his studio 5 days a week for just little over a year. When he asked me out I was so excited as I not only...
    AlwaysRemembers AlwaysRemembers 41-45, F 43 Responses Mar 31, 2007

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    I'm 14 years old and i was unfortunately raped,

    I am not sharing my story for attention. I just want to make it clear that if your going through something similar then I feel you! I went to my good friend joes party, I have known joe ever since I was a little girl! He always had a bit of a crush on me and we both knew it. I...
    Orlacorry Orlacorry 46-50, F 4 Responses May 5

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    I was 12 when my brother first started raping me

    and he punched me and I was knocked out and he must of drugged me, cause I could feel the pain but not do anything and he was just caught 2 weeks ago and I still haven't slept these 2 weeks
    AAmmyyPPiiee AAmmyyPPiiee 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Help

    If anyone needs someone to talk to on a personal level just to have someone their please contact me and talk about it. I am a gay male I don't get a kick out or things like this and I know how difficult it can be holding on to a traumatic event like rape.
    david630 david630 22-25, M 6 Responses Nov 7, 2013

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    When I got into high school,

    there were a bunch of rumours going around. People said that I have blow jobs for money even though I didn't! A guy tried to trick me into bed and when I wouldn't have sex with him he got all mad and raped me!! He's in jail now but I still have nightmares everyday and I don't...
    skysplits skysplits 13-15, F 1 Response May 28

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