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I Was Raped and Feel Scared All the Time

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    When I was 18 years old,

    I was raped. I have never really spoken of it before. One night, after the bar, completely intoxicated, me and my friend met a couple of English men. We had decided to go back to their hotel room. My friend ended up throwing up and fell asleep on the bathroom floor. Though I was...
    mitted mitted 18-21, F 8 Responses Mar 22, 2014

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    Okay hi. My name is Katherine

    and I'm not the user of this account. She's allowed me to use "Experience Project" to share me story. When I was sixteen, I went out to get the mail for my parents. When I had the handful of letters, I began to walk back to my house, but a man stopped me. He looked to be about...
    Justagirllivinglife1 Justagirllivinglife1 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 19

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    I can't do anything,

    that man ruined my life, I hate him for that, I can never be normal because of him, and I will never forgive him, he hurt me in so many ways, and in some ways he still is, and I won't ever be able to forget that man, the man who I had to call daddy, the man who my Moyer married...
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001 13-15, F Jan 23

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    I'm so sorry this is happened to you,

    the same thing happened to me when I was 9 years old and it was my brother. For years I was raped over and over and forced to be touched by his friends, when I was 13 I had a breakdown in school and he was arrested. I was finally relieved but fate hated me and he was released...
    SecretSky27 SecretSky27 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    I was raped by my exboyfriend

    when we were still together... I was 14 and he was at the same age as me. He didn't physically rape me but mentally pressured me a lot and force me to have sex with him, and I was too afraid that if I didn't sleep with him it would end our relationship... I loved him a lot and I...
    qingxiaqiantong qingxiaqiantong 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    When I was younger (7) my cousin (9) began

    molesting me. He would do it every time I went over to my aunt aka his mothers house. My family are pretty close, and so I went there often, along with my other cousins. He would take me to private areas like his room or outside in the backyard and he would touch me...
    BVNG BVNG 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 18, 2014

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    The Perfect Guy?

    I'm Laura and I'm 19. I want to tell you the story of how I was raped. I have never told anyone and every time I try to write about it I can't get it out. I just want someone to hear my story. I was 16 years old, and its been 3 years since I was violated by a man. He changed me...
    AFallenStar AFallenStar 18-21, F 25 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    two weeks. in two weeks I will see your face.

    I will be sitting in that mahogany chair next to the judge telling my story to a bunch of strangers in suits. eyes will be watching me, even yours. I'll tell them how you forced yourself on me, and how your voice echoed in my head like a thunderstorm. like glass shattering. your...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 7 Responses Feb 3

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    People think that time heals all wounds I was

    raped when I was 14 I'm 19 now and even know I have flashbacks or cry when I fall asleep thinking about it. Rapist don't realise that the act they did has a life time affect on the victim for me he was my boyfriend for others it could be a stranger and family member a neighbour...
    elizachloe06 elizachloe06 18-21, F Feb 14

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    my dream: i was at my grandpa house my dad was

    there he was alive(i havent dreamed about my for you) he was so sad it my dream(just like when he was alive) i was my age he didnt talk much before he went outside. everyone said "dont do it" "your gonna hurt the kids again" next thing i here is people screaming hes "dead again...
    SpideyAlyx SpideyAlyx 13-15, M 4 Responses Mar 19

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    I am 15 years old and

    when I was 13 my step dad raped me and it still going on. i didn't know what to do I cried, begged him to stop but he just wouldn't stop! I told my mum but she just called me a liar. It's all my fault I could of stopped him but I didn't everything is my fault.
    Arabellathebeautiful Arabellathebeautiful 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    So I've recently started reading this book

    called crank by Ellen Hopkins. I really like this book and I'm almost done with it, in the book she talks about doing crystal and how it feels and all that n it's bought back memories of when I used to do that but it's kinda making me want to do it again, I'm trying to restrain...
    youngadult14 youngadult14 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    From the time I was 4

    until the time I was 12, I was raped by my step grandfather...and I'm almost positive my grandmother knows... I just came out about what happened to me a year ago and I am severely struggling to recover. I suffer from night terrors and have to take sleeping meds to sleep...
    beautiuldisasterz9 beautiuldisasterz9 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    I Was Raped!!

    After I was legally separated I went out on my first date with a man that I knew for a year. He was my tae-kwon-do Master and he was also my children's instructor. I was at his studio 5 days a week for just little over a year. When he asked me out I was so excited as I not only...
    AlwaysRemembers AlwaysRemembers 41-45, F 48 Responses Mar 31, 2007

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    I was drugged and raped by a man,

    maybe more than one man. I wouldn't know. I remember nothing. 8 hours of my memory is gone. Along with other pieces of me. I woke up in my urine with blood on me and he drove me home, I was too drugged to realize what had even happened. Once I was in bed less intoxicated by the...
    experiencethroughme experiencethroughme 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    So he finally hurt another girl.

    I have tears in my eyes. He got an underage girl pregnant. I feel that if I would have reported it when he hurt me then she wouldn't have to go through this pain either. It's time for me to finally help her out and tell. I'm just so scared. I don't want to be hurt again.
    ddc95 ddc95 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    It's true. Judge me for it,

    I don't care. People don't realize how horrible it is mentally. It changed everything in your life. I couldn't sleep for months, I hope no one ever has to go through it, and if you have, I understand you 100%
    margaret707 margaret707 22-25, F 6 Responses Dec 14, 2013

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    I just found out my rapist had unblocked me on

    Facebook and he's been watching me. I'm beyond scared. I still haven't reported it. I got too scared. How can I tell my boyfriend the guys is watching me now. He'd do anything to protect me. I don't feel safe home... I don't feel safe anywhere :( I'm tired of all of this pain of...
    ddc95 ddc95 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 5

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    I was a virgin before it happened.

    He got mad at me for bleeding so much. He choked me until I passed out. I'm afraid to go to school because I have classes with him. Idk what to do anymore.
    thatgirlruth thatgirlruth 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    Life After?

    I am a wife and a mother to 5 great kids. To avoid daycare costs my husband worked days for a distribution company and I worked nights at a gas station about 15 minutes from home.  There was many people to come in to my work.. some said hello and...
    lifeafter lifeafter 26-30, F 11 Responses Jun 1, 2007

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    Again

    He was here on Sunday and last night. And as I said before when he knocked I would answer. But, last night my 9 year old sister was home, too. I told her to lock herself in her room. She diddnt ask why she just did what I asked. When I thought she was safe I answered the door...
    Crazylover15 Crazylover15 18-21, F 10 Responses Jan 15, 2013

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    I Was Raped By My Father

    He started molesting me at 2 or 3 years old .He slowly groomed me and trained me by terrorizing me into thinking he would kill my mother and brothers .If I didn't let him he beat all of us black an blue .At the age of 5 I told my older brother who was 11 what was going on but he...
    rcrisp rcrisp 36-40, F 39 Responses Jun 4, 2007

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    The Tragedy, The Wreckage.

    It's been 4 years. 4 years since you've raped me. I can't look in the mirror without feeling disgusted. I can't sleep without seeing your face laughing at me. It disgusts me that you did this. It makes me want to puke. I have no hatred towards you. I just have questions...
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 6 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    I am starting this new thing called 'life of

    hope' which is where people can talk to me about thier problems confidently, and basically I give advice. I want to do this because I want to make a difference and change how people feel, well try anyway.. So this page is just for people to talk. I can be a friend to anyone. But...
    lifeofhope lifeofhope 16-17, F Jan 22

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    No matter how much I've healed the flashbacks

    to the bruises left down my spine and neck give me chills. It makes me cry to think of the purple marks on my thigh and wrist. I should be over it...but those memories ??
    ddc95 ddc95 18-21, F Feb 23

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    Raped!!! Me!!!

    Please write any questions and all reactions, whether kind or not. I want to know the reactions of others like me. I was sitting on a bench in the park when a man picked me up and threw me in a large white van. I blacked out and when I came to, I was strapped to a table with ten...
    sallie12345 sallie12345 13-15, F 10 Responses Mar 10, 2013

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    Okay I said it I was raped gang raped actually

    by 3 guys they also kicked punched me and i tried to fight back but i hav no strenght neither muscle im freakin skinny lanky and they putted a knife against my throat if i didnt behave that i will die and then this guy putted my pabts down and they were makin bets the freakin...
    xLittleRed xLittleRed 18-21, M 7 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    This is a poem I have written about my

    experience of betrayal by someone close to me. I hope it helps someone else trying to come to terms with fighting "The Monster" all of us face when we have experienced rape. The Monster A warm familiar voice A reassuring hug A glad smile And whiskers that brush my face...
    purplemessenger purplemessenger 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 22, 2014

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    I was 10 and I'm 13 now.

    . It was Christmas and all of my family was at my Grandmas and all of is kids were playing outside... My grandma told us to come inside to eat and all the kids did but, my cousin asked if I wanted a ride on his back and I said yes. He took me behind the garage and he raped me...
    Jayjay10234 Jayjay10234 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    I am 15 years old and

    when I was 13 my step dad raped me and it still going on. i didn't know what to do I cried, begged him to stop but he just wouldn't stop! I told my mum but she just called me a liar. It's all my fault I could of stopped him but I didn't everything is my fault.
    Arabellathebeautiful Arabellathebeautiful 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    My boyfriend supports me

    so much. I love him. When I told him about finally reporting the man who hurt me he said, "Do the right thing (: it might make you happier in the long run(: *hugs*"
    ddc95 ddc95 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 22

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    Iv never done this before excuse the long story

    but I need to get every detail off my mind I have no One else to talk to I'm hoping some1 will understand I was on holiday when it happened to me the first night me and the girls got drunk at the hotel bar I drank too much I admit it but I usually always know what I'm doing but...
    Candlelight01 Candlelight01 22-25, F 10 Responses Apr 20, 2014

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    When I was 13 my mum had to go to my Uncles

    funeral in Atlanta and she told me I couldn't go so I stayed home with my step dad and it first he was being REALLY nice then he touched me. The next day he raped me and when my mum came home I told her and she just told me that I was a liar and I was trying to ruin our family...
    Arabellathebeautiful Arabellathebeautiful 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 26

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    7 days ago i was beaten an raped.

    ....i spent the time after it happened hiding under my bed crying an couldnt stop replaying wat happened in my mind everytime i close my eyes i see it an im so scared.......
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 19

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    I have posted this before,

    but I am really upset over this once again and I guess I'm just looking for some advice or comfort. I have told few people about my experience and to be honest I just got the urge to let anyone know that I'm not okay. Last year I got raped. The only person who I feel...
    ohheycelia ohheycelia 18-21 1 Response Jan 14

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    Why can't I just let go,

    why does it have to be so hard, I don't want nightmares and flashbacks, I don't want to smell him and feel his stale breath, I want my life back, but I can't have it, because the night he did it the first time he stole my whole life away from me.
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    I Humbly Request Your Input

    It is difficult to ask this of a woman who has suffered through rape, but I'm not sure who better to ask for input. First, let me put this out there: I am a male. I am not looking to be turned on at the expense of your pain. So here's the situation. I am in the midst of writing...
    Sharpie7 Sharpie7 51-55, M 8 Responses Oct 18, 2012

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    I'M Sick Of Being "The Victim"

    Alright guys prepare for a long story... Between 12-14 years old, I was raped on a daily basis by my moms boyfriend. Me and him were so close. He was like a father to me, and yet he totally took advantage of me at such a young age. He had a gun on him when it happened and told...
    seev4hn seev4hn 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    When I was 7 years old my father married a

    woman,she was very sweet and had two kids.A girl who was 6 and a boy who was 10. One day we were playing "school",my step brother told her to go get something for him.He came over to me and started touching me in strange places.At first,being so young I didn't understand,but I...
    TerraMeranda TerraMeranda 16-17, F 6 Responses Feb 19, 2014

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    I Was Raped... And No One Knows.

    I was raped in January 2012. I am only thirteen. This is my story... Please dont judge me. I lost my virginity at age twelve. My boyfriend at the time kind of pressured me into sex in the summer of 2011. I did want to,, but I am young I wanted to wait more than anything. I...
    AnonymousShadow AnonymousShadow 13-15, F 37 Responses Jul 31, 2012

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    It's been over four years

    and I still have flashbacks to that terrible time. Four years.....four long years......I am healing, or at least that is what I tell myself. I am in college now and leading a fairly productive life....til another nightmare or flashback hits me. Then, it is all I can do to keep...
    survivorthrujesus survivorthrujesus 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 9

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    I was raped by my friend

    who goes to my school and he thinks nothing is wrong what should I do
    winstonhoward winstonhoward 13-15, M Feb 23

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    I'm still not over it.

    Why can't it go away from my memories.
    ddc95 ddc95 18-21, F Feb 25

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    The 7 Strangers

    Hi! My name is Sophia. I am 15. When I was 14, I had a horrible experience. I was raped. It was after practice. I was waiting for my mother to come and pick me up. Then, a strange man walked up to me. I didn't know him, but this was common. At my school there is a very common...
    thebrokendream thebrokendream 16-17, F 20 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    Well if you read my previous post you would know

    that I was raped... Yes that monster is in prison but I'm scared when he gets out he is going to come looking for me... He calls my phone from the prison from time to time and iv never answered... I would change my number but I wanna no if he is still looking so tht way I know...
    xxNicholexx xxNicholexx 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    How Much Was I Worth?

    Some writing from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com trigger warning for child sexual abuse. How much did they pay you daddy? How much was I worth? Was I a good girl, doing the things you had showed me since birth? You told me I was growing and said I was meant to...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 22, 2013

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