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I Was Raped and Feel Scared All the Time

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    I Was Raped!!

    After I was legally separated I went out on my first date with a man that I knew for a year. He was my tae-kwon-do Master and he was also my children's instructor. I was at his studio 5 days a week for just little over a year. When he asked me out I was so excited as I not only...
    AlwaysRemembers AlwaysRemembers 41-45, F 48 Responses Mar 31, 2007

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    I Humbly Request Your Input

    It is difficult to ask this of a woman who has suffered through rape, but I'm not sure who better to ask for input. First, let me put this out there: I am a male. I am not looking to be turned on at the expense of your pain. So here's the situation. I am in the midst of writing...
    Sharpie7 Sharpie7 51-55, M 8 Responses Oct 18, 2012

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    I was 10 and I'm 13 now.

    . It was Christmas and all of my family was at my Grandmas and all of is kids were playing outside... My grandma told us to come inside to eat and all the kids did but, my cousin asked if I wanted a ride on his back and I said yes. He took me behind the garage and he raped me...
    Jayjay10234 Jayjay10234 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    When i was 13 i was raped by my 15 year old

    boyfriend he forced me i tryed to get away but not go and i felt gross for awhile and again he raped me i had no way to run.
    Emogirlriley Emogirlriley 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 11

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    When I was 13 my mum had to go to my Uncles

    funeral in Atlanta and she told me I couldn't go so I stayed home with my step dad and it first he was being REALLY nice then he touched me. The next day he raped me and when my mum came home I told her and she just told me that I was a liar and I was trying to ruin our family...
    Arabellathebeautiful Arabellathebeautiful 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    When I was 7 years old my father married a

    woman,she was very sweet and had two kids.A girl who was 6 and a boy who was 10. One day we were playing "school",my step brother told her to go get something for him.He came over to me and started touching me in strange places.At first,being so young I didn't understand,but I...
    TerraMeranda TerraMeranda 16-17, F 5 Responses Feb 19, 2014

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    Again

    He was here on Sunday and last night. And as I said before when he knocked I would answer. But, last night my 9 year old sister was home, too. I told her to lock herself in her room. She diddnt ask why she just did what I asked. When I thought she was safe I answered the door...
    Crazylover15 Crazylover15 18-21, F 10 Responses Jan 15, 2013

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    When I was younger (7) my cousin (9) began

    molesting me. He would do it every time I went over to my aunt aka his mothers house. My family are pretty close, and so I went there often, along with my other cousins. He would take me to private areas like his room or outside in the backyard and he would touch me...
    BVNG BVNG 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 18, 2014

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    From the time I was 4

    until the time I was 12, I was raped by my step grandfather...and I'm almost positive my grandmother knows... I just came out about what happened to me a year ago and I am severely struggling to recover. I suffer from night terrors and have to take sleeping meds to sleep...
    beautiuldisasterz9 beautiuldisasterz9 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    two weeks. in two weeks I will see your face.

    I will be sitting in that mahogany chair next to the judge telling my story to a bunch of strangers in suits. eyes will be watching me, even yours. I'll tell them how you forced yourself on me, and how your voice echoed in my head like a thunderstorm. like glass shattering. your...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 3

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    It's true. Judge me for it,

    I don't care. People don't realize how horrible it is mentally. It changed everything in your life. I couldn't sleep for months, I hope no one ever has to go through it, and if you have, I understand you 100%
    margaret707 margaret707 22-25, F 6 Responses Dec 14, 2013

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    it happened when i was younger

    but i was messed up for a little bit but always blamed myself insed of the person who hurt me. about a year ago, after years of pushing the pain back in my head everything came back. i dont know what made them come back, maybe cause i kept thinking about my dad dieing and this...
    SpideyAlyx SpideyAlyx 13-15, M 3 Responses Mar 13

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    Raped!!! Me!!!

    Please write any questions and all reactions, whether kind or not. I want to know the reactions of others like me. I was sitting on a bench in the park when a man picked me up and threw me in a large white van. I blacked out and when I came to, I was strapped to a table with ten...
    sallie12345 sallie12345 13-15, F 10 Responses Mar 10, 2013

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    I was drugged and raped by a man,

    maybe more than one man. I wouldn't know. I remember nothing. 8 hours of my memory is gone. Along with other pieces of me. I woke up in my urine with blood on me and he drove me home, I was too drugged to realize what had even happened. Once I was in bed less intoxicated by the...
    experiencethroughme experiencethroughme 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    my dream: i was at my grandpa house my dad was

    there he was alive(i havent dreamed about my for you) he was so sad it my dream(just like when he was alive) i was my age he didnt talk much before he went outside. everyone said "dont do it" "your gonna hurt the kids again" next thing i here is people screaming hes "dead again...
    SpideyAlyx SpideyAlyx 13-15, M 4 Responses Mar 19

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    It screwed me up real bad.

    .. I know some girls get better, they even manage to help others. But he just made me feel so disgusting... and that's what I really am now. He constantly told me I was a wh-ore, I was nasty, that I wanted it and I'd be nothing without it and he was right. I'm not proud of who I...
    KittyCunt KittyCunt 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 31

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    This is a poem I have written about my

    experience of betrayal by someone close to me. I hope it helps someone else trying to come to terms with fighting "The Monster" all of us face when we have experienced rape. The Monster A warm familiar voice A reassuring hug A glad smile And whiskers that brush my face...
    purplemessenger purplemessenger 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 22, 2014

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    I Remember Too Much - Trigger Warning -

    Sometimes my brother needed to leave for several days at a time, often out wooing club owners on weekends to get them to give him a job, so he got one of his friends to stop over and stay with me. I was offended that he thinks I need a babysitter, but gave up on arguing with him...
    EmptyUnderMyHat EmptyUnderMyHat 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 19, 2013

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    The 7 Strangers

    Hi! My name is Sophia. I am 15. When I was 14, I had a horrible experience. I was raped. It was after practice. I was waiting for my mother to come and pick me up. Then, a strange man walked up to me. I didn't know him, but this was common. At my school there is a very common...
    thebrokendream thebrokendream 16-17, F 20 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    Well if you read my previous post you would know

    that I was raped... Yes that monster is in prison but I'm scared when he gets out he is going to come looking for me... He calls my phone from the prison from time to time and iv never answered... I would change my number but I wanna no if he is still looking so tht way I know...
    xxNicholexx xxNicholexx 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    I Was Raped By My Father

    He started molesting me at 2 or 3 years old .He slowly groomed me and trained me by terrorizing me into thinking he would kill my mother and brothers .If I didn't let him he beat all of us black an blue .At the age of 5 I told my older brother who was 11 what was going on but he...
    rcrisp rcrisp 36-40, F 39 Responses Jun 4, 2007

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    My Friend'S Dad

    It makes me so sad to look back at who I used to be. I mean yeah, I was probably naive, but I was 15, aren't you supposed to be? Growing up is supposed to be a gradual process, yet I had to grow up overnight. It was February the 3rd, 2012. My boyfriend had dumped me two months...
    delilahisabella delilahisabella 18-21 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    Ripping Me Away

    She got stolen. Her only piece of life. Her identity. The monster took it away. There was no one to save her. The girl was trapped in the mirror. The monster tore apart her identity to shreds and all the girl could do was sit in silence and wait until the monster was done...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 18 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    Okay I said it I was raped gang raped actually

    by 3 guys they also kicked punched me and i tried to fight back but i hav no strenght neither muscle im freakin skinny lanky and they putted a knife against my throat if i didnt behave that i will die and then this guy putted my pabts down and they were makin bets the freakin...
    xLittleRed xLittleRed 18-21, M 7 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    I have horrible dreams

    and wake up in the night sweating screaming and crying, I want to forget about my rape but I can't and its destroying me
    naturallyhappy naturallyhappy 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    When I was 18 years old,

    I was raped. I have never really spoken of it before. One night, after the bar, completely intoxicated, me and my friend met a couple of English men. We had decided to go back to their hotel room. My friend ended up throwing up and fell asleep on the bathroom floor. Though I was...
    mitted mitted 18-21, F 8 Responses Mar 22, 2014

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    Okay hi. My name is Katherine

    and I'm not the user of this account. She's allowed me to use "Experience Project" to share me story. When I was sixteen, I went out to get the mail for my parents. When I had the handful of letters, I began to walk back to my house, but a man stopped me. He looked to be about...
    Justagirllivinglife1 Justagirllivinglife1 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 19

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    The Perfect Guy?

    I'm Laura and I'm 19. I want to tell you the story of how I was raped. I have never told anyone and every time I try to write about it I can't get it out. I just want someone to hear my story. I was 16 years old, and its been 3 years since I was violated by a man. He changed me...
    AFallenStar AFallenStar 18-21, F 25 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    I am currently 14, When I was about four I lost

    my mom in a vicious custody battle. I lived with my dad and did not see my mom at all. I met my grandparents a while before i lost my mom. A little time after, my grand father raped me. I don't remember much of what happened. I can't even tell you if he actually took my...
    RayneZ RayneZ 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 11, 2014

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    I'm so sorry this is happened to you,

    the same thing happened to me when I was 9 years old and it was my brother. For years I was raped over and over and forced to be touched by his friends, when I was 13 I had a breakdown in school and he was arrested. I was finally relieved but fate hated me and he was released...
    SecretSky27 SecretSky27 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    I was rapped and molested almost all my life.

    my uncle use to touch me when I was younger and my older brother rapped and molested me since I was 8 until the age of 11 it stopped for 4 years I thought I was free but just last June it happened aging and that August everyone knew but didn't mean they belived me I haven't...
    Mandy1305 Mandy1305 13-15, F Apr 18

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    i was raped by 7 people ,

    i'm so scared , i still remember being forced to get naked
    cheejean cheejean 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    I need help. I can't cope with this.

    I was sexually assaulted in a mental hospital by my roommate and, even though I'm not sure if it counts as rape and it happened in November, I'm just now processing it. How do I tell my therapist? What did you guys do to deal with the emotions?????? I'm scared
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 29

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    Why can't I just let go,

    why does it have to be so hard, I don't want nightmares and flashbacks, I don't want to smell him and feel his stale breath, I want my life back, but I can't have it, because the night he did it the first time he stole my whole life away from me.
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    Yup. I was raped this past November.

    I don't really want to go into much detail about it. But it was by three high schoolers. I feel different. I hate my body more and I feel like I'm always dirty because of it. But thank god I am not pregnant.
    Divergent0 Divergent0 13-15, F 14 Responses Jan 25, 2014

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    So I've recently started reading this book

    called crank by Ellen Hopkins. I really like this book and I'm almost done with it, in the book she talks about doing crystal and how it feels and all that n it's bought back memories of when I used to do that but it's kinda making me want to do it again, I'm trying to restrain...
    youngadult14 youngadult14 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    I Was Raped... And No One Knows.

    I was raped in January 2012. I am only thirteen. This is my story... Please dont judge me. I lost my virginity at age twelve. My boyfriend at the time kind of pressured me into sex in the summer of 2011. I did want to,, but I am young I wanted to wait more than anything. I...
    AnonymousShadow AnonymousShadow 13-15, F 37 Responses Jul 31, 2012

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    I Was Raped By My Stepdad

    Since i was 10 years old, my step-father has often raped me. the first time i tried to tell my mom about it, she told me that i was lying, that all i was doing was trying to run off another one of her boyfriends, both my parents would often beat us black and blue. When I as...
    firepanda firepanda 22-25, F 15 Responses Aug 14, 2011

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    lydiasim2080 lydiasim2080 16-17, F Jan 16

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    7 days ago i was beaten an raped.

    ....i spent the time after it happened hiding under my bed crying an couldnt stop replaying wat happened in my mind everytime i close my eyes i see it an im so scared.......
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 19

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    Help

    Help she screams but know one listens Help she cries but they ignore The door shuts tight On that unforgettable night He gets into her bed She lays there her clothes shed She cries until the pain is away And she wishes she was dead for a day Help she screams Life’s not what...
    wishme2death wishme2death 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2012

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    How Much Was I Worth?

    Some writing from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com trigger warning for child sexual abuse. How much did they pay you daddy? How much was I worth? Was I a good girl, doing the things you had showed me since birth? You told me I was growing and said I was meant to...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 22, 2013

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    I was a virgin before it happened.

    He got mad at me for bleeding so much. He choked me until I passed out. I'm afraid to go to school because I have classes with him. Idk what to do anymore.
    thatgirlruth thatgirlruth 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    Emogirlriley Emogirlriley 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    People think that time heals all wounds I was

    raped when I was 14 I'm 19 now and even know I have flashbacks or cry when I fall asleep thinking about it. Rapist don't realise that the act they did has a life time affect on the victim for me he was my boyfriend for others it could be a stranger and family member a neighbour...
    elizachloe06 elizachloe06 18-21, F Feb 14

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    It's been over four years

    and I still have flashbacks to that terrible time. Four years.....four long years......I am healing, or at least that is what I tell myself. I am in college now and leading a fairly productive life....til another nightmare or flashback hits me. Then, it is all I can do to keep...
    survivorthrujesus survivorthrujesus 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 9

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