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I Was Raped and Feel Scared All the Time

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    I was rapped and molested almost all my life.

    my uncle use to touch me when I was younger and my older brother rapped and molested me since I was 8 until the age of 11 it stopped for 4 years I thought I was free but just last June it happened aging and that August everyone knew but didn't mean they belived me I haven't...
    Mandy1305 Mandy1305 16-17, F Apr 18

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    Emogirlriley Emogirlriley 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    two weeks. in two weeks I will see your face.

    I will be sitting in that mahogany chair next to the judge telling my story to a bunch of strangers in suits. eyes will be watching me, even yours. I'll tell them how you forced yourself on me, and how your voice echoed in my head like a thunderstorm. like glass shattering. your...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 3

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    I Remember Too Much - Trigger Warning -

    Sometimes my brother needed to leave for several days at a time, often out wooing club owners on weekends to get them to give him a job, so he got one of his friends to stop over and stay with me. I was offended that he thinks I need a babysitter, but gave up on arguing with him...
    EmptyUnderMyHat EmptyUnderMyHat 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 19, 2013

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    My mom got cancer when I was 10,

    so my parents went to live nearby the hospital in another state. My brother and I, went to live with some of my parents´friends. My best friend was there. We lived there like a year and 5 months. My brother and I used to sleep in the same room. He, the father of my best friend...
    ElsseHazelyn ElsseHazelyn 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 21

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    Again

    He was here on Sunday and last night. And as I said before when he knocked I would answer. But, last night my 9 year old sister was home, too. I told her to lock herself in her room. She diddnt ask why she just did what I asked. When I thought she was safe I answered the door...
    Crazylover15 Crazylover15 18-21, F 10 Responses Jan 15, 2013

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    The Tragedy, The Wreckage.

    It's been 4 years. 4 years since you've raped me. I can't look in the mirror without feeling disgusted. I can't sleep without seeing your face laughing at me. It disgusts me that you did this. It makes me want to puke. I have no hatred towards you. I just have questions...
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    When I was 18 years old,

    I was raped. I have never really spoken of it before. One night, after the bar, completely intoxicated, me and my friend met a couple of English men. We had decided to go back to their hotel room. My friend ended up throwing up and fell asleep on the bathroom floor. Though I was...
    mitted mitted 18-21, F 8 Responses Mar 22, 2014

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    I Was Raped!!

    After I was legally separated I went out on my first date with a man that I knew for a year. He was my tae-kwon-do Master and he was also my children's instructor. I was at his studio 5 days a week for just little over a year. When he asked me out I was so excited as I not only...
    AlwaysRemembers AlwaysRemembers 41-45, F 49 Responses Mar 31, 2007

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    I was raped by my exboyfriend

    when we were still together... I was 14 and he was at the same age as me. He didn't physically rape me but mentally pressured me a lot and force me to have sex with him, and I was too afraid that if I didn't sleep with him it would end our relationship... I loved him a lot and I...
    qingxiaqiantong qingxiaqiantong 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    I Humbly Request Your Input

    It is difficult to ask this of a woman who has suffered through rape, but I'm not sure who better to ask for input. First, let me put this out there: I am a male. I am not looking to be turned on at the expense of your pain. So here's the situation. I am in the midst of writing...
    Sharpie7 Sharpie7 51-55, M 8 Responses Oct 18, 2012

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    So I've recently started reading this book

    called crank by Ellen Hopkins. I really like this book and I'm almost done with it, in the book she talks about doing crystal and how it feels and all that n it's bought back memories of when I used to do that but it's kinda making me want to do it again, I'm trying to restrain...
    youngadult14 youngadult14 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    I'm so sorry this is happened to you,

    the same thing happened to me when I was 9 years old and it was my brother. For years I was raped over and over and forced to be touched by his friends, when I was 13 I had a breakdown in school and he was arrested. I was finally relieved but fate hated me and he was released...
    SecretSky27 SecretSky27 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    I have horrible dreams

    and wake up in the night sweating screaming and crying, I want to forget about my rape but I can't and its destroying me
    naturallyhappy naturallyhappy 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 15

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    It's been over four years

    and I still have flashbacks to that terrible time. Four years.....four long years......I am healing, or at least that is what I tell myself. I am in college now and leading a fairly productive life....til another nightmare or flashback hits me. Then, it is all I can do to keep...
    survivorthrujesus survivorthrujesus 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 9

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    When I was younger (7) my cousin (9) began

    molesting me. He would do it every time I went over to my aunt aka his mothers house. My family are pretty close, and so I went there often, along with my other cousins. He would take me to private areas like his room or outside in the backyard and he would touch me...
    BVNG BVNG 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 18, 2014

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    Help

    Help she screams but know one listens Help she cries but they ignore The door shuts tight On that unforgettable night He gets into her bed She lays there her clothes shed She cries until the pain is away And she wishes she was dead for a day Help she screams Life’s not what...
    wishme2death wishme2death 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2012

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    How Much Was I Worth?

    Some writing from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com trigger warning for child sexual abuse. How much did they pay you daddy? How much was I worth? Was I a good girl, doing the things you had showed me since birth? You told me I was growing and said I was meant to...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 22, 2013

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    When I was 12, I was raped by a stranger.

    I'm 18 now & if I cant find happiness... I don't want to live anymore I feel like I don't deserve to be happy or that I even deserve to live. I constantly dwell about EVERYTHING I have ever screwed up, (even the stupid little things that everyone does from time to time, like...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 7

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    I was raped. And I havent told anyone

    and I'm scared and alone and depressed. I don't know how to get through this. I'm all alone.
    ravenlindsay ravenlindsay 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    So I heard this joke today: " I like my women

    how I like my whiskey. Twelve years old and locked in my basement." I don't get upset by jokes such as these just because of the fact that they're JOKES, but it rubbed me entirely the wrong way. I was pissed. I chewed the kid who said it out in front of all of his friends. I'm...
    jbnichole jbnichole 18-21, F 3 Responses May 6

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    I need help. I can't cope with this.

    I was sexually assaulted in a mental hospital by my roommate and, even though I'm not sure if it counts as rape and it happened in November, I'm just now processing it. How do I tell my therapist? What did you guys do to deal with the emotions?????? I'm scared
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 29

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    Since I was assaulted by my teacher I am afraid

    to go back to school. I'm scared he will do it again. What should I do?
    ColorGuard270 ColorGuard270 18-21, F 1 Response May 25

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    LiliaAnne LiliaAnne 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 28

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    When i was 13 i was raped by my 15 year old

    boyfriend he forced me i tryed to get away but not go and i felt gross for awhile and again he raped me i had no way to run.
    Emogirlriley Emogirlriley 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 11

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    I was drugged and raped by a man,

    maybe more than one man. I wouldn't know. I remember nothing. 8 hours of my memory is gone. Along with other pieces of me. I woke up in my urine with blood on me and he drove me home, I was too drugged to realize what had even happened. Once I was in bed less intoxicated by the...
    experiencethroughme experiencethroughme 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    Well if you read my previous post you would know

    that I was raped... Yes that monster is in prison but I'm scared when he gets out he is going to come looking for me... He calls my phone from the prison from time to time and iv never answered... I would change my number but I wanna no if he is still looking so tht way I know...
    xxNicholexx xxNicholexx 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    This is a poem I have written about my

    experience of betrayal by someone close to me. I hope it helps someone else trying to come to terms with fighting "The Monster" all of us face when we have experienced rape. The Monster A warm familiar voice A reassuring hug A glad smile And whiskers that brush my face...
    purplemessenger purplemessenger 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 22, 2014

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    The 7 Strangers

    Hi! My name is Sophia. I am 15. When I was 14, I had a horrible experience. I was raped. It was after practice. I was waiting for my mother to come and pick me up. Then, a strange man walked up to me. I didn't know him, but this was common. At my school there is a very common...
    thebrokendream thebrokendream 16-17, F 20 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    I've been reading many of these stories

    and my heart has absolutely broken. Please, please if you are raped or abused I am asking you to please call the police. It's not something that 'just happens' it is not something that you can just shrug off. It is a crime. A heinous, disgusting crime. You do not want to protect...
    mandamooki mandamooki 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 19, 2014

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    Yup. I was raped this past November.

    I don't really want to go into much detail about it. But it was by three high schoolers. I feel different. I hate my body more and I feel like I'm always dirty because of it. But thank god I am not pregnant.
    Divergent0 Divergent0 13-15, F 14 Responses Jan 25, 2014

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    I'M Sick Of Being "The Victim"

    Alright guys prepare for a long story... Between 12-14 years old, I was raped on a daily basis by my moms boyfriend. Me and him were so close. He was like a father to me, and yet he totally took advantage of me at such a young age. He had a gun on him when it happened and told...
    seev4hn seev4hn 18-21, F 10 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    Okay I said it I was raped gang raped actually

    by 3 guys they also kicked punched me and i tried to fight back but i hav no strenght neither muscle im freakin skinny lanky and they putted a knife against my throat if i didnt behave that i will die and then this guy putted my pabts down and they were makin bets the freakin...
    xLittleRed xLittleRed 18-21, M 7 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    MoonFlowerCloud MoonFlowerCloud 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I was raped by a guy

    when I was 13 and now I'm almost 18 and that's why I became a lesbian and is why I'm scared to go around any guy I hate hate men there are nothing but pigs and I wish they would all die
    lizpup197 lizpup197 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 27

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    The Perfect Guy?

    I'm Laura and I'm 19. I want to tell you the story of how I was raped. I have never told anyone and every time I try to write about it I can't get it out. I just want someone to hear my story. I was 16 years old, and its been 3 years since I was violated by a man. He changed me...
    AFallenStar AFallenStar 18-21, F 25 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    It screwed me up real bad.

    .. I know some girls get better, they even manage to help others. But he just made me feel so disgusting... and that's what I really am now. He constantly told me I was a wh-ore, I was nasty, that I wanted it and I'd be nothing without it and he was right. I'm not proud of who I...
    KittyCunt KittyCunt 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 31

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    I Was Raped By My Father

    He started molesting me at 2 or 3 years old .He slowly groomed me and trained me by terrorizing me into thinking he would kill my mother and brothers .If I didn't let him he beat all of us black an blue .At the age of 5 I told my older brother who was 11 what was going on but he...
    rcrisp rcrisp 36-40, F 39 Responses Jun 4, 2007

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    I Was Raped By My Stepdad

    Since i was 10 years old, my step-father has often raped me. the first time i tried to tell my mom about it, she told me that i was lying, that all i was doing was trying to run off another one of her boyfriends, both my parents would often beat us black and blue. When I as...
    firepanda firepanda 22-25, F 16 Responses Aug 14, 2011

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    This happened on my birthday

    and I just turned 11. We were at a park.. & I was wearing a dress that my mom had bought for me that day; but anyways, me and my cousins were playing hide and seek. & when it was time to hide one of my older cousins tried to help me find a hiding place. (He was 17) So we went to...
    Ch3y Ch3y 16-17, F 7 Responses May 17

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    7 days ago i was beaten an raped.

    ....i spent the time after it happened hiding under my bed crying an couldnt stop replaying wat happened in my mind everytime i close my eyes i see it an im so scared.......
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 19

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    My Friend'S Dad

    It makes me so sad to look back at who I used to be. I mean yeah, I was probably naive, but I was 15, aren't you supposed to be? Growing up is supposed to be a gradual process, yet I had to grow up overnight. It was February the 3rd, 2012. My boyfriend had dumped me two months...
    delilahisabella delilahisabella 18-21 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    And there's nothing that'll change that

    because things will never be the same. I don't even feel like I'm the same person. Like a part of me died inside.. I've always been the strong one, but right now, it's the hardest thing I can do...
    RainBow018 RainBow018 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 29

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    My name is Karly I just turned 16

    and I am from Michigan but currently live in Florida. When I was younger my dad used to beat me and my sisters so my mom and dad got a divorce. When I was 11 we moved to Florida to stay with my uncle. When I was 11 my uncle raped me for 2 years so I told my mom and we moved out...
    allaboutkarly allaboutkarly 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Raped!!! Me!!!

    Please write any questions and all reactions, whether kind or not. I want to know the reactions of others like me. I was sitting on a bench in the park when a man picked me up and threw me in a large white van. I blacked out and when I came to, I was strapped to a table with ten...
    sallie12345 sallie12345 13-15, F 11 Responses Mar 10, 2013

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    When I was 7 years old my father married a

    woman,she was very sweet and had two kids.A girl who was 6 and a boy who was 10. One day we were playing "school",my step brother told her to go get something for him.He came over to me and started touching me in strange places.At first,being so young I didn't understand,but I...
    TerraMeranda TerraMeranda 16-17, F 5 Responses Feb 19, 2014