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I Was Raped and Feel Scared All the Time

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    When I was 7 years old my father married a

    woman,she was very sweet and had two kids.A girl who was 6 and a boy who was 10. One day we were playing "school",my step brother told her to go get something for him.He came over to me and started touching me in strange places.At first,being so young I didn't understand,but I...
    TerraMeranda TerraMeranda 13-15, F 6 Responses Feb 19

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    I'm a guy so it been hard dealing with being a

    victim of rape. I'm also straight which makes it a million times worse in my head to deal with. Only my parents and my therapist know and still I gave nothing more then the fact that it happened. I was 19 and it was my college roommate. He was a big guy, athlete, very popular...
    andrew20142014 andrew20142014 22-25, M 4 Responses Aug 12

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    I was raped. I have terrible nightmares of my

    attack. I hate the men who violated me! I wish they were dead!
    angkath80 angkath80 31-35, F 13 Responses Oct 1

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    I can't forget the night I was raped!

    I try to tell myself that it's not still happening but that's just a lie! I can no longer sleep because all I can see is him! When I do sleep I get nightmares! People tell me that I'm strong for getting threw that day! They tell me that I'm safe now! What they don't understand...
    skysplits skysplits 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    I Was Raped!!

    After I was legally separated I went out on my first date with a man that I knew for a year. He was my tae-kwon-do Master and he was also my children's instructor. I was at his studio 5 days a week for just little over a year. When he asked me out I was so excited as I not only...
    AlwaysRemembers AlwaysRemembers 41-45, F 47 Responses Mar 31, 2007

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    I am so depressed right

    now there is no one to hear me out
    alwaysmeforever alwaysmeforever 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 6

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    It's been three years

    and he still won't leave me alone. I just want him to leave me alone. When will this torcher ever end?I want the images gone. If I can't live without him haunting me every day, I might as well be dead. I'd rather be dead then torchered.
    scarsthatsmile scarsthatsmile 16-17, F 6 Responses Sep 29

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    I was 16, he had just turned 17.

    He was my best friend, and it was his birthday. He invited me over to hang out with a couple of our friends. Sadly, he lied, and it was only me and him. He forced himself onto me, and didn't stop until he was pleased with himself. Now, I'm the one left with the consequences. I...
    Shekinarose Shekinarose 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    Help

    Help she screams but know one listens Help she cries but they ignore The door shuts tight On that unforgettable night He gets into her bed She lays there her clothes shed She cries until the pain is away And she wishes she was dead for a day Help she screams Life’s not what...
    wishme2death wishme2death 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 25, 2012

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    My Friend'S Dad

    It makes me so sad to look back at who I used to be. I mean yeah, I was probably naive, but I was 15, aren't you supposed to be? Growing up is supposed to be a gradual process, yet I had to grow up overnight. It was February the 3rd, 2012. My boyfriend had dumped me two months...
    delilahisabella delilahisabella 18-21 3 Responses Apr 3, 2013

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    Okay I said it I was raped gang raped actually

    by 3 guys they also kicked punched me and i tried to fight back but i hav no strenght neither muscle im freakin skinny lanky and they putted a knife against my throat if i didnt behave that i will die and then this guy putted my pabts down and they were makin bets the freakin...
    xLittleRed xLittleRed 18-21, M 7 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    I woke up at 3 am cuz of nightmares

    now I just cant go back to sleep at all..
    alwaysmeforever alwaysmeforever 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    dazedandlost dazedandlost 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 11

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    Dyylaanxx Dyylaanxx 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    When I was 18 years old,

    I was raped. I have never really spoken of it before. One night, after the bar, completely intoxicated, me and my friend met a couple of English men. We had decided to go back to their hotel room. My friend ended up throwing up and fell asleep on the bathroom floor. Though I was...
    mitted mitted 18-21, F 9 Responses Mar 22

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    Life After?

    I am a wife and a mother to 5 great kids. To avoid daycare costs my husband worked days for a distribution company and I worked nights at a gas station about 15 minutes from home.  There was many people to come in to my work.. some said hello and...
    lifeafter lifeafter 26-30, F 11 Responses Jun 1, 2007

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    Ripping Me Away

    She got stolen. Her only piece of life. Her identity. The monster took it away. There was no one to save her. The girl was trapped in the mirror. The monster tore apart her identity to shreds and all the girl could do was sit in silence and wait until the monster was done...
    danielle18 danielle18 18-21, F 16 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    "If you were really that upset about your rape

    you wouldn't dress and act the way you do. I tried to tell you this kid was just using you for sex why would you sleep with him after one month!?" Thought you were my best friend? My bad.
    VolleyBallPrincess14 VolleyBallPrincess14 18-21, F Aug 25

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    I Humbly Request Your Input

    It is difficult to ask this of a woman who has suffered through rape, but I'm not sure who better to ask for input. First, let me put this out there: I am a male. I am not looking to be turned on at the expense of your pain. So here's the situation. I am in the midst of writing...
    Sharpie7 Sharpie7 51-55, M 8 Responses Oct 18, 2012

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    I am currently 14, When I was about four I lost

    my mom in a vicious custody battle. I lived with my dad and did not see my mom at all. I met my grandparents a while before i lost my mom. A little time after, my grand father raped me. I don't remember much of what happened. I can't even tell you if he actually took my...
    RayneZ RayneZ 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 11

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    Raped!!! Me!!!

    Please write any questions and all reactions, whether kind or not. I want to know the reactions of others like me. I was sitting on a bench in the park when a man picked me up and threw me in a large white van. I blacked out and when I came to, I was strapped to a table with ten...
    sallie12345 sallie12345 13-15, F 10 Responses Mar 10, 2013

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    I was in a foster home

    and they were abusive. So we were arguing and she threw me on the floor and threw a radio at me. So I ran away, trying to go to the gas station but a guy jumped out of the bushes and put his hand over my mouth. He told me if I screamed he would kill me. He lifted up my shirt and...
    jazzyjaniah jazzyjaniah 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    The 7 Strangers

    Hi! My name is Sophia. I am 15. When I was 14, I had a horrible experience. I was raped. It was after practice. I was waiting for my mother to come and pick me up. Then, a strange man walked up to me. I didn't know him, but this was common. At my school there is a very common...
    thebrokendream thebrokendream 16-17, F 19 Responses Jun 10, 2013

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    The Tragedy, The Wreckage.

    It's been 4 years. 4 years since you've raped me. I can't look in the mirror without feeling disgusted. I can't sleep without seeing your face laughing at me. It disgusts me that you did this. It makes me want to puke. I have no hatred towards you. I just have questions...
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603 16-17, F 6 Responses Mar 3

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    So I am thinking about getting a abortion cuz

    Idk if I can live knowing I am carrying a rapists baby.. But idk If I could live with killing a baby..
    alwaysmeforever alwaysmeforever 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 19

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    I Was Raped... And No One Knows.

    I was raped in January 2012. I am only thirteen. This is my story... Please dont judge me. I lost my virginity at age twelve. My boyfriend at the time kind of pressured me into sex in the summer of 2011. I did want to,, but I am young I wanted to wait more than anything. I...
    AnonymousShadow AnonymousShadow 13-15, F 34 Responses Jul 31, 2012

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    I'M Sick Of Being "The Victim"

    Alright guys prepare for a long story... Between 12-14 years old, I was raped on a daily basis by my moms boyfriend. Me and him were so close. He was like a father to me, and yet he totally took advantage of me at such a young age. He had a gun on him when it happened and told...
    seev4hn seev4hn 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    He lives across the street

    and 3 houses down. I always look if he is home or not, even when I don't face that way, I make sure. I check every single Acura TL when I'm driving to see if it's him. I check his FB so I never walk into the places he works at. I lock all the doors when I'm home. I've had...
    AlanaLlama AlanaLlama 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12

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    I've almost wrote to this experience a million

    times, but always ended up leaving it blank. But I feel like I'm alone and I'm suffocating. I was molested when I was 7. Odd as it sounds I didn't know enough for it to do much to me. I knew it for what it was. I knew that it hurt, and I knew that it made me sick. I had...
    NotFirstNotLast NotFirstNotLast 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 21

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    Crying again; flashbacks.

    Great just great!!!
    angkath80 angkath80 31-35, F 9 Responses Nov 9

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    It started when I was 5 years old.

    My grandpa would always have me go into his room so that he could touch and violate me. He'd pay me money, and give me gifts just so I would participate. I accepted them, idk why I accepted them, but I did. I feel like a ****, like I could've prevented it and like I could've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 31

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    Yup. I was raped this past November.

    I don't really want to go into much detail about it. But it was by three high schoolers. I feel different. I hate my body more and I feel like I'm always dirty because of it. But thank god I am not pregnant.
    Divergent0 Divergent0 13-15, F 15 Responses Jan 25

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    last year i was raped

    and im always scared ive tried to kill myself everyday and night since it happened i feel so scared and alone my body is all cuts and scars i dont know what to do anymore
    alanahlouise alanahlouise 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 9

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    Lately, I find myself in

    that place again. I can feel it. I can hear them. I just picture myself begging her to wake up. Crying her name. And she doesn't move. I begged her for help. she didn't move. She was awake. She heard me crying for her. And she didn't move.
    mitted mitted 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 24

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    When does all this start to get easier?

    , I don't know how much more I can cope with. It's all too much for me,I thought it would've been easier by now,it happened near enough two years ago. Someone please help me?!?!
    OliviaWillow13 OliviaWillow13 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 18

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    I've been reading many of these stories

    and my heart has absolutely broken. Please, please if you are raped or abused I am asking you to please call the police. It's not something that 'just happens' it is not something that you can just shrug off. It is a crime. A heinous, disgusting crime. You do not want to protect...
    mandamooki mandamooki 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 19

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    The Perfect Guy?

    I'm Laura and I'm 19. I want to tell you the story of how I was raped. I have never told anyone and every time I try to write about it I can't get it out. I just want someone to hear my story. I was 16 years old, and its been 3 years since I was violated by a man. He changed me...
    AFallenStar AFallenStar 18-21, F 25 Responses Oct 25, 2012

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    I Was Raped By My Father

    He started molesting me at 2 or 3 years old .He slowly groomed me and trained me by terrorizing me into thinking he would kill my mother and brothers .If I didn't let him he beat all of us black an blue .At the age of 5 I told my older brother who was 11 what was going on but he...
    rcrisp rcrisp 36-40, F 39 Responses Jun 4, 2007

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    I Was Raped By My Stepdad

    Since i was 10 years old, my step-father has often raped me. the first time i tried to tell my mom about it, she told me that i was lying, that all i was doing was trying to run off another one of her boyfriends, both my parents would often beat us black and blue. When I as...
    firepanda firepanda 22-25, F 13 Responses Aug 14, 2011

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    Okay so I've been on here a while

    and I think I finally feel comfortable sharing my story. I lived with my uncle most of my life, from age 6 to age 17. I never felt comfortable around him. He was very intimidating. When I was 12 he told me he wanted to talk to me. He told me he loved me and I didn't give it a...
    anonymous2396 anonymous2396 18-21, M 8 Responses Jul 10

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    Hi. I'm here to share to my story,

    not to get attention. But to let people out there that have gone through this, and still are, are not alone. Around 2 years ago, I, myself, thought I was in love. Apparently I was wrong, you'll understand. This boy and I had a very strong connection and were very romantic. No...
    lovelygirll2323 lovelygirll2323 13-15, F 1 Response May 31

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    Well if you read my previous post you would know

    that I was raped... Yes that monster is in prison but I'm scared when he gets out he is going to come looking for me... He calls my phone from the prison from time to time and iv never answered... I would change my number but I wanna no if he is still looking so tht way I know...
    xxNicholexx xxNicholexx 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 15

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    I was 13 and was walking home with my

    "boyfriend" we stopped by his house and he asked me to come in. He lead me to his bedroom and said he had to get something. 2 boys walked in, one held me Down and the other started taking off my clothes. I tryed to scream but he had his hand over me mouth. I was a virgin and...
    bluepanda111 bluepanda111 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 24

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    I Remember Too Much - Trigger Warning -

    Sometimes my brother needed to leave for several days at a time, often out wooing club owners on weekends to get them to give him a job, so he got one of his friends to stop over and stay with me. I was offended that he thinks I need a babysitter, but gave up on arguing with him...
    EmptyUnderMyHat EmptyUnderMyHat 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 19, 2013

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    This is a poem I have written about my

    experience of betrayal by someone close to me. I hope it helps someone else trying to come to terms with fighting "The Monster" all of us face when we have experienced rape. The Monster A warm familiar voice A reassuring hug A glad smile And whiskers that brush my face...
    purplemessenger purplemessenger 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 22

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    It's true. Judge me for it,

    I don't care. People don't realize how horrible it is mentally. It changed everything in your life. I couldn't sleep for months, I hope no one ever has to go through it, and if you have, I understand you 100%
    margaret707 margaret707 22-25, F 7 Responses Dec 14, 2013

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    I was 12 when my brother first started raping me

    and he punched me and I was knocked out and he must of drugged me, cause I could feel the pain but not do anything and he was just caught 2 weeks ago and I still haven't slept these 2 weeks
    AAmmyyPPiiee AAmmyyPPiiee 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    If something is “taboo” then everyone knows

    not to talk about it. Someone has to defy that. To be taboo, that defies all odds, and shows everyone that someone can be independent with their words. First amendment. One of the biggest taboo, and have been for the longest, make people cringe at the very thought. They make...
    SamanthaJadeee SamanthaJadeee 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    How Much Was I Worth?

    Some writing from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com trigger warning for child sexual abuse. How much did they pay you daddy? How much was I worth? Was I a good girl, doing the things you had showed me since birth? You told me I was growing and said I was meant to...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 22, 2013

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    Haunted

    When i was 15, i went to the mall with some of my friends, we went into spencers. well you know in there you can barely see anything because they keep it so dark, well i wondered off from everybody and i ran into this guy he was about in his twenties, he was really nice he...
    ANM123 ANM123 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 31, 2012

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    I was raped by my ex best friends older brother.

    He was 23 at the time and I was 13. I'm 17 now and still have nightmares and everything. It feels like this will always haunt me.
    Roadtorecovery31997 Roadtorecovery31997 16-17, F 5 days ago

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