I Was Raped and Feel Scared All the Time

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    I'M Sick Of Being "The Victim"

    Alright guys prepare for a long story... Between 12-14 years old, I was raped on a daily basis by my moms boyfriend. Me and him were so close. He was like a father to me, and yet he totally took advantage of me at such a young age. He had a gun on him when it happened and told...
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    7 Responses Nov 14, 2013
    MoonFlowerCloud MoonFlowerCloud
    31-35, F
    Jul 15, 2015

    The day that my life changed forever.

    It was a year ago, I was with my "friend" in my basement. We were 14, my mother had left to go to the store for an hour. I asked if he wanted to play on the ps3 or the Xbox, all he said was neither. I thought he was just being indecisive so I chose ps3 and went to grab the...
    Lopily Lopily
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Oct 20, 2015

    I was raped by a friend of my dads multiple

    times but he got his that's karma.
    Yplv Yplv
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Dec 26, 2015

    I Remember Too Much - Trigger Warning -

    Sometimes my brother needed to leave for several days at a time, often out wooing club owners on weekends to get them to give him a job, so he got one of his friends to stop over and stay with me. I was offended that he thinks I need a babysitter, but gave up on arguing with him...
    EmptyUnderMyHat EmptyUnderMyHat
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 19, 2013

    When I was younger (7) my cousin (9) began

    molesting me. He would do it every time I went over to my aunt aka his mothers house. My family are pretty close, and so I went there often, along with my other cousins. He would take me to private areas like his room or outside in the backyard and he would touch me...
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Jul 18, 2014

    Okay I said it I was raped gang raped actually

    by 3 guys they also kicked punched me and i tried to fight back but i hav no strenght neither muscle im freakin skinny lanky and they putted a knife against my throat if i didnt behave that i will die and then this guy putted my pabts down and they were makin bets the freakin...
    xLittleRed xLittleRed
    18-21, M
    7 Responses Nov 28, 2013

    Not like anyone would

    even care or read this but I just had to get this off my chest. It's bothering me so much and I just can't stop thinking about it. I was at home alone (well at least that's what I thought) because everyone went out to dinner or whatever. But I didn't want to go because i didn...
    kiyaharris kiyaharris
    16-17, M
    26 Responses Dec 25, 2015

    I was raped by a guy

    when I was 13 and now I'm almost 18 and that's why I became a lesbian and is why I'm scared to go around any guy I hate hate men there are nothing but pigs and I wish they would all die
    lizpup197 lizpup197
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 27, 2015

    I am currently 14, When I was about four I lost

    my mom in a vicious custody battle. I lived with my dad and did not see my mom at all. I met my grandparents a while before i lost my mom. A little time after, my grand father raped me. I don't remember much of what happened. I can't even tell you if he actually took my...
    RayneZ RayneZ
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jul 11, 2014

    I'm honestly not sure

    if this is rape, but I think it is. One time I got really drunk and went to a party. I was walking back to the car when one of my guy friends started touching me grabbing my butt. Being intoxicated I didn't really have any say as to what was going on. Finally, he led me to the...
    Doggydogsex8 Doggydogsex8
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Oct 12, 2015
    LiliaAnne LiliaAnne
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 28, 2015

    I Was Raped... And No One Knows.

    I was raped in January 2012. I am only thirteen. This is my story... Please dont judge me. I lost my virginity at age twelve. My boyfriend at the time kind of pressured me into sex in the summer of 2011. I did want to,, but I am young I wanted to wait more than anything. I...
    AnonymousShadow AnonymousShadow
    13-15, F
    37 Responses Jul 31, 2012

    Well if you read my previous post you would know

    that I was raped... Yes that monster is in prison but I'm scared when he gets out he is going to come looking for me... He calls my phone from the prison from time to time and iv never answered... I would change my number but I wanna no if he is still looking so tht way I know...
    xxNicholexx xxNicholexx
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 15, 2014

    The Tragedy, The Wreckage.

    It's been 4 years. 4 years since you've raped me. I can't look in the mirror without feeling disgusted. I can't sleep without seeing your face laughing at me. It disgusts me that you did this. It makes me want to puke. I have no hatred towards you. I just have questions...
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Mar 3, 2014

    I was raped whenI was 15 with one of my friends.

    I am now 21 . We were both taken into a car to the peice of ***** house . I felt to helpless... I couldn't screen because i had tonsillitis. I think about it everyday wish it was all just a dream .
    Laurennmariee Laurennmariee
    22-25, F
    Aug 6, 2015

    If you think it's funny

    or a thing to joke about.. It's not. I was raped twice.. Once when I was 13 and again just a few months ago by someone I used to call friend.. I am ashamed I couldn't stop it from happening.. Either time.. The guilt is eating me alive, and I have made serious and drastic life...
    03xxRomeoBravo 03xxRomeoBravo
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Mar 4

    How Much Was I Worth?

    Some writing from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com trigger warning for child sexual abuse. How much did they pay you daddy? How much was I worth? Was I a good girl, doing the things you had showed me since birth? You told me I was growing and said I was meant to...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 22, 2013

    My name is Karly I just turned 16

    and I am from Michigan but currently live in Florida. When I was younger my dad used to beat me and my sisters so my mom and dad got a divorce. When I was 11 we moved to Florida to stay with my uncle. When I was 11 my uncle raped me for 2 years so I told my mom and we moved out...
    allaboutkarly allaboutkarly
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jul 31, 2015

    how does one get over rape ?

    I hear all these people tell me to forget and forgive but I dont know how to .
    thelonelyone94 thelonelyone94
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Dec 10, 2015

    I grew up in a country setting

    when I went to beauty school I was 15 on ROP. I made friends with older girls in bad neighborhoods. I got to spend the night at Sherrys home. My dad met her parents. It seemed ok. Sherry was 4 years older. Soon her boyfriend and brothers got There. It was a party for her brother...
    JMay1994 JMay1994
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jul 8, 2014

    When I was 18 years old,

    I was raped. I have never really spoken of it before. One night, after the bar, completely intoxicated, me and my friend met a couple of English men. We had decided to go back to their hotel room. My friend ended up throwing up and fell asleep on the bathroom floor. Though I was...
    mitted mitted
    22-25, F
    9 Responses Mar 22, 2014

    This is a poem I have written about my

    experience of betrayal by someone close to me. I hope it helps someone else trying to come to terms with fighting "The Monster" all of us face when we have experienced rape. The Monster A warm familiar voice A reassuring hug A glad smile And whiskers that brush my face...
    purplemessenger purplemessenger
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 22, 2014

    I took 3 pregnancy test yesterday

    and they all came back positive so I went to the doctor today and found out I am 10 weeks along! A little about myself. My name is Karly I just turned 16. I am from Michigan but currently live in Florida. I met my boyfriend when I was 13. everything was GREAT for about a...
    allaboutkarly allaboutkarly
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 4, 2015

    The Perfect Guy?

    I'm Laura and I'm 19. I want to tell you the story of how I was raped. I have never told anyone and every time I try to write about it I can't get it out. I just want someone to hear my story. I was 16 years old, and its been 3 years since I was violated by a man. He changed me...
    AFallenStar AFallenStar
    18-21, F
    24 Responses Oct 25, 2012

    Life After?

    I am a wife and a mother to 5 great kids. To avoid daycare costs my husband worked days for a distribution company and I worked nights at a gas station about 15 minutes from home.  There was many people to come in to my work.. some said hello and...
    lifeafter lifeafter
    26-30, F
    9 Responses Jun 1, 2007

    two weeks. in two weeks I will see your face.

    I will be sitting in that mahogany chair next to the judge telling my story to a bunch of strangers in suits. eyes will be watching me, even yours. I'll tell them how you forced yourself on me, and how your voice echoed in my head like a thunderstorm. like glass shattering. your...
    danielle18 danielle18
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 3, 2015

    I was raped at a young age (probably 4,

    5 or 6... I'm not sure) by my brother. I don't remember a lot about it and I guess I'm glad that I don't. I actually reported it 2 months ago to the local department of child/family services. I swear the woman ignored it. She didn't do anything. No investigation happened...
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    1 Response Nov 12, 2015

    People think that time heals all wounds I was

    raped when I was 14 I'm 19 now and even know I have flashbacks or cry when I fall asleep thinking about it. Rapist don't realise that the act they did has a life time affect on the victim for me he was my boyfriend for others it could be a stranger and family member a neighbour...
    elizachloe06 elizachloe06
    18-21, F
    Feb 14, 2015

    Just this past Thursday I was raped again.

    He was an ok friend of mine and I thought nothing of it when he asked to hang out. I told him why I was hesitant and that was a terrible mistake. I told him I had been raped before and he promised me he would never hurt me. And I believed him. But Thursday he showed me I couldn...
    scarsthatsmile scarsthatsmile
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 16, 2015

    I've been reading many of these stories

    and my heart has absolutely broken. Please, please if you are raped or abused I am asking you to please call the police. It's not something that 'just happens' it is not something that you can just shrug off. It is a crime. A heinous, disgusting crime. You do not want to protect...
    mandamooki mandamooki
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jul 19, 2014

    i swear im developing clininal depression

    or ptsd. it just keeps getting worse, this feeling of being alone and emotionally/physically aching. i finally started talking to guys again, which i didn't ever think i would do, but i still hate to sit next to someone, or be touched (which is often contradicted by my...
    mylittlesecret96 mylittlesecret96
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 24

    i was raped by my boyfriend.

    i am 16 years old and this happen only 6 months ago. i was in an abusive relationship with him and stayed with him for 3 months. i don't know why i stayed with him but yeah. We were sexually active at the time but i promised my self that id always make sure i used protection...
    cas1999 cas1999
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 16

    Three years agog my husband came home from a

    stress center. He was there because of the humiliation an affair partner tried. I had told the AP that was the last time we could be together because my husband came home from Rehab the day before Not in a wheel chair as expected but walking with a cane and I found out the...
    isis55 isis55
    56-60, F
    3 Responses Jan 14


    Help she screams but know one listens Help she cries but they ignore The door shuts tight On that unforgettable night He gets into her bed She lays there her clothes shed She cries until the pain is away And she wishes she was dead for a day Help she screams Life’s not what...
    wishme2death wishme2death
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Sep 25, 2012

    When I was 14 I was raped by two men.

    confused at first i thought they were being nice considering one of them I had known for years. they dehumanized me and left me with scars not only physically but emotionally. Unfortunatley I dont have enough confidence to tell anyone who is close, because i feel as if they will...
    aforms26 aforms26
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Sep 2, 2015

    Don't Follow Me (meant to be spoken word) You

    are posting photos with friends. You are documenting other's lives through a telephoto lens. You are hanging out with your kin. You are getting commercial jobs with companies who want you to sort through their odds and ends. When I'm left here trying to sort through mine...
    TheBellaBubbles TheBellaBubbles
    18-21, F
    Sep 2, 2015

    This happened on my birthday

    and I just turned 11. We were at a park.. & I was wearing a dress that my mom had bought for me that day; but anyways, me and my cousins were playing hide and seek. & when it was time to hide one of my older cousins tried to help me find a hiding place. (He was 17) So we went to...
    Ch3y Ch3y
    16-17, F
    4 Responses May 17, 2015

    I never thought that I'd ever post on a social

    media site that I was raped. I have been raped 3 times in my life time. I'm traumatized and scared all the time. I see any man look at me or even walk by me, I tense up and get scared. I was in counseling for 2 years and that helped a lot. I was moving on from the first 2...
    haunted159 haunted159
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Sep 11, 2015

    Yup. I was raped this past November.

    I don't really want to go into much detail about it. But it was by three high schoolers. I feel different. I hate my body more and I feel like I'm always dirty because of it. But thank god I am not pregnant.
    Divergent0 Divergent0
    13-15, F
    12 Responses Jan 25, 2014

    Since I was assaulted by my teacher I am afraid

    to go back to school. I'm scared he will do it again. What should I do?
    ColorGuard270 ColorGuard270
    18-21, F
    May 25, 2015

    When I was raped by my stepdad

    when I was younger it was the worse thing ever like I have bad dreams about it all of the time I have dreams about him on top of me and covering my mouth and me crying begging him to stop and he hated if I tried to Resist him and he would hit me in the face really hard that...
    deleted deleted
    10 Responses Dec 26, 2015

    When I was 10 years old,

    I was raped by my best friends cousin. I don’t remember why we were alone, or why he chose to victimize me considering we barely spoke to each other. I don’t understand why an 18 year old would want to have sex with a 10 year old. But, I do remember the force of being...
    Musicgirl84 Musicgirl84
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 12, 2015

    Okay hi. My name is Katherine

    and I'm not the user of this account. She's allowed me to use "Experience Project" to share me story. When I was sixteen, I went out to get the mail for my parents. When I had the handful of letters, I began to walk back to my house, but a man stopped me. He looked to be about...
    Justagirllivinglife1 Justagirllivinglife1
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 19, 2015

    I am really scared all the time

    because I feel like I am going to get rape again. I am really scared to trust people I feel like people I trust would do this to me. ever since I been rape I have never been the same girl i was before i was rape.
    gemh1234567 gemh1234567
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Oct 13, 2015

    I Was Raped By My Stepdad

    Since i was 10 years old, my step-father has often raped me. the first time i tried to tell my mom about it, she told me that i was lying, that all i was doing was trying to run off another one of her boyfriends, both my parents would often beat us black and blue. When I as...
    firepanda firepanda
    22-25, F
    16 Responses Aug 14, 2011

    I was raped. And I havent told anyone

    and I'm scared and alone and depressed. I don't know how to get through this. I'm all alone.
    ravenlindsay ravenlindsay
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 13, 2015

    I Was Raped!!

    After I was legally separated I went out on my first date with a man that I knew for a year. He was my tae-kwon-do Master and he was also my children's instructor. I was at his studio 5 days a week for just little over a year. When he asked me out I was so excited as I not only...
    AlwaysRemembers AlwaysRemembers
    41-45, F
    46 Responses Mar 31, 2007

    This story is about my girlfriend being raped

    when she was little as 10. I REALLY need you guys' help in this one. Please read. It's been almost a year and a half since we started dating this pretty girl. After many failed relationships I finally found one girl who's really sweet and stood up to my dreams. However, I...
    Freedomzeeker Freedomzeeker
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jun 13, 2015

    I was raped by my cousin multiple times

    for a few year and it was the worst thing that could possibly happen to me and I basically had a meltdown when I found out he moved back home! I'm scared and I don't want to run into him you know cause he is family. No one really knows and it kills me because I go through it...
    nishabrown nishabrown
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 14

    I had had almost no experience,

    I was a virgin. I liked this older guy. We had talked a few times at school and he texted me late one night asking if I wanted to sneak out and go to a party. I was a pretty naive girl and I didn't drink or smoke or anything but I wanted to impress him. I snuck out and he told...
    chocolateandpugs chocolateandpugs
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 3, 2015

    Ripping Me Away

    She got stolen. Her only piece of life. Her identity. The monster took it away. There was no one to save her. The girl was trapped in the mirror. The monster tore apart her identity to shreds and all the girl could do was sit in silence and wait until the monster was done...
    danielle18 danielle18
    18-21, F
    17 Responses Jun 18, 2013

    The 7 Strangers

    Hi! My name is Sophia. I am 15. When I was 14, I had a horrible experience. I was raped. It was after practice. I was waiting for my mother to come and pick me up. Then, a strange man walked up to me. I didn't know him, but this was common. At my school there is a very common...
    thebrokendream thebrokendream
    18-21, F
    19 Responses Jun 10, 2013

    He wanted fo prove to me

    that I was female. He was my boyfriend at the time and I couldn't say no because he shut me up; I was scared. He said that he was going to make me realize it was all just a phase and I was really his girlfriend, not his boyfriend. I couldn't say no because I was weak and didn't...
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    Oct 14, 2015
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