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I Was Raped and Feel Scared All the Time

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    Ripping Me Away

    She got stolen. Her only piece of life. Her identity. The monster took it away. There was no one to save her. The girl was trapped in the mirror. The monster tore apart her identity to shreds and all the girl could do was sit in silence and wait until the monster was done...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 18 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    From the time I was 4

    until the time I was 12, I was raped by my step grandfather...and I'm almost positive my grandmother knows... I just came out about what happened to me a year ago and I am severely struggling to recover. I suffer from night terrors and have to take sleeping meds to sleep...
    beautiuldisasterz9 beautiuldisasterz9 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    I am 15 years old and

    when I was 13 my step dad raped me and it still going on. i didn't know what to do I cried, begged him to stop but he just wouldn't stop! I told my mum but she just called me a liar. It's all my fault I could of stopped him but I didn't everything is my fault.
    Arabellathebeautiful Arabellathebeautiful 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    Iv never done this before excuse the long story

    but I need to get every detail off my mind I have no One else to talk to I'm hoping some1 will understand I was on holiday when it happened to me the first night me and the girls got drunk at the hotel bar I drank too much I admit it but I usually always know what I'm doing but...
    Candlelight01 Candlelight01 22-25, F 10 Responses Apr 20, 2014

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    How Much Was I Worth?

    Some writing from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com trigger warning for child sexual abuse. How much did they pay you daddy? How much was I worth? Was I a good girl, doing the things you had showed me since birth? You told me I was growing and said I was meant to...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 22, 2013

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    Well if you read my previous post you would know

    that I was raped... Yes that monster is in prison but I'm scared when he gets out he is going to come looking for me... He calls my phone from the prison from time to time and iv never answered... I would change my number but I wanna no if he is still looking so tht way I know...
    xxNicholexx xxNicholexx 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    I'm crying. I hate feeling raped!

    I'm tired of feeling scared, not sleeping well!!!
    angkath80 angkath80 31-35, F 4 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I was a virgin before it happened.

    He got mad at me for bleeding so much. He choked me until I passed out. I'm afraid to go to school because I have classes with him. Idk what to do anymore.
    thatgirlruth thatgirlruth 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    Again

    He was here on Sunday and last night. And as I said before when he knocked I would answer. But, last night my 9 year old sister was home, too. I told her to lock herself in her room. She diddnt ask why she just did what I asked. When I thought she was safe I answered the door...
    Crazylover15 Crazylover15 18-21, F 10 Responses Jan 15, 2013

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    Okay I said it I was raped gang raped actually

    by 3 guys they also kicked punched me and i tried to fight back but i hav no strenght neither muscle im freakin skinny lanky and they putted a knife against my throat if i didnt behave that i will die and then this guy putted my pabts down and they were makin bets the freakin...
    xLittleRed xLittleRed 18-21, M 7 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    I Was Raped!!

    After I was legally separated I went out on my first date with a man that I knew for a year. He was my tae-kwon-do Master and he was also my children's instructor. I was at his studio 5 days a week for just little over a year. When he asked me out I was so excited as I not only...
    AlwaysRemembers AlwaysRemembers 41-45, F 47 Responses Mar 31, 2007

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    I Was Raped By My Stepdad

    Since i was 10 years old, my step-father has often raped me. the first time i tried to tell my mom about it, she told me that i was lying, that all i was doing was trying to run off another one of her boyfriends, both my parents would often beat us black and blue. When I as...
    firepanda firepanda 22-25, F 13 Responses Aug 14, 2011

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    It's been six years, everyone keeps telling me

    to get over it. But when your only 6 and it happens every night for 3 years, it's kinda hard to just 'move on' or 'get over it' there's no getting over it. What my step-dad did will hunt me forever
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I'M Sick Of Being "The Victim"

    Alright guys prepare for a long story... Between 12-14 years old, I was raped on a daily basis by my moms boyfriend. Me and him were so close. He was like a father to me, and yet he totally took advantage of me at such a young age. He had a gun on him when it happened and told...
    seev4hn seev4hn 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    It's true. Judge me for it,

    I don't care. People don't realize how horrible it is mentally. It changed everything in your life. I couldn't sleep for months, I hope no one ever has to go through it, and if you have, I understand you 100%
    margaret707 margaret707 22-25, F 6 Responses Dec 14, 2013

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    I'm still not over it.

    Why can't it go away from my memories.
    ddc95 ddc95 18-21, F a week ago

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    I'm usually alright, I have a support worker,

    I have a great boyfriend. But tonight I can't cope. I'm alone and my boyfriend is away to his parents for Christmas. I don't know why I feel terrible right now. I had a panic attack while driving on Christmas eve. I drove past my ex's old flat by mistake. 90 miles away from...
    mccallysulkin mccallysulkin 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    The Tragedy, The Wreckage.

    It's been 4 years. 4 years since you've raped me. I can't look in the mirror without feeling disgusted. I can't sleep without seeing your face laughing at me. It disgusts me that you did this. It makes me want to puke. I have no hatred towards you. I just have questions...
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 6 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    Lately, I find myself in

    that place again. I can feel it. I can hear them. I just picture myself begging her to wake up. Crying her name. And she doesn't move. I begged her for help. she didn't move. She was awake. She heard me crying for her. And she didn't move.
    mitted mitted 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    The Perfect Guy?

    I'm Laura and I'm 19. I want to tell you the story of how I was raped. I have never told anyone and every time I try to write about it I can't get it out. I just want someone to hear my story. I was 16 years old, and its been 3 years since I was violated by a man. He changed me...
    AFallenStar AFallenStar 18-21, F 25 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    When I was 12, I was raped by a stranger.

    I'm 18 now & if I cant find happiness... I don't want to live anymore I feel like I don't deserve to be happy or that I even deserve to live. I constantly dwell about EVERYTHING I have ever screwed up, (even the stupid little things that everyone does from time to time, like...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Feb 7

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    When I was 18 years old,

    I was raped. I have never really spoken of it before. One night, after the bar, completely intoxicated, me and my friend met a couple of English men. We had decided to go back to their hotel room. My friend ended up throwing up and fell asleep on the bathroom floor. Though I was...
    mitted mitted 18-21, F 8 Responses Mar 22, 2014

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    I was raped by my friend

    who goes to my school and he thinks nothing is wrong what should I do
    winstonhoward winstonhoward 13-15, M Feb 23

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    When I was 13 my mum had to go to my Uncles

    funeral in Atlanta and she told me I couldn't go so I stayed home with my step dad and it first he was being REALLY nice then he touched me. The next day he raped me and when my mum came home I told her and she just told me that I was a liar and I was trying to ruin our family...
    Arabellathebeautiful Arabellathebeautiful 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 26

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    So he finally hurt another girl.

    I have tears in my eyes. He got an underage girl pregnant. I feel that if I would have reported it when he hurt me then she wouldn't have to go through this pain either. It's time for me to finally help her out and tell. I'm just so scared. I don't want to be hurt again.
    ddc95 ddc95 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 21

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    Help

    Help she screams but know one listens Help she cries but they ignore The door shuts tight On that unforgettable night He gets into her bed She lays there her clothes shed She cries until the pain is away And she wishes she was dead for a day Help she screams Life’s not what...
    wishme2death wishme2death 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2012

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    I was recently on a cruise **** going away

    for vacation. On the last night of the cruise I met a guy and we hit it off, drinking and having a good time. I only had a couple of drinks, but I felt so drunk for some reason. We ended up going back to his room. We were kissing and he started to touch me down there. I remember...
    hellomer hellomer 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    Why can't I just let go,

    why does it have to be so hard, I don't want nightmares and flashbacks, I don't want to smell him and feel his stale breath, I want my life back, but I can't have it, because the night he did it the first time he stole my whole life away from me.
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 28

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    I hate to use the term anniversary

    but yeah it's that for me today. I feel like junk. My nightmares last night worse then ever have been I woke up feeling like couldn't breath my stomach hurts eh I dread this day every year because I always stop and think about it more. I wish I could "move on" but it's a...
    Ana8939 Ana8939 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    My Friend'S Dad

    It makes me so sad to look back at who I used to be. I mean yeah, I was probably naive, but I was 15, aren't you supposed to be? Growing up is supposed to be a gradual process, yet I had to grow up overnight. It was February the 3rd, 2012. My boyfriend had dumped me two months...
    delilahisabella delilahisabella 18-21 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    Raped!!! Me!!!

    Please write any questions and all reactions, whether kind or not. I want to know the reactions of others like me. I was sitting on a bench in the park when a man picked me up and threw me in a large white van. I blacked out and when I came to, I was strapped to a table with ten...
    sallie12345 sallie12345 13-15, F 10 Responses Mar 10, 2013

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    It's been over four years

    and I still have flashbacks to that terrible time. Four years.....four long years......I am healing, or at least that is what I tell myself. I am in college now and leading a fairly productive life....til another nightmare or flashback hits me. Then, it is all I can do to keep...
    survivorthrujesus survivorthrujesus 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 9

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    My boyfriend supports me

    so much. I love him. When I told him about finally reporting the man who hurt me he said, "Do the right thing (: it might make you happier in the long run(: *hugs*"
    ddc95 ddc95 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 22

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    I can't do anything,

    that man ruined my life, I hate him for that, I can never be normal because of him, and I will never forgive him, he hurt me in so many ways, and in some ways he still is, and I won't ever be able to forget that man, the man who I had to call daddy, the man who my Moyer married...
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001 13-15, F Jan 23

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    I am 15 years old and

    when I was 13 my step dad raped me and it still going on. i didn't know what to do I cried, begged him to stop but he just wouldn't stop! I told my mum but she just called me a liar. It's all my fault I could of stopped him but I didn't everything is my fault.
    Arabellathebeautiful Arabellathebeautiful 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    I am currently 14, When I was about four I lost

    my mom in a vicious custody battle. I lived with my dad and did not see my mom at all. I met my grandparents a while before i lost my mom. A little time after, my grand father raped me. I don't remember much of what happened. I can't even tell you if he actually took my...
    RayneZ RayneZ 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 11, 2014

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    People think that time heals all wounds I was

    raped when I was 14 I'm 19 now and even know I have flashbacks or cry when I fall asleep thinking about it. Rapist don't realise that the act they did has a life time affect on the victim for me he was my boyfriend for others it could be a stranger and family member a neighbour...
    elizachloe06 elizachloe06 18-21, F Feb 14

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    Yup. I was raped this past November.

    I don't really want to go into much detail about it. But it was by three high schoolers. I feel different. I hate my body more and I feel like I'm always dirty because of it. But thank god I am not pregnant.
    Divergent0 Divergent0 13-15, F 15 Responses Jan 25, 2014

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    I Humbly Request Your Input

    It is difficult to ask this of a woman who has suffered through rape, but I'm not sure who better to ask for input. First, let me put this out there: I am a male. I am not looking to be turned on at the expense of your pain. So here's the situation. I am in the midst of writing...
    Sharpie7 Sharpie7 51-55, M 8 Responses Oct 18, 2012

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    I am starting this new thing called 'life of

    hope' which is where people can talk to me about thier problems confidently, and basically I give advice. I want to do this because I want to make a difference and change how people feel, well try anyway.. So this page is just for people to talk. I can be a friend to anyone. But...
    lifeofhope lifeofhope 16-17, F Jan 22

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    My husband and I are trying to find some

    normalcy after what happened he wanted to watch special victims unit today on tv ugh I don't think I'm going to sleep well tonight I feel like complete crud right now I hate crying and never do but I just need a good cry I think right about now!
    Ana8939 Ana8939 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 17

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    frankcarter770 frankcarter770 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 3

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    This is a poem I have written about my

    experience of betrayal by someone close to me. I hope it helps someone else trying to come to terms with fighting "The Monster" all of us face when we have experienced rape. The Monster A warm familiar voice A reassuring hug A glad smile And whiskers that brush my face...
    purplemessenger purplemessenger 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 22, 2014

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    I Was Raped... And No One Knows.

    I was raped in January 2012. I am only thirteen. This is my story... Please dont judge me. I lost my virginity at age twelve. My boyfriend at the time kind of pressured me into sex in the summer of 2011. I did want to,, but I am young I wanted to wait more than anything. I...
    AnonymousShadow AnonymousShadow 13-15, F 37 Responses Jul 31, 2012

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    I have posted this before,

    but I am really upset over this once again and I guess I'm just looking for some advice or comfort. I have told few people about my experience and to be honest I just got the urge to let anyone know that I'm not okay. Last year I got raped. The only person who I feel...
    ohheycelia ohheycelia 18-21 1 Response Jan 14

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    two weeks. in two weeks I will see your face.

    I will be sitting in that mahogany chair next to the judge telling my story to a bunch of strangers in suits. eyes will be watching me, even yours. I'll tell them how you forced yourself on me, and how your voice echoed in my head like a thunderstorm. like glass shattering. your...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 7 Responses Feb 3

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